#i will prolly vent through all my characters

[callmeklair]

this has been on my mind for a while but still didn't say it because I didn't want people to come after me and cancel me. just know I like ayato, but I don't like the overrated hype on him by people. I'm not hating on Ayato stans, because I was one myself but this overrated hype got me out of it after discovering more knowledge on other characters.

the way some people hype the Ayato "overrate" is too much. like I get it Rejet gave a lot of signs of painting Ayato as the main lead, but it was prolly to have some easier ideas on merch and fanservice contents (like youngblood). yes there might me Rejet's favoritism too here, especially in anime, like all the boys barely have any interaction with Yui except when it came to suck her blood, but that wasn't the case with Ayato. I feel like if Rejet had shown favoritism towards Subaru or actually tried to highlight Shu or Reiji or even Laito's trauma like they did with Ayato, then the main love interest would have pointed towards them.

people saying that Ayato "truly" deserves to be the ML because he had it "worse" are we starting to compare everyones' trauma now??? I'm sorry but trauma can never be compared because everyone has their own experience, sufferings and hardships going through it.

alright if you wanna compare "worse" then, what Ayato had worse? Cordelia abusing him to study 24/7 to become number one and not letting him play + venting her anger out on him? then what about Shu??? as the first born I'm pretty sure it was way worse for him especially how strict and cold Beatrix was. and the only solace, his friend edgar aka Yuma, was also snatched by him. If you guys would have read Shu's LE vampire end starting monologue, then you guys would have known how Shu was talking about his trauma and how he dealt with it using music, pushing people away, etc. + plus it's side effect on him.

"Ayato forgave Cordelia in DF in his route even after what she did to him" okay? so did Yuma. He forgave Reiji for what happened in the past. Laito also forgave Cordelia in his DF route after discovering Karlheinz's journal. Carla was ready to help vampires, the species he hates the most, just on Yui's saying.

Yes Ayato had development, but I feel like Reiji, Ruki, Kou, Shu and Laito had the best one and more better development than him. Like through each and every game you can see them coming over trauma through Yui's help and becoming a better person. While in Ayato's case I just felt like they dumped the "main hero" plot on him by reviving Cordelia. yeah DF was the only route I saw his development while in other games, I didn't see much unlike what I witnessed with other characters.

Subaru was the green flag from the start and if Rejet would have given him the screen time instead of Ayato, he would have become the Main Interest.

[noonmutter]

bit of a rant about Mists of Pandaria Remix below, skip this if you don't want to read what's mostly just me venting about some stupid shit the team did years ago. this involves minor spoilers about plot points that are largely irrelevant to the overall story but if you wanna be surprised you'd prolly be mad at me for mentioning

so I'm running through MOP Remix just like a huge chunk of WoW players right now, right

and this was the expac that'd come out before the expac I joined the game in, which was WoD. The Tanaan patch of WoD. I joined during an objectively awful part of WoW. People had a habit of singing MoP's praises (at least for the story) a lot in comparison to WoD, although the bar wasn't very hard to clear.

So I played MoP's story as a character that vastly outleveled it and didn't have to gear up and grind my way through it, and I had the same general experience as most new players did, which was constantly wondering what I was missing because a few fairly significant story beats were relegated to happening in novels or just had cinematics that weren't accessible in the game anymore, shit like that

and I remember actively avoiding the main alliance v. horde plot because I really didn't care, I wanted to see what the Shaohao stuff was about, because man those cinematics were gorgeous (and at the time, unique to MoP; they hadn't gotten lazy and reused the art style for Diablo 3 where it didn't belong yet). I wanted to know what those were about and how they expanded! And gosh, that was great and rewarding! Wow!

so in Remix, I'm running ALL the storylines, because every quest rewards a buttload of bronze and stuff, and gimme gimme gimme, I wanna collect all the cool shit.

but oh. my GOD.

I can't even evaluate the story from a watsonian perspective, where I look at the actions the characters take and their political ramifications and whether X person made the right call or if Y could've stopped this other thing if they'd just found the magic doodad or whatever. I simply can't. It's all written in such a hamfisted, "we don't understand politics or what actually causes systemic hatred or bigotry or the general concept of moral nuance" way that I cannot evaluate the characters because the writing is just not good enough to stay immersed in it when big plot points hit.

I can't sit here and compare Jaina's stupid murderous kirin tor rampage with Garrosh's Anything At All because I'm too busy thinking about all the ways both of them were poorly written into their respective story beats.

The Alliance and Horde stories do not depict the same events. An Alliance player sees the Horde do things that Horde players never even hear about, and vice versa. And it's not minor stuff. Alliance players do not experience an Alliance airstrip being built in one part of the Jade Forest, where they take Pandaren slaves--including children--to do it. We don't see it, we don't hear about it, it's never referenced even as a throwaway line later on. It's just a thing that happens completely in a vacuum. When I encountered this event in the Horde storyline, it was so unknown to me as an Alliance player that I went looking for the air strip and was surprised to actually find it accessible on the map. I fully expected it to actually not exist, phased or some shit, if you weren't Horde. That's how divergent it was. And that's bad. That's not like 'ooh wow what a twist,' that's 'who the fuck directed this?'

Remix really shines a spotlight on how immature the writing in MoP got, because it shows a fundamental lack of comprehension of the basic concept of equivalence. We didn't need to see both sides take slaves in order to accept that they were both equally morally wrong for perpetuating a racially-motivated war; they've already been doing awful shit to one another for years prior to the expansion that was good enough to showcase it. We especially did not need to not see our own side take slaves in order to stir up more hate against the other faction.

If that event needed to be included in the game so bad, it absolutely should've been something Alliance players found too. We should've been faced with the idea that xenophobia, zealotry, and hatred were not relegated to The Other Guy and that the guys who looked like us and wore our colors could be monstrous bastards, too. It would've played beautifully into the general theme of Pandaria.

But that writing team failed to do that at every opportunity, and given how beautiful and poignant other chunks of the story (the parts largely divorced from AvH) were, I can't think it's because the team itself was incompetent. It stinks of executive meddling and the kind of mentality that led to shit like the "build an entire expansion just to justify this cool image I have of Sylvanas burning down Teldrassil" incident.

It's just so disappointing to go through it and see it and be able to point a big neon arrow at it and go "this right here was a dev team actively encouraging its player base to actually hate each other" which is very different from encouraging competition. Even though the overarching theme of Pandaria was learning to let things go and swallow your pride before it destroys everything you care about, the actual plot frequently made the players experiencing it hate each other as people.

and I think that might very well have been an underlying point of Remix. because man does it make me appreciate the current story team even more than I already did.

[natasha-in-space]

Hey im the matsuda enjoyer anon who pointed out that he and yoosung are basically the same guy.

I cant help but imagine......what if they met, i mean in the age of social media its not impossible. While I dont think matsuda was a gamer but he was very much into pop culture and so is yoosung.

