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can we just skip to october?? i want halloween and spooky season
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yeah so this was insane
#i feel like too many people reduce this interaction to jason being like ‘lol same’#but idk :/#this chapter is from jason’s pov#and leading up to it he’s like ‘people keep walking on eggshells around me bc of the the michael varus stab wound’#and he hates it so when he goes on deck to help out with the storm#everyone’s like wtf except for percy#and jason states how much he appreciated percy not treating him like a sick kid#and i feel like it’s echoed in this sentiment where jason could say so many things like#‘you should never feel that way’ ‘im here if you need anything’#but he doesn’t make percy feel alone in his desire to just…. end it all#which ik for some people that doesn’t work but you’re not a character in hoo and percy is dealing with so much guilt#and he can’t tell annabeth bc she’s a main aspect of that guilt#and he doesn’t wanna guilt her more and he feels ashamed and when he describes this he feels weird for feeling it#so having jason this tough guy be like ‘yo i understand it bc i felt the same way#that’s gotta mean a lot to percy#also insane how jason who also struggles to display vulnerability#allows it in one of few times in this moment just so percy this guy he’s supposed to be jealous about#feels comforted and not alone in his guilt and shame#and also it’s just insane how jason’s wanting to kay em ess does not get talked about AT ALL#and just seeing his mom and the pressure of new rome getting to him#like this scene is insane and i’ll never shut up about it#also ignore me i’m just finishing my reread of hoo that took all summer#jason grace#percy jackson#pjo#ashla.txt
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Perfect 🎃
#destiel#dean Winchester#castiel#Destiel art#spnfanart#wiggleart#I was going to wait until September 1 to post this but I’m so fucking sick of summer and August In general#the treees are already turning where I live and I want my pumpkin spice chai already#so fuck it! fall starts now!#tbh for me fall starts on August 1 because I refuse to give summer another month lmao#but yeah#fall art time babey
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#am i enough#my edit#photography#fuzzy#backyard#care bears#nostalgiacore#romantization#hard times#am i making you feel sick#rural aesthetic#americana#lost places#childhood#trailer park#rust#alternative#small town aesthetic#nostaliga#girlhood#tell me i’m good enough#almost heaven aesthetic#summer aesthetic#green#ruralcore#words#small town#credits
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So, despite some faults, I really enjoyed totk, and on its anniversary I want to say something about it. Other people have said similar things before but it’s really important to me and actually a big part of why the story of totk was meaningful to me, so I want to also say it:
Zelda needed to come back from draconification. The story needed that. It wasn’t lazy and just ignoring “consequences” because (imo) that was the *point*
The point is to feel like there are going to be terrible consequences and then say actually, no. You can come back from this, with the help of other people.
To me at least, that was the theme of the whole story.
If botw was about how the world goes on past loss and grief and starts to heal (how flowers grow in the ruins and the world can be beautiful again, be worth saving, even if it has changed)…then totk was about a more personal kind of healing.
The weight of the world should not be on your shoulders alone…you, alone, should not have to fix everything…you should not have to sacrifice yourself, but when you do, someone will be there to save you from it.
This turned into a really long ramble so:
You (Link) gained so much and now it’s gone. It feels like you’re back to where you started and yet you know you have to do it all again…you were weak and you failed and you’re weaker now…but
You go down to the surface. Monsters swarm across it once again. Other people are fighting them too though. You help, but it’s not just you…
You go to the Rito, the Gorons, the Zora, the Gerudo…just like with the divine beasts, there are friends who help you save each region. But this time, part of them comes along with you when you leave. It’s nice, you realize, the first time one of them protects you from a monster you weren’t prepared for. You’re still weaker than you were before, but someone has your back…
When you go up to the sky you see a strange new dragon there. There’s something about them that feels familiar. You try not to think about it.
You go down to the depths too. It’s terrifying at first. You hate it. You only want to get what you came for and get out of the dark….but slowly, the light grows. You get stronger. The dark feels like a challenge you can face (and someone has your back).
There are spirits down there. You don’t know when they’re from, but some part of you wonders…are these all the people you let die in the Calamity? (You help them find rest from their wandering. The weight on your shoulders feels a little less heavy).
