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shikai-the-storyteller · 3 days ago

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It's taking me ages to write this chapter because every time I look through old VODs / notes to check something, I come across moments like this that make me want to lie down face-first on the floor:

[Context: Pac commits to the idea of taking the Happy Pills so he can create a cure. He's about to write a note to Cellbit to explain his plan.]

Pac: If Cellbit puts himself in this position, it's worse for everyone, because Cellbit is smarter when it comes to coming up with strategic plans, so he is the thinking mind of the Favela Five group, so if he no longer has the mind, he’s not capable of solving this whole problem, you know? But if I put myself in this position to help Cellbit so he can get the cure... You understand? It's better if I'm the bait. Right? I can't- I can't carry things alone guys, I've already lost Mike [...] if I lose Cellbit and I alone had to carry things, I won't be able to. But I think Cellbit can manage better. He is more independent, and he has Roier. He has a husband. I'm trying to– to be lucid here, understand? That's all.

Date: September 11, 2023 || Timestamp: 03:10:10

#i talk #qsmp talk #Oh Pac... :((((#I know the Happy Pills arc is soured for a lot of us (for valid reasons) but I still love it because of how vital it is to Pac's character #This arc is what solidified him as my favorite character. He was so brave and he's so full of love and grief #Aghh. Those self-worth issues man... :(((#Pac cubito I carry you in my heart forever and ever and always #fic talk #I don't know if it's funny or miserable that whenever I fact-check myself thinking #''Am I misremembering this / misrepresenting this? Is this too grim?''#The answer is no I hit it dead center #I love Pac's dynamic with all the Favela members but Pac and Cellbit's relationship dynamic has so many layers #it's fascinating to explore #Especially since in the stream before this he had a complete breakdown because he was terrified Cell was going to come back #Love and fear and friendship and anger and hate and healing...#So many layers #The murderer who once mauled him who he left to die #Now a dear friend and co-parent of his son #It's fascinating #What breaks my heart is when Cellbit finds out Pac took the Happy Pills a few days later and they have a confrontation #Cellbit tells him ''You were my only hope- the only scientific person who could create a cure; how are we supposed to save you?''#''We still had one another and now I'm alone!'' <– As always please take my translation with a grain of salt #But man. MAN.... Pac saying Cellbit will be fine he can handle things on his own and he has Roier #vs. Cellbit having the same fears of being left alone #I wonder if; even for a moment; he remembered what it felt like when Pac (e Mike) abandoned him on that Island after Fuga #Obviously he realized / later learned why Pac took the pills but AGH!!!!!!!!!! It hurts.#I wish they logged on at the same time more frequently I WISH we got to see them interact more #I can't really explore this too much in the Fit Pac fic but I am delving into it in the Pac fic #I don't think I'll go as in-depth with the Happy Pill stuff as I'm doing in this fic though. This has been exhausting. It's a heavy arc #(Stream date: September 13 2023 || Timestamp 1:34:00 for Cellbit's POV of that conversation btw)

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wildflowercryptid · 1 year ago

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i am predominantly a diehard kieflo enjoyer, but am also a gleeful multishipper who can appreciate the potential of other couples so i'm doing my service today by suggesting a ship name for kieran/crispin if there isn't one yet : mutsushipping. crispin is another name for the mutsu apple, which is a cultivar from aomori ( one of the prefectures kitakami is based off of. )

#the only reason why i found this out was bc i hc that florian nicknames the applin kieran gives to him mutsu #and then i found out the alternative name after. i like to think him and kieran call him crispin jr sometimes #idk if this is a ship i'd really explore myself bc i kinda prefer them as friends #but they're still v cute i can see the potential there #but i must share my ship name ideas or i'll die #pokemon #pkmn scarvio #elite four crispin #rival kieran #crispin/kieran #crispin x kieran #mutsushipping #mj.txt

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bluepopofanarts · 6 months ago

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Me playing again KH2 and seeing Luxord Heartless. A bit familiar by his design with the Lich ? (And by the name because Grim Reaper is also a "Death" vocabulary's family )

The same Heartless that pushed Sora using the power of awakening the time too many and causing him to finish in Quadratum. Where the "Luxord looking driver guy" is ?