What if they both unite over their love for a certain kpop group (in my head its Girls Generation) and become internet friends

I can imagine after the good ending yoosung prolly might go to japan a couple of times for work related stuff or just to enjoy with MC (and drag seven with him as well)

What if the now mid-late 20s yoosung (who is a vet) meets the now early 40s matsuda (who is still a cop but is confined to desk jobs cuz the task force was tired of his shenanigans). What if they decide to share a drink and eventually have a long conversation. What if they start their talks by talking about their shared interest and eventually ending up venting after realising that they had been through a similar journey (being infantilised by their friend groups grief low self esteem yet keeping an optimistic outlook in life) and perhaps share advices to each other whilst being drunk which struck a chord in each other's heart.

I can see matsuda being an older man advising yoosung but i could also see yoosung (who has accomplished a lot in a short time despite his own struggles with loss grief and of course the eye injury) advicing matsuda. Both of them reassuring each other that it will get better (bye im crying)

Good to see you back Matsuda anon! I must say, this ask made me grin so wide as I was reading it. I adore it when people make two of their faves meet and become friends. It's such a sweet notion, both as a way of expressing your shared love for these characters, as well as a neat basis for new interesting analysis. (It's my own guilty pleasure as well, hehe)

Meeting someone who understands what it's like to struggle with grief, conflicting feelings about someone who was once very important to them, and the frustration of never being taken seriously due to their young age would benefit them both greatly. While they both must have overcome the last problem by that point, discussing it with someone who understands can still be very cathartic.

Having a good friend who can make Yoosung feel comfortable and understood is something he deserves. It's also heartwarming to think of Matsuda becoming a new kind of role model for Yoosung! Not on the same level as it was with Rika, but just as a figure of strength and motivation for him, when things are tough. Having friends who are older than you can be a very beneficial experience as you are moving through life!

And as for Matsuda... It'll definitely do him some good to have someone with whom he can openly discuss what he had to go through. Sure, he has a few people like that, but none that can actually fully relate on a deeper level. I also think he'd be super impressed by Yoosung. By all that he managed to overcome and achieve in his (relatively) young age. His determination to better himself and to protect his loved ones, him finding (or rather resurrecting) his passion for his own path in life, and him resolving what conflicting feelings he still held for Rika... It's so much, and it's-

It's inspiring.

I know I said that Matsuda can become a new role model for Yoosung, but it goes the other way around as well! Having these talks with the younger vet can greatly motivate Matsuda to work on himself further and pursue what he truly wants. It's never too late to restore your happiness. It's rather sweet to think about, actually. Two people who share similar painful experiences planting fresh seeds of hope into one another that everything is going to be okay. As you put it: it will get better.

On a lighter note, the thought of them being fans of the same girl groups makes me giggle. (Them going to a Girls Generation concern??? More likely than you'd think! Although Saeyoung will definitely tag along and create some mischief) I feel like they both are still struggling with openly expressing their likes and interests, as they got teased for that in the past, so it'll be very beneficial to them to have a safe space to chatter excitedly about this or that, without fear of being judged. Being passionate about something is not a bad thing, and should be celebrated! On that note, they will definitely send each other exclusive merch and buy each other tickets for events. There are some benefits to having a friend in a different country!

Overall, it's nice to think of these two being good buddies. It's what they deserve. And I love reading your thoughts on them! :)

[nerves-nebula]

having sexual trauma issues is hard (for a lot of real reasons but im gonna talk about a silly one now) cause all i wanna do is make my favorite characters suffer through it too through art but my favorite characters right now are from TMNT, and projecting my incest trauma onto those guys would be like opening a can of worms that hate you and want to kill you with guns because every third post in the tmnt fandom is like INCEST SHIPPERS DO NOT INTERACT and i dunno how to explain to people that what i'm doing is in no way shipping

but ppl really only want to see your trauma art if its like, tasteful and just hints at what happened instead of graphic and furious and ugly

anyway this isn't a serious issue it's actually just kinda funny to think about. I've got plenty of other ways to vent hahh

also if you're triggered by incest you prolly shouldn't follow me just as a heads up and I'm giving u permission to block me for your own health (I know you don't need my permission but I also know some of us are neurotic and would feel bad about it and I'm saying its FINE) because I will randomly talk/vent about stuff that happened to me in the past and I dont shy away from or censor the word incest (though I do tag it as either incest or incest tw)

guess I should prolly put that as a warning in my bio, now that all these new tmnt people are paying attention to me :P

[nicostenz]

NICO

INTRO

- Hi, I'm Atlas or Nic, Mac even.. tbh anything u like :3

- I'm a minor and an amateur writer and artist! (drawing wise)

- I use He/him pronouns though any can be fine, just not she/her

- bisexual trans ftm

- Gabriel O'Hara enthusiast

-I love kpop, marvel, (some) anime, cartoons, etc. just ask

- prolly have smt wrong w me so if ur my moot and we interact here and I start showing my true self and u feel uncomfortable, sorry T T;

SOCIALS ;

You guys might recognize me for my bangchan pfp OR my Gabriel ohara drawing.. in this case my socials are :

Tumblr and cai: nicostenz

jai: macstenz

insta: nico.stenz

twt: nico_stenz

ao3: axhty_ALT

though, I'll change my insta and twt pfps to bangchan shortly after.

OTHERS (FAQ, DOS AND WONT DOS, ETC.)

FAQ ;

- am I allowed to request?

yes! You are. as long as you keep it just PG. no 18+ shit on my page. I'm a minor and I won't show/write actual porn on my page to adults who would probably do weird stuff to it as— again— i am a minor.

- Can I request suggestive content?

yes you can. but just don't abuse this feature since again, I can't always do suggestive stuff. if it's suggestive, most likely it's on a cliffhanger.

- Hey, I'm an adult! Can I interact and follow?

Yes!! just please, don't do anything weird. I.e: Flirt with me. Pls don't :/

- can I dm you?

ofc. But just know that if you spam me about something, like a request that I'll do, please note you won't be answered.

- am I allowed to request a character from a movie or show you don't know?

This depends. If its a series and it catches my eye, I'll try making it close to canon.. and not only that I'll also try watching it if its worth.. but it's only a movie I'll actually watch if you want close to canon characters.

- can I request art?/do I need to pay for a commission?

absolutely yes! You can request art from me! just be patient because as stated, I'm a minor, so I have school. not only that I'm also in a troupe which requires me training for hours, so if you don't get even a simple sketch within a week or day, don't get mad at me! Also, no need to pay me for commissions. what I'm doing is purely for fun! that's unless I need the money, then yes. maybe I might starts but please I only accept cash (if ever) through gcash, and Filipino commissioners ONLY!!!!

- hey.. is it okay to vent?

if you're my moot then yes, it's okay, just ask before since I might not be in the mood to listen or comfort. but if you're a stranger then most likely yes...? you can dm me about it but I don't think I'd do much if you vent.

- Hey! I'm part of the LGBTQIA+ community! Will you write, fem x fem, masc x masc, gn x gn etc. stories?

absolutely! people are all welcome here and as a ftm myself, I'll mostly be m reader or gn reader! though, for fem aligned followers.. i will make content, yes, but fem aligned on my mlm/male content and gender neutral stuff, can read and interact, just do not fetishise my content.

