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Palestinian people's rights are being taken away because of Biden and Harris. You're a genocide apologist and you want brown people dead. Go to hell
I am in full support of Palestine. I hate Biden and Harris's pro genocide standings. But Trump is also pro genocide and SO SO much worse- and as much as i hate putting someone like Biden or Harris in office, if trump gets into office he is going to run this country so far into the ground that we wont even be able to speak out against the genocide without risk to our own safety.
It fucking sucks to have to vote for someone that no matter what is greenlighting horrible un-fucking-speakable acts- but with Harris at least Americans will have the continued right to speak out and support Palestinians. It is death and destruction on all fucking sides- but with Kamala there is less we will have to speak out against, and therefore we will be able to focus more on protesting the systematic genocide happening right now.
This is the first time i am of legal age to vote in this country- and I have only shitty options. it is unfair and fucking terrifying. I am just trying to do my best to make a fucking difference.
I'm sorry that it's all so muddy and unfair. Point blank- I hate Biden and Harris too. but I hate trump more. In politics you have to vote for the one you hate the least, because it is impossible to LIKE any politician.
#vote! vote! vote!#please vote#vote blue#vote democrat#trump#biden#harris#i'm terrified for my country#protect trans rights#protect trans lives#protect womens rights#protect women#free palestine#if i had someone better to vote for i would#but I don't#and not voting would be suicide#my life is worth no more than anyone else's#but to support palestine and speak out against the genocide I have to be alive and maintain my right to speak at all#to put maintaining our rights first IS to prioritize Palestine#put your own mask on first before assisting others
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I find it ironic that western leftists demand israelis leave israel because we're all white colonizers in their eyes (regardless of the fact that even if jews really weren't indigenous to the levant, which we are, over half the population is middle eastern anyway), but when we do leave israel for other countries we get hatecrimed. it would be bad enough if we had people telling us "good on you for going back to where you came from" or some shit but no they really just view us as inherently irredeemable and evil no matter where we are. almost feels like they're trying to lure us into being harassed overseas.
#before the war started i was planning to move to canada when i get older#now i'm terrified to fly to any other country for any reason whatsoever#a bit unrelated but i wanna vent that when the starkid innit concert was announced#i was like “omg finally a starkid thing i can go to britain is way closer to israel than the usa”#but then realised i'd have to deal with seeing antisemitic shit all over the place#and knowing my ass i wouldn't be able to lie about where i'm from when asked#leftist antisemitism#antisemitism#israel#jumblr#hila has spoken
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I'm nauseous
#jesus fucking christ#this is really bad#I'm so sorry to american women and poc and queer ppl#but I also am terrified for ukrainians and palestinians and by extension my country too bc hey russia is just about the worst neighbor#your election system is so fucking idiotic I'm sorry some cousinfucker children of the corn have the final say about your reality
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Hum...
I am not american. Nor am a highly political person, and not a political blog (and never will be.)
But this? I'm livid. This is terrifying.
Wtf USA? That's how you end up with a dictator at the wheel soon.
Edit: this is objectively a really bad law, no matter who's the president. No one should be above the law. Also, I'm removing comments as I see them
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#usa#usa news#politics#donald trump#trump#democracy#dictatorship#law#terrifying#if nothing changes#USA is screwed#I hope they'll find a way to revert this#for their own sake#and everyone around#I'm not American#not my country#leagle eagle#youtube#not a political blog#biden administration#joe biden#presidential debate#us presidents#please vote#vote democrat#election 2024#us elections#crime#all crimes are now basically legal for presidents in the US
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Over the next few days as I try to enjoy myself as much as possible, and rid myself of the anguish and horror of my twenties via hard-partying (going to the zoo, making my direct family experience an escape room with me, drinking as many milkshakes as I can physically cope with) - I feel its worth reflecting on some things from the last decade.
-I really didn't know what I was doing when I existed uni, and I still don't know what I'm doing HOWEVER -- I have a much clearer idea of what I'm good at, and what makes me happy.
-I've won multiple awards for miniature painting. Coming from a kid who dreamed of one day owning a cool skink army (and I do but its mostly not assembled BUT DON'T WORRY AB--) that's pretty fucking sick.
-I've tabled at multiple big conventions, and I'll be tabling at an event next year that I've dreamed of tabling at since I was 14. And. AND. Each one was actually profitable.
