#i think its because i so badly want to be good at it

[frownyalfred]

ghhh i'm so crazy about this noncon fortress bitching idea. 1000/10 horror, I'm personally terrified of Bruce being stuck with that uncanny form of the man he's wanted so badly. its a fucking house of horrors. like being constantly ripped in half. because on one hand, he feels GOOD so good hearing Clark's voice. and it's clark in every way. it sounds like clark. it looks like clark. it SMELLS like clark. saying every sweet word Bruce has ever wanted to hear, assuring him and trying to soothe his [abject terror] anxieties. almost convincing him the first time the ai introduced clark's form to bruce. but on the other hand, there are little tells that Aren't Clark, give away the ai's intentions. so beyond unsettling that Bruce never sees real Clark the same again. every time he catches one it violently rips him out of whatever brainwashing was starting to take hold and makes him feel even worse, exhausted, and primed for another round of manipulation.

"Kal" barely even gets to touch him after Bruce catches on. but one or twice when Bruce crashes from exhaustion, he wakes up to it standing over him. examining Bruce's new body. another round of sweet words and promises and praise and Bruce is so tired he just.. stops fighting. everything is too much, years of priming and small acts of horror and desire and pain and days' worth of exhaustion is more than he could ever train for. The fortress's accomplishment is unprecedented as Bruce slowly submits to its will.

and then real Clark rescuing him from the fortress??? Bruce coming undone from just a touch after being edged endlessly. he's sensitive and wired and still so terrified. his brain doesn't recognize that this Kal is real at first and Bruce just looks so scared as he breaks down after the high, wailing quietly (something clark has NEVER witnessed Bruce do) as Clark carries him back home.

hey so uhhhhh sorry for rambling in your ask box LMAO,, i thought i'd have nothing to say, i just wanted to tell you i'm crazy about this concept. like, i can feel it in my bones.

I think it’s even worse if it takes Bruce’s brain more time each round to find the flaw in Kal and spot the Fortress. The rooms and scenes are different every time. Familiar places. Memories from their past. It’s what Bruce wants but there’s this feeling that something is wrong. Kal is clingy, and he can’t leave for some reason. But as the modifications take hold, Bruce cares less and less. Or maybe he just can’t think as rationally after a certain point. When the real Clark finds him, how does he convince him it’s real?

[war-in-time]

one of the things that stood out to me while reading sotr it's its inconsistency throughout the whole book. why haymitch didn't get killed by snow? he was not as valuable as beetee, so i don't understand. the kid clearly had an agenda of some sorts that was showing, so what was the reason? collins gave us none. and all i could think about while reading his time in the arena was: how much wasted potential we got here. i don't know, i guess i was waiting for some kind of torture (snow loves it) like the birds in cf when katniss and finnick had to hear their loved ones screaming in terror, something that said: my guy, i'm watching your every move and if you wanna play some kind of twisted game i'll show you how much of a good player i am myself. instead.. we got nothing much apart from haymitch being some kind of pawn in plutarch and beetee's big flop of a plan (and the milk). and i'll say it: who else recruits some average kid for a rebellion plan? y'all don't even know him! treason and betrayal are meaningless words to you? haymitch could've easily sold plutarch to snow at any given moment but as mayselee put it, he doesn't have a backbone (or was this suzanne trying to sell us the idea of haymitch having morals after all? this and all the newcomer stuff). worst of all, plutarch himself gets away with it while haymitch loses everything - the man's not even remorseful or helps the naive child he recruited after the games, he just says something in the lines of: yeah i'm sorry shit happened we handpicked you but turns out the odds were not in your favor .. lmfao are you kidding me! and then what happens in the trilogy? haymitch once again tries to have faith in plutarch even though this means the possible sacrifice of the only two children he's, let's say, fond of. and what happens once again? haymitch loses someone he cares about - peeta - and i can't recall a moment of tension between haymitch and plutarch that katniss witnesses or hears of. sure, it could've happened off screen but really? if i was him i would've strangled the man and side eyed him the whole time. wasn't after all his fault if his ma, brother and love of his life got killed? because he made him believe he could some change, even when he himself didn't believe in it? poor haymitch, in the end he ended up just like gale: used and then tossed away like he was nothing, blaming himself for something he had a hand in but was not entirely his fault

This won’t be the answer you want but Haymitch didn’t get killed by snow because he had plot armour. We know that Haymitch is the victor of his games so there was never going to be any real tension in the book regarding his safety. That being said; if Collins wanted to write about Haymitch doing more during his games instead of just walking towards the edge of the arena, she could have done so without adding in a subplot that would get any normal character that didn’t have plot armour killed.

