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My family knows my swf twitter and my uncle follows me there just to vent in dms to me about family stuff, but I do retweet posts that are about anti censorship and swf fandom things. (no, my family doesnt give a fuck about fandom lol)
But there were these antis trying to bully me and my two other friends on twitter by tagging us and telling us is fictional kids are the same as real kids and you if you draw or write them sexualize or dead, you are a bad person, you should be in jail. I replied, but got then got told to kill myself (how original), so I ignored it.
Then my uncle suddenly shows up in the thread replying with some gif from a horror comedy movie where zombie soldiers stomp on a kid to death into mush. And then the thread got over 200 replies of anger from antis.
LOL. I'm not sure if my uncle is actually proship or agrees with them, but that was funny.
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#LMAOOOO#i love ur uncle#he reminds me of my late uncle#uncle win#op is a proshipper#proshipper safe#proshippers are valid#proshippers please interact#proship positivity#proship#proship safe#proshipper#proshippers#profic#lgbtq#lgbt#proship 🍖🌈#🍖🌈#🌸🌙#🍋🌈#proship confessions blog#antis dni#fandom#rq safe#rqc🌈🍓#pro rq 🌈🍓#rq 🌈🍓#rq community#transid#radq interact
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One thing the Dragon Age fandom has always been really terrible at is the concept of nuance, or 'multiple things can be true at the same time'. The whole Lucanis situation is making that very clear.
Here's the deal. I love that Lucanis has been identified as demisexual panromantic. I love that it's been clarified that he's a virgin. This is genuinely cool and as someone who falls somewhere in that demi area it's great to see.
However, it can ALSO be true that there was significant content missing from his overall romance that made this feel incredibly unsatisfying. For me, what would have made ALL the difference is even just one conversation with Rook after that "almost kiss" scene where he kind of explains his situation. And I absolutely do not mean "Hello Rook I am demisexual panromantic, here's exactly what that means in super clinical and awkwardly modern terms". I mean something like (and this would clearly be written in a more nuanced way, I'm just talking about concepts here) "That person who you saw flirting with you wasn't the real me. I was imitating Illario/I was using Crow training techniques, and I don't want to be dishonest with you. I like to take things slow and get to know someone, and I feel like I'm really falling for you but I don't want to rush things, especially physically. I don't have a lot of experience with that and I need you to be patient."
GREAT. Perfect. It explains to the PC that Lucanis does have feelings for you that are reciprocated but he wants to take things slow. That's literally all we needed. And no, one or two lines in missable banter doesn't count as him revealing this. This needed to be a proper cutscene WITH Rook.
And, this is coming from someone whose first Bioware romance ever was Josephine. I hold such a special place in my heart for her and while I don't know if it was ever confirmed she was demi/ace, there was no ~spicy sex scene and there didn't need to be because the other content was there! I was going to fight a duel for that woman for gods sake!!
