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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago

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On average, what is the total MONTHLY amount that you spend on dining out*?

*(This doesn't only count going out to restaurants, but also stuff like picking up fast food to bring home, getting a coffee on the way to work, getting a premade sandwich from a grocery store deli during lunch, buying a quick snack from a convenience store or food cart whilst walking somewhere, ordering a pizza or any other food to be delivered to your home, etc.)

*(If you often dine out in groups/as a household: calculate and divide the costs so that you get a Per Person average. This is for YOU individually, NOT the total household/group costs)

(I'm sure polls similar to this have been made before (very common topic), I just haven't personally seen one that I can remember, so, I was curious to do my own! I was discussing this with a group of people today and it was very interesting to see how widely the number varied between individuals. :0c )

(Reblog for bigger sample size if you can, and feel free to explain your answer in tags if there's anything extra to add!)

#polls #tumblr polls #I'm mostly in the 0/1 - 25$ category. Maybe the rare month is a bit over $25 if there's something specific going on like birthday.#Which I'm NEVER eating in an actual restaurant (erm... covid... plus I just hate restaurant environments. i would rather pickup #the food and bring it home to a peaceful quiet environment that I control lol). But more typically like stopping by a grocery store deli #section or something. I don't have coffee that much. And I can't eat fast food much due to my health issues/diet restriction stuff #so if I'm out like coming back from an appointment and I start feeling really sick and weak. I know that a hamburger will just #blow up my system and cause nausea or something. So I try to pick the breadiest most #neutral looking turkey sandwich at the safeway deli to eat during the hour ride home or whatever lol #I actually kind of wish I could do stuff like get food more often vecause it would take the burden of cooking everything off of me #but.. alas... Money... and Health Things... T o T #I still wouldn't do it ALL the time but like... once a week instead of once a month or something.. or maybe turning into a coffee #person.. I do love drinks A LOT .. i am a drink person who will have 5 different drinks sipping on at all times #But i just have to make them all myself mostly lol #And I cant really have too much coffee since it will make me sick. so like.. teas and juice mostly #When I inevitably become a millionaire by never using social media never networking and only finishing one #sculpture every 5 months which I dont even post about or sell - then I shall... get more drinks..#I will somehow wean my body onto coffee and drink one a day solely for the ritual of it #Though even then... I would still probably just like.. buy the mateirals to make it at home or something #Like if you had a million dollars you could just buy a kitchen grade ice cream machine and other stuff to make your own milkshakes and #coffees and smoothies and bubble teas. Genuinely I think even if I were a BILLIONAIRE I would still look at playing likr $8 for a single #coffee and go .. uh.... I could just buy the equipment to make this and then save that money. PLUS. its in my house now so no need to #have to leave. I can make my own drinks in the comfort of home. .. ideal..#Like no matter how rich I ever got I would still have the lingering scroogey stinginess. like i am NOT paying for that. I will jus #make it myself. Especially if it was an Everyday thing. Anythign thats part of my routine I try to optimize and make as efficient as #possible... ANYWAY.. In an IDEAL world I would get treats. but probably not that much. as on a daily basis it would start to get #to me and I would just save up to buy kitchen machinery if I was rich lol

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fbfh · 4 months ago

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Imagine topping Leo in a chair?

LITERALLY love you for this. riding Leo in a chair is in like your top 5 favorite ways to ride Leo. your faces are so close together and he can feel every intimate rockwing bouncing squeeze of your tight juicy little hole gripping his throbbing cock like a vise. his eyes are so wide and his grip on your soft hips is nearly enough to leave pretty little fingertip bruises polkadotting your thighs (which he's obsessed with) and your hips (which he's also obsessed with) and your ass (are you sensing a pattern here????) and god everything you do drives him crazy but CHRIST the way you hold his face so sweetly in your pretty hands, so innocent and tender while simultaneously milking his cock for all he's got. and he'll give it to you. Leo will let you ride him in that chair that he can't look at after that without going half mast. he'll let you ride him until he's shooting blanks, until both of your cum drips on the floor, mixing in messy creamy beautiful puddles. Leo will throw his head back in pleasure, panting, chest heaving and giving you the best view of his perfect neck that's just begging to be covered in hickeys and bites. Leo will let you ride him in a chair until he passes out. can't walk. pounding down gatorade and liquid iv to try and rehydrate. and he'll thank you for it.

