#i wanna go in but i feel like shit and ughhhhh

[lakeysworld]

UGH ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

[rapidhighway]

Hnngg

[sprinklethetangerine]

I think this is a pretty reasonable situation to cry in, right?

[gregmarriage]

lot of feelings about being disabled and bedridden and housebound etc, and the disappointment and sadness, etc that comes with it. especially, bc a girl asked me out for coffee and i don’t know how to let her down and say, ‘yeah, don’t hold your breath’

[just-spacetrash]

ughhhhhhhh

[coridallasmultipass]

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[derrypubliclibrary]

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[milo-is-rambling]

I woke up late for theater (why the fuck do they think I am going to wake up and function at any point before 9 on a Saturday) cause I was supposed to be there for 8:30 but it's a set day so whatever I've still gotta break apart the Christmas crack and get it into a tin and make sure the erasers I got yesterday find their way into my purse before I leave and I'll probably get there around 10 and that's like an hour and a half late but also it's Christmas Eve so I feel like I'm allowed to be late even if I'm only late bc I hung out with my brother too late last night in the hot tub being cool (technically bottom half of me warm top half of me fucking freezing cause I couldn't get my new piercings wet)

[eroticnoices]

omggg obsessed w married!rafe

i was thinking; married!rafe is on vacation w the fam and reader just happens to be vacationing at the same beach w her family. rafe sees her at the beach and it ends w them fuckinnnn in his hotel room immediately after while his wife is watching the kids (if they have any).

LIKE UGHHHHH i need him so bad

married!ceo!rafe cameron x afab!reader

warnings: cheating, choking, dirty talk, breeding kink, praise kink

i move my sunglasses down to do a double take to see if i really saw him;

my dads fucking boss— rafe cameron.

i pushed my sunglasses back up, and turn to my mom; “i gotta go back up to the hotel room, really quick i forgot to put on sunscreen.”

my mom removes her eyes from her book and smiles. “alright sweetheart. we’ll be here.” i nod and stand up, wrapping my bikini cover up around my body and following fast after mr.cameron.

ever since my dad started working for him, and saw him; i knew i needed him. i’ve heard from my father, about how mr and mrs.camerons relationship and was been at its worst for awhile.

poor wife.. lucky me.

i followed closely after him and stopped him right before he got into the elevator. “mr.cameron!” i shout, hoping he stops the door. rafe looked up from the ground lost in thought and puts his ring clawed hand in front of the elevator doors to stop them from closing.

“shit- sorry, y/n.” he gives me a small smile that makes me weak at the knees. i smile back, “it’s okay..” i say stepping in next to him. “what floor?” he asks. “uh, 4.” he nods and presses the button.

the silence is loud,

i wondered if he could feel the heat radiating from me.

rafe cleared his throat, leaning back against the elevator wall. this elevator ride felt so agonizingly slow.

“do you wanna come to my room for a drink?”

rafe groaned as he pounded into me; one hand gripping the side of my throat as he bent me over the side of his balcony. “fuck. you’re so fucking perfect, y/n.. knew i needed this pussy the moment i saw you.”

he thrusted into me with determination to get us both to our peek; for the second time.

“f’shit..can feel you squeezing me, baby. i feel so deep, in you, baby.” rafe gripped my jaw, bringing my head forward to look down between us as he fucked me. “look.. taking me so fuckin’ well.” he grunted. a bulge appearing as he snapped his hips to mine making me cry out; feeling his tip kiss my g-spot.

“rafe! m’ gonna cum..” i looked up at him through my tear covered lashes. rafe smirked down at me, “yeah? show me how good you can be. give it to me, princess.” he flicked my clit using his thumb making me whine.

“that’s it, baby. fucking cum for me.” he smiled never stopping his hard trusts, “you look so pretty like this..” he hummed, brushing my hair out of my face as i came.

rafe pulled out of me, painting my stomach with his seed. “holy shit.” he grunted, pulling me closer to him to help me balance.

“sit.” he pointed to the chair on the balcony, and went back into his room. i plopped onto the chair, panting.

he returned with our two drinks and a towel, with my bikini top; he immediately ripped off my when we got into the room.

rafe kneeled down, and wiped his cum off of me and threw it by the bed. “here.” he handed me a cup and my top. “i’ll be here for the next three days, you gotta come see me again.” he smirked, kissing my knee.

