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l00ney-m00ny · 2 years ago

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Uggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Every fucking month i get the worst fucking pain flare up and every damn time i always say “oh, it cant get much worse than this!” And every single time the next month rolls around and proves me wrong.

#pyro speaks #chronic pain #chronic illness #i think its the cold making it worse #thing about me is most of my life it was just simple #‘if you run or push yourself you’ll be in slight pai’#but like #nowadays its just random days are shitty and terrible #like #only halfway through last year i just started to have pain #which according to some meters ive seen its really only around this stage that that happens for peopel with my disability #but my mum has no drama whatsoever #and i get that it differs from person to person #i am a bit late with thsi after all #but i cant help but feel like im making a big deal out of nothing…#but its no nothing when i can hardly walk from pain #hypermobile eds #eds zebra #ehlers danlos awareness #ehlers danlos syndrome #hypermobile ehlers danlos #ehlers danlos zebra #ehlers danlos problems #hypermobility #leg pain #back pain #shoulder pain #arm pain #im gonna go bowling for my birthday #hope it doesnt turn out to be bad

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puppyeared · 1 year ago

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man

#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!!#and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

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theygotlost · 8 months ago

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chilling in my room with the anxiety levels of someone being hunted for sport 👍

#I FEEL BAAAAAAAAAD #i would go for (ANOTHER) walk but its cold and cloudy and windy and scary out there and i think it might make me feel worse

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liquidstar · 7 months ago

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I have abs not from working out but from coughing so much all the time for like a decade that I might as well have been doing crunches

#I've been to multiple doctors about the Unending Cough that I've had since i was like 16 and they're all just like idk bro #I've had xrays so probably nothing dangerous. so i just have to deal with the cough forever i guess #it's fine? I'm used to it. annoying mostly. sometimes i do think damn it would be convenient if i didn't cough all the time tho #esp for going to sleep. or in a quiet public place that's the worst #i think it's genuinely gotten worse though bc like #the kids always bring home 7 different colds at once and those linger for me way longer than everyone else #like there's the default cough and the advanced one. colds just make it 2x bad for like a month #and after a month they come home with a brand new cold #but you know what at least it gave me abs as a consolation prize #not like a 6pac to be clear im not ripped its just 11s lol

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monards · 5 months ago

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can a girl ramble aboutthe way you can interpret so many parts of the propaganda and characterization of rhine by other the people/general populace of teyvat as people largely antagonizing neurodivergent traits without being chased with pitchforks and torches.

#FUCKKKK DSOMMEBODY HEAR ME.#YES. i know shes a not a good person.#but half the shit she's described with by other sources #is so obviouslye exaggerated based onwho she is and NOBODDIESSSS talking abt it #'cold and unfeeling' MY ASS. THIS WOMAN WAS TALKING ABOUT EATING MOLD FOR A GOOD FOUR PARAGRAPHS ITSNOT THAT DEEP #the way she clearly a ton of albedo's behaviours but i dont see anybodyyyyy talk about it and just demonize her for it #THE HEXENSUCCESORS ARE ALL PARELLELS TO THE HEXENLADIES. THATS THE POINT #THE FACT RHINE LARGELY MIRRORS ALBEDO IS NOT A COINCEDENCE OR WEIRD INTERPRETATION ON ANYONES END.#the fact many of the trait she CLEARLY shares with albedo are demonized... HELLO..............#mond propaganda book writer gets shot IMMEDIATELY #-> i dont know guys. Maybe its also the fact she's probably traumatized from the. yknow. CATACLYSM. that made her a worse than albed #just maybe!#its sooo established that neurodivergence leads people to cope with stress different... Hello............ can we talk about this.........#NO HATE. but if I wathced my nation got destroyed > and this loser twink knight said i should've protected everyone/ when even HE DIDNT/#i wouldd also spiral. AND THATS CLEARLY WAHT HAPPENED ON SOME LEVEL.#if you read her hexenbook excerpt she is. quite literallh just sarcastic. blunt. and not emotionally experessive #WHICH ALIGNS WITH THE EXAGGREATED TRAITS SHES LATER CHARACTERIZED AS???#she literally JUST got worse symptoms as a result of trauma. why are we playing it up like this. “Great Sinner” my ass she's a woman ins te #they're all sinenrs if you really think about it. THEYRE IN STEM #-> the way neurodivergent women are demonized for sooo many traits they have just because it doesn't fit the mold of being a 'good women'#NOBODY IS TALKING ABOUT THIS. ITS MOND #THEYRE NOTABLY. NOT ALWAYS DOING THE BEST. WITH FREEDOM AND GOOD OPINIONS BC OF VENTI'S ABSENCESSSSSSSSSSSSS #NOSHIT THIS TAKE WOULD COME FROM THEM..... MAKE SOME SENSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #this is no hate because i love mond with alll my heart im just fucking insane over this. venti i love you #crepe rants