#i'm not tagging this i'm just venting lol#seeing so many people bending over backwards to defend mary is bizarre to me as well#she's a human being just like any other person and people can make mistakes#maybe getting a writer who isn't into romance to write a romanceable character wasn't the best choice#just because she wrote great stuff in the past doesn't mean everything she does is going to be perfect#ugh maybe i need to stay out of the tags for a while#they're making me salty and i hate being salty#tbptalks
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on loneliness jenny slate / japanese breakfast, posing for cars / corinne von lebusa, big glow / dadushin / alejandra pizarnik, tr. me / fka twings, home with you / avocado_ibuprofen / fiona apple, left alone / anne carson, “the anthropology of water”, plainwater / kiki smith, free fall / alejandra pizarnik, diaries
#hi my post#oooooohhh this is just a compilation of my own feelings lately#i know i have a red de apoyo i know i have my dearest friends but it's so hard to not feel alone when we're so far away#idk i just miss school and having someone to talk to everyday i'm not a text gal i need to hear your voice i need to see you i need someone#to caress my hair i need contact i need closeness i need to know somebody hears me#it's not all bad i do love my solitude but i just .... i just think in a room full of people nobody would choose me#lol i'm gonna stop now i just always use my tags as a venting space xd#also yes i had the audacity to translate alejandra pizarnik but i just couldn't find that bit already translated and i really wanted it her#web weaving#on loneliness#loneliness tag#being alone#jenny slate#japanese breakfast#posing for cars#corinne von lebusa#dadu shin#alejandra pizarnik#fka twigs#home with you#fiona apple#left alone#anne carson#plainwater#kiki smith#parallels#poetry#prose#words#lyrics
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realized a drawing i'm doing rn is almost identically posed to one i did 8.5 years ago of a different oc, except the old drawing was instantly tainted by one of the players featured messaging me asking if i could take it down because their abusive, possessive rp partner saw it and got jealous of them "roleplaying behind their back" and i said "nah" and it became a whole Thing that i should have walked away from at that exact moment but didn't and the 6 months that followed contained some of the most truly condensed batshit i have ever witnessed in an rp community already well-known for its batshittery.
... anyway i love my friends. so happy to accidentally redeem the pose.
#idk if ill ever open up completely about that shitshow but#i think 8 years is past the statute of limitations to vaguepost about it#late tag addition but man now i'm thinking about it all at 4am#how did in the good goddamn did i witness that and still not only let them make me an officer#but also let them put me functionally in charge of their guild IC#while those two fucked off and erped in instanced zones or played overwatch#and i and my then-rp-partner took the heat for the meandering plotline#until my partner vented to the wrong person about the abuse#and it got back to them#and we got to experience the surreality of an honest to god guild coup#all to salvage the image of some egomaniac abuser#certified fucking wra moment#its been 8 years and thinking about how i was treated in the end makes me feel sick lol#they made a new guild discord and invited everyone but us#and when i noticed the channel had gone quiet i asked what was up#and was met with gaslighting about how i'm 'thinking too much' about the channel being a 'little slow'#and it took pushing to get an early admission of what was about to happen#so we logged on and quit ourselves#which fucked up the narrative they had constructed#and they lied in the new channel that WE were the ones doing a 'coup' and that we stole the members who left with us#i guess i am opening up after all#i had to play the fucking villain of that scenario for the past 8 years#all to protect the mental health of people who hurt me#why#if you were there and know what i'm referencing with all of this... there's the fucking story#the person in question is a massively popular artist#i just dont have it in me to fight that fight
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We need tags for platonic relationships between characters, so we can have tags for anti platonic relationships, so I can block them. Most of the time it's not even because I hate seeing posts arguing why characters wouldn't get along (though sometimes it does happen that the argumentation pisses me off), most of the time it's like "well, I agree that they wouldn't get along, but also I get sad if I think about it. Yeah their narratives mirror eachother in such a way that they're better off as foes but have you considered that I want them to get along? I should be allowed to make an informed decision before clicking on a post that is gonna make me sad about fictional characters for the rest of the day.