- can I request a ship?

absolutely. go ahead! I will try to write it the best I can to canon if I don't know this ship, but what I won't write is ships from shows/movies I don't know, or illegal ships. (animal x human, child x adult, sibling x sibling)

- will you write age gaps?

yea. most likely. If the age gap is 10-20 yrs I'll still write it, as long as you mean if the reader/character is an adult and its both consenting, then yes, I will.

-will you write stuff on ao3?

in the future, maybe.

MOVING ON..

WILL DO:

character x character

character x reader

canon

fanon

ooc

angst

fluff

suggestive

haikyuu

kpop

MCU (avengers, ATSV, xmen, etc)

art

requests

age gaps

ftm/mtf/gn character

ftm/mtf/gn reader

Iffy about it.. :

Daddy/mommy kink

ships/x readers from shows/movies I don't watch

$elf H (though, if it brings u comfort in a way w ur comfort character idm... just don't expect me to actually do it.)

WONT DO:

NSFW

smut

anything bdsm in general (not yet at least)

weird kinks

anything illegal (incest, step-incest, Bestiality, racist things, noncon etc.)

HOW TO FIND ME :

you won't find me in any comment section if the post is nsfw/smut or someone has mdni in their bio.

but if you do, my anon emojis are monkeys. idk if that helps but if u stumble on a requested fic with a monkey anon that's me probably 😭

(🐒🙈🙊🐵🙉 <- using those.)

the end of my intro!!! I'll edit this shit if I missed out on anything. anyway, hope and expect to see more fanfics!! soon!! (if school's being g nice hahah)

- sincerely, bangchan lover/mac/steny/nico whatever u like.

[mxboxlocks]

tf2 hc designs are my everything i wish i had the courage to make mine crazier or smth but mine are just sat there like

i like them that way tho. perhaps someday i'll project even more onto soldier and give him a mullet. perhaps i'll make him even edgier. who knows /lh

ramble below (im sleep deprived as all hell) it might be considered a vent? but its not intense im kind of just bitching /lh, nm

anyways man so. im a little insecure about the way i write soldier bc im scared he comes off like i said, edgy?? when really its like no this guy isn't edgy per se he just has a lot of feelings he refuses to feel. traumatized (in denial) type stuff

i have like a small timeline of his life and family and all that and like yeah it's a little sad but idk i fear trying too hard. i think its perfectly fine. in fact i like my solly a lot. he's very near and dear to me considering he's. well me /kin

and thats the thing too is i wish that were enough but i want people to see in my work what i see in my work i guess. and thats not always gonna happen period, different perspectives exist and shit

like i said im severely sleep deprived i've only slept a couple of hours and i feel high forgive me

umm what else. ah yes of course the edgy thing yeah i guess i just dont want him to seem so out of character that hes not even soldier anymore. bc unfortunately soldier has been so flanderized through the comics and shorts over the years (thank god for emesis blue) that he's just kind of been reduced to a bumbling happy-go-lucky guy that'd kick your ass given the chance. but i think - nay know - he's more than that, and i like showing those parts of him that are there, but i don't want it to be dismissed as out-of-character simply because he isn't really written on deeper levels in canon

anyways thank you for readin, i'll prolly stop thinkin about this when i go back to sleep i just like talking. dont worry about me either, im not hurt none too much, or at all for that matter /gen

[obsessedwiththedragonprince]

So I've watched the first three seasons of TDP a while ago, randomly decided it needed a rewatch, somehow realised it got two additional seasons while i wasn't looking and now I need a place to vent my random thoughts.

I watched around a season a day and i just have to watch the se3 finale tomorrow and I'll catch up with what I've seen so far. When I see the 4th and 5th seasons I'll probably going to start spewing a lot of random shit so beware.

First of all. FIRST EPISODE AND CLAUDIA IS READING LOVE AMONGST THE DRAGONS?!

Second. I shipped Amaya and Janai hard the first time around already but this is so good. Like Janai's sister dying? Prolly my favourite scene so far. (Btw I'm spoiler free for seasons 4 and 5 except i googled ship name for them and saw a picture of them kissing so i know that's canon. Would honestly feel cheated and insulted if it wasn't.) Also the translator is such a cinnamon roll.

There are sooo many lovable characters in this series. I love Amaya and Soren most I think but everyone has such good arcs!!

Like Claudia being manipuated by Viren? I really like how her corruption comes from her love for Viren. I also loved how Soren is seen as the slower one out of them but she's more naive when it comes to their father.

The scene where Soren leaves her and she says "Don’t make me choose! Not again."? Right in the feels man.

Also sending my love to Bait! The guy deserves some love! I felt really bad for him during that scene on the ship when he felt like he was replaced by Zym and then when Callum invited him to come and he was so happy?? Like my heart? And then he basically goes and becomes a parental figure to Zym.

Oh that reminds me. What was the captain's name? I can't remember but i recognised it in those texts in the beginning when important people who work on the series are written so. Fun.

Also Gren is so random but I hope we'll see more of him. Loved his friendship with Amaya even if it had like two minutes of screentime.

I'm trying to think of everything that went through my head during the watching. Um.

Oh! Aaravos (is that correct?) What's up with that dude? And I didn't go back to check but in Harrow's letter to Callum he said that cube is a key sth connected to Aavaros and that he's a powerful mage and knows all six arcanums? So I'm wondering where that'll go. But he'll prolly be the final villain instead of Viren? We'll see ig. And a stupid thought but i just imagined him being somehow stuck in the cube? And my brain automatically got the idea that to open it all six sides must be activated(glowing) at the same time? I dunno what my brain is on atm but this exists in my head now.

And what happened with Ezran's abdication? Like why did he do it? What did anyone gain from that? Were the others supposed to leave them alone just because he did it? Dunno.

Also Aanya is so cool. Really love how she has a brain you know?

Also who was the guy who first deserted when the option was offered? Cause I know we saw him before but idk where. Wait he's not the guy Rayla spared is he? That would make some sense but i know we see the guy who deserts at least once in the throne room? I'm confused.

Also all kings and queens are dead so who's leading all the other armies beside Kasef(is it Kasef?)? Why don't we meet them?

Also Corvus is great and I love how he just goes along with everything Ezran does. You're a weird king Ezran.

This is so random but how was that vet supposed to know how fast an unhatched dragon's heartbeat is supposed to be? Just seemed funny to me.

Also i think the first time around i didn't like Soren in the beginning but now i loved him from the first scene when he helps Callum show off in front of Claudia.

I'll be back in the morning but right now I'll have to finish this rant cause i went to bed like two hours ago and couldn't sleep so this happened lmao.

[starry-p]

I drew one of my MANY adopted characters

I adopted this precious boy from my friend lilcrazybat

[notreblogs]

I want to retcon a lot of shit but i hate retconning for millions of reason even if its an industry standard to dismiss the past to improve the present of a story.

I might have to do it anyways instead of constantly trying to bullshit through a super forced and broken storyline... but the thing is I absolutely love doing that because tying things up elegantly seems like an impossible task and I love it with a passion every time I’ve been able to. I get the feeling though, that I should stop and go back and revise everything I know about all my characters instead of just blindly developing them... but then again this all leads nowhere really so why should I bother trying to sediment a lore when everything is all just thrown in there like the hodge-podgey universe that it is. I mean everybody loves that crap more than super complex universes that need seven pages of introductory paragraphs to understand. That’s bad to me, and if you cannot grasp the most important part of a story without a rehash of the old testament then you clearly have to think through the execution again.