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koko2unite · 5 months ago

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so many expenses this month and most of it isnt even for me :(

#i hate that my family thinks i have lots of money even though my brother made a lot more than me #mom keeps telling me my brother might need it in the future so she refuse to ask him any #really shows that they do not respect me at all about this #and the worst thing is its always very sudden #a cold 5 min call where mom tell me “pay for this now! dont postpone it” and the payment is almost 1K #and my stupid ass cant even say no because if i say no they will make me feel guilty and then i feel like i wanna kms and end up paying anw #god #parents are gonna go on vacation soon #watch they'll be calling me soon to give them more money #and then go hom from there #and not bringing me any gift as usual #why should they care about the faggy child that failed to achieve his parents assigned goals #if anything putting all family expenses on me will quicken my death or worse force me to go back to them #so they can hold me and mold me back into what they want #i know their plan and i refuse to follow it #but they probably just need to shout on me once and i'll follow whatever their ask.. sad #i want to recoup by taking commissions but last time this happened and i took too many comms it ended up taking more than a month #i dont think i can handle that much anymore #AAAAAAAAA im tired

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br1ghtestlight · 7 months ago

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living alone & sick for the first time and have come across a difficult question: who washes the dishes when you're too sick/tired to do them for days at a time

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neurotypical-sonic · 2 years ago

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me n my hang ups about things being "realistic". maam this is about a talking blue hedgehog who runs at super sonic speeds you can break the rules a little

#BUT REALISM..... things have to be Right overwise my brain screams #anyways. i dont think if sonic had top surgery youd be to see scars from it #surgeons usually try to make it so theres minimal scarring as possible + plus the fur would cover it/make it harder to see #'oh but you've drawn him with other scars before' scars from trauma are often worse/more noticeable than scars that are Planned #also I do think he has a bunch of scars that arent visible #I'm not sitting on people who do draw him with top surgery scars I Love To See It #its just oj my mind and also Im bored trying to get home. public transport sucks. lots of waiting around and its dark and im cold :(#egg.txt

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meowsticmarvels · 3 months ago

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who else up thinking about the 3-4 month gap between ZTD's D-END 1/C-END and the reactors going off. it isn't rly elaborated on much but i think whatever happens there is very obviously extremely horrific and tragic the whole time. it makes me crazy to think about. there's probably timelines where sigma and phi and anyone else vital to the project didn't make it to april. more in tags. it is crazy and i need to know peoples thoughts

#obviously im biased towards phi so i think a lot qbout what she goes through. as patient zero of radical-6 #she knows what the virus is and cant stop it. has the guilt of accidentally killing q-team on her hands. diana didnt let her die to save #the world. that cannot mix well with the virus itself considering it drives its host to suicide a lot of the time #insanely painful situation to live through #if you get more specific about happenings sigma phi and diana TECUNICALLY did inhale hydrofluoric acid too. to make it worse #what would phi even like. do after she recovers other than the cold sleep thing and whatever made her realize the whole im like an x-factor #thing. i cannot imagine how it would feel. diana and sigma too considering sigma knows his fate and he's SEVERELY injured from the incident #diana's whole i will kill 6 billion people thing. aughh. so much guilt. akane preparing for her plan and infiltrating fts....ough #the only people idrk abt is carlos and junpei. im not a fan of what happens with junpei in c end but its. oh man. carlos also. maybe he #survived the radical-6 epidemic. maybe he didnt. i want to hope that he did.#it's genuinely just such an interesting time period that isnt rly elaborated on i would kill to read a fic that takes place during it #zero escape #ztd spoilers #ztd #zero time dilemma

