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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#game dev diary#This was a test to figure out busts (art style & methodology as well as implementation & uploading)!#Game progress is going well! It is not the most showy content at the moment though....but soon!#I have made more spritesheets + wrote a 20 page script for the beginning of the game + lots of mechanical stuff.#OOH and our main town has a map and I've hammered out most of the major character designs!#(I have a comic I will share later this week about how character design talk in a team setting has been going so far.)#This gif is to share a little bit of whimsy and joy with you all. Because we are having so much fun!#Fanart like this is great for practicing a new medium! Also very few people would care to see my custom windowskins.#(This gif is pre-custom windowskins sadly. Next game dev update will have them though!)#Thank you all for being here at the start of my journey B*)#By the way yeah I do think WWX would be a menace when it comes to taking his medication.#WWX's toxic masculinity trait is thinking he's invincible and doesn't need medication.#He would get worms and go 'Nah my immune system will handle it.' Which. No. Please take worms seriously.#LWJ on the other hand would be the model medication taker. He's got a schedule. A weekly organizer. He's a doctor's dream patient.
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"Marchil? I guess I can see it on Chilchuckās end, but what about Marcilleās? What makes you think she could develop feelings for him?" Iām glad you asked!
The first thing to note is that she does think highly of him
In the page on the right, literally defending his virtues and literally comparing him to Dalclan. And ohā¦
She does love a brooding mysterious guy who closes himself to love. But surely, Chilchuck isnāt her type at all, right? Heās not princely or knightly at all. In apperances certainly not, both looks wise and demeanor wise, but then thatās why she seeks to know him on a deeper level, to not only look shallowly.
And hmm. Chilchuck really is quite selfless isnāt he? Always looking out for others, and saving specifically her often, always making sure himself and, staying in or even running towards danger for her sometimes. Modesty is often considered heroicā¦
And can we talk about that drowning oneā¦ You can definitely frame the special attention as him knowing she tends to hesitate or be clumsy, and then his insistance on pulling her out of danger that sheās the healer aka the most important to keep alive, but. From the one who says that he just keeps his ass out of fights and wonāt help this is a lot of risk to take, and he does die trying to pull her to safety in the dungeon rabbits chapter. And the drowning bit??? Thatās when the dungeon collapses. The only reason they DONāT die of drowning here is that the water then gives way to outside. There was NO hope of pulling her to safety here and resurrections would likely not work either, he truly preferred to die with her than try to survive himself.
Sit your ass back DOWN you are in no state, self-sacrifical hero much damn
And Marcille definitely noticed this imo, after all she loves learning all she can about him, remembering things like how he hates waiting on people too. She pays attention to him and what he does and what he says. This to say that itās notable, whatever reason for it you may think (though we know by this point at least she was already aware he was an adult though it wasnāt internalized), out of everyone itās Chilchuckās bed that she wants to sleep in during the Golden Kingdom stay. Heās safe and comforting to her: dependable, the defining trait in her view of him as is shown by the relationship chart in the Adventurerās Bible.
^ Lending handkerchiefs is a romance trope btw and handkerchiefs have irl history of being used for courting. Especially in old English literature and plays like Shakespeareās Othello, and personally I do see a lot of Shakespeare in Dalclan (nobility political drama with some romance). Thereās how his cowl is a dearly beloved souvenir from his family too, thereās a lot of aesthetic tropes you can apply to him.
All this to say you can 100% romanticize Chilchuck into a princely noble guy if you try and thatās exactly what Marcille does with the wife roleplay. She doesnāt need much in the first place, she latches onto crumbs and makes aesthetic narratives out of details, give her an inch sheāll take a mile.
But whatās interesting about the shift throughout the arc of her and his relationship is that she starts out idealizing him into a little angel of a kid (shapeshifter), and she ends it idealizing him as a virtuous husband and family man instead.