There’s so much gloom. The first few times the sky turns red and hands chase you (a reminder of what you’ve lost, how you failed) you just run. Eventually though, you have to fight. It feels like the (second) worst day of your life again. But you manage to get free of the grasping gloom and stand and fight, as wild and desperate as it is. Beneath the manifestation of your worst fears, there’s another thing to fight, but this time it has a face (a voice in the back of your head says…you know this isn’t all on you and your failure…it’s really Ganon’s fault right?). You get through it.
At every turn in your travels, it seems like something reminds you of Zelda. Her passion, her curiosity, her kindness. You miss her.
At first, the tears you find reassure you. She may be in the past, but she’s safe. She’ll come back somehow…but then you hear the word draconification for the first time. You want to believe she wouldn’t do it but you know her and the fear sits cold inside you. (Zelda is a lot of things. She’s been allowed to be more of them, since she was freed from her hundred year battle, without her father holding her back. But deep down inside her, there’s a vein of self-sacrifice that still runs strong. It’s what saved the world before, after all).
She did it. She really did it. She’s gone from you (from Hyrule) forever, and it’s all your fault. If only you hadn’t failed so utterly in the battle (you can hardly even call it that) under the castle. If only you’d caught her. If only you hadn’t let the sword break. You should have protected her you should have been better it’s all your fault and now she has to live with the consequences, forever. Everything really is on you, you should have been better.
(Zelda POV: you couldn’t call upon Hylia’s power in time, you were too content to let it wither and fade away from you, ready to be free of it. You shouldn’t have. He got hurt, the sword got hurt, it’s your fault…Sonia and Rauru help you channel it again, Sonia helps you learn how to turn back time…but you don’t save her. She dies because you couldn’t save her. Rauru dies not long after. There is no one left to guide you, once again. You could spend years trying to figure it out on your own. But you did that last time. It didn’t work. Self-sacrifice, stepping in front of someone you love, that worked. (You do what you can, to call upon the sages, to help Link in the future, first). And then you swallow the stone. You’ve come a long way, in the past five years, allowing yourself to exist. But in the end, self-sacrifice worked last time. It’ll work this time too.)
You (Link) go down beneath the castle. You were supposed to bring the sages but you didn’t. It’s nice, for someone to have your back. But no one else should get hurt to fix your mistakes.
They follow you anyway. They fight with you, against the hordes, against the greatest enemies you defeated together, along the way. They’ll have your back, even if you don’t think you deserve it.
You fight Ganondorf, and then the demon king, in the hardest battle of your life. You think it’s over and then the demon king decides it’s better to lose himself completely than let you win. You’re exhausted and afraid of yet another battle, but up there in the sky, when you’re falling, the Light Dragon catches you (you wonder why she changed her path to catch you, you wonder if there’s still something of Zelda left in there to save). With her help, you win.
And then you’re in some other realm. The spirits of Sonia and Rauru are there. You remember how the two of them and Zelda channeled such incredible power together. You think about Recall. Turning something back to the memory of what it was before, like Sonia said. You stand with them and you allow yourself to hope. Maybe the Light Dragon can remember the form she took so long ago, the person that she was.
And then you’re falling, and Zelda is falling, but this time you catch her. You catch her. She’s back home with you, finally, finally.
And maybe, one mistake doesn’t have to be the end of the world. You don’t have to be perfect. Sometimes, someone else can stand with you, and it’ll all turn out alright. (You can put the weight of the world on your shoulders, you can sacrifice yourself, but someone will be there to catch you, someone will be there to pull you back to yourself, when all is said and done).
#loz#tears of the kingdom#Link#Zelda#I will say also that I think part of the reason totk is special to me is very personal#like when it came out I was still struggling with the worst burnout of my life#I had had a few months of exhaustion between January and March and in May that exhaustion was still sticking to me#it was hard to get out of bed hard to do anything I felt so tired that I almost felt sick but I wasn’t sick#and the thing is Zelda games are my biggest special interest#and having a new one to play like genuinely I’m not joking it gave me bsck so much energy#I was doing really badly but when totk came out I played it for an entire weekend straight basically#and like my mom came to visit me and help me out with basic life stuff#and like sit with me while I played just like enjoying being together#and that was really nice#over that summer and the fall after I started getting to know someone I work with better#largely over conversations about totk at first#and they’ve become a good friend#(and become someone that I feel safe to be fully myself around)#and so I just have this really strong personal connection to totk#like I will not claim to be impartial about it#there are definitely criticisms that I can acknowledge#in particular I don’t like that they un-amputeed Link let Link be disabled#and also ganondorf’s characterization was shallow and one dimensional#and I’m sure there’s other things I could think of#but the overall narrative#including Zelda becoming the light dragon and then turning back in the end#I really like that#it felt like a narrative of healing to me#and playing it at the time that I did felt really healing to me too
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Do not stand by my grave and weep. I am not there.
