#teenage autism drama

[hpysprkl]

It's a "tequila shot with an extra-large mezcal margarita chaser, followed by a chocolate glazed donut and quality time with Fallout" kind of night 😑

[bowtruckle]

lord help me deal with teenagers and all of those who have no patience or understanding on this site 🙏

[spiderandmosquito]

So I just had a random nerdy shower question

If Nickelodeon finally grows a pair and made a TV-14 Ninja Turtles show, would it be on Paramount Plus or MTV?

[astroauddy]

Oh Audrey why do you likes trains so much?

Cars give me headaches, bikes are fun but not good where I live bc it’s cold, I love walking but it’s long and cold, planes are says metal tubes hurling through the air, buses are buses, motorcycles are LOUD. Rain are OBJECTIVELY the best means of transportation

[lavendorii]

I still dont get why people hate penny .. "she's rude" autism "team star is stupid" yeah it was a teenage drama troupe "she stole from the pokemon league" ooh noo the government has slightly less money now . come on

[gatitties]

One Piece: Masterlist I

(Other works) / Masterlist II

Donquixote Pirates

"Hard work" - Doflamingo x designer!reader

;; You weren't interested in this particular job, you didn't like your client, your patience runs out easily but you're on the ropes.

Heart Pirates

"Not in my world" - Crew x isekaed!student!reader

;; You find yourself in a totally different world and trying to adjust, you're not sure if you're better off here or in your old life, but you can't complain.

"Distractions" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You are easily distracted by cute things.

"Appearances" - Law x fem!reader

;; Law discovers a new facet about you, intelligence chases you but you are faster.

"Fainted out" - Crew x teen!reader

;; You have a strange blackout, despite not feeling anything wrong with you, your crew care about you.

"Magpie" - Crew x reader

;; You like shiny things and you may have a bit of diogenes syndrome, you just like to collect things!

"Special" - Crew x reader

;; It’s just you having your little autism/ADHD moment with this crew.

"Parent figure" - Crew x teen!fem!reader

;; Being the youngest in the group you found one of the best parental figures you could have dreamed of.

"Baby duck" - Crew x reader

;; You are a calm and curious person who prefers to follow around your captain or partner.

"Big brother" - Law x sister!reader

;; Having a surgeon brother is great, isn't it?

"Faceless" - Crew x gn!reader

;; You finally found a place where you could feel yourself after the curse that fell on you.

"Coma" - Crew x teen!reader

;; A life-threatening attack hits you and everyone is worried about your condition.

"Big cake" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You have a big ass, nothing more, nothing less.

"Stubborn" - Platonic!yandere!Law x teen!reader

;; You are a stubborn teenager and you refuse to have extra 'protection', bad luck for you…

"Cuddles" - Crew x reader

;; Your way of showing affection and love is hugs, no one is complaining!

"Mischievous" - Crew x reader

;; You're a mischievous person, you like to cause some chaos with your powers, even if it's your own crew, you just enjoy the drama too much.

"Healing" - Crew x teen!reader

;; Being kidnapped is not a pretty experience, neither is torture, your entire personality will change completely, but maybe they can heal your emotional wounds.

"Writer" - Crew x fem!teen!reader

;; Even with the power to write and rewrite the course of your life and the lives of others, bad things are bound to happen.

"Heartbeat" - Crew x Mitsuri!reader

;; Your heart feels like it's going to explode at how adorable everyone around you seems, painting your vision with rose-colored glasses.

Kid Pirates

"Not in my world" - Crew x isekaed!student!reader

;; You find yourself in a totally different world and trying to adjust, you're not sure if you're better off here or in your old life, but you can't complain.

"Motherly" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You never thought that you would end up being the mother figure of one of the most bloodthirsty crews, much less that they would appreciate you enough to defend you against vulgar words.

"Distractions" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You are easily distracted by cute things.

"Ghoulish cuteness" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You love cute little animals and you brutally punish the abusers, drawing the attention of a certain redhaired pirate.

"Stuffed animal" - Crew x child!fem!reader

;; What you least expected that night was to find something similar to friends or family.

"Magpie" - Crew x reader

;; You like shiny things and you may have a bit of diogenes syndrome, you just like to collect things!

"Special" - Crew x reader

;; It’s just you having your little autism/ADHD moment with this crew.

"Parent figure" - Crew x teen!fem!reader

;; Being the youngest in the group you found one of the best parental figures you could have dreamed of.

"Sensitive" - Crew x reader

;; You think that all you do is annoy but it's just your mind playing with you.

"Baby duck" - Crew x reader

;; You are a calm and curious person who prefers to follow around your captain or partner.

"Big brother" - Kid x sister!reader

;; Having a rabid mechanic as a brother is great, isn't it?

"Coma" - Crew x teen!reader

;; A life-threatening attack hits you and everyone is worried about your condition.

"Big cake" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You have a big ass, nothing more, nothing less.

"Vocals" - Crew x singer!reader

;; The discovery of your voice was a ray of tranquility for this crew.

"Music" - Crew x reader

;; You swear you hate white girl music and yet it only takes a little alcohol for you to know all the songs you swore you hated.

"Healing" - Crew x teen!reader

;; Being kidnapped is not a pretty experience, neither is torture, your entire personality will change completely, but maybe they can heal your emotional wounds.

"Writer" - Crew x fem!teen!reader

;; Even with the power to write and rewrite the course of your life and the lives of others, bad things are bound to happen.

"Heartbeat" - Crew x Mitsuri!reader

;; Your heart feels like it's going to explode at how adorable everyone around you seems, painting your vision with rose-colored glasses.

Red Hair Pirates

"Sugar baby" - Shanks x reader

;; What you thought was a financial relationship ended up being something more than that.

"Actress" - Shanks (& Mihawk) x fem!reader

;; The peaceful life with little adventures that you were looking for always turns into chases, luckily you can always have a rest with two of your favorite people.