[killakalx]

Mhmm Jason coming home from patrol seeing you spread out in bed. He just can’t help but slide your panties down, to start licking you. And when you sleepily ask what’s going on he tells you to just go back to bed, he just needs this. And when he slides himself into you? Ughhhhh

somno is so hot to me dear god. the whole “go back to sleep” trope is good but i reallyyyyyyy like the idea of him wanting to wake you up while you’re scolding him bc you wanna sleep. sees you sleeping after he hops out the shower (bc i’m a firm believe that jason doesn’t even touch you or the bed after patrol until he’s clean) and he can’t help waking you up in the best way possible, since you gave him the green light and all that beforehand.

plsss hear me out bc jason is such a little shit. he’d keep you asleep if he really wanted to, and he does at first, just getting off on the little groans you make in your sleep and watching as you get wetter by the second. something about him being able to make you all needy regardless of whether or not you’re conscious.

just a few minutes later and he’s basically salivating over your pussy and teasing it when you look at him through your lashes, fingers prodding at your hole to make you stutter so he can go “what’d ya say? ‘m busy right now.” he’s obsessed with waking you up to his tongue swirling your clit because you act like you don’t want it everyyyy time.

and he’s really just ignoring you as if he’s minding his business, like you’re the one bothering him. no one’s stopping you from going back to sleep, he assures you, as if he’s not groaning into your pussy every time you make a half-assed attempt to pull his head away. bastard keeps going until you can’t hold your moans anymore, all cute and grumpy and sleepy while still being mean to him. calling him all types of insufferable and shameful, all through soft whimpers when his fingers go just a bit deeper. then your hips start bucking a little and you’re not hearing the end of it. “y’sure you’re still sleepy?” he mutters against your heat, “‘cause this pussy’s just beggin’ for me right now.”

he probably gets antsy from the adrenaline, licking your slick off his fingers and kissing up your body and spending an awfully long time on your tits, and as soon as you start dozing off from the gentleness? god he just loves you way your eyes shoot back open when he slips inside of you. he lets you slip back into that half asleep state, where you still feel everything but you’re under the impression that it’s a terribly vivid dream, moaning his name now and making a strong contrast to the way you were scolding his name earlier.

now he’s cooing in your ear, telling you “you’re loud, baby- i thought you needed some sleep,” as his hand covers the yelp you make in response to the sudden penetration. once you remember he’s being a little shit you bite his finger, and he doesn’t keep it there because he wants those cute moans tumbling out of those pretty lips, like his favorite symphonies combined with the lewd sound of sex finally filling the room. it’s lazy and soft when he fucks you like this, both of you tired and both of you dangerously horny now, despite the fact that it was originally just him.

[selfshipgushing]

I just joined tumblr after years of not using it to consume self-shipping content since now I finally don't feel ashamed about it anymore <3 I've been checking out your page for a while and I love the space you give people to express themselves! It's so fun :D thanks for the community service!!

Also UGHHHHH I LOVE MY BOYFRIENEHWUJWKQOQOQKQLQKQKQLQPQL so much that it makes me angry i wanna flap my hands and roll around euwhwkwjw I'm autistic and every time i see him i start stimming ughhhhh shkw <33

skipping the queue bc i wanted to touch on this for a bit;

i really think parts of the selfshipping community is toxic. there's so many different ppl that have different opinions n shit and so many ppl that put others down for f/oing villains. and I really hated that

so i just wanted to make a space for people to talk about their f/o safely. especially without the presence of nsfw (for the minors and anyone that it makes uncomfortable) and pro/dark/comshippers (its really... upsetting to see ppl ship minors with adults and incest and severely abusive relationships especially when you go to a space looking for likeminded people like yourself).

i see so many ppl get attacked for selfshipping with a character who like, committed murder or like is an asshole or whatever. especially since my main f/o is a serial killer (which I wont lie to you. i regularly forget. that was dropped in the lore and then he fuckin died ten minutes later). and then I also feel like too there's a lot of weird shaming in the community for how ppl see their f/o. maybe in canon your f/o is a cishet man and you hc them as a transfem lesbian, or maybe you're an age/pet regressor or shit even the people whose f/os are objects, they get shit too. and I just don't like seeing all that, because when you think about it, were all the same breed of weirdo, right? stop making others feel bad because they don't love their f/o the same way or they headcanon their f/o something that isn't true in canon or whatever. cant we be kind and stop pissing in others cereal.

and then theres individuals thatll be outright mean to you because your f/o hurt their f/o some way in canon or they don't have a good relationship. and I hate to see that kinda thing. so since I have the ability to moderate this account and what goes into it, I hope I can make a space where people feel safe to talk about their f/os.

