#i will never talk about this again

[hetalia-club]

Do you have any fun headcanons for the Italy brothers?

Sure I do.

But I don't talk about my headcanons, pairings, or character ideas anymore unless I'm in a mood for it.

The reason for that is I absolutely hate being asked my opinion on something and then someone wants to argue or tell me why I'm wrong. Even if I post a headcanon that's clearly meant as a joke or unserious I still get people telling me how I'm wrong and how I should think "XYZ" Instead.

Now you can say that's just engagement but I take it as antagonistic. I HATE it. Like I hate it so much. It's my least favorite thing. Especially when it's not like my thoughts are controversial, gross, heavy or sexual. I will simply say "I think this character does this" and all of sudden someone wants to argue with me about it. There is something very upsetting to be ASKED your thoughts on something and once you share people go. "Um actually no, because you should think this because I do and it's right" Sometimes I just want to scream "YOU ASKED ME!!!!!!! Not the other way around! I didn't give you unsolicited information. You came to me, asked a question and I answered it. And because I didn't parrot back what you wanted to hear you have to tell me it's incorrect". And that's EXACTLY it. I just put it into words. People don't want new, interesting, fun, unserious ideas here anymore. They just want everyone to parrot back what they think. Which is such a boring way to live. And I'm of course not saying I'm the only one doing fun/interesting things in teh fandom I'm not that conceited . I see it with other posts too. Someone shares an idea and there is always a few people in teh comments coming in with a counter argument it's like "MAKE YOUR OWN POST!"

Babes I've been in this fandom 10+ Years. I have enough headcanons, AUs, pairings, I have my own take on every single character in this fandom, I got enough character ideas to fill a book not even 1 book I could do a book series! I wrote a RusAme fan fiction that's over 400k words. I'm currently writing a RomanoxNyo!America fic that's over 100k words and well over 100 pages in Microsoft word. I don't even know how I'm going to end it yet. Don't believe me look...

As of right now my fan fic folders its at 182 fan fics and over 12mb. I'm not saying they're all amazing, award winning or even finished. There's a bunch in there I know are complete trash. But there's a few in there I'm real happy with and I would LOVE to share with the right people who enjoy my niche but I just can't bring myself to do it. I don't want to brag but there's a Romano one in there that if I changed the names I could probably get it published some place. I cried while writing it several times. It's so depressing even for my taste, and I would LOVE to share that because I know there's some people out there who would love it to and I know it. Even if it is really dark for a Hetalia fic. It's called 'Never Would I Ever" funnily enough because never would I ever post it, zing, lol.

Again I don't want to come off as bragging, because I'm not I've nothing to brag over but I have written some stuff I KNOW is good. And I'm not just saying it cuz I wrote it, because I've written some shit okay? I'm not afraid to admit that. I could open my folder and tell you through each 182 fics which ones are bad, terrible, readable, good and the couple that have no business being as good as they are. I have considered making an anonymous blog separate from this one and releasing a couple of my okay ones and just see what people think. But I would most likely never do that.

I never posted them because again I hate having my ideas shit on when it's just something I do for fun. In this 10 years I've learned not to share your ideas unless you want them picked at. I don't want something I do for fun to be met with "I don't like this idea" or "I don't think they would say that" or even "He wouldn't act that way". Some people enjoy others critiquing their work and Ideas, I do not. Which is why I keep it to myself.

Sorry to rant, that's been bottled up for awhile...

[chloesimaginationthings]

Five nights at Chiitan’s is the scariest game ever..

[shepscapades]

Contrary to popular belief etho and bdubs are not divorced and in this essay I will

[cthulhum]

does anyone realize how crazy it is to have the actor of a mostly headcanoned queer ship say the fans were never crazy and they were right all along after 10+ years of everyone just absolutely going nuts over the said queerbaited ship

[abstractfrog]

Happy 1 year anniversary to Mr Sherlock Holmes! Here's a litttleee celebratory comic from me

[morganbritton132]

Eddie, during a live-stream: Stevie, what’s the worst drug you’ve ever done?

Steve: *looks at the camera and then gives Eddie a look that clearly says ‘I’m not fucking answering that.’*

Steve: No, actually. I will answer. It was Adderall when I mixed up our medications on accident.

Eddie: Oh, yeah. I remember that. You felt normal.

Steve: Yeah, I was fine. Nothing happened.

Eddie, making eye contact with the camera: Yeah. And we chose not examine that any further.

[starry-bi-sky]

on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

multishipping

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Ooh, you want to know what happens at the gay bar run by ex-pirates, ooh...You'll just have to read Tiger Tiger to find out...

(Inspired by this Disco Elysium comic)

[milkteamoon]

t4t jmart is an especially funny flavor to me because I think if Martin discovered his boss was trans he would think it was really cool that he has something in common on a deeply personal level with the guy he wants to be respected by and if Jon found out his coworker was trans he would think that this is just another attempt of Martin trying to Show Him Up, personally

[egophiliac]

this is basically what happened, right?