#to be clear this is light-hearted#i don't actually want to police everyone's tags and stuff#it's just sometimes just because you're correct doesn't mean i'm ready to hear it lol#vent post#i guess
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i want to delete my twitter account so fucking bad
#i grew my following off of anime stuff and now i'm into completely different stuff and i feel like posting about it -#will alienate my audience way too much#(if you wanna know - these days i hardly even watch one anime a year)#i wanna post about the fuckin saw movies and postal and weird video games and metalocalypse and music i like#and i want to post about my ocs without it feeling like i'm speaking gibberish to a crowd#but none of my followrs GIVE A FUCK#also i find it impossible to make friends on twt 😭😭😭😭 i have like 5 mutuals i'd consider friends#but alas i have too many industry pro followrs to just deactivate#and 40k followers is invaluable as someone whose only form of income rn is comms#tumblr has similar problems but at least i can talk about my ocs properly cuz of tagging#i don't like how monetized my account has become it feels so fucking disingenuous#it's just retweet retweet retweet post art retweet retweet#if twitter went under it'd be a blessing in disguise for me#oh well. suffering from success i guess#maybe one day i'll move accounts and KILL STARRYSHARKS ONCE AND FOR ALL#this is all 13 yr old me's fault#sorry for ranting/venting ig??? on main lol
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closing time
#you know situation's dire when sparks breaks out the color block sona vent art LOOOOOOOL#sparks speaks#vent#again to all my new-ish followers i do post stuff like this from time 2 time PLEASE block one of those tags if you don't want to see it#long post#edit: fine to rb idgas#ummm NEway. i go back to college in like a month and the thought of it makes me want to curl up and die. idk if i can do it again tbh lol#i dont know how i survived the first time#<- LYING he does. and it was by letting the dissociation he is currently bitching about swallow him completely#if i really committed and tried i could probably claw my way out of this. but there's really no point when i'll just fall back into it soon#the forgetting my entire life does suck though. it does suck.#its really cool learning you've lost the only thing you thought you couldn't lose.#anyways. i'm fine im chillin i just. needed to get this out#if youre reading this preciate you. drink water
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Already seen victim blaming on xitter 👍 Lets not do that and lets leave the hermits alone. Make up your own minds on if you should support Iskall. But I feel like if one of his VH team members leaving for differing morals, the hermits going back 6 plus years to remove him from thumbnails and titles, and removing him from the site and merch should be enough Doc even said they can't talk about it which could mean anything, including something legal. Mumbo said there were no minors invovled but doesn't mean others weren't since there ARE victims Just leave the hermits be, and let the victims decide if they want to come out. And stop victim blaming lmao
#hermitcraft#drama#tagging it that tho its not drama and serious#Let the hermits have time to get through this too#as someone who has something like this happen and wasn't given that its not fun just leave them be#never got how that was so hard to do#sit back and wait but if they can't or won't talk about it accept that#I'm not going to talk about this#there is basically nothing out about it only things I've seen#you decide what you want to do#guess those people who wanted him out got what they wanted lol#I don't like people thinking it might be less of an issue cause stress left too jsut makes me hmm more#but not my monkies not my circus#Just needed a little venty vent cause I'm already seeing the same thing I went through and what I seen in the wc fandom happening#like stop demanding the hermits share#also stop saying but his mental health#mine is in a ditch on the side of the road and my friends have terrible mental health too and none of us ever acted out#🤷#dunno might delete this later#you can be upset just don't make it about YOU yknow
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Tonight was wild, I accidentally took the wrong bus and had to wait 20 minutes in the cold for the right one and then there was a problem with the booze vouchers I prepaid and I had to fight hard for them only the realize that the only beer available was lukewarm corona, it was a lot
#me#selfie#the guys at the voucher table were sooooooo annoyed with me especially the one who actively handled my issue#and i was just like darling you're gonna give me my 12$ worth of vouchers or i'm gonna fraud my card and let my bank deal with it#they didn't like me saying that but like...it's true#well guess what i complained and whined enough and some other guy dressed like the frankestein's creature came and gave me my vouchers#never be mean and rude to random employees but also never be afraid to be a 'karen' it's a capitalist myth to make you accept trash anyway#this said fighting *this* hard for some corona..bruh...#also fun fact i litterally bought those vouchers so i wouldn't waste any time at the party...ha...ha..ha...#the actual party was still a lot of fun tho!#i'm gonna post pics and write long ass tags about it in the next post i just had to vent first lol#also chronologically the mess happened first so yeah
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It's crazy to me that my doctors often criticize me for having "medical anxiety" but i never really had medical anxiety (to this extent at least) before I moved here and started seeing the doctors at this practice, where upon learning that I have a mental illness that has psychosis elements, would literally NEVER miss a chance to try to convince me that ALL my physical health issues are just a figment of my imagination, psychosis, or my apparent desire for attention ... (and like, not to mention they would oftentimes refuse to test or treat me unless i first "lost a bunch of weight"). My PCP once tried to convince me i must not be taking my mental health meds and that's why i "thought" i was having these health concerns... and like, belittling me to the point where I was told, point blank, to my face: "I'm not testing you for lyme Disease because it would be a waste of resources and you cannot possibly have it" (his exact words), despite my growing up and living in NEW ENGLAND, as well as one of the lyme disease capitols of the world, my dad being a deer hunter and having lyme disease himself, also having a bunch of symptoms that maybe could be other things too but were definitely in-line with lyme disease, but yeah, because I have a mental health disorder I must be just looking for attention 🙄 Now I avoid going to the doctor and when I do, I just downplay all my health concerns, even tho some are pretty serious and have a very negative impact on my day to day life.
