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#i think its the cold making it worse
gammija · 3 years
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it's not that Jon doesn't know how to make tea in theory, or that he microwaves it or something- he's british, he has a kettle and knows how to use it
it's just that when hes got the water, he just puts it in a mug, dunks the first teabag he finds in it with a spoonful of sugar, and takes it to his desk, and then forgets about it so by the time he thinks "Ah right I had tea" it's lukewarm and way too bitter.
when Martin brings him tea, Jon is still prone to forgetting it, but Martin already takes out the teabag beforehand and may even pay attention to the best temperature to steep various teas, so even turned cold it's already an improvement
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michaelgovehateblog · 3 years
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Eyyy love student living we've realised our house has definitely got a massive damp/mould problem
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faaun · 3 years
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#personal#i have a fever and ive lost it a little and i hit my head pretty hard last night#they carried me in a trolley 15 minutes to home and watched me sleep for 20 minutes to make sure i didnt die#here comes black bear now crashing through the brush unphased by the thorns and branches that would hurt me to the touch#a flatmate checked on me every 10 minutes at 10 AM#we walked through the snow together today and she asked me if shes mean to me and i wanted to tell her you are but you are often more hurt#in your own anger . the mathematican did logarithmic equations last night . he laid next to me on the floor and told me not to be sad#i have a video of holding him and burying my head in his neck i remember needing him not to fall but we made each other worse and today#we all played a card game with so much calculation and speed and wit and i realised again the cleverness of everyone but mostly we were#terrified of her . she said i will be cold and turned into a machine . isnt andy short for android ? she looked at him and said yes#when he runs he runs the fastest he turns the earth right on its axis . we walked through the snow and took polaroids and they hit each#other with snowballs . i asked my boy with the long hair if i could hit him too . he said you dont have to ask so i did and all i could#think of was being blindfolded last night and feeling his hair and then his jaw . i remember saying hello and hugging him .#(i could recognise you in a millisecond this was no challenge at all) (so i took another shot anyway)#im sorry for crying for everyones death you must understand that politicians want us dead and i miss people who would have been alive had#not returned to the political minefield . im sorry for screaming communist theory inbetween tears . thanks for stroking my hair and saying#you know . thank you for not saying itll be okay#and when he stared across the river into my eyes it made me shiver and i knew that it was lovely to have a black bear thinking of me#i washed my hair and it turned pink . i am no longer a demon . i can rest for a while . im resting for a while . ill feel okay for a while.#ill go to viewings for houses and walk you home and ask if you need hot chocolate tonight and i said were sharing a cloud because its#snowing where she is too . she said look into the sky my eye - line will reflect yours . she has a sword at the back of her leg. her lips#are soft in the night . возможно она захочет поцеловаться до конца песни#turned the cards stared into your eyes stared at your hands stared at the spot where we both burnt our palms . i was winning until you#killed me in the last round and i thanked you for being a wonderful opponent . music saves you every time you fall . i knocked my head and#i cried about everything that made me heavy and now im okay . now im okay . now im okay#two kicked the tree and the snow came falling again . the one inside the future climbed it to shake the branches . i can remember him#smiling against my lips . i never want to feel it again and i smile back each time i think of it . a love so deep and platonic . i love you#i can read birdsong maps now . im covered in pink velvet . right abducens nuclei arent working right . i feed myself you feed the poor .#keep all the weakers bury the brave ! if i fall will you hold me ? you the psychologist with the blue photo and nuclear vision -#i think of you often . ill be okay . well be okay
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chisatowo · 3 years
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One interesting thing abt having decently old original stories and ocs is that they can rly be such a weird window to your past self's mental state
#rat rambles#oc posting#just got out of a therapy session and now Im thinking abt eternal gales and just wow its weird looking at some old or scrapped plot points#like for example its kind of funny watching as I gradually started caring more and more abt dodie as I got older#like 15 year old me made dodie's character arc perfectly for current me to relate way too hard to it hdmgxksg#and also just looking back on like. alpha and beats original story line and clearly being able to tell that I was trying to cope with a#rly shitty friendship at the time that I was scared to try and break off of#long story short alpha used to be WAY worse like comically evil and horrible I have heavily rewritten her now#but like for some less heavy things the way I went abt writing my trans characters is also very funny in retrospect#just me vc Im gonna make a nonbinary character and project my feelings abt my gender onto them anyways Im cis probably#also very funny how I made tali acearo specifically to spite inncocent uwu acearo baby and mean cold acearo person tropes#like I remember being so excited when I realised that I could just make my characters acearo if I wanted to and write the good#representation I desperately wanted to see in the world and also just very funny that tali quickly became one of my favorite ocs after that#also very fun looking at the timeline of me slowly making all of my ocs trans as I got more comfortable and confident in my identity#another very funny thing is rembering all of these guys's old code names from before I had actual names for them fhgndjd#aris was 'void scar' tali was 'party girl' dodie was 'cloud girl' sier was 'nonbinary kid' so on and so forth#except for bloom and the staliens theyve basically always had their names#snek actually got to just simply keep her code name though which is why shes named snek fncmfndkcb#eternal gales
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enden-k · 3 years
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Boy howdy, being sick sucks. I hope you feel better soon! If you're bored and looking for prompts, might I suggest extremely sexually charged horny sparring?
