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dariasonlinedairy · 27 days ago

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why is my hair so weird like.. when i wash it and let it air dry, curls form, but when i brush it, my locks turn into waves and after a day it gets straight

like when i was little i used to have curls and i want them back for sure since lots of people tell me that i look cuter with curls/waves 💔💔 pls tell me any tips that would be GREAT!!

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emberglowfox · 1 year ago

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closing time

#you know situation's dire when sparks breaks out the color block sona vent art LOOOOOOOL #sparks speaks #vent #again to all my new-ish followers i do post stuff like this from time 2 time PLEASE block one of those tags if you don't want to see it #long post #edit: fine to rb idgas #ummm NEway. i go back to college in like a month and the thought of it makes me want to curl up and die. idk if i can do it again tbh lol #i dont know how i survived the first time #<- LYING he does. and it was by letting the dissociation he is currently bitching about swallow him completely #if i really committed and tried i could probably claw my way out of this. but there's really no point when i'll just fall back into it soon #the forgetting my entire life does suck though. it does suck.#its really cool learning you've lost the only thing you thought you couldn't lose.#anyways. i'm fine im chillin i just. needed to get this out #if youre reading this preciate you. drink water

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gayeddieagenda · 2 months ago

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oliver wearing the sparks sweatshirt in press. my eddie and buck go to a sparks game agenda...it's literally all coming together. for ME

#BUCK U THINK U DON'T LIKE BASKETBALL. IT'S BC U AREN'T WATCHING WOMENS BASKETBALL #BUCK. TAKE MY HAND. WATCH THE SPARKS.#yes they WILL lose and yes u WILL have a good time #i suppose i am talking slight shit abt tommy but it's all in good fun #talking shit abt the lakers is NOT in good fun. i don't dislike them i just don't care at alllllll

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yuwuta · 4 days ago

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i wanna lock yuji up. how long do you think he'll let me keep him there?

remember when he stayed in the school basement for like. weeks on end just because gojo said he should and didn’t question it any further than that even tho he missed his friends and wondered what they were up to…. i think you could keep him there for a pretty long time before he even thought to complain

#anonymous #he’s so strange. my god #this sparked the thought that like. handcuffing him or tying him up is probably fun for him #and he’s like wait babe so am i supposed to pretend i can’t break through these or what. like is it a game do i lose if i do #all said with the enthusiasm of a puppy wagging its tail #and ur like ….. pretend…? you….. you mean u think u can get out of those ?#and he’s like well yeah. it’s just stainless steel but i don’t wanna break it if u bought it yk #slams head into a wall……..

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breezypunk · 9 days ago

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#tag: personal #I feel like I'm gonna part with this fandom this year #My hyper-fixation is finally coming to a halt with Cyberpunk #I hope it's just a small curve ball since I've been getting smashed by a brick with depression over the last month and a half #I've been dealing with 3 back to back losses I've been having a super hard time processing (one of them the most...)#those 3 individuals really changed me and I learned so many things from them and their way of going through life even when they struggled #and it fucking sucks having watched them get murdered in real time and seeing their bodies ugh (free palestine btw)#on top of that I've been hyper-fixating on Far Cry 5 and having a blast coming up with my new OC and her backstory #and just having fun playing other games and enjoying a fandom where (it's pretty much dead) but no drama #I feel like I'm kind of losing touch with my blorbos and I don't like that feeling and hopefully it'll come back buuuuuut who knows #I'm certainly not gonna force it... not anymore #I'll post VP when I feel like it not on a schedule anymore #I'll take VP when I'm in the mood and not force it #I'm still gonna mod cos I haven't lost that spark haha I still love modding but that's about all I'm gonna do everyday lmao #okie I'm done rambling <3 #gonna go stare at my favorite seed brother now :))

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iholli · 26 days ago

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I will never canonize angst in my BlitzRat bc I need them to be the most married couple of all time forever but that doesn't mean I don't lay awake sometimes with the devastating potential of "how RTE's story would be different if Bee had actually killed Blitz in BBM"