And whatās doubly interesting is that in the former, sheās actively warping who he is personality and demeanor wise to fit the aesthetic, he doesnāt have that bitter pride of not asking for help and the edges have been smoothened. But what she does during the wife roleplay is something else, she acknowledges the flaws and justā¦ Accepts them, rolls with them. Sheās aware of his flaws and implements them into the narrative, but the reason why his wife left doesnāt capitalize on them even, rather Chil is chilblivious and his wife loves him very much still, sheās just testing him after having had a night of feeling out of place at his side.
And this is what separates the idealization vs romanticization, sheās not twisting him into someone else sheās just uplifting what he is and focusing on the good sides.
Marcille: "he has a shitty personality sometimes but if he was my husband Iād still cherish him" "If I were your wife Iād be overjoyed to go out with you and would get myself prettied up while you complain about me taking a long time, your friends would tell me that Iām nice and thatād make me happy, but Iād also be sad because you wouldnāt tell me that you love me enough"
Heās angry and his wife left him, heās *flawed*, but heās still worth hyping up, still worth having his own romance story, still has a shot of winning back his beloved. She sees him for what he is, human and real and not a carefully scripted character that fits an aesthetic, and she thinks itās still worthy of love and admiration and fighting for
And whatās funny too is that you might expect her to cool down on him once she learns more about him but actually she only gets increasingly into his business. You tell her your age and next thing you know you promise to introduce her to your family. Give her an inch she takes a mile. And too the thing is, Senshi is equally mysterious but she doesnāt pester him like at all, asks him ONCE about his succubus and he doesnāt even answer and thatās likeā¦ It. With Chilchuck it starts off innocently enough with her wanting to know his age, hometown, the stuff she mentions having asked pre-canon. But it just keeps and keeps going and escalating. Think sheāll be satisfied now knowing you have a wife and kids, maybe sheās disillusioned now? Wrong! She wants to know their names and ages and occupations and hey how did you propose to your wife? Do you think sheāll stop after meeting them? Whatās next? What will she want to know next????
Sheāsā¦ Like itās not a reach that Marcille is all over him. Like it doesnāt mean itās romantic but she just is. She is not normal about him idk. Can you not ask him about what tongue technique he used when first kissing his wife, give the man breathing room
Marcille could literally go "if I was Chilchuckās wife" having deeply pondered and thought out the hypothetical and people would still ask where anyone sees any romantic potential between them. Oh wait
Thereās a platonic explanation for everything (almost?) in Dungeon Meshi donāt say Iām saying otherwise, but itās definitely not like thereās nothing here to read into lol
Going off a bit more under read bc itās my fave topic
Marcille has a whole theme with the charming prince trope with her idealization and storybook motif and Chil is kinda the "Well someone perfect like that isnāt very realistic and romance is usually more complex and thatās ok and good and flawed people can still be āØvirtuousāØ" catalyst
Do you see do you see she starts canon thinking the most romantic thing is a prince charming but her arc in the end has her romanticizing an average, flawed, real and realistic family man, whoās on the poorer side and is on the verge of divorce. And thatās what he needed, too, seeing the positive of himself and the situation instead of focusing on the negative is explicitly what inspires him to hope that he might be able to reconcile with his wife, gives him the courage and self-esteem to shoot his shot.
He IS a prince figure instead that now itās not about idealizing the grand and overt itās about romanticizing the small things in real life!! About finding joy and beauty in things that seem normal or mundane and uplifting them to make the world feel kinder!!!!
Heās the devoted virtuous man that she wantsss not the storybook prince thatās unrealistic and could crumble like a script at any time. Heās the perfect example of a flawed realistic but virtuous & devoted & loving man. Far from a prince charming, but not fully detached from it either. Something worth fighting for despite the flawed cracks. Like literally, flawed romance being worth fighting for is literally the finale of Chilchuck and Marcilleās arc on the matter, where their separate arcs and issues intersect at the most crucial moment.
