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whorrorbvby · 15 hours ago

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an update:

hey friends a lot of people have been asking where ive been on other socials and im sorry for being m.i.a and ignoring everyone’s worries. im not getting into it right now and i dont know if i want to talk about the details publicly.

i deleted tumblr from my phone about two and a half weeks ago and ive had a friend keeping a queue going on main for me. it might be that way permanently now i don’t know. I don’t know that I want to come back to tumblr if im being honest. a lot of things happened and i just can’t handle seeing certain people anymore so i’ve been hanging out on two of the more safer socials where tumblr people people generally leave me alone. not that im upset with you any of you or anything it’s more of a personal relationship and it just turned me off of basically everything and i just can’t handle a lot right now.

i didn’t want to stop posting my own content for obvious reasons but i really can’t bring myself to come back it’s too hard and my heart can’t handle it right now. i also haven’t taken any new photos or anything and as of right now i don’t really feel super comfortable in sharing my body in that way. situations have made me feel disgusting as a person and i can’t look at myself. im trying to post more on ig to boost myself back up but i don’t know my self image is kind of ruined now. plus i’ve lost 15lbs from stress and inability to eat because of it and with how many people already harass and bully me for how scrawny i am i don’t want to subject myself in my current mental state to even the possibility of anyone saying anything.

but like i said i have a friend running main for me and i might have them run this account too and my pepper page just because i do want to go back to making content i just dont know if i can handle posting or being in certain spaces right now.

on top of what im currently dealing with in my personal life this is just a really hard time for me in general because of the holiday season and close to the anniversary of my best friends death so i tend to shut down a little anyway it’s just my entire world came crashing down again and im honestly starting to give up on even existing. i know im being melodramatic and i need to suck it up and just go back to status quo it’s just really hard this time and i cant force myself into a positive headspace like i used to even for a second. i have honestly never felt this empty and i barely know who i am or what my worth is anymore.

i dont know if i’ll turn my asks back on. my friend offered to answer anything for me but its better for my mental health if i dont because i know people will ask questions and i dont trust myself to not completely go off on a tangent. im sorry i know im rambling but i feel like a proper update with zero room for misunderstanding is needed and i dont want to sugarcoat or lie to any of you to make myself seem or feel better cuz i respect the hell out of you guys and you deserve honesty if for nothing else. and i appreciate so fucking much you all continuing to support me and hype me up through all the bullshit life keeps throwing at me.

im mostly on ig and threads right now and on threads im talking about games and movies with new people im meeting and it’s been really helping through shit. if you follow me on snap you saw me say im thinking about deleting everything. my accounts are still up and as long as my friend still wants to help me out i’ll at least have a queue running on main but i’ve deleted every social app other than ig and threads. i wholeheartedly planned on deleting snap last night but it’s the only way some of you get any updates from me so for now i wont delete it but i might make a new one instead just to get away from situations that are bringing me down. we’ll see. if I make a new snap i’ll post it everywhere n put it in my bios. that being said i don’t have a private/nsfw snap and i wont make one im sorry. i still wont sell content outside of what i post on peppers and i wont do customs im sorry. maybe in the future but right now i need to focus on myself and getting out of this headspace before i do anything else.

but truly thank you for sticking with me and just genuinely being the best crew around. i promise to try my best to get out of this mess of a headspace im in as quickly as possible and im really sorry for basically abandoning everything again but i really am hopeful for the future and just trying to focus on myself and my happiness at the moment 🙏🏻🧡

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silvyysthings · 1 day ago

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Look on the bright side…they’re probably gonna break up next year. Kylie has been trying to change her image for the past couple years (changed her style, lost weight, fixed her face, stopped cosplaying black women, started dating a white man) and she doesn’t wanna be know as the girl who cant get a ring. I doubt theyre gonna get engaged, timmy probably doesn’t wanna be a step dad. I still think timmy is only dating her to keep his name in the press while on his oscars crusade. Kylie is shallow enough to break up with him if he doesnt win- doesn’t wanna be tied to a “loser” who again, probably wont give her a ring. If he does win, he doesn’t need her anymore and he leaves her. But ofc either way the klan will spin it as kylies decision to end the relationship.

