#i'm just fucking tired

[gojos-thot-patrol]

Okay, Anon Is officially turned off. I've gotten a lot of hate in my time, but to the person who thought it was okay to send me a novel about the way you want to hurt me:

What the fuck is wrong with you? Please seek professional help you are fucking sick.

This is your friendly reminder that I'm a real person, with real feelings and emotions. I'm fucking human, please treat me as such.

[rabbitfootjack]

Being on any site is like passing by a million conversations that aren't for you, or rather, like being around a bajillion town criers at once. They all have their own bs they think is so fucking important and are screaming about it. It's like walking down the street, and you're just trying to get to a specific place, but there's so much noise along the way, and some times it catches your attention, and it's a crapshoot whether it's gonna effect you negatively or positively. Like taking psycic damage with every scroll no matter how hard you curate your feed.

And in 2024, where else is there to go for free than online? There are no friendly outdoor spaces that aren't free. It's like you gotta pay $6 just to fucking sit anywhere.

So I'm stuck with the words of strangers or paying for peace.

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.

You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?

Click on their name. And look at their profile.

I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.

"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.

"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.

Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.

Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.

Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.

I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.

Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.

[blackat-t7t]

Whyyyy am I always exhausted during the day but then full of energy at night?

It's been Worse these past two weeks or so. I literally cannot make myself get out of bed, and when I finally do I feel like I'll pass out the minute I close my eyes again.

Body, why?

[hpysprkl]

It's a "tequila shot with an extra-large mezcal margarita chaser, followed by a chocolate glazed donut and quality time with Fallout" kind of night 😑

[lazylittledragon]

dadkarios doods sponsored by my stress migraine

[swordsonnet]

i'm sorry but i don't think we should call this the "autism website" when there's still posts with tons of notes mocking people who:

struggle with social skills / have anxiety around social settings

are unemployed / unable to work certain jobs

have intense or "age-inappropriate" interests

haven't had certain life experiences that are deemed universal/essential

struggle with personal hygiene

don't have any friends or dating experience

don't go outside much or at all

take things literally / don't get sarcasm/jokes

have unusual ways of speaking

generally aren't "normal"

[xray-vex]

"Like stuff. Don't be someone that doesn't like stuff, and if you don't like stuff, don't be a dick about it."

- David Jenkins

[blownawayy]

i want the world to stop for like 1 year so i can rest

[steviesnailbat]

There's a special kind of exhaustion that comes with living in a conservative state where minimum wage is still $7.25 an hour

[edwardallenpoe]

I think my biggest issue is that I want to save everyone. I think that if I show my support, and do what I can, I'll actually make a dent. And when shit hits the fan, it's all my fault. Some of it is, of course, but, I always beat myself up for not being the best I can, the best anyone could be. I ignore the fact that I'm a flawed person and not a superhero, and I fucking hate it. I don't want to be a hero. But I don't want anyone to hurt, I don't want anyone to be alone, and I fail again and again and again and it sucks. I try to reel in my own emotions, try to push away my own needs for the benefit of the other and I still fucking fail. What am I doing wrong?

[epickiya722]

"Don't worry, Bae. I'll protect you!" OH, I BET!!

[thevioletcaptain]

i genuinely don't care how good a piece of ai generated art or writing looks on the surface. i don't care if it emulates brush strokes and metaphor in a way indistinguishable from those created by a person.

it is not the product of thoughtful creation. it offers no insights into the creator's life or viewpoint. it has no connection to a moment in time or a place or an attitude. it has no perspective. it has no value.

it's empty, it's hollow, and it exists only to generate clicks (and by extension, ad revenue.)

it's just another revolting symptom of the disease that is late stage capitalism, and it fucking sucks.

[herewithinthevoid]

[saragrosie]

I have been sketching. So much tma. Here's some expansions on my Jon and Martin designs I've been doing.

Another note I forgor to mention is I love how after hearing Simon go "it's enough to make your hair turn white" about Martin's office in s4 many of us collectively agreed his hair turned white because of his association with the Lonely. The shared consciousness is real and we use it to play hot potato with the communal brain cell dedicated to the sillies.

Closeup of apocalypse boyfriends (also to the person who said they love my s5 Jon's fancy white girl updo: I think about that every day)

[lazylittledragon]

not to toot my own horn too loud or anything but i've showered 5/6 days so far this week and started running again and now i can kill god