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sometimes friends make everything so much better. like. damn. im able to survive the hell that is the education system literally because of you huh
#like#yesterday smth really bad happened at a place that i study and i was dreading the going there today#butthen i saw the people i hang out with#and however fleeting thosefriendshios are going to be#i wouldnt be okay without them#my entrance tedt is in 15 days and my fare well is tmrw#and im not aupposed to go#and iw as plagued by guilt the entire time#but when my friends asked for me to come#i was happy#i wanted to cause i really loved them#damn#how emotional
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Again - Bez needs physical contact (according to the Bez episode of Migno's podcast - didnt watched it yet but saw it somewhere)
Now please consider this: He was properly to nervous to establish first physical contact with Vale in the early stages of being in the academy (relatable). But maybe he was already more comfortable with the other boys, Franky, Pecco, Cele, Luca, and Vale noticed. And realized what's going on. (Or he didn't and was worried that Bez didn't felt safe around him) So he started the physical contact for Bez to make sure he knows that he's okay with it
#Let me have a softie moment#Okay#Like we see how he gives hugs#those are all bez emotion but as a 17 year old you probably wouldnt dare to touch/ hug your idol like that without permission#Like Bez wanted Vale to like him-#He couldnt be 110% fanboy#And Vale was like... Yeah no we don't do this whole trying to act cool when you need physical contact so come here#welcome to rays headcanons#on todays episode#motogp#valentino rossi#vr46 academy#marco bezzecchi#yes I do believe the academy aims to teach and make them feel safe#you are welcome to fuck off if you disagree#I can and will eloborate on that if you want#I MEAN FUCKING LOOK AT THEM
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hello everyoneee!! i am currently at a pro palestine encampment at my university and so will probably not be quite so active as i am normally. no idea how long it will last
#okay home again for work again SIGH#pinning thisss. chances of me getting arrested or hurt are quite low i am staying safe#why are there do many scandinavian mfs at encampment#demanding divestment and transparency from our uni#shut up ulrike#palestine#my face#their tactic is essentially just letting us stay + trying to bore us into leaving without them meeting our demands. rather than arresting u#immediately. which really wouldnt fly here
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[ for the record, in reference to previous post though, if i ever appear to be assuming or i am simply mistaken that i read something from canon and it doesn't apply to your version, i am human, i am happy to learn and listen, please inform me rather than going along with it and potentially being irritated/uncomfortable, because i will do the same with you!
y'all have no idea how hard it is sometimes to write a medical character and try to remember what everyone hcs differently related to biology and medical things ajhfjgsjdhgf but even BESIDES that
#i try rly hard to keep my thoughts and preferences non-pressuring but i aM HUMAN I DO HAVE THOUGHTS#if i accidentally apply them without realizing you can tell me#like i see a bee i go son child and usually that's okay but if someone DIDNT want me to do that- i wouldnt!#alright that's all just wanted to clarify the Reverse of that post applies too#[BLUE SPEAKS] ooc
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with the ai thing does anybody know how it works with reblogs. like if you opt out are your posts completely safe from this stuff or is your choice ignored if somebody who hasnt opted out reblogs it and its taken from their blog . or does this only apply to original posts and not reblogs ? idk
#this whole thing is so annoying .#the fact that they set this up in secret without giving any warning until the day they rolled it out#just shows they knew people wouldnt like this lmfao#also its always so scummy when sites introduce stuff like this and have everyone opted in by default#instead of only using the posts of people who have actively told them ''yeah its okay i dont care''#if they did it that way people wouldnt be nearly as upset. i know i wouldnt be anyway#but again they probably do things this way because they know most people probably wont like it
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just full force threw a shoe at my sister's face and when my mum got me alone after she was like 'you shouldn't clobber her. but i get it' 😭