"Special dance" - Teen!Shanks x teen!reader

;; Nobody seems to want to be your partner to dance, luckily you manage to find someone to enjoy the night.

"Fainted out" - Crew x teen!reader

;; You have a strange blackout, despite not feeling anything wrong with you, your crew care about you.

"Discouraged" - Shanks x fem!reader

;; You are not having the best days but your family and friends make you see that you should not drown in a glass of water.

"Whims" - Shanks x wife!reader

;; It doesn't seem like you can get a second of rest, but your husband surprises you with some gifts.

"Unwanted" - Shanks x wife!reader

;; You didn’t want to be part of that ceremony, but you’re not brave enough to run away either.

"Sensitive" - Crew x reader

;; You think that all you do is annoy but it's just your mind playing with you.

"Burden?" - Crew x reader

;; You think all you're doing is causing trouble, but they just don't care, they will always be there for you.

"Family" - Shanks x daughter!reader

;; Your bravery helps you save a person unfairly judged, this whole incident generates a drastic change in your pace of life where it seems that your father is ready to show himself.

Strawhats

"Not in my world" - Crew x isekaed!student!reader

;; You find yourself in a totally different world and trying to adjust, you're not sure if you're better off here or in your old life, but you can't complain.

"Accidental fall" - Crew x male!reader

;; Your careless ass ends up jumping off a cliff and instead of meeting a painful death all you find is new friends.

"Need to be protected" - Platonic!Yandere!Monster trio x teen!fem!reader

;; You find yourself in your favorite anime but things seem to be a little weirder than you imagined.

"Distractions" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You are easily distracted by cute things.

"Fainted out" - Crew x teen!reader

;; You have a strange blackout, despite not feeling anything wrong with you, your crew care about you.

"Hurt heart" - Sanji x reader

;; Hurt by the behavior of one of your companions, Sanji makes his way into your heart to heal it.

"Hot water" - Crew x reader

;; Some of them are... stinky, time to have a hot shower!

"Magpie" - Crew x reader

;; You like shiny things and you may have a bit of diogenes syndrome, you just like to collect things!

"Special" - Crew x reader

;; It’s just you having your little autism/ADHD moment with this crew.

"Parent figure" - Crew x teen!fem!reader

;; Being the youngest in the group you found one of the best parental figures you could have dreamed of.

"Anxious teen" - Crew x teen!reader

;; You have an anxiety attack but luckily they are there to cover your back.

"Speedy" - Crew x male!reader

;; You seem to awaken some powers that you did not know and you try to help as much as possible but time plays against you.

"Big brother" - Luffy x sister!reader

;; Having a stretchy monkey as a brother is great, isn't it?

"Shy" - Crew x teen!reader

;; You surprise the crew by talking longer than you ever did because of your shyness.

"Coma" - Crew x teen!reader

;; A life-threatening attack hits you and everyone is worried about your condition.

"Slient" - Crew x gn!reader

;; You're not a person of many words, but that's okay, you're still super cool!

"Culture" - Crew x muslim!fem!reader

;; Your crew reacts to your habits, being a practitioner of the Shia movement within Muslim culture.

"Big cake" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You have a big ass, nothing more, nothing less.

"Stubborn" - Platonic!yandere!Luffy & Zoro x teen!reader

;; You are a stubborn teenager and you refuse to have extra 'protection', bad luck for you…

"Hurt" - Crew x child!reader

;; Skypiea is a lot more dangerous than it looks and its self-proclaimed God didn't think it would be fun to have a child in his game.

"Clone" - Crew x reader

;; All your few memories from your childhood seem to make sense when you discover that you are not a person but a clone of someone.

"Adventurer" - Crew x link!reader

;; You are a faithful and reliable companion, with few words beyond a few shouts or phrases, as well as a genius at solving puzzles.

"Music" - Crew x reader

;; You swear you hate white girl music and yet it only takes a little alcohol for you to know all the songs you swore you hated.

"Mischievous" - Crew x reader

;; You're a mischievous person, you like to cause some chaos with your powers, even if it's your own crew, you just enjoy the drama too much.

"Golden heart" - Crew x Tanjiro!reader

;; You are the most admirable and educated person on the ship despite being the youngest person, your senses make you stand out in addition to your kindness.

"Aquatic" - Crew x teen!reader

;; Your brain tends to wander to the deepest corners of your mind, your captain doesn't help you concentrate much, but luckily the rest of the crew does.

"Feminine" - Crew x reader

;; You stand out for your features and actions, being hyperfeminine.

"Alexithymia" - Crew x reader

;; Your impassive face and lack of expressions don't seem to bother your friends at all.

"Copies" - Crew x teen!reader

;; Who wouldn't want a mini version of Zoro on their crew? Here you are to fulfill that wish.

"Healing" - Crew x teen!reader

;; Being kidnapped is not a pretty experience, neither is torture, your entire personality will change completely, but maybe they can heal your emotional wounds.

"Writer" - Crew x fem!teen!reader

;; Even with the power to write and rewrite the course of your life and the lives of others, bad things are bound to happen.

"Heartbeat" - Crew x Mitsuri!reader

;; Your heart feels like it's going to explode at how adorable everyone around you seems, painting your vision with rose-colored glasses.

"Surprise?" - Crew x reader

;; Everything seems to fall apart before their eyes when you die, only to find out that you were enjoying yourself in Sabaody and not in your grave.

Whitebeard Pirates

"Rescued" - Crew x reader

;; Your home island seems to be in complete chaos, you can see no hope in the end of this war but at least they manage to rescue you at the last moment.

"Distractions" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You are easily distracted by cute things.

"Fainted out" - Crew x teen!reader

;; You have a strange blackout, despite not feeling anything wrong with you, your crew care about you.

"Special dance" - Whitebeard x teen!reader

;; Nobody seems to want to be your partner to dance, luckily you manage to find someone to enjoy the night.

"Discouraged" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You are not having the best days but your family and friends make you see that you should not drown in a glass of water.