#drabbles #leo valdez #leo valdez smut #leo valdez x reader #leo valdez drabbles #heroes of olympus #heroes of olympus x reader #heroes of olympus drabbles #heroes of olympus smut #op's birthday #op's bday smutathon #off to a poppin start am I right ladies #also funny story #my dad (a certified piece of shit) used to buy us the worst groceries #long story but every week there was a recipe I had to make that required like 3 limes or lemons depending on what citrus we had #and he would buy produce that was simultaneously organic and locally sourced AND horribly low quality #the lemons and limes would be rock fucking hard and I had to juice those motherfuckers #so every week I had to go down to the workbench thing in the basement and use a literal bench vise to squeeze them until they were soft #i'm not even exaggerating right now I wish I was #I had to use industrial tools and equipment to work with that shit #like bro why was I 12 using a vise on lemons??????? AND HE KNEW #HE SAW AND LAUGHED AND I EXPLAINED AND HE LAUGHED AND DID NOT FUCKING CARE #before you ask yes I'm trying to get a sooner therapy appointment #so yeah #going through it!

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lenakluthor · 4 months ago

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this fucking electrician gave an estimate of 11-3 for when they’d show up and it’s 2:15 can they just SHOW UP ALREADY

#katie speaks #every single contractor i’ve ever worked with has done this #every single time it’s the very end of the window #THEN WHY GIVE A GODAMN WINDOW #WHY ARE YOU MAKING ME WAIT AROUND FOR FOUR HOURS #this happened last week too #it was 3-8 #and my guy showed up at 7:35 like #that is an ENTIRE afternoon and evening i had to give up just to sit around and wait #i wish these people would just do normal fucking appointments

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altruistic-meme · 3 months ago

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back on my bullshit: looking through and making edits to my doc full of Issues I Have That Haven't Ever Been Looked Into for the doctor. which may prove to be futile but i will not think to bring any of this up + will absolutely try and downplay it if i do not do this.

i still keep joking that i will hand them the papers and go "pick one and we can start there" as well as threatening to walk out if they so much as breathe the word "asthma" to me. hopefully i can actually do these things at the appointment.

and i know. i know that doctors hate it when you present possible diagnoses and that you should let them do it themselves but like. you don't understand. i have had 22 years of not having anything done when i had a health concern, to the point where i stopped even realizing that things were concerning until someone else pointed out to me that it may be a problem.

so im coming armed and prepared and if the doctor refuses to work with me like im an actual person, then i will leave and i will ask for a different doctor. rinse and repeat until i find someone who will actually help me.

#ik this is probably not the best way to do this i do i get that #but for my own sanity and the sake of actually getting things down as they ARE not as i fake #bc i am too anxious about seeming needy or useless or desperate for attention or whatever #then yeah. the doctor is getting my 8 page document of issues i have noticed i have #that have never actually been looked into by a medical professional bc military hospitals fucking suck ass #and i didn't have a choice before #(and then when i did i had too much anxiety to actually DO anything about it until now)#ough.#wish me luck for this appointment guys.#it's not for another 2 weeks or so but still #it's also a new patient appointment which. i assume means looking at current state and family history #more than any of this #but im bringing the doc anyway so they have an idea of whats going on #and again so they can choose a starting point.#breathing issues/gi issues/headaches/tinnitus/allergies #or any of the various mental health issues tho i figure those will be outsourced to someone else #since this is just general medicine lmao #but anyway. pick one and when we get somewhere with that we can do smth else #or if we get nowhere with that. whichever.#shh ac

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ritualslaughter · 14 days ago

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athena update!!

she's going through her second heat right now, and the vet says we can probably expect one more in the next month 😭 but hopefully that'll be it and we'll be able to get her spayed in January!!

she's been in her big biting era, which we've been trying to curb but haven't been so successful 😞 I think it doesn't help with her being in season and having crazy hormonal changes rn.

