#i will literally never recover
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so idk if we’re getting a bard’s lament this season, but regardless of if we are or not i NEED to talk about my most favorite dynamic ever so i can get this convo back out into the universe before a bard’s lament happens because it makes me unwell.
vex and scanlan are, in many ways, the same. they’re deeply insecure, sad people that put on masks to hide it. they’re good liars. so that’s what they do. they stand in front of each other and they lie. and it’s not hard for them to know the other is lying. i mean vex LITERALLY SEES THROUGH HIS DISGUISE EVENTUALLY LIKE ARE YOU KIDDING?
and like, vex is snippy and she can be a bit of a shit and she says scanlan is just some guy without his magic. but he’s also the person she looks up to. she literally travels across the whole continent by herself to make sure his daughter can get to him and she sends kaylie back to him even though she’s distraught and terrified and alone. she’s the one person who actually gets through to him during a bard’s lament and she gets through to him by telling him to stop viewing his daughter as a sacred object. to fix his relationship with her. AND HE LISTENS. like again she is the ONLY person in that room who gets through to him and it’s because she implores him to fix his relationship with his daughter after he cruelly remarks that they went to the fey realm to “fix her daddy issues.”
and scanlan! he teases her and he deflects his seriousness around her with humor as much as he does to anyone. but he teaches vex how to use the broom and he gives her the hat to wear. and he ensures her success when he turns her into a dragon and directly tells a god that she’s mean and greedy and the most perfect one of all of them.
scanlan is a father with a fractured relationship with his daughter and vex is a daughter desperate for her father’s approval.
scanlan is not vex’s father. but when scanlan comes back she does everything she can to try and make sure he won’t leave again despite the way he hurt her.
vex is not scanlan’s daughter. but he walks her down the aisle and makes sure she can see her brother at her wedding and he’s happy to be like her father for a day.
scanlan is NOT vex’s father and vex is NOT scanlan’s daughter but really, aren’t they made of the same stuff?
#critical role#campaign 1#cr1#scanlan shorthalt#vex'ahlia#vex’ahlia de rolo#platonic soulmates#in the most pure sense of the word#i actually can’t express how ill they make me#i will literally never recover#they are the duo of all time#save me weird kinda paternal but deeply emo relatonship#vox machina#the legend of vox machina#tlovm season 3
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The Binding - Bridget Collins
#this book has destroyed me#I will literally never recover#it’s so so good if you haven’t read it pls do!!#the binding#lucian darnay#Emmett farmer#Bridget Collins#Itsthemxze
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I still am a Charles hater, but when he said "Christopher is dead? Little Kit?" it broke me
#he was such a constant presence in the Fairchild house#and ch*rles sounded so broken#i will literally never recover#chot spoilers#tlh spoilers#tlh#the last hours#chain of thorns#charles fairchild#christopher lightwood#personal post
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I’m sorry but “one flesh, one end, bitch”???????Alsndjkdndkens I will NEVER recover from this
#gideon the ninth#I finally understand enemies to lovers#I will literally never recover#cannot breathe#gideon x harrow#griddlehark
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elementary school me 🤝 high school me searching the thinspo tag on tumblr after relapsing to feel something
#thin$po#tw ed rant#tw ana shit#an0rec1a#tw ed relapse#tw ed but not sheeran#i never learn#my life is a circle#i will literally never recover#year 7#super fun#tw ed descussion
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thinking about brokeback mountain again
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Tonight I learned that my 20 yr old partner has never played chess and doesn't know how to play chess. This is mind boggling to me. They claim its not weird for people to not know anything about chess so I. I need to see. Please.
Okay so, I made a mistake in not elaborating the meaning of the options. You do not have to be good or know what you are doing in the slightest to pick that you have played before. The middle three options are for your understanding of the game having never played it at all. The reason there's a percentage on the last option is because my partner made a tumblr so they could pick it because they think they are hilarious.
#crab says words#chess#tumblr polls#i learned how to play in elementary school and so did all my siblings#i use to play chess with random people constantly in highschool#im really bad at chess but its still fun to play ya know#i just am so shocked they literally knew nothing other than “the horses can move in an L shape”#i taught them how to play and made then play with me so dont worry i fixed the situation 😌#pls reblog this 🥺#i take it back!! my notifications will never recover!!! pls stop reblogging this!!!!!!