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year ago

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i went on a walk and came back 60% more evil

#snap chats #you know that meme of spiderman holding back the bus while a kids walking across the street thats me @ myself right now #STOPPPP STOP BEING SAD STOP THINKING OF SAD THINGS TO DRAW OUUUUUGGGH theyd be SOOOO nice tho..#NOOOOO STOPPPPP its JUST angst for Everyone involved #this is what i mean my dad a fucking LIAR he be like 'go on a walk to feel better :)' father i came back with the intent to harm #with the intent to harm all ten people invested in the arakawa family i have come to be cruel #but NO. NO i said no more. wheres that electric fly swatter i need one of those #i have CUTE and WHOLESOME things on the menu THAT is the OBJECTIVE #my mental health keeps getting worse and it shows im trying to fight it with family fun time #who tf made that graphic of the mate in charge of ghibli movies and he's depressed as all hell im tryna live like that #i might be dying inside but let me make something pretty at LEAST #okokok let me actually start drawin onea them sweet things. the urge to lie down all day is strong but i shant i must be stronger #also dont walk outside it hot as hell out. im built like a lizard though thats perfect for me #but tryna sit in a cold place afterwards No Thanks.#ok my head hurts bye lets see if i come back with anything or the apathy wins

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago

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#love that when ur stressed and having a bad time it makes ur menstrual pain worse so you feel even more awful #like. yes. id love to get things done but unfortunately i need to go home immediately at 2pm bc i feel physically ill. vibes wretched.#im considering sleep here at 6pm but 2 b fair i think i only slept 4hrs last night. woof. tomorrow is gonna b interesting #i think the allergic reacting is abt over now tho. like im not really itchy anymore. the rash is still visible but i think its just dry now #bc of the cold. so was i ever reacting to the tatto0? or was it all the medication? im so interesting in what happened #would i not have had a reaction if i hadn't got a bunch of holes poked in my skin? or was it just a coincidence #that the rash started on that arm? ugh. so frustrating. and i think the psychiatrist forgot to actually book my appointment from when we #last talked so idk. maybe if i watch t4skmaster over and over it will heal my soul #ay. its all very frustrating. and i still dont have fucking autoclave access. fuck off. just give me the fucking key code #i just wanna pour plates 🫗 lol that actually looks a lot like pouring solid media. i dont wanna have to steal someone else's card to open #the door. who even locks up an autoclave??? they didnt at my old school and u could wheel a body into that thing. im pretty sure it was #bigger than this one. also there's another unlocked on on campus. why?! i ask ppl and fucking no one knows. that's just how it is #ugh. i should go to sleep. my tummy hurt #unrelated

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quietwingsinthesky · 9 months ago

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know that if i ship a character with one incarnation of the doctor, it automatically extends to all of them. i can’t be held back.

#this is why war/river rotstes in my brain constantly #its like. this is the part of himself he drove out of his mind. out of his history. locked down so tight because he couldn’t look at it.#and so much of river is. so much of her she cannot look directly at. she can only use it. she was trained as a child assassin? then she’ll #use that to get herself out of any situation. because she couldn’t. once upon a time. she couldn’t. but she can now.#but that gravity well of the inescapable past that hurt you worse than anything ever could. they could find something there.#common ground. perhaps. and the war doctor is rough but he is not unkind.#he did not close his eyes and think of the children that would be lost and make the choice with a cold heart.#he could not save them on his own. and river could not be saved. but they must go on. they must.#and in the same way that river knows the doctor’s name. the fact that she carries a picture of this face alongside the others. that she #knows this part of him exists is important to me.#also she should get to kiss that old man #but mostly its about the shared understanding of how they were shaped into the person they are. the thing that would make someone look at #their past and decide they have to be Other than a person. an oncoming storm. or a psychopath. because how can you be just a person and live #with what happened to you. better to give yourself a word for others to view you as. rather than let them see something you didn’t plan for.#there’s much to dig into here i swear im not insane