Plus they share some same elements:

- the design/name like I said. By the sad eyes with the red version and the Lich.

-the symbolism of cupidity. If Reaper is the Greed of Jack for gold, the Lich is Sora's Greed for his friends. And these two Heartless try to steal it by inducing death to their victims (Jack by keeping the Aztec coffin curse in place and Sora by using a magic that cost him something)

-Reaper appeared in the only world with "real humans" and the Lich is kind of a guardian gates to a "real human world that happens to be imagination but in this world the imagination is Sora's reality". I know there were also Reapers in Dark Road but I don't really remember what kind of Greed they represent (Queen of Heart ? Keyblade Weilders gang greed for I don't remember what ?).

Another hints to link Luxord to the mysterious driver...

That guy is pretty enigmatic. He knows things but nit everything...

...Don't judge me...I'm waiting KH Missing Link and KH4 news the best I can.

#kh #kingdom hearts #kh theory #kh headcanons #losing my mind #plz help #Rage form is my helmet #because my own form is Madness for the Wait #and I also run like a shadow Gollum from my cave when I see shinny KH stuff or crazy theories/headcanons #threw me in a volcano #but only after KH licence true ending #And if you're asking yes I stopped the cutscenes for 20 minutes just to make that post #now I'm gonna kick is ass like Roxas kicked Saix #or I'll die by trying #edit: i won with only two hits because i wanted to end it quickly #too bad for a no hit fight :((#i wanted to feel like Yozora. maybe later #by the way he has ANOTHER Lich looking Heartless !#My conspiracy head has the biggest aluminium hat ever on top of her

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faunabel · 7 months ago

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apparently i also put tolerate it by taylor swift on my playlist for vene....... i also see it. perhaps in a looser sort of way.

#( 💭 faun thinks )#maybe i'll talk abt some of the songs i put on there for him..... because i can. nobody can stop me in my own home.#with this one in particular probably a controversial take but i see it relating to his close relationships #because... think about it...... a lot of the ppl he's closest to insult him... esp romano... and even germany #that + how i see him having issues w/ self worth given his history of being chased after for his inheritance #+ the fact that he clearly takes words to heart with how much he praises others and seems to love being praised #i think he actually doesn't feel that loved but keeps up w/ trying to be loving because it's all he can really do #acknowledging that feeling of discontent would just create problems he doesn't want to deal with #and doesn't think can be dealt with to begin with #do the people he loves actually love him or do they just tolerate him #also i see parts of this tying into his childhood w/ austria as well #being scolded and bullied despite attempts to Be Good and earn Approval #which i think particularly fucked him up after living w/ rome and being treated overall well #only for him to die and vene to be kicked out into the real world where he was terribly mistreated #i see him feeling like he fell from grace in some way going from being a good kid who was praised #to one who could never do anything right (being a hyperbole)#thus feeling like he has to earn back or maintain that status of being Good #yet also w/ his experience of being sought after for his inheritance... ok losing the point here but i have Thoughts #thoughts i keep in the tags... for now...#keep meaning to make on itapost on this topic but then i get too nervous lol #i've also been wanting to make an itapost on vene's feelings towards rome and how he feels like he has to live up to some standard #in relation to him (but obviously doesn't and how that affects his self esteem)#soon maybe #itaposting

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pocketramblr · 2 months ago

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World's finest Clark wants to be a dad soooooo bad *twirls my hair* its so cute so how can I torment him more with this

#Clark: looses David too soon #Clark: sees visions of another self calling for a son and can't know if it's his future or some other world #so i think I'll add 'gets to meet Superboy but this one means some other *him* when he says Dad and has to let him go'#and 'gets to meet another Superboy who's his family but only exists because he died and Clark thinks he'll happily die in this universe if #that's what's needed to bring someone like him someone family someone he isn't alone with there'#and has to send him home and say goodbye again!!!#maybe I'll let him keep like. an actually lonely superboy without a family back home #... but only after i twist the knife a bit