Oh, the irony of being belittled by doctors for having "medical anxiety" when they were the ones who gave me medical anxiety in the first place lol
#funky's personal tag#delete later#sorry just venting lol#I need to go to dr to get some stuff checked out but i'm STRESSING#because I'm so used to these doctors literally trying to convince me i'm 'crazy' lol#anyway. I think it's high time i switch to another practice...#I just hate that whole process lol#also: All the medical practices in my local area talk to each other#so I'm scared nothing will really change even if I DO change practices -.-#anywayyyyyyy such is life#anyway. sorry for getting personal on the tolkien blog lol#just venting to the void
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when I want to write something self indulgent to give me all the angsty and cuddly hurt/comfort feels but I can't because I end up feeling guilty because I'm seeking after feels that I feel in an inappropriate place because my mom told me one time when I was 15 that I shouldn't search that out or it's probably sexual sin but it confuses me because ALL the feels happen that way for me even if it's entirely platonic and nonsexual and so I don't know if it's okay to want to write to that because apparently all pleasure of any sort, even over platonic stories, is sexual or comes with a possibly probably sexual feeling and I also am having a hard time figuring out what's genuine conviction from God and what's just my anxiety/OCD/perfectionism/fear of failure
#like I feel like it's conviction. but also when I analyze it... I'm not doing anything sexual??? the stories I'm writing are#ENTIRELY platonic#it's like. found family feels.#but then why do I feel so guilty/convicted over it and feel better/less guilty when I stop writing anything feelsy#like... I guess I'm only allowed to write plot and can't ever write hugs and hurt/comfort anymore#my mom keeps saying I should journal all this instead of venting it at everybody and honestly maybe she's right#idk how to handle this but also I feel like if I just find a holding pattern where I can strike a healthy balance of lile#like* what is correct and healthy for me to enjoy#then the anxiety over it might pass? I don't want to avoid conviction though but like. why am I convicted over#writing a story where someone who's been treated like a monster finds a family who loves them#like.. is it because I'm seeking out whatever that feeling in my lower belly/groin is????#but that's like... so tied up in enjoyment and hurt/comfort to me that idk if I'm ACTUALLY looking for that#or if this is just what I write#and idk if that even is sinful in any way at all!!!#and why can't I just get over this? like I keep going in circles with it and it's so frustrating#idk this is totally tmi I just got hit with this awful feeling after work today and the only thing I can pinpoint it to#is this specific thing I've been writing. but even though yeah I've been getting feelsy with it... it's PLATONIC#ENTIRELY COMPLETELY NONSEXUAL. so like... is it that pleasure feeling that's the thing I'm being convicted over??#probably. bc that's the only thing that eases the feeling of conviction/anxiety/guilt#and also probably no one is reading all these tags lol sorry guys I'll go away now
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I’m a trans man that recently got diagnosed with hyper mobile eds, so now seeing Steve makes me extra happy, because cool disabled ftm rep. Thanks for making the radical dude bro, he’s funky.
