#i'm just gonna go back to the outer worlds. i was having more fun with that

[knifegremliin]

y'know it's kinda funny, i've been curious about cyberpunk 2077 for a bit, only to get the chance to try it out and get bored with it within 30 minutes

[cosmerelists]

Mistborn Era 1 Characters Read The Mistborn Era 2 Books

As requested by @foxofscadrial :)

[Spoilers, as you might imagine, from all of Mistborn Era 1 & 2!]

I've done this for Stormlight a couple of times: Stormlight characters read the The Stormlight Archive (link here) and they also read just the Kaladin chapters (link here). Now we're going to have the characters from Mistborn Era 1 sit down to read the Era 2 series: how will they react?

Now, just for the record...some of these characters are in both eras. For those characters, it's their Era 1 version doing the reacting, if that makes sense--like they're seeing their own futures.

1. Vin Live Reactions

Vin: This world seems so beautiful... So green... So vibrant... I'm gonna cry... Vin: THE STATUES OF ME AND ELEND 😭 Vin: Wow. I wish *I* had guns. Guns seem cool. Vin: It.....feels weird that everyone wants to be me. Like, sometimes I barely wanted to be me. Vin: ....Allrianne set the gender norms? I'm so sorry, women. Vin: TENSOOOOOOON! That speech about me...I can't take it... Vin: Killing a whole building of people, huh? Been there, Wax. Been there. Vin: I'm kinda glad Sazed became god. It seems like a hard job. Glad I didn't get it. Vin: ...Man. I REALLY wish we had guns!

2. Lord Ruler

Lord Ruler: Ugh, it's even worse than I imagined. Lord Ruler: Everything was so STABLE and SAFE under my rule. Lord Ruler: And now people have "freedom" and "fun"...and giraffes for some reason. Lord Ruler: You all are gonna do SO bad in the Cosmere-wide fight. Lord Ruler: Good riddance. Lord Ruler: ... Lord Ruler: Also, that guy who ends up taking over--Lord Mistborn or whatever. Lord Ruler: Who even is he???

3. Sazed

Sazed: ... Sazed: ... Sazed: I seem stressed.

4. Marsh

Marsh: ... Marsh: So, it seems that I never escape from my brother's shenanigans. Marsh: ... Marsh: Strangely comforting, I'll admit.

5. Elend Live Reactions

Elend: Heck yeah. Democracy. Elend: Huh. The noble houses stayed, huh? I just...don't know how I feel about that. Elend: Wait a sec....did they just recreate the noble/skaa divisions but with hereditary nobility versus workers? Elend: No...don't be crazy, Elend. At least it's not horrible slavery. Things are better! Way better! Elend: Ugh, are they abusing the outer cities too?? That train system is so horribly inefficient!! Elend: Is it too late for me to tutor Spook in legislative philosophy???

6. Breeze & Allrianne

Allrianne: Omg, Breeze, can you believe it? Our ancestor is the hero! Breeze: Seems like quite a...scruffy independent fellow. Allrianne: Not a Rioter OR a Soother, though... That's unfortunate... Breeze: Wears nice suits in the Rough, though. Now THAT I can get behind. Allrianne: I think we did good. 🩷

7. Spook

Spook: Well. Spook: Huh. Spook: Knowing that my street slang is gonna be High Imperial one day... Spook: That might be just enough to get me through all this alive.

8. TenSoon

TenSoon: I could imagine many fates for myself. TenSoon: Serving humans and the Lord Ruler forever. TenSoon: Being killed. TenSoon: Undertaking the Resolution and turning back into a mistwraith. TenSoon: ... TenSoon: Inspiring a line of stuffed toys for human children was NOT something I ever considered. TenSoon: I'm so glad I met the Ascendant Warrior.

9. Tindwyl

Tindwyl: It is...gratifying to see that the Terris people have survived. Tindwyl: And that feruchemy has survived with us. Tindwyl: *tsks* Naming a street after me, though. It would be more valuable for them to come to understand the real us, rather than mythologizing us to such a degree. Tindwyl: Wax naming his daughter after me, however... Tindwyl: ... Tindwyl: That honor I will accept.

10. Kelsier Live Reactions

(Note: This is the living Final Empire version of the character)

Kelsier: ........There are HOW many metals?!? Kelsier: Heh. Flowers. You would have loved that, Mare. Kelsier: Oof, no Mistborn. That's kinda harsh. Kelsier: YOU'RE FUCKING KIDDING ME--THEY CALLED IT ELENDEL?! (muttering) They could have at LEAST called it Vindale. Kelsier: "Ascendant Warrior," huh? That's my girl. Kelsier: "High Imperial." LOL. Kelsier: Omg, Marsh?! Marsh?!? Kelsier: SAZED IS GOD?! Kelsier: Heh, nice to know I have a crew in any reality. Kelsier: Yeah. I think I'm gonna be fine.

[profounddefendorcrusade-blog]

Clover's personality (in-depth)

This thing turned out way longer than intended. As promised, I wrote my opinions in regards to Clover's mbti; I also wanted to include the enneagram but figured it would be too much, so I'll do that separaretly. For those who wanna get straight to the point, just scroll to the end of the post for a pic of the functions I think Clover has. But if you want more details, read the whole thing. Probably not many people will wanna do that, but I had fun, lol. Please excuse me for nerding out

Analysis

Even before they got into the Underground, Clover thought to themselves "Ok, this is a dangerous mountain and I ain't coming back, I'm probably gonna die and therefore not live to see the rest of my life play out BUT I'm gonna follow my values anyway. They're worth the risk." To me, right off the bat, that's Fi over Ti (aka inner values and morals over inner facts and logic).

I've done some research on this stuff and found out how "Fi knows the value of something not by analyzing it but by feeling it deep inside themselves that it is how it should be" Ti has to be as objective as possible, Fi doesn't. So I sat down and thought about how exactly Clover approached situations.

I feel like their main reasoning for being in the Underground were their inner values and beliefs of finding out what happened to the children. That's why I'd say they're an introvert rather than an extrovert (it's not because they're quiet and reserved, although they are, but because Clover's inner world affects their outer world). Now, both Ti and Fi look inward, and those inner thoughts and feelings affect how they interact with the external world. The real question is: is Clover objective enough to be considered a dominant Ti user?

We can see in the Vengeance route that Clover is stubborn with their beliefs and refuses to look at things from a more... logical POV: "Asgore killed five humans. Is it fair to wipe out every other monster in my way who gives me even the slightest reason to do it?" Martlet was the only exception because she was the only one who had tried to be nice and understanding. Clover's dark side is that they're tunnel-visioned and see morality as black and white (don't look deeper as to WHY the monsters do what they do), and blindly follow their own beliefs over what objectively makes sense. Just like Ceroba, who I'm positive is a feeler (she only considers how she felt about Chujin and not how skilled of an engineer he actually was, even when there's clear proof he wasn't the best at his job). 

Objectively, it's not fair to kill so many monsters after only five humans were killed. If Clover wanted fair vengeance, they would have stopped after five monsters were killed. But no. According to Clover's own logic, everyone morally imperfect, everyone who's hurt them, who tried to hurt them, or messed up somehow, must die. So, Clover isn't thinking about what makes sense; they're thinking about what makes sense to THEM, and stubbornly hold onto that till the end (again, like Ceroba), even after Martlet's warnings. She says how the Royal Guard will be after them.

The logical (T) thing to do would be to STOP before things become even messier, but once again, no. Clover doesn't care about the consequences, only fulfilling their mission that is driven by their own set of values. No matter which route you choose, you will be presented with Clover's own version of what "justice" means. It's not the objective truth, it's not what's the logical thing to do; they follow their own framework based on their (our) choices.

"If unhealthy INFPs are dealing with threatened values or viewpoints that oppose their own, they can go the other way and imagine that others are all corrupt, thinking badly of them, and deluded. They may see themselves as the only people who see “the truth”, or the only people who really care to make a difference in the world. They can become especially harsh and critical of others and take on a martyr role, gradually secluding themselves from other people". - this feels like geno Clover; they thought they were the hero but they were playing the villain all along

Now that I think about it, the logical thing to do, the one that makes the most sense, would be never to have entered Mt. Ebott in the first place. And if vengeance was what Clover wanted to do, it is fair and makes objective sense to kill only five monsters (since that's how many humans died). But as explained, Clover didn't follow that logical conclusion, but rather their own twisted sense of justice. The same goes for neutral. It's Clover who chooses who gets to live and who gets to die based on their own beliefs and feelings, which are not backed up by facts. Everything they do they do because they themselves feel like it should be done. They are the one who decide who gets to live and who doesn't based on their own opinion/how severe they think the misdeed of the final boss is. This counts for the regular monsters who attack them, too; again, THEIR own subjective decision.

For example, they might see Dalv's actions as acceptable/forgiveable and spare him, but not Starlo's and kill him. Objectively, both characters are messy in their own way, but Clover gets to be the "judge" and decide their fate, not objectively looking at the situation, but subjectively. In short, according to them, Dalv may deserve to live, but not Starlo. 

And even if they're a dominant Ti user, which I don't think they are, Clover is more past and future-oriented than present-oriented (N over S). As mentioned, they thought about how much they'd risk by going down Mt. Ebott (potentially dying, and definitely never seeing the surface ever again, or their family) but they followed their heart's desires; to them, morals and ethics (their own morals and ethics) were more important than what the more logical thing to do was (stay on the surface where it's safe).

In other words, they could already "predict" what would happen in the future, while in the present moment (the beginning of the journey).