you might!! is it correct for me to assume you mean a spar between childe and zhongli? 😌
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danielmaslany · 3 years
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Daniel Maslany as Detective Watts in Murdoch Mysteries 12x01 - Murdoch Mystery Mansion
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zhuhongs · 3 years
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i rlly wish i was someone that liked cooking more. i rlly never have like. a back log of food that ive pre prepared that i can have whenever. whenever i cook i make small batch and if i make more it usually goes bad and i just wish i was more organized and ate out less. bc id save money also itd be easier to eat when im hungry rather than wait and figure out what i can make with what i do have and i rlly need to go shopping but money is limited also its 6am and i woke up bc my mom was loud getting my dog up for a walk and now i cannt go back to bed bc im hungry and :(((
#its cold.... all i have is... some eggs but also my egg making dkills are. laughable. non existent#i can cook but rlly. not that well. my speciality is spicing up premade food and making it good but homecooked. mostly from scratch kinda#meals ... i have like 4 dishes i can make well but when ive exhausted all of those dishes i rlly dont have much else i can do#and i want to make more food and get better but thats expensive (bc im rlly not a great cook so i mess up a lot so its painful to waste t#that food bc when i mess up i mess up BAD) and its time consuming and i have no time and its like a long r#process of getting better and i get dejected easily and hhhh. i rlly swore i was good at cooking back when i was in ms and hs. i swear ive#gotten worse. and its sooo sad bc i rlly liked to play it up like i was soooo good at domestic things and school and other stuff like i was#soooo talented and all rounded to make up for. a lot. but rlly im just average in a lot of things. which isnt bad!! but#its kinda. idk how to put it. sombering to realize at times l. esp when u rlly used to think you were above average#but average rlly isnt bad! i just have issues i need to sort thru. and ik i cant be good at everything but i want to#and its 6 am. im hungey and tired so obviously.... nit in my best state of mind#but god. it makes me think abt my friends that are living here alone with no family even like... remotely nearby. just making it work with#ease. like ik they have issues and its nit easy for them but god. theyre so impressive. it makes me annoyed when they try to make me seem#so put together like. no bestie. me having 2 jobs plus school and knowing the barest basics of a bunch of languages barely is nit nearly as#impressive as u all. living in the us alone. woth english as ur 2nd or 3rd language. going to school full time and working too. like....#yall are the impressive ones. what i do is the bare minimum#🐌.txt#idk its all just.. an act. and im rlly hungry
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timehascomeagain · 3 years
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yesterday truly honestly felt like spring it was so lifeaffirming. it felt like a turning point
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minglana · 2 years
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i have an exam at 4 and im gonna finish at 8 or possibly 9. death and pain and suffering
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shatar-aethelwynn · 3 years
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Dear brain,
Would it really be so terrible to, after so many maaany years of trying, accomplish that magical thing people talk about where you become capable of living on an early bird schedule simply by being consistent? Because this laying in bed unable to get to sleep because you insist that 10pm is peak activity hour is causing problems. Primarily that I have been "awake" for a little over 3.5 hours, have had my caffeine and food, and still feel like I will fall asleep the moment I close my eyes.
Thanks.
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danikoshi · 3 years
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Burying this under reblogs later cuz uhhh ksbejagsh
#Personal ramble time#don't screenshot these and reblog only for the art#sorry my behaviour has been eratic today#I just haven't been doing so hot lately and I guess if the more the pendulum swings one way the more it swings the other#been dealing with alot of schoolwork and close deadline stuff cuz honestly this whole online school system we have is just#really confusing and frustrating that I've either been putting off doing them or not knowing I have certain projects in the first place#God I hate online school so much..#I also have my side Kumon workbooks which are daily and have also been draining my time#I've also been dealing with more personal issues especially regarding my art#Everything just feels so confusing and frustrating#Lately these past few days things have only gotten worse as my aunt has been tested positive for COVID and I've now been forced to#interact with my mom more#She's not a bad person overall but she can end up hurting me alot#I've received nothing but a bipolar mix of neutrality and coldness and critizism cuz she thinks it'll push me to doing my schoolwork more#The thing is I suck as stress management and its only been stressing me and making me push my work away#it came to a top when I just experienced a full depressive episide all day and just couldn't bring myself to write a single essay#because I simply had no motivation and forcing myself to will only make me feel infinately worse#I recognize that this work is important and I should do it but it gets frustrating and draining#especially when people push me into doing it#I guess its that teenage rebellion thing#When I was finishing my exams yesterday I thought everything was looking up until everything just came crashing down later#And its worse since its all partly my fault#Sometimes I just wish our emotions had an on and off switch we can toggle so we can just do everything at full efficiency#My mom has apologized for her behaviour tonight which... I appreciate but everything she said for the past few days has drained me#I just want these bad habits and irrational anxieties to just go away so I can just view work like my art#just another part of my life that I don't have to fear#I've also haven't had the time to draw digitally much but its not really like I had the motivation to anyway#I guess thats another thing that iffs me#Again I just wish our emotions were optional#Sorry this was so long and personal
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slutdge · 4 years
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visual depiction of my mental health rn
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freshberries · 4 years
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this post is really only going to be understood by a relatively small niche of people but i think my biggest mental illness to date was the combined sabrina grimm and dean winchester playlist i made last night that's literally all just sad girl indie.
