#i’m not a danger to myself i am just

[cottagegorevampy]

feeling super! super! super! suicidal hollow and empty and unreal and unravelled and useless and useless and and and

[wildsaltair]

you can’t show me this picture at 10:39 in the morning and expect me to act normal in any way, shape, or form

[luna-the-cretar]

I love the fact that, in the few days (week?) the party was gone, Tommy somehow managed to find a poncho (or made himself one) and a cowboy-esc hat and dress himself up as Shepherd. He even cut holes in the hat for horns he doesn’t have. 🥺🥺🥺

AND SHEPHERD SAYING “thats my boy” WHEN TOMMY SAID HE WOULD PROTECT THE GIRLS. I CANT.

[thedappleddragon]

Hmm

[himblebo]

Thinking back to the parking lot conversation I had with my coworker after I fully broke down and told her everything that has been going on at home and how I feel so fucking trapped because I can’t afford to leave and she compared it to intimate partner violence and it just. Sank in in a way that it hadn’t before. Like when my therapist told me to imagine if somebody treated the girl I babysit the way I was treated, would I think that was something to brush off or would I immediately report it? Just. Having somebody force you to view your struggles from another perspective is so powerful.

[eddis-not-eeddis]

It’s spring, and I look exceptionally cute in all my springy dresses and for WHAT?

[excelsior9173]

i’ve been saying i’d do it since damn september but guess who’s finally going to call and make a fuckin doctors appointment?? this guy!

it’ll take forever to get in but i actually can’t cope with the mental week from hell before my period. never in my life have i wanted my cycle to show up but i am begging my body to hurry up and start bleeding so i can feel somewhat normal again

i think this last week has been one of the worst i’ve had. the suicidal ideation has been at an all time high- i came the closest i ever have to acting on it (but hey at least there’s no intrusive thoughts right now??) and the anger is unmanageable. it’s probably for the best i’ve been alone because the only person i can be mean to and hurt is myself. i have been blowing up nonstop and honestly the rage scares me. i don’t want to be that person. i don’t want to hurt myself either

anyways. just having a really bad time the last few days and desperately need help so i’m gonna suck it up, kick my ass into gear and call the damn campus office on monday.

[boycritter]

pms is so stupid and it sucks so bad and i hate it so

[iero]

I tell my overprotective and overbearing family that I’m going on a trip and Jesus Christ, you would have thought I told them I’m going off to war…

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Was in an “I need to do something fun, novel, and mildly dangerous right NOW or I am going to self-destruct” kind of mood so I got a waffle cone locally then walked an hour or two to Target and Big Lots, bought some stuff I needed, and carried it back from 8:30–10:00. I saw the moon! It is very orange. Very beautiful. Very powerful.

I got a file folder for important documents and some Command strips and hooks from Target; and a denim chindi rug, an over-door organizer, and some pretty butterfly depression glasses, which I assume are for liquor from Big Lots.

I also helped some kids cross the street because they were unsure how crosswalks worked; and I gave a few dollars to a lady holding a sign who needed it to support her kids. Honestly I liked doing those things more than the actual shopping but I am quite pleased with my denim chindi rug. It’s pretty.

[isdalinarhot]

The nice thing about Dalinar all things considered is that if he is fond of you, and you are in his good graces, and you are having a Random Irrational Very Sad Moment, he will let you do crying into his big huge large strong but also soft torso. And he will hold you tight. And if you wish to be pressurized into a diamond he will do that too. He’ll be so fucking awkward throughout but he will do it 💯

[apathyfairy]

going back to my emo roots and painting my nails black again

[chaoticbuggybitchboy]

[physically vibrating with the effort of not just writing straight up fanfic for my writing class]

[mantis-a-shrimp]

It’s “is life even worth it” hours featuring my constant companion DPDR. All signs are pointing to no.

[autistic-katara]

killing myself rn

[artificial-condition]

Having a gap year was really great for me because it was the first time in my adult life that I was able to just sit with myself. Figure myself out. Work on myself. Even though I had been an adult for several years, I feel like I really matured in my year of nothing. I now feel much more firm in who I am, even with opposition; I have always been a big pushover, letting other people do whatever they wanted and letting my desires go to the side, but now I am much more likely to assert what I want and tell people no. I’ll just do and be without analyzing what others want or expect of me, and it’s so refreshing to let that go. People really do grow in the cracks