#it kicked off today but in my defence she's actually proper in the wrong this time even my DAD called her a bitch and my mum is FUMING#baso my sister came into my work with her mate when i was closing the other day and all the staff GLARED at them bc of aforementioned#close so i was being v chill so everyone 1) knew it was my sister and not some customer coming in late and 2) her friend wouldnt be uncomfy#like that's the real kicker her i was being extra laid back FOR her friend so he'd feel more at ease. and one thing about me is yes ive#said countless times i have a rural accent but my mum also raised me to know when and how to speak nice if need be bc people are cunts here#so when im waitressing i speak nicely bc it's a stuck up restaurant w stuck up customers but when im with my sister? making a point of#being laid back? my normal accent came through. and her mate when i was gone said i sounded 'really [from the county we live in]'#which WOULD NOT BE A COMPLIMENT. it's baso saying 'your sister sounds local and chavy' without using such explosive words#and my sister LET HIM SAY IT. SHE DIDNT DEFEND ME. and she told my mum about it later bc SHE THOUGHT SHE'D TELL ME OFF#LIKE SHE DID IT TO SNITCH. THERE WAS NO SCENARIO WHERE MY SISTER WASNT BEING A CUNT. and my mum hit the ROOF#one thing she's rlly been big on is loyalty bc it's always been the 3 of us so when she found out my sister let him say that she FLIPPED#and this all happened last night and i only found out this morning bc i overheard them screaming at each other and turns out my mum#tried to keep it from me bc she didnt want my feelings hurt and IM pissed bc it actually did hurt more than i thought it would#like i KNOW what people say about my accent but it's a guy i know? my sister's been friends w him for years? i was being nice?#it's EMBARRASSING like i was clueless & friendly and turned around for him to be like 'look at this stupid local girl' like??#and my sister did NOTHING? it just sucks so i STORMED upstairs when i found out and had it out with my sister#and she knew she was fucked so she did all 'im not talking to you i have nothing to say' AND PUT HER EARPHONES IN?#the way i RIPPED them out. got in her face like okay girl u think i sound like a chav ill act like a chav lets GO#and it just got really aggressive and i wound up grabbing HER OWN SANDAL and full force hurling it at her face 😭 oops#from close range too like i was already in her face so i basically just smacked her with a sandal DSHGJKSH#now we're sat in silence bc alas we still share a room. WHAT the fuck. insane tbh but it's a bit funny. im so angry rn i could KILL#hella goes home
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Not very fond of people like waving off testament’s gender as just a Gear Thing but well at least it becomes funny when people apply it to gears as a whole. Like yeah i can agree with that. It has nothing to do with being a gear tho theyre all just transgender
#okay ill talk about it seriously down here#it does feel like the original intent behind their androgyny was to kind of Other them from humanity#daisuke saying theyve transcended humanity / talking about their ‘inhuman beauty’#i dont want to call it dehumanizing since theres like. a weird positive (…i guess) angle of them being ‘above’ humanity#thats just kind of a trope though. like nonhuman characters without a human concept of gender or sexuality. yknow#but anyway strive didnt really go back on this. they kinda made it a part of their arc?#i think dev backyard says that theyve ‘lived without the concept of gender’ since being turned into a gear#but theres no disconnect from humanity that goes along with that anymore#i like the implication that reconciling with humanity and more importantly their OWN humanity coincided with their presumable transition!#alright now for the part of this i dont like. its weird to assume the gear conversion had some effect on their body and THATS why theyre nb#i think any implications of that are vague enough to be dismissed#i wouldnt even call them Implications its like. messy (and contradictory!) early 2000s phrasing and a theory about 1 line of dialogue lol#early fandom stuff im aware of but dont know enough to talk about aside. nowadays its just used to like#excuse their androgyny. by gamers who cant just. believe that theyre nonbinary because they want to be. lol#not because of anything that was done to their body against their will. or even more simply because theyre just a gear and are Above gender#literally theyre just nonbinary. isnt that cool. i wish everyone could agree this is cool and end the discussion there.#except for me. i can discuss it all i want forever. because im the understander.#whatever. at least the section of testament’s wiki page theorizing about their genitalia is gone now. kissaroo for whoever took that off.#I NEED TO WRITE UP THAT TIMELINE IM LITERALLY NOT KIDDING WHEN I SAY IM AUTISTIC ABOUT TESTAMENT’S GENDER. CLEARLY#the kat goes meow#gg
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I need to just stop looking at the comments of any ig post on physical disability whether it's positive or otherwise because it is 99% "As someone with Aspergers-" this isn't ABOUT YOU!