[mrsmiagreer]

SUMMIT THOUGHTS IN ORDER BY SCENE!!

“Hold still i’ll grab you one of mine” UGHHHH

“What do you think babe? How’s my hair?” EVEN MORE UGHHHHH😩😩😩

Yes Milo I AM laughing 😂

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Vincent cut himself off, i wanna know what he wants to say :’(

“She sounded— nevermind”

HE GOT US A CROWN HES SO SWEET

wouldnt it be cool if this was like… the way of Royal Vampiric Engagement?

Vincent sounds so cute when he’s nervous 🥺

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Sam’s loud ass truck rolling up lmao

ICECREAM!!!!

I just know Sam slicked his hair back into the tightest ponytail. His formal look HAS to be super cute

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Porterrrrr!!

“Your human” LMAO

The thoughts about seating were actually really sweet

Porter now wtf are you talking about?

Vincent’s irritation is so warranted right now 💀

He’s up to something fs

“Bye now—” AND HES JUST GONE??!!

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“Hey Bud!” Awe Ash we love you

Vincent sounds like he memorized this shit😂

Eccentric he says🤨

“Blink twice if you need a way out buddy” WE LOVE YOU EVEN MORE NOW ASH

“What😟😃” VINCENT LMAOO

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Bennet you meanies >:(

Alexander and Christopher count your fucking days

A bit formal?? This is a SUMMIT?!

Take a breath BOY?!

Stfu both of yous

“Where’s Alexis?” Anything to get YOU out of my face 😒

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HERE WE GO

“SAMS LATEST CONQUEST” ouuuu bitch—

she’s so snarky and condescending everything she says means something underneath but she sounds so sweet its annoying

Honestly if i was tank i would think about her words all night and for a few more days after that she dug deep fr and was actually making sense

Yeah okay darlin’ calm it down, don’t wanna get my head snapped off in front of 3810 year old vamps🤨

“Pettiness isn’t childish at all” 😒

You turned him because you wanted him but we don’t all get what we want huh?

“I FIXED HIM” GIRL LMFAOOOO

“I don’t like you, and I’m not going to” first of all, i’m so glad the feeling is mutual and secondly, this is my new favorite quote. I might not like Alexis but she ate with that one

PORTER TO THE RESCUE! but why?

“Oh darling as if i have a gag reflex” UGHHH😩

Sam to the rescue??

“What the fuck did she say??” “Where is she??”

I love the fact that it when tank ran away you can hear their footsteps. Since my Darlin’ is a girl, it sounds like she wore Combat Boots to the summit😭

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Random message for David?

The music in the back is fucking hilarious

Quinn is coming back?? Yall knew it

William a bad person?? He’s a little shady but i think he has good intent honestly

Why does he lowkey sound like Christian’s VA?

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“Don’t EVER speak to them again. Do you hear me???” Samuel don’t get me started🫦

“But playing is what I do best🥰🤭” she kinda ate with that one too

The fact that he even had to say anything along the lines of “if you care about me even a little you would do this for me” like If i was Tank i would cry because she agreed so fast😭 Like i know yall had something but like damn she still loves you?

Loser ass response 😒

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MILO’s BACK

Awee Asher stumbling over his words

Why is Porter in everyone’s business 😭

Milo’s protective tone when he talks to Porter is tickling my insides🤭🤭

Closeknit??! Awe here we go😟

Porter is so suspicious right now…

“Hold the fuck up” MILOOOO😩😩😩😩😍😍😍😍

“Wait what’d you do that night?—” THEY DIDN’T TELL ASHER IT’S BEEN LIKE A YEAR AND MORE LMAO

Asher still being scared of making big decisions🥺

“Babe…” 😫😫🫶🏽🫶🏽

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Tank being worried that Alexis threatened him is so real

“She was exactly who she appeared to be, i was the one trying to pretend i didn’t have a problem with that” REALLLLLLL

I don’t give a damn about her beat up heart

“I don’t want you to think that i felt like you needed saving” Honestly i appreciate this line because i hate the way it feels for someone to step in for you

“Maybe I wanted a chance of my own to tell the bitch to shove it if i’m being honest” 🤷🏽‍♀️😅🥳

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knock knock

oouuuuu Asher’s telling David

Asher sounds in trouble 😭 David sounds like somebody daddy fr fr

the eye contact 😭😭

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Ain’t this Loveboldly? All i hear is Crux😂

Funding?! ALL OF THIS FOR SOME MONEY

“Lower. Your. Voice. ” 💀💀

Alexander is so mean to his prince😭

“You’re showing your age Christopher. Or lack thereof” Damn he snapped him up

NOISE?!