I believe I am at the other side of the spectrum, secretly building the universe but doing it as I go. Chaotically. SUPER chaotically. Building bridges when I get to them. And the reason I don’t want to go way back and fill in the holes, which are obviously many, is because those holes are too big... and too irrelevant, at the same time.

[6okuto]

Hi Nia, I Love your LL headcanons! I tried to send this once b4 but tumblr went weird, so sorry if this is spam. I've seen it said b4 that mcs in dating sims/interactive novels tend to be Very emotionally resilient & seem to do a lot of the heavy lifting in regards to emotional support in relationships w/ LIs prolly due to practical reasons writing wise since mcs are player characters. What if this imbalance was addressed with mc & M3 + Rime.

Like our ever light-hearted, supportive, & kind mc has always been a pillar. Someone they can always rely on to reassure, amuse, & diffuse. As the LIs spend more time with mc they begin to see the cracks in the foundation that mc themself doesn't notice &/or acknowledge. Then upon closer attention to what scant details mc does share about their personal life(master of conversational evasion) that the story of mcs life is that 'oh mc is personable and always does the right thing we don't Need to worry about them, so we Won't.'

Owww my heart 💔 ya know just eldest child vibes. And just for extra pain mc doesn't even see anything wrong with this so when it's addressed and they cry, mc is confused for second. Thinks it's rain dripping on the back of their hand cuz they couldn't feel the silent tears going down their face🥺

note: hii thank you that means a lot to me :[ and omg Real. if this is any of u guys i need u to take the dialogue and Jam it into your head. that's not just them that's ME speaking now. u have to listen to me bc i am the writer and u love me /j also hooomygod i did Not think this would take as long as it did . guh

felix

mc's kindness was something felix had always admired

no matter what the world and their enemies threw at them, they had a warmth for others, for him, that never faded or tired. he couldn't imagine how tiring it might be

but he worried. he worried when they would go out and do chores for the others, be the one to speak when they all felt low and promised they'd all get through it, even when they offered to hear him vent, their kindness was never faltering and he worried.

"felix? are you okay?" he looks up from the book in front of him and at mc beside him on the couch, who noticed he hadn't moved for a few minutes. he doesn't answer and instead asks "how are you so kind?"

they blink, not expecting that to be his response. "what do you mean?" "i mean, you offer to help everyone no matter your own responsibilities, you try to cheer us up, you listen and try to resolve our problems without expecting us to do the same—without expecting anything. how aren't you...exhausted?"

mc doesn't make eye contact while they think. they shrug, "i never said i'm not exhausted. i just...push past it." felix places the book on the table and frowns, "mc, you shouldn't feel pressured to help. you're as human as the rest of us."

they shake their head, "i love helping people, i want to help people. but..." felix is patient, he only moves them closer to stroke their back and occasionally press a kiss to their head.

"i mean, you're right. sometimes i do...i do wish people would do the same for me. and i know it's selfish to want them to notice and bring it up first. i know i should just bring it up myself but i can't because—" their voice breaks and tears well in their eyes. "because what if i ask one day and they can't? they don't want to? i have to be the strong one, i always have. i don't know how not to be."

even now, mc feels like they've said too much—taken up too much space and time. there's a hint of fear in their eyes when they pull up to look up at felix.

they don't expect him to have a frown and tears of his own forming before he speaks, "i'm sorry you've been dealing with this alone for so long." and they don't expect the way he hugs them after either, or how much they melt into it while finally letting themself cry

he holds them tightly and takes time to think of what they need to hear, not minding how they sob against his skin. he should have noticed it sooner. and he can't take all that time back, but he can at least work to help with it now. "you wanting someone to notice your pain...it isn't selfish. that's being human, and so is taking time for yourself."

"but what if people need me? i can't just stop helping," mc mumbles into his chest. "no," he says firmly but gentle. "other people's happiness is not your responsibility. you have to do what's best for you."

he tilts their chin to look at him, "you're allowed to be tired, or to hurt, or to ask for help. you deserve that, maybe more than anyone else i know. you don't have to be strong all the time, love."

felix plants a kiss on their forehead, "you've done so much for us, for me. please let me do the same. the next time you need help, come to me first, please."

his thumb grazes their cheek as they nod and he smiles, "even the kindest and strongest of us are allowed to rest, hm?"

sage

sage has always been perceptive of others

he and felix are in the kitchen when mc comes in, good mornings swapped between them. he already noted how they seemed quieter than usual, steps a little heavier. felix asks how they're doing and they smile, "i'm alright. how are you felix? you were reading that novel last night, right?"

felix starts explaining what he read and sage decides to tune out, but doesn't ignore how quickly they evaded the question

they do it a lot, really. like when anisa would ask about earth and they explained enthusiastically until she mentioned their own life. they only offered a tight smile, "mm, normal, i guess? there's nothing super interesting. oh! back to what i was saying..."

even when they did offer details, sage wonders if they realized what they were revealing. they would mention how it was alright to vent to them, it was normal and people would always come to them back on earth. they mentioned late trips to get something a friend forgot, or to pick up groceries when no one else could. but they never seemed to complain. they were always stubborn with their kindness, it seemed

so it's no surprise to him when he tries to bring it up, that they do the same habit again. it catches them off guard while they sit on his bed but they compose themself quickly, "i just like helping an focusing on other people, that's all. i promise i'm alright."

he frowns, "you're lying." mc blinks but before they can deny it he starts again, "you evade questions when people try to focus on you."

"no i don—" "yes you do. you change the subject and don't want help. why?" mc opens their mouth to speak, but only shrugs and looks away. "i don't know, i just...do. i always have. it's not like i have much that's important to bring up. and people...people struggle more than they let on. they have hard days and need someone to talk to and i know that so, you know." (their voice begins to waver at the end, sage notes.)

"but you? you don't?"

mc tenses and he gently holds their hand in response, "hey, trust me, alright? i know what happens when you bottle things up for too long. you can talk to me."

and maybe he didn't realize how long they had been keeping it locked up because just those words seem to break them.

"i'm sorry," mc cries weakly. but all sage does is pull them into him, "don't do that. don't apologize for this."