Marcille is important to Chilās arc not only because of her optimism, but also because of her interest and knowledge in romance & matters of the heart, and thatās what he needs to both open his heart up to hope and to try to reconcile with his wife, like idk sounds gay
Their arc together is literally learning to 1) see each other for how they are and not undermining their qualities capacities etc etc while still not leaving flaws unchecked either and 2) opening up to people. Marcille LITERALLY makes Chil open his heart up to hope like idk man. What do you want from me. Heās literally the guy helping her through deconstructing novels and fantasy and rose tinted glasses and like. Deconstructing the prince charming figure into something more real but still romantically beautiful like KUI KUI STOOOOP STOP IāM ALREADY HOOKED IāM ALREADY-
Ā Ok fine thatās me reading into the tropes too much forgive me for being storybook brained but like. Speaking his heart out to a lone woman on a balcony, Romeo and Juliette shit, asking if she, too, doesnāt want to meet his family, madly blushing. And like sheās learned with Chilchuck itās all in the little things, all the implications he cannot speak aloud. She does reciprocate, does blush madly back, and the first thing she does is shower him in flowers and jewelry and what in her heart is coded as romantic gifts
A lady, stashed away in a high tower by her lonesome, waiting for someone to call out to her from belowā¦ Romeo courting type shit with an offer, a heartfelt spiel, implicit confession from underneath her balcony. Offering him flowers because he succeeded in calling out to her heartā¦ā¦.. And they have to climb to her tooā¦. Crazy
Doesnāt it sound like a proposal. One thatās both so storybook-like and not, contrastedly real and grounded, all about the implications rather than in your face grand gestures, "Donāt you want to meet my family?". They literally have an arc about the topic of romance and this is the climax/pinnacle of it like god?? This is @ the woman who said "Chilchuck is a shy/bashful man so I know he wouldnāt tell me he loves me, butā¦" btw
To quote a friend, truly the shiny secret unlockable dating sim capture target : THE DUNGEON LORD BIT WAS SO FUNNY BECAUSE HE KNEW SHE'D TAKE IT HOOK LINE AND SINKER HES THE ONE WHO GOT HER TO TURN AROUND COMPLETELY SHES LIKE. WIDE EYED FLAG RAISED???? FLAG RAISED WITH CHILCHUCKĀ šššā¼ļøššā¼ļøš
And the way that this is the culmination of their arc togetherā¦ Like people are not ready for the āChil calling out to dunlord Marcille on the balcony has Romeo and Juliette romance novels imageryā take. Or the ātheir arc is about growing to see beauty even in the non-idealized, in the flawed and in the realā take which makes it so so perfect if she were to lower her ideal from a charming elven prince to a virtuous halfling man (which she does end up romanticizing)
So there, you got to witness in real time what happens when I think about marchil for longer than 2 minutes, there are so many layers itās a deranged rabbithole. I saw the necronomicon of subtext and itās driving me to madness with forbidden knowledge that no one else sees
ā¦ā¦. Like what if I told you she implicitly picked Chilchuck over a "unrealistic prince charming whoās actually disingenuous" much earlier in the story already. If she was given the choice to think through going with a guy that seems perfect and chivalrous like her succubus sheād pick Chilchuck over the other actually. If I sound insane rn tune in for my full analysis on them coming this month hopefully thank youu. Interwoven arcs of fantasy vs reality and idealization vs pessimism I love youuu
So now you know the general thesis of my planned analysis about the importance of the prince charming figure in Marcille and Chilchuckās arc, where she romanticizes things to a sometimes worrying degree or idealize people into something easy and digestible and poetic (like Chil being a kid, and then him being a virtuous āØāØāØhusband), and how she needs to value aesthetics less and actual acts and facts more, be more grounded (like seeing people for what they are flaws and all, and accepting that people need money and not pulling through on principles of honor or unity shouldnāt get Namari shamed) and a part of that is accepting that Chilchuck is BOTH flawed and virtuous, a loving husband that still has shitty moods and fumbled his marriage so bad etc etc. So itās like, her image of perfect prince charming that will whisk you away on an ethereal romance -> realistic flawed middle aged dad with personality issues and a failing marriage but he still is worthy of love and having his cute grand romance story and his happy ending. Ik I keep repeating the same point through this but I need it to be burned into everyoneās brains it has its grip on me I canāt do this. They are so specialā¦ā¦