#unfortunately im not immune to angst #i would never ever do that to them BlitzRat is everything to me. but it's fun derogatory to think about #sometimes i enjoy suffering #rte who's a chaotic but not cruel scavenger turning to mercilessly hunting down one little bot #tearing his spark out with their teeth and losing their heart in the process #becoming completely estranged from everyone they've ever cared about #because they can't come back from that devastation #they felt it through the spark bond when he died and they'll never be the same #ough now im sad thinking about it. quick rat come up with happy thoughts #blitz having to remind rte to vent before they overheat bc they just fucking forget that sometimes. robot respiratory problems if you will #okay that's better. i can't do this shit with my own ships #there's enough depression in heart of mars and that has a happy ending smh #ratkingrambles #it's a rat room blitz!#i thought it so you all have to think it too. bye

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itspileofgoodthings · 28 days ago

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also on a related/unrelated note the older I get the more those not-fun-not-clever-merely-sensible takes on romance make sense to me.

#I am such a believer. can’t even explain it. in the power of the transforming power of love #and the unexpected romance of LIFE #and yet also those drier takes about needing to have things in common/sharing the same values not just religiously but also culturally #just makes more sense #I don’t want to lose the romance though 😭 or my belief in it #but yeah #I don’t even know what I’m saying exactly #but like. context #availability. physical presence. opportunities. the worlds you move in being the same matters more and I can SEE that it matters more #than just all the beautiful potential of personalities sparking off each other #that means almost nothing if the rest is not there #not QUITE nothing. but for practical purposes. almost nothing #lol this doesn’t make sense #sorry I am just thinking aloud!

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wherenymphsroam · 4 months ago

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can we . stop making commenting on people’s weights. like just in general please

#because why is the first thing you say to me is ‘you lost weight!!!!’#like oh lol woaw I totally didn’t notice thanks #like idk its backhanded but not at the same time you know?#because why are you assuming my weight loss is good? why do you assume it’s something to celebrate?#what if I wasn’t intendending on losing weight? comments like this can so easily spark repressed disordered mindsets in people #like it makes me sound like a whiny sensitive bitch but this shit fucked me Up lol #fuck you I was just as pretty and funny and cool thirty pounds ago #and fuck you for acting like it’s sooooo much better I got rid of it #delete later #lol #sorry Im actually tweaking so bad #I’ve been tweaking silently all of today and that one comment just . god it fucked me upp lolllll #couldn’t stop thinking abt it um!#anyways whatever if you read this far into my nonsensical mumblings I love you and hope you’re kind to yourself #tw disordered thoughts #tw ed

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a-quiet-autumn · 1 month ago

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i keep having the issue with the sims where i really enjoy a new sims style so then i start making over/making a ton of sims in that style and then start hating it and repeating that process over and over

#it is what it is tho. i like all my styles they just lose their spark after a bit ig?#ts4 #sims

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bookshelf-in-progress · 4 months ago

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I'm approaching the most terrifying part of the Exciting New Story Idea process: Writing it down.

#adventures in writing #maybe the best thing my inklings challenge experiences have taught me is that there are always more ideas #i don't have to pick one favorite story and then beat my head against it until i run out of time and pick something else in sheer panic #my favorite idea has reached the beating my head against it stage #once i started considering a fourth draft of the opening i recognized that i had entered the danger zone #which means it's time to step away and try something else #rather than wasting another week and a half at it #i can clear my head with a more straightforward idea #and then hopefully i'll be able to see a clear path with the original idea #instead of drowning in alternate possibilities #i do have a new idea that i love #but as per the above i worry it will lose all the magic the moment i try to jot down notes about it #my idea document was full of ideas that i loved at one point #but true to form when looking for an alternate idea i used none of them #and instead came up with a story sparked by the picture that happened to be the computer background at work #(though i did start by combining that picture with my idea for a story about someone trying to preserve the culture of a fallen/exiled land #(i just shifted it to a landscape i liked better than the antarctic ice land)#(and then as i added on more details the story shifted and has some nice layers to it)#(i've got a character type i've never written before so this could be fun if i can make it work)

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seaoftales · 7 months ago

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#// depression and anxiety and adhd and being on the spectrum is so much fun #// because right now not only do i feel like a shitty person but like a shitty rp partner as well #// and like i'm alienated from the whole fandom #// the little social outcast from highschool everybody bullies and those are not fun memories #// because there's people having such wonderful things going and conversations and all and i want that too but social anxiety is a bitch #// and i know that there's nobody out to get me or has anything against me but my mind's just in the gutter #// not to mention that it feels like everything i write is so damn out of character and that peoiple lose interest because of it #// which is why i've been taking a break from tumblr with the occasional attempt to spark the muse but nothing works #// and i don't know what to do anymore #𝐫𝐡𝐞𝐚'𝐬 𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 ― out of character