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majesticcowboy · 4 years
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Want to quit smoking weed...
#its just becoming expensive and id like to be able to function without help but i use it to manage anxiety and im just terrified of what ill#go through while trying to quit#its like anytime im slightly upset bored anxious i smoke and its just becoming a pacifier and i recognize in order to grow i have to stop#but im so anxious#but i wanna quit but i want to have that quick calm down but i also dont want to be reliant on it#im terrified im not strong enough and that i wont be able to find different healthier ways to cope with stress#also like im enabled so easily bc my mom never lets me run out so she doesnt have to deal with my shit mood her words#like i realize its as easy as just not letting my mom know ive run out but also it isnt that easy its been 12 hours and im already stressed#i remember i was able to quit cold turkey in highschool bc i couldve been kicked out of my nursing class but i have nothing like that now#my throats always sore from smoking and i hate that my things smell like ash or smoke and thats like one of the only other reasons to quit#it drains energy too lik ill smoke and then just go back ti bed so if i stop ill be able to do more#yeah its helping thinking about things that can improve instead of get worse#im worried my mental health wont improve but its nice to think it might#ill be able to enjoy old hobbies without the need for weed to make it pleasurable hopefully#wondering if people ever regreting clicking the see more thing on the tags bc it goes from a short post to a fuckin book lol#also sensory overload hits like a brick everytime i come down and i dont know if itll stop if i quit and thats terrifying
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decimateddreams · 4 years
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#*makes a weird little vent post that pisses myself off* hello mutuals read this if you dare discover the insignificant issues in my life :)#OKAY so#background is that we're getting building work on our house and Literally Everything that can go wrong does so my parents are very stressed#which is just tiring to be around so i stay in my room more and more to chill i guess#plus the social mask takes a lot of effort to maintain at school ya know? so i NEED to be alone a Lot just to regain energy#a general thing that my family loves is long walks :/ and i don't. so i just kinda begrudgingly go and not enjoy it (it's always cold!)#i always find a way to mess things up and it annoys my mum at the time if she's stressed (like using the wrong thing or spilling stuff)#i don't think they realise but that matters to me! plus i don't help much with washing up and doing things so they get annoyed about that#so at these times i feel like the disappointing one. like my sister always helps is competent and likes the right things like going on walks#today we went on a walk and i was all :/ and messed up minorly which my mum made an annoyed comment on so i was kinda sad and tired#i went to another room and was listening to music and told my mum I didn't want to watch this film with them because i was tired#and couldn't be bothered to process things! literally just a nd thing. i was trying to explain but i couldn't that well...#she was looking worried and stuff and asking questions and it upset me cause i need her to understand properly you know?#she even goes *are you Depressed? i'm worried about you* like no ma'am i'm autistic and you know that. who knows if i'm depressed#not me. but if i am it's not for those reasons. i shut myself off cause you're draining to be around. (i can't SAY that though)#oh she also goes *you haven't read a book for ages* valid but unimportant point. i'm burnt out okay...#if i thought telling them all the truth about yes i am sad. maybe i am depressed would help... i'd do it#but it would just get worse because i can't tell them everything (my mum is slightly conservative - i.e. homophobic-ish)#and she'd think being on my phone and staying inside all the time are the big issues when its the strain of constantly hiding my personality#and the world being like this. and school stress. and overthinking everything. and internalising thingsss#*sigh* *not like other girls voice* nO oNe unDerStAnDs mE#it's just frustrating and i need to get things said sometimes. if you read this you may be entitled to therapy <3#and That is the story of me quietly sobbing today once my mum left the room!#don't worry it happens. only intermittently. so i'm good NOW but who knows when the next breakdown will be!!!#can you tell i'm really confused about my feelings? but that's for another post :')#seriously though if you read these you get hugs (if you want them). i think about things too much.#c.docx#c/vent
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butchyena · 4 years
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i dont have a car and the scheduling with my dr’s appointment makes it so i basically have to arrive super early but like.... of all times to loiter with a light cough.......
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