#Someone did ask (on discord) btw iām not just being a smartass though I do love being that too#This is stuff I cover in my upcoming marcille & chil arc analysis except here I can go full romo and donāt keep the strictly platonic angle#Itās at like 15k words rn I think. The 30 pics limit is killing me which is why I started asking my friend to do collages of panels for me#Sob#I keep alternating between it and the Falin analysis save me. Should be dropping soon idk i might test out having a beta reader for that on#Marchil foreplay is 2 years of being coworkers and slowly worming personal questions out of him until he blinks and she has#a key to his house#Dungeon meshi#marchil#marcille donato#chilchuck tims#like theyāre so so funny look at this shit. Nonconsensual romanticizing of you as a person. Obsessive interest in your personal life#Sheās latched so hard onto the āmysteryā of him theyāre deranged#MAYBE ITS ALL COMPROMISES MAYBE ITS ALL SWEET INBETWEENS <3#maybe we'll take our vision of what we thought we could be and make something new together. something for just us#Fumi rambles#Maaan Marcilleās āidealizing him into liking him even for all his flaws bc his personality is often kinda shittyā arcā#and Chilchuckās āprejudice against elves and mages and optimism into respect and trustā arc are everything to me#Meta#Spoilers#Dungeon meshi manga spoilers#Tagged this so late oops#Itās so funny. Sheās canonically wondered how Chil would be like as a lover#No no but like do u see. Fantasy is a key part of her chrcter and arc and heās the foil to that heās the thing that comes challenge it
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'thats not his role in the story!' hm i wonder what the point of it is then. hm i wonder what the dead pixel scene means. hm i wonder what wrong organ are trying to say with the context of 'awesome male friendship' and 'corporate hell where the only woman onboard is constantly under ridicule, abused or forcibly forgotten yet is the catalyst' if not this. hm i wonder how curly's physical agony being a direct parallel to anya's mental agony, stripped of voice, agency, just like her, and being forced to watch what happens while not doing jack shit, just like he used to, plays a part in this. i wonder what the moral of him being the final girl says about living with the consequences of your inaction, because of sentimentality, because of status, career and social. hm i wonder whatever the fuck this game was trying to say. hm i wonder what else is on this person's blog Oh Lord there's yaoi penice.
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing spoilers#sa mention#dont go after this person but i hooooope they rethink. their view of the story.#but god im gonna squeeze lemons in my eyes soon#taking this game away from yall until you unlearn misogyny#ooooh curlys just sooo sweet poor thaaang oh my oh my youre looking sooo far into thissss haaahaaa#its all just a misunderstanding!!!! anya didnt speak clearly enough!!!! noooo its not on my beautiful blue eyed rascal hahaaa#ok look curlys an insane character i love analyzing him and i VERY MUCH dont want people to think im like villanizing the guy#the entire point is that otherwise pretty chill people can fuck up OF THEIR OWN FAULT AND BIAS and then learn. painfully. what not to do.#and by chill i also dont mean holy water pure ok. distinctions.#and id really hate people taking either side of the argument on curlys morality. esp considering his appearance (for both.)#just don't. fucking make baby ass black and white arguments#this game should be behind a childproof lock in the shape of a reading comprehension test abt crime and punishment#im super supportive of people trying to think outside the norm about art like mouthwashing and explaining their own musings#and talking with others and trying to understand how to argument their thoughts which is what the op of the post this was left on was doing#being genuinely curious and open#but brother i draw the line at so merrily denying the main fucking point of the character in the catalyst event#GOOD GOD make this game only accessible to 35+ yo's with no internet access#the contents of their blog were just the cherry on top#unblocking them in hopes they see this ig
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(ā©^o^)āāā progress time~
Next Update (Chapter 3? Quite Possibly!):
Intro Scene (if not on music fest route): 100%
Music Fest Routes (Solo, V, and Amara): 100%
Club Pyre Path: 100%
Editing: 100%
Coding: 95%
Bug Testing: 0%