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So I finished orv
#omniscient reader's viewpoint#omniscent reader#kim dokja#orv#orv fanart#Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint fanart#My art#Drawing#Sketch#And uh I was fully expecting it to be the most tragic and depressing thing that I'd never recover from but?? It ended on a positive note???#That's NOT the impression I was getting from the fandom 😭#I mean it was indeed the most tragic and depressing thing I read but the last chapter healed me idc#Like the ending literally depends on us readers 🤨 so I choose to believe everything is great and they live in a big house together#But yeah IT WAS SO GOOD IT'S CRAZYYYY I can't recommend it enough and I am forever changed#Don't be scared read orv guys.........
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ELSA ELSA ARE YOU KIDDING ME
I know i already screamed at you while reading but….
IM DEAD ON THE FLOOR!
THIS IS THE MOST ROMANTIC PERFECT ETHAN AND KAYCEE FIC I HAVE EVER READ
HIS GRANDMAS RING!? ALAN CRYING!?
THIS PART
RIP ME.
As Planned
Back in December, I posted This Christmas, when Ethan spontaneously (and ringlessly) proposed to Kaycee while shopping for a Christmas tree. Now, I HC that the ring isn't terribly important to either of them... and with their busy lives, it's not at the top of their to-do list. But after an engagement photo shoot without the "real" ring (Picture This), and Kaycee's mom expressing her concern (Patience), it begins to bother Ethan.
This fic begins as Ethan and Kaycee are in NY, preparing to attend his med school buddy Reynaldo's wedding. As they're getting ready, they learn Kaycee's first boyfriend, Tomas, and his girlfriend, Alessandra, have gotten married. Then Ethan's plan goes into motion. I hope you enjoy this!
Book: Open Heart (Post Series)
Pairing: Ethan Ramsey x F!MC (Kaycee MacClennan)
Rating: Teen
Words: 2,170
Summary: Above
A/N: Participating in @choicesjunechallenge Proposal
Kaycee put her phone down, a silly, delightful grin spreading on her cheeks. A glance at the clock confirmed she was running ahead of schedule, so she could allow herself time to appreciate this moment. Moving to the hotel suite’s window, she drew back the ornate drapes and peered down at the busy city below. The irony was just delicious.
Tomas, her dear friend and first true love, was married, and she found herself in the city where their love story had taken place. No more than ten blocks from the campus, where they met, fell in love, and spent three years dreaming of the beautiful future they hoped to create until the day they painfully accepted that it wasn’t going to be. She was within walking distance of his old apartment, where they shared their last goodbye as lovers, not knowing what the future would hold. If she thought about it long enough, she was sure she could still recall the pain. The hollow ache in her chest that never seemed to heal. How it crept up each time she tried to fall in love again, a reminder of the pain that was just waiting on the other side of this new, beautiful thing. It sabotaged her more than once, of that she was sure… until, one day, it didn’t.
Ethan was different from the start, and for the longest time, she didn’t understand why. With all the obstacles they faced and all the mountains they had to climb, she never hesitated. Even knowing the hole in her heart could widen enough to engulf her if she lost him, she persevered. And now, as her fiance dressed in the next room, she knew why. In Ethan, she found her home, the place she was always meant to be. As dusk began to fall, the city Kaycee loved so well became illuminated by a million glistening lights, and she smiled. Tomas had found his forever love, Kaycee found hers, and their friendship was as strong as ever. Perhaps this is what it feels like when the puzzle pieces fall in place, and everything works according to plan.
She was making her way back to the vanity; after all, she had a wedding to get to when Ethan entered the room, looking more serious than she would have expected, given the occasion.
“I’m almost done,” she smiled, running a brush through her long, blonde hair. “I promised you I won’t make us late this time.”
“It’s fine,” Ethan smiled softly. “To be honest, I thought you were already done. You look… you’re breathtaking.”
Kaycee blushed and tilted her head in his direction. “So you approve of the retro hair?” she grinned. “I wanted to try something different, and since I’m wearing a vintage dress….”
“It’s beautiful. Timeless… just like you.”
Her skin all but tingled when he leaned over and placed a tender kiss on the crook of her neck.
“Now, Ethan, I’m not done with my makeup, and if you keep that up….”
“No,” he said, walking to a nearby settee. “Come, sit with me.”
Her brow furrowed, concern growing. “Is everything OK?”