#I'm autistic don't come for me#like some things are specific to physical disabilities. why are you giving your pov on someone talking about strangers pushing their chair+#without permission#'ohhh im neurodivergent so I dont understand why you wouldnt be okay w this and im making that Your problemmm'#fucking learn and fucking shut up#like being autistic or having adhd isnt a free ableism pass that you can use against everyone else#'theyre just trying to help even though they kept going when you told them to stop you should just let people help!'#so you believe disabled people aren't allowed autonomy? oh wait unless they're your Particular brand of disabled#although tbh I think most people who specifically id as haveing aspergers Not autism probably see literally every single#other disabled person in existence as lesser to them lmao
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whenever me and my friend do our horror movie nights i have this habit of looking up the movie once it's over and my GOD i was not expecting the fucking insanity that was the american psycho wikipedia page. babe what the fuck went on with this film.
#spam brain#just like. we hired this one director. she kept insisting that we cast this no name actor as the lead. we said no. she refused to do the#fucking movie without her no name actor. we fired her. we hired another guy. also leonardo dicaprio. they ended up having creative#differences and the guy we wanted sooooo bad (dicaprio) left. gloria steinhem is in part responsible for that. other director left. we#rehire the woman that wouldnt work without her no name lead man. we try to hire like 4 other actors but none of them want to do it. finally#we go okay. okay you can have your no name actor but we're paying him as little as possible. they are both thrilled by this.#also christian bale just STRAIGHT UP SABOTAGED THEIR EFFORTS TO FIND ANYONE THAT WAS NOT HIM???? AT LEAST A LITTLE???#all the other actor thought he sucked. he refused to break character. what even WAS this preproduction#i cant even im obsessed#i literally just spent the entire second movie reading through the wikipedia page im not kidding#but like the second movie was just childs play so fucking whatever#non fandom#American Psycho
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was gonna say smth else but this turned into a vent sorry everyone just ignore. typical weekend post on this blog u know how it is here we go👍
#wild ik so many ppl getting married meanwhile im over here struggling to convince myself my friends even care abt me or want me around#pathetic to admit but i cant even fantasise abt someone loving me bc im too insecure n emotionally unstable#my mind just shoots the idea down like whoa. unrealistic. ur incapable of expressing or receiving affection in any way that matters#no matter how badly u want to... and even if someone did well u wouldnt believe them most of the time#gotta get out of the fucking labyrinth first i couldnt inflict this shit on anyone i cared abt#but it makes me so desperately sad sometimes i dont know how im ever going to get out of this ive been trying for years and years#and im a little better at it snd i dont feel like this all of the time i know it just comes around and itll pass again#but im tired of being in so much emotional pain so frequently. and shouldering it so alone. theres such a disconnect between myself and#others and i dont know how to bridge that i don't know how to stop feeling so isolated and unwanted !!!!!! im trying so hard#it doesnt even bother me w relative strangers in my life like i dont get insecure at all around them i like meeting new ppl#bc theres like. no expectations i guess. like ik they dont care abt me personally and idk them well enough to do that either#and its fun but it doesnt satisfy needs that i have like i need to feel close + connected to ppl i need to care abt them + feel cared for#but as soon as i do start to care abt ppl it gets all tangled and i end up getting rly badly hurt over and over. thru no fault but my own#bc im constantly alienating myself and bc i struggle so much w shit like physical affection which is frustratingly rly critical for me!!!!#it wouldnt fucking matter if i didnt like or want affection ik some ppl are fine without i wish it worked like that for me#but nope instead i have to be constantly messed up over my complete fucking inability to express myself in any form#and ik it makes everyone around me so uncomfortable so it just becomes self reinforcing and eventually they drift and leave me behind#and i just do that over and over and over and every time ill tell myself ill do better ill try harder and itll get easier and someone will#and it happens again and right now im at the stage where the abandonment fear is starting to kick in which is awful n paralysing#and usually a precursor to actually being abandoned ehich is always my own fault bc i start behaving so erratically out of fear or defense#its self fulfilling and im trying. im trying so hard not to let it overwhelm me again and not to start acting out and freaking ppl out#and im coping with it okay i think but just hurts me a lot its all internal my rejection sensitivity is gradually ticking up and up#and argh!!!!!!!!! and some days im okay and some days its like this and i dont know what todo when its like this im so tired and in pain#its not even that bad today tbf. once im done typing this to get it out ill be able to do smth else and distract mysrlf for a bit#and then calling friends later too so exposure therapy innit. but itll be fun and i love them but i will probably also feel very bad after#or even possibly during but thats okay ill still manage fine im not going to let it interfere i dont want it controlling my fucking life#i am going to have a nice time and be okay despite it all. even if i do have to fucking battle this every day forever#and even if it stops me living my life to the extent i want and feeling as ok as i want i just have to come to terms with and be ok w it#and im not going to be!!! a fucking asshole abt it!!! i dont want to hurt anyone else thats the most important thing no matter how i feel#thr rest is all secondary and ik i cant help a few little bumps here and there but trying hardest to keep it separate its not negotiable
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After thinking about pomskies I got curious so googled breeders for funsies and YIKES. It's too bad. If anyone comes across any pomski breeders that DON'T have a dozen red flags on their website pls lmk.