As you can see, the editing is all done!! Woohoo!!! There's a tad more coding I need to get finished and then it's over to bug testing. Barring any complications, I think the next update should be out by the end of next week! š„³
#redo; rewind if#interactive fiction#if game#progress report#i'm so excited to be able to get the next update out to y'all soon!!!#i'm really hoping for next week but there is a chance bug testing could take longer depending on how busy i am#so take that with a grain of salt#but. yeah. soon...#(i feel like i've been saying that a lot lately. but this time it's for real i swear!!! š¤”)
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Wip Wippps āØ
I've been feeling the modding juice flow back so I took a quick break in my DA trilogy replay to work on a top I had saved for some time now š¤
Leather and Latex, they will have 5 colors each, for both fem and masc~ (it looks really cool underneath jackets and boleros especially uwu)
Been fighting the weights all day but I won't be able to make it any better >:O Clipping is to be expected around the collar (that's why it's "floating" / away from the skin, to avoid a maximum of clipping š) and ofc ofc clipping with cyberhands and cyberarm will happen as well
One last Pride Inspired mod for June š s'not like they will stop coming tho but that's STLL IN THEME TM ghfhg
#Playing DA for a week straight got my brain craving productivity UHGZHU#But it's good tho :3 s'been fun to take a breather#these shouuuuuld either be up for testing soon Or get published right away I'll see how I feel once they're in working state#Modding shenanigans
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2am Doodle(????) (PHIGHTING!)
Calling this a doodle since it only took like 1 hour and I speed ran it while sleep deprived at 2am absolutely blasting anoās cover of god-ish
Anyways I donāt really draw this kinda stuff too often out of sheer personal preference but when I do itās honestly kind of fire (+ itās just fun to draw angsty stuff like that)
enjoy your food for the time being Iām going back into my hole
#art#artists on tumblr#phighting!#phighting fanart#digital art#roblox phighting#phighting roblox#phighting art#roblox#phighting#phighting medkit#medkit phighting#medkit fanart#medkit#phighting! roblox#phighting! art#cw: gore#tw blood#cw blood#blood tw#Yeah this was honestly really fun LMAO#Iāve been really playing around with new brushes in ibis and I recently discovered the genius pen and#Itās honestly the perfect brush for me#Itās sketchy/fun/and paired with a lot of other brushes it looks really cool#This piece was a way to REALLY test out the capabilities of it and safe to say Iām pretty pleased :3#The fact that itās a default pen (same with the dip pen- which I used for coloring) makes it even better#Anyways sorry for the ramble letās just ignore the fact that Iām hyperfixating on brushes#Hopefully I should be posting a lot more art trade/commission pieces soon since I have some queued up that I REALLY gotta work on LMAO#Hopefully they shouldnāt take too long though so YIPPEEEE#anyways back to my hole in the Everglades I go
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i've been trying to come out with between one and three posts a week, but i'm not sure if i'll be able to continue that pattern for a little while - work and life have me really burned out.
feel free to tag me in any fics, gifsets, art, etc, that don't spoil beyond 5x16, and i'd absolutely love to check it out! and for those who are familiar: is there a specific/conventional AO3 tag for "no spoilers past *insert episode or season here*"? because i'd love to dive into that
or go ahead and send in asks! i have anons off, but i can put them back on for a bit if anyone is interested and there are no hate blogs on the loose
but yeah, i might need a little time away from the writeups <3
#they take me a while and i enjoy describing the whole viewing process but man right now i just need a breather#i will not complain at all (in fact i will rejoice) to be tagged in stuff!#msr has healing powers (this is scientifically proven) and i can't just go and search ao3 for spoiler reasons#UNLESS there are specific tags i do not know about#if so please let a girl know! i am not intimately familiar with the arts of AO3#so keep me in ur thoughts as i move forth and i hope to be back to normal posting soon <3#clients at my job are mean as hell to me and i am still and will forever be ill and it's like. bro. be nice to me.#if you think i won't cry and make everyone deeply uncomfortable you are WRONG!! test me again at your own peril#juni's x files liveblog
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I hope you die screaming.