" Tim is only dating her to keep his name in the press"

Ahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahaahahhaahahhaahahahahhaha

Thanks for the morning laugh anon

#timothée chalamet #anon ask #kylie jenner

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erotomechanixxx · 1 year ago

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imagine being able to look into your moms eyes without feeling immense guilt clawinf at your heart

#ill never get tattoos or piercings or present myself in a way you wpuldnt want me to ill dedicate my life to pleasing you #ill stay up studying every night n still wake up at 5.25 each morning to go to school bc me getting good grades makes you happy #ive never went to a party ive never gone to prom ive never had a friendgroup ill never leave town ill never go to uni #ill be here for you till you wont be here for me anymore #i wont leave i cant leave i wont try to leave #never had dreams or aspirations of any kind so youll have me at your door at all times #you know whats best i dont know whats the worst that could happen sorry if ive ever talked in my sleep #never asking you to wash my back never asking you for more ever again #my pocket money are enough for me i wont buy anything else that isnt a need i wont throw uour money away ill never yell again

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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色彩 [Shikisai]

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #itafushi #fushiita #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #fanart #jjk fanart #megumi #yuuji #finally...some not angst.....#im worried out of my mind fr these two right abt now but we cope we cope :)#i woke up early n rushed to render this bc im leaving 2 catsit today n wont b able to spend every waking hour drawing like i have been #almost uploaded it without rendering megumi's ear and frgetting the sukuna scars so im sure ill find something i missed once i hit post smh #this pose fought me also >:( sighs why when i try to do not angst they do not want to cooperate . do they prefer being hurt #anyway !!!#i dont think any1 Listens when ppl put song links in the caption but if anyone is curious ! colours/shikisai galileo galilei #SO themcore im unwell i say that a lot but i mean it every time #speaking of colours i Love how these turned out but they ended up being a lot more cohesive than i intended GKHSDFK #wanted to have yuuji in warm and megumi in cold but that appears to have blended everywhere but their uniforms Oops #sighs these 2 and their sun/moon imagery r my cause of death. i die thinking abt it #resisted the urge 2 have a lmhs caption but let it b known. i amn Thinking it.#anyway i say ill b away from my drawing tablet but i fully plan 2 uber home one of the days so i can draw #i cant b slacking now the itfs reunion is nigh and i feel nauseous abt it i need to channel the nervous energy #have sketches.......just in case....but we dont Talk abt just in case >:(#itfs nation hold strong <3

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puppyeared · 10 months ago

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happy valentines day <3 i wanted to do more, but sadly i only had enough time to complete these two

please also don't forget Rafah is under attack and urgently needs help. you can buy esims, check the BDS boycott list, click the daily donation button and email your representatives (USA).

there will also be a global strike february 18 - 24.

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xxplastic-cubexx · 12 days ago

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Pet store clerk gives Charles a bag of free treats for his ""dog"" all while Charles can feel Erik Looming in the BG

the real mortifying day is after months of getting small bags of dog treats one day the bag of dog treats has like. perfectly normal human candies/pastries or something inside

Of Course charles is confused and impulsively asks what it is/how it's different from the usual only for the clerk to reply theyre Whatever Erik's Favorite Treat Is and its that day forward erik is adamant they just do their shopping online

#snap chats #clerk fully provides this information straight faced. by the way. and still pointing out those are for “”“”“The Dog”“”“”“”“#inviting all of you to assume the three of them became Vaguely Acquainted while charles and erik were fran shopping #like you know how you just happen to do small talk while at the store. at least five months of accidental small talk has led to this moment #'oh yeah i know these are his favorite- [Insert Food Here] right' and charles doesnt have to turn around or probe eriks mind #to know he's itching to leave the store but he cant just do that lest he validate this clerks suspicions #charles absolutely wants to try to laugh it off and tell the clerk he cant give these to his dog but the clerk Just Stares #they dont gotta say anything else ... charles dont gotta read their mind ... he wont argue he'll just swallow his shame and take the goods #anyways ... if anyone needs me ... im gonna succumd to the 3PM nap #i almost made it to 4 but alas ... i am sleepy ... then im gonna work SO im done answering asks for the evening #maybe ill answer some more tonight but i really have to focus. after my nap BYYYYEEEE #im gonna giggle about this new scenario tho ... Cherik Pet Shenanigans Somehow Getting Goofier Than Previously Thought #will have to do more thinkings of that down the line .... for now nap time 😴 cause i repeat i am five years old 😴

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saplingofspunk · 2 months ago

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#the togachako brainrot is so real i cant #they wont leaaaveeee #and honestly I'm not trying to let them leave in the first place #togachako

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lokh · 5 days ago

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slowly. but surely. cleaning out. my fucking room.