"Parent figure" - Crew x teen!fem!reader

;; Being the youngest in the group you found one of the best parental figures you could have dreamed of.

"Magpie" - Crew x reader

;; You like shiny things and you may have a bit of diogenes syndrome, you just like to collect things!

"Burden?" - Crew x reader

;; You think all you're doing is causing trouble, but they just don't care, they will always be there for you.

"Sensitive" - Crew x reader

;; You think that all you do is annoy but it's just your mind playing with you.

"Not a good time" - Crew x fem!reader

;; You are not going through your best moment in life but apparently there are people who fight for your well-being.

"Baby duck" - Crew x reader

;; You are a calm and curious person who prefers to follow around your captain or partner.

"Cuddles" - Crew x reader

;; You are a person of physical affection and others don't seem to be bothered.

"Savior" - Ace, Thatch & Marco x fem!reader

;; You refuse to let the only person who could see you die when no one else did.

"Vocals" - Crew x singer!reader

;; The discovery of your voice was a ray of tranquility for this crew.

"Music" - Crew x reader

;; You swear you hate white girl music and yet it only takes a little alcohol for you to know all the songs you swore you hated.

Others

"Sugar baby" - Mihawk x reader

;; What you thought was a financial relationship ended up being something more than that.

"Actress" - Mihawk (& Shanks) x fem!reader

;; The peaceful life with little adventures that you were looking for always turns into chases, luckily you can always have a rest with two of your favorite people.

"Burden?" - Mihawk x reader

;; You think all you're doing is causing trouble, but they just don't care, they will always be there for you.

[whenthegoldrays]

ELLY'S TOP TEN K-DRAMAS (with songs to match!)

10. Queen of Tears (2024)

Baek Hyun-woo is relieved to hear that his wife has only three months to live, which will save him the mortification of divorcing her — what he isn’t expecting is to fall back in love with her in those three months. This show gets a little crazy, but the acting is top tier, and the ensemble cast is one of my favorites ever. (Also, the OST is my new most beloved.)

Song for this drama: Don’t Take The Money

9. Extraordinary Attorney Woo (2022)

Woo Young-Woo navigates her career, life changes, and love as a rookie at Hanbada Law Firm and a woman on the autism spectrum. Young-Woo is a darling, and her boy is the greenest flag ever.

Song for this drama: scales

8. Castaway Diva (2023)

After 15 years stranded on a desert island, Seo Mok-ha pursues her dream of becoming a singer while searching for the boy who helped her escape her abusive father. Despite the horrors, this show will make you believe there is good in the world.

Song for this drama: Sweet Chamomile

7. Hometown Cha Cha Cha (2021)

Yoon Hye-jin moves to a seaside town to open a dental clinic and finds the home she always wanted amidst its colorful residents. So funny and the male lead is basically the perfect man.

Song for this drama: Apple Pie

6. Familiar Wife (2018)

A married couple who have fallen out of love get to see each other in a new light after the husband, Ju-hyeok, goes back in time and changes their history. You've never rooted this hard for such an infuriating man.

Song for this drama: No One Knows

5. Marry My Husband (2024)

After being murdered by her husband and best friend, a woman wakes up ten years in the past, months before her wedding, and must fight to prevent her marriage and eventual death from happening again. Swooniest male lead, cutest female friendships, and some of the most legit terrifying villains.

Song for this drama: Funeral

4. Lovely Runner (2024)

Immediately after her idol commits suicide, the devastated Sol is transported back to high school, where she discovers that the two of them used to be neighbors and begins a desperate mission to change the course of his life. Get ready for the most adorable, most pathetic loser of a male lead ever.

Song for this drama: Always Remember Us This Way

3. Crash Landing On You (2019–2020)

After a freak accident lands her in North Korea, Yoon Se-ri must rely on the soldier who saved her life in order to survive, stay hidden, and get back to South Korea. Rips you apart in the best possible way.

Song for this drama: If I Never Knew You

2. Live Up To Your Name (2017)

Renowned acupuncturist Heo Im falls 400 years through time and lands in Seoul, where his life and fate intertwine with cardiac surgeon Choi Yeon Kyung. Beautiful, unmatched chemistry.

Song for this drama: epiphany

1. Twinkling Watermelon (2023)

Ha Eun Gyeol is mysteriously sent back in time, where he meets his parents as teenagers and discovers he didn't know as much about them as he thought he did. Peak family feels, peak soft couple, and peak enemies to lovers.

Song for this drama: Long Live

[nothingenoughao3]

hai i'm curious about what twin peaks is, can you explain it to me (preferably without spoilers) /nf

Oh, is it my birthday?! Yes I can do that!

I will say that I generally do not consider things that happen in the pilot or first episode of a TV series to be "spoilers" so much as "premise". So anything I say here that's direct plot-stuff will only come from the pilot. All right? Let's dig in!

CAPSULE SUMMARY

Twin Peaks is a surreal/magical realism/police procedural/drama/horror/soap opera produced by David Lynch and Mark Frost. It had two seasons of 30 episodes total, a film (Fire Walk With Me), and a third season that came out 25 years later in 2017.

In the pilot episode, a teenaged young woman who everyone in town knows, Laura Palmer, is found murdered. The town reels to cope with her demise and the investigation. A second young woman is found alive and wandering--and she crossed state lines as she wandered. The police call in the FBI, since it's now a multi-state case, and in walks Special Agent Dale Cooper.

As Cooper begins his investigation, he discovers that there's far, far more going on in Twin Peaks than he'd first anticipated.

[NOTE HERE that Twin Peaks covers a LOT of extremely tough and triggering topics over the course of its run. DoesTheDogDie should have a list of all triggers, although those will come with spoilers. The main one to be aware of is that sexual assault, domestic abuse, and rape are discussed. The aftermath of these crimes is depicted. It's 1990, so it's not graphic as in Law & Order: SVU, but it is very much present. Please take care of yourself first!]