And right before sacrificing their soul in pacifist, they think about how their death would affect ALL the monsters in the future, whether they had directly met and befriended them or not, even though they wouldn't be there to see it.

Clover seems to be able to easily move between the past, present and future, unlike sensors, who are mainly in the present moment (this is what I've heard somewhere at some point and remembered it, dunno how true it is). They can easily recall the past, and what they remember are things that moved them on the inside.

I've heard some of my friends say that Clover's character arc was to become a kinder person (develop their Fe), which, honestly, I don't think is the case. They simply acted on their inner views of what justice truly means, without further analyzing whatever they believed justice to be.

In pacifist, they're naturally selfless and kind and forgiving: a bit of a prankster, but they're one of "the best souls" according to Martlet. Just look at the ACT options that they used to befriend monsters. Quietly listens to Decibat, offers Dalv a handshake (and friendship), easily forgives Martlet, Starlo, and even Ceroba (+ gives her a hug), endures so many hardships yet keeps their heart pure and selfless. 

They were always driven by something bigger than themselves (like Chujin, who I also think is a N user).

ISTPs are more adventurous and independent and flexible and focused on current problems in the present moment; Clover has been future-oriented from the start; they depended on Toriel to take care of them, and didn't try to immediately "adapt" to the monster world. Their 1st reaction was to stay safe and cozy. ESTJs (yeah, at some point I thought Clover could be one) are more "ruthless" in their pursuits, they "force" others to adopt their inner values. Clover doesn't do this in any route; they simply act upon their own beliefs, but aren't demanding that other monsters to have those same beliefs.

That's why I think they're an INFP.

Functions

Fi (dominant) – "If something goes against their moral code, they will not go through with it." It went against Clover’s moral code to spare monsters in genocide and abort the mission, so they didn’t, regardless of Martlet’s warnings.

"Fi dominants are inclined to speak up against beliefs or actions that go against their personal values or express disapproval of certain behaviors." I can't find the screenshot, but in the Mines, if you interact with the character who's in the same room as one of the puzzles, Clover will find out how that character pulled a prank on that guy who later got a promotion in the pacifist end credits (I need to reply the game to find the screenshot). But basically Clover was upset that their own morals weren't met and gave them a "disapproving look" or smth

"Ti dominants most often feel compelled to speak out when people are acting inconsistent (ie: contradicting themselves) or when people are being illogical from the Ti user’s perspective." I think Clover reacted to the above situation as a Fi user

"Unlike Fe users, Fi users are very blunt and direct. Fi and Te creates a person who is brutally honest about their opinions and feelings. If they don’t like a person, they will let that person know." Not a person in this case, but an example of this are the options we get for Martlet's questionnaire. Clover will have no problem honestly giving her the lowest scores for both questions; we also also get the chance to honestly tell Ceroba that we're not into Starlo's training. There are these cases where they're direct as well:

...and blunt:

they would have given at least a smile or a thumbs up, but no, their honest opinion is their honest opinion

"They appear cold and withdrawn, but tend to warm up as they get to know a person."

Ne (auxiliary) – "Ne views a situation from multiple angles and motivations" I feel like this is best seen in pacifist; this is exactly why Clover decided to give up their soul in the end; they saw all the motivations of the monsters, from many different angles. On the flip side, in the vengeance route, it’s the complete opposite situation: Clover only looks at things from their own pov, completely disregarding others. That’s the thing about the INFP dark side: INFPs become "disillusioned or stuck in their ways." This 100% describes Clover at their worst: stuck in their ways is already explained, while we can say they were disillusioned when even Martlet turned against them/gave up on them (in Genocide). That was enough of a reason for Clover not to feel bad about finishing her off. They never liked her, but they definitely liked her more than anyone else, so I’d say it counts.

"Creative, open-minded, and able to think outside the box" We can say Clover’s creative when they build Axis’ robot companion, solved the two puzzles in the Mines, they’re also most likely into role-playing just like Starlo, based on their clothes (and they seemed into the whole larping thing with him), and how they seem to be into drawing; open-minded, definitely (Clover with everyone; the pacifist route in a nutshell); able to think outside the box (this goes hand in hand with them being creative: I forgot to mention the many creative ways they found to befriend monsters)

"Ne lives in the present like Se does but makes connections to past and future." Imo, this is exactly what Clover does (their sacrifice in the future, and all the things other monsters had said to them in the past; however, they DO interact with the present world at the same time. This is what I meant when I mentioned how they "jump from and connect all 3")

Si (tertiary) – "happy in their comfort zone" Is this Clover? Yeah. Initially, this was their "default" reaction/behavior: with Toriel. They subconsciously became more independent thanks to good old Flowey. As I said, their values led them to take the risk and come into the Underground in the first place, not adventure/excitement (the way I see it). Were they also seeking the truth? Yeah again, they wanted to know the truth behind the whole situation, but I think it had more to do with how they had found the fact that no other humans bothered to look for the kids immoral.

"Si users may draw on their past experiences to guide their present actions and decisions" Example, how the detailed lines they remembered everyone said in true pacifist, influenced them to make the decision to die in the present moment. Or when they asked Ceroba if she would date Starlo, after hearing and remembering Crestina mention his crush on her beforehand, wanting to set them up.

"Si users have a strong memory for past experiences and details" Yep, explained above. Also, dunno if this counts as noticing details, but we can make them beat the Shufflers’ game with ease.

"Si users are typically practical and realistic in their approach to solving problems" The Snowdin mini-quests come to mind (although they use past information here too to figure out what each character needs to be helped). Also, how they fixed the elevator by using a pickaxe (most practical & realistic choice). They’re also pretty rational while dealing with Guardener, and in general, while dealing with enemies.

Te (inferior) – I guess this is why I suspected they could be an ESTJ.

"seen as leaders" By everyone.

"Come up with ideas quickly" Pretty much throughout the game. They’re more low-key about this than ESTJs though.

"Ruthlss and domineering" This is them in vengeance route

"Extraverted Thinkers recognize the emotional content, but then they set it aside to focus on the facts" I feel like this inferior function of theirs is mostly seen in flawed pacifist. They recognized Ceroba’s emotional situation, but chose to be fair and just instead.

"Te users are logical" Recognizing the dangers of the Underground and deciding to stay with Toriel. We can also say it makes sense that Clover attacked those who attacked them first, and finished Ceroba off (Te is what is objective, but from the external world)

"Though they are generally free spirits, they like to have a certain order in their lives. They do enjoy structure, just as long as it does not intrude with their feelings/morals/ethics/etc. They like to be the ones to create the structure, not to have the structure to be created for them."  Vengeance route and Clover’s "mission" come to mind. Basically, the structure is that, whoever Clover sees as morally flawed, gets to die. And they stick to it

tl;dr this picture pretty much explains the way I see Clover's functions in a nutshell ↓

[stateswscarlet]

hi this is the 3p person. how do i stop feeling like im doing this to change the 3D? can i acknowledge that it will change the 3D? im just confused. this manifested really fast but ive fulfilled myself with the state of being with him a bunch so why didnt that reflect like this? idk. im just scared im gonna imagine and enjoy it and nothing will reflect. i was thinking of getting coaching with you because idk what to do anymore. i hate my 3D. i just miss sp.

you need to give up on the 3D fully. you need to accept and acknowledge you (all of us) CANNOT change the 3D, we do not have the free will to do that as our free will ends in imagination. you must really sit with this and decide if you'd rather be trying to chase a shadow world and be frustrated, or would you rather 100% enjoy your imagination and feel good and be stressfree? hopefully the latter. we don't do anything to change the 3D as imagination and who were are is CONSTANTLY reflected, even before you knew about this stuff. we cant make it or un-make it reflect as creation is finished hence why we shift states. knowing the 3D changes is very different than chasing it and doing things for the 3D. the 3D will never fulfill you, only YOU choose how things fulfill you or if they even do at all. you need to understand you only want the feeling, not the actual; physical desire.

its like your shadow, do you only walk and move just so your shadow moves? or do you move because you want to? your 3d is the same, you're not constantly thinking of your shadow when you're doing things because the LAW is that its always there anyways. the law shouldn't be a comfort factor for you because it just is.

as i said in the previous ask about your situation. I'm pretty sure you haven't been fulfilling yourself as much as you think you were, and you were fulfilling yourself for stuff that wasn't even your end goal.

youre relying too much on the 3D and seeing this as smth you have to do to get them back and that is exactly where you're going wrong, you need to give up on changing the 3D completely, as edward art says you need to imagine as if there was no outer world bc the outer world has never fulfilled you and never will.

i get missing sp and those feelings are valid, but you need to realize that your life isn't going to end if you're not with them. manifesting an sp shouldn't be something you need, its something you CAN have and definitely shouldn't be approached from a desperate/needy mindset because that will lead to codependent (not saying you are like this but I'm putting it out there in case there are others). please stop revolving your life around an sp and put your crown back on. YOU made sp special, YOU are the secret sauce, they're just some random who YOU decided means something. you need to realize that (manifestation stuff aside) you will 10000% will ok if you don't be with them because you're more than content on your own and can date anyone else. i say this with love but as someone who was in your shoes and knows how it feels, you will only be running in circles if you don't approach this from a healthier mindset. work on your self concept (don't tie it to manifesting ur sp at all) and LIVE your life, do things that you enjoy, have fun/date around with other people (if you have the chance to bc remember that you're not pretending, you are single in the 3D), and stop trying to get back someone. give yourself the feelings of your dream relationship first and how it makes YOU feel, then add sp into the equation. you don't want them back, you want a fulfilling relationship. how would you feel if they came back tomorrow yet the same issues happened as they did back when you were together before/theyre just not good/the relationship sucks? that isn't what you want, you want the fulfilling relationship so focus on aspects about that and give those to yourself. you don't want their physical body back bc it means nothing to you unless you get the feelings you desire.

