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#i cant just transfer all of this to someone else. i dont feel like yapping abt the book im reading into the void or someone i barely know
bunnihearted
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2 months
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#it actually does make such a huge difference omg im like ... feels like i got thrown into the floor lost my breath
#having someone i like so much to talk to abt things
#and share stuff and details abt not only my days but their days too
#and talking abt like books that we read or shows/movies we saw and etc etc
#sending pics. sending voice messages. all of that
#that was so amazing wth???
#it sounds like such a mundane thing but it changed my enire baseline. it wasnt a littel thing to me
#i didnt share as much as i wanted to because it takes me longer to settle into smth like this
#or any kind of connection/correspondence/bond/rapport
#im slow bc im so scared of ppl. scared of trusting. scared of opening up. rejection rejection all of that
#yeah.. takes me a lot longer than the average person to settle into smth like this
#avpd is its own special hell...
#i miss it a lot and i wish there hadnt been all the other circumstances so i could've actually relaxed into it
#and come out of my shell completely. which i was almost there. now that mental block is gone but it's too late....
#i take too long... it is impossible to be patient with me. i really hate everything abt my brain
#my desire overtook my fear and it was quicker than it ever has but not enough.. :(
#i miss it sm and it made me feel so so much lust for life..
#but it's gone now and i can really feel the loss of it
#i wouldve done anything i could to save it. or nurture it. or whatever. but it was a sacred treasure to /me/.
#it doesnt matter if i try to put out the flames in a burning house if the house is gone and there are actually only the flames left
#and since to me it is so special. and like. the fact that this even happened is crazy to me stuff like this feelings and connection never
#happen to me. it's like.. special to talk to someone u like & have an established rapport with on a regular basis
#and tell them stuff and rant abt like a book or whatever. ask them details abt their life bc u know them and enjoy knowing them
#i cant just transfer all of this to someone else. i dont feel like yapping abt the book im reading into the void or someone i barely know
#i just dont know... i need that sm and it was so amazing w someone i like sm. & it makes me sad i takes me too long to get fully comfortable
#bc of this time were it was the most intense and long lasting for me but also im in love lmao. but other times too...
#i take too long and why would someone wanna wait like actually a year (which is how long it often takes me to pass a certain barrier)
#im not special. im nothing that great. it is easy to find someone else who is x1000 better than me and wont take an eternity to warm up
#i just feel so sad bc i try so hard and then all of my effort just goes down the drain and then i have to do it again if i meet someone
#then they'll leave me behind too and get tired of me and not like what they see and then im back at square 1 again
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