-My art journey has taken a while, but each year I get better and do more things and although I'm not where I want to be, I've made things with value and meaning and I'll only keep improving if I put the time in. I've done things I could only once dream of doing. I've also hit a point where, things may take a bit, but I genuinely feel like I can tackle almost any subject matter and I'll break through.
-I've met so many incredible people and forged wonderful friendships both online and IRL and I'm thankful for it all. It's hard to know what to do with everyone sometimes when I struggled with friendships for years.
-I was a weirdo baby-alt-fashion 20 year old, had a normie phase somewhere along the way, and now my fashion has returned to where it belongs: straight out of 2010 and I care less and less about what people think and I grow more and more confident in just being myself.
-If I'm being real -- I'm not where I want to be, in a lot of ways. Thing's have been a downward spiral the last few years, but I've been growing in my work and my resilience and by god you cannot kill me in a way that matters.
-My biggest takeaway is really: not everything gets better. But a lot of things do. And you have a lot of power over a lot of things - you just have to be brave and keep kicking. Some things get better, some things get worse, some things stay mostly the same. But you keep growing. You keep changing. You gotta persist. You gotta.
#going to go watch some dumb videos now before I pass out#to the terrified younger me that fumbled around#that took risks#that kept dreaming#look at me now#I'm a fucking mess! Sure.#But I'm still dreaming#and I'm still going.#and I owe it to the girl that moved across the country for the dream#to keep fucking chasing it#it has genuinely just been all fucking downhill since 2022 for real#2022 was the big warning sign#2023 was horrendous#2024 was fucking worse!#I need a year where I catch a fucking break big time#like for the job market to not be ass#or for my art biz to take off#or for me to miraculously receive a large sum of money so I can: buy a shitty ass house in fuck ass nowhere#because at this rate I'll never afford shit in Melbourne#honestly I'll take “increased energy and motivation” levels over the purgatory I've had this spring season#I just need something.#WHO SAID THAT#did you guys hear something#shy talks#not art#shy fucking VENTS
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pardy nation, namely you guys up in america. you guys need to keep fucking living. you have to. i dont care how terrible shit is you need to fucking live. don't fucking die. please.
don't let those fuckers get the satisfaction they want.
#putting this on the sovblog as i want this to reach as many people as it can#i don't even live in fucking america however the fact i am scared over shit that isnt in my own fucking country says so fucking much#i know shit is fucking scary but i must stress again **you must not let those evil pieces of shits get the satisfaction they want**#fuck donald trump and fuck everybody who voted for him#im sorry if this is worded shittily i'm legit terrified for y'all#ᯓ★ p@rrdy ponderrs ✮⋆.˚
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Jesus fucking tap-dancing Christ
#us politics#otaku rambles#text post#as an aro-ace woman I'm fucking terrified#the urge™️ to leave the goddamn country grows with every passing second#but i fucking can't bc we're poor a shit#*as#i also write/draw gay shit so yippee#pleasepleaseplease pull a win out of your ass Harris#my anxiety can't handle this y'all
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every so often i will see a post from a leftist on this website that is so egregiously ableist that i remember that like. oh yeah the userbase of leftists on this website is violently anti-disabled people and will jump at any chance to demonize any of us for any reason. i just forget that fact because i'm extremely dedicated to curating my space
i'm paraphrasing here but i saw a post that said, "every time i see an American [disabled person] mention being scared about the election because they're afraid of losing their benefits i have to laugh. anybody who wants blood-soaked money from the US government deserves to starve" which. like. goodness that's a lot to unpack. i think we should burn the whole suitcase instead !