[guardian5tiger3]

What do you need to know/what's hidden from you

Pick a group tarot reading +channeling

1. 2. 3.

Group 1

Seems like you guys are trying to maintain or gain balance while dealing with some type of conflict. Either of these could be internal or in your outer world. Some of you guys are being made to feel less than because of this. I want to stress I say less than as in you're better than you think and or feel that you are. If you're waiting for someone else to help you it's looking like the best person is you. Other energies could try but they aren't that powerful , at least I mean the ones that would or could in your situation or you hope to do that are not as powerful as you are in regards to whatever you hope for them to do in your situation in terms of helping. Maybe you want other people to defend you or just have your back. You're more powerful to be standing alone and you might as well stand even if you are alone in a situation like this. You all definitely have more potential than you think and feel like you do and I'm seeing this being especially, but not necessarily, in the money department. Seems like they want you to consider just shooting your shot at things. Try selling something or doing something to get a job or a raise. Something you haven't done or possibly wouldn't have even considered doing or considered something you really could do or manage. Worst case socially it seems that people are talking about you possibly in a negative light but it does not even concern you. These all seem like small fish and they need to work together. And even together they dont really amount to anything or accomplish much in life while you are ten fold way more powerful. So it's like because of your strengths and everything you do stand out and it's hard for these people not to talk about an elephant in the room but they can only speak mostly negatively because that's who they are as people. What's hidden is that both you and the world around you are a lot better and more beautiful than you're currently perceiving.

Group 2

I'm gonna keep it so real. For better or for worse someone really wants something with you. Like this immediately came off super sexual. This person or even people holy... This energy though seems almost pushy or too confident it's almost way too intimidating or rude or something. They're actually a chaser because they want to go for things to fill some type of void within themselves. Well, it's moreso like they're running away from something and by them doing that it's like they're reaching for stuff to pull them forward. But they don't really know what they want in all aspects of themselves and I don't feel like they know you as much as they would think or claim. For some of you this is someone completely inappropriate like a boss or family friend who is an older man. Regardless this person seems like the type you want to take a step back from and get a full understanding of the entire picture that is them. Especially if youve felt like someone is feeling this kind of ways towards you this is confirming your intuition. And on the surface it does seem mostly sexual. I want to reiterate this person is actually very confused on the inside.

Group 3

It looks like you all have been very protective and or defensive more or less. You or someone else seems to just want to keep to themselves and what they have and enjoy everything they do have /have earned. You all might be missing opportunities especially socially or in work /career because of this though. You just might be being too closed off. But personally I would say it's not necessarily a bad thing to be defensive of your energy.you just might be missing out on something or some things and this may then cause stagnation. Boredom is never fun. Follow your intuition. Some of you just need to keep a better eye out. Some of you need to step out of your comfort zone and actually do more outside of your own little bubble. It's coming out that you all might end up rejecting something from the universe. Not good.this is a time to heal. Especially issues from childhood pertaining to things like abandonment and rejection if that fits ok. Also for less of you paranoia or fight or flight in some way or something ok. And if you're not safe you need to do everything you can to transition to a safe environment ok.

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #308

Like most Tuesdays, I had entirely too many appointments today. One was for psychotherapy. Another one was for physical therapy. And the last one was the regular dentist.

Regular therapy was interesting today. I spoke for a full hour and a half about things I dare not speak of in this space (at least until you're safe). It was… cathartic to say the least. I spoke at length about the way I perceive the world; it's definitely not normal, so there's not a whole lot of folks I can talk about it with. My therapist understands it when I speak, and that's amazingly refreshing.

…Before you ask - no, I don't wander around having hallucinations or whatever. Due to my experiences growing up, some of my perfectly normal human senses are sharper than they ought to be, and sometimes that's a problem in certain contexts. I won't explain any more than that, at least not yet. Maybe in a few years, depending on how things go for you. We'll see.

That said, something tells me that maybe you already know what I'm talking about. Or maybe not. Who knows; it's not as though I'll ever be able to ask you and find out.

…

Physical therapy was after that. I got a new exercise that I think works the rhomboids…? Or something around there. It's very unpleasant; it hurts to move those muscles. But I gotta; if nothing else, the results of doing it will help K understand what's going on a little better, hopefully.

…And then the dentist. The outer surface of the molars on the upper right side of my face feel like they're being stabbed to death with white-hot needles anytime anything touches the white of the tooth near my gums. I guess my gums are a little bit receded there for some reason, and also those teeth are being moved around, and so parts of these teeth that aren't normally exposed are now exposed. Apparently the sensitivity will go away with time. I hope that's true. I was given a special toothpaste to help. I really hope it works.

At very least, though, the pain I'm experiencing isn't the result of something rotting - to make sure of that was the whole point of this appointment. It's annoying, but I can deal with the pain until it stops being a thing. Hopefully it'll stop being a thing relatively soon.

There was a great big gap of time between physical therapy and the dentist - like 2 hours. But both physical therapy and the dentist are in the same relatively faraway town. So rather than go to physical therapy, go home, only to go back, J and I just chilled out nearby. I found a nice park:

...I wonder... would you sit with me here?

...A swing is a lot of fun. I wonder if you've used one before. If you haven't, then I hope you get to try it; I think you'd like it a lot, actually.

J was still in the building working at his computer in the presence of the free Wi-Fi. I was by myself. So I sat on the swing and enjoyed swinging on it for a while, wishing you were here with me.

...I know it's impossible. I know. It's okay.

My hands started to get sore from the chains, though; it's been a long time since last I've used one of these on a regular basis. So from there, I wandered around, taking pictures for you:

...I found a hat, too!

...It was a very pretty hat. I'm sure someone must be looking for it, so I left it there; there doesn't seem to be a lost-and-found anywhere, and no more visible place to put it than this. I really hope that whoever lost it will remember where they left it and come back soon to retrieve it.

...I don't have a whole lot more to write about today. I had to be at a lot of places and do a lot of things, so I'm pretty tired now. I don't have any big or insightful thoughts to write to you; just lots of pretty pictures of autumn, and a brain that is not quite soupy, but is approaching that general direction, for sure.

...I hope you're okay where you are. I wish you could tell me that you're okay, or that you're gonna be okay. I get worried about you; I can't even begin to imagine the difficulties you're facing now. All I have is the wish that I could somehow help you through them; no one should have to go through difficult things alone.

Well. I guess I'll end this here for today before I start rambling or something.

I love you. Please stay safe out there, okay? I need you to come back to us safe and sound. Because lots of people need a friend like you. And even if that wasn't true... I would certainly enjoy a friend like you. Because then we could go and play video games and take neat pictures of things and eat tasty snacks and talk about all kinds of cool stuff.

I'll write to you tomorrow. So keep doing your best out there. I'll be cheering for you from here.

Your friend, Lumine

[lanaevyssmoved]

do u have any game recommendations that have character creation? besides bg3 ofc

gonna be real i wouldnt recommend bg3 for a character creation game because you can only use preset faces ...... bro but if you mean it in an oc way......

i would recommend.............

heavily modded skyrim, if you don't wanna do it yourself use wabbajack, some of the modlists on there are designed for graphics or high end systems and have very pretty characters. there's also ones not like that with rougher characters or more vanilla characters. lots of choice! do not get into the community though, this is a warning

following on from that, any elder scrolls game - morrowind is the best and one of my all time favourite games

you can follow on from that with fallout if you like the setting. i recommend fallout 1 and 2 the most as i'm not the hugest fan of bethesdas fallout but that is not a common opinion that be a hot take

heavily modded final fantasy xiv, you can fully mod on the free trial version as far as i know - be warned this is an extremely slippery slope because it has a modding community to rival skyrim and many customisation mods are paid for however there are ways around that. anyway you can get mods from here, here and here as well as the nexus

elden ring, dark souls 3 - the other dark souls but those character creations look like dogshit ass but still fun to make ocs in imo.. demon souls if you own a ps5....... i do not

pillars of eternity, tyranny, while visually quite limiting the character creators are still very neat from a roleplay pov - tyrannys has a lil "post character creation" game you get to play where you make "post game" choices and i uh, used to play that all the time for fun without intent to keep playing.....

a good follow up to that would be dragon age, all three of them but specially origins, i used to play the origins and not continue the rest of the game for fun! now be warned all of these games suck terrible dick in terms of modding because it's awkward and annoying and easily broken! i recently replayed dao and dai and so much of that time was spent troubleshooting...... joyous

have to kind of mention mass effect after? but ur kind of always making the same character..... ive always struggled with mass effect personally. maybe its the setting?

you can also look at starfield since that's got actually a pretty decent cc but i did find it quite limiting. but i've not really played it for more than an hour cuz bg3 exists so i can't say much

back to crpgs, the two pathfinder games! again limiting on the character side but roleplay side very very strong. i've not played wotr but i have mutuals who act like it is gods gift to gaming and i believe them. i really liked the first!

the outer worlds could be a good choice, i really like that games aesthetic but it's another space game and i think we're seeing a pattern that i'm just not that into those. hm. it was bethesda style gaming in space before starfield exists with the personality of fallout, kind of ?