"but i don't wanna worry you or the others," they say against his chest. "mc, i'm going to worry about you and whether you're alright either way. you know that. did you try anisa's cooking the other day?" sage smiles a little when they laugh and nod

he sways back and forth a little while pressing his face against the top of their head, "i just want you to rely on me. you can't...you can't take care of everyone all the time. that'll never be your responsibility. not if i can help it."

mc sniffles and he pulls away to brush away their tears, "you're just as important as the rest of us, so whenever you get tired just come to me, alright? i'll always be here for you."

anisa

sometimes anisa thought that mc was a saving grace

when she rolled her eyes at sage and felix's bickering, she couldn't help but smile when mc laughed. when she was stressed and tense from work, they'd offer a massage and bath with no hesitation. they would listen to her vent about annoying people, her fears and insecurities, whatever was on her mind. but she didn't fail to note how they never seemed to do the same

she decides to bring it up herself after a long day. they're laying in bed as she traces shapes on their skin when she softly asks "do you have anything to talk about?" "what do you mean?" "well, we always seem to have something going on, but you...you never complain. how are you holding up?"

she becomes a little concerned when they don't answer straight away but gives them time. mc sighs, "i'm alright. you said it yourself, we just have a lot to do. don't need to worry about me."

anisa frowns, "hey." mc looks up at her confused. "you worry about me all the time. if you're struggling with...anything, i want you to be able to come to me."

they smile a little at her worry, thankful that she's here but "really, anisa, it's nothing i'm not used to. actually, i'm pretty sure i've been having it easier than usual. back on earth i...i had a lot more people to take care of and coming to me, so, there's nothing here i can't manage."

"but even then, didn't you ever take some time for yourself or get angry or drained?" anisa asks. she thought it was a simple question, one that would lead to an "of course." but mc tenses and fidgets with their hands instead, their lips pursed.

"mc..." they don't immediately look up at her. it's only when they go to look up at the ceiling as they try to blink away tears that anisa notices what she's done. but a sound between a whimper and sob escapes them and she doesn't hesitate before pulling them against her, "it's okay, hey, it's alright. i'm here now."

"i'm just...so tired, anisa." "i know, baby," she holds and kisses their head, pulling their face into the crook of her neck. "you deserve a break."

"i can't take a break from anything, though. this isn't—this is just...my life. it always has been." anisa's heart wrenches at their words. she holds them tighter and shakes her head, "that's not fair to yourself. you can take a break from life when you want to. it'll still be there when you're ready for it."

"and i"—anisa lifts their head to gently wipe their tears away—"will be there every step of the way."

she continues, "can you promise me something though?" mc furrows their brows but nods slowly. "will you promise to tell me if you feel this way again? that when i ask how your day was, you won't hide from me? even if it's just saying you're tired instead of good."

mc wipes at their face but nods confidently this time. anisa smiles gently before pulling them into her chest again and planting a kiss on their head, "thank you. i think after i get you some water, it's time for us to take a nap."

rime

rime knows what it's like—being selfless to the point of your own destruction

that's why it was so easy for him to watch mc give up their time for the others over and over again, all while shutting themself inside the rest of the time to work. pushing and pushing and pushing, it seemed. it annoyed him. maybe an older version of him would have found it agitating because they seemed to have no flaws. but now he stared at them, frustrated because they never seemed to stop and care about themself

and mc notices his own change in attitude, despite it all. he sits on the foot of their bed and they ask "rime, are you alright?" his lip twitches, "i don't know, are you?"

"you've been quieter lately. tired?" mc takes a moment before responding, "i mean, yeah. but that's just because i want to focus and work hard."

rime only presses further, "your practice was hard today, wasn't it?" "mm, it was alright. i'm just a little sore." "and dinner? you got it for everyone even though the rest of your day was shitty? instead of asking someone else?"

he squints at mc's confused expression while standing to face them. they tilt their head, "what are you—i offered to do it. everyone was tired."

"why?" "what?" "why do you keep pushing yourself to do more when you don't need to?"

the both of them stand in silence while mc gapes. rime speaks quieter, "what? surely you've noticed by now, mc. even i have."

they continue stare before looking away and licking their lips, trying to think of what to say. "that's just what i do. what do you want me to say?" rime takes a step towards them, "i want you to say the truth."

"th—okay. i help people. i offer to help all the time because they need help and i care about them. and sometimes...it's tiring. i get drained but i do it anyways. okay?" "alright. let us help you then. that's fair, isn't it?"

mc can only manage to laugh a little in denial while they begin to tear up, "i don't need help, rime—" "yes you do. everyone needs help. and even if you didn't need it, you want it, don't you?"

he stares, but it isn't a hard or mean gaze. it's like he's looking into mc, and their mouth settles into a grim line

"you're tired, mc. more tired than you should be," he says. and he knows he's clicked in their head when tears finally begin to fall. he finally reaches them, wrapping his arms around them while they grip onto the back of his shirt. "i know it's hard...caring so much. you need to give yourself a break, sweetheart."

they shake their head against his chest, ever so stubborn, "no, no, i—rime, people need me—"

he cuts them off, "nobody needs you enough for you to break yourself like this. and i need you"—rime cups their face and makes them look at him—"to choose yourself for once. i'm not going to sit here and watch you fall apart."

his gaze softens even more as he wipes the tears from their face, "being kind is one of your strongest traits, angel. you need to be the same for yourself."

[merakireveries]

Harry Potter is TRASH! I HATE the filthy Romiones, disgusting Dramiones/Drarry, whiny Hinny and dirty Harmione shippers! Hope you all rot in hell!

Hello, there!! :D

I'm not sure if you're referring to the character of Harry Potter or the series as a whole. 😅 If you're talking about the latter, that's okay! You don't have to like the Harry Potter series- different strokes for different folks, y'know? Maybe fantasy ain't your thing. Perhaps you might like science fiction or realistic fiction, instead! (Btw, totally recommend Anne of Green Gables if you wanna branch out, hehe!)

But if you are talking about the former, I personally think Harry Potter is a great character and a kindhearted person. Some may think he got angry too often, but that's prolly cuz of all the stress that was put on him.

Now, it seems you're a little stressed yourself, darling. And that's okay!! As y'all know from my Welcoming Post on my page (shameless plug lololol), this is a safe space! So if you feel the need to vent some negative emotions, daz okay by me suga✨😙💛

Now I am part of the Harry Potter fandom, and yeh, I'm a Harmione shipper (guilty, she be.) And I understand that for you to be saying what you're saying, you must have had bad experiences with Harmione, Hinny, Romione, Drarry, and Dramione shippers. In lots of fandoms, there are toxic shippers who act really disrespectfully towards people who don't ship what they ship or think the way they do.

I'm sorry you must have gone through that. It's hard being part of a fandom with toxic waters and intense ship wars. From personal experience, this is what I learned:

1. I should find nice, respectful people to surround myself with.

And

2. I should be nice and respectful too so that other people can enjoy the fandom with me. Y'know?

That way, I can find and create little spaces in the fandom that are pleasant to be in. It makes things easier. Try to avoid places with toxic people and if you're feeling really upset due to the toxicity, try not to redirect it to other people. Otherwise, it just creates more conflict and hurt in the waters, y'know? And it just feels like this:

Not all shippers are mean people who deserve to rot for eternity. In fact, it's not very nice to be saying stuff like that regardless. Remember, I got 3 rulez:

1. Don't burn the place down, 2. Be respectful, and 3. Be nice

You seem to be havin' a hard time. And it's okay, baby- Mama's gotchu.

Just try to create them positive atmospheres, and you'll start Feelin' bettah! That's a promise. 💛

Thanks for being my second ask!!! This was wonderful, hehe! Now, kids, what did we learn? Yes. We learned this:

Have a nice day, everyone!!