NOT-SPOILER REASONS TO WATCH IT

It is a vital historical work of art. Twin Peaks revived the police procedural, popularized soap operas as an art form, launched and relaunched multiple acting careers, introduced surrealism to multiple generations of TV watchers, taught basics of Buddhism, helped spread awareness of the Free Tibet movement, and inspired countless references and imitators. When you watch Twin Peaks, you'll feel like you've seen it before... because you've almost certainly seen something which only exists because of Twin Peaks.

David Lynch is Autism Patient Zero who does not compromise his writing or his vision for NT audiences. He writes dialogue and directs actors in a way that can only be described as "everybody's got the autism accent", and it is a DELIGHT to experience.

The visuals are, often, so strong that you will forget how to breathe. Many of the sets and locations are treated like characters in and of themselves.

The title, Twin Peaks, ties into the show's central themes about identity, which is one of my favorite themes in fiction. What makes you who you are? If there was someone who looked a lot like you, would that compromise who you are? What if they have the same name as you? Are you no longer who you are if you can't remember your past? Is it sometimes a good thing to change your identity? What if everybody thinks you did something unforgivable, but you don't remember it? Does society require all of us to have public faces and private faces? Does anyone really know another person's private face?

When I first watched it, nobody shipped Trucoop (Cooper with the local police sheriff, Harry S. Truman). Now it seems like everybody does and I am not alone, yaaay.

Features one of the very few trans characters in media at the time who was unambiguously positive!

Watch an episode, then pull up the IMDB and see who everyone is. I guarantee that you'll almost always find SOMEone who was famous for other stuff. If you like Star Trek, you'll find that half the damn cast was either on TNG or DS9. It is honestly astounding to me that Jeff Combs wasn't on the series (because, I assume, he was shooting Bride of Re-Animator and other stuff).

THINGS TO WATCH OUT FOR

The subtitling in some versions of the show (on DVD specifically) is really bad and unreliable. I found that the Netflix subtitles were OK. If you don't know about OpenSubtitle, I recommend using them to find better subtitles in case you need them.

As stated above, the show gets into really dark themes, and it does not shy away from them when necessary. I feel that these things are addressed in a sensitive way and frequently related to plot, but it hits everyone different.

The music... eh. I like the electro/late 80s theme and the instrumentals that back most of the scenes. But every time someone sings, I get the cringe. I've never been able to get on board with what Lynch thinks good music sounds like. But a lot of people do, so that could just be me.

It takes a lot of work to watch this show. Since so much of it is visual, it is absolutely a show you have to watch with no distractions. I found it to be worth it--past a certain point, I didn't want any distractions. But I get where it's a sacrifice of time and concentration.

If you watch it and enjoy it, you will probably end up with Lynchian Syndrome, where you are compelled to watch every other thing David Lynch has ever made and develop elaborate hypotheses on how they're all in the same universe and suchlike.

So yeah! I hope this gives you an spoiler-free idea of why this show is so special, and if you had any other questions about it, let me know!

[xavier-is-online]

Courtney Autism Headcanons I have because all of my favs are neurodivergent

Fun fact- my very first headcanon of Total Drama was that Courtney is autistic. Is this me projecting? YEAH AND WHAT ABOUT IT????

She got diagnosed at a rather early age (3 years old) with Autism, though her family always stressed to her that she should never tell anyone for fear of it messing with their reputation

Her special interest is court cases, funny enough. She loves looking up court documents and watching trials and she enjoys talking about how if she was a judge/ lawyer, how she would proceed/defend the case. Her parents noticed this and began pushing her into pursuing a career as a lawyer

She also has special interests in geography, birds of prey, MMA fighting and musical theater (though that last special interest often gets repressed since she's been taught that things such as theater are frivolous)

REALLY good at masking, so much so that she unintentionally will mask. Years of suppression has really helped in making people believe she's fully neurotypical! She was masking in the 1st season, up until she gets (unfairly) voted off

No, she doesn't have a fear of green jelly, but it is a MAJOR sensory issue for her. In fact, most gelatin and gelatin-like foods trigger her. She can't eat anything with a gummy texture

She unfortunately has a very hard time regulating her emotions since her parents couldn't be bothered to assist her anymore beyond getting a proper diagnosis. She can have very big reactions to very little inconveniences (especially if she knows she has no control over the situation)

VERY routine-oriented, so if that routine veers even slightly off track, she gets upset. She plans her week out in advance since schedules give her a sense of security

When she's not wearing shoes she walks around on her tiptoes

She also has a stim of balling her hands into fists and moving her arms up and down

She doesn't tell anybody about her diagnosis when she first arrives on the island, since it's been imbedded into her head that people will see her as less than if she tells anyone (and it's 2007, people- especially teenagers- are absolutely ableist)

Harold figures it out pretty quickly though and just outright asks her in private while they both are on Playa Des Losers since he wanted to know. She denies it at first but literally no one has just ever plainly asked her that and so she kinda breaks down and admits that yes, she is autistic, and Harold just stands there confused because why is she acting like she just got caught doing something horribly wrong

Turns out, in Courtney's eyes, something IS wrong with her. Harold straight up tells her that there's nothing she can do to make her autism "better" but it's not like being autistic is a death sentence. It's part of what makes her, her

That sorta blows her mind because all Courtney's life she's been made to feel like something is wrong with her. She never thought to just…. accept her neurodivergence. Huh

From then on she learns to just accept herself for who she is. It's a lot better than living your life ashamed of something you can't change

Duncan doesn't figure it out until like 5 years later LMAO

She doesn't keep many fidget toys, BUT, she really likes typing on keyboards. She keeps a couple out-of-use keyboards around and that's partly why she also loves her PDA

[rjthirsty]

C for Commoner

I've created an ABC list for Ikemen Prince ranging from humorous crack-fic ideas to the smutty, with a dash of drama and angst. 26 letters of the alphabet x 13 characters / 12 months = 1 year of drabbles, headcanons, and creating with these men in mind.

