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The ship name switch actually comes from manga/anime fandoms! I haven't been in any recently, but back in ye old days people could get very intense about who tops and who bottoms and switches were practically unheard of, so the names were kinda necessary. NaruSasu vs SasuNaru for example. You won't believe how much people fought over positions, it even got parodied in some japanese media. On a slightly related note, are you okay with top al content where the characters are properly portrayed? Or none at all? No judgment, we all should enjoy the fandoms however we like ^^
Oh 👀 that makes sense I wouldn't have heard about it then. I watched a handful a anime, but the only one I dipped my toes into was My Hero Academia, and even then, I didn't go that deep. I read a few fics, but that was the extent of it.
Fighting over who tops, bottoms, and switches is so silly. An argument can be made for any character being a top, bottom, or switch, because sexual preference/positions isn't something that can determined by a handful of personality traits. There's no check-list a characters has follow to be "deemed" a top. Or a bottom. Or a switch.
At the end of the day, it's literally just what the fan prefers for that pairing. And I think the more people accept that they can like specific dynamics without having to argue for their right to like it, the better and less-toxic a fandom will be. You should never have to defend why you like a character, or a ship, or anything else, because sometimes you just like it. You vibe with it. No other reason required.
As for the top!Al content, it can be kind of tricky to deem something as "properly portrayed" when, technically, everyone's portrayal is going to be different, and every portrayal isn't going to be 100% in-line with the show.
I think considering something as properly portrayed is wholly dependent on the fan and how they relate to the show and the characters. No fanfiction or fanart is going to be completely true to the show or characters. I don't even think that's possible XD Fans inject so much of themselves and their experiences into fan-content, that every portrayal can be considered properly done given the right audience.
But, if top!Al and bottom!Luci were written in a different way--maybe something that didn't UwU-ify Lucifer so much or make Alastor out to be this big, domineering alpha-male--I think I could like it.
I'm very picky with characterization. There are some details I can easily overlook, but depending on how certain things are written, it can take me out of the story so badly I can't even force myself to finish reading. (Believe me, I've tried. I found a Spideypool fic once that was so well written it was love at first sight. The humor was on point, the plot was intriguing, the dynamic between them was fun, but there was a small, little, itty-bitty detail in their interactions that kept popping up and it took me out of the fic so bad, I couldn't keep going. I tried to finish the fic, multiple times, but I never got very far.)
Funnily enough, when I was first scouring the internet for content after the show ended, I actually bookmarked a handful of top!Al and bottom!Luci on Twitter. But with how it's currently being portrayed across the fandom, any enjoyment I had for it has soured. I just don't vibe with the majority of top!Al I see now.
I've always liked bottom!Al though, and I've been seeing a lot more content for it lately! I've been eating well 😋
#who knows maybe if I find the right top!Al content i'll enjoy it again#actually i think talking about how much i dislike the current portrayal of it HAS helped interact with it more#there were a couple of top!al pictures on twitter that I actually didn't mind#i think I just needed to vent LOL#but still#im a picky eater#and thats no real fault to any other content creator#my brain is just built that way#asks#anon#anonymous#radioapple#appleradio#top!Alastor#bottom!Alastor#hazbin hotel#alastor#hazbin alastor#hazbin hotel alastor#the radio demon#lucifer morningstar#lucifer magne
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on loneliness jenny slate / japanese breakfast, posing for cars / corinne von lebusa, big glow / dadushin / alejandra pizarnik, tr. me / fka twings, home with you / avocado_ibuprofen / fiona apple, left alone / anne carson, “the anthropology of water”, plainwater / kiki smith, free fall / alejandra pizarnik, diaries
#hi my post#oooooohhh this is just a compilation of my own feelings lately#i know i have a red de apoyo i know i have my dearest friends but it's so hard to not feel alone when we're so far away#idk i just miss school and having someone to talk to everyday i'm not a text gal i need to hear your voice i need to see you i need someone#to caress my hair i need contact i need closeness i need to know somebody hears me#it's not all bad i do love my solitude but i just .... i just think in a room full of people nobody would choose me#lol i'm gonna stop now i just always use my tags as a venting space xd#also yes i had the audacity to translate alejandra pizarnik but i just couldn't find that bit already translated and i really wanted it her#web weaving#on loneliness#loneliness tag#being alone#jenny slate#japanese breakfast#posing for cars#corinne von lebusa#dadu shin#alejandra pizarnik#fka twigs#home with you#fiona apple#left alone#anne carson#plainwater#kiki smith#parallels#poetry#prose#words#lyrics