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“We’re about to have a fight. Be convincing” Uhh okay???

What the fuck is going awnnnn?!

Getting Vincent riled up for god knows what in insane💀

Glad he didn’t bring Treasure 😭

SAM TO THE RESCUE… ish?

“Consider yourself crossed”😲😲😲😲

“He’s dead” 🤨🤨😟😟 ALEXIS WHAT??? HOW’D SHE KNOW?!

[squarebracketsmileyface]

if you're looking for some Jam coded songs might I suggest the song I Love You Too - Ezra Bell

Jam song jam song jam song jam song yayayayayay

okay, it got a little long so: thingy bob

god this is so perfect for them though :] its so happysad and that's literally just so them. they are happysad together, theres so much wrong going on around them and they're all they have to turn to for comfort, so of course they're going to turn to each other. And they do love each other. they definitely do, but its definitely complicated. It's not long lasting love, but they still want to make each other feel loved.

Especially Tim. he wants to make sure Jay feels loved, he wants to fix Jay even though he definitely can't. Jay has to fix himself, and he doesn't want to, so he'll take all the nice things and the i love you's Tim will tell him and he'll hoard them and hope they'll fix him a bit, but not too much. He wants to be fixed enough that he stops feeling completely like shit, but not enough that Tim wouldn't need to keep trying to fix him. (Does that make sense lmao? god knows)

All of the lovers have moved on But yours is the steepest of hills And you glare at yourself in the mirror They all know things that you never will

They'll feel the things you can't access As they stand by the river at dawn You've grown older and cagey and classless And regret just what little you've done

This bit feels especially like its about Jay. Kinda like, at first its Tim in uni? like, he kinda knows about jay and alex even though they haven't actually told anyone (they're just not subtle about when they sneak away, and when they both come in covered in hickeys) like, Tim can kinda tell from just, Jay's face that there's something not ideal about his and Alex's arrangement, and he can take a pretty good guess at what it is given the way Jay's face drops whenever the topic of sexuality comes up in their little 'friend' group and Alex insists he's straight and gets really defensive over that fact.

Then it becomes current Tim who knows more about Jay and about Jay and Alex's not-relationship, and he knows that as Jay's gotten older he's gotten more cagey about everything, more like, defensive and more just generally weird about his relationships with people and all that. There's a specific word i'm looking for and I just can't for the life of me find it, but like yeah. Tim knows Jay's a lot more, like, spiteful? that's not the word either. spikey? WORDS ughhhhh, anyway

i love this song. its so them. its so Jam. they're such a mess. I love them but they're gonna be terrible if they're allowed to continue for too long. Ugh why can't i just telepathically beam my thoughts and ideas into peoples heads, it'd be so much easier than trying to translate the colours and shapes that make up how i feel about Jam in sorry its locked in my head.

They're just purple right now. like the colour of a bruise that you really wanna press on just to feel it hurt like a bitch so you remember its there and you know that the bump that gave you it actually happened.

that's them in my head right now.

they're a bruise

They're a bruise on each other. not a nasty one. not one given cruelly. but not one given as a hickey either. just a bruise given kindly. that doesn't even make sense.

they're just purple like a bruise i dont knowwwwwwwwwwwww. words don't make it make sense for themmmmmmmmmmm.

they're my babies and they hurt each other without even meaning to. but given where they are that hurt is sort of a kindness? because it's not as painful as it would be if they weren't trying to be gentle with each other. They're trying. even if it wont last forever.