this ones going far out there but crusader kings iii has an insane character creation and my favourite ruler ever was this old witch woman cannibal who slowly but surely turned her whole corner of the globe into a witch worshipping cannibal cult. i miss her

age of wonders 4 has a really cool cc, you can even make dragons with the dlc like Actual dragons.... i have made so many characters in there and gave them their funny little lores.. age of wonders has real cool lore and it is Completely ignored by tumblr afaik and that sucks

encased is a really cool rpg it's another sci-fi-y one.. it isn't as polished as you might expect cuz it's a very ambitious game but a small indie studio but i would say if you enjoy fallout 1 + 2 you will enjoy encased

dragons dogma! you get to make two people in this just like in bg3! i made a lil girl and her big brother and i was so fucking emotional over them that i was crying constantly even when nothing was going on. i played dragons dogma to fucking death on the ps3 and i think its interesting and rich enough to sink ur teeth into

i have to mention greedfall as the owner of the greedfall url.... greedfall is very interesting as its a double A title akin to a dragon age game.. it might make one feel a tad uncomfortable because it comes across as colonialism the rpg but it does get very interesting and it has neat as hell characters and magic and big monsters who fuck hard

wasteland 3! kinda again has the fallout type of vibe it is violent and full of dark themes and twisted themes but its also extremely comical its true black humour at times and you get to make two characters again and you can even make TWO MORE CHARACTERS so i had a bunch of custom characters.. u can get really wild in the cc as well and builds are SUPER fun....... v good game

spellforce 3!!!!! i love this game, the cc is again like another crpg one but spellforce 3 has very deep lore spanning many games .. its not typical crpg in that its also like a strategy war game too but i think it does the mixture very well and i LOVEEEEEEEE the lore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

uh i forgot to mention divinity original sin 1/2 because .. bg3 should lead you right there but uh. play them both! the first is so good in coop i feel cuz of the natural banter between the protagonists. if you don't have friend the second is very good single player just. be warned i don't think it has good endings but the ride is worth it!! and divinity lore fucks hard. i also recommend divinity dragon commander because its so much fun

can i say stardew valley? mayhaps sun haven too? if ur crazy like me you can turn these into prime oc generators. also mods

oh, monster hunter world and by extension wild hearts. monster hunter world lets you make a cat and while ur character themselves doesn't get to do much story wise i did get very obsessed with my character and wanting them fight cool monsters. wild hearts is similar though your character does feel a bit more special- be warned this game is known for running like ass on most systems, its pretty good for me but be warned all the same

TEEHEES.... KENSHI!!!!!!!!!!!! i was holding back on mentioning kenshi but i can't. you can make a whole fucked up lil squad if u want. u got weird alien races. u got a billion fucking mods. u can have ur buddies limps removed and give them robot ones. u can make an army of weirdos. bro i got so invested in my kenshi squad i was writing FANFIC. i was dreaming of them. i was unable to sleep about them. i miss them so fucking much dude!! kenshi doesnt really have a story beyond what u make it. that shit is a SANDBOX.. and i love it so much. everyone should play kenshi. its kinda like rimworld if u want a comparison. i think its Perfect. the best game to exist ever (lie) its so wonderful....... man........its also broken as shit cuz its the most ambitious game to exist ever and it was made by 1 dude so

oh if u like anime games i have to mention code vein (souls like) and god eater (monster hunter like ?) they have very good ccs and i know people super into the lore and stuff. i only played code vein and i liked it a lot honestly

uhhh i mentioned 1 mmo so i should probably mention guild wars 2, the cc is very good, the whole games end game is about fashion and looking amazing. the lore is also super duper neat! i haven't played it for a long time now but i did play it on launch and i had a blast for a few years

if you like d&d i would recommend solasta! it has a very good cc i think honestly and it feels the most like this is d&d in a video game out of every game i've ever played, and it translates the system very and faithfully (as opposed to say bg3 who changed things for game reasons). solasta is also best with friends because its so in that vibe of this is a silly lil d&d party. its much fun

lol i got the block text limit popup

kotor 1 and 2, it might be hard to get into the lore and characters if you're not into star wars but i found it pretty ok to as not a huge star wars fan. i also think they deserve to be played despite that as well because they are fantastic rpgs and some of the best bioware ever made

vampire the masquerade bloodlines!!! i am not a vampire fan really, a small one, but this game captivated me.... very easy to get into making a character i feel and ur given enough to make characters that align different ways easily. the combat did not age well..... but the story and roleplay absolutely did

ok.. im gonna stop here.. but i will say give games like icewind dale and arcanum a chance.. look at old as hell crpgs and try them. this includes bg1+2 which i still need to play myself but will be soon! they are classics because their stories are fantastic, and shouldn't be missed out on!!!!!

[ahogechef]

"they'll never forget you after that."

the child-like demon seemed to like kaede! alice runs off with a few treats that chef prepared for her outer-worldly tea party. her eerie yet cheerful giggle fades as she walks away from the two.... the chef was curious about this parallel tokyo, it being dangerous, chihiro opts to bringing her to a demon haunt, where his demon team and himself were away from the more harsher areas. "you’re so brave. befriending demons as a human... they can't get pretty snarky with me. but alice needed a friend and she's a good kid, despite all the whole 'die' for me thing." @azure-summoner

@azure-summoner !!!!

{ Praising Her!!! }

"Aww, you think so? I'm so happy I could become friends with Alice and make her treats for her tea party~!" She waves goodbye to Alice after handing her the basket of treats, before shouting out her to her: "Have fun, Alice! I hope you and everyone will enjoy the treats!" A plentiful amount, that should surely satisfy all the demons who will enjoy it.... And Kaede likes Alice, too: so she was very much happy the child warmed up to her and was delighted at the treats...

Looking back up at Chihiro once Alice disappeared in the distance, her smile warms at his words, cheeks turning a light pink. "E-Ehehe....thank youuu..." A parallel world of Tokyo riddled with demons: something one would think Kaede would never want to see, but she was far too curious, so she begged Chihiro to bring her here. But even as she was brought to the safer areas, it was still so hard to believe that this was all real.... and that Chihiro was a demi-god, who can change his form completely and everything! She thinks he looks really cool... (and super hot and pretty, too, but she always thinks he does, anyway!) And if she wasn't already a smitten mess: him protecting her the whole while until they reached safety, only made her fall for him harder...

"But of course! Uehara-kun's friends are my friends, too! I could never be scared of them... hahaha, that just shows they really love you! She is!! I'm so happy she accepted me as a friend... Heheh, I guess it's just her thing? Really though, I never imagined I would make so many demon friends, too... but it's such a nice surprise! They're not all scary as they seem.... just like us, they all have their own personalities, thoughts, what they like, don't like... You truly have a wonderful team of demons, Uehara-kun.... I just know they feel reassured, having someone as strong and cool as you recruiting them, hehehe! Especially in a crazy world like this! I want to befriend all the demons you make friends with, too, okay? Just like with Alice! And then, I'll continue to make even more treats for everyone, hehehe! And for you as well, of course! And Aogami-san! I'm gonna go alll out for you guys, hehehe~!"

[toujokaname]

Game master / Episode 21

Author: Akira

Characters: Aira, Rinne, Kohaku, HiMERU, Tatsumi, Mayoi

"I'm grateful, I honestly am."

← Previous ✧ Directory ✧ Next →

[ Read on my site for a better viewing experience using Ois~su ♪ ]

Season: Winter

Location: Matrix Stage

Aira: —Hwah?!

(H-Huh? Where... is this?)

(It's bright! My eyes are adjusting after being in the dark for so long, but somehow, after dodging those weirdos for ages, we've stumbled into this wide area!)

(What are these, fireflies? Stars? I can't tell, but there are so many lights floating around!)

(What's this mysterious space...?)

Rinne: Welcome.

Did you have fun with the test of courage?

Aira: Ah, there he is, the mastermind! Look, Hiro-kun, Kohakucchi, the culprit's shown himself! Now beat him up!

Kohaku: Right. But before that, mind clearin' a few things up?

What the hell's all this about?

Rinne: Gyahaha, what a dumbass question! "Teacher! I don't even know what I don't know!" That's literally you.

Kohaku: Shut up. I ain't in the mood to go along with your stand-up comedy, especially after havin' to play tag with those mysterious masked guys 'til just now.

Quit stallin' and fess up already, or I'll roll you up in a bamboo mat and plunge you into the sea, ya halfwit. [1]

Rinne: No wayyy, ever since getting involved with Double Face, my child's turned into a delinquent...

Kohaku: I've been a delinquent from the get-go~... If anythin', I've been gradually becomin' a good kid since then.

Rinne: Yeah. By now you must've figured I'm sketchy, and that Matrix has an ulterior motive, yet you've obediently played along until the very end.

To repay those feelings, I'm gonna show you guys something good.

This is—my real hometown.

Kohaku: Rinne-han's hometown...?

Rinne: What I've shown you so far is only the surface of our hometown.

Think of it like the layer that hides something important, the armor shielding something fragile.

To put it in extreme terms, unless we're talking about a completely different dimension—

Environments completely cut off from the outside world only exist, if at all, within specially treated equipment in a lab.

While our hometown may have a pretense of self-reliance, we still need to be connected to the outside world. For food, water, and other essentials.

Rinne: The Amagi Village you visited is a contact point set up for that purpose—it's nothing more than a bridgehead or a frontline base.

It's a fake Amagi Village, so to speak.