#i inserted [disabled person] because they used a fucking slur instead and i didn't want that in my post#like i feel like there should be room for disabled people like me whose lives literally entirely depend on accessing said >#> extremely limited benefits in conversations about whether voting in this election makes you complicit in genocide#which like! i do understand. i do. it's nauseating to think about what this shit ass country is doing. it's horrific. i do not blame anyone#> for not wanting to be a part of that. *and* i am also terrified for my own life because i remember the first time trump won it suddenly >#> became IMPOSSIBLE for ANYONE to get on benefits. EVER. and so many disabled ppl i know went to renew benefits theyd had for decades >#> just to be denied. one of whom was a below-the-neck paraplegic. he died because he lost those benefits!!! because trump won#i really do understand why people dont feel right voting for harris. or why they don't vote at all. i truly do. but holy shit i am so scare#and yes! i am aware that people in palestine and gaza are suffering so much worse. and i wish i could change that#but every single person in power in the US is pro-israel and eagerly drinking the anti-palestine kool-aid. no matter who wins >#> things will not change in that part of the world. and it is infuriating. when the revolution comes this will change. but it hasnt.#the revolution will not save me as a physically disabled person. it will not save any of us. we do not matter to leftists. i am sorry but >#> this is the one thing i have learned after being in leftist spaces for over 10 years. and posts like the one i mentioned prove it#so i am very sorry. i really am. for being physically disabled. but i cannot survive another 4 years relying on my parents for everything#if trump wins i will be killing myself. this is a promise. i cannot do that again#i know it makes me a bad person to be afraid that harris will lose. but people on the left already think i'm a bad person for being disable#i want the genocide to stop. i absolutely do. i also want to survive. i am terrified that the US leftists will sacrifice disabled people#like me so they can feel good about being put in a real life trolley situation#again. im sorry. im so fucking sorry. i wish i was a better person. i wish i was able to give more. i know that if i was just a good#person i would be able to have a job and give to every palestinian gofundme on my dash. i would be able to do more than my daily clicks >#> and reaching out and calling representatives that don't care. if i was a good person i would be able to convince my parents that z*onism>#is deeply fucking racist. and that israel is wildly racist and killing palestinians for fun. if i was a good person i would be able to make#>them leftists too. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry im not good enough. im sorry that im scared. im so scared and it's not right for me to be#when so much worse is going on because of this countrys bloodlust. im sorry that im benefiting from being born here i dont want to be#im sorry for not having any other options. if i was a good person i know i would have them. im sorry. god im sorry im so fucking sorry
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Literally have not slept at all and it's 7am starting to think it's time to just give up and get out of bed. If you see someone looking completely haggard at tit that's me
#it's not anxiety about what dnp are scheming dsfgjk it's like. travel and social anxiety#im terrified I'm gonna sleep through my alarms and miss my train. or that i somehow didn't book the tickets correctly or whatever#i am starting to think i have a real phobia of traveling bc this is the 2nd time recently that I've been completely unable to sleep#before traveling out of the country dsddghjklll#and I'm really scared to meet and talk to people at tit if I'm being honest. i really wanna trade bracelets and say hi to mutuals#but i might just ghost everyone and be completely silent dsdfghjkllkjgfds
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#hhhhh I'll probably delete this later but if i don't physically put these thoughts somewhere I'll maybe explode.#but fuck man. shit sucks fr! I highkey think I can't go to work tomorrow but yknow how it goes!!!!#I'm caught somewhere between finally being taken seriously about my health issues#and having the most wretched mental health crisis#like on one hand fantastic! I'm being taken seriously now its gotten to the point where I cant fucking walk normally#but on the other hand oh my god holy shit. i had to get this bad???? and I'm worried. i know theres shit so much bigger than me rn going on#but I'm worried about my health. especially when I've been trying to deal with it for the better part of like.... 5 years#since i was 19!!!!#I'm 24 and worrying about whether or not I'll actually walk about with 0 pain ever again isn't that fucked.#so that's bittersweet. ive got physio tomorrow. blood tests next week#an ultrasound coming up#its ultimately a good thing im being taken seriously. if not a terrifying acceptance that everything ive been feeling has been real and#well. bad.#and like with this right is the crash of my mental health. just a fuckin nosedive man.#i have a relatively stressful job i felt out of my depth about and thus guilty for but now its a role that I've approached in constant pain#for the last few months.#i can't deal with that actually! lots of stress! lots of pain! lots of mental pain over my physical condition! my job grinding my soul!#aaaaa!!!!!!!#like i dont WANT to be unemployed either#I'd much rather be uhhhh employed! and able to save money towards actually getting Help™#but I've got to admit that i hurt too much. and its consuming my whole fucking brain.#but I'll go on#ive got my first trip out the country solo next week!! im heading to san Fransisco!!! im excited.#but I'm worried for the inevitable moment where my pains catch up with me#ill surpress it while I'm out there. try and remind myself to have a good time. return to the uk and feel a weeks worth of pain#and even THAT sucks to consider#but i should stop#rambles
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I was turning 13 and begged my friends to not talk about the election because I didn't want to think about turning 13 with Trump as president. I am now turning 21 tomorrow and I can't believe Donald Trump is going to be president again.
