#i want… i want to be honest
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I… wish i had a friend who struggled w sh as badly as i am rn. Habent lapsed or relapsed, but significantly closer every say and a centimeter away. I wish i had someone who wouldn’t encourage anything unhealthy, anything that would bring me comfort… let me say i hate myself… let me cvt, just once, just once, every once in a blue moon when i seriously believe the only option is suicide. Someone i can vent to who can vent to me.
Someone who wants to recover.
But someone who doesn’t know if they will.
I want… someone who understands.
#i want discord calls where i can cry my eyes out and scream sov#and all u have to say is ‘i love you’#‘get it out’#‘do you think you need a break?’#i want… i want to be honest#if i made a secret anon discord#18+ sfw system safe but sh focused#but like specifically for#a) supporting each other healing journeys#b) forgiving mistakes and using patience#3) specific channels u can black out if they don’t suit ur healing needs#d) a separate channel for positivity/hope fuel for when ur just not ready u can black it out#more ideas to keep ppl safe but it would be very pro recovery while remembering nuance is a thing#just lmk#beansblr#vent blog#actually borderline#bpd#bpd vent#988blr#su1cide#su1c1d4l#su1c1dal#su1c1d3
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The world exists in such a baffling state of simultaneous sex-aversion and sex-hegemony. Every social platform on the internet is trying to banish sex workers to the shadow realm but I can't post a tweet without at least two bots replying P U S S Y I N B I O. People are self-censoring sex to seggs and $3× but every other ad you see is still filled with half-naked women. Rightwingers want queer people arrested for so much as existing in the same postal code as a child and are also drumming up a moral panic about how teenage boys aren't getting laid enough. I feel like I'm losing my mind.
#it's bad if you want i have sex it's also bad if you DON'T want to have sex#god forbid if you're a woman in a heterosexual marriage and aren't in the mood#that's 'withholding sex' and you're clearly abusive scum who should be divorced and left without any of your shared assets.#but if you DO have sex now you're a degenerate freak plotting for the downfall of western society#i don't know what to say i'm just so tired#politics#culture#queerphobia#lgbtqia#misogyny#<it's not the exclusive source but let's be honest sooo much of this is integral to the patriarchy#patriarchy needs access to an underclass they can treat like sex objects but they also don't want them to have any human rights#so sexuality is both obligatory and stigmatized#purity culture#i'm really struggling with tagging this because most of the appropiate tags would- in a beautiful twist of irony- get me booted off tumblr
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they are like puppies. 2 me
#gravity falls#dipper pines#mabel pines#stan pines#stanley pines#ford pines#stanford pines#gravity falls fanart#fanart#disney#pretty happy with the bg on this one!!!#to be honest i don't know how i got here#at first i just wanted to draw mabel and dipper sleeping on the floor bc i thought it was a cute idea and i love to draw cuddling#and then um. suddenly i had placed them in an entire environment and added stan and ford#couldn't tell ya what happened#but i had fun with it!!#anyway yeah thank you again for all the recent support#hit 12k!!!! woah!!!!!#i was gonna make a post thanking you for 10k but then i hit 11 and now 12 so um. whoops#to be honest i don't even know what to say 😭😭 it's just crazy to me that ive gotten this far because ive had this acc since i was like. 12#it was my first social media i think#and the first way i got into fandoms#so yeah anyway. thank you :'))#mods art#mods draws#my art
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Louis dressing Lestat:
Armand dressing Lestat:
Lestat dressing himself:
#lmaooooo#I think Armand is the best at it I gotta be honest#hire him as Lestat’s stylist#iwtv#lestat de lioncourt#lestat#ldpdl#armand#amc interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#iwtv amc#louis de pointe du lac#iwtv memes#no but tbh I always want Lestat to dress himself because it’s so chaotic and over the top#I love him I want him to get real weird with it