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somewhereincairparavel · 7 months ago

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CRUSH UPDATE #3 (ik this is getting annoying, I'm a lil embarassed but I want to rant okay) today's Sunday so he came!! We had sm interaction today omgg 🥹

Like we stared at eachother alot and smiled and stuff, we do this warm up kinda thing while standing in two seperate lines, and he almost always stands facing me, today one of his friends (who stand all the way across the room) went "dude why are you standing all the way over there?come next to me" and omgg he literally took a brief glance at me and shrugged his friend off (albeit without giving him any verbal answer) before one of the coaches yelled at him to go stand next to his friend lol.

I kid you not right after that happened, the warm up started and his friend kept suspiciously glancing between me and my crush lol (did he know something was up? Idk)

We also do this warm down thing, and the coach told me to sit in the middle, and my crush was too busy removing his shoes, that when he came, I was already seated in a way where we wouldn't be able to face eachother :( he searched for me in the rows of ppl and literally smiled at me a little disappointed after he found out. I could literally just feel us talking w our eyes lol

In the end of the class, I was looking at him getting picked up by his mom from out the room's window, and he waved at me TWICE, once as he was approaching his mom, and another as he turned back and looked at me staring at him from the window ahh

I honestly never had the chance to ask him if he gonna come to class on the week days, so I'll more or less have to wait and see for myself tomorrow, the reason he didn't come all of last week was bc he was sick.

#I fear that I'm getting a little attached to him chat #I swore I wouldn't do that bc ik I'll have to stop going to that sports class after a month or so #Ughh pls i hope he comes tomorrow aswell #Classs was so damn boring without him last week #I'll die on the inside if I'll only get to see him on the weekends (that's like two days)#✧✿Elora's thoughts✧✿#~♦° Elora yaps°♦~

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cfiances · 2 months ago

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does anybody else remember the stream where csap found the death book. no? just me? ok

#link provided for those who may want to watch #his and dxd's interactions were so funny #I don't even think you're god. I think you do think i'm god. Ok i do think you're god #go away i have no more use for you thank you for the book i'll use it EXACTLY how i want to. thanks for telling me where dream is too!#did you just tell me to GO AWAY?#yeah. go! bye bye!#NO i dismiss MYSELF YOU don't dismiss me (random noises) YOU WANNA SEE ANNOYING? YOU WANNA SEE ANNOYING?#they're hysterical. csap was being so catty #probably because he was feeling awful and wanted to die. He did also plan a suicide pact that stream he did do that #he wanted the three of them to be dead together forever i'm gonna tear my skin off #i like to think he left a will (suicide note) for george when he woke up and then tried to take it back after dream died #only to find george (awake) (already read it) looking at him like this ⬭_⬭#i think about this stream a lot #dsmp #c!sapnap #dreamxd

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ratmonky · 10 days ago

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have an inspection for my apartment tomorrow morning, my last day at my small ass uni apartment is today and i'll be doing my last bit of cleaning!!

i literally have nothing else in here other than my new laptop that i only do editing with so i spent last night and my morning just now writing lol

i've partially finished my dbd chapter (4k+ words atm) but it introduces another killer that the reader will be paired up with and the next segment is the michael myers' trial!! so my question is--- would you rather to have me post it now or after i've also written michael's trial? (might take a week or two to write and post michael's trial, if i post it now you'll have another chapter within the next month)

was gonna make a poll but i like to interact personally so let me know in the comments heh <3

i'll make it easy so you can copy paste your answers like this:

i waited 3+ years for michael i CANNOT wait any longer

i waited 3+ years for michael i can wait longer

#whoever is gonna live in this apartment after me is gonna be haunted with the amount of - nvm too dumb of a joke #the only thing i'm gonna miss is the way how every time i look out the window at any time during the day or night someone is awake #that's the uni student life fr...#& the way on every friday everyone would be blasting music and screaming partying... only on friday tho which is like so funnily respectful #and no noise on saturdays because everyone is just so hangover lmaoooooo #also gonna miss how every time i went out to the open air corridor to smoke cigs... there'd be someone to smoke with!!#the way i'd go out at 5am to smoke with a cup of coffee in -20 degrees and watch the woods... there'd be deers and fawns running...#my pigeons... IM GONNA MISS MY PIGEONS NOBODY WILL FEED THEM LIKE I DO #well at least my new apartment also faces the woods but no balcony or anything... i dont wanna do snus... it's just not the same #i'd rather die than to vape too tf #also i lost my cigarette case... i need to buy a new one (I KNOW THAT ONE BICTH STOLE IT BUT I CANT PROVE IT)#anywayy i guess i'll have to go into the woods and smoke cigs and share my food with some foxes or hare (i forgor their names in english)#do NOT feed them btw this is a joke #i just like watching animals and filming them #the most special moment for me was when i got to see a grävling out in my garden sniffing my flowers... just so cute #i just googled they're called badgers lmao #at first i thought it was a raccoon cuz i had woken up at like 3am to get water and it was just there!!!!#i love yapping in the tags nobody cares!!!! unless you click to expand then you do care!!!! cute!#cant wait to move into my new apartment too and decorate it. all of my stuff are there in moving boxes rn jvebfhrejvb #the first thing i moved was my figures and barbies...#barbies i've had since i was a kid they're nothing special (as in they aren't really film barbies but they're very special 2 me)#they're all so special because i loved them the most and most of my ocs are based on them which also happen to be the readers in the fics #whooops... normalize writing your ocs as the readers!!!!#i mean not entirely... i use them as a base for personality and dialogue choices but never specify anything about their appearance ofc #it's funny tho because almost all of my ocs are racially ambiguous even with their names lmao they can be anyone and everyone #bro stop yappinggggg get back to work goddamn omg yes i gotta clean... thanks bye love you

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tardis--dreams · 3 months ago

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This work week will suck so bad I'm dreading it so much

#and this is mainly because of the commuting #by train #and the giant fucking desktop screen i will have to transpost in addition to my 2 heavy ass bags #and that i will have to talk about my stupid job and what I do in front of a bunch of university students on Tuesday #i spend 4 hours a day commuting (it'd be 3 hours but let's be realistic with the train situation)#it makes me want to die #for 7 hours in the office I'll be out for 11 hours #or you know. 12 to 15 hours considering the endless possibilities of train fuck ups #in overcrowded disgusting trains with heavy bags and this stupid screen that's bigger than my torso #i refuse to drive though. driving is the only thing worse than taking the train.#also i guess work will be quite annoying too after my 2 days off #i can see myself working 10 hours of overtime again #and the week after will be even worse #but then there will be one chill week so yay for that #void screams #i need to stop talking so much on here

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hakumizu · 1 month ago

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Ugh how do I live in this house ＼(_ _)

Rant in the tags ignore me :3

#mizu's messy life #this is so-#brother got fired from his SIXTH job #no call no show just because he had a bad day the day before. he slipped and apparently that's grounds for skipping #without telling anyone #on top of that he's been lying ab every little thing #hasn't been showering or brushing his teeth and YES I know this is somwthing that comes with depression #but he doesn't have depression #mr. i'm so depressed and the only thing that makes me feel better is playing xbox with friends for 16 hours a day #_(._.)_ and then my dad #oh my fucking god #he voted for trump because after his 'research' (watching fucking red neck tik toks) 'his ideals match up' !?!? what fucking ideals??#three different times if I hadn't escaped the situation #I would've been forced to either get out of the country for an abortion or fucking die #my body wouldn't be able to handle pregnancy #three different doctors have told me that #tellin me to be careful if I get another bf or something #LIKE HELL YOUR IDEALS MATCH HIS you voted your three daughters right away because you're a fucking moron #he hasn't been home since election but my fucking god if I fucking see him soon #honestly close to going for a second degree with a job needed abroad so I can gtfo in a way I can afford #(/´△`＼)don't mind me I'm in a bad mood all of a sudden cause dad called ugh #it's my secret account so I'll just leave this here