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#and before anyone who hates my shit says “yeah because you ARE a loser way to have self awareness for once”#i promise you this would be me with or without the LO fandom LMAO#anxiety is a hell of a thing#and as much as i internally guilt myself into thinking it would be better if i just shut up and hid away forever#i also know that's the trauma speaking because the adults around me always told me to shut up#and even as an adult i still encounter people who talk over me and make me feel like i'm not allowed to be outspoken#but the pen is mightier than the sword and all those years i've spent being spoken over i've been honing my penmanship#i have fun talking about the things i talk about and i don't have any less right than anyone else to do it#i am cringe and i am free#self post#vent post#altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read#too many of my favorites have turned to shit and it's taken its toll#i KNOW there are better comics out there that are genuinely well made#i already have a few that i'm reading that i love but i need to balance out the good with the bad more lol#i just need to take the time to go find good stuff instead of pouring so much of my attention into the bullshit that doesn't deserve my tim#i think both things can be true#i can have a lot of fun dissecting and writing about series i don't like#while also nourishing myself with good works that restore my faith in this medium#“perfectly balanced as all things should be”
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i think you can be as critical about the venezuelan opposition and maría corina and edmundo as you want but arent venezuelans allowed to choose for themselves even if the options arent perfect? are you willing to justify electoral fraud and police brutality, class inequality, bad management of resources, lack of maintenance of the country, breach of the law, lack of investment in health services and education etc etc just because the person doing it is someone you like or because you don't like the other option? are people at fault for wanting something different?
#i don't like idolizing politicians either in fact i dont think anyone should#a government official being good to the people would literally just be doing their job#but there are reasons for how much people love maría corina as of now and it's because shes one of the few members of the opposition#that has not completely given up on us or just sold themselves to the regime#from the days of chavez and when nobody would pay attention to her or think she would accomplish anything#people are allowed to have hope#and im very sick of this tendency to dehumanize other countries(particularly those from the third world)#and act like they cannot defend themselves or choose for themselves#when they try they are told not to and to let others do the job. how fair is that?? who are you helping?#if maría corina and edmundo fail us it would just turn into what we are already living through. we know it already#if they keep their promises and things go well or at least better then yay!#but we know what's going to happen under maduro#the country will keep deteriorating until everybody either dies or leaves#or people will keep living miserably#i thought people liked the idea that you shouldnt have to work out of your ass to have your neccesities covered!#well people are exploited here on the daily and don't have access to half things they need#let alone pursuing their dreams. theyre not allowed to dream#it's either we die or we don't die for me#i want to see my country healing thats all. you think maduro will give us that? absolutely not#it's always like this with countries that others view as just a land of natural resources or as a land of dumb poor people to project onto#just allow us to see where this goes. it's what the people chose. respect it.#oh ok vent over#Venezuela#this is very messily written i havent had breakfast yet#not to mentionnnnnnnn people on other places know what it's like having to choose for the lesser evil but when vzla does it it's wrong. lol#chavismo is not going to save anyone other than the regime. even chavistas themselves die under it#a lot of us were born under chavismo and want to see life outside of it
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the side effect of having had a reallyyyy awkward phase in middle / high school is that i am SO convinced that everyone who has ever complimented me ever is literally just making it up to be nice LMAOOO