And this space, it's where the village meets the outside world, linked to our hometown—you could call it a gateway.

Look, you can vaguely make out a door in the back, right? Beyond there lies the real Amagi Village.

It's where we're from. After following a long, long tunnel from there, we reach the hometown where we were born and raised

Kohaku: Yeah, I see it. There's this faintly visible buildin' in the distance. Looks oddly modern—is that Rinne-han's real hometown?

Rinne: Yeah. To those expecting a stereotypical backward village from a movie, my condolences, but this ain't exactly the old-fashioned countryside that everyone imagines.

In terms of scientific power alone, we might be more advanced than you.

Making buildings levitate in the air with perpetual motion machines and anti-gravity is as simple as pie, unlike anything you guys can achieve.

HiMERU: Is this a story from a sci-fi novel?

Rinne: It's a story from reality. If I explain too much, even as the monarch, I might be held accountable, so I can't divulge all the details.

Well, mysteries are better in some ways, they let your imagination run wild ♪

Rinne: Maybe we're descendants of aliens who came from outer space. Or maybe we're underground dwellers who've lived in hiding on the other side of the earth.

Or maybe we're the descendants of a persecuted people, defeated by the Yamato Imperial Court and repeatedly driven into distant corners in ancient times.

Our origins don't matter. What matters is that we're intelligent beings who can talk and share our feelings with you.

Unlike insects or animals, we can do the same work as you.

We can live in the same society.

We can even become idols.

Tatsumi: It's clear that you, that all of you, are unfamiliar beings.

But if we share the same aspirations, we should be able to coexist. Isn't that so, Mayoi-san?

Mayoi: Yes, Tatsumi-san. That's why I, too, am shamelessly living here with you all.

Rinne: It's strange, isn't it, underground dwellers? We're people who may have different births and upbringings, maybe even different races, yet we wear the same clothing and sing the same songs.

And so, we can love and be loved by everyone. That's good, isn't it. It's a miracle.

Rinne: There's someone who taught me that such miracles really do exist.

Back in my teenage years, I longed for the outside world so much that I ran away from my hometown. After getting lost for a while, I ended up on some street corner—

And found someone singing and smiling.

It was an unknown idol, to the point where nobody knows his name anymore. Maybe not even Ai-chan, who loves idols so much, knows him.

A long time ago, he couldn't sell anything and ended up retiring.

And yet, that idol, who was nothing special at all and could be found anywhere—at the time, I was just some little kid and looked up to him.

When I seriously ran away from home and pursued becoming an idol, he helped me a lot. He was a kind guy who taught me the basics of how to be an idol.

His producer in charge was Akan-san, and when he retired and she was left with some free time, she decided to produce me too.

She managed to turn me into a proper idol, one way or another.

In the end, during my solo days, I couldn't keep up with the times, and I was left completely stranded when the bigwigs at my agency fell from power with "SS."

Even before that, I hardly had any jobs; I was essentially open for business but had none. That was just the final straw, or rather, the fatal blow.

Rinne: Despite being meant to disappear quietly like that, why is it that someone like me is still able to stand on stage even now?

It's all thanks to my benefactors who taught me how to live as an idol.

It's because of them that I've been able to love being an idol and still not be disillusioned.

I'm grateful, I honestly am.

[ ☆ ]

Kohaku's referring to "sumaki," a term associated with a method of execution. This method involved throwing someone wrapped in a mat into water, often resulting in death. While not a formal punishment for crimes, it was commonly employed in extrajudicial killings by bakuto, the predecessors to modern yakuza.

← Previous ✧ Directory ✧ Next →

[intuitive-revelations]

Ok so... that episode. Mixed thoughts. First half I felt was really strong. The second half...well.

As usual I'm going to kind of vomit my thoughts out as bullet points. It'll be quite rough though, as I'm way too tired to break these down more carefully right now, and just want to say my piece before I go to bed:

LOL at UNIT being so out in the open now. Couldn't help but think of all the big bold 'secret' signs from the classic series when I saw that.

The Vlinx is a really odd addition... did anyone else think about Splinx (from the Mines of Terror game) when they heard the name?

MEL! I did find it curious that some of the reporting on her appearance was ambiguous about when it would be, so I guess that explains that. Kind of an odd choice for a UNIT / Toymaker story, but establishing her as a character at UNIT works fine.

Now that I think about it, wasn't POTD specifically written with awareness of who / what RTD would be using in the specials? If so, I guess that explains why Mel didn't play a part in the plot.

Speaking of which, they're definitely going for this UNIT spin-off aren't they? I mean... makes sense. It seems they're building off what we saw in POTD anyway.

Trinity Wells coming back was a fun surprise, given how long it's been since we've seen her.

The political commentary of 'being right' is kind of perfect. Between this and the trans representation in The Star Beast, it kind of feels like RTD is laying out this thesis for the next few years.

I kind of like how they did the Toymaker in this one? Though he's perhaps a little too flamboyant and 'Master'-y for me, I do think the stuff with his accents etc was quite clever. I also think there was clearly some thought about the more dated racial stuff with the character, which that line about the weather kinda felt like it was hinting at?

I liked all the little ways they hinted at the Toymaker's "crystal guardian" backstory, with him sitting outside of "Chaos and Order".

Speaking of which... did he imply he beat the the Black and White Guardians? Cause if so...

Not gonna lie, when the Doctor started talking about a mistake he made when he was young, a part of me really genuinely thought they were about to mention Divided Loyalties. The line about the 'face' the Toymaker wore didn't help.

I'm also glad we got the Celestial Toyroom stuff, as I wasn't sure how much we were going to get in this episode? I think the creepiness with modern effects was great. I kind of wish we got to spend more time there though, ala the original story.

Conversely, I also feel like we could have gotten a bit more out of the idea of the Toymaker escaping into the universe? We got a glimpse of that in 'realistic' terms with the outer world, and a more campy fun vibe inside UNIT, but I would equally love much more focus on the world going mad, both mentally, but also physically. I dunno, it feels like there's two ambitious stories you could have gone with, but the episode kind of half-and-halfed it.

The stuff with Amy, Clara, Bill and the Flux. I needed that. Seriously. As someone whose literally spent all last week thinking about how it's all been one line of tragedies for the Doctor, connected from one to the other, getting that acknowledged in text was great.

The twist with the Master getting trapped too was a bizarre addtion, and honestly unnecessary. It felt like that story (I can't remember which, sorry EU fans, an EDA I think) which offhandedly implies both the Master and Rani are dead. I feel it could have worked a bit better if it was another major character we haven't heard of in some time, like Rassilon or someone, instead of someone we saw just a few episodes ago.

I will say the games were disappointing. I get there's only so much you can do with recognisable simple games, but I definitely wish we got something a bit more complex than "biggest number wins" and "catch". This is a story that really needed a good resolution, ideally based on the Doctor outwitting the Toymaker, and we didn't really get that. I'm not upset about it, just felt weak.

That being said, the focus on rules with regards to 'best of three' was perfect. Exactly what I wanted more of tbh.

I'm surprised by the "One Who Waits", after being teased in marketing as referring to the Toymaker, actually being someone else. RTD's been doing a surprising amount of sequel hooking actually...

I'll get more into the mechanics in a second, but I do like the resolution being about the Doctor's own mental health? It feels like the right conclusion, not just based on the past couple episodes, but also based on Thirteen's character arc, as well as everything that happened before her. I'm sure fans will (rightfully) eat that up and talk about it a lot.

Ok, so let's seperate out the BIG thing, and my thoughts on it. Warning: I'm about to get uncharacteristically negative for me:

I had seen the leaks about the bigeneration, and am really disappointed at how accurate they were, though I had kind of accepted it based on the accuracy of The Star Beast's leaks.

Funny enough, I genuinely do quite like ideas of weird stuff to do with regenerations in terms of splitting etc. I genuinely have had some thought before about the idea of it from an assimilation kind of view, merging together, kind of a more horror-y take on the Master's plan in POTD.

But... did we have to do this with Tennant? I mean, don't get me wrong I love him and have genuinely loved what he brought to Fourteen, distinguishing him from Ten and giving him the feel of that extra history since then... but did he really need to be the Doctor to get a life after regeneration? After all, Ten is the one who 'didn't want to go'. Granted him such a thing really feels like it's going against not just the 'embrace change' message of DW in general, but even Ten's own arc specifically?

(This is a thought I had after writing everything else here, but it's also kind of messed up that he's the one to get this conclusion, when we literally just had a whole arc about 13 and Yaz not having enough time together because of 13's incoming regeneration...?)

I don't think I need to spell out the issues of having two 'current' Doctors, not just in-universe, but also out of universe, and the shadow that now hangs over Ncuti's series, whether or not we get more with 14. The TARDIS splitting was really bad too.

That being said, there is one saving grace, in that it's seemingly implied that the rest of 14's life still comes before 15, somehow, based on what the latter said about being better because 14 will take the time to rest, recover and reflect on everything that's happened?

This is the one thing that doesn't make me want to throw the resolution away, as it does seemingly provide some clarity. If RTD sticks by that line, it would suggest it's less that there's two whole new Doctors, and more that 14 has been given some grace of having a bit more time before he turns into 15. That there's still technically a linear progression of Doctors, it's just one gets to hang around a little while to give the new one a cleaner mental slate. How on earth that would work however, is a whole other question...

I mean... couldn't we have just done this by time travel instead? Rather than introduce this whole new, kinda show-breaking concept? You could still get your hypothetical Tennant and past companions miniseries (which seems like it'll be a thing) or whatever alongside 15's own debut. Just let it be non-linear, and let us meet and travel with 15 before we get a peaceful, recovered 14 regeneration?