she's still a big lovey baby though, and especially right now, she's non-stop nuzzling and wanting attention 💖

#still can't believe her timing and going into heat literally 12 hrs before shes supposed to get spayed #i wish reddit was a bit more helpful with tips to make her more comfortable though #cause every thread i go to is just chastising & being really judgemental and calling the op's bad owners for not having their kitten spayed #maybe its different in the states but here they wont spay her until shes been out of season for a month and a half #bc theres so much extra blood and chance for complications #so yeah idk i just wish i had some non judgemental tips to make my baby more comfy while she gets through this!!#we literally made the appointment to get her spayed the same week we got her its not my fault my cat has excellent timing 😭#sorry for the tag rant ive just been feeling very guilty and upset but that might just be the lack of sleep hahaha #athena.png #bones.png

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floral-hex · 8 months ago

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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.

#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void #shits rough dawg #I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts #haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier #it’s cold #saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours #guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left #even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are #I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh #my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week #maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting #woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside #hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning #can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience #anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments #I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now #ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever #you can ignore this #text

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spookykestrel · 6 months ago

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I fucking hate the way services are on the internet nowadays everything has to be automated artificial streamlined so it seems fancy and advanced but it makes it impossible to get acrual help with things! I have to download an app to set up my wifi and when I have a problem with my wifi the only way to get help is talking to an ai with limited options. I try to get a refund for a package that arrived but the only way to do so is chose from a list of problems that weren’t applicable to my situation in the slightest. I could reach out to the company directly but it’s increasingly hard to find contact info and when you do find it, you just get automated emails or prerecorded call responses. I never understood when my dad would prefer to call and speak to someone rather than using an online chat or email but I’m quickly finding out that’s the only way to get things done and companies are trying their hardest to replace that real human interaction with an effective ai

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roaringroa · 2 months ago

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they should make a life where you don't have appointments, work, school and scheduled events every single day for months on end

#i just wanna spend like 2 full days rotting in bed is that too much to ask #december i'm going on a vacation with family + gf and we're trying to schedule a lunch/dinner so that we can go over the itinerery #and other stuff like my gf is diabetic so she's going to tell everyone the procedures in case of an emergency etc #and the soonest i'm available for that is oct 20th like bruh #every week day i've got classes 7:30-11:50 work 13:00-17:00 and then gym therapy or futsal practice at night #oh and sometimes the professor that i'm the student assistant (? monitor in pt) for wants me to go to her night classes #and then on weekends i've got futsal practice sat morning usually a match either saturday or sunday legal advice clinic 4x a semester #and then birthdays friend group meetups (with ppl i haven't properly seen in a WHILE so i don't wanna bail) family stuff or gf's family stu #oh and i take care of the finances of our futsal team so there's that as well #and then when i'm free i spend my time with my love (who i mostly see on either day of the weekend and sometimes for dinner on weekdays)#those are my favorite “appointments” i love spending time with her so much but even though we have quite a few staying in dates we also #pretty frequently go out to cafes restaurants parks meet up with mutual friends etc #so like... no bed rotting ever adfdsal #honestly i am not THAT busy compared to some ppl that i know #like i work from home most days of the week commute only 20 min to college am not a part of any study group etc etc #but man... that vyvense sure is working cause i do not think i would be able to do what i do now when my adhd was unmedicated #also i'm thinking of maybe getting a new internship next year cause even though i love my current one it's in public law which atm #is the field i'm thinking of getting into after school but getting into private law in brazil with only public law uni experience is #incredibly difficult. so i wanna be 100% sure i actually want public law. which means experiencing private law.#which means a private law internship #so i'm wondering how the fuck imma be able to pull that off next year #at least it pays much more than my current one! like probably double!#but honestly even with all the shit that i do and wishing i had more time for myself i've actually been so happy lately #i'm learning more at uni than i used to be able to i do pretty well at my internship i've got wonderful friends both old and new #my family is well and we get along like always i switched positions in futsal and am doing suprisingly good as a goalkeeper #and i'm in my first ever relationship. it's been almost 8 months till we made it official and it blows me away how good it's been #like we haven't faught once. disagreed on a couple things sure. but not a single fight and tbh even disagreements are very rare #idk we communicate and give each other grace and i just feel so loved. she knows me so well. i love her so so so so much.#like man just this saturday we were having an early dinner at a bakery. she stopped what she was saying and just stared at me smiling #and like i couldn't hold eye contact. cause she's so so fucking beautiful and she was looking at me with so much love and i had to look awa