😙✨💛💕💕💕🌻🌅

[sallertiafabrica]

💖, ✏️,🌙, 🌈(Tricky AU), 💋 (talk about your Tricky AU? I’ve seen a lot of your art but I haven’t been able to read the fic yet and I’m really curious about it!)

💖 What do you like most about your own writing?

Something I really like about my writing process (and creative work, in general) is how intuitive it is to me. It’s a bit hard to explain it, but it’s like– when I visualize a scene, I keep in mind the main “object” (doesn’t need to be something concrete) within it and just stream words onto paper related to it. It’s something that I was always able to do and that helped me a lot when I first started, it helps keeping the scene focused and makes them fun? In my opinion?

Like, an early example– there’s a scene in Trickster where Marinette’s ranting to Félix about Alya; it’s from before they consider each other anything more than classmates and Félix’s a new student, he has no fucking clue what she’s talking about but can put together she needs to vent. The scene object is “puzzle”. While Marinette is ranting in the dialogue section, the narration (Félix’s thoughts) is focused on the puzzle of what the hell is going on. And this is what makes the scene engaging, fun, and a good show of the character’s personality and mental state, imho.

Another examples: Symphony of Lights’ main objects throughout the whole fic is “music” and “lights” (pretty on the nose, I know, but by this point, I was already aware of my writing habits and went all out on them); Brandish the Needle object is a less concrete one, more of a warm vibe of relief and grainy film tape (for the flashbacks) I kept throughout the oneshot. (I could prolly keep going but I’ll stop here). And ye, I really like this about my writing, the way I can pick a tone/vibe/“object”/whatever and keep to it.

✏️ Do you write every day?

Sometimes I do get a creative rush that’ll give me energy to write for days on end — and when it happens, it can last a while — but although those are quite frequent, all things considered, for my mental health’s sake and to avoid frustration and burnout, I don’t hold those moments as my standard of productivity. Usually, when I start writing a piece, I can keep going till the end of it (and be done in a day, that’s why when I share a snippet of writing in the server I post the whole thing later in the same day, lol), but I might need a few days without writing after it.

🌙 What time of day do you prefer to write? Why?

Afternoon. It’s after my lunch, so I already had time to get ready for the day, the house is probably empty (which means quiet), and, as I mentioned above, when I start something, I keep going till it’s done, so I also have time left to write it all if I can.

🌈 + 💋 What inspired you to write Trickster + your freeform question

Already talked a bit about what inspired Tricky to Lynn’s ask, but to add to that (since there I only said what inspired the fox!Félix brain worms, I realized): Other saltfics with the “Félix joins Dupont in the middle of the Lila drama” premise. I had become obsessed with them for a while, and I thought it was a great way to introduce Félix’s character to an ML setting that already has an established dynamic + ready story threads to unravel (in short, I didn’t want to go through the trouble of starting from season 1 so I borrowed the usual Lila saltfic set up and went from there).

Fun fact: Trickster’s original premise was that Marinette would be the one to give Félix the Fox necklace when he showed himself to be a trustworthy friend and possible teammate, but I didn’t have the patience nor the skill for this longer set up, so I just went, “FUCK IT! She’ll just drop it and it’ll fall on Félix’s head” (note: it didn’t actually fall on Félix’s head). And funnily enough, the alternative I went with for the sake of getting into the good stuff already, turned out to be the better one for this story’s themes and the characters’ arcs.

I could talk about this fic for hours on end (and will if enabled), but basically, it’s a timeline where Lila turned everyone against Marinette so she’s already withdrawn at the start of the fic and incredibly stressed with Ladybug duties, and after a particularly draining fight, ends up losing the Fox Miraculous only for it to appear again three days later around the neck of an unfamiliar hero (“unfamiliar hero,” Sal says, knowing fully well who everyone associates them with).

[mai-the-crow]

tw vent kinda about people and how they talk about child abuse, lots of cursing namely the f-word

STOP PLAYING FUCKING ABUSE OLYMPICS ABUSE IS FUCKING ABUSE NO MATTER HOW FUCKING "GOOD" IT SEEMS COMPARED TO SOMEONE ELSE AND YOU CANNOT I REPEAT CANNOT COMPARE PEOPLE

maybe i'm a bit of a hypocrite, i know i'm sorry cuz i'm kinda comparing everyone's factors of abuse too but don't judge me yet pls

"sirius and harry were abused but still came out 'good' unlike snape" well do i have news for you, sirius attempted fucking murder and fucking sexually assaulted someone with the support of his friends while being the popular kid, harry isn't that bad but has very little empathy for others and he has the whole ww's support, while snape literally risked his life non-stop for ten fucking years alone spying for the light (which isn't always very light) while dealing with immense guilt and trauma. also no one reacts to abuse the fucking same and saying that they did is extremely detrimental to actual abuse survivors.

the byers had each other and their friends, jonathan and will had a strong mother that threw out their abusive father, as well as time to heal, while billy's mother fucking abandoned him with an abusive homophobic father and in three fucking seasons only three people cared about him in a healthy way, max, heather (who prolly had a crush on billy so idk), and el, and all of them are teenagers, and his abuse was ongoing.

like how much abuse, how many supportive and healthy relationships one had, what other fucking trauma they went through, how long they had to fucking recover, everything factors in and you can't just fucking say "other factors don't matter, only thing that does matter is the outcome"

i say this as an abuse survivor that got told my trauma didn't matter by other trauma survivors and to go crying to mommy and daddy because i wasn't reacting in the right way and i was too "young" to go through any real trauma (+ many other ugly things). it was so fucking painful for me and i doubted myself for a long time after that. i had a nightmare of them once (i was talking to a therapist and they were spying on me) and would go into depressive spirals while thinking of them. i also had panic attacks because of them.

maybe i'm overreacting, idk, but if you fucking do this, you can burn in hell until you see the errors of your ways lmao. you can say "i'm only doing it to fictional characters" well guess what? there's gonna be someone that copes with anger like snape and billy or isn't perfect and pristine like harry and they'll see that post and think of the "good" abuse survivors and how they must not matter compared to them because IT FUCKING HAPPENED TO ME. I SEE THESE POSTS AND THAT'S WHAT I THINK ABOUT. NOT EVERYONE CAN BOUNCE BACK AND CONTINUE THEIR LIVES FUCKING "NORMALLY". NOT EVERYONE REACTS THE SAME AND YOU CAN'T ALWAYS CONTROL HOW YOU REACT.

just fucking stop. please.