Also... if we ARE going play fast and loose with the ideas of regeneration... why didn't Tennant's face coming back play into this? Like... what a weird choice to make that the 'mystery' of the specials, throw in a crazy regeneration sequence... then just suggest it's a bit of a subconscious message. If we are going to get crazy with what regeneration can do, why not go all in with stuff like the Guardians of the Edge, or the Valeyard or something? Have fun with the internal identities lore of regeneration?

So yeah, to summarise my thoughts on the bigeneration... I really think RTD might have gone a step too far this time. I spent a little time after the last episode talking about how the lack of resolution on the Flux was one of my bigger complaints about the Chibnall era, but this writing decision feels even more baffling. If Doctor Who is going to have a 'jumping the shark' moment, we might have just witnessed it.

That being said, as someone who hates being too negative, I did find a silver lining in that the dialogue implies he's planned ahead how to get out of some of these issues, with regards to two concurrent Doctors etc. It just doesn't feel good being in this situation at all, when it wasn't needed in the first place.

Overall thoughts

I didn't hate the episode. In fact I was very much in to most of it! There were a lot of good ideas, across the Toymaker, the Giggle etc. although I do feel some were woefully underused within the episode. It's just that they're all kind of marred by that one big bad idea at the end.

Like I said, the stuff focusing on the Toymaker and the Doctor's history, plus his time since he travelled with Donna was great. The Giggle was a fun satirical concept, if again underused, and the Toymaker's argument for targetting Earth was pretty great. The resolution of forcing the Doctor to settle down, for a little while, and be with friends is decent too, and a nice conclusion to come to, even if the way it came about was a mess.

I suspect, and hope, we might get some more details not just about how this will all work (or maybe just opening up the question without getting too specific), but also about any possible plans for spin-offs and whether or not they will overlap with the stuff in this episode, which may or may not alleviate my worries.

But for now.... yeah, I'm concerned, sorry.

[draagu]

started the dlc today >:3 (outer wilds, we are so back)

gonna gloss over how the dlc starts bc I'm pretty sure anyone reading this knows already, but yeah, satellite, transparent png stranger, very cool stuff

and then bam!! a whole circular world to explore :o

very quickly I got attached to my lamptern friend, beloved lamptern, and started watching all the lil movies around the area

ivee got some notes I jotted down after about 3 hrs in, so if something is misremembered then that's why:

speaking of I should probably look in my log to know the names of the buildings and stuff-

the notes kinda contain what I know or think I know so far in terms of what happened!

coool stuff though!! not really sure where to start talking about it all haha

I enjoyed goin down the rivers it is very fun

about 2-3hrs in I watched the movie about the artifacts and going eepy with them to light em up! and what do you know, I go eepy and boom everyone's gone and it's dark :<

(side note I liked the fact the embers in the doze off screen was green rather than orange! nice details)

thee sleep world, which I have dubbed dark world until I know it's a real name, is, scary! I don't like it!

I'm curious what it is exactly, is it all fake and the owls are just trying to be happy considering the circumstances?? or is it real somehow?? I unno

it's nice and peaceful-so far-but waaa

saw the owl watching the movie about their home, so of course I shined my light on it which made it to blank! not sure if that angered the owl or not because I was too scared to find out :')

every corner I turned I expected to see a giant owl or something, I have no idea if they are friendly or not and I don't know if I want to find out

the hand statue thing mechanic was pretty cool though! I liked lighting everything up :D

also I heard a screech somewhere in my time there- not fun to hear

but then I kinda accidentally put out my light and woke up again so oops

mainly been exploring that one little village on the mountains with the river (where the artifact movie is), need to go back!

main missions are! explore more light world stuff, and explore more dark world stuff!

I think this dark world is gonna be a dark bramble situation all over again :'D (it is scary yet all the important stuff is there)

[serendipnpipity]

So sorry ser, im gonna rant like crazy about these fics! I recently made a little art for an astronaut au called "Never Fade Away" by @parentaladvisorybullshitcontent, which I described a little bit but I'll talk some more about it here. Phil's on a pod in outer space, and dan is a ground control agent, who watches Phil's mission log videos and develops a crush! I reallyyy liked this concept because it reminds me of how dnp actually met, where dan watches phil through a screen and becomes fond that way, then he reaches out with messages online to get his attention, and then they videocall each other and get to know each other like that! But with a spacey twist lol. But it was super fun (pj's there too!). Aside from that one, last month I wanna say, I read a fic called "The Body Electric" by @adorkablephil. This was while I was super obsessed with a cyber punk dnp au, which I think I've talked to you about before, haha! I wouldn't classify this as cyber punk tho, because it takes place in the modern world, but it still has some of those computer vibes. The premise is that phil, a filmmaker, accidently downloads a virus that calls itself Dan, and an intrigued phil leaves the virus on the computer and they bond. I got attached to virus dan, he's like a curious computer program that doesn't understand human things all the way, but clearly feels emotions, and wants to understand love. This one has a smut heavy chapter, but it's skippable, which I believe you said you tend to do (I don't personally read a lot of smut either, its just not my thing so I cant speak for that part too much). It genuinely tugs at your Heartstrings so much at the end, but it resolves in a hopeful way :) other than those two, I've really just been going off your recs lol! So thank you for sharing those. I'll let you know if I find any more that aren't on the list though!

Have a good rest of your night(?) Ser!!

Please never apologize for your long asks, Manda, I love reading them! Loving the sci fi vibes of these selections, and I definitely remember the astronaut Phil sketch you shared earlier. Honestly, it makes me want to draw astronaut!Phil too bc you made the whole thing so so cute. Maybe I should read the fic first.

Yayyy I'm glad somebody's enjoying the fic rec masterlist!! I'll very likely update it soon, prob whenever I read these two. I hope you also have a great rest of your night!! (btw I'm 87% sure we're in the same time zone bc of some other post way back lol)

[ivyroseposin]

The Kiss At The Satanic Bridge, A Terzo, Papaiii Emeritus Fan Fiction

Papa III and Reader

Summary: Terzo gets bored at his own party that results in them escaping the partying and spending time with eachother at the Satanic Bridge..

Little bit of smut

Around 3K words

Every sunday at 8pm a party was held at the ministry. A loud one. Filled with music, laughter, drinks and the creepy escape from the world we know best. Every Sunday I was invited. I mean every single Sunday since Terzo was promoted to papa. His elder brother secondo parties were just as insane but from what I could tell within those parties is he preferred most of the party goers to be woman then man however for Terzo it was a mix of both. 

“You made it” Ann who was also a frequent parties and my best friend chimed in from beside me. “Oh god if I don't come Terzo may have my head and I simply don't have time for that” I laughed grabbing a drink off the tray. “I would kill to see that” She nudged my shoulder. “Of course you would but you would also kill to see Secondo naked in which I am terrified that you will actually kill someone to see him naked” I said before downing my drink that I thought was wine but turned to be some sort of rum that burned my throat. “Why must he put rum in a champagne glass is he trying to get people drunk” I grumbled. 

I took a look around the room watching as people filled the room dancing and having the time of their lives. On the outer parts people were making out aggressively I might add. Some pushing others to a wall and others getting on top of each other on a couch. Pretty sure everyone at this moment was drunk which was entertaining in itself. 

“Are you listening it’s Secondo” Ann nudged me till I was looking over on the balcony to see he was in fact there “talk to him then huh” I nudged her back. “And stop drinking last thing you need is drunk Ann talking to the whore of that man” I snickered grabbing the drink from her hands. “I'm not bad drunk just a little out of control is all” She reached to grab the glass from my hand but failed miserably. “No but go have fun with him or whatever I'm gonna go find Terzo god forbid this man is somewhere in the middle of this place dancing his life away” I said pushing her into the pit of people that she would have to go through or well kill through to get her night and shining devil. I don't know what she saw in Secondo. Terzo I would understand but secondo don't get it. 

“Where are you darling’ I whispered to myself drinking the last of what was in Ann's cup. “Should have a damn tracker on you” I hissed walking around pushing people of my way. The smell of sweat and lust filled the air it was nauseating. 

“Where are you my love” Talking to myself again. He knows I only go to parties when he was there and he knows I would have his head if I showed up and he was just gone. He did it a few years ago when his elder brother was papa he invited to the party and promised he would be there when I got there spent hours only to find out he was out with god knows who. 

“Looking for Terzo” Omega turned the corner scaring the absolute shit out of me. “A warning next time would be nice and yes where is he” I asked looking behind him just to see more Ghouls and girls. “In his father office” He replied placing his arm around me pulling me in. “smooth Omega very smooth” I chuckled bending down leaving his grip. “A shame” He chuckled walking past me along with the rest of the ghouls “yeah yeah” I waved my hand at him.

“Excuse me” I said pushing through a bunch of people trying to get to his father office. Everyone was to drunk to care and to drunk to even try to be nice. It was like moving a bunch of dead weight awake people its very exhausting. “Will you move” I huffed pushing past the last part of people till I was left in the empty hall leading to the office. “Terzoo” I hummed. I looked head and sure enough the door to the office was close which was often rare even when hard work was happening always opened. 