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garciapimienta · 4 months ago

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not a single person asked for my opinion but I have decided i'm going to trust iñaki again, I think he can be the goalkeeper he always seemed he was going to be and that last year's performance was more of a mental thing than an actual reflection of his abilities

#I do think if we have a good option to get rn we still should go after them but aside from woj i dont see anyone else free #so I'm not only rooting for iñaki but after considering it for a long time I'm actually actively thinking that he might surprise everyone #like genuinely think he has it in him #ofc I understand the doubts (though I think there's a bit of an overreaction to how 'bad' he actually was last season) and I had them too #but yeah thought about it long enough and I think he might just “be good again”#and obviously im not certain and am not dying over this hill but yeah im giving him a chance #btw one thing about woj (and I LOVE him do not get me wrong he's one of my favourite recent goalkeepers I would die for him and I'll be #happy if we get him) is that his footwork isn't really a strenght? and hansiball actually seems very dependent on a gk who can pull that of #so it would be interesting to see if he is actually suited to the team #ofc that's part of the argument of what do you prefer? average-ish shot stopper with great ball playing abilities or exceptional shot stopp #*shot stopper who's average at footwork and ball playing?#for us I actually prefer the first one (which mats leaneds towards) but I know lots of people prefer an exceptional shot stopper #and I think that's a bit of a busi like case where people didnt appreciate what he brought to the team until he was gone #fc barcelona #iñaki peña #fcb #barça

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kurokoros · 6 months ago

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first of all, the duffers absolutely didn't have the full series planned out from the start because Stranger Things was originally pitched as a limited series with 1) the potential for a direct "sequel" that would follow the younger kids as adults (basically, they pitched "It") or 2) an outright sci-fi horror anthology. second of all, even if the duffers did have everything mapped out from the start that doesn't mean that plan isn't garbage.

#strangerthoughts #sorry ST reddit is driving me INSANE. please crawl back out of the duffers' asses #these guys literally lost the plot back in S3 and course corrected so hard that everyone collectively experienced whiplash #if they had any kind of plan in mind it definitely wasn't until after S2 #I would argue it wasn't until after S3 tbh #like. S1 was definitely intended to stand alone #S2 was a direct continuation that only happened because netflix saw the show as profitable #and the duffers scrambled to yeet something out in a little over a year #which is why the justice for barb plot is a thing and el's plot is so disconnected from the rest of the season #they had no idea what to do with her when she was SUPPOSED TO DIE #S3 feels like the duffers pitched an anthology season and netflix said no #like. I could have liked S3 as a standalone campy action comedy #but it being a wacky season in the midst of non-wacky seasons makes me wonder what the duffers were smoking #and if the duffers had a solid plan for vecna before S3 I'll give them my left kidney free of charge #because S4 is a messy season. they crammed things in there that did not need to be crammed in #they bloated the cast and clearly had no idea what to do with 75% of said cast #and when I talk about the episodes being too long I'm directly referring to how in the last episode the kill vecna crew are being #STRANGLED BY VINES and PINNED TO A WALL for like thirty minutes straight #at that point someone should have suggested they reevaluate what they just wrote. because what they wrote sucked #I genuinely don't think the duffers will ever be show runners again #I think they'll continue to direct. which they are pretty good at. but I don't see them ever writing anything majorly successful again

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r0bee · 9 months ago

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REX AND AMANDA'S ROMANCE HAS ME ABSOLUTELY FUCKED UP RN OH MY GOD

(full on comic spoilers under the cut just in case)