[toomuchracket]

thinking about D word matty in glasses and in the scientist coat and nothing else fucking the life out of you in front of a mirror and him being all sweaty and the glasses are crooked and ughhhhh the voices in my head

jesus fucking christ. like a continuation of that thing i mentioned yesterday in the role play ask - rather than fucking you over his desk, though, matty drags you to your makeup table in your shared bedroom because "i want you to be good and watch me bend you over", before he pulls your panties off and starts to fuck you. like you said, he's still got his lab coat and glasses on; you have glasses on too, and your dress is functioning more like a belt, just bunched around your waist. and you KNOW the sex is good - although matty's railing you hard, one hand on your hip and the other pulling your head up by the ponytail so he can preen at watch the way your eyes roll back into your head and your jaw trembles as he hits deeper and deeper inside you, he's still sweet to you, leaning down to whisper "fucking look at you taking my cock so well, my good girl, my perfect girl, all fucked out and beautiful. feel so fucking good around me, christ, never want to leave, want to stay like this forever. bet you'd fucking love that, wouldn't you, perfect little slut that you are. my perfect little slut, my girl, all mine". and you just turn around and pout, desperate for matty to kiss you; he coos and obliges, before pulling back and saying "you're close, aren't you, sweetheart? you wanna cum? go ahead, babe, cum all over my cock", and he lets go of your hair so he can reach around at rub at your clit. as soon as he touches it, you're a goner - you're shaking from how hard the orgasm is, reaching back to put your hand on top of matty's on your hip, a silent beg for him to keep fucking you through it. he follows soon after with a groan of your name, fucking into you through his own orgasm with precise, deep, slowing movements; watching his face in the mirror as he does almost makes you cum again, it's so fucking sexy. and the two of you just lie there, you on the table and matty on you, breathing heavily and twitching slightly lmao - matty presses a kiss to your head and says "thank you, my love, did so well for me", and all you can do is give a blissful exhausted smile in response. you stay like that for a little while, just basking in the post-sex glow, before matty somehow finds the energy to carry you to the bathroom to clean you up before bed. but yeah. good shit <3

[sehrgefaelltmir]

Hey any fic recs? I really like yours so I figured you'd have good recommendations. I'd read just about any ship

hi!!! aw thank you so much, that means a lot. i haven’t had a lot of time to read lately (also i have the attention span of a gnat lmao) so i’m just gonna list all the best fics that i can think of,,, theres no real theme theres no criteria lmao. i kinda just like stuff w good writing. all of these are amazingly written i wish i could write something half as good as these 😭😭

my favourite fics (off the top of my head) are:

UEFA High by maxevader / @liverpool-enjoyer (i feel like anyone who hasn’t read this is living under a rock sekskjdbd but i gotta mention it anyway cause i adore it) it’s a high school au, literally EVERYONE is in it. well not everyone but,,, a lot. theres a load of different ships (i came for müllendowski ofc but im kinda pulling for alisson/vvd rn they’re really cute i’m rooting for them) and some really sweet friendships too (thomas & manu, robbo & trent, gavi & pedri are my favourites) honestly i don’t wanna spoil it just go in blind if u haven’t read it already cause it’s so so worth it, it’s so funny and so sweet and also very relatable and ughhhhh man i could talk abt it forever

while we’re at it i want to be loved (not to be touched) (also by maxevader) is also really fucking good, it’s gavi-centric, very angsty, SO well-written, the stars aligned or some shit and i read it at exactly the right moment in my life and it made me cry a bit (a lot)

how long could we be a sad song? by moonwedes / @tchouameninga, it’s a suuuuper super angsty müllendowski fic about lewy’s decision to leave bayern and what led up to it. the writing is incredible n it made me so fucking sad. i cannot recommend this one enough it is SO good, just. man the characterisation and the little details and how inevitable and tragic it feels,,, ughhh it’s amazing

Another Plane of Shambles by fipsareyougay,,, again i kinda feel like anyone who likes my fics has probably read this already cause it’s like. THE bayern/german nt fic lmao sorry. but i gotta mention it anyway cause it’s one of my favourite fics ever. it’s like 600k words and kinda intimidating to get into cause theres like a million characters and ships and subplots but it is so. so fucking good. off the top of my head the main ships are neuller, mesut/sami, schweinski, götzeus, toni/jonas hector (random ahh ship but it works lmao), leno/ter stegen, but there’s like 183737 other ships too. it’s hilarious but also like,, really really sad. like EVERYONE is going through it, it gets quite dark sometimes. also it’s not finished lmao like i don’t think it’s been updated for like a year at this point, but.. i honestly don’t think it matters?? like it’s so fucking good as it is i fr don’t mind if its not updated, whats there is enough (for me at least). its SUCH an experience i love it so much and i will recommend it to literally everyone, whether ur a german nt fan or not