(these guys are very lucky that everyone at NRC 1) has the combined intelligence of a sack of bricks, and 2) is easily distracted by shiny things.)

[unicornpopcorn14]

Chuuya's reaction to Dazai getting hurt during the Lovecraft fight has always been so interesting to me...

Because it's the kind of worry you'd never expect from a character as gruff as Chuuya, who had displayed nothing but hostility towards Dazai so far. Usually, characters that are labelled as "angry" or "anger issues" (which Chuuya is much more complex than that but you get my point) act more as a tsundere type of way when the one they "don't care about" gets hurt. And show their care in very, very subtle ways (ex. their eyes widen, their mouth parts and closes again, etc) before putting up their front once more.

Chuuya, however, is open, and vocal about it. His worry is clear not only to us, but to Dazai himself, the one he shouldn't be displaying the concern to (as per the cliche). Shouldn't it be some sort of secret that Chuuya does care? Isn't that what skk's dynamic has been shaping up to be until now?

I'm telling you- the way my mind blanked when Chuuya just casually.... showed concern not once, but twice, was a sight to see.

Besides, the context makes it much more confusing, because Dazai isn't some rookie, and Chuuya knows that more than anybody. He was the youngest executive in Port Mafia's history, of course he can handle a hit or two. Of course he'd seen him handle a hit or two, sometimes without batting an eye.

Heck, Chuuya himself was hurling Dazai like a ragdoll in their reunion, which was their last meeting. And you could argue that he was going easy on him, but Dazai has mostly withstood the same damage (as far as I could see), and Chuuya was as bitter as ever.

So that kind of contradicts both what we knew of Chuuya so far, and how their dynamic was shaped to be. I mean, that just makes Chuuya a hypocrite, yeah? What makes him care now, all of a sudden? What makes him care at all?

Well, to me, this backasswards reaction implies one (or more) of the following:

- Dazai rarely got physically hurt during their partnership and thus this is an unexpected thing for him to see (during a mission).

- The four years of separation made Chuuya unsure of how much Dazai can withstand physically now. Also the fact that he isn't in the mafia anymore, aka fighting enemy organizations on the weekly, would naturally make Dazai lose his touch in a way, what prompts Chuuya's reaction.

- Dazai getting taken off guard took him off guard which led to panic. Especially since the situation was (momentarily) out of their depth. Seriously wtf even was Lovecraft?

- During the dungeon scene Dazai was an enemy, while in the Lovecraft fight he was as an ally. The difference might be significant to Chuuya.

- This has always been Chuuya's reaction to Dazai getting hurt regardless of the situation.

- "Only I can hurt him like that" ahh logic

- Asagiri was still experimenting with their dynamic and thus there are some inconsistencies.

This scenario didn't play out again (after their reunion) for me to exactly determine which one is more plausible, but it is 100% canon for Chuuya to shamelessly show his concern and run to Dazai to check on him before properly dealing with their opponent, which I find to be such an appealing layer to their dynamic, and a good spin on the type of character he gets stereotyped as.

Bonus: Dazai also becomes a softy when Chuuya's hurt, especially post corruption. Dead Apple alone displays that multiple times.

All in all, Skk are doing a terrible job at maintaining their 'hostile' and 'antagonistic' relationship post their reunion. Freaks.

[thefloatingstone]

Appleseed PDA montage to save you from reading endless pages of unimportant politics that don't amount to anything

also because I have nothing better to do, I'm bored, I'm moody, my gaming laptop is still broken so no BG3, and it's too late at night to start drawing after doing animation clean-up all day.

[mixmangosmangoverse]

If you ever needed to know the extent of how the I/P conflict is fandomized, there is a popular post going around with a Sailor moon sticker saying Free Palestine and all the comments are talking about how it's their aesthetic and they totally need to buy it

Because this doesn't matter to them, it's just the cool hip and trendy thing

[st-hedge]

*wheezing and heaving* *shoves metal gear solid and nier automata into a blender* *slams the shitass smoothie into pint glass* *hysterically throws it back* i finished the line up. im at peace now

[slfcare]

the most difficult thing about growing as a person socially, as in getting out of your shell and noticing that you are, is that there will still be times when it doesn’t feel like you’ve grown at all! times when you can’t really connect with anyone around you, times when you fail to enter into an existing conversation, times when you say the wrong thing (or nothing at all when in hindsight you probably should’ve). but that’s also kind of the best thing, because that’s the thing that helps you realize that sometimes, it’s not you or your lack of skills or any shortcoming. sometimes certain environments just aren’t for you and certain people aren’t your people, and that’s okay. that’s human. it’s okay to not feel the progress you have made all the time.