If she did want to keep the very stupid “blowing up water tank subplot” she needed to write the conflict from that point on in the book a lot better, stronger, and overall more believably. This is actually where I’m hoping the screen writers for the movie will do a better job, I’m hoping they’ll see that Haymitch needs to be under attack from this moment onwards because they definitely won’t cutting the water tank destruction from the movie.

Haymitch needed to be chased by mutts as soon as he got out of the tunnel from where he blew up the tank. When the control room got flooded it should have had consequences on the whole arena. I genuinely thought that the volcano would blow because of his interference, but if I’m remembering correctly it didn’t happen until a day or so later. It is wasted potential because we don’t even get to see any real lasting consequences of his actions in the arena. Not just some trees bleeding but the entire arena actually going wonky. Clearly this was all a very badly written subplot in concept and worse in execution.

I think I’ve brought this one up before but you’re right, why would two rebels recruit a random teenager they don’t know? For all they knew he could have gone up to Snow and been like: “hey~ I just had two of your people tell me they want to blow up the arena, if we can make some kind of deal that gets me home alive I’ll tell you who they are.” Haymitch has no reason to trust Plutarch or Beetee, and they have no reason to trust him. Haymitch wasn’t even a rebel according to sotr, Lenore was. She was the only reason he even thought about doing anything to break his games, and it would have been more organic for him to think of his own way to do so instead of getting enlisted to basically be a soldier inside the arena for the rebellion. Something like, oh I don’t know; using a forcefield he shouldn’t know exists to kill his opponent?

I know I’ve mentioned the Plutarch thing before too, because it’s not believable. Why would Haymitch ever trust Plutarch with Peeta and Katniss’ lives in the 75th games if Plutarch is by extension responsible for Haymitch’s family and girlfriend being dead? Especially since according to sotr he never lets go of Lenore, so Collins expects us to think that Haymitch is not only hanging onto a grudge but also helping the man that got his family killed? Both of those can’t be true at the same time, not with Haymitch’s attitude in CF and MJ towards the rebels.

Haymitch does care about Peeta and Katniss, that’s not even a debate, he might show that care in a somewhat crude manner usually but they’re probably the only two people he thought he’d get to hold onto because victors are relatively safe from the capital. This is the scene right after Katniss realizes Snow is using Peeta against her:

“Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. I reach out to him and say something like his name and he’s there, holding me and petting my back. “It’s okay, it’ll be okay, sweetheart.” He sits me on a length of broken marble pillar and keeps an arm around me while I sob.”(MJ.163).

So if Haymitch lost Peeta because of Plutarch again, there would have been a huge fight, and that’s not something that Collins can retcon in now because the books are all out, the movies are all done, there is no way to change how Haymitch acted towards Plutarch in either CF or MJ. We don’t see any tension between Haymitch and Plutarch, or anyone else in the rebellion for that matter, when they’re all in D13. And remember Haymitch was forced into sobriety while there so if he’d been screwed over by the rebellion at 16, and we’re expected to believe that he’s still constantly thinking about his dead girlfriend, he wouldn’t bring her up and throw that in anyone’s face? When Haymitch tells Katniss about snow killing his family in MJ he isn’t bitter, he isn’t lying like sotr implies he is, and he tells Katniss very flatly:

"No. My mother and younger brother. My girl. They were all dead two weeks after I was crowned victor. Because of that stunt I pulled with the force field," he answers. “Snow had no one to use against me."

"I'm surprised he didn't just kill you," I say.

"Oh, no. I was the example. The person to hold up to the young Finnicks and Johannas and Cashmeres. Of what could happen to a victor who caused problems," says Haymitch. "But he knew he had no leverage against me."

"Until Peeta and I came along," I say softly. I don't even get a shrug in return. (MJ.172-3).

This is part of the reason why retconning so much of what we know about Haymitch in sotr doesn’t work. We already have all the information we needed about his man, directly from him. If Haymitch was the example in MJ it makes no sense for Beetee to be the example in sotr, because clearly it didn’t work? It’s frustrating, and there are so many problems with sotr existing as a prequel that I don’t even have possible solutions for how to fix it without retconning majority of sotr to realign it with canon again.

It’s genuinely going to be easier for my mental health, and anyone else who doesn’t care for this book, to just ignore its place in the canon.

[clegfly]

HAUSISISI YEAH… HONESTLY THOUGH ITS SO FUN TO READ. JUST…. GOING THROUGH IT AND SEEING JUST HOW BAD IT TRULY IS IS. IS SO FUNNY. LIKE GOD DID YOU PLAY IT. DID YOU PLAY THE GAME.