FUCKING ME UPPPPP

#They've had me on the ropes for a long time but throwing her into space was my final fucking straw oh my god #Like I've been staring into space thinking of their epic centuries spanning alien dimension romance the past few days #Now THIS #There's only so much I can TAKE (I'm loving it actually it's so OUCH)#They both won't give up but he doesn't love her enough to give up what he's doing and she loves him too much to give up on him #I want to explode and die #Also I did decide to take a break right after he throws her into space to kill her bc I need time to absorb it #So I'll see if she somehow survives or not lager #Later*#But yeah holy shit dude #She loved him for SEVEN HUNDRED YEARS and he THREW HER INTO SPACE bc she was getting in the way of his plans.#But also he's GENUINELY DEVASTATED BY IT. He's WEEPING ON THE FLOOR BC OF IT. BUT HE DID IT ANYWAY.#It's so FUCKED #invincible comic

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earanie · 2 years ago

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Me souvenir de quoi ? De mon mari, de mes filles ? Je me souviens pas Sandra, c’est pas ça qui me revient… ce qui me revient c’est… c’est l’autre, l’autre Catherine, celle que personne n’a envie de retrouver.

SANDRA WINCKLER & CATHERINE KEEMER in LES TÉMOINS 2.08

#Les témoins #No one can convince me that this wasn't Catherine's way of asking Sandra to be with her #No one #They're going to be living together in fact #And helping each other juggle all those kids they have #And their respective ex-husbands #And Catherine is going to keep showing Sandra how to free herself from the expectations the world has put on to her shoulders #And Sandra is going to keep reminding Catherine that this version of her is the only one that matters #That the true version is the only one that matters to her #The only one that ever mattered #Also Sandra is looking at Catherine's lips in that last gif #That was a kiss waiting to happen istg #She went to the hospital just to look for her!!!#Just to see if after everything they've been through together maybe now they can be at peace together #Free for the first time in their lives!!#I'm so mad they didn't have the courage to give them a proper ending #after hinting at it every single episode #I'll die mad ig #Audrey Fleurot #Marie Dompnier

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astrarche-x · 2 years ago

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back to obsessing over Richard

at first he doesn't seem to have any obvious fatal flaws - no hubris, no hunger for power etc

but his fatal flaw is this little voice in his head that whispers sometimes ''maybe violence IS the answer tho"

it's not like he believes that it's a good solution; but sometimes it's the more reliable solution. more efficient solution. faster solution.

and oh how he wants to speedrun his way back to being respectable citizen

(which is, of course, very ironic given the methods. but deep down he believes that he's so good at killing he can afford being immoral. he tries to get rid of this belief but to no avail.)

#like. sometimes he wants to do a good thing but the more violent way to get that is the way he prefers despite everything #like getting Tommy out in s3 finale. he could have broken into the house and try to do it stealthily #but no. he went in and started blasting guns in a very ''either i succeed or i'll die trying'' kinda way #then with proving Gilian guilty #he could have just waited for the final trial in the custody case #Julia's arguments were strong after their marriage and with Gilian accused of murder they were practically winners #but Richard had to make sure. and he thought he could only achieve that by using his killing skills #ugh. the complexity of this character #esp his character arc #the writers were like ''oh see how broken he is''#''just kidding! he started to heal; not so broken now! just a guy who wants to be loved!''#''anyway look how deeply broken he is. more so that you realized''#it's like a reverse matrioshka #where the surface-level angst covers the deeper abandoned dreams which in turn cover an ocean of angst of much much bigger scoop #* scope #anyway his fatal flaw is deep-seated belief of ''i'm so good at killing that i don't have to be moral'' which persists despite him trying #to fight it #boardwalk empire #richard harrow

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fazcinatingblog · 1 year ago

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My boss is giving me a pay rise and I've already blown it all on five comedy shows in April and my best friend's moving overseas forever at the end of March so I need comedy to fill the Biancyes Fasolo pizza hole in my life and

#I'm seeing Claire Hooper and Melanie bracewell and Celia and Joel creasey and nina oyama & I'm sure I'll wake up and buy more tickets at 3am #see a show every night #may as well #and after the festival is over I'll just die #it'll go Taylor in Melbourne then Taylor in Sydney then Brisbane then Sydney then pink in Melbourne then comedy festival then #dead #that's it #that's me done for the year #wake me up only if Collingwood go back to back #let me die if Carlton wins

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