#this turned into a vent in the tags lol

[my-mom-named-me-duck]

asthma is just a state of mind

[reminiscentrainclouds]

Daily yttd art day 13. I didn't have much access to my computer again today so I drew something in my phone notes app instead.

[ef-1]

[saltynsassy31]

I wanna be a writer so badly

I want to write my own book. I don't wanna be the next award winning author either, I just want it to be enough to make a living out of and share my stories. And I've gotten high amounts of praise so far, which is what encouraged me to pursue writing in the first place.

But I was looking up about editors and I've never felt more inadequate as a writer before. Especially one specific article.

I was already so self conscious about my grammar, and despite the sentiment of "you can write bad but a good story will sell better than a good written story with no plot". The way that article talked about some stuff made me so scared snd worried and honestly crushed in a way.

Idk, any veteran writers out there have any tips? Encouraging words? Something? Maybe like, your experience as a writer or something of the sort.

I really need some uplifting. I want to write regardless, I don't think this will stop me from writing. But it was really discouraging 😭😭😭

[wikiangela]

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[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

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[doodlingwren]

It's 2024 can we please stop saying it's normal to trace or copying an entire drawing and pretending it's 100% your work? Just bc you changed the character or added clothes on a base you found on pinterest it doesn't mean you created original art

Edit: literally posted this and 5 minutes after it got deleted randomly then reappeared without doing anything WHAT THE HECK

[feral-ass-raccoon]

welp. that answers that.

[mortellanarts]

2023 go bye bye

[pup-pee]

my father telling me how scared he was when i ran away from the house but i cant express how scared i was 2 b in the house

hey, whats up w/that?

[dandyshucks]

okay "juno is complaining for fun" warning ⚠️

anyways i saw someone draw Guz with like. thick muscley body. and then they said "if pk.mn was realistic everyone would be in love w this guy bc he's actually hot" AND IM FBDJDJDKL . dear stranger ... i think you've forgotten his canonical appearance bc ur wearing ur bara glasses. that guy is scrawny in both the manga and the anime. he looks weird and off-putting in the manga and he looks grouchy in the anime. u have chosen to give him a thick muscled bod, a design that is widely considered to be peak attractiveness for men. u can do whatever u want in ur own personal designs and headcanons but pls remember they are not actually canon fjdkdl, I love my own Guz design but i am not gonna say shit abt canon bc I've strayed so far from it at this point LMAO

idk just smth about taking away all the interesting features of a character's design to replace them w the most boring bland bs and then saying "ermm yeah guys this dude is hot actually, idk why no one else sees it" is so funny to me DBDJDKSL

[shirogane-oushirou]

[cw vent: chronic illness, general world politics mention w no detail)

"man. i'm so tired. i feel like i can't do anything selfship related. is it because my energy's been sapped from family visiting and everyone wanting to do ~summer activities~ nonstop? am i so in my head about "getting ren's story right without stepping over any lines" that i've backed myself into a perfectionist corner? is the world just going to shit so hard that i can't have one (1) minute of escape on this blog before going back to working through the political hellscape we're in? god even trying to make this plushie pattern is killing me even though i want to hold my guy So Badly AUGH."

/finishes the plushie pattern after trying multiple body bases and literally buying a japanese ebook about plushie face and hair design/

"actually what if i lived forever and spent all of that time making an army of these fuckers to swim in? what then?"