domestic pressures by fivesecrets is also really REALLY fuckin good. the main ship is lewy/b**teng, which… yeah it’s not a ship i like for… obvious reasons lol but this fic is so well-written that i just can’t not include it. id actually feel bad if i didnt include it cause the writing is so SO fucking good,, i don’t think i’ve read any of this author’s other fics now that i think of it, but i really should. i feel so inadequate every time i think about this fic cause the writing is just that good. like,, the prose. if i ever write something as beautifully as this its all over for u bitches. it also has bravertz as a background ship which i LOVE. (SIDE NOTE DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY MORE BRAVERTZ RECS PLS I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER 👉👈)

one of my all-time favourite fics is Lunar by Redbull_gave_me_wings. (this is the fic that made me finally decide to start properly writing n posting instead of just writing random paragraphs in my notes app. so i’ll love it forever for that reason alone) i don’t rlly know how to explain this one lmao it’s kinda complicated, it’s… basically a werewolf au?? which seems really random for a football fic lmao but it works. i adore this fic. just,, the characterisation and the world-building and the memories i have of reading it (spring 2022 when i was supposed to be studying for my leaving cert lmao) and the relationship between the 3 main characters (thomas, lewy and marco, müllendowski are an established relationship and theres also kinda hints of götzeus if you squint??) i just love the story, all the side characters, the world and the lore,,,, dldkdkdj i need to reread it omg

the next one is UNFINISHED 😭 but i want to include it just cause i love it so much: welcome to the underworld by bibliophile357. another one that i rlly don’t know how to explain lmao. it’s basically a greek mythology au w müllendowski as the main ship, lewy is hades and thomas is persephone. there’s also a few other ships, i think seriker is kinda the biggest secondary one tho?? (i might be wrong lmao i read it aaages ago. like before i even had an ao3 account i think 😭) the greatest (greek) tragedy of them all is that this fic was never finished. like i got to the last chapter and was genuinely heartbroken that there was no ending cause the writing and the development of the main ship was so beautiful. i don’t think it ever will be finished either bc it hasn’t been updated since 2017 lmao but still it’s one of my favourite fics

also there’s a few other oneshots that i rlly rlly love, all soooooo so well-written: (also all müllendowski now that i think abt it 😭😭 im too loyal to them sjdkskdjjd im a one-club player. thomas müller just like me fr)

at night i think about you by restless5oul

must mean it’s the low season by ssilverarrowss

History Has Its Eyes On You by thomasmxller

n the last ones i can think of are kinda just like. short lil meet-cute aus. yknow for someone who has never even considered writing an au there sure are a lot of aus on this list 😭😭 i just have thing for them ig

the first one is Kawiarnia by lesbleusthroughandthrough, it’s a coffee shop au, lewy/szczęsny, which,, i can’t see them as anything but friends when i write them but like,, in this au it just works (you gotta read that in a todd howard voice) i WISH there was more of this au cause it was so funny and so cute, i reread it sometimes when i need a laugh

and the second one is (darling so it goes) some things are just meant to be by bleedingdaylight. its,, idk, a not-footballers au?? idk what to call that 😭 it’s a rlly sweet götzeus fic abt mario having a lil crush on marco, v sweet v funny 10/10. i ADORE götzeus they’re so cute in this fic (also theres a dog. named borussia)

thats,,, a really random list lmao sorry 😭😭 it’s kinda just all my favourites. i fr need to get back into just reading fics, i kinda just write in my spare time i barely read anything anymore. also i probably missed some other really good fics so if anyone wants to add anything pls do!!!

[urfavoritedcwhore]

the russian boy//part ten

warnings: very very slight smut(aka kissing and hickeys), swearing

small part bc i didn’t have time to right everything i want to for the party part today:)

lowercase intended

will proofread and grammar check tomorrow

part ten: the time(mini part)

once i'm inside i immediately go up to my room to start digging through my boxes to look for something nice i can wear to the party. i open up a box towards the back of my room and find a black sweater, nothing fancy at all, but i can style it. next i find the box my skirts are in and find my short black jean skirt, (yes i wanna look good tonight and show a lil sum sum, sue me.). i i them both out on my bed and dig through my shoe boxes to find something that matches. when i can't find anything i race downstairs and go into my moms room riffling through her boxes. i find a pair of her black converses she used to wear to when she would mange a restaurant in new orleans. i grab them and run back upstairs into my room. now i know that the party isnt till tonight and right now its only 1pm, but im too excited to wait. i try them all on together and start feeling like my old self when i look in the mirror. its been too long since i've been to a party. hell it's been too long since ive dressed in anything other than shorts, sweats, or leggings. my outfit is perfect.