#theres just. a lot of stuff 😭😭😭😭😭#part of it is simply furniture and organising (i lost a bookshelf in the move and im realising #that if i still had it/one then a lot of stuff wouldnt be on the ground)#but. a not insignificant part i simply need to get rid of #if it were easy as throwing it away thats one thing...#but like. eg. i have so so much fabric. i cant throw that shit out but what do i do with it??? 😭😭😭😭#and so so much yarn...#which im already trying to use up but all thats done is having me leave half done projects lying around💀#kind of accepted i probably wont be making paper again so getting rid of a lot of paper scraps #might repurpose the box id been using to store the papermaking stuff...#there is just a LOT #but even cleaning/tidying small parts is good... oughhhh #you might wonder. what finally brought u to actually starting to clean.#the answer is. have been killing roaches #so one. too many fucking places for them to hide #two. my dad was planning on fumigating and its probably better to have a room thats easier to move things around #also re things like fabric like i KNOW theres options eg donating. selling. fabric swap or whatever #but thats EFFORT to actually set up 💀#anyways discovering brand new places i didnt know existed on fb marketplace

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doodlebloo · 9 months ago

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Hiii guys.

I've already been out of my mind busy for the past few months, and with midterms happening and my thesis defense soon I may not be super active here for a bit.

As it stands now I'm not leaving this blog. This has been my home for the past few years and I love the story too much to let go. I will assess how I'll talk about Tommy/Phil/Tubbo etc going forwards based on their responses, lack thereof, info on what is and isn't allowed to be said legally, etc.

If you're reading this I love you so so so much. I am at all times overflowing with love for the dsmp/mcyt community and what it's done for me. Some of the happiest moments I've had in my life were because of you all.

Also, if you're rebranding or moving blogs or w/e and we're mutuals I'd love to follow your new account even if we share 0 interests in common now, feel free to lmk where you're headed to (if you want) ❤️

#i think i need to be less on Tumblr for a minute because well.#i have an unhealthy attatchment to this community. i like get physically sick when i see a blog i loved has deleted.#and i cant really take the stress of watching ppl leave and checking for updates/statements on this situation rn so. may take a short break #i am coming back though. promise. probably wont even be a week.#(disclaimer 1: supporting shubble should always be everyones first priority. not trying to make this situation abt me just posting an update #on my blog about how my blog will be handling things.)#((disclaimer 2: if you see me post this ans a few days later im back here that means i failed in my attempt to not doomscroll 💔))#doodle.txt

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nowjumpinthewater · 22 days ago

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#this is very silly but #when my brother drinks out of a cup he sticks his pinkie out right #and my mom is all over him. saying how it's so cute and “proper”#but when i did that as a kid she would get so mad #saying im copying fancy nancy or some shit #and that it's a bad habit and i look like im trying too hard to be fancy #keep in mind i was seven to nine #and like. this is a pattern #things that i would do and get my mom severly annoyed gets a “he's my baby boy 🥺”#leaving his schoolbag in the middle of the floor: awww he's a baby dont be hard on him (to my dad)#he is twelve. when i was twelve i would NOT have gotten that reaction #it was “i cant keep cleaning up after you”#and when i have both headphones in i get yelled at because i wont be able to hear whne they're calling me #he has SOUNDPROOF HEADPHONES that he wears CONSTANTLY when hes on his ipad. its impossible to get to him without literally tapping on him.#when i talk toher about it she's like “no??? i would never do that???? you're making up memories again i dont like being accused like this”#“i dont think its fair”#im just. please this hurts. its silly but it does hurt #just. UGH.#vent

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scarletiswailing347 · 27 days ago

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highkey thinking of moving main socmeds again....