“Yes,” he assured as she sat on his lap. “Have you seen Instagram?”
“You mean Tomas? I have! Isn’t that wonderful news? I’m so happy for them!”
“Are you?” Ethan asked. “I know you’re good friends, but he carried a torch for you for a long time.”
She brushed off the notion with a shake of her head.
“Held. Past tense. From the day he met Alessandra, I knew she was the one for him, and so did he! Eloping in Greece? That is the most Tomas thing I have ever heard! I’m delighted for them. And now, we get to attend your friend Reynaldo’s wedding! This is such a romantic day!”
“Yes, that it is,” Ethan smiled, but Kaycee knew him well, and she saw that smile never reached his eyes.
“I know you’re not exactly a Hallmark movie kind of guy, but you’ve acknowledged it’s a romantic day… so why do you look so… glum?”
Ethan visibly swallowed before taking her face in his hands. “You’re not disappointed… are you? I know I didn’t always make things easy for us. I mean… Tomas met and married Alessandra in half the time we’ve been together. I just hope you’re not disappointed.”
“Ethan Ramsey! Stop it!” She playfully smacked his chest. “Every couple is different. We all have our own rhythm and face unique obstacles. Alessandra and Tomas didn’t have some of the complexities we faced in our relationship… and… well, we all bring our own histories. This is how it worked for them… and this is how it works for us. All I know is that I couldn’t be happier with my fiance.”
“Yeah,” he chuckled sadly. “Your fiance. Your fiance who asked you to marry him seven months ago, yet we haven’t even set a date. You still don’t have a ring on your finger.”
Kaycee reached over and pulled Ethan’s gold signet ring off of her end table. “Oh, really? I beg to differ!”
“That was supposed to be temporary,” he sighed. “It isn’t your engagement ring.”
Kaycee held the ring close to her heart, appearing almost hurt by his words.
“Ethan Ramsey, I don’t think you’ll ever understand just how precious this ring is to me. No other ring… no ridiculously overpriced bauble you could ever purchase will mean as much to me as this ring does.”
“I know that,” he smiled tenderly, and something about him changed.
“I’ve been trying to decide on a ring for you…,” he started. “In fairness, your lack of input on what you’d like hasn’t made it particularly easy.”
“I’m not here to make your life easy,” she teased. “But seriously, the ring just isn’t that important to me….”
“I’ve talked to Sienna about it at length.”
A broad smile came to Kaycee’s face. He was smart; Sienna was the way to go! She probably knew what Kaycee would want in a ring more than Kaycee knew herself.
“And?”
“And all we’ve ascertained so far is that if I purchase anything ostentatious, you’re likely to kill me.”
Kaycee burst into laughter, see, Sienna was the right move!
“That’s my bestie! She’s not wrong. Not only would it be an obscene waste of money, but it would also be impractical. I’m a doctor. And I’dwant to wear my ring every day. I can’t exactly do that if you buy me some boulder.”
“I understand all of that. But can you understand why that’s difficult for me? When you attain a certain amount of… success… there are expectations. If I don’t go all out,” he said, pouring a glass of bourbon for himself and offering one to Kaycee. “… I feel like if I do less than, I’ll be judged. We’ll be judged.”
“By whom?” she shot back, taking the seat at his side. “And do we suddenly care about what anyone else thinks? Ethan, eloping to Greece was the right thing for Tomas and Alessa. That makes me happy. I want us to do what’s right for Ethan and Kaycee. I don’t care what others think.”
“I know,” he said, taking her hand. “But it got me thinking….”
“Always dangerous,” Kaycee smirked.
“May I continue?”
“Of course,” she smiled, then coquettishly sipped her drink.
“I started to think about the couples I’ve known throughout my lifetime. Now, you know I’ve always been a pessimist about love, and I’ve blamed my family history. Terrible examples and all… but I realized… the pessimism was my own doing. Sure, my parent’s marriage wasn’t happy or healthy. But they weren’t the only example I had. My father’s parents, my Nana Emma and Pop-Pop John, they had a beautiful marriage. They always loved each other above all else. They came from simple means but built a beautiful life together; they had two beautiful children and adored each other until their final days. So, I always had an example of what a marriage should be. I just… I just chose to focus on the bad. It was just my own fear blinding me.”
Kaycee put her drink to the side and pulled Ethan close in her arms. Kissing the side of his head as she held him closer.