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kazuluvr · 20 hours ago

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also!! s/i ideas.. i think electro polearm or catalyst and she's from liyue and grew up there as a kid, which is where she learned to dance

#i think the reason she goes to natlan is gonna be bc her father was from natlan but died when she was young #and after her mother passes away unexpectedly she decides to travel to natlan and reconnect with her father in some way #i think her true passion would be dancing and she's always been drawn to the stars/the idea of flying #spends a lot of time stargazing in liyue #but as she gets older she can't afford to dance and has to work multiple jobs to help support her mom #i'm thinking she works at wanmin restaurant bc i am so endeared by her being childhood friends w the trio #but anyway #and she's losing her passion and spark #and when her mother dies she's driven to go to liyue (pretty young i'm thinking early teens?)#and then along the journey is when she gets her electro vision #and she meets mualani and they become besties #and through mualani she meets kini #who's initially pretty distrusting of her given that she's an outsider and this is well before the traveler arrives and the war ends #but they become close friends #idk i might change all of this LMAO #just putting my thoughts down for now #⟡ rambles

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bunnyboy-juice · 20 days ago

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kink rating: size, piss, pet play

OOH!!! YAY!!!!!

• so i dont really know Which size kinks ur referring to but in general fuck yes. whether its literal size differences in height or weight or comparing dick/clit size i love that i almost always lose my wife does make fun of me for this a lot and its Soo hot or size queen shit (cavernous pussy and big dicks my beloveds) or micro stuff (shallow pussy and tiny dicks my beloveds) - i just. really like the differences ahfkfjsjflfjs i love using complimentary size comparisons as a way to come onto people in general c:

• piss is THEEEE original kink for me. before i was even old enough to know WHAT kink was ive always had a fascination with fluids and especially piss and i honest to gd thought Everyone was into it like that until i opened my mouth and realized it's like... definitely common but not as ubiquitous as i think or even in the same ways i do (piss as a tool for other purposes is fantastic too dont get me wrong - i also just love piss in and of itself c: )

• petplay is another REALLY good one for me - i Love being a rabbit and all the play aspects, but I do get hesitant when people try to vy for ownership for me bc in general dynamics are like. very serious to me (on the level of like a Commitment tbh - not a Romantic Relationship but like. we need to be more than casual friends for me to feel comfortable giving or receiving power on the level of ownership) so i interact with other pets often in a playdate or "look at the puppy!!!" way and prefer those who dont own me mostly treat me the way you'd treat your friend's pets where like. you can love them and kiss them and snuggle them and taunt them etc but you wouldnt say you Owned them (Unless an agreement was made first! except ofc that agreement is made with me (unless you are specifically playing with both my wife and i, in which case its her decision 😵‍💫 ahdjfks))

#kink dynamics hold such a special place in my heart #tbh part of why i wont do certain ones anymore is bc i Did them already and the pain was so great of losing those dynamics i literally dont #think i could mentally handle it again (and not all of those were romantic a solid chunk were actually jus friendship based that evolved #over time) and if i meet ppl one day who spark that desire in me again im sometimes open to it but like. yeah. 🤪 sorry to be vulnerable lol #bunny binks #also the size thing isnt just in a bottom way even if i “flirt like a bottom”#i will keysmash to my heart's content and then make you wail in my mouth or on my fingers or over my dick okay? cool < 3

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barefootbaltimore · 2 months ago

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I have such a weird relationship with religion and faith as a concept. Like I dont believe, and a lot of common beliefs I honestly think are kinda silly but I go absolutely feral for religious imagery and stories.