Tags: Headcanon, Autism, ASD, GN!Reader,

Chevalier

I once read an explanation trumping claims that autism is a modern disorder that had said something along the lines of, ‘Neurodivergent people have always existed, it's just that they have nowhere to hide now. Instead of having your weird cousin Paul who doesn't talk out watching the sheep, we've put him in the middle of constant stimulation and expect him to work a normal job.’ When I was trying to imagine Chevalier being a commoner, this was what came to mind.

Chevalier is a genius. I also believe he's autistic-coded. I think he'd excel in any job field that doesn't require talking to others. If he happens to have a profession where he is expected to interact with people, he'd find a way to manage it without the need for speaking. People would assume he's mute, but he's simply non-verbal. I think that he also wouldn't have much in the way of ambitions. He just wants to live his life within the rules and do what is expected of him.

So I made him a bookstore clerk.

He's ridiculously handsome - the man who tends the bookstore that you've been visiting since a young child. He was there back then as well, and even when he was a teenage boy you had thought he was prettier than most others. A funny coincidence that you too are a bookstore clerk now that you've grown into a working adult.

He was always reading, he still is always reading. His words are saved for times when the two of you can discuss literature without interruption. You had once thought he couldn't speak, back when you were younger and attempted to make friends with him. He had looked at you with those icy blue eyes and given you his attention but didn't utter a word. He was always listening to you, even when you thought he wasn't. His attention has always been on you once you were older and blossoming into adulthood. 

He always looks so forlorn. A perpetual frown on his lips and his somber silence matched with his cold stare makes him look ethereal. Like he doesn't belong of this world and mourns the place he came from. But you've seen him smile. You've seen the way his eyes light up when he's looking at you when you're sharing your thoughts and gushing about love stories. They're small gestures, but that's when he looks most alive to you. You love that look. You love him. Maybe someday you'll have the courage to tell him, but secretly you wish he would share those words with you first.

[soullessjack]

listen i get your frustration about how people treat jack, i hate when people reducd him down to just a destiel baby too. but as an autistic person myself, i really disagree with you calling people that like baby jack ableist. he's canonically 4 years old and had to have his childhood basically stripped away from him due to how dangerous it was. i don't think people enjoying the thought of him getting to have that chance at a happy childhood is as cruel and evil as you seem to think.

hi, I’m actually going to answer this differently than I did at first, because I feel like I missed the point and spent way too much time on the canon logistics of “giving Jack a childhood that he chose to skip and is never shown to want,” or that he’s actually pretty obviously portrayed as a teenager in the show, or that his character fundamentally revolves around autonomy & the struggle to have it, and not enough on the actual ableism. I’m also going to be a lot meaner this time, sorry.

honestly, you don’t get my frustrations. you don’t get that this isn’t some petty fandom drama about “muh fav being misunderstood” or “grr this content bad.” you don’t get my frustration if you think that’s all there is to any of this. this is something with an actual bearing on reality and the entire topic of representation in general, which you’d get if you took your head out of your ass and looked around for once. autistic people are still immensely underrepresented and misrepresented in most mainstream media. we are still seen and treated as circus animals, as punchlines, as lesser humans if not subhumans, and we have to face that alongside navigating a world that is wholly and systemically unnavigable to us. fiction and fandoms are an escape for many people, but especially marginalized people who long for community and representation.

the autistic community has a pretty long history of resonating with nonhuman characters in fiction over time, from robots to aliens to monsters in horror movies. because whether it’s their mannerisms or specific struggles or even narrative experiences, they resonate with us. jack resonates with us. he’s important to us as autistic people—and namely, as autistic adults who very rarely see ourselves represented in ways that don’t depict us as gross man-children, infantilized precious beans or emotionless geniuses. in fact, the very notion that autistic people are inherently childlike or mentally children directly leads into our sole representation being children, and even more into the treatment of us as “precious small beans.” does that ring any fucking bells to you yet?

jack might not have been intentionally written with autism or representation on mind, but this fandom literally builds itself up on coding and unintentional implications. he was also confirmed to be autistic anyways, so anyone still whining should just grow the fuck up about it. also, ironically, most accidentally autistic characters end up being the best kind lmao. but these discussions? these analyses by autistic fans —and even just fans who actually care about his complexities — only exist within our own little circles, and the idea of baby!jack is very much the fandom’s steadfastly going mainstream version of him—so much so that people are convinced it’s actually canon, they die on that hill like it’s some obligation to uphold. and any viewing of his canon character with nuance or complexity, or even his basic personality, is left to gather dust. it stops becoming people having fun when it’s over-saturating and supersedes actual canon. it stops becoming people having fun when it’s actually fucking harmful.

it’s frustrating as a general fan, but downright upsetting as an autistic fan who sees themself in him and has to witness every fucking day — in a community that prides itself on being a big found family no less — the infantilization of traits I and other autistic people express, and the stubborn justification of him being “actually a toddler” with even more autistic traits. There are literal scraps of canon adult Jack content to engage with; of any semi-intelligent thoughts on him to indulge in.

what you don’t get (or you refuse to get) that there is a direct correlation between all of this, the way jack is treated (ie ‘reduced to a destiel baby’) and the ableist infantilization surrounding his character. as in, this content directly feeds into his treatment, which then feeds back into the content made of him, which then feeds back again into his treatment in a horrible and exhausting cycle.

what you don’t get is that constantly regurgitating content where the baseline is jack being actively stripped of his identity and autonomy for the sake of becoming an accessory to Destiel/Sastiel/the Domestic Winchester Family is inherently rooted in layers of deep ableist rhetoric, and you can perpetuate all of that even without any intent for it. I’m not a fucking moron, and I’m not the big bad guy you’re talking to me like. I don’t think anyone who enjoys baby!jack is inherently “cruel” or “evil,” or turning jack into a baby while thinking “this’ll stick one to those retards,” and twirling their moustache, okay? and it’s really so funny to me that you’re trying to point the finger back at me. at least you tried.