#the summer hikaru died#hikaru ga shinda natsu#the summer hikaru died fanart#digital art#my art#artists on tumblr#procreate#digital illustration#I’m sick of flowery bl stories with shy hand holding and soft kisses#where’s the cannibalism and psychological horror??
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summer and rick’s relationship is genuinely everything to me. he hides it behind misogyny as an excuse because it’s easier to justify that way, but the only reason he doesn’t take her on adventures all the time is because he’s scared to lose her. because canonically she reminds him of diane. she’s so much like rick too in so many ways.
evil morty says he doesn’t want vengeful summers coming after him if he kills rick. he knows she could track him down and cause him a lot of trouble (if not kill him successfully) because he understands her potential.
she’s super smart—canonically in episode two she says she “chooses” to get C’s in school. as in, she evens out her grades on purpose. she loves drugs and partying much like someone else we know. she understands rick arguably better than anyone else in the family; in s3 ep 1 she was right about the arrangement of flies opening a secret compartment, when they go on their party spree she does a “very rick thing” by averting an apocalypse just to prove a point.
i genuinely believe she’s the most like rick and has the most potential to be. and that’s part of why rick especially at first tries to not do to much with her; he doesn’t want her turning into him.
#i’m sick in the head.#never a day i don’t think about them :/#rick and morty#rick sanchez#summer smith#analysis
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I’m living for the angst but I need them back rn
#I’m sick rn this season is killing me#the summer i turned pretty#conrad fisher#conrad fisher imagine#conrad fisher x reader#tsitp#conrad fisher x y/n#tsitp imagine#conrad fisher smut#conrad fisher x you#team conrad
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Listening to old Brazilian love songs makes me think of zolu so much i am smiling so big rn. I want what they have.
They make me imagine them slowly dancing to one of those beautiful old salsa songs where they gently hold hands and move their bodies so slow, that they sweated terribly but still want to enjoy the warm sunny evening with the chilly breeze of the entire seas they sailed alone together while they hold and look at each other with endless love and big grins. THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH AND I AM CRAZY OVER THEM.
#imagine luffy calling zoro cariño#SHOULD I JUMP OFF SOME TALL BUILDING OR WHAT#THEY MAKE ME SICK#I’M GRINNING AO MUCH#HSGSWNSYSJASA#i need what they have#old brazillian songs are always going to be my favourite#and I can’t even explain how much i love them#luffy being Brazilian makes everything better AHHGG#one piece#zolu#roronoa zoro#monkey d. luffy#opla#luffy#monkey d luffy#zoro#op#luzo#luffy x zoro#zoro x luffy#it’s so cold outside but my insides are so full of warmth and love for them it feels like it’s summer already#my hands are cold but my face burns with my smile lmao😭#I SHOULD WRITE ABOUT LUFFY CALLING ZORO CARIÑO#I don’t want em if they don’t listen to old brazilian love songs with me#nvm if i did some spelling mistakes i will control them later
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Really enjoying taking my island less seriously and going full blown silly. (Also debated going for a Juno Birch look 👽🌭)
#animal crossing#animal crossing new horizons#acnh#ac:nh#pepperfig#i’m also playing in summer because i’m sick to death of winter irl and in game 🥲
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really need calum to give me advice on soccer right now :(
#or train me#ik he hasn’t played in over a decade#but I really just want a coach who is kind and understands that I’m just having this awful anxiety that’s getting in the way of playing#and I’ll be running and then I feel sick it’s the worst#because I know I can do it! and when I miss shots it’s just cause my brain is all over the place#i feel like he’d know what to do#calum hood#5 seconds of summer#5sos
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#oh he’s sick#I’m obsessed with him#summer gains anyone?#please keep this coming#thanks barzy#new york islanders#mat barzal
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fucking hell i hate being sick so much