#mine.txt #im very picky with what fandoms im in andhighkey the ls and uu fandoms are steadily approaching into dont wanna be here territory #this isnt due to any specific events lol ive felt this way since like two weeks or so after s6 started #i mean im sure its cause a lot of ppl from twitter joined considering the same thing happened with hc #and ive seen a lot of ppl whove outright said they came from twitter move here so....#my friends and some ppl i wanna keep tabs on are here so i probs wont but idk #couple it with the fact that there seems to be a lot of ppl who dont give the slightest shit that spokes still a minor #in addition to all the typical fandom sins or racism; misogyny; ableism; sanism; etc and its like...#man theres just a lot of shit i dont wanna deal with #i dont know what socmed id even want to move to considering theyre all either lacking or irritating #like i like pillowfort but you cant tag talk the way you can on tumblr #cara seems cool but its a lil too professional for what i want to do lol #and ive long given up on deviantart #hmmm idk ill try looking ig #once i find a socmed i like ill probs be deleting freakinator lol soz freakinator enjoyers #actually that seems too drastic; on second thought ill just password protect it cause i like leaving bridges unburnt lol #theoretically i can just talk in my friend discord #but unfortunately i like reading strangers thoughts too much its one of my biggest downfalls in life #hmm idk ill sit on it ig

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juuria · 1 month ago

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god, in the next life, please let me be born in the late 80s in california so i can go to animation school like calarts and work on powerpuff girls or my little pony and be a hipster in 2010s thank you!!!!!!

#I JUST WANNA MAKE CARTOONS BUT EVERY ART SCHOOL IN POLAND IS LIKE #why would you want to make a film in this technique…. what are you trying to project in this film… how queer #I WANNA DRAW SILLY SHIT LEAVE ME ALONEEEE #IM SO TIRED OF EXPLAINING EVERY TINY STEP OF MY PROCESS #I KNOW THATS THE POINT BUT GODDDDD #LET ME JUST ANIMATE DUMB SHIT FOR PEOPLE TO ENJOY #I HATE HAVING TO FIND AND EXPLAIN MEANING BEHIND EVERYTHING #WHY CANT IT ALL JUST BE POINTLESS #im speedrunning this degree and getting the fuck out #im truly beginning to detest the art world in the strangest way possible #cause at the end of the day i crave its approval #but i can tell that once im done with school it wont matter to me anymore #fuck man #all i wanted was to get a degree to make cool stuff for kids #and now im here #questioning if i was ever good enough for that in the first place #personal #sorry yall

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sonknuxadow · 2 months ago

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google making me mad rn because i was checking again what the release date for sxs gens was and it told me october 22nd . which didnt sound right but i was really hoping it was right . and it was wrong

#i wish it was coming out on the 22nd .....#not in a ''i cant wait a couple more days'' sort of way #but in a ''this game is coming out at a really inconvenient time for me #and it coming out on the 25th means i probably wont get to play it on release'' sort of way #i mean i technically could try placing a last minute pre order at a store near the place im going #but im literally leaving a day or two before the game comes out which is cutting it very close so idk if that would work ...#if it wasnt for that stupid journal this wouldnt be such an issue lmao i really want it </3 #and i think if im going to pre order the least stressful option would be to just pre order it at home and have someone pick it up for me #but then that means i have to wait until i come home a few days after the game comes out to play it ...... which will be so painful ..#i mean it comes with all day 1 copies right? not just pre orders?#but im worried if i dont pre order theyll run out . idkkkkkkk

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satorisoup · 3 months ago

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WAHHH good morning fwiends n’ happy sunday !! ( ྀི◞ ⸝⸝ ◟) & happy september 1st !! dis means dat spooky season is upon us !! what a wonderful time of tha year !! <3

i hope everyone has tha most wonderfulest day today, remember dat you are important n’ loved !! MWUUUAH !! <3 🍯