#bg3#bg3 screenshots#baldur's gate 3#astarion#astarion ancunin#bg3 astarion#prommy to myself i am gonna take tav pics soon#this was a hotsampling test#was doing his origin and realized it pauses on him when his eyes are like this#so i wanted a pic lol#also btw i never know if you can see this color text haha...#i have the goth theme on so#mine#reshade
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life comes at you so fast
#tw personal#tw death#tw cancer#not my usual silly goofy post but itās hard to remain that way when thereās a lot weighing on your mind#cancer sucks#and itās unfair how quickly it can take people from us#one moment they seem fine and the next theyāre in the icu with a week left to live#he passed two nights ago#i wasnāt planning to post about it but i have the tendency to disassociate from my grief#so here i am instead of wherever the hell!#itās heartbreaking because he and his wife werenāt just my mumās bosses - they were long-time friends#i have clear childhood memories of playing at their house with their son#his youngest child is only 3 years old#as soon as he found out he started giving his final messages to his staff#obviously nobody wants to die in that situation#but you could feel how much he *wanted to live*#when i was told about his death it was in the morning and it didnāt feel real#every time i had seen him in the last year he always had a smile on his face#itās always been hard for me to deal with the prospect of death#and understand how fragile life is#how REAL mortality is#it hits even harder when it happens to someone who was so FULL of life#sighs#life comes at you fast#sometimes in all directions and in every possible and testing way imaginable#iāve been trying to write and feel any sense of normalcy this evening but for a multitude of reasons i have a sinking feeling in my stomach#sometimes when iām upset i try recycle the feeling into excitement or happiness over something else#yeah ā¦ i canāt really do that tonight#apologies if my energy is bleh. hold your loved ones close. now i return you to my regular scheduled programming
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Spoilers for Sinsmas/Sinsmas ramble
So I had Sinsmas paused on my browser to do life stuff as usual, I Will Be Okay was in my head, and I walked back to my computer after life stuff and realized the frame I had it paused on was
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Do you see what I'm seeing
Their positions aren't just similar, they're reversed. In "I Will Be Okay", Via is on the floor and Stolas's shadow is standing up, looking down on her and reaching a hand to her from above, which she swats away. At the end of Sinsmas, Stolas is kneeling on the floor, with Via looking down at him from above, and her hand resting on Stolas's, which she pulls away from.
AND THE PARALLELS AND REVERSALS DON'T END THERE
From what I could see, it seems like there's only one instance where the parallel doesn't totally apply.
This.
Merry Sinsmas, Helluva Boss fandom :D
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#helluva boss#sinsmas#hb spoilers#rambles#ramble#hi fandom this is my first time in these parts please be nice haha ^^'#i love parallels guys#hb storyboard artists you MASTERMINDS /aff#as someone who at most just looks at the analysis videos and has absorbed the goings-on through internet osmosis#the emotions still hit very hard for this episode#which is also the first one i watched in full as opposed to just going to certain clips to see what the fandom is frothing in the mouth ove#hot take: via has the right to be mad at stolas. but stolas also deserves to (and SHOULD) have a moment to explain to her everything#now stolas in mastermind put himself on the chopping block after confessing which is the most blatant āyes i am ditching my life for an imp#and is very much breaking the promise he made to her in loo loo land the instant it was tested#so yes via has every right to be mad in this regard#but#she's also very deliberately being kept out of the loop with everything going on with her family and it's biting her in the ass#she probably knows her parents hate each other but does she know that stella hires hitmen to kill stolas like on every day ending in y?#does she know that the reason they got together in the first place was just because they needed a precautionary goetia heir?#does she know that their wedding anniversaries are ānot divorcedā anniversaries in every sense of the word?#does she know that stella never plans on having her fulfill her purpose as a goetia#because she and andre want stolas's power like flies want shit and are going to hog that power for all it's worth?#probably not#stella wouldn't bother telling her about it because she doesn't really care for her much (just the perks of having her on her side)#(i mean c'mon āthe egg that came out of meā and āhis daughterā?)#and stolas didn't want to tell her the full extent of what he had to go through because he wanted via to have a normal childhood#meaning he wanted to fill the role of the ordinary loving father with no issues and no happy pill abduction whatsoever hahahahaaawhosaidtha#so he didn't want to worry her with his issues when she is still growing and that shit is too much for a little child to process#but with via's eighteenth birthday coming soon and stella and andre being even less subtle about their.... their EVERYTHING#maybe via will begin to get a peek into everything underneath the surface and maybe understand a bit of what stolas had to deal with
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surprise!!!