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need to share an experience i had 30 minutes ago
(edit: thanks to @walks-the-ages for providing and reminding me to put alt text, sorry it slips my mind alot lol)
#my hands are still shaking to be quite honest i could not put a lot of effort into this.#but like. brain. why did you do that#literally i have been like hopelessly obsessed with de nonstop thinking abt it for the past couple of days it is Scaring me#it is terminal its soooo fucking chronic#disco elysium#kim kitsuragi#for anyone who wants to know i bumped into some guys car that was stopped for a school bus. i think my brain errored and thought#my foot was fully pressing down on the brake pedal but it wasnt.#i am like 99.99 percent sure neither of us had any major damage to our cars but we still filed a police report just in case#because insurance do be a bitch. dudes back bumper was scratched lightly and my front license plate has a dent now#also literally my first ever car accident that ive had ever yippee yay
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theyre my soft spot
#gravity falls#fiddauthor#i honest to god cant tell you if i want them or want to be them#stanford pines#fiddleford mcgucket#ayanart
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Osha & Qimir + HANDS
#ITS ABOUT THE YEARNING#i cant believe this is real. not gonna lie. just being completely honest#*#oshamir#oshmir#osha x qimir#the acolyte#the acolyte spoilers#theacolyteedit#star wars#starwarsedit#osha aniseya#qimir#im gonna need like a couple business days to let the fact sink in that i basically got what ive always wanted. in star wars. in my star war
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PART 2 OF THE WYD WHEN MY GANG PULL UP IMAGE 🗣🔥
We’re welcoming AM and HAL into the family this time c: , I’ll continue this family photo series as I release new papercrafts lol
#being completely honest with y’all I think HAL is the only guy AM would tolerate#also don’t bully Minos he wants to feel included#I’ll make a papercraft of him later too#ihnmaims#i have no mouth and i must scream#ihnmaims am#inscryption p03#edgar electric dreams#yes man fallout nv#yes man#Inscryption#ultrakill minos#minos prime#hal 9000#2001 a space odyssey
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a lil bit of them 🐈🍤😼🦊🔔
#twisted wonderland#twst#ツイステ#ツイステッドワンダーランド#mmarts#twst oc#twst yuu#twst grim#fellow honest#twst gidel#rollo flamme#theyre THE ramshackle gang for me ok#the halloween guys is gonna be put on ramshackle cause i want to#i wanna draw some more uuggg i dont have time rn
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Fellow Honest's "Groovy" card illustration references a few scenes from Disney's Pinocchio:
Honest John's first attempt to trick Pinocchio, where he takes Pinocchio's book and pretends to read it to impress him, ultimately to convince him not to go to school.
Honest John's second attempt to trick Pinocchio, where he dons a pair of glasses to pretend to be a doctor to "diagnose" Pinocchio.
Gideon writing down Honest John's "diagnosis" (in reality, just scribbling lines on the notepad).
This is seemingly reinterpreted in this illustration as Fellow Honest attempting to teach Gidel the alphabet, but he appears to be struggling with it himself. In the film Honest John is shown to be illiterate (he's also incapable of spelling Pinocchio's name) and this is potentially true of Fellow Honest as well, as his insecurity about never being able to attend school is an important plot point in the "Stage in Playful Land" event.
#twisted wonderland#twst#twst jp spoilers#twisted wonderland spoilers#twst spoilers#fellow honest#gidel#honest john#pinocchio#j worthington foulfellow#i know others have posted about this but i wanted to expand upon it#the sillies :)
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comfort food.
(greyscale below!)
aaaaa. iii needed to make something self indulgent!!!! and for me that means drawing Bonnie and also putting a frankly stupid amount of work into rendering food!! outside of the onigiri and spaghetti (kind of), most of these were firsts for me and GOD im so happy with the results. i’ve seen a few people say that my art makes them hungry teehee. i hope this illicits the same reaction! please enjoy :3
here’s the greyscale version!! iii don’t think it’s As Appetizing as the colored version and the values are a little messy but! it exist !