I knocked on the door a few too many annoying times then just stand with my arms crossed waiting for the locked door to open. “Terzo I swear to god if you dont ope- my darling you made it to the party” Terzo opened the door his face appearing ever so slightly. “Yeah you were no where to be found” I hissed pushing the door opened. “Ah an all make up type of party interesting” I stared at the make up he did on his face and how perfect it was it was always perfect. “Your late” he whispered as I walk pasted him turning around. “Not late just needed more time to get ready” I leaned against the desk looking around at the office that seemed to change every now and then. “So late then” He did his infamous laugh takin the spot next to me. 

“Why you not out in the party you know dancing with girls dancing wit the men dancing with omegaaaaa” I hummed leaning my head down on his shoulder. “Todays party is a bore” He replied swiping his hair from his face. “Your calling your own party boring your the one who uhh planned the damn party” I said lifting my head back to him meet his eyes. That's what got the girls was those damn eyes. Always his damn eyes. “Ah is my eyes stealing you again my love” He smirked leaning closer into me.

 “Oh shut up but seriously your own party and your in a boring office doing nothing that's a bore” I said. I pushed myself off the desk and walking towards the middle of the room. Staring at photos of the papas together and a photo of Terzo his second day as Papa. “What do you do when a party goes to a bore” I heard him ask from behind me. “I don't get up and personal behind someone” I turned around seeing he was only inches away from me. “But if the party is a bore and for some reason still very lively then I make a quiet exit and go do something else but parties are never a bore so I wouldn't know” I answered pushing the strand away from his face. “Your hair is a mess”. 

“It wouldn't work this morning” He grumbled smoothing down his hair. “As always you say” I chuckled. I turned around making my way towards the door. This office was just as boring as Terzo called the party and I wasn't going to waste my night in here. “Leave me so soon” He whispered. “The party is quite fun and this office is quite a bore” I replied turning the handle of the door. “Goodnight Terzo” I hummed leaving the office. The loud music filled the halls and soon people were to. They always invited way more people then they should but as the saying goes and everyone is this troubled family the more the merrier. 

“Take me somewhere when the party is a bore” Terzo said grabbing ahold of my waist pulling me in close. “But i wanna party” I whispered trying to leave his grip. “Darling you will get bored after an hour and come crawling back to me drunk and wanting to leave” He whispered pulling me in closer then before. “Ok I dont crawl back I stumble back maybe if you dont put RUM in a champagne glass I would be stumbling seriously theres like three shots of rum in each glass Terzo” I explained still trying to leave his grip but was so strong for me and I was just to lazy to try to fight. 

“I don't want them knowing I’m gone” He whispered pulling me down a hall and then another hall till we were out the ministry and into the dark. “So much for getting drunk” I groaned staring up at the night sky filled with bright stars and a half moon. “I got that covered my love” I turned around staring at two bottles of wine. “How did you manage to grab those will holding me and when I wasn't looking” I asked, taking one from his hand “Magic” he sung waving his hands in the air. “Yeah yeah” I shook my head opening the bottle of wine and taking a chug. “Easy my love don't want to carry your stumble self around” He took the bottle wine also taking a chug from it. “You take me away from the party I get to get drunk off wine” I took the bottle back hugging it. He rolled his eyes while chuckling. He hated me at times but he wouldn't dare let me go. 

“So take me my love” He grabbed my hand placing a kiss. “Stop with the dramatics oh dear” I chuckled grabbing ahold of his hand. “Thought I would have to convince you more my apologies” He replied squeezing my hand tight. 

So we walked. This were a few places I would go when I was bored and needed a laugh or needed silence but today we needed a laugh and just to have some fun and lucky for me I knew a place a place they he may just steal from me. “You wont kill me will you” He asked as he twirled me around. “Uhh not sure yet have to see when we get there” I replied once again leaning my head down on him. “I brought the wine that should save me” He held up the other bottle that was yet to be opened. “Ok ok your saved” I chuckled taking another sip from the bottle. “Hold this and give me the other” We switched bottle and I was now stuck with the unopened as he drank from the opened one. 

“How far till we get to wherever were going” He asked pulling me in closer then before. “Close my love” I tried but miserably failed at mocking his voice. “That was awful” He laughed. “Ok turn down here” I pointed to a very dark forest. “This is my worst nightmare” he whispered. “Shh you'll be fine but we have to walk through the trees” I explained changing our path so we were in fact walking in the middle of the forest instead of the path. “Why not the path” He asked. “They can't see us” I explained as I fastened our pace till we got sight of a bridge brightly lighten up. 

“Sit sit” I whispered siting on a log. “I am so confused” he whispered sitting up next to me. “I don't know when this started but a group of like 14 year olds they come down to this bridge and they draw satanic stuff all along the concrete of the bridge and then they will do a horrible time doing satanic stuff its not really satanic its just young kids who don't do their research and its the funniest thing” I explained. “You sound as if you are a stalker” He whispered. “I am not I am just someone who was trying to go for a smoke and ended up seeing kids doing creepy funny stuff”. I took the bottle from his hands taking another chug, At this point he took the unopened one and opened it up. 

The forest filled with the sounds of bugs and the odd frog croaking. It was fun watching Terzo be confused and not knowing what was going to happen. He was someone who always remind me of a person wanting to be in control and today at this moment he was not I was or at least I kinda was. “You look at me a lot” He stared into my eyes moving a strand of hair away from my face. “I forgot that your decent looking” I smiled leaning closer. “Also reminds me of how much of a whore you are” I leaned closer. He stared into my eyes then down to my lips. He really was just a whore. “Do not tease me” He whispered inching closer. “But it is so very fun my love” I whispered and so we sat near inches apart one more move and everything I fought so hard to not happen would happen and in this moment I would be ok with it. Till the loud noises of kids filled the forest. I was hoping they would be late.. I was wrong. 

“The satanic kids’ I whispered looking over. Sure enough they all had their markers and spray paint and all started to draw all types of things on the concrete. “There is so many” He whispered. “What are they drawing” he leaned in closer trying to catch a look. “The kid on the right with the red shirt he draws the devil with some sort of quote under. The girl beside him will draw the upside cross and the girl on the furthest left she will open a book and start chanting some weird stuff and the guy next to her he will draw a dick on the ground” I explained. Terzo looked back over at me baffled by how much I knew about the group. “Why a dick” He asked staring back at the group. “Why not dicks are fun” I replied. He turned back and just stared at me. “That is a true statement” He smirked. 

So we watched. The group of kids just having fun doing a not so satanic stuff. Terzo loved each and every part of it. As much as I hoped to be at a party drinking my life away sitting here with Terzo watching a group of people doing stupid stuff was just as great. 

“What the hell is she doing” He asked chugging the rest of the one bottle of wine. “She is going to cloak on the guys and say a bible verse” I explained. “Oh hell” He chuckled and it was true one of the boys got on his knees and the gal who drew the upside down cross placed the cloak over his head and she read a verse. They were not as loud as usually but we could hear the world hell a few many times.  

Just like that as fast as they came they left and the loud bridge was now once again filled with silence. “That was the weirdest thing I've seen in a long time” He said. “Yeah I have no idea where they got their research from hopefully they don't fail school” I replied standing up. “Comee” I grabbed his hand pulling him up. “Seeing what they write before it gets cleaned up”. I pulled him down towards the bridge. 

“Theres the dick” Terzo stared down at the ground. “It bigger then usual” I mumbled. Terzo looked up at me once again the back down. “Look look” I pointed over to the bridge that was filled with new drawings. “Oh wow” He walked closer staring at each one. “This is such a confusing but lovely thing” he mumbled crouching down looking at the rest. “The devil drawer is damn near good at drawing” I pointed. Terzo looked up tracing the line with his fingers. “Should hire the kids” He chuckled standing back up. “Oh yeah so my friend stalks  you on your random satanic things and she brought me along to stalk you and it seems you guys are talents you should join our satanic church” I explained. 

“I would make it sound less creepy” he said shaking his head. I leaned against the concrete wall staring up at the moth that was flying around the light.

The cool breeze of the wind went through the forest luckily it wasn't that cold and the breeze felt good rather then making me want to run for warmth.

 “Aha a half a bottle of wine left” Terzo said who was walking back out of the trees. “How did you move so quickly” I laughed taking the bottle from his hands. “A perk” He winked walking closer to me. “A whore” I whispered taking a chug. “I can agree to that” He said with a small smile formed to his lips. ““Ah is my eyes stealing you again my love” I asked taking another chug. “Yes my love” He whispered stepping closer. He took the bottle from my hands chugging almost the rest. “Heyy” I grabbed the bottle drinking what was left of it. “Then there was no wine” he whispered taking the bottle from my hands and placing it on the ground. “Probably should have grabbed the third” I said staring back up at the moth near the light. 

I felt Terzo closer to me like on the log where we sat. I hoped we would forget. I was wrong. I seem to be wrong about a lot of things today. 

“Why must you be so close” I looked down at him and he was in fact only inches apart from me. “Cause your a tease” he whispered staring into my eyes. “I think your just a horny whore” I replied staring into his eyes. God his eyes.     

A strand of his hair fallen to the middle of his face once again. I raised his hand moving the strand out of his face. My hand slid down to his cheek. I touched his lips as my hand slid down his neck to the collar of his shirt. “A whore you call me” he whispered placing his hand onto my leg and sliding up my thigh pulling up my dress. “Mhm” I replied. He slid his hand up my waist up to my chest then to my neck. He then slid his hand down to the middle of my dress pulling it down ever so slightly. 