what you don’t get is that whenever autistic fans voice our perspective on baby!jack, we’re fucking ignored. we’re fed the same rotten slop over and over and over again. “But we want him to be happy!” “But it’s an AU, it’s not canon!” “But he actually is a baby because XYZ!” “But, but!” Buts are not an argument, they’re the thing you still haven’t found a way to pull your heads out of. maybe the lack of oxygen from so many people in one small dark space is why you’re so fucking stubborn to understand this.

you wanna know what is cruel? being told that you are doing something hurtful, something harmful and something that painfully reflects real life struggles a real community goes through, and shrugging it off. being aware of the value something brings to someone else, and stripping it away simply because it doesn’t matter to you personally. finding another But or a corner-cut to excuse yourself from blame. you didn’t have the decency to listen when general fans said “hey this is kind of annoying can we treat him like an actual person,” and you don’t even have the decency to concede when autistic people are saying this is a deeply wrong thing to do.

if you have to ignore an entire community’s voice to feel better about the content you’re making that directly hurts them, if you don’t personally think it’s harmful or even real because autistic struggles are never real, then I am well within reason to assume you’re not a good person. it’s one thing to do something wrong because you’re uninformed, and it’s another thing entirely to continue to do that when you’ve been informed, and simply decided that it wasn’t worth changing or stopping.

believe me, as an autistic person I am well used to being isolated, to not being anyone’s priority in this capitalistic circle of hell. I am ready to expect my struggles and existence to be tokenized for somebody else to feel good, or squeeze money from. Im used to seeing movies portray my experience as some Manic Pixie Star-seed or creepy overgrown child. I know the world doesn’t care about me. But I don’t think I’m asking too much for this, the big found family fandom that’s been shown to care so much about every other problem, to care about me. To listen when it’s hurting me, or uplift something I care about.

I don’t think I’m asking for anything less than this family to actually treat me like I am part of it. But can you even do that?

[m0e-ru]

i know your blog mainly focuses on more of the “side characters” (?) from p4 but i was curious if you had a favorite member of the investigation team? :3

side characters AHAHAUAHAA i like that theyre to the side because it makes it less pressuring to think about them compared to like an izanagillion piranhas infesting a lake about a more popular character. maybe that's why I'm repellant to them <- ??????

anyway I love risegirl from the bottom of my heart I want to brush her bangs and kiss her exposed forehead and tell her she's doing amazing and we hold hands and run around in a circle lalalalala. I don't have any pictures but shes just so sweet to me.

her idol life and masking 24/7 absolutely crushing her I'm glad she made the decision to bail and actually chill for a while a be herself with people that love her, instead of trucking on and breaking herself like other poor child idols. she has the strength to let people into her life and know that they'll accept her back. it's absolutely astounding to me that she can be so cheerful and hype up others to be their best even after everything she's been through, or maybe that's where she got her willpower in the first place. her ambitions for being an entertainer are genuine as she just wants to make little girls like she once was, and still is, be the best that they can be.

the competition and drama in the entertainment industry is predatory, but I'm also so happy she can bond and be friends with kanami and the rest of the kitchen girls, despite the rivalry being forced on poor middle school scouted idol kids.

it's so fascinating to me how she has a navigator persona, a support persona. along with her endearing and cute nature, she's keen on reading people and reacting accordingly. of course, you can't blame her for her shit reactions, with naoto most notably, because she's literally going through puberty I mean she just turned 16 cmon guys cut her some slack. she can raise people's spirit whether or not she's in her idol persona because that's her power as Rise Kujikawa, that's just the kind of person she is.

she's free to express her feelings, whether her excitement, her playful infatuation with bancho, push her boundaries when shes unsettled and needs space, being angry or annoyed or stressed, and even crying tears nowhere near crocodile tears. she's a very genuine girl and a very genuine teenager of her age. she regulates her emotions accordingly, whether or not she actually does, but it makes her feel real in that regard. there are things she'll regret once she's older but I'm glad she's living and thriving the way she's supposed to: freely—despite her working as an idol.

speaking of genuine, I love her quirks. her laugh is so cute and the way she squeals is adorable, in the english or jp dub, so props to both voice actors. she's pretty athletic, being a great dancer with enough stamina to sing along. but she's kind of shit at songwriting, with that one flavor text I thought was funny. she spends her free time outside her classroom looking at the fire alarm, tempted to ring it. she knows so much about tofu and walks around the shopping district in her apron when business is slow. she goes to remedial with kanji during the summer because their autism lies in doing vocal exercises and crocheting NAWT the pythagorean theorem.

don't get me started with her beef with marie because I think it's the cutest and most hilarious thing ever. imagine you're the labeled tsundere of the cast but your category 9 autism transfers all your tsundereism to the girl behind you. marie is hot and cold about her feelings, just being embarrassed when she puts her guard down in front of bancho usually. but she's a curious and impressionable girl, so when margaret insults the girl on TV, Marie's just going to parrot that and rise starts pouting about it "that's not how the slogan goes!!" But when bancho's out of the picture, they can be normal girl friends, eating desserts and styling outfits for each other and singing duets. hell, in pq, theodore makes a lame haiku and marie and rise giggle in unison. well, maybe rise isn't a tsundere in these cases, but her seiyuu Rie Kugimiya is known for voicing tsundere roles, some I'm already familiar with, so it's funny hearing her in her element.

I could keep going on how I love risegirl but I'm going to sleeo goodnight I love girls

[carnation-damnation]

Here they are!! All my AU Shadow's!!