Also youre so right this scene made me SO upset because it showed me that occasionally the manga can be REALLY good and extremely impactful if they try. But they categorically outright REFUSE to try in favour of fan service which is so bad

Also elephant in the room but. The manga was ALWAYS destined to fail unless the author REALLY understood the source material and tried REALLY hard, and even then it wouldn’t have worked because omocat stated explicitly like. God is it. 11 years now?? 11 years ago that omori’s story just DOESNT WORK as a manga, they tried themselves and just couldn’t.

Of course they meant that in regards to the PRIMARY medium the story would be expressed in. With how good the game was I totally get wanting to test out more mediums!!! And that’s when I think the manga’s at its best, when it’s trying to twist and experiment aspects of the story to create really cool, haunting or emotional scenes. It’s only ever really done that twice though… and it’s yet to move me emotionally like even slightly. Mari and omori’s little scene at the end of chapter four is the only thing that has come close to actually making me feel in the manga because it was new, and it was SAD.

That’s why they should utilise these scenes more, focus on adding instead of removing- because what will make the old fans emotional is seeing moving scenes they’ve NEVER seen before, that they don’t expect. The manga could NEVER replicate final duet because that scene is not only from a well paced and well written story, but also relies heavily on its medium. I’m confident that, if the manga actually put effort into its writing, it could make its OWN scenes that stand out and work BECAUSE they are from omori the manga, and not omori the game. But they don’t try. The try every… what, four chapters? To include a cool scene, and then go back to a horrible rehash of the original game that could be so, so good. Honestly I think the manga should have been a spin-off or something about one of the other characters because at least they wouldn’t be bastardising the original game this badly.

ANYWAYS sorry for the quick manga rant HHSUSJSUS I really hate complaining about things but GOD it just grinds my gears. Like. So tempted to study the manga art style and make my own out of SPITE at this point

Plus a smaller thing about this chapter that put something into perspective for me and REALLY irked me about it- this chapter had a warning going in about omori’s content and themes- which is a good thing!!! Except. This is. The first fucking chapter to do that, because it is the first one that explores these themes. The FIRST.

Like I’m sorry but this a: feels way too late to be warning audiences that the story theyre reading is going to contain these subjects, in my opinion the manga should have made it clear from the get go that these themes were involved Because they are such a MAJOR part of the game and it’s story. Like SUCH A MAJOR PART. You should NOT be telling audiences this late!!!!!! Though I suppose nobody who hasn’t already played the game would be invested in this slop but. Still. This is something the game did effectively by putting in its description and a compulsory screen at the very start of the game. It feels weird to only tell people NOW since it’s going to be so heavily involved in the story

And that brings me to my second point b: its GOING to be so heavily involved in the story. “GOING to be” because This is no joke the FIRST FUCKING CHAPTER to discuss one of the game’s main themes. I. Am I losing it????? Am I fucking losing it????????? This is the FIRST CHAPTER omori stabs himself. WHAT. WHY. WHY DID YOU WAIT THIS LONG TO ESTABLISH THIS????? WHAT????????

THIS IS MEANT TO BE SOMETHING CLEAR AND DEEPLY INTERTWINED WITH THE GAMES NARRATIVE FROM THE GET GO. LIKE WITHIN THE FIRST HOUR OF GAMEPLAY. IF THE MANGA ACTUALLY CARED ABOUT THE GAME’S PACING EVEN SLIGHTLY, THIS SCENE WOULD HAVE BEEN IN. CHAPTER FUCKING TWO. BUT ITS HERE. SIX CHAPTERS OVERDUE. I AM GOING TO SCREAM EXTREMELY LOUD

AND THATS NOT EVEN THE WORST OFFENCE THE MANGA HAS IN TERMS OF HANDLING TYE MAIN NARRATIVE. WAIT UNTIL I TELL YOU ABOUT HOW THEY. NO. FUCKING. JOKE. PUT THE TRUTH SEQUENCE IN CHAPTER FOUR. CHAPTER. FOUR. AND FUCKED THAT UP TOO!!!!!