#barkin up some trees#one of them said puppies are spayed/neutered at 10 weeks old before they go home 🤢#big fucking NO#another one said they are genetically tested (with embark)#only embark#like thats not......enough#im all for mixes and i dont hate designer breeds#but i wish it was easier to find people that are doing it more ethically#i found ONE that seems okay from their website#but im sure if i emailed them id find out some things i don't like#but also a lot of them are charging like 3k minimum for puppies#which is a LOT for a mixed breed without health testing#i wouldnt pay that much for any dog without health testing#idk theyre just so appealing#i like smaller dogs and i love huskies#and poms are nice#but poms arent quite what i want in a dog#and im gonna be real honest i do think a pomski is what i want
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Started thinking about the Amanda Waller + Ben Turner relationship again.... fuck, I'm gonna need a minute
#I JUST- SHDIAUDJSHDSHEYEYRYRYRY guys. guys#i know none of you see my vision and thats okay. i will make you see my vision. i will force you to see my vision. i will-#like jesus fucking christ oh my god. its so interesting and gives me so many emotions and just!!!#i know im not making sense bc none of my moots are sui sq fans and also like half of the content fucking me up specifically here is in my#head because i cant stop thinking about my absolute power fix it au but like!!!!!!!#also the fact i have a fix it for a comic that isnt out yet is so funny to me. its literally fucking real though. god knows we need it#may my own content carry me through the dark times (extreme villain waller arc)#anyways this fucks me up so bad you dont even know. someday ill actually explain it#dc hire me to write a suicide squad ongoing PLEASE. i could do it so good it would be so fucking good dc PLEASE 😭😭😭😭😭😭#also like this isnt me shipping them btw. like 110% not that. just to clarify.#i wouldnt even call it a friendship bc like. theyre not friends really. he has the most equal dynamic with her i would say but it still isnt#equal. shes v much his boss even though they have an understanding and respect there#like she believes and trusts in him much more than anybody really even himself. like she sees the good man and the leader even when he#doesnt. but she isnt nice about it. and there is a lot of conflict between them when there needs to be#like as much as ben is “wallers man”--the team leader she wanted from the beginning before rick flagg pushed his way in#ben i would say is still a very moral person even when lost and unsure of himself and his goodness (which is like one of his main things)#like i feel like while amanda can lean very into a “the ends justify the means” mindset in her worse moments and do bad things to get#herself out of a corner ben has like a deep and meaningful understanding of how the choices of your methods and how you act can weigh on you#like even though he was brainwashed and whatnot (thats still the story right? i cant remember) he holds a lot of guilt and baggage over his#actions and i think is able to temper amanda's worse tendencies in terms of that by calling her out when he recognizes that behavior#idk. i just really think that amanda waller and the suicide squad as a whole has lost its way without a more moral authority presence there.#like someone who can call her out and keep them more on track. which i really thing ben is and could be#i just very much am interested in their dynamic and how that would look like as equals and how i think they could help each other.#which ofc is what my wip is about and revolves around#blah#sui sq
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One day I'd like to share my A oc with y'all but nervous but also I love him so dearly he's me, he's A, he's stubborn, and childish, and a smart ass but baby...
But also more than being an A oc he developed into just being my own oc and in non-death note universe, as a kid, he helps solve little mysteries around the neighborhood he grew up in with his besties Cole (originally my B oc) and Thomas (my friends oc who was a V oc) and they call themselves the Misfit Knights!!! They're all kinda misfits for one reason or another at their school and slowly become a found family type of friend group and eventually becoming the misfit knights really helps to reconnect with their classmates and community. They solve little mysteries for kids at school or in the neighborhood like "who took my backpack!!" or "the group of bullies are scaring me :(". Tho in that case they kind of just end up diverting the bullies attention to themselves, which in their opinion is a Problem Solved, even if it's Their Problem now.