#puffer legacy#the sims 4#ts4#ts4 gameplay#sims 4#simblr#ts4 legacy#plgen3#marinella terzi#haru terzi#ume ikehara#fuyck#i did not plan them to get pregnant again so soon#i was shocked i didn't even pay attention to her taking the test
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I guess I feel kinda chatty since I haven't many chances to post on here in a little while (besides just screencaps and reblogs.) I have a lot of thoughts but unfortunately not enough spoons to get them all written down asap. A lot of them are about Amber-- I've been rotating her and Thirteen as inverses in my brain. She is so under-appreciated. A lot of thoughts re: 'House' and its portrayal of disability and chronic illness, too. Something something this show has been so important to me while being sick/dealing with this chronic illness, and I love it even more now.
#slowly but surely seeing health improvements#just got set up with pt and ot and i think that will help a lot!!#and waiting on genetic test to come in the mail#also finally have a diagnosis for one of the underlying issues#so now hopefully the rest of the drs i see for all the shit the mold made 10x worse will take me more seriously#and hopefully i get to visit my fiancee soon omg#despite being very sick things are going pretty okay and i can definitely feel/be happy#and there's more new things and adjustments coming on the horizon#anya shush
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I think I need to reschedule my doctor's appointment which I have already rescheduled once. Has anyone here ever had to reschedule an appointment twice and follow-up question did they come to your house and kill you
#this Is me genuinely asking whether it's like. okay to reschedule twice#I don't want to get dropped as a patient but the blood test results Will be fucked if I take them any time soon#Like do I just suck it up and go to the current appointment with incorrect results#Or do I beg on my knees for them to reschedule me again
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Bi-Han & Kuai Liang and how they untied Kenshi
While making the last piece of my MK1 Behind the Scenes AU series, I was once again reminded about the similiarity between Bi-Han and Kuai Liang during Johnny Cageās chapter.Ā
When Liu Kang ordered Bi-Han to free Kenshi, he did not use any blade but patiently worked on the knots to untie them.Ā
And yes, he has no knife on himself but he could easily form one with ice, not to mention freeze the rope and shatter it. But since this scene took place before Liu Kangās burst of fire that ultimately convinced Johnny this is not some weird prank, the creators most likely decided to avoid using any supernatural elements. The big surprise needed to come from Fire Lord himself, which makes sense from the story's consequences of events. However in-universe, it made Bi-Han one of those people that would patiently work to untie knots rather than go with the easier way of cutting them (something I personally appreciate as I myself like to dissolve knots more than cutting through them).
But once Liu Kangās burst of fire brought a change of the mood,
Kuai Liang when ordered to free Kenshi also didn't use the kunai to cut the ropes.