YOU CANT SEE IT VERY WELL BECAUSE IM HAVING STORAGE PROBLEMS SO MY CAMERA ROLL QUALITY GOT NUKED BUT. THIS PHOTO DEPICTS MARI FALLING DOWN THE STAIRS. THATS RIGHT. IT DEPICTS THE MAIN TWIST OF THE STORY IN CHAPTER FOUR. CHAPTER FOUR IM LOSING MY MIND IM LOSING IT IM GOING TO BASH MY HEAD AGIANST THE FUCKING WALL

IF YOU WANT TO BE FAIR YOU CAN SAY YOU COULDN’T REALLY TELL WHAT WAS GOING ON WITHOUT CONTEXT BUT I DONT WANT TO BE FAIR. THIS IS NOT SOMETHING YOU SHOW YOUR READERS IN THE FOURTH CHAPTER. THE PHOTO IS LIKE THE FOCAL POINT IN BOTH THESE PANELS SO YOU ARE LOOKING AT IT. WHY OH WHY WOULD YOU ACTUALLY SHOW HER FALLING. WHY NOT SHOW LIKE ANY OTHER TRUTH PHOTO. THE VIOLIN MAYHAPS. HELL EVEN SHOW MARI HANGING!!!! THE READERS ALREADY KNOW SHES DEAD SO YOU COULD MISLEAD THEM INTO BELIEVING THE WHOLE NARRATIVE SUNNY AND BASIL SPUN AROUND IT EARLY ON BY PLANTING THEORY BAIT LIKE THE GAME DID BEFORE PULLING THE RUG OUT FROM UNDER THEIR FEET BUT. NO. THEY JUST STRAIGHT UP SHOW IT TO YOU. IN CHAPTER FOUR. SOMEBODY PLEASE SEDATE ME

OH AND DONT GET ME STAFTED ON THE FACT THAT ITS FROM SUNNY’S PERSPECTIVE INSTEAD OF BASIL’S. DO NOT GET ME FUCKING STARTED. IM DONE IM DONE RANTING AND RAMBLING AND SCREAMING I HAVE SPENT HALF AN HOUR JUST RAGING ON THIS POST BSJSJSJSJSK. GOD I FUCKING HATE THIS FUCKING MANGA

Okay manga chapter eight is out is this a good time to mention that I made a bingo card for this. YEAH. Gonna go read it and return with my results unless i got nothing right in which I will not post them out of SHAME

[marnerism]

crazy to say this but i have my first hockey class today

[triglycercule]

alright,,,,,is this newyears gift,,,,,, i dont no. but maybe it's late enough that i'll be able to forget that i drew this 😁😁😁😁 mttpoly doodles. whoever sees this sees this

[corntired]

Fanfiction is so goated actually

No monetary incentive, just writing in one's free time. Some incentive for like kudos and comments, because who doesn't want to hear that someone else enjoyed what they wrote. Just writing a story that is good and/or enjoyable, no real-life pressure to keep it going because god forbid you and other people are depending on it financially.

Writing a story because you want to write a good story, so you can write what they want the way you want, at a pace that is realistic for you, with exactly the plot pacing you want there to be.

[dad-fucky]

Thinking about meeting with my tutor after their class to talk about my performance, my direction in life and my aspirations and goals. Only taking it half seriously as i take everything, their genuine concern and guidance met with avoidance more than dismissal, but still frustrating for them. They tell me im a smart man, with a potential they would hate to see me waste because of apathy. I listen to placate them more than anything else. When they say that it would benefit me to plan for my future, to find my passion and dedicate myself to it, i scoff lightly, breaking eye contact and smiling a little as i brush off their earnest pleading with a teasing "yeah, whatever dad." When i look back after a beat, their face has changed. The stillness and silence in the room suddenly tight with tension as i realise they didn't brush that one off. They look me up and down with a casual sort of surveyance as i break eye contact again, swallowing thickly as i try and fail to keep my breathing steady. "Look at me." Their voice is smooth and even. My obedience is instant. They speak more concisely now, more deliberate. As they continue I'm hanging on their every word, as if under a spell, nodding gently in answer to any questions, otherwise still and rapt. We sit in silence for a few moments. "Sometimes," they begin, slow and calm, "a person will need more guidance than a classroom allows." My heart is beating so hard against my chest im sure they can hear it. "If you would let me, i want to give that to you." Im dizzy. I feel myself nodding quickly. "Speak up." Its a gentle correction, but i feel like i'm on fire. "Yes."

"Yes, Daddy." They correct.

"Y-yes. Yes, Daddy." We sit in the silence again, me firmly in their grip, waiting on their command.