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shirogane-oushirou · 2 months ago

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meowdy... <3

#i'm so close to caught up on everyone's lovely art and fics ;_; hghghgh and if you've sent an ask i'll answer it soon!!#[to the one person who knows who she is: KJSNKJN. KJSNDKJNDKJ. AAAAAA???? (positive)]#i've been very avoidant lately of online spaces ;; pt has been hard on my wrists so i haven't been able to work much on my plushie #and typing has been just as hard -- if it isn't the pain it's the inflamed nerves wrecking my hand-eye coordination #so i think i'm pressing keys when i'm not or i'm pressing all of the wrong keys. so it takes me twice as long to type anything ;;#i'm hoping we're building a good rapport tho and finding an equilibrium between Not Pushing Enough #and TOO MUCH TOO MUCH OW OW OW (week-long whole-arm nerve pain) kjsnfkjn so. i hope that means i'll be able to type regularly again soon!!!#we're just in the learning phase of both of us figuring out what my nerves can handle without exploding lmao. turns out: not much!!#i really want to talk to people again rghhhh i miss everyone sm!!! i keep being like 'wow i'm so lonely i wonder why that is'#<- has been disconnected from friends for many weeks #i WAS finally able to finish ren's face tho! very slowly! and i'm close to done w the body embroidery!!!#excited to have that done. not excited to start hand sewing. wish i had a working sewing machine even if i could only sit at it #for a few minutes at a time sjdfnskjn life could be a dream...#HENNYWAISE. hopefully i will soon have my carpal tunnel and pinched nerves reined in. my mars anniv is tomorrow #and i don't have anything to show for it bc of my wrists so. blows a kiss into the sky for her <3 my beloved oc-ified oushirou KJNSDKJN #i'm rambling and dont want to edit things bc pain from today's appointment ok i love u byebye 👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻👋🏻#📌 [ my posts. ]#💭 [ my thoughts. ]#vent -#<- just in case

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whoslaurapalmer · 3 months ago

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soooooooooo fucking stupid that anxiety makes me feel like someone is holding all the nerve endings in my stomach and putting a lighter to them

#like. theoretically the endocrinologist does NOT want to see me sooner bc i'm gonna like drop dead or something.#2-4 weeks is not 'lulu your bloodwork was the worst we've ever seen' it's 'we can move up your appointment!'#ALSO LOOK IN GENERAL -- BEFORE ANYONE THINKS ANYTHING -- 95% OF MY BLOODWORK IS ALWAYS STELLAR.#but just changing the appointment at all?? when i had it in my head when it would be? forcing me to change it??#making me feel like //i'm// being difficult?????#when i'm just telling you what the doctor told me about when he wanted to see me????????#not like. a comfortable experience by any means yknow #i wish the matryoshka was dry bc i needed some really mindless thoughtless painting tonight. the last base is still squishy though.#and the last top is a little. uh. fragile but the gesso should help that so i'm not worried about it all that much

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alongtidesoflight · 4 months ago