[thevoilinauttheory]

[ i’m not one to really give my opinions on games in my tumblr

but i was replaying through 5.3 (and some thoughts visiting 5.0 again) on maximiloix to get him caught up and g o d do i just have... a little bit to say (funny, really) but there’s spoilers, and i know a couple people who follow me who haven’t done it yet - so i’mma put it under the cut for anyone interested in my rambles ]

[ so. like.

first. still sobbing about 5.3 and its build up, and don’t think i’ll ever get over it, especially after doing it a second time. knowing what’s going to happen, i think made it almost worse - it made all those conversations make sense and its just. hhhhh i love it so much.

next. the solo instance where elidibus takes you through amaurot fighting the people from your past adventures, the people you’ve grown to care about and love. g o d when i did that the first time, i think i literally cried. my heart hurt so much and i just wanted to refuse to fight.

but there’s a reason why maximiloix is in a group in the wol!au i have... because. if it were just him going through, just him as the wol. that part wouldn’t have hurt him. he probably would’ve responded with something like “i’m flattered you think i care” or like “i don’t think you know me as well as you think you do” and then just slaughter them all anyways with zero hesitation (honestly, if it came down to it, he probably would only hesitate with alphinaud, alisaie, or ryne - they’re kids! they didn’t ask for this! but, uh. that’s just hesitation. maybe like thirty seconds later he’d go “aw fuck it”). maximiloix would make the worst wol if he were traveling on his own with no one to keep him in check. i just found that so funny to me.

if it were just him, he honestly prolly wouldn’t be a wol. he would’ve sided with the ascians hands down without hesitation. if it wasn’t before, then it definitely would’ve been with amaurot - he probably would’ve dropped his weapon and go “yeah, that makes sense”... and then leave it be. and if he didn’t, whatever semblance of a heart he has left would have gone out to them as he learned more... even more so when he would realize that elidibus was just a child at the heart of it all. (that part really fucked me up for a bit)

--- HOKAY. THIS CUT IS TO TELL YOU THERES SOME THOUGHTS I HAVE ON THE 5.0 DRAMA TRAIN, AND I JUST WANT TO WARN YOU SO YOU CAN SKIP IT AND SCROLL PAST REAL FAST ---

obvs really late to the party here, mostly because severe anxiety and i don’t like getting caught up in shit like this

so. i saw a lot of posts going around at the time of 5.0 talking about “i hate emet-selch so much why would i want to fucking remember you” or “nope just gonna forget it cause fuck you” - i can understand peoples’ dislikes of emet-selch, as like, a person (as a character, damn. that’s some good writing and you can’t deny that) - yeah, he’s a fascist. he’s an absolute dick. there’s no atoning for shit like that irl but.

its like. my first thought reading all of that was.

“do people have reading comprehension? like. at all?”

he wasn’t saying “remember me”, he was saying “remember us” , y’know. remember that there were people before you. remember that our people suffered greatly because you are our legacy. remember not to repeat the mistakes of the past. remember all of these people that gave their lives to give you yours.

“history is learned, not lived”

literally from the game itself. this whole game is littered with gems like that. absolutely full of relatable lines, whether they be comedic or serious. this game is filled with so much that can be applied to our own lives.

“to take action is to hope. to believe-- to choose to believe, is to take the first step towards a brighter future.” “but if i may give voice to a personal desire... i rather you lived.” “the time left to you is precious” “if it is folly to hope, i am content to die a fool” “but come, turn your gaze to the window, my friend. the rains have ceased and we have been graced with another beautiful day”

“remember us. remember that we once lived.”

and so many more!! even the lyrics of some of the songs are so beautifully written and full of raw emotion that at some point, we can resonate with them.

there’s a post going around... talking about how, as people, we are desperate to be remembered. we write in diaries, we keep receipts of complaints from customers when they diss you about your poor-quality copper, we make etchings on walls of the days passed and our heights as we grow, we leave behind memoirs of times lost to us. so many of us strive for greatness... because we want to be remembered. we want to be learned. we want to be heard. we want our names to be remembered, our stories and our voices... and none of us will see that in the end. sure. family will be there - your pictures will be hung for the next few decades... but after it all? no one’s going to remember who you were in fifty, eighty, a hundred, a thousand, a million years from now. so the best we can do is to preserve what we have. to immortalize the tiny pieces of ourselves. the shitty artwork you drew when you were five, the remains of torn books and libraries, dirty figurines, hell - even the stains left in the walls and carpets of your old home. we make time capsules for a reason. all of us, collectively, are screaming out: “i lived! remember me, please! i was here, i lived, i learned, i loved! i cried, i got embarrassed, i got angry - but i was here! please remember me - remember us!”

is that not the same of what he’s saying? he doesn’t care if you remember him specifically. (would it matter to him? maybe? he’s a fictional character y’all, i can’t speak for his writers) but the message isn’t to remember him and all the things he did in his life. it was to remember that they were people. they tried their best. they failed, but they tried. and they existed. they loved. they cried. they grew. they mourned. they made mistakes.

it really peeves- maybe not in a “makes me angry sense”, but kinda annoys- me, even now, that people would throw away such an amazing message... simply because a fictional character did bad things in a fictional world, or just didn’t like them, said it.  it really is a beautiful and terrifyingly sad message that people didn’t seem to get because they were focused on who said it. this is a sentiment everyone has shared, even if they didn’t know it. 

for me, it really spoke. shadowbringers is, and was, one of the best expansions, i’ll say it. not just for the story but for the overall message of it. it’s fantastic. and i really hope that the people who made those comments - they won’t read this, i don’t think - but... i hope the rest of the expansion after that moment gave them that realization.

sorry for that huge vent/rant y’all. i just, that had been burning in my head for so long now and i finally got the words to say it. if you read through it all, thank you! and please don’t spread negativity on this subject. if you want to say something negative, just move on, please. it’s not worth my nor your time. you can make your own post about it, just don’t leave it on mine.

but seriously, thank you for going through all this. and trust me, it may not matter now - but i’ll remember you. i will. i’ll remember the wonderful people here in the small ways i do. ]

[alexis-dot-com]

Miles Morales ramble, aka; play this game.

So I just got the Platinum Trophy in Spider-Man Miles Morales and I loved every second of it. The game’s an improvement over the original Spider-Man on PS4. Not a vast improvement, but it’s a better game thanks to a few quality of life features. Many of Peter’s upgrades in Spider-Man PS4 are automatically given to Miles on boot-up, so you’re thrown right into the action. You still feel a sense of progression with skill trees for things like Mile’s Venom abilities and other addition.

The side content is also improved compared to the first game and it flows a lot better because of this. The game still has pacing issues thanks to moments after main story missions when Miles says “I’d better check out on the city” and the next mission fails to unlock until you either finish a side-mission, or a minute-or-so has passed. Why the main story missions can’t just unlock after beating the previous one, I’ve no idea. It’s a shorter game because of the fat being cut but it’s ultimately a better game because of it.

Combat feels great thanks to the first game’s basic combat combined with Miles’ new Venom abilities and new gadgets. Essentially, Miles has access to five main Venom attacks, exclusive to him; a punch, throw, a jump, ground-pound, and late-game, you unlock a screen-clear. Stealth also works far better than the first game thanks to Miles’ invisibility, activated with Up on the D-pad. Miles can use it for around 20 seconds and can cancel it any time, but no matter how long it’s used, it’s got a roughly 30 second cool-down. The new gadgets include a Gravity Bomb that pulls in enemies ready for a hefty Venom attack, and a Shock Mine that can be amplified with certain objects in the environment.

The Trophies were pretty fun to unlock, with most of them being linked to main story missions, combat and side-missions. There are trophies for finishing enemies using Miles’ Venom attacks, his stealth options, and some stealth options, most of which will be unlocked through the course of general gameplay. The only ones I had to go back and grind for are ones connected to Ceiling and Wall Takedowns, both of which I had no idea existed until I beat the game and looked at the Trophy list. 