#like i genuinely can not comprehend it. i feel barren and lost. what am i supposed to do.#what are my best friends and everyone else in this country supposed to do. i'm terrified#kore.talks#sorry guys
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in italy headlines are being made by the case of a 25-year-old italian guy who's attending university in miami, who got arrested for flimsy reasons outside of a nightclub, hogtied (which is not illegal in florida), almost choked in the same way as george floyd, and tortured to the point he's suffering physical damage in addition to severe ptsd. his mother, who reached him in the usa, says he's attempted suicide four times. the videos of his treatment by the police have reached his lawyer and apparently prove the statements made by the police completely wrong (to the surprise of exactly no one).
reason number seven million i'm never setting foot in the united states ever!! especially not florida!! de santis just signed a law that protects police even more!! the fuck!!
#police brutality cw#suicide attempt mention#torture cw#i'm not saying this guy is special just because he's italian but i've been reading about it on italian news media which hits harder#like i'll read about a gazillion usa horrors on anglophone media all the time but it hits differently when my country gets involved directl#and it's fucking terrifying. if it happened to some perfectly normal italian student living in the us it could happen to me#i have an accent i am gnc i am neurodivergent i struggle with auditory processing#say i can't process something police says to me and they arrest and torture me because of it?#no thank you
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it is Insane how just in one night. the streets are covered in snow and the wind can be so strong at times that it is capable of pushing me to the ground
#the wind scares me a Bit because when i'm at home the strong wind makes it-#— sound like my window is mere moments away from breaking. Which is a Terrifying thought#yomoposting#this is what happens when you live in the north part of a country. It is winter in just november.
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I think a fun activity for Thanksgiving this year, with the way the vote count is going, would be to cancel the whole dinner altogether and I order a pizza and drink a whole bottle of wine and huck my phone off the roof
#I am more scared now than I was in 2016 by far cause I mean..... the senate is gonna go repub. it's gonna be a shit show y'all#I don't wanna sugarcoat how uhhhh fucked up I kinda feel things are gonna get real soon#like. I grew up in a solidly right wing limbaugh fox news hannity worshiping home. they have always been out for blood.#so like lmao. I'm really worried. and very angry. and terrified. like. will I be able to get all my meds next year?#maybe not! how cool will that be!#will I have my job next year? maybe not! awesome!#and that's like first world basic white bitch problems compared to the fears of immigrants and trans ppl in this country rn#so like. I keep trying to play video games. and I just end up crying. I should probably start drinking.#erin explains it all
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Are you fucking kidding me. How are this many people voting for that orange fucker. I'm going to fly into the fucking sun.
#u.s politics#Jesus fucking christ this country will not last without divine intervention#u.s election#we also didnt flip tbe senate or house so#i guess the constitution doesnt fucking matter anymore#HE DID A FUCKING COUP#HE DID A FUCKING COUP AMONG ALL OTHER THINGS I'M FUCKING TERRIFIED#fuck this country#fuck this nation#jesus christ#I'm so sorry rest of rhe world#im sorry my country sucks so fucking bad
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just now, someone broke into my very next door (our buildings are connected) neighbor's place as they were away on a trip. they noticed over security cam livestream footage and contacted everyone. a bunch of cops with rifles and shotguns then showed up right in front of my bedroom window, broke into their house, and took away this singular unarmed woman who had snuck in and was hiding inside of their trailer in the garage.
the sergeant told my mom not to worry because they took several items (like a fire extinguisher) from my neighbor's place and were going to straight up lie about why she was being brought up to the precinct by saying that she was stealing/using said items so they can detain her for longer.
i'm feeling a lot of things right now
#of course everything that i just told you sounds deeply infuriating but i need you to understand that i am a very paranoid person#due to a history of having my house broken into before which has severely affected every waking moment of my life living in society#and the fear i'm feeling right now combined with this sense of hopelessness from every angle is too much right now#i just want to move. i want out. i need to move to a place where this isn't common.#i'm not only afraid of someone breaking into my place at any given time. i am also afraid of the deeply corrupt justice system#that would just tell that to my mom's face like yeah! this is a good thing that we do !#and not the most disturbing thing you've ever heard in your life.#while i am terrified for my life every moment that i spend living here. i can also see the skinny young woman surrounded by guns#being taken with her head down right in front of my window.#while unlikely. she could have just been seeking shelter or food for all we know. one look at her tells you that she's probably dirt poor.#and thinking about the way that cop just said they were going to treat her by just Lying. is the most disgusting thing i've ever heard.#i don't want to live here anymore.#i don't want to live in a neighborhood where it's a constant tug and pull between the marginalized and the corrupt#where My House is the stage. somehow.#i just want the fuck out of the country altogether. straight up.
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