Still holding his collar I gave up to whatever stopped me. I no longer cared and no longer wanted to stop what would happen even on the satanic bridge. I pulled his body close leaning into his lips. His free hand hugged my waist closing whatever space was left. His kissed me letting go of the dress and grabbing ahold of my ass griping it tightly. Soft moans left our lips. He pulled away staring at me then down at my body before looking back up at me. “A tease” He whispered. I leaned in kissing his lips my free hand sliding down unbuttoning the buttons on his shirt.

He pushed me against the wall letting go of my body. Soon I would feel his bare hands on my thigh and neck. His lips from mine down to my neck. His shirt was now full off exposing his chest. I slid my hand into his shirt pulling him close.I have no idea what I was doing and at much as he knew what to do we both whores that had no idea this would happen. 

At his lips slide back up to my lips biting my lip footsteps filled the trail. Terzo pulled away with a groan. “Who” I whispered looking over to see none other then his ghouls. “I may just behead them” He shook his head looking back at me. He leaned in kissing my lips once more. “Papa your needed back” Omega said while clearing his throat. “Yeah yeah” he huffed buttoning up his shirt and placing his gloves back on. “Alpha make sure she gets home” Terzo said as he walked past the ghouls. “Yes sir” Alpha whispered as the rest followed behind Terzo. 

“Alpha how was your night” I ask adjusting my dress. “Not as good as yours Ma'am” he chuckled as I walked up beside him. “Nothing was happening” I said. “You have black make up on your neck and on your lips” he answered. “Get me home Alpha” I chuckled. “Yes Ma’am”. 

So much for that.. 

--------

It's not my best work, Simply a story for warm up

-- Ivy

[theygotlost]

2023 book log/year in review!

here is a comprehensive of breakdown of every book I read this year!!

Terry Pratchett's Discworld

this was THE YEAR OF DISCWORLD for me. I read more disc books than non disc books. I'm probably gonna take a break from the series for a few weeks to get my breath back. I read my first ever disc book, Going Postal, in december of 2022 so it doesn't technically count as being part of this year, but here's every one that I read starting in january, in the order I read them:

Making Money

Raising Steam 

Guards! Guards! (x2)

Men at Arms (x2)

Soul Music

Feet of Clay

Mort

Jingo

The Fifth Elephant

Night Watch

Wyrd Sisters

Faust Eric

The Wee Free Men

Witches Abroad

Thud!

Monstrous Regiment

The Truth

Lords and Ladies

Hogfather

Rereads

The Fourth Bear is kind of whatever but rereading all the others has cemented them as some of my favorite books and I'm really glad I got to experience them again because I hadn't read them in years 😁

The Fourth Bear by Jasper Fforde

Catch-22 by Joseph Heller

How I Killed Pluto (and Why It Had It Coming) by Mike Brown

Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency by Douglas Adams

The Long Dark Teatime of the Soul by Douglas Adams

Other Books

It's kind of embarrassing to see how this list pales in comparison to all the disc books but I WAS reading other stuff I swear!! look!!

Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage by Haruki Murakami

Sacrifice by Mitchell Smith

Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel

The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K. Le Guin

20,000 Leagues Under the Sea by Jules Verne

The Lost Future of Pepperharrow by Natasha Pulley

I Am Legend by Richard Matheson

Did Not Finish

Some of these I got through more of than others. the really bad ones I dropped only after 50 pages or so. im sorry women.

Closing Time by Joseph Heller

Early Riser by Jasper Fforde 

The Real and the Unreal, vol. 2: Outer Space, Inner Lands by Ursula K. Le Guin

A Wizard of Earthsea by Ursula K. Le Guin

Let the Great World Spin by Colum McCann

Total Stats

Books started: 36

Books finished: 31

Books finished that I hadn't read before: 26 (19 Discworld, 7 not)

I PROMISE I'm not trying to be one of those "30 books in 30 days!" type booktok people, I wasn't aiming for any specific number. I only read this many books because i genuinely really loved them and couldn't stop reading them!!!!!!!

Reading List for 2024

I have an even longer list than this with a bunch of books that I saw or were recommended to me and I thought "oh that seems interesting maybe I'll check it out" but who knows if I will actually get to them. this list below is basically a new years resolution, books that I fully intend to read this year:

Cloud Cuckoo Land by Anthony Doerr (already currently reading this one, just need to finish it)

Slaughterhouse Five by Kurt Vonnegut

Facing the Wave: A Journey in the Wake of the Tsunami by Gretel Ehrlich

One Hundred Years of Solitude by Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Sea of Tranquility by Emily St. John Mandel

The Watchmaker of Filigree Street by Natasha Pulley

The Bedlam Stacks by Natasha Pulley

The Half Life of Valery K by Natasha Pulley

Fun Home by Alison Bechdel

Maus by Art Spiegelman

Discworld Reading List

Yes, I am keeping this one separate. I don't necessarily intend to get to all of these by the end of 2024, just some time in the future (I probably will end up reading them all next year anyway LOL). Once I finish these, only the Rincewind and Tiffany Aching series remain. I'm not as interested in those based on the small sampling I got of them, but I'll probably read them all at some point just for the sake of completion.

Moving Pictures

Snuff

Reaper Man

Pyramids

Small Gods

Equal Rites

Maskerade

Carpe Jugulum

it's kind of scary to think that this is all thats left..... idk what im gonna do after that man..... kill myself? start over from the beginning? I guess ill just have to cross that bridge when I get to it ☹

happy new year everypony!!!!

[lizajane2]

Outer Banks 2x01

"Here's a fun fact. You ready? Here we go. Everyone you know will die."

Okay but like JJ wearing overalls... Fucking what? I find that so hot.

Rafe and Ward at Sheriff Peterkin's funeral, me:

"It's always the kooks fault," I mean if you weren't blatantly disrespecting his best friend in front of him... so yeah, 100% your fault. And Rafe is sitting pretty while JB is on the run in Nassau.

Rudy is a good actor. I love the way he improvised the way JJ holds a hand against his chest to calm himself down when he's panicking. And the whimper he makes when walking away... I'm gonna go cry in a corner now. I'm sure he feels like he's alone without John B.

Ward's desperation is just making him more suspicious.

"We're the victims here," If i didn't know that Sarah was alive i'd almost feel bad for you. Almost.

"What do you think we should do, Rafe?"

"I think we should kill them all."

I'm sorry, but Rudy has a beautiful back. The broad shoulders. The way his muscles ripple and flex under the shirt. His biceps. This man could crush me, snap me in two, and I'd be thankful.

JJ deserves to be happy. He deserves all the happiness in the world. And it needs to stay that way. He needs to believe that something good can happen and that he can have it, keep it, and want it.

Pope: "I went off the rails," proceeds to blackmail someone into confessing what they saw on the tarmac.

I don't know ya'll, but getting to a safe full of gold would be the least of my worries if I'm a fugitive. I'd be more worried about clearing my name to get back home.

These teens are just as stupid as they are smart. It's peek entertainment.

[vanilladaises-rp]

So with both the Playstation and Xbox showcases having wrapped, along with a few others, I thought that I should share some gaming news:

Star Wars Outlaws

I seriously did not expect this game at all. And it looks phenomenal! I'm thrilled that they're turning away from the usual Rebellion-Empire, Jedi storylines that we've seen recently and are going towards a gunslinger, smuggler point of view this time around. And from the gameplay shown, this is basically Red Dead Redemption 2 in Star Wars form. The only concern is that this is developed by Ubisoft, which has a reputation for downgrading their games after post-production and hasn't done a lot of innovation in their latest games.

Starfield

I know there is a lot riding on this game, especially for the current Xbox generation. But this game isn't going to make me buy a new Xbox any time soon, mainly because this game looks and feels generic at best. And it has the same game mechanics as No Man's Sky, a game that you could get for 50% when it goes on sale frequently. Or if you just want a Space RPG, then just get The Outer Worlds for $20.

I honestly don't know why people preordering this game in droves, particularly because Bethesda has released really buggy games while also having absurd microtransactions. But since Microsoft owns them now, I'm also having my doubts since one of Microsoft's studios just released perhaps one of the worst disastrous launches in gaming history a little over a month ago. Also, it's locked at 30 frames per second, so if I get a Series X, it's not going to take advantage of the hardware. So, I'll wait until the reviews come in, or at the very least, it goes on sale.

Xbox Series S Carbon Black

It's simply the Series S, just in black. However, it has 1TB of storage instead of 512GB. And it only costs $350. So $50 more for an extra 500GB? This is a really great budget deal in my opinion if you want to upgrade to the current generation of consoles without breaking the bank.

CRKD Nitro Deck

So this is a Switch accessory, but if you want to make your Switch look like a Steam Deck, this is it. However, you don't have to worry about stick drift, it has reprogrammable back buttons, and you can customize the joysticks.

Also, it comes in a limited edition Gamecube colorway, which is really nostalgic for Nintendo fans.

Im gonna be honest i don’t know either game so i hade to research lol 😂 but they both do look really cool I’ve only every played Star Wars Fallen Order but outlaws looks pretty fun, i would definitely like to check it out. Star Field looks sick!! Omg the graphics, but from the trailer it looks like a shooting game am i wrong? I don’t play games like that anymore i used to play stuff like gta san andres or cod in high school but i wasn’t v good tbh 😂. Auto aim is my bestie is all I’ll say haha. I don’t know much about game mechanics or frame rates so i can’t say much there sorry. You can educate me if you want lol. Also I’ve heard of a steam deck and seen it idk what it does? I looked up the nitro deck and i love the gamecube skin, i still have my gamecube and controls 🥹 once i know what it is ill think about purchasing it lol