#tag: personal

[kirkwall-age]

exploring Origins Toolset (a gift that keeps on giving) and the V.A. directions for Arl Howe are FASCINATING. he has a secondary thought appended to every line of dialogue during the opening scene of Human Noble Origin -- and the insight into his psyche is somehow even more fucked-up than I thought

Bryce: I'm sorry pup; I didn't see you there. Howe, you remember my daughter? Howe: I see she's become a lovely young woman. Pleased to see you again, my dear.

Friendly, but hollow. "Here's the necessary exchange of pleasantries nobles must go through. I'm kind of preoccuppied with making sure your father is on track for my secret plan."

Cousland: Is your family here, Arl Howe? Howe: Oh no, I left them in Amaranthine, well away from the fighting in the south. They do send their best wishes.

Distracted. "I left them well out of harm's way. Though I don't want you to know harm is coming."

Howe: My son Thomas asked after you. Perhaps I should bring him with me next time.

Gauging the player's reaction. "My son wants to marry you. I don't approve, but mentioning it may get you to trust me."

Cousland (version 1): To what end? Howe: Ha! "To what end", she says! So glib, too. She's just like her mother when she talks like that.

Friendly, slightly menacing undertone. "You don't fool me, girl. You're playing dumb, but you're smarter than your reply suggests. I won't underestimate anyone in your family."

Cousland (version 2): ...Thomas is a few years younger than I am. Howe: As you get older, those years make less difference. A lesson often hard won.

Elsewhere. "It doesn't matter how old you are. You won't be getting any older."

THIS IS CRAZY. THIS IS A CRAZY THING TO SAY. OR THINK SECRETLY AS YOU'RE EXCHANGING PLEASANTRIES

[breezypunk]

Holy crap this storm is hitting now! multiple tornado warnings and multiple have touched the ground in my area, I have NEVER seen clouds moving so fast in my life. The aspiring meteorologist in me is excited af, but it's also super freaky.

[lenakluthor]

y’all remember that friend i was constantly complaining about? well, i finally realized she has always been manipulative af and treated me exactly like my mother would constantly. stood my ground. finally. she didn’t like that. so now i’m FREE

[saszor]

Overview of some topics when it comes to drawing characters who are burn survivors.

DISCLAIMER. Please keep in mind that this is an introductory overview for drawing some burn scars and has a lot of generalizations in it, so not every “X is Z” statement will be true for Actual People. I'm calling this introductory because I hope to get people to actually do their own research before drawing disabled & visibly different characters rather than just making stuff up. Think of it as a starting point and take it with a grain of salt (especially if you have a very different art style from mine).

Talking about research and learning... don't make your burn survivor characters evil. Burn survivors are normal people and don't deserve to be constantly portrayed in such a way.

Consider supporting me on ko-fi if you find this to be helpful.

edit: apparently tum "queerest place on the internet" blr hates disabled people so much that this post got automatically filtered. cool!

second way more important edit: How are people seeing this post where I specifically talk about burn survivors being normal, real people, and still tag this as "TW body horror"? Not a single one of these drawings or pictures is a fresh injury. All of them are healed. How the hell would you feel if someone tagged a photo of you as "trigger warning: gore"?

Disabled people are not your fucking body horror. Grow up.

[evidently-endless]

i think we should remind musicians they can absolutely make up little stories for their songs btw. it doesn’t have to be about them at all. you can invent a guy and put him in situations to music. time honoured tradition in fact.

[johannesviii]

Repaired my fave jacket, got emotional, drew something about it

[lastoneout]

Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

Edit: If everyone could please take a minute and think about what it must feel like to be struggling and then have multiple strangers say to your face that they find the prospect of going through what you're going through so horrifying that they'd rather kill themselves and then stop leaving comments like that I would greatly appreciate it.

[secondbeatsongs]

somehow instead of saying "as a treat", I've started using the phrase "for morale", as if my body is a ship and its crew, and I (the captain) have to keep us in high spirits, lest we suffer a mutiny in the coming days.

and so I will eat this small block of fancy cheese, for morale. I will take a break and drink some tea, for morale. I will pick up that weird bug, for morale.

I'm not sure if it helps, but it does entertain me

[miitarion]

all drawings i did in this style in past several months

was there one which you liked and if yes - which one and why?