#not fishing for compliments btw ^^ just sharing my thoughts HAHA#it’s like. no matter how many people say it i doubt i will every truly believe it yk !!#i am literally modeling for my (fairly large) university’s fashion magazine in two weeks and i still feel like i was picked by accident LOL#which i am sure i wasn’t IT’S JUST CRAZY IDK UGH#sharing here because i am only an anonymous phainon-loving shape on the internet yk …#sigh anyways i think i always feel especially gross around my period which i am sure artemis and illu are bluetoothing to me as we speak so#this is kind of a whole lot of nothing and i need to sleep because i have to wake up in five hours FJLS OKAY BYE IF YOU READ ALL OF THIS IL#tw vent#<- not really but just in case !!#m’s thoughts
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To be honest I don't really want mutuals who instantly assume I commented in bad faith to act "condescending" when I was nothing but light-hearted in disagreeing about a point in the post about one of the characters and agreed with everything else. 🤔 Especially not when I apparently pissed them off so much it made them post TWO (passive-aggressive) posts on the topic of disagreement afterwards instead of.... actual discussion? At least if I assume someone is being mean on purpose I ask them about it
#/vent#I softblocked them tbh#I mean apparently they think ill of me and thing I disagreed on is something they're passionate about#so I probably stepped on a landmine anyway and from my experience these can't be fixed#also it strongly reminded me of subparzero#they got hostile upon assuming I commented in bad faith for literally no reason#and then said I baited them for conflict over disagreeing at one djura point#and told me to go hang out with other neurodivergent folks instead#likewise entirely ignoring obvious signs of support and otherwise loving the post#so yeah having this bad memory resurface just. dealt massive mental damage.#I just don't now what's in such people's heads#I said I should stop vagueblogging about negative interactions lol#but honestly this made my blood pressure jump super high#needed almost an hour to calm down and type this#mostly because I'd think a *mutual* would not assume I am just here to trash on them#especially when there was no reason to!!!#at this rate I don't even actually want to know what in my comment was 'condescending'#either language barrier or autistic barrier the answer is always the same#something I physically can't fix so its whatever
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SOCIETY KEEPS KILLING ONE OF THEM BCS THEIR FRIENDSHIP WOULD BE INCAPABLE FOR GALAXIES TO HANDLE !!!!!
#theyre actually the same height but cliffjumper's pedes are made for climbing leaping causing pain to others#so he has spikes that sheath and unsheath from the soles and he keeps them out pretty much all the time which gives him height#fuzzy fat bumblebee and ANT#cliffjumper#i want cliffjumper sounds just like Miss SecondOpinionson but monotone & says everything like it's a fact#he keeps a permanent judgemental and suspicious expression and will tell you all of his surface level judgement of u#which js A Lot as he is Very observant and skeptical of Everything#mirage loves him bcs he doesnt play nice. he tells u how he sees it when he sees it#meanwhile bee is mewing from the amount of hatred secretly boiling inside him & is constantly changing himself for others#when they have time to reunite as old best friends .. the girlies have fun which means cliff is smiling for once & bee is not#everybody feels bad for bee when they see this bcs they think cliff is boring him or something & ruining his good mood#but actually bee is having the time of his life venting finally abt all his 'mean thoughts' which are just His thoughts but he cant say that#and cliff loves violence & is uncomfortable with social etiquette upkeep so of course hes indulging#i need the world to stop pitting my girlbosses against each other like just get creative with their designs lol#characters can have depth without merging personalities together into 1 and killing off the other half to cover up ur stealing lol#bee def has anger issues too but it's an after effect from his overthinking backfiring#while cliff has anger issues that flares b4 actions due to not wanting to think in favor of pure Doing#i think they are lovely foils which should be explored and can be done rlly interestingly if they were friends#who keep getting pit against each other by life but refuse to lose that friendship .. it's just a little cracked now.. & keeps cracking#bumblebee#transformers#maccadam
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Already seen victim blaming on xitter 👍 Lets not do that and lets leave the hermits alone. Make up your own minds on if you should support Iskall. But I feel like if one of his VH team members leaving for differing morals, the hermits going back 6 plus years to remove him from thumbnails and titles, and removing him from the site and merch should be enough Doc even said they can't talk about it which could mean anything, including something legal. Mumbo said there were no minors invovled but doesn't mean others weren't since there ARE victims Just leave the hermits be, and let the victims decide if they want to come out. And stop victim blaming lmao