Their biggest mystery and the one that jostles them all the most is The Missing Pets, which they're just kids and they haven't really interacted with criminal crimes before so they just think someone like stole them or something... ? It's very strange and they don't really realize it's like... Something that will put them in real danger until they're in the basement of the person, and close family friend of Thomas', they think is causing the pets to go missing and they See Scary Things Down There....
Anyway I'm rambling but I love them all so much and I love the idea of them all ending up in the Wammy house in some alternate reality but their bonds are shaken up and broken and weird now cuz they're older and Things Happened after/during the Missing Pets arc that really drew them apart and they either take the wammys house too seriously or it fucks their shit so bad.
#qeyond sucks#also idk how to do readmores on mobile anymore... girl help#genuine tho if yall know the code lemme know in a message or comment or something ; w ;#sorry im rambling but i just love anthony and cole so much...#i have ball jointed dolls based on them and art all over#theyre my babies born of death note but kinda took a life of their own#cole is a quiet fairy tail book worm but the kids dont like him cuz hes a bit weird...#he takes a lot of interest in learning about history and death and things and#he just doesn't make friends well#but thomas and anthony pick him up and he fits in so well with them#anthony is a high grades well off family kid with popular potential but hes a bit of a#butt head and a bit too serious sometimes and most kids didnt like it#but thomas and cole straighten him out and always bring him back to earth#like hey smart ass chill for a second#or make jokes about it and Anthony's like >:(( im being serious guys! and theyre like#yeah we know lmao its okay youll grow out of it pal :3#and thomas is a big super hero fan and adores his older brother whos in a band#i dont know him as deeply as cole and anthoyn cuz hes my friends oc but they#wouldnt be the same without him#hes the one that gets anthony to chill out when hes being a butt#very found family and theyre all some kinda gay but im still not sure in what ways#thomas x anthony tho and cole is like their kid#idk ignore me im just rambling oooghh
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just a heads up, im not okay with anyone reposting my gifs onto different posts + or editing them in the slightest, please don't do that.
#ewbie.txt#it feels kind of rude. i spend hours editing and cropping and working on gifs.... you wouldnt repost or edit art please dont do that to gif#like just dont take them out of the original post without asking please. even if tumblr 'gives credit'#if you want to use them as headers/blog themes im okay with that just please ask and credit#I don’t have the emotional bandwidth to reach out to several people privately but please don’t do this
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nano day nineteen
words today: 3047
words total: 42967
more good progress today! realized how hard it is to write a conversation between two people who do not speak the other's language! usually whenever i write firefly talking to people its either in her pov (she tends to understand others better than they understand her) or its like, eda, king, or luzmari. eda who is soul-bound to firefly. king who can See Dust and thus lowkey read minds to an extent. and luzmari who is. well she doesnt have any special power shes just lived w firefly for long enough to understand.
needless to say the collector is Not good at owlspeak. they will be one day! but that day is not today.
its always so fun when the characters sort of run away from you. king and the collector weren't going to start fighting until the last chapter--but they certainly disagreed! so now the fight's started sooner, which is good overall, i think--i've still got the big whammy saved up for that last chapter, and they've spent the entire story drifting apart. its a good way to kick off the final third of this fic.
my favorite part of what i wrote today:
“Quite frankly,” King says, and he shrugs them off, “I don’t even think you understand that you’ve doomed the entire Isles.” He recoils, and his head stings as though King clawed him, but there’s no wounds he can see. Still he doesn’t remember how to breathe. The world is blurry at the edges. King’s stardust is so far away and thundering. “I—” Their words catch in their throat. “What did I do?” “You aided Belos!” He looks so much like his dad. With the snarl ‘n the anger ‘n the way he towers over them, ‘n they cower back further, wanna bare their teeth but it’s all blunt so what good would that do? “Without you, Belos’s would’ve never been able to start the coven system! To cut down all the palistrom trees! You talk a whole lot about missing how things were when you’re the reason they aren’t like that anymore!” “He said he would free me!” “Oh,” King snaps, and his eyes cut right to the center of them, piercing, “and you believed him?” “I don’t.” Everything is going fuzzy. They keep blinking to keep how many Kings there are straight. “I was trapped. I didn’t wanna be trapped! I didn’t do anything to be trapped! I just—I just, I was good good good and your stupid dad trapped me! So it’s his fault!” “Somehow,” King says, “I really doubt you did nothing.”
