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shithowdy · 4 months ago

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realized a drawing i'm doing rn is almost identically posed to one i did 8.5 years ago of a different oc, except the old drawing was instantly tainted by one of the players featured messaging me asking if i could take it down because their abusive, possessive rp partner saw it and got jealous of them "roleplaying behind their back" and i said "nah" and it became a whole Thing that i should have walked away from at that exact moment but didn't and the 6 months that followed contained some of the most truly condensed batshit i have ever witnessed in an rp community already well-known for its batshittery.

... anyway i love my friends. so happy to accidentally redeem the pose.

#idk if ill ever open up completely about that shitshow but #i think 8 years is past the statute of limitations to vaguepost about it #late tag addition but man now i'm thinking about it all at 4am #how did in the good goddamn did i witness that and still not only let them make me an officer #but also let them put me functionally in charge of their guild IC #while those two fucked off and erped in instanced zones or played overwatch #and i and my then-rp-partner took the heat for the meandering plotline #until my partner vented to the wrong person about the abuse #and it got back to them #and we got to experience the surreality of an honest to god guild coup #all to salvage the image of some egomaniac abuser #certified fucking wra moment #its been 8 years and thinking about how i was treated in the end makes me feel sick lol #they made a new guild discord and invited everyone but us #and when i noticed the channel had gone quiet i asked what was up #and was met with gaslighting about how i'm 'thinking too much' about the channel being a 'little slow'#and it took pushing to get an early admission of what was about to happen #so we logged on and quit ourselves #which fucked up the narrative they had constructed #and they lied in the new channel that WE were the ones doing a 'coup' and that we stole the members who left with us #i guess i am opening up after all #i had to play the fucking villain of that scenario for the past 8 years #all to protect the mental health of people who hurt me #why #if you were there and know what i'm referencing with all of this... there's the fucking story #the person in question is a massively popular artist #i just dont have it in me to fight that fight

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