#hermitcraft#drama#tagging it that tho its not drama and serious#Let the hermits have time to get through this too#as someone who has something like this happen and wasn't given that its not fun just leave them be#never got how that was so hard to do#sit back and wait but if they can't or won't talk about it accept that#I'm not going to talk about this#there is basically nothing out about it only things I've seen#you decide what you want to do#guess those people who wanted him out got what they wanted lol#I don't like people thinking it might be less of an issue cause stress left too jsut makes me hmm more#but not my monkies not my circus#Just needed a little venty vent cause I'm already seeing the same thing I went through and what I seen in the wc fandom happening#like stop demanding the hermits share#also stop saying but his mental health#mine is in a ditch on the side of the road and my friends have terrible mental health too and none of us ever acted out#🤷#dunno might delete this later#you can be upset just don't make it about YOU yknow
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oh im obsessed with this actually… who ever wrote this one i am kissing u on the forehead and hugging you real tight… inigo is such a loverboy im kkkhhhhhhijnsdnfng
#ann plays awakening#EDITING TO SAY I STARTED TAG VENTING HIT READMORE AT YOUR OWN RISK#anyways#LAST LINE IS A KILLERRRR WOW#‘ann werent you just pairing olivia with thar—‘ OLIVIA IS A BUSY WOMAN OKAY#but also i just had this old save file from when i wanted to see pink inigo and decided to get some more supports#im obsessed actually like#ok tag venting time maybe this should be its own post but u guys know who i am#not only does this support in my very educated opinion do a good job at emulating inigo’s way of speaking#but i think theres also a very underrated characteristic he has that not a lot of people talk about and its that hes honestly quite morbid#him spending hours talking to and dancing with his mother’s grave is very beautiful and moving but it is also not a normal way to grieve#which makes sense because duh nothing about his life is normal but its j like. you know#if robin is his father (and maybe j the normal convo i dont remember) in the hot springs scramble he’ll insist upon bringing—#severed risen limbs home as a way to remember the peacefulness (lol) of the springs#and he thinks absolutely nothing of it!!#i think he gets attached to things just a little too intensely and because his life is surrounded by death how he expresses that can be#very interesting. and he talks about death all time more than the other kids#bc while a lot of their coping mechanisms are based in fear and the need to instill confidence in themselves (think cyn or gerome or owain#or sev or yarne or noire)#and how their SCARED of death and of loss and adapt different behaviors to act like theyre not (to varying degrees of success)#i think inigo is much more accepting of the fact that death follows him and has made it a normal presence in his life#which is not a good thing it means that he hasnt let himself grieve. he lets death hang over him and follow him instead of pushing back#also guess which one of the awakening trio in fates has the canonical story death. just by the way lmao#anyways bc im writing this in the tags on my phone i cant actually see what the hell ive been saying im j stream of consciousnessing this#but my point is that inigo has a weird fixation on death and dying that stems from his inability to make peace with death and grieve#and i think him idolizing death in this support (this BRILLIANT fan support that made me ill) is so in character and so lovely#i miss him so bad (hes literally in the photos im posting) grghhhrgah#i wuv him :(
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It's been said so many times, (and thank you to everyone who says it) but I hate the tendancy that some aftg readers have to just casually insult Nora's writing in the books. specifically I saw an artist on the bird site (not gonna name names b/c even if realistically this post won't gain enough traction to matter, I don't want anyone harassing the artist.) post fanart of Neil and the rest of the Monsters, captioned something along the lines of
"I'm so glad i looked past the first sentence in this series... cause it may be bad but I love it so much"
Why do we do this? I genuinely don't think this artist meant anything bad by it, but how can you call yourself a fan of something while also shitting on the way it's been crafted? Nora did an amazing job writing the aftg series. She has a wonderful habit of throwing out raw lines that leave me breathless, and I genuinely enjoyed reading her writing style!