Which gives an interesting look at the brothers and their approach to fulfilling Fire Lordās task. Here we need especially take into account that Scorpion was much more affected by Liu Kangās show of power than his older brother - seen by the deep bow when Bi-Han barely showed remorse for the fight with Cage. Yet instead of using the kunai to free Kenshi as fast as possible as to not test further Liu Kangās patience, the same as Bi-Han he choose to untie the ropes. Granted, Bi-Han most likely already did the most of the work, so Scorpion simply finished what was started but it still took him a while to free Kenshi.
This is a small detail, and one that does not play any bigger role in the grand schemes of things. However it helps to highlight how not so different brothers and their approach to task/problem is - especially at this early stage of game.
#mortal kombat#bi han#sub zero#kuai liang#scorpion#liu kang#for some reasons i thought kuai used his kunai but nope he too untied ropes as bi han did or at least his hand gestures look like that#dunno under the pressure of liu kang's already tested patience using knife to do the bidding as soon as possible seems like logical choice#yet both brothers took time and effort to patiently untie kenshi and that is nice detail#(on other hand IF kuai used knife to free kenshi i could joke bihan decided to take all the time just to be bastard#he did not ask to be brought here so now wait patiently when i'm working on some stupid knots XD)
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Look at these stickers my brain is literally so huge. God. I love them so much.
I hadn't tried to do a sticker sheet at home before because I knew it would be difficult, and I was right! Getting the cut lines to line up with the print was super hard and there were many failed attempts, but it was so worth it I'm so happy with them!!!
This sticker sheet is for my patrons this month ^^
#like seriously I wasted like 10 entire sheets#normally when I do stickers I get to arrange them on a 'print and cut' sheet#which basically has these black marks in the corners that the machine can scan so it can cut based off of where those marks were#so it gets to line up muuuch easier#but with this I didnt want to have just like 2 sticker sheets a page... I wanted to have 4 for an 8.5x11 piece of paper?#cause of obvious reasons I feel#cause the print and cut takes an inch all around#I'm not sure it would be replicable either tbh? like if I were to design another sheet I would have to waste a bunch of papers again#cause for some reason the individual cut lines werent like... it wasnt like it was just entirely offset or entirely scaled 1:1#it was like some parts had to scoot up some spots had to scoot over some down whatever#so I think I would have to print cut and test again#but. also I did all that and realized. I could have been testing this on normal pieces of paper... I didnt have to use sticker paper#its fine! just makes me feel less bad about trying to do this again in the future#the sticker paper isnt that expensive this wasnt terrible#anyways. might do more in the future! I only have one other idea right now for a sticker sheet bt I wanna do it eventually#not like I wont ever have other ideas. obviously.#I just generally try to only make stuff that i'd actually wanna have so i'm not trying to make a ton of designs or whatever#this is actually also why i'm often sort of... late? on the patreon designs#not late like i send them out as soon as payments get processed for that month the design was for#but ideally id be making them ahead of time enough that people could sign up or sign off if theyre interested or not...#but I just dont wanna make a design that feels procedural... I CAN but I wanna make things that are creative and worth paying for!#so. I often will spend multiple days mulling over ideas for that months designs. so I'm not very ahead at all haha#anyways. yeah these are for october and then I've also gotta draw a halloween themed drawing for this year in general that will be the prin#i lov halloween#anyways.#patreon#merch#my bf didnt get it the gravestone box. its like a nerds box shaped like a gravestone...#and the nerds are. ghosts... its good. its good okay you agree
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#also. now worried ill not deal well with like. being on the train and on the bus on a book event and on a concert in the next few days#cause thats famously crowded places and i am doing So bad im taking taxi from and to work to avoid being on crowded busses lol#idk what tf is going on rly#im mostly stressed out and filled with dread at home knowing i have work that day or the next day#and somewhat better after i arrive at work??#idk. but also ive lost weight and am losing hair lol and its def stress induced cause my blood test results are perfect#i have a psych appointment in a week where i could ask to get sent on a sick leave and its soon now so#im starting to feel a lot of guilt and shame around this idea#but like. cant handle this anymore#and my boss is awful my work schedule is so bad i cant have hobbies or meet friends its just bad bad bad
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