I really enjoyed the story a lot, too. The Tinkerer - a character that has appeared in Spider-Man stories in various forms since the 60′s - is the main threat but they’ve been modernised to better fit the Miles Morales’ universe. The character was used very briefly in Spider-Man Homecoming, but I much prefer this version of the character. I won’t spoil too much, but their character and abilities are super cool and I’d love to see more of this version of character, though it’s unlikely. 

It’s hard to talk about an Insomniac Spider-Man game without talking about the suits and this game delivers in spades. There are roughly 20 suits in the game, some better than others. I really like most of these suits, but there are a couple I can’t really get on with. The Classic Suit is Miles’ most iconic; black and red suit, and I adore it. The Uptown Pride suit is unlocked on beating all of the Friendly Neighbourhood Spider-App missions, and I highly recommend doing so as the ending is just lovely and very relevant to today’s climate. Another of note is the Spider-Verse suit, which unlocks a couple of enhancements that lower the frame-rate of Miles to better suit Into the Spider-verse’s almost stop-motion framerate, as well as adding visual flourishes like “bonk” and “pow” whenever Miles when he hits an enemy. Needless to say, I used all of these from the moment I unlocked them.

I also wanted to talk about representation because it’s important to me. Miles Morales has a ton of characters of colour, not just black characters but also Puerto Rican and Korean-American characters. In fact, if I remember correctly, all of the main characters in the game are of colour and it’s so cool to see when you look at 99% of the games releasing nowadays. Even side-characters that you see for less than a minute or so are of colour and the whole game really feels like a celebration of ethnicity. One character you see in multiple quests is a deaf, black artist called Hailey Cooper, who communicates with Miles using ASL, which is really sweet to see. Even if she’s only on screen for less than five minutes, she’s one of my absolute favourite characters.

I also just wanted to quickly touch on the PS5 additions which are few and far between, honestly. The Dualsense is Sony’s newest controller and it’s underutilised here. The only use of its resistive triggers is a slight bit of resistance, just before you fully push down the triggers. Rumble is also a little disappointing in that it’s not used to the extent of Astro. When Miles is crawling through air-vents you feel a slight, subtle vibration with each tap of his fingers on the metal, but other than that it’s fairly standard.

So after all of this, which was originally going to be a shit-post about how you should prolly check this game out, I gotta say, this game is incredible and I can’t recommend it enough.

[palbabor-writes]

11,23,26,30

Welcome back ♥️ 😘

11. Any moments, or scenes, that you could watch/read over and over again:

So, every leak night, like a freaking obsessed person, I re-read the manga. I start at chapter 270 and then keep re-reading until I hit the latest chapter, or the leaks start to release. 

It helps me to stay grounded in the moment. If that makes sense?? For me, I can appreciate the nuances and watch the build up happen at a gradual pace. It’s kinda like putting a book down for a week, finding it again, and then needing to remind myself of the plot and characters before I keep reading. 

And so, for now, imma say the War Arc, as distressing as it’s been, has been my most re-watched/read bit of BNHA. 

I’m ready for something else, Horikoshi plz, end this torture :((((  

23. Any moment that was a disappointment:

Honestly, the Overhaul Arc. I liked the development of Shigaraki & his growth and I liked all the questions that were asked by the adults (see: ROCK LOCK) at the table before the raid, but I dislike how it’s so self contained?

I feel like none of the characters, aside from the UA kids and teachers, really got to experience much development. Everything is very boxed up. It’s almost like it’s own little mini novel. 

26. What moment did you find the saddest? Or that hit you the hardest:

Chapters 235 - 237. 

That’s the Shigaraki back story reveal. I don’t know what I was expecting. We’d seen glimpses but seeing it all laid out & how much the unfortunate circumstances of his life broke him, yeah, that hurt.

Still does. 

I’m terrified that I’ll burst into tears when it’s animated. 

30. What is, if any, the biggest flaw you see in the series?

Ahaha. I loved you asked me this Lydia, but you’ll prolly regret it. I’ve always got a bone to pick with things. 

Saying that, I love this series. I like the characters, I like the depth, I like the vulnerability of the male mains, I would like to see more of the female characters, but it’s a shonen & I guess I get it. *not really. more female development plz & ty

But, I dislike the disconnect of violence. I don’t like that the heroes get to smash and bash and vent and feel, but when the villains do it it’s a big ol’ GASP, can you believe? All Might did wonderful things for society, but he also plays a big part in enabling all of this lackadaisical apathy we see in the work.

And that’s not limited to heroes. The everyday people seem positively gleeful at the carnage and aggression they get to watch played out on the streets. As much as I dislike Endeavor, it shouldn’t have taken a kid to say, hey, he’s freaking trying & he’s lowkey dying out there, have a little bit of faith?? Maybe try to help him, but don’t turn away from his husk of a body to look for the next best thing. 

These are the themes that I love in this work & I want to see so much more. I like the grey characters and I like that this whole thing starts with the quote: “Men are not created Equal.” However, I would like to see people learning to be badass, to help, to succeed, to be worth something, without their quirks. 

Izuku didn’t need OFA to be great, he already was. Mirio absolutely almost triumphed over Overhaul without his quirk. That is valuable and that is important. Ahem.

BNHA ask game

Below this cut are major spoilers. I discuss the some of the events that transpired in BNHA 293, so no touch if you don’t wanna see that.

 I AM SO PISSED AT THIS LATEST CHAPTER. OMG. 

You can live with out a quirk. You can thrive without a quirk. You are just as valuable WITHOUT A QUIRK. So the fact that Mirio asked a 7 year old, who’s only worry should be what color she is going to put in her coloring book next, to fix him, is not, imo: OK

I’m also bothered by the fact that Aizawa sat there and said, this is fine. You’re upset by children being used in this war, right?  

I don’t care if Eri thinks she’s been practicing for this: she is SEVEN. She is a child & I want her to get to be a child. She shouldn’t be leaned on for fixing your problems. It’s too similar to what Overhaul was doing and, at the end of the day, you’re using her for YOUR selfish benefit. 

Oh, and she is a civilian. 

She is not a hero. She is not enrolled to become one & I think everyone at that school would say she is too young to make that call right now. Hero society relies on civilians not taking action, not interfering. Society calls the MLA terrible & they are all technically classified as villains for using their quirks without a license. Why, why, why then, can you ask Eri to use hers?

In BNHA, using your quirk, outside of the bounds of the law, makes you someone who is acting on the WRONG side of the law. It doesn’t matter if it’s for the right cause, as we saw with the kids, waaaay back in the Stain arc

So. My question is, why do you get a pass Mirio? Why were you able to skirt the rules of society, when ppl like Tomura, Twice, Toga, or others, who feel that they are slipping through the cracks, who don’t conform to the rules, are held to a different standard? That’s an: It’s ok for me, but not for thee mentality & I am upset. 

If you made it this far, thank you for listening to my ramblings :3c it’s just a manga, i should likely chill the fuck out & i’m SORRY.