“Well, you’re not there anymore… and I’m so proud of you. You finally see that you deserve that love, that happiness, too. I’m so honored that I’m the one you’ve decided to share it with. I wish I could have known your grandparents. I would love it if you and Alan could tell me more about their story.”
“I’d like that too,” he smiled, tears in his eyes. “And if it’s all right with you, I’d like it to begin right now…
Kaycee’s eyes widened as Ethan slipped off the settee and rested on one knee on the floor.
“Ethan, what are you….”
He removed a pink velvet ring box from his pocket, opening it to expose a simple, beautiful art deco ring inside.
“Ethan?” Kaycee gasped.
“Like I said, they didn’t have much money, and according to my father, Pop-Pop began saving for this ring on their second date. He knew she was the one, so he put away everything he could for two years to purchase this. They never had much money, but they were the richest people I’ve ever known, rich in all the ways that mattered. Before you came into my life, I was the epitome of success, but at the same time, I was impoverished. I was walking through this life alone, and outside of work, it was devoid of meaning. I had more wealth than my grandparents could have ever dreamed of, but they were far, far richer than I ever thought I could be. You helped me change that, Kaycee, and if I lost every penny I had tomorrow, I’d still be the richest man alive as long as you are by my side. So, I realized there was no ring I could buy you. The only ring worthy of sitting on your finger was at my father’s house, and when I asked him if I could have it… for you… he honestly cried. So, Kaycee MacClennan, I’m asking you once again, with my grandmother’s ring… will you be my wife? Am I lucky enough to have you say yes… twice?”
Kaycee bit her trembling lip as she fought to stay in the moment, for she knew it was one she’d treasure all her life. But as she looked down at Ethan, gazing at her with all the love in the world, the precious, precious ring in hand, it was hard for her to believe this wasn’t a dream.
“You know!” She finally sobbed, wiping away the tears on her face. “My makeup was almost done… and now… now… I’m breaking my promise, and I am going to make us late.”
“I think I’ll give you a pass,” Ethan winked. “As long as you answer the question right. What do you say?”
“Of course!” She beamed. “Yes! Of course, I’ll marry you. Just try to stop me!”
Ethan’s chest was filled with pride as he slipped the beautiful ring onto his bride-to-be’s finger, then the two collapsed into each other’s arms. After a moment, Kaycee lifted her hand to admire her new treasure and kissed Ethan’s cheek.
“I hope you don’t mind, but I lied to you before.”
“About?” He asked, a hint of astonishment in his voice.
“I said there wasn’t another ring that could mean more to me than the one you gave me, but… this… look at you proving me wrong.”
Ethan pulled back, keeping Kaycee firmly under one arm; he lifted her hand.
“It looks perfect on you… just like it did on Nana. It was meant to be.”
“Just like you and me,” she sighed. “I love you, Ethan Ramsey.”
“And I love you. I love you so, so much.”
“We have Nana and Pop-Pop love,” she giggled.
“Yes, we do!”
Their lips met in a passionate kiss, any remainders of Kaycee’s makeup now firmly a thing of the past.
“So we’re engaged!” He grinned.
“We’ve been engaged!”
“Yes, but now your mother will accept that it’s official.”
“I can’t wait to show her!” Kaycee squealed. “I can’t wait to show everyone!!”
“Oh, that reminds me,” Ethan grabbed his phone and snapped a picture of Kaycee’s hand.
“What are you doing?” she laughed.
“What? Do you think Tomas is the only one allowed to post today? I’m letting the world know you said yes… a second time.”
“You do that,” she grinned. “I’m calling room service, this bourbon is lovely, but this calls for champagne!”
As Kaycee turned to look at Ethan, glowing as he typed away on his phone, she no longer questioned it. This was precisely how it felt when the puzzle pieces fell into place, and everything had worked out better than she… better than anyone… could have predicted.