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#i KNOW my mental health is down the drain because i woke up panicking at 4:30am for seemingly no good reason #and that was half an hour ago and i still can't go back to sleep #and i've been feeling exhausted and on the edge about switching from this dual deal of education and job training #to a full time 8 to 5 deal #for the past 2 months #kept saying that i need a break soon or i'm gonna burn out but also kept pushing myself through daily sensory overload because #i kept telling myself that there are only a couple few weeks left of this and i can do it #and now there's exactly one week left of it all until i finally get a month off and i need to do my best to keep myself from tossing it all #out the window #because i'm worried about not being able to keep up with a full time job i now signed a three year contract for #considering this half time deal already took everything out of me #it's super frustrating because for a while there i really thought i'm on top of my shit but now i'm showing symptoms of an impending #mental breakdown and i have a month to get all of this under control somehow or i'm gonna blow my chance at a job i've been working my ass #off for the past six months to a) get it in the first place and b) earn important certificates for it #and a month is just not enough to get an appointment with a counselor who i can talk to about this #and once i'm working i'll hardly have any time left for appointments considering the insane amount of time i'll be spending commuting #to work every day because i didn't yet receive the bonus payment towards a car i was promised for my efforts here #genuinely wish i had someone i could rely on during times like these but i am basically providing for my entire environment and i just #gotta keep going somehow idk #rant #gonna try to get another half an hour of sleep in now i guess

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promithiae · 4 months ago

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#its getting to the point where im afraid to eat solid food #its all just going right through me in like and hour and a half #and the cramping is distressing #i kind of wish i had started the doctor gamut earlier because just in the time its taken to go from make appointment to now #its gotten so much worse #i had ro just go home after like 2 hours at work abandoning my 2 coworkers during one of our busiest weeks of the year #but i was straight up having to run to the bathroom every 30 minutes with not very much warning #which is not great in a retail setting! i had to abandon a group i was working with to S #bodies are stupid i want to just be a brain in a vat of nutritive liquid

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warlordfelwinter · 4 months ago

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you ever only realize your mental state was resting entirely on a single thing when that single thing falls through

#the hair dresser cancelled my appointment without notifying me #im guessing she was out sick or something cause No One was there #but i was really looking forward to getting my haircut #and now my brain has just done a graceful high dive into the deep end of the depression pool #maybe I'll buy myself a little treat since i saved the haircut costs #this is also just going to exacerbate any future haircut anxiety #i already hate walking into ulta to get to the salon but now i know sometimes they just wont be there and no one told you #and you'll sit there for 10 minutes like an idiot with no employees bothering to ask if they can help #even though they must know the stylists are gone??#i wish we had a regular cheap hair dresser in town but its either ulta or little expensive boutique style shops that cater to black hair #which im sure theyd be able to handle my hair texture just fine but id feel just as weird being there as in a makeup store #im having a Week and it's only tuesday #personal

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mutalune · 4 months ago

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really wish there was a tag that separated “I’m having Big Angry and/or Angsty Opinions about Star Wars” from “I’m goofing off with Star Wars I’m playing in the sandbox none of this is real so yes I will make my blorbo and this random glub shitto go on an adventure that makes no logical sense” posts because there’s too much of the former and not enough of the latter for my current mental state

#starlight personal #the good news is that I finally have another ketamine appt scheduled and it’s sooner than I thought they’d have an opening #the bad news is that the appointment is not tomorrow and we’re kinda at the end of my mental-emotional rope #now kids this is what we call: an inherent flaw in my treatment plan that cannot be removed #because pretty much in an ideal world I’d have ketamine appointments every 6 weeks but 1) expensive and probs can’t afford that #2) they don’t have enough availability for that to be realistic 3) can’t take off of work THAT frequently without consequences #4) I would probably start to doubt reality if I was tripping that frequently 5) I don’t think docs would allow it #treatment resistant depression and anxiety my beloathed if we could just chill that’d be great #treatment resistant PMDD my other beloathed someday I will do my damnedest to cut you out of my body #idk not to be too selfpitying on main but god it fucking sucks that I appear to be doomed to another cycle based mood thing #PMDD means I get two good weeks two bad weeks #ketamine being the only effective treatment for whatever my brain’s got going on means two good months followed by x bad months #until my next appointment #which like! two good months is better than no good months I am grateful that something helps #I just wish it was a more convenient help and it could be applied more consistently than my psych office provides #also wish I didn’t have to call them 3 times to get it scheduled but it is what it is #also also wish that I had fewer of the physical side effects of my anxiety and wouldn’t wake up puking the min things are rough #this is all to say: I want silly SW headcanons and droid headcanons and silly fic ideas and not Everyone is Always Suffering #but I’m also too lazy (I.e brain cannot make decisions rn) to search for new tags that may give me more silly #which means time to browse my bookmarks for good good comfort fics I have saved I suppose #(this is lowkey why i want to physically fight everyone i know who’s like ‘yeah meds would help but idk :/‘ like!!!!!!!!#bro it’s a privilege to have access to meds and it’s a privilege to have a body that doesn’t turn on you the min you take one!!!!#just try 10mg of zoloft I would kill for 10mg of zoloft to not make me entirely incapable of functioning!!!)#I don’t mean that - you have a right to take or not take medication and everyone’s reasons may be their own #I just had my body and have some rough feelings around treating my issues being so expensive and inconvenient #and then feeling guilty b/c I know I’m lucky that I can afford it and can take off of work for it when I need to #like I am pretty lucky to have something that works and to have a care team that helped me get here #so I don’t wanna be ungrateful or unappreciative of my own luck in this and the work that went into getting here #I’d just also like it if I could change the circumstances slightly #make treatment on the weekends an option - get my psych office to have more than 2 trip sitters so scheduling isn’t so bad