[kirkwall-age]

the recent promo shots for The Veilguard have reminded me of this piece of "fanart" i drew 9+ years ago of Solas

i'm not a very good artist, and this is not a very good picture

but! ☝️

it's the only piece of fanart i ever got ✨~hatemail~✨ for the reason for it being: because i drew his eyebrows too thick. 🙃 anon thought it was nefarious and my gross ungrateful attempt to over-masculinize Solas and that i was unable to appreciate him as he is

A. funny as fuck to think this had a purpose besides me not being very good at drawing

and B.

i actually think i win 🤔

[pixelephant]

[kirkwall-age]

exploring the toolset further, and it also has dossiers for every character in-game. and i mean. Every. Character.

definite highlights for me personally:

Jowan (BTS):

hello??? Devs, creating Jowan: Cringe. Dripless. Negative rizz. 😔

Taking Loghain to Broken Circle was initially possible:

His nightmare was 12yo Cailan, and I would pay money to see that scene. 👀

King Endrin & Trian

Okay. Informative. Factual. But did you have to put it like that?

Arl Howe's initial first name:

yeah, I can't imagine why they changed THAT...

Whatever this is (found in ambient Dalish Origin files):

asdfsdf to you as well, bestie. gesundheit

Riordan's VO directions:

"women want me, darkspawn fear me." or something

And my FAVORITE by far:

"To be the best pest he can be"!!!! 🥺

I'm sorry, Mr. Rat! I'm sorry it was my tutorial quest to kill you! 😭

[breezypunk]

I'm genuinely so sad, I have a lot of anger built up inside of me that I'm trying not to let explode all over the place. But it's difficult, while I was initially shocked, I'm not surprised at all, the world is not ready for a strong black woman to run this country and it fucking showed and it's awful, your racism and pure misogyny was put on full blast yesterday and today and to be quite honest, since Trump even came into the political view. Now we get a sexual abuser, we get a felon for president while felons had their voting rights taken away from them, how the hell does that even make sense? These next four years are gonna be one hell of a roller coaster ride, but I believe in a revolution, we'll prevail, I feel it, we have to.

[lenakluthor]

me, literally yesterday: yeah so now my biggest problem is getting myself to start tasks and my therapist suggested maybe i talk to my psychiatrist about adderall

my mother, today: *holding up an overdue bill* this is what you need to talk to your therapist about! you procrastinate everything!

[clownboybebop]

if you’re ever in the position to choose between giving up and accepting defeat, and actually trying to fight the ancient unkillable god that is about to peel apart reality like a string cheese, remember this: scientifically speaking, you might as well give it a shot!

1.there were trees at the beginning of the world! there were trees so long ago that they predate bacteria that causes wood to decay. when a tree fell, it would lie there in stasis and there wasn’t any way of breaking down wood xylem on a molecular level in that way.

2. it seems obvious to say, but wood eating bacteria are literally incapable of comprehending what they’re breaking down. It’s just not information conciously available to a microorganism. they don’t know what they’re deconstructing, where it came from, bacteria have no way to even fathom the existence of a tree as a concept.

3. Regardless of the facts above, the world we live in today is a world where wood inevitably decomposes

it is worth fighting the unkillable god no matter how pointless it seems. it is worth taking the risk even though youre trying to accomplish something impossible. the reality in which you live was also once reality in which trees didn’t rot. You live in a reality that allows for existence before the possibility of destruction. you live in a reality where uncomprehending microbes break down matter that is so far beyond the scope of their comprehension that it feels comical to specify something so obvious. you live in a reality that occasionally allows unshakeable physical truths to be altered with no warning.

It is worth fighting the unkillable god because trees are so old they predate the source of their destruction, and it still did not spare them. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because bacteria rots unthinkingly, because there is room in our cosmos for destruction without comprehension on the part of the destroyer. It is worth fighting the unkillable god because now and then reality retracts the promise of immortality without fanfare, and when that happens there is no mercy for the ancient. the unmaking is not softer for the desecrators ignorance. for all things, existence is endless until the exact point where it ends.

so you might as well try to kill the unkillable god. it doesn’t seem likely, but at the beginning of the world, trees didn’t rot. so you never know! you never know

[shorelinnes]

BDS added this section to their boycott page and I think people really need to read it:

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please remember, pushing unorganized boycotts without carefully fact-checking every company in the list can be actively HARMFUL to the boycott movement.