#marshdoodles#isat#in stars and time#aaaaa. something something making art to spite it all#i got. weirdly motivated? i literally started working on this Today and it’s done already! woah!#sorry again for being so inactive this past month? kinda just been getting hit with a Mountain of Life Events. alas!#but hey! now i have a lovingly rendered salmon steak#<- sorry isa used that phrasing for it and i cant get over it#said in the same cadence as lightly fried fish fillet#there isn’t really a lot of thought put into this? i honest to god just wanted an excuse to draw food. because its comforting 🩶
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Have some Replica Leo for Round 2 of the @tmntfashioncompetition! This time the theme is: "Traditional Garment." I’ll be up against @villainleoau and I’m nervous cuz that’s a STELER crew and some of the most talented artists in the fandom (also their fashion sense is off the charts)!
For the art I decided to lean into some traditional Japanese attire and a prosthetic more befitting of the era. Originally I was just going to have Leo's missing arm be covered, but if he wants to be truly capable with a katana he'd need something to help keep the sheath affixed when removing his sword. This is especially necessary for duels, since the speed and pressure applied from the drawing of the sword are imperative. I imagine he has several more varying tools he can screw onto his arm in the little side pack. Also note, the Kanji means "ninja" or "ninpo" and the finer hiragana text is the infamous "You are not alone" line. I had a lot of fun with this one, trying to decide if maybe I should put it up for print.
Some of my inspo under the cut:
#yes I know he’s wearing attire more akin to samurai than ninja#pretend he’s under cover#blending into his surroundings#blind spots#all that jazz#I’ll be honest I wanted to do three colors because I didn’t want to take the time to render him fully#but I’m pretty happy with the outcome#should use a minimum color palette more often#tmntfashioncompetition#traditional garment theme outfit#fashion propaganda#traditional fashion#rottmnt#rottmnt replica#replica#TMNT#Leonardo#kathaynesart#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#unpause rise of the tmnt#save rottmnt#unpause rottmnt
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Did the devs do Fellow dirty because his name sucks, or did they do him dirty because there is NO WAY this man will ever manage to write it?
A bit early with the Playful Land doodles, but this joke just wouldn't leave my mind.
#this post is brought to you by my incapable ass who also cannot write his name properly lmao#i want him so bad#why must we have to wait another year for him?#mello's drawings#twisted wonderland#twst#Playful Land Event#fellow honest#ernesto foulworth#twst gidel#twst gino#my art
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Ming Fan (my beloved) is trying very hard to keep those two from running back to Cang Qiong when he turns around.
[Masterpost]
#i'll be honest#next parts are a bit complicated and i just wanted to draw the CHILDREN#my beloveds#svsss#lou binghe#ning yingying#ming fan#system possession#sp art
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And your dearest fantasy Is to grow a baby in me I could be a good mother And I wanna be your wife So I hold you to my knife And I steal your letter
Not a lot, just forever
#ill be honest i go back and forth on rhaenicent kids#for rhaenyra yes#for alicent i usually land somewhere between 'in a dream i saw my mother with the love of her life and no children#and it was the happiest id ever seen her'#and 'she'd probably want rhaenyra's kids'#but i saw that olivia cooke + wine + baby video on my tl again today#so#rhaenicent
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GIRLS NITE OUT >_< ((clockwork could not make it)) (wip)
#myart#idk what he’s doing here#this is a work in progress#but I’m gonna be on some island for four days so I wanted to post before I left#Ej is just there for the food#I think Jane and Nina + Ej could be a good friend group actually#very balanced#I hope Jane knows I have a Lamborghini ready for her#creepypasta#eyeless jack#jane the killer#nina the killer#jeff the killer#crp#horror#slenderman#ej#jtk#this is really half assed I’m going to be 100% honest#nobody reading this but the support on my store has been so nice and I love you all#ok bye <3#why is this preforming well#I want 2 delete this so bad 💀
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