i decide to invite boris over until it’s time to go. i was gonna eat but im too excited to eat honestly. i text him to come over and not even two minutes later he’s tapping on my window. “fuck!”, i jump startled. i look over to my window and see him pointing to it signaling to let him in. i walk over to the window and open it. he climbs in and smiles at me, “already dressed?”, he says eyeing me up and down. “anytime you don’t see my truck in the driveway come through the door. you keep scaring the shit outta me.”, i say to him annoyed. he ignores my words and grabs me by the waist, “you look so fucking good new girl.”, he says smiling at me. i give him a peck on the cheek and twist out of his grip, flinging myself onto my bed. “ughhhhh i don’t wanna wait to go to the partyyy. i’m too excited, the times gonna pass by so fucking slow.”, i say whining. he sits down on my bed and pulls me off my back so that im sitting up with him. “i know way we can pass time.”, he says as he moves my hair out of my face and cups my chin in his hand. i look at him for a long second. i know he expects me to laugh him off and give him the, “not yet we’re taking this slow” speech, but im seriously considering making an exception of this rule for just one day. we’re going to a party tonight where im probably gonna get incredibly drunk and try to makeout with him. why not just do it now. screw it, im gonna suprise the fuck out of him, and screw the rule just for today. i still won’t fuck him or anything yet, but how can making out be so wrong? i wanna rip off his clothes right now, but im willing to compromise with myself, and that’s the important part. “like how?”, i say smiling at him innocently. his face turns a bright red and i can instantly tell he didn’t expect that to be my answer. “like this?”, i ask climbing on top of him, my knees on either side of his legs. as i straddle him i see a wave of shock go through his face. “i-”, he starts to say, but i cut him off my lips contenting with his. he pulls away with a smirk, “so quick to take charge, eh?”, he says almost laughing. i roll my eyes and start to say something cocky but before i can he grabs my legs and flips me around so that im laying flat on my bed. he laughs at my shocked face and crawls on top of me, “this is ok?”, he says smirking at me. i look at him with large eyes and nod my head fast. i put my hands behind his neck, trying to pull him down into a kiss but he doesn’t move. i look at him with puzzlement, “i mark you first.”, he says with a slight evil smirk. “what do you mean- oh fuck.”, i say as he cuts me off and begins sucking on my neck. i hear a muffled giggle from my neck, which i assume is from my reaction, but i don’t care. i tangle my hands in his hair moaning into his ear as he finds my sweet spot. i whine out in surprise we he suddenly disconnects from my neck. he studies the red and purple bruise on my neck with a smile, “look so pretty when bruise is on your neck instead of hands, yes?”, he asks.

this boy is seriously too close to pushing me to fuck him right here right now. i take a deep breath and respond with a weak, “mhm”, as i look at him with large eyes. he chuckles at that, and presses his lips into mine eagerly. the kiss quickly goes from sloppy and fast, to passionate and slow, our tongues dancing around eachothers mouths. he bites my lower lip softly and i moan out a whine. he disconnects with me quickly and i watch his pupils grow as shock runs through his face. “what’s wrong?”, i ask him, scared that i’ve done something wrong. “nothing wrong, i have to stop or i’ll end up fucking you. need to control myself.”, he tells me as he climbs off of me. “the sound you make, i never hear something so beautiful before.”, he says looking over to me with shock still on his face. he leans over to me and gives me a short, yet passionate kiss. i’m surprised he stopped himself. any other man i’ve dated would have ripped off my clothes and not controlled themselves. boris looks at me with a stupid smirk on his face, “don’t look so surprised new girl, i wait until you say is ok for us to go further, ok?”, he says to me. i smile up at him, “okay boris.”, i say scooting closer to him and lay my head on his chest. he examines me neck as i lay on him, “will need to cover if you don’t want potter to see.”, he says running his thumb over the bruise. “unless you’re ready to tell him now.”, he says and i can hear the smirk in his voice. i yawn as i feel his body heat under my cheek through his tshirt. “i’ll cover it up before the party.”, i say, my eyes suddenly feeling heavy. “take nap new girl, will the time go be faster.”, i hear him say as i drift of to sleep.

AN: sorry for the short chapter guys, i wanted to post tonight, but “the party” is still in the works! hope you guys enjoy this tiny bit of smut<33