#i wish i was special

[l0tt1ee]

I hate life I hate people I hate material objects I hate life I hate my family I hate my friends I hate myself I hate my pets I hate I hate I hate, it’s all I do

[thatgirlsboring]

This is my dream destination

[blabbershere]

[genyakisser]

" I don't care if it hurts I wanna have control I want a perfect body I want a perfect soul I want you to notice When I'm not around

So fuckin' special I wish I was special "

[daynascullys]

feeling so very creep.mp3 tonight

[prince-rosalium]

whatever makes you happy.

whatever you want.

youre so fucking special.

[backstreetsbackalright]

Guests, “Arrangements, As In Making Them” [World of Echo, 2024]

[insanefrigidbitch]

the normal girl to special pipeline (an extremely woc experience)

[wibble-wobbegong]

being in the byler fandom looks so stressful constantly. anyway who wants a rerun of me sobbing over mike while listening to creep

[lebloser-stil]

I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul.

~ Creep (Radiohead)

[artsy-hobbitses]

Binge-listening to the acoustic version of ‘Creep’ after the sobfest that was Guardians Of The Galaxy Vol. 3 and getting mollywhopped DOUBLE TIME with Prowl/Jazz feelings because HOW ELSE is a government-commissioned flesh cog with a barcode who’s only now discovering agency and reclaiming a semblance of the personality sandpapered out of him supposed to see himself partnered with sunshine of his life and the Autobots’ Most Interesting Man In The World, who, for some goddamn reason he cannot fathom, willingly spends time with a broken knockoff bore like him.

[l0tt1ee]

[ecrivainsolitaire]

I wish I could, at least for a brief moment, know what it's like to be the most important person to someone.

[kawaiiinla]

So true

the fucked up thing is how "Creep" by Radiohead will really get your ass if you hear it at the wrong time. that shit can be stupid and overdramatic or it can have the weight of an atomic bomb dropped on your heart it just depends

[femmsiriusblack]

seeing your fav oomf talking about how much they love their other oomfs and realizing how not special you are

[tedpokie]

‧͙⁺˚*･༓☾𝓣𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽☽༓･*˚⁺‧͙

Okay, so I just wanted to vent and retract about what happened throughout my day. So, basically, today, I had made a new friend a couple of days ago. We were at a study session to prepare for the HSPT; the Highschool I intend to apply at was providing it, so obviously I applied for the classes. We became good friends and chatted for a couple of days. Today, and I kid you not, whilst my awkward ass was talking to her, some guy comes up to her. We’re in the same group, so I recognize him, but, see, he wasnt even bothering to acknowledge my presale and only came for her. She was skinny, tall, and pretty, too. So the fucking guy just comes up to her, starts talking to her, slowly guides his way to make her follow him to chat more, and leaves me to myself.

That shit was actually so soul-crushing and my mind immediately went like, “Damn, it’s cause we’re fat, ugly, acne-plagued, and she’s so much prettier, skinner, and more smarter than your awkward ass.”

Guys I seriously need to start getting my shit together. This was an absolute wake up call, a sign from God, to wake the actual fuck up ans get that shit engraved in your head that you’re not shit in this fucking world if not her. And I wasn’t even a bit mad at the fact that he liked her; I didn’t even like the guy or remotely find him attractive or anything, but the fact that it was clear that I lie in the bottom of the food chain was mind-crushing and ego-demolishing. I need to starve myself, workout, and focus on what’s important and get it out my head that I’m doing something right. I’m a lazy piece of shit and my greasy, chubby fat fingers touching my face is spreading more ragging pimples and zits around my cheeks more than the fucking bubonic plague itself killing half the fucking European population.

Im insignificant, not worth anyone’s attention, and just some beggar on the fat fucking streets. I WILL STARVE AND GET MY SHIT TOGETHER. IM COMING FOR THE NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION SHIT.

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