[shroomerr]

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!! here's some of my fave/most popular art I did in 2024 <3

[maraschinotopped]

i remembered that nothing is stopping me from making as many deviantart-style stamps as i want. so obviously i dropped everything i was doing and started making them. these have no practical use to anybody but they were fun to make so thats basically all that matters!!

part 2

[ratatatastic]

"he makes me a kinder human cuz I don’t think I’m a particularly nice person but i work hard at being kind. he does it right? like he's hard competitive and kind. and we should aspire to that."

paul waxes poetic about sasha for the (draws tally) millionth time for two whole minutes and it all sounds like a love confessional

Primetime Panthers | 12.6.24 (x)

[sideblogdotjpeg]

have been thinking about professor sol even. professor bufo with no clearly discernable lesson plan. sol bufo ostensibly martial arts professor who spent two weeks running a yoga and meditation program and shows up to the next class with crochet hooks for everyone. professor bufo who is technically supposed to be assigning grades to students but hasnt given anyone less than an A because "i think they worked really hard and they did a great job :)" (referring to the ugliest and most malformed pot holder anyone has laid eyes upon in their life). professor bufo who is on his way to cluelessly kickstart the sexual awakening of about half the cohort of the academys new students. sol bufo adjunct professor who is gone half the year and his first class back is so immediately and easily baited into going into a long tangent about how cool his friends are. sol who is pretty sure hes easily the most useless professor on campus and almost cries when he sees his little desk overflowing with thank you notes at the end of the year. professor bufo absolutely fucking gloriously hot in the tightest little sweater vest because there were faculty complaints when he wore a crop top to class.

[sisislair]

Neeeeeed a malevolent g/t fic, either with John getting his own eldritch body while they're in the dreamlands or after they leave with him projecting one out. I'm talking Arthur's smaller than one of his fingers.

Something happens, Arthur wakes up, either on the ground or already in John's hand. Can't decide which. And he's blind! So he can't tell what's going on at first. But then something shifts above or below him and he gets concerned, John's been awfully quiet.

He's getting worried, calling out. And then if he's on John's hand?(Eldritch entity, that thing is going to be only vaguely handish) he's getting too close to the edge, or if he's on the ground he's getting too close to John's tentacles/feet. Either way John calls out for him to stop, and it's deafening.

It's always felt like John was talking directly into his skull, and this feels like that too with the way it rolls through him, but in away that reminds him more of the king in yellow. Both in his head and a physical rolling presence that vibrates his bones.

Arthur is understandably, freaked. He thinks it's the king, that John's been taken and he's being toyed with. Takes some arguing for Arthur to believe its John, and then he gets frustrated that John won't tell him what's wrong or what's going on. In their argument John gets frustrated and either grabs Arthur from the ground or closes his fist around him depending on the starting position.

It's terrifying.

He is enfolded, enclosed, in something massive and shifting, and he can't make sense of where he is in space other than that he's moving, or is that just the thing shifting around him? He feels claustrophobic. He can't breathe. He can't breathe the space is moving and it's closing in on him.

Meanwhile John is momentarily pleased that he's gotten Arthur to shut up, before jumping to concerned because Arthur's brain is sending out a lot of very concerning panic/crumbling into madness symbols, and he can hear him hyperventilating.

He unfolds his grip, and Arthur's just trembling there for a good while. John attempts to soothe him with his voice, starts describing their surroundings. Maybe even begins petting him a bit?

Arthur eventually calms down, and they talk a bit about what happened. John still dances around it a bit because he doesn't want to make Arthur scared/angry, but since he's already fucked that up he decides to come clean.

Arthur's a bit hesitant/defensive at first. This is a major shift in their physical power dynamic after all, and he hasn't forgotten what being grabbed felt like.

"Describe yourself to me."

"...ok"

[sleepyseals]

[Image Description: Two unfinished digital paintings / sketches of the hatchling and Hal from outer wilds. they are standing with their arms around each other and the hatchling has their head leaning on hal's shoulder as hal watches the supernova in the distance through the doorway of the museum. the first image is the scene viewed from behind with everything lit in bright blue with dark shadows. the second image shows hal's face looking in fear towards the light and is only partially colored, the rest sketched over a gray background. End Image Description.]

something you'll run back in for when the house burns down

[torchickentacos]

The pokemon anime subreddit fascinates and frustrates me on equally deep levels

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

im so infinitely stressed rn i need to get off here

[icewindandboringhorror]

It's always interesting to hear about people's weird/unexpected "alternate life paths". Like, something that you could have done with your life, a job you almost took, a school you almost went to, etc - that was still actually realistic enough that it could have happened, but NOW it seems to not suit your current personality.

Like for example, I currently hate advertising (how manipulative it is, brands trying to be 'relatable', social media amplifying it to an obnoxious extreme, etc.) so much that even seeing a little ad before a youtube video is grating to even witness, but there was a point in time where I was genuinely seriously considering going into marketing/making commercials as a career lol. Or like, I have a relative who was very inclined to be a pastor when they were younger, even though today they're a super strong atheist, etc. etc.