@choicesficwriterscreations @openheartfanfics
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#AND NOW I KNOW EMMA IS NAMED AFTER HER GREAT GRANDMA#JUST TAKE MY HEART NOW#I WILL LITERALLY NEVER RECOVER#oh fic rec#ethan x kaycee
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im still thinking abt how eurylochus was the only voice who changed tempo/speed DRASTICALLY in love in paradise..
and he’s the only one who got cut off? polites finished his whole verse and anticlea is singing one word so 😭😭 but eurylochus still had the “and people die on it, woah ohh”
is it bc his words affected odysseus the most? bc eurylochus’ words were the truth and nothing but the truth? polites is giving odysseus an ideology that got him and most of the crew killed, if odysseus held onto it then he would die anyway as well.
but eurylochus chimes in and keeps him grounded. odysseus tries to fight his voice the most, but he can’t fight the truth, and that’s why every time he goes “HOW” it breaks through the other voices then fades back again.
each word is dragged out as if they cling onto odysseus’ mind, knowing that eurylochus was right the whole time, yet he still refuses to fully acknowledge it.
odysseus then cuts eurylochus off right before he says “and people die on it.” bc, well, does that need to be said? it’s the blatant truth and odysseus finally realises that as he calls out to his immortal friend - his only friend that can’t die on him.
#im rlly not normal abt them#i did NOT survive the wisdom saga#everyone literally has the same tempo and riffs apart from eury.#never ever recovering from this guys <3#epic the musical#the wisdom saga#epic the wisdom saga#eurylochus#odysseus#epic odysseus#epic eurylochus#epic: the musical#doomed one sided yaoi#<< /j (but not rlly)
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if I speak-
#if this man slays this hard one more time I will never recover#the literal meaning of stars in your eyes#I just love him#david tennant
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she didn't ask for this she didn't ask for this she didn't ask for any of this she didn't ask to be anyone's redemption or bandaid or moderator or light but now that she's here she might as well make the most of it but those roles were too stifling so she went searching for community and autonomy and love that isn't only given by condition of how well she plays her roles for love that's enough to make her the priority but the vampires out there are vicious and the vampire in her home is vicious and the community she finally thought she found has been rotted by centuries of fuckass customs and rules and are making her pay for it so she makes her own companion and gets her freedom but then-
#I'll quite literally never recover from this#my decade has been ruined#how am i supposed to click play on s3 when she's not there#spark in the dark#claudia#vampterview#iwtv
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“Don’t watch Thirteen’s era” they said, “it’s no good,” they said. I just watched Demons of the Punjab, I’m driving to your house with a baseball bat
#i will never emotionally recover#when i say it floored me i mean i was LITERALLY on the floor on that#I WAS ON MY KNEES#HOLY SHIT#demons of the punjab#series 11#dw#doctor who#the thirteenth doctor#thirteenth doctor
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dont
The Raven King ch.7
fu€k!ng
talk to me🤚🏻
#rereading aftg can you tell#i’m dead on the floor#i’m sobbing#its literally only the first damn line i will never recover#please leave me in my grief#all for the game#aftg#the foxhole court#tfc#the raven king#trk#the kings men#tkm#neil josten#the sunshine court#tsc#jean moreau#nora sakavic#soulpost
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I wanna slow dance if you're feeling me now
If we don't hold hands you'll be killing me now
I need a romance, one chance
I just wanna know, will you slow dance?
(song inspo below the cut)
guess which song i just put on repeat the entire time i drew this-
#i will never not draw them dancing#i was listening to spotify on smart shuffle and this came up and i was like 👀‼️#aight new song acquired#this is also inspired by the ask game i did yesterday oughgdfds#i loveee drawing things to very specific songs on repeat#[—✦-#-✧ my art#twst art#twisted wonderland#twst#twst oc x canon#jamil viper#jamiyuu#jamil x yuu#twst yuu#twst yuusona#(💜) yuusha#(💜) curry noodles#-✦—]#i am back ... i miss u drawing (it's literally only been a few days)#(it felt like forever)#ANYWAYS guess who just RAN to do this as soon as i was able 😤#i recovered sooner than expected my finger was being overly dramatic
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💅🏻 real hot girl shit 💅🏻
(posting selfies that basically look the same at 3am for attention)
#I can’t believe I literally look like this like ????#wow honestly. I feel so hot rn#sometimes I’m like wow I’m so fucking hot but most times I’m like yeah I’m hot fucking garbage lmfao#there’s never an in between#no middle ground. just all or nothing baybee#and I’m like. I looked good yesterday. I could’ve brought god to his knees if he saw me yesterday#but that’s then and rn I look like a certified bridge troll 😎#introvert Serena has spawned to rest and recover from todays socializing so I can deal with my mother on Saturday 🙃#so we have gone full blown hobbit bro#certified fatherless behavior
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