same disability (waving hand emoji)
Always extremely fulfilling to know my work makes people happy in some small way, it means a lot. Thank you for sharing with me
#I dont talk about having eds cause its not specifically really relevant to my work#been diagnosed with it since 17. woag 10 years next april...#anyways. yeah idk I like the blog to be about my art and I'm used to people asking me a LOT of questions about EDS or disability or canes#just a lot of stuff unrelated to my art. I'm happy to talk about it but I don't want it to be the focus of my blog!#So I've p much chosen to mostly just. not talk about it. even though I'm literally fine talking about it#it's just rarely relevant and no one needs to know LOL#but. I also know that EDS can feel very lonely#and that it's really nice to know other people out there have it#so. hi anon you're not alone#also just in case. literally don't feel bad about anything in the tags here LOL#mostly just like 'please people do not start sending me asks about whether or not you should go to the doctor'#or asks about ableist family members#or venting about pain...#just a lot of invasive and boundary crossing asks the more I talk about it hahahah#but I don't mind sharing at all.#sorry I think I lost the plot on this one#good luck on your journey. starting to accomodate yourself does wonders#and really just extremely happy my work could reach you in this way#sending you love#asks#anon
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the sexual tension between me and relapse
#venting in the tags so be careful#being bipolar and bpd at the same time feels like the worst nightmare#the slightest inconvenience will send me into a fucking spiral#people have always been telling me either to “cheer up” or “go to a mental hospital because I'm fucked in the head”#i perfectly know I'm incapable and unworthy of love#I'm starting to doubt if I'm able to love the right way at all#but I'm so sick of toxic positivity#not everything's going to be alright#sometimes bad things happen#and not everyone is supposed to be cheerful and grateful all the fucking time#it's just so tiring and exhausting#they really dont realize how much toxic positivity is damaging and so naive#tw depressing thoughts#idk how to tag this lol#rambles#actually bpd#bpd vent
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i get the criticism people have for how veilguard handles the crows but also i don't think it's unrealistic for an organisation to change over the course of over two decades, more than one near-world-ending event and a number of deaths among the leadership, as well as an ongoing hostile occupation of a city that is quite important to said organisation, like. yeah. the crows of 9:52 probably aren't going to be the same as the crows of 9:30
#anyways whatever i'm not surprised people aren't paying attention lmao#not tagging. this is just personal venting lol
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current editing moodboard, please send help
#perfectionism is really kicking my butt rn#that and the fact i had like a week away from writing properly bc chronic pain and now i can’t get back into the headspace#so yeah#perfectionism and brain fog#the inimitable duo#and i know i just need to be patient because it’ll get in the end there like it always does#but rn i’ve spent two nights in a row trying to polish up the last bits of this chapter#and i still just feel so detached from it all i want to pitch my laptop out the window#but i can’t afford a new laptop each time i want to defenestrate it#so this little rant will have to do instead#UGH#it’s so annoying because i am actually so so proud of this chapter and have loved writing it and can’t wait to share it#it’s just this last little bit that i seem to be hitting a brick wall with#anyway sorry#four walls readers don't worry i go through this just about every chapter lol#i'm just feeling it particularly this time because it's a particularly big chapter (both in terms of length and content)#and sometimes venting in the tags and creating an alex moodboard is very therapeutic#writing stuff#alex turner#writer's block#lulu posts
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asthma is just a state of mind
#shitpost#I should go take my inhalers#nah#I'm blind fat and asthmatic#gyms wont take me because I'm a disabled minor and even if I do get in my asthma makes me have to stop because I cant breathe#if I work out more than 10 minutes fuuuuuck#what did I do to piss off god before I was born like damn#and I literally have a gene that's connected to my blondness that makes me always hungry so I have to be on weight loss drugs just to eat a#normal amount of food like fucking hell I make myself throw up a lot of the time because i hate being fat and body image issues suck#this turned into a vent in the tags lol
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