#me every Christmas listening to Little Drummer Boy and Mary Did You Know bc what a fucking story #or crying while reading so many creatiom stories #or juat absolutely losing it when a character *believes* so deeply that it oozes into every part of their life and gives them strength #man ppl think atheists tend to hate religion but i think the entire concept of that level of belief is so beautiful #just because its not for me doesnt mean i dont appreciate it #i see ppl talk about different religious traditions and im just shaken to my core by the love and humanity of it all #and no im not just talking about Christianity but a Christian movie is what sparked this post #also its almost Christmas so like i do partake in some religious traditions too

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thenwethrowitonthefire · 10 months ago

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Shout-out to everyone who survived a "fun" easter with the family

#fucking hell #it started with finding out my dad smoked in my car when I picked up my sister #who was equally dreading the day #my mum turns into the world's tensest and judgemental presence. worsened by my aunt #then hell for autistic people (of which there are multiple present)#multiple deaf people means one uninspired conversation that isn't interesting in any way.#combinations of passive aggressiveness and people not saying a thing because they can't participate. voice volumes too damn high #weirdass food situations. Very full table. so many smells.#this goes on for over an hour. wishing for literally anything but being there. soul crushing.#then you still have to sit in that room for 2.5 hours. it just goes on and on.#my autistic deaf dad physically looks like how I feel. my mum and aunt keep piling on top of him to demand his mental presence #i leave the room once (to get my phone to show pictures to my uncle) and am immediately followed upstairs by my mum #who demands I don't leave the room (What's next. following me when I need the toilet?)#me and my sister are so bored we start throwing paper planes and fake fighting.#Which amuses the bored and the deaf #but of course my mum and aunt have opinions and this is not allowed. only soul crushing boredom allowed #they complain to each other over it while aggressively doing dishes #finally it ends because my mum and aunt start insisting my dad should go to bed if he's 'that tired'. *sprinkle on some additional ableism*#still sitting through a conversation about allergies one of my sister's friends has. my mum preaching that people should take that seriously #(meanwhile i had to cook for myself for 9 years because when my allergies were really bad no one bothered to check if i could eat something)#me and my sister go sit upstairs to discover our mum has made things we care about vanish in her room #and made things appear that should not be there #I've washed the interior of my car and hope the smell will go #you think it's over after that. but woke up with the realisation that even more things have disappeared from my sister's room.#i can't remember a time when things left outside of my room didn't disappear #I don't know why we do these family gatherings at all. no one has fun on days like that.#the housing crisis isn't making these things easy. my sister is losing her place to live again as well #she'll go hiking for a month and then work on a campsite over the summer #maybe I'll go house sitting again. idk.#can't make commitments a few months in advance like that because I'll cancel everything the second Sparks announces anything important

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primus-why · 3 months ago

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#i ran out of tags on my last reblog.#but yeah basically i wish the high guard leaned more into that toxic masculinity that they had going on #you know the type of masculinity where guys egg each other on to be more an more aggressive/violent/strong etc #the type of masculinity where... when asked ''how did it get like this? why did you and your friends take it so far?'' the guy doesn't know.#they get swept up in. let megs get swept up in this shield of strength and power which makes him feel (in the moment) not helpless.#but it goes too far. he does things he can't take back. his best friend is horrified by him-- doesn't ACCEPT him anymore.#he and Orion argue and instead of defending Sentinel Orion defends a random cronie and gets shot.#cue that moment of regret. except in this case he wouldn't catch Orion and go ''why... i'm done saving you.''#instead he'd go ''why...'' notice the cronie is trying to flee and Orion begs him to not become the monster Sentinel was.#but Megs takes offense to that. is he for real?? ''I am nothing like Sentinel. and I thought you of all people would know that...''#''... I'm the only one strong enough to fix things. It's what's best for everyone.'' ''D... no...'' ''Sorry Orion. Cybertron needs me.''#*drops him to shoot the cronie trying to escape*#Orion is so hurt. his sense of jutice is wounded but so is his spark. he dies and comes back as prime. and megs isn't happy to see him.#Starscream stands behind him emboldens Megs. the High Guard refuses to bow to another Prime. Megs now stands firmly in opposition to Optimus #this is because Starscream sees Megs as strong but easily manipulated. he thinks with him at the helm that he'll have a shield #while he basically runs the HG behind the scenes #Optimus and Megs fight. Megs loses. all his blustering about being the savior of Cybertron is thrown back in his face #it's embarrassing. he feels helpless. he never wanted to feel helpless again.#instead of banishment Megs shoves Optimus' outstretched hand aside-- he KNOWS he is in the RIGHT.#and just UGHHH THE HIGH GUARD CREATING THEIR OWN MONSTER BY SPURRING HIM ON!#no one is able to help Megs regulate his emotions he just feels bad and his new friends tell him to punch someone about it! it's not healthy #I WIIIISH I COULD LIKE IT MORE

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