#nanoblogging#chatter#my favorite part about this argument is how neither of them are wrong <3#the collector did help belos doom the world. without them theres no coven system or draining spell#and belos wouldnt STOP his goal of Killing All Witches but it sure would not have been as effective#(probably woulda still happened tho. the collector gave sigils + draining spell but Palistrom Tree Murder was a belos original)#but!!! the collector was also trapped!! for no reason!! and it fucked him up BAD!#kings dad overreacted and doomed the collector to this awful life where he had no contact w the outside world#and no contact with DUST which is. lets just say. very important to becoming a Person#and with that on top of his siblings who very much do not see mortals as people....#not of course that king and the collector know this lol <3#the eight year olds are fighting.....#this isnt even the most devastating. im saving that for the end. oh ho ho its BAD#but we gotta get to watching and dreaming somehow!!#sorry the collector is my favorite owl house character okay#just. i love them <3#and a grove of palistrom to you
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Does Jiro has ghost like abilities (possession, ability to levitate things, etc etc) or does she just live in Shiro's head?
when i created this au, i thought the best option would be for her to be unable to interact with the physical world in any way(including possesion), beacuse i really wanted to lean into her isolation and how it affects her....... and while thats something i still want to emphasise here, lately ive been toying with the idea of jiro being able to impact the physical world somehow(though it still being fairly limited). i think letting her have some control could have a lot of potential! buuuut i also have no idea what abilities i want her to have lol
For now i think im not gonna give her any telekinetic abilities, bc i feel like it would be giving her too much power......... if she could throw shit, shed go APESHIT with it. it would made things too easy for her. i'm sorry babygirl but i'm NOT giving you the possibilty to throw knives and other sharp objects, i dont trust you to not kill someone:/
i really like the idea of her being able to temporarily posses her old body in certain circumstances tho- maybe when shiros uncouncious?? or like when hes is very tired or heavily injured she can kind of 'squeeze through' and take control back for a few minutes???? idk. i think this could be a very cool ability to give her- it cant be frequently used but can also be very helpful, and also theres so much potential for ✨shenanigans✨here>:) oh god i could put these fuckers in so many Situations with this..........
uhhh. so basically i think all of her influence on the physical world are through shiro. shes here bc of her connection to her old body, and thus its the only way for her to interact with anyone besides him- and shes NOT HAPPY about this(neither is shiro).
#ask#thank you for this ask!! it made me think more in depth about jiros abilities and come up with this so thanks<33333#if you have any ideas pls share them with me cause im still not really 100% set on everything lol#also im making a new tag for this au ->#two disasters au#bc. theres two of them.. and theyre both Mentally Unwell#also im gonna use this ask as an excuse to ramble about jiros motivation and character a bit-#okay. so i feel like the most importrant things about jiro are her tunnel vision and self-rightiousness#she gets really focused on one thing at a time and then fixates on it so much that she doesnt see how her behavior affects others#so when she gets evicted from her own body her first reaction isnt 'oh god this is such a messed up and dehumanizing thing to do to your#friend. what the FUCK guys'#its instead 'oh COME ON how am i supposed to be the black paladin without a physical body??? what the FUCK guys'#and bc deep down she KNOWS that if she ever stopped and thought about her situation for like 5 seconds shed just fuckin BREAK. so. she#doesnt do that.#and bc her self worth hinges on being the black paladin#she is really protective of tha title and tries her hardest to make sure shiro knows just how much better at paladin-ing she is than him#and that he wouldnt be able to keep the role without her help#she doesnt have any sense of personhood besides her job and so she clings to it desperately#the same applies to her gender#when jiro gets a new body(did i mention that???? i feel like i forgot to mention that. whoopsie???) he#(sometimes im gonna use he/him for jiro for when im showing things from a certain characters perspective cause thats what pronouns#she was using at the time)(if thats not okay i can stop tho) was trying very hard to pretend that hes just Shiro No. 2 and nothing more#to kinda 'make things easier for everyone' and bc he could FEEL the gender crisis approaching and was just. dead set on ignoring it and#hoping those feelings would go away(spoiler- they very much didnt. it just made things so so much Worse)#so anyway. basically jiro is a person obsesed with being Good Enough and respected but also lacks the experience patience and foresight#wnich results in her ignoring everyone and everything else to focus on doing her job Correctly#does this makes sense?? im still figuring shit out with her but thats what ive got rn
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