Some design info + small trivia bits under the cut:

Refraction of a Shadow:

Story takes place after Sonic Heroes but before SHTH 2005. Emerald and I go back and forth about how it's like Shadow The Hedgehog (2) in the sense that there's multiple endings but also like Sonic Adventure (3) where you'd follow different characters in overarching stories with different perspectives. It was, at first, a fun idea about what it'd be like if Terios (The prototype of Shadow during sa2's development) were to exist within Sonic canon. This rides off how Shadow NEVER joins GUN and as a result, they seek to create their own "Shadow" of sorts, as a basis for a robotic/organic army (Since Shadow never joined them, they view him as a potential threat, both politically in how they're responsible for the covered-up ARK deaths and shadow knows and physically, as the Ultimate Lifeform.) Shadow's design is close to how I'd draw him cemented into the Team Dark dynamic; he ditched the white gloves for fingerless black ones and wears red mascara. He's attempting to heal from his experiences and trauma, but this new threat is opening up old wounds.

Rumination in Saudade:

Oh this guy is just so fucked up

Sa2 but everything is so FUCKED amiRIGHT!! So uh. I'd imagine hurtling towards Earth and losing all your memories after this blue angel of a hedgehog tries to save you. That can kinda..fuck you up. Esp if you're a weird little alien thing. Like...Having to relearn how to be something, how to be personable, and mask (haha...autism) He doesn't remember how he was conditioned by Gerald and Black Doom to train and be the Ultimate Lifeform, and doesn't remember how he grew up with Maria, loving Earth and all the people in it. He doesn't have any of it. He's just a weird little freak of a guy. He's off-putting, doesn't know how to control his chaos energy and black arms DNA, and overall just...Trying his best to re-learn what it's like to be a person. No influences from anybody except himself and Sonic. His design elements are basically Sa2 But With Some Extra Bits. Thousand yard stare, singed from becoming a fucking meteorite, an extra eyeball, messed up little tail, 'n an awkward demeanor. So your average unmasked teenager

I Was a Teenage Werehog:

The anxiety and dread of not being able to remember anything but bits and pieces not your style? How about a werewolf au where I self-indulgently combine everything I love about werewolf stories and their tropes for shits and giggles? No please don't run awa-

Basically Unleashed..2. I was inspired by the zombot arc in the comics and was like "haha what if....werewolves" and it kinda went from there. Shadow is your typical Experiencing Werewolf Issues protagonist, except he's not patient zero. Like instead of the real werewolf protagonist dealing with the pain and turmoil of waking up in a mess of blood knowing that something horribly went wrong for some random joe on the street, you get to see what happened to that guy instead. Shadow keeps things to himself; he's the ultimate lifeform, nothing can hurt him! He fell out of space! He fought THE DEVIL !!! Sonic's fucked up werewolf virus will have no effect on him and his mobian/alien DNA <- Guy who is so wrong and incorrect. For design elements, I purposefully fuddled with his proportions to make them a bit less...?? Sonicy?? ig? To put everybody in clothes that didn't make my head spin in confusion. He's got the hot topic 'fit he's got the mascara he's got the RIPPED JEANS!! He's ready for a gritty 2000s teenage werewolf drama baby!!

anyway, thanks for reading this far! I like these guys they're cookin', these cats are swingin'

[hikikomoriaesthetic]

˗ˏ✎*ೃ˚ tw ; vent , toxic sister , family drama

i am tired.

tired and overstimulated thanks to my autism making me feel my emotions higher than usual. i genuinely don’t know what to do, what do i do? do i cry? do i bury it in my mind? do i vent? how do i move past this? it is so confusing and i feel sick.

everything is too loud. the sound of me breathing it too loud. it’s too bright. my skin feels suffocation. everything is overstimulating me. i think i need to cry, and let it all out. i think this post will help me vent and validate my own thoughts to myself. i’m going to be okay, it’s just so overwhelming when i don’t understand what to feel.

my mother finally cut contact with my younger sister. for that i am grateful as i don’t have to see her anymore but on the other hand- it’s already been the forth time my mother has done that and she always went back to them when they called. it’s so tiring. i can’t even believe her when she says this is the last time and that was my younger sisters last chance.

i don’t know how to feel. am i in the wrong? was it because i was always the shy and scared child that even though i was the middle child i always acted like the youngest? did my younger sister hate me? she never said she did. but she lies about everything she says. she is a master manipulator and narcissist and i was so easily fooled by her lies for years as i didn’t believe anybody could be so cruel in this world.

i was happy that i spent my childhood with my younger sister as my older sister was in her teenage years and was busy all the time. me and my younger sister would always play together and i was so very happy. i didn’t realise that as i saw her as my only family that i was close to- she only saw me as a loyal dog that would follow whatever she wanted or she would refuse to even play with me. so of course i would have to follow along, i never wanted to be alone after all. she was my closest friend and sister.

as we grew up we drifted. we lived in the same house but we no longer talked. rarely just said hi to each other as we had different sleep schedules. but i still never hated her. when she demanded me to go on a walk with her, i would follow. what else was i meant to do? my older sister moved out and i didn’t know how to contact her and my mother was constantly working to support us. my younger sister was the only family i had. of course i didn’t want to risk her leaving or distancing from me too. but that all changed a couple years ago.

she up and left the house for a guy she started dating. but she didn’t do it normally no- she called the cops and said my mother was physically abusive. when in fact, she was always my mother’s favourite. never once had my mother been abusive to any of us, but she was neglectful to me and my older sister- but never to my younger sister. that’s why it was such a shock for me. i felt like something snapped inside me on that night as i sat in silence in my room for hours staring at a wall. and of course my mother forgave her after she came running back to my mother after her and her boyfriend broke up.

i never trusted her after that. nor did i get close to her again. especially not when i saw her become an alcoholic who likes to sleep around and was neglectful to her child. something inside me was hollow, empty even when i looked at her. it only turned to rage as i saw her show off her body on OF while the camera showed her baby asleep in her bassinet. she isn’t fucking stupid- she always preaches about how many predators there are online but she fucking shows an innocent baby asleep while on a p0rn website?? every feeling i had towards her immediately turned to rage and hatred. the amount of times i have wished that she died. i wouldn’t be able to count them all..

luckily my mother does have full custody of my younger sisters daughter. and my mother does care and love my niece. it hurts in a way i don’t understand as i watch my mother interact with my baby niece. but i stopped longing for family affection ages ago. i’m just glad my baby niece is safe and happy.

that was how i thought i was until an hour or so ago. where i was showed a screenshot my mother sent me of a local shop online where people sell their items. my younger sister sold the bracelet i gave her like a year ago. it cost over $500. she. sold. it.

i gave it to her back before any of the drama,, when i still innocently thought she cared for me. i spent hours researching what was best. hours finding out what charms suited her and what the meanings were behind each and every gem. and she sold it. for $200.

i don’t understand what this feeling is? i’m not sad, nor am i angry? i think it’s shock. i don’t know how to process this. i’m just going to try and become apathetic towards my family i think. i just need to hold out until i can move out. i’m going to go lie down as i control my breathing and imagine i’m hugging my soulmate. that always calms me down.