I want to draw attention to the parallels between this attitude toward how this series is written and the attitude toward the production of Miraculous ladybug. If you're not in the MLB fandom this might be lost on you, but basically MLB gets a lot of hate for the production, animation, and writing quality of the show.
for context, the show has had very inconsistent plot lines, points and holes over the course of the shows run. And it's been running since 2015, around a decade or so. I don't have enough information on how the production of the show is handled, so I'd recommend doing your own research if it's something you're interested in, because there's definitely been some controversy.
all this said, there are real reasons for fans of MLB to be critical of the quality of the show, and since the issues with the writing, storyline, and animation revolve a lot around the production controversy, it's a very understandable reason to be disappointed with the quality. in contrast, Nora wrote the aftg series herself as the sole author. She created a world and characters that we've all admittedly fallen in love with, even the antagonists. to have that creativity and love that she put into her series shit on and insulted while simultaneously praised in spite of the writing really hurts to see.
So please, can we all just go back to the kindergarten phrase of "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all"? please? If you made fanart, or fic, or anything else, just share it! I promise we'll love it even without the accompanied hateful comments.
#aftg#all for the game#nora sakavic#can we please be nicer?#is it hard? i dont think its hard#the fanart was so nice too#but i just got a bad tase in my mouth when they basically said that the series is trash except for a few parts#you're so allowed to not like how something is written#but there's no need to be mean about something someone worked hard on#while sharing something you worked hard on for that thing you're being mean about#sorry for the vent#not sure if any of this makes sense lol
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being the ugly friend is really humbling
#sigh#vent#rant#i need to rant#one time i was out with friends#they all hugged that one guy in my grade#so I did too#and we danced together and stuff#but then later he went: were you there the whole time??#i was mortified#he humiliated me in front of my friends#just because you don’t think I’m attractive doesn’t mean you have to ignore my existence lol#i hate it here#liesmultixxx talks 🩵#sad post#thinking thoughts#i am ugly#story of my life#why are they like this#why are people so cruel#i just want to be loved#i want to be pretty#I don’t think anyone will ever desire me#and that’s okay#but you don’t have to be so NASTY#jesus christ#little story time#saw a tt and it reminded me of this wonderful experience#another traumatic thing that happened in my life#the list is getting longer and longer
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There is so much Mal du Pays on my dashboard tonight. We are thriving
#do I?#hmmmmm#sure#isat#also not gonna spoiler tag this because it’s just the name#game’s been out for more than a year so I think it’s okay#anyway yippee I love it when there’s a notable increase in mal posting#nice to have something good going after getting in a FUCKING CAR WRECK#I was the only one who wasn’t injured and I’m feeling really guilty about that#okay I need to maybe not vent on my isat blog#sorry about that#uhhh *rewind sfx* love it when mdp appears on my dashboard several times in a row#yay!!! yippee!!!#oh also#I noticed a pattern#mal du pays being my favorite was actually completely predictable#based on my history of beloved characters#I’ve been at this shit since elementary school lol#… yet I still fail to understand why they appeal to me. oh well
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I’m a trans man that recently got diagnosed with hyper mobile eds, so now seeing Steve makes me extra happy, because cool disabled ftm rep. Thanks for making the radical dude bro, he’s funky.
same disability (waving hand emoji)
Always extremely fulfilling to know my work makes people happy in some small way, it means a lot. Thank you for sharing with me
#I dont talk about having eds cause its not specifically really relevant to my work#been diagnosed with it since 17. woag 10 years next april...#anyways. yeah idk I like the blog to be about my art and I'm used to people asking me a LOT of questions about EDS or disability or canes#just a lot of stuff unrelated to my art. I'm happy to talk about it but I don't want it to be the focus of my blog!#So I've p much chosen to mostly just. not talk about it. even though I'm literally fine talking about it#it's just rarely relevant and no one needs to know LOL#but. I also know that EDS can feel very lonely#and that it's really nice to know other people out there have it#so. hi anon you're not alone#also just in case. literally don't feel bad about anything in the tags here LOL#mostly just like 'please people do not start sending me asks about whether or not you should go to the doctor'#or asks about ableist family members#or venting about pain...#just a lot of invasive and boundary crossing asks the more I talk about it hahahah#but I don't mind sharing at all.#sorry I think I lost the plot on this one#good luck on your journey. starting to accomodate yourself does wonders#and really just extremely happy my work could reach you in this way#sending you love#asks#anon
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some of my friends: idc that u have autism!! i like u anyway!!!