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fitzselfships · 5 months ago

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Vent under the cut. I'm so sorry I am not normal at all </3

Dude having (suspected) bpd and self shipping with a character from a popular piece of media who is commonly shipped with another character sucks like what do you mean seeing canon x canon art of them now has me terrified of a fictional character abandoning me what the hell </3

#negative #rember that post I made about timblr reccomending me zooble canon x canon stuff??#at first it didn't bother me ebcause I had the tags blocked and didn't see anything #then I saw a post thay didn't have the ship tagged and. yeah :[#like @ my brain PLEASE shut the fuck up forever #this is my one coping mechanism right now ans I have been doing good for a week now let me have this please I am begging #but no my brain decides to go Hey I know this character is helping you stop spiraling further #but they would abandon you actually. because canon x canon ship #man thanks brain that's cool /s #sprry to make this post but it was inevitable I guess #it's times like this that i wish my therapist would be willing to diwcuss a diagnosis with me #imstead of sending me to a psychiatrist an hour and a half away from where I live that so far has not called back about an appointment #so most likely I'm mot even going to be able to see one lol

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orcelito · 1 year ago

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So I was chatting with my fellow very mentally ill queer coworker friend about mental illness (as we do) and I mentioned how I was realizing that my wildly manic depressive response to grief wasn't... normal...

& they were like 'oh my god Yeah I've been suspecting you're bipolar for a While now' bc apparently I get in... modes... where my pupils are Huge and I'm talking a mile a minute and doing 4 things at once and even my Posture is different

And then I'll come in the next day like all the life's been sucked out of me.

& she mentioned there's type 1 and type 2, 1 being the longterm episodes & 2 being them alternating on a day to day basis. And I'm just like... damng... I sure do seem to have that 2 thing...

Apparently it's not normal to alternate between manic and depressive states! Who knew!

#speculation nation #ive like... always had this sorta thing. fatally hyperactive is how ive thought of it #those moods where im bouncing off the wall and super cheerful but DEFINITELY in a concerning mental state #apparently it's not exactly normal to be having a breakdown but laughing as you do it #no wonder no depression meds have worked for me. bc im not Just Depressed.#ive known for a while now that i dont have normal depression. i just dont. but sometimes im depressed #and then sometimes i write 70k words in 3 weeks!!!!!!!!#it makes sense but i kinda wish it didnt lol. as if autism and adhd wasnt enough. bipolar too??? really????#im gonna do some research & see if it's smth worth looking into treatment for #mayhaps i could mention it whenever i set up my psychiatry appointment :p #i dont wanna b bipolar 😭 but then again identifying it will probably help with managing it #damng all i needed to figure out my manic depression wasnt normal was losing my uncle & the symptoms getting Much Worse #me wildly oscillating between too depressed to write and too manic to write (bc even though i was motivated i didnt have clarity of mind)#longest... sigh... imaginable... i have so many mental and physical problems and i have No idea where to start with them #...adhd first probably. if i can tackle my abysmal executive dysfunction then maybe the rest will be easier to address lol #negative/#I Guess.

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