[copperbadge]

Radio Free Monday

Good morning everyone, and welcome to Radio Free Monday!

A note before we begin: I understand that sometimes people look askance at some of the fundraisers. I do attempt to vet people, but I also attempt to practice a radical level of acceptance and compassion for people who are in need, who may not always be people everyone likes. It is up to my readers to determine where and if they want to give; I have only ever declined to publicize fundraisers twice, both by people with extensive and visible histories of scamming fandom. If you know of someone who has a history of scamming, it is helpful for me to be made aware, but unless there are receipts to go with it, I'm afraid I can't take that into account. Simply telling me "so-and-so is a bad person" does not help. (Lest I start more drama, this is not isolated to this week's post, it's just a particularly unhelpful comment this week which spurred me to write this.)

And now on to more helpful things!

Ways to Give:

maryellencarter linked to a fundraiser for johnhawkens, who is about to lose his temporary housing and needs assistance with food and transportation. You can read more, reblog, and find giving information here.

just_juniper_joy is raising $350 to get through a lapse in emergency assistance; they are currently waiting for disability paperwork to go through and in the process of renewing the emergency aid in the meantime, but their county office is moving slowly, and they need to pay for medication, phone, and internet, as well as rent. You can read more and support the fundraiser here.

aurorlaura linked to a fundraiser for Alchemia and Bugland, who have urgent financial needs after the loss of their home, and are also looking for advocacy and legal support in Illinois, particularly support for people with disabilities, autism, blindness, and/or who are LGBTQ+. You can read more and support the fundraiser here.

nightwhite13 is raising funds to help seal a hole in their home through which a rat is entering; you can read more, reblog, and find giving information here.

Beck is raising funds for top surgery; you can read more and support the fundraiser here.

just-a-zesty-lil-rat is raising funds to cover a medical deductible so they can get top surgery; you can read more and support the fundraiser here.

catlineyemaker linked to a fundraiser for gallusrostromegalus, who recently rented a home to a friend who ended up doing serious damage to the home and required legal action to evict; they can't sell the house as-is and can't afford the repairs needed to make the house salable. You can read more, reblog, and find giving information here.

Buy Stuff, Help Out:

have-a-hygge is an artist selling her work to raise funds to open her own gallery, a task complicated by being a fulltime caregiver to a parent with dementia. You can read more and find purchase and giving information here.

Help For Free:

Maggie is a graduate student at American University, doing research on fanfic and the way people learn about sex and sexuality as teenagers. They have a survey available about experiences reading or writing fanfic and how it impacted their sexuality and understanding of sex, which may lead to interviews if the person is agreeable; all interviews are anonymized. You can learn more and take the survey here.

Recurring Needs:

rusty-chevy's workplace is in a slow period, and management has been cutting hours; she is raising funds to cover at least part of the shortfall from reduced paychecks, and was just denied rent assistance. You can read more, reblog, and find giving information here.

alirhi linked to a fundraiser to get herself, her mother, and her sister stable housing; they are currently staying in their cars in a a dangerous parking lot. They have a friend who will let them park a camper in her yard, but the camper there currently is unlivable. With two of the family on disability it is difficult for them to keep up with bills and also save for housing. You can read more, reblog, and find giving information here including a few new ways to give.

gwydion linked to a fundraiser for a friend, whose dog Rosie needs medical care, dental work, and special food; you can read more and give here at gofundme.

rilee16 is raising funds after having to use rent money to pay their electric bill; their roommate, with whom they have had a number of issues, has been an ongoing issue and is also costing them money, and they are now facing a late fee for October rent after the check didn't clear. You can read more, reblog, and find giving information here.

And this has been Radio Free Monday! Thank you for your time. You can post items for my attention at the Radio Free Monday submissions form. If you're new to fundraising, you may want to check out my guide to fundraising here.

[twisting-echo]

[ Unexpected Connections ]

Co-author: @small-tragedies

Tag: @amethystoceandespiser

Fandoms: Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Danny Phantom, Helluva Boss, Total Drama, The Ridonculous Race.

Chapters: 2/?

Ships: Donatello (TMNT)/Sierra (Total Drama), Raphael (TMNT)/Jazz Fenton, Danny Fenton/Octavia Goetia/Leonardo (TMNT), Michelangelo (TMNT)/Danielle "Dani" Phantom.

Characters: Donatello (TMNT), Raphael (TMNT), Leonardo (TMNT), Michelangelo (TMNT), April O'Neil (TMNT), Jazz Fenton, Danny Fenton, Octavia Goetia, Danielle "Dani" Phantom, Sierra (Total Drama).

Rating: General Audiences.

Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings.

Additional Tags: Crossover Universe, Crossover Pairings, Fluff and Humor, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Autism Spectrum, Sensory Aversion, Sensory Seeking, Panic Attack, Polyamory.

Summary: Donnie's online friendship with Sierra takes an exciting turn when she invites him to do a joint interview at the Grand Nexus Hotel for the reunion party of the Total Drama and The Ridonculous Race cast. As they prepare for the interview, sparks fly and connections deepen, leading to an unforgettable bond between them before the big event.