#marzivents#before the autoimmune shit being sick was annoying but i could get through it#it was fine. i didn’t like it but it was always over in like 2-3 days#i wouldn’t even miss school unless i was running a noticeable fever#(though by high school i kinda stopped checking)#now though? being sick is so much more treacherous than before#i have to rest so much. log this symptom manage that symptom keep your doctors updated#don’t stress out too bad! don’t wanna trigger a flareup#it’s scary. a cold could land me in the hospital if i’m not careful#plus. the symptoms of a cold feel a lot worse when your autoimmune flareups start like colds#it’s just the worst. am i gonna have to spend the rest of my life afraid of the common cold#how the fuck do i go about being immunosuppressed without developing germaphobia#i know that in a year or two this will feel normal and i’ll be used to it#but right now it’s still new and it’s so so frightening#it feels like everyone is sick all of the time. at any given point in time 2 of my friends have some sort of cold#this winter season has been especially abysmal#but even before then. several folks i knew had walking pneumonia in the summer#there’s all these outbreaks always happening. it’s terrifying#plus there’s the inconveniences of missed class time#i don’t want to miss school. i like school. i want to go and learn and get my degree#but i have to rest so i can’t go to class which fucks up my grades which stresses me out#which makes me more likely to get sick later! it’s fucking awful#i dunno. i need to go to bed i think. i’m just… stressed and tired and sick of it
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One of the reasons why I could never read ‘real person’ fanfic is the inability to construct and adapt the appropriate characteristics to each being within the media.
With fictional characters, there's an established understanding of what the audience (dramatic irony) and each character know about each other whether this was compiled through what the character says, how the other characters explain them, interactions, characters' past (either shown in a flashback or told) and or parallels between them and other situations/characters within the media.
Personally, one of the elements of fanfiction that I enjoy is seeing how other people perceive and understand the characters, as well as the characters' relationships with other characters and how they react to certain circumstances; either given by the narrative itself (canon events) or the audience's decision (fanfic).
As the audience, it is a privilege to insepct and examine the small and unique aspects of the characters to analyse and connect elements within the narrative to develop a deep understanding of them. However, this can’t happen with real people.
In real life, there is no story arch, there is no specific camera angles, no specifc lighting, no intentionly writing choices, no additonal codes and conventions that explore a story deeper into the text of reality.
Especially famous people, more specially youtubers; within an increasingly parasocial world, where the audiences are becoming progressively closer towards the artist, it is harder to seperate the audience's belief that they know that particular person/group.
I think this is most obvious within the One direction/5 seconds of summer phase of the early 2010s, but it has yet to decrease due to the prevelent evolution of what is considered the norm of social media interaction with the artist and the fan.
Therefore artist will present in the 'so called' suitable character that they want to present at a given time. Implying that in particular circumstance, either promoting new music or movie, playing a game, peforming and so on, they will display the appropriate characteristics to go with that aim.
The audience cannot take this and deem it as their personality, or decode that they are 'faking' or pretending in front of the camera. I think there's a belief that famous people, more specifically Youtubers will either be their 100% authentic selves or become a completely different person in front of a camera, but that is not true. They are becoming an alternative version of themself for a performance.
In summary, I think the idea of reading fanfic about real people exacerbates the parasocial relationship that social media is now normalizing. Such as depersonalizing public figures into caricatures of themself and placing them into fabricated renditions of what that particular audience desires from them.
#been thinking about this for a while#this is not about discrediting fanfic in general#I love fanfic#it is my lifeline#also#In am not hating on people who do#this is about my opinion and myself reading it#and why I don’t like it#this is really a theory#sorry if this isn’t well written#just did it in the car and now I’m kinda car sick#I got the idea from the Smosh video about them reading fanfic about themself#just Smosh in general#one direction#5 seconds of summer#Smosh#courtney miller#shane topp#ian hecox#anthony padilla
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dreaming of summer
#i live in the southern hemisphere and i’m sick of the winter :(#summer#moodboard#pinterest#mood board#aesthetic#warm#ocean#fruit#art#nature
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Aaaand there it is
#I always get a cold in the summer#usually in June#idk why the summer gets me sick but it does#I’m sure I may have gotten sick from camp tho#dang it#I was doing so good#I KNEW IT#I knew when I thought to myself ‘oh man I haven’t got sick in a while I just don’t get sick often’#that I would then get sick#well HERE I AM#sick#😔#delete later#smiles rambles
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