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switchblade-serenade · 11 months ago

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#i’m off and it’s a fuckin nasty storm outside #obv means its a wake and bake kind of morning #and all i can think about is someone shoving my face into the cold snow on the patio while absolutely littering my ass + thighs with welts #the cold air simultaneously soothing but making it worse #my face absolutely frozen/unable to escape it while being held down #alternatively!#it’s also v much the kind of weather for that slow cozy all day teasing which is also 🫠#switchblade.txt

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groupwest · 1 year ago

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grrrr i’m sick :-( and my nan has fucking covid >_< and its not fair. and i told my boss this and he still is asking me to come into work on the weekend like are you insane? do you think i’m lying?! grrrrr whatda faark

#i dont think i have it i think its just a cold or a flu. my tests havw all been negative so far #and i think my nan will be okay she seems to be handling it well. its making all her usual aches and pains so much worse though. :-((#december suuucks why does this have to make it suck even so much more

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frumdyke · 1 year ago

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killing my brothers bc every time they get a cold tgey spread it to me sooooo fast as if im not chronically ill and won't take double as long as them to recover

#its been less than a month since the flu and now i already can't breathe again :((#every time i get a cold its worse than the last one. i think i have to make my brothers mask to hang out with me

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readymades2002 · 2 years ago

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briefly confided in my mother (mistake i never learn from) about how i am very sad that my ability to have a social life in the world is tied entirely to my sibling, who will be leaving here soon, and how i do not have any other way to get out of the house and how i do not feel i have anything besides work and despite everything that came after, including an apology for saying it, the first thing she said was “well i don’t have anything else either” which is exactly what prevented me from saying anything earlier because i knew that and i know that she is very good at going “it is what it is” about the most miserable of conditions and so would never admit to being unhappy about anything even though there is so much to be unhappy about including having to raise me to begin with, and that she also gets annoyed when others complain or are unhappy about anything because SHE does it and so why can’t everyone do it. and. well. i am pretty nervous about what this means for my life (nonexistent) going forward

#it is a cold thing to say but i feel like i have like. a month to befriend my sibling's friends that will be staying here #enough to want to spend time with me or else i am never going to get out of this fucking household #i dont have many coworkers my age and even fewer that i talk to because i dont like talking to people very much #which is also a massive problem because i want to but i am weird and shy and not always a fan of people and again very strange #but i can barely functionally navigate the world on my own to an upsetting degree. if i dont have someone with me i cant do it.#i am kind of freaked out about all of this. i have today off and work late tomorrow and i wanted to maybe go out tonight #but i. can't. because no one here wants to and im fucking scared to death of calling (and paying for) an uber #and then being out in the world on my own. so i just get to stay here.#not even mentioning i am fairly certain there is a new wave of That Virus going around so what would even happen if i did #which is also fuckinggggg miserable i am the ONLY PERSON who wears a mask to work besides the deli department #drops head in hands im never going to befriend anyone im never going to go anywhere again im never going to touch anyone #i do not want to say this because i am a very repressed person but i am never going to hook up with anyone which is disappointing frankly #i can BARELY text anyone and i am often in too much pain to even walk to the one thing i can do alone which is the library #like. oh my god! my life has no meaning. i trudge along thinking 'maybe it will get better'#and its not all been bad i DO have kind of an almost social life when my sibling takes me to do things with their friends #i got to play dee n dee yesterday and it was cool even though i panicked a few times under attention #ive been able to do things. i have some coworkers i like or at least talk to. im very competent and people like that though they know #nothing else about me besides that im good at my job.#but having those moments of like honest to god Hope makes it feel infinitely worse the rest of the time when im just #staring at the clouds and the clock and thinking oh my god it was all for this and it was not worth it #whatever. classic post of buzz. this doesnt matter and i dont know what the point in talking about it is but i dont have anything else #a job im good at and hate and a blog where i complain and a death wish and thats all. an unbearable early 20s myopia #this is stupid im going to do something else since ive upset myself. AGAIN

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