those same people when i show the symptoms of my autism: why tf would u ever say smth like that i am so upset right now wtf 😬
#lol#like!!! i will alwayw communicate with people!!!#this is abt one of my friends saying shes mad#cause like#she thought yhis post was really funny#but then i started going on about how that account always makes memes out of ai and like did ppl just forget ai is like destroying the#environment#i didnt think much of it then i was like im packing for my trip:3#all she says to that is cool#i ask in a lh manner if shes mad at me#she says yes#i apologize (without giving some excuse) and she hasn’t answered since 😛#LIKE IF U WANT ME TO COMMUNICATE EFFECTIVELY U NEED TO TOO#i started crying for the secone time today lolz#im so fucking tired#vent#autism vent
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adhd comix
#man i dont even have the energy to be mad. im just tired#like. dont u love it when your parents exhibit symptoms of ADHD and your sibling is diagnosed with a learning disability#and instead of thinking oh shit what if the other one has smth too. they subject you to The Horrors#i cant bring myself to hate my parents. but im tired of feeling obligated to defend them when the thing they think is working#isnt actually working and ive just found other ways to cope to avoid any sort of conflict. like lying and stealing. lol#if someone took me aside and said 'hey so your brain doesnt make as much dopamine as usual and its not a bad thing it just means you#need external stimulation and reward system to function and youre not actually secretly fucked up or lazy' as a kid#im pretty sure i wouldnt be here rn with half the problems i already have. unfortunately getting diagnosed late means u dont have a teacher#to back you up at a parent teacher conference that forces your parents to take this shit seriously instead of ignoring it hoping itll#go away on its own. but hey what do i know i have squirrel ipad baby disease. what do i know about my own symptoms#AND. AND i think im allowd to be mad bc ive been doing my own research on this for years before and after diagnosis#theyve been putting me thru the WORST parenting techniques on earth. which they could have corrected at anytime but they were#comfortable thinking they were doing it right and didnt bother to check if they were or werent fucking up their kid in the long run#and refusing to acknowledge it. i just!! they just decided one day hey lets make babies!! and just looked at books on how to make#a human being survive as long as possible!!! what the fuck!!!!#im sorry for putting this on ppls dashes but i am. so tired. of bottling this up. and im not looking for sympathy or anything i just need#to scream and clench my fists to SOMEONE about it because theyre not gonna take this well up the ass. sigh#yapping#vent
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I've been having more Symptoms than usual lately but that's probably fine and cool right
#like more obsessive/compulsive behavior and dissociation#what if i died driving to my psychiatrist this morning hahaha jk. unless...#literally started dissociating during my appointment with him but i was just like#hm i dont wanna have to change the subject and i dont really have time to bring it up anyway :/ guess ill just deal#then i had a bad scare with my cat after the ONE TIME i didnt do my checking all the locks compulsion and i think that made it worse#had to ask my gf to take us straight home instead of driving us somewhere to get dinner after we went out#bc on the way i was suddenly struck with a Fear that told me that if we kept going that way then something bad would happen#been doing okay for the past few hours i think but now my gf is asleep and i just spent. idk how long?#maybe a few minutes maybe a lot of minutes#pacing back and forth in the bathroom at night in front of the mirror before i finally remembered that i have a phobia of mirrors lol#so. thats where my dissociation is at rn i guess#maybe i just need sleep#thats probably it tbh. havent slept well for weeks/months and i slept even less well than normal last night#probably will delete later i think this is the ventiest vent post ive done in a long time lol#but then again maybe this post isnt even real in the first place 🤔 maybe im not writing or posting it rn 🤔 whos to say#guess i should probably go to sleep either way tho huh#rambling#dissociation tw#unreality tw#?
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