#ehe !! ouh what a wonderful season dat is comin’ closer !! ^_^#m’ favowite time of year <3 da rain… da cold weather… da gloomy sky !! kyaaa 🥺#m’ sho excited for tha leaves to be falling !! n’ halloween !! i will try to celebrate truly dis year !! >//<#m’ trying to figure out m’ costume n’ i think im going as hori from horimiya !! ( fank yous nia for da help !! i wuv you my pwecious :3 )#m’ special day is comin’ up soon enough too !! wont be postin’ or sayin tha date but !!#i fink m’ gonna get a kiri n’ kou cake for it !! 🥹#and !! speakin’ of kou !! IT IS HIS BIRTHDAY MONTH !! >//<#ouh ouh !! i cant wait to make his special day tha most wonderful of them all !! :3 #i already have tha birthday commi for him !!#ive been silent about kou for a bit but its because m’ planning mwuehe !! ^_^#dont fink i forgot about my most pwecious bokuto !! nunu !! neva eva !! :p #i have work a lot for the next upcomin’ weeks but !! i wont let dat stop me !! :>#n’ how special it is dat i got kou’s birthday off work !! i can gush about him awlll day !! prepare for tha never ending gushiness !! >.<#plannin’ on responding to askies n’ posting more !! popping by some mooties ask boxies too !! 🥹 i missed all of yous !! <3 #oki i will wrap dis yap up !! have tha bestest day today fwiends !!#I WUV YOU ALL !! MWUAH MWUAH !! <3 🍓#₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎ — lene’s latest gossip .ᐟ

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sieglinde-freud · 1 year ago

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feel like morgan/lucina is kinda underrated like i get why. but also like… duuude… take it from lucinas perspective: the kid of the fell god that betrayed your father turns against you despite years and years of friendship and most definitely knowing eachother since birth (do you honestly think chrom and robin wouldnt set their kids up on play dates immediately? really??) and despite how much you love them you know they’re beyond saving and you have to leave them behind to succumb to grima when you go back in time to save the world, accepting that youll never see them again! oh shit buts whats this… they show up in the past anyways? having forgotten all the time you spent together, the trouble they caused, everything you meant to them? but its them, its morgan and for the first time in years youre able to see them again happy, carefree, and in complete control! should you feel sad? scared? overjoyed? i dont know! but slap some yuri on that and you got a crazy ass little sideplot all im saying!!!

#ann plays awakening #i just think lucina and morgan have a lot of potential!!#childhood friends to mutual crush to ‘oh shit youre evil i gotta go’ to ‘wym you forgot me?!’ to trying to repair the past #to HOPEFULLY AT SOME POINT lovers. do you see what im talking about??#also i think the implication that our morgan is from a different timeline from lucina could be interesting too #like eventually she’ll have to accept that she DID leave her morgan behind and wont ever see them again #seeing our morgan is a relief to know that somewhere out there they were saved. but hers wasnt. isnt that fucked up #anyways so. guess who im pairing lucina with this time hreheheheah #i wasnt going to at first but then i was just suddenly struck with the idea of them and im j. wow.#also great bc they make up 2/3 second gen units i wont be able to galeforce onto immediately #so. support grind AND skill grind at the same time. yeehoo #i still cant believe they didnt let lucina and f!morgan support tho. like are you joking… CHROM AND ROBINS KIDS?!?!??#insanity.

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skunkes · 1 year ago

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experiencing a weird thing where im trying to go to sleep earlier (because im tired and sleepy) but i take so long to fall asleep its the exact same thing as just going to bed late...feel so hopeless and i always end up tired either way... im very big on "i can always try again tomorrow" mentality in any way it can be interpreted (interactions with others, mood, the amount of work i do etc) but its so hard to Try Again when you're always too tired to do anything...

#i rarely take naps...i tried to do so today and after the hour i gave myself to nap i still hadnt fully fallen asleep #im so sleepy and tired ....#even if i manage to get my personal required 9 hrs of sleep im tired....#i dont get it...im so sleepy rn + am going to bed but i wont fall asleep until much later...#god. i also hate this bc you'd think being an unemployed homebody who cant leave his house wld mean Constant #Naps and Sleeping. i avg like 6 hrs a night i cant imagine how worse off ill be with a job #i just want to sleep...!#and feel well rested...#talkys #sorry im just very frustrated...i try to do things to better my life and health and it ends up Not Working #like whats even the point. can barely keep my eyes open but i wont fall asleep until 5 am. why not just #go to bed at 5 am then. ugh.

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