[sunflower-chai]

so. i watched shubble’s vod. i just feel so so sorry that she had to go through that but i’m glad she’s in a place now where she felt comfortable sharing her story. i truly believe it’s going to help so many people. there were parts of her story i could relate to and it was incredibly validating to hear that some of the things i went through were not okay. it’s been 4 years and i feel like over time i’ve tried to downplay exactly what happened. i’ve also blocked a lot of it out of my memory and genuinely can’t recall a lot of specific instances. but just hearing her put her experiences into words was so healing for me. i hope she feels all the love from her friends and fans and continues to heal and thrive. and i don’t know how likely this is, but i hope the person who hurt her never has the opportunity to hurt anyone ever again.

gonna vent a little below the cut:

thankfully i was never physically abused, but i was in an emotionally manipulative/borderline abusive relationship for about two months. thankfully my friends are incredible and helped me to see the red flags quickly so it didn’t last longer or progress more. but when shubble started talking about how this guy would say she was remembering things wrong and tell her she’s overreacting or being dramatic, that really hit close to home for me. because whenever my ex would do things that upset me and i called him out on it, he would say it wasn’t a big deal and i just didn’t know how relationships worked because i had never been in one before (at the time i was freshly 20 and he was 25).

also when shubble said she had to help this guy clean his house/do chores, and maybe he had never learned so she felt bad for him, i just flashed back to my ex telling me all of his childhood trauma, making me feel bad for him and like i couldn’t leave and break his heart. he admitted one of the reasons he started dating me was because he liked my family and wanted a replacement for his dysfunctional one. idk it’s a loose connection, but it’s interesting how abusers will make you feel sorry for them and sort of trap you in the relationship.

also the bit about the safe word. i laid out my physical boundaries very early on and he promised not to cross them and then he did multiple times. he would weaponize this. whenever i upset him by not texting him back immediately or had to reschedule a date because i was a busy college student, he would tell me i could make it better by offering physical affection. and i would do it bc he made me feel like i had done something awful when in reality no sane person would react like he had.

the part that made me really sick to my stomach was when shubble talked about how this guy pinned her down and told her to try to push him off and she couldn’t. and then he said she wouldn’t stand a chance against him in a fight. that is so unbelievably messed up. and all i could think of was the time i was at my ex’s apartment watching a movie and i fell asleep on his shoulder. and when i woke up he said “i can’t believe you fell asleep. i could have done anything to you and you wouldn’t have known.” if a romantic partner is thinking about and telling you these things RUN VERY FAST IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION. to this day i’m still so glad i didn’t date him for a longer amount of time, who knows what might’ve happened.

okay last thing. the part about shubble’s ex insisting that he loves her more than she does. it just brought me back to when i broke up with my ex and he insisted that no one would ever love me as much as him. there were no guys out there who were as good as him. and for the longest time i believed this. i internalized that i was unlovable, that i would never find a guy who would treat me right, that all men were terrible. and i was scared of dating for years after this because i didn’t want to go through all the anxiety and waking on eggshells and screaming my anger into pillows again. but over time i’ve been able to heal, thanks to family, friends, and my relationship with God. i’ve opened my heart up to the possibility of romance again. i haven’t dated anyone since i ended things with my ex, but i’m open to the idea. but i will not settle for anything less than what i deserve. shubble’s story has definitely contributed to my resolve.

okay that’s all. if you’ve read this far thank you for letting me get this off my chest. i love you and take care of yourselves ❤️

[seaofreverie]

Wanted to start working on projects for my part-time school this weekend but instead all I have the energy to do is lay in bed and play mario kart or lay in bed and listen to music

[theflyingfeeling]

it's the weekend, what do you mean I'm not going to a BC concert? 😭

[bluehairperson]

I don’t want to start drama but I’ve seen some concerning posts floating around about how distasteful and disappointing it is to see certain creators “support” Dorian and I hate to break it to you guys, but if you’ve ever interacted, shared or created anything regarding The Arcana you are supporting Dorian yourselves.

Being in the fandom alone is supporting Dorian by creating engagement, publicizing the game and being part of the audience they’re trying to target.

And even if you were to delete your whole blog and everything you’ve ever posted to enjoy the original game in private you would still be supporting Dorian by bringing traffic to the app they now own.

The one and only way you have to stop supporting Dorian, if you care about it so much, would be to distance yourself from the series entirely and go join another fandom. Never play the original game ever again and never interact with any fan creation regarding it from now on. 👋