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jinkis · 2 years ago

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i hate everything

#about to go on a rant cause i'm ✨ stressed ✨#i'm currently at the very end of my masters degree so i can be a fully qualified secondary teacher #however due to the teacher shortage i have been allowed to start working as a full time teacher and have been doing so for the last year #i love my job i love the kids i love the staff members #what i dont love is having to finish off my masters degree when i've been working in the profession for a year #i have learnt more being in the classroom for a year than my whole 7 years at uni doing my undergrad and masters #i am TIRED of having to waste my time and come up with bullshit assessments just so i can get this stupid degree #schools are on winter holidays at the moment and i am meant to be relaxing or prepping for the term ahead #but no ... i've been stuck in my room for the past week doing uni assessments to prove that i know how to implement teaching strategies #and showcase how to write a lesson plan EVEN THOUGH NO TEACHER EVER WRITES ONE WHILE WORKING???????????#i just feel really bad for the kids cause i spend all my free time doing my uni shit or sleeping cause im so drained #i never have enough time to organise things for my lessons or come up with fun learning activities #usually i just do the bare minimum and pray for a pass #but this assessment just has a satisfactory/unsatisfactory mark so i cant just half ass this shit #also can yall believe that im only half way through this assessment??????????#i still have so much more to do ughhhh #anyway if you read all that im sorry and thank you #marie.txt

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skitskatdacat63 · 11 months ago

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Forced against my will to post these(thanks @flopnandoalonso and @schumigrace ...) , but please enjoy gifs of: Fernando at the spa (PLEASE DON'T BLOCK ME)

#posting this and closing tumblr for the rest of the night DJKFSLGR #also gifing this doesnt even feel nearly as bad as the actual clip itself #so i linked it. go watch it.#THERES JUST SO MUCH YKNOW #cause like not only is all this feet stuff going on in the background. theyre also talking abt him peeing in the car #these gifs are just ... foot stuff hm #I DONT WANT IT ON MY BLOG EITHER BUT I GOTTA GIVE THE PEOPLE WHAT THEY WANT #i hope youre happy. i stopped drawing for tonight to make these instead UGHHHH #yes i can be peer pressured #but also i think its very funny #this clip has haunted me for more than half a year and look here now you have it #i still think i like the other massage scene better. its a lot more subtle #f1 #formula 1 #fernando alonso #tw feet #fernando(show)#fernando s1e4 #we do a little bit of f1 #normal posts that catie normally makes in a normal fashion

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boycritter · 3 months ago

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its getting harder and harder to quiet the part of my brain that wants to be a humanities major

#like. okay. i love science and math and know i definitely want to do something in stem for my career #i enjoy and its more financially lucrative #which as much as i do not dream of labor etc etc is still something i need to think about #but as much as i know thats what i want to do i ALSO love studying literature and history !!!! and i would like to study more of it !!!#ik i will have to take some humanities classes in college but i want to get to the higher level ones where it goes super in depth #but i also know i would HATE a career in the humanities after college #so i shouldnt major in it..... even tho i really really want to keep learnign about those subjects.....#ughhhh iwant to do everything but college wants me to put myself on one career path and stick with it #boycritter et al

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breadboylovin · 4 months ago

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dude if something gay doesnt happen to me soon i might actually go insane

#text #ughhhh trying to refrain from bitching and moaning in these tags. but oh my god.#being a fat trans dude is awesome but also kinda sucks like damn nobody want me fr!!#i hate that i had to grow up in one of the more nasty conservative parts of florida pre t no confidence in high school #and then had like a few months of actually doing gay shit w someone in college before getting rocked by a trauma response or some shit #so bad that it feels like i forgot how to do anything socially #why does one prolonged bad experience with someone when i was 15 still have to affect me like this as an adult. im a grown ass man #WHYYYYYYY DO I STILL FEEL LIKE THIS #dude i just wanna lay on someones lap like a cat again. is that so much to ask. kms

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phagodyke · 7 months ago

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hour and a half unpaid overtime I think that's a new record for me. on a day where I was supposed to have no overtime no less. funny how I only have 3 of those this month and the 2 so far I've had to work overtime anyway 👍

#i shouldve left at 4:15. killing myself at work in front of everyone #well im actually not that mad ive been listening to yhe national on loop for the last 6 hours of my shift nothing can touch me #but the disrespect....#my boss came n found me at 4pm and was like hey can u do another round of this assay (<- takes an hour and a half)#and i said no!!!! bc she already gave me too much shit to do i was busy ALL DAY and still ran over like how tf do u expect me to fit MORE #she gave me 1.5 hours to do 14 samples in this one assay where each one takes 15 mins plus 5 mins prep per sample beforehand #so like 20 mins per sample THATS 4 HOURS AND 40 MINUTES and thats assuming no repeats and no troubleshooting!!!#3x the time u scheduled for me... come tf on. i need to make a table of how to calculate how long an assay takes so she stops doing this #rly not that hard just ask me how long i need for it and ill explain it to u #and then i finished up n emailed results n went to go switch lights off in the other lab and shed left samples out for me to book in. GIRL #PLEASE EMAIL ME OR TEAMS ME DONT JUST LEAVE THEM THERE.. u know im working in the main lab ALL DAY #so im not gonna fucking see them!!!! and they need to be refrigerated!!!! next time ill just leave them out overnight and when shes like #why are these samples ruined jts expensive to get more ill be like well u didnt tell me to book them in so.#anyway she moved the other assay to friday n she was annoyed i didnt fit it in earlier but WHERE. WHERE WAS I MEANT TO FIT IT IN!!#also i have 2 separate multi hour assays booked friday already so good luck im out of the door at 4:15 if its not done its not done idc #ughhhh. if the bus is late too im going back to my work and blowing the building up #WHAT. EVER!!!!!!!#.diaries

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dazais-guardian-angel · 9 months ago

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delighted that i'm so much more fond of chuuya at this point than i was just a couple years ago. it took the stormbringer play, the cannibalism play, and the fifteen manga (still haven't gotten to those two novels in their entirety, I Will Soon I Promise), it took 6ish+ years, but i can confidently say I Get It Now. Now i just need asagiri to break him (affectionate) in the manga and actually give him a character arc already <333

#i went through my own character arc okay i have Learned #still don't really get it from the pre-light novels era but i definitely get it now #he's actually written so well in those lns it's astounding. now fr if only that could be transferred to the actual manga *sigh*#if you can't tell i'm still so pissed and betrayed by the meursault arc. on all fronts lol but chuuya was one of the worst victims ughhhh #i may be hyped about this fyodor shit rn but do not mistake that as me forgetting how angry i still am over all that anticlimactic bullshit #happy birthday chuuya you really deserve so much better </3 #been thinking so much lately about what asagiri is planning for him. or if he's planning anything at all. the signs are so contradictory!!!#i know the fandom made him a huge thing from the early anime days when he probably wasn't meant to be more than an extreme side character #why? again i still don't understand (shipping. it's shipping okay; that's why i was always unfairly biased against him lmao)#but even if that's the case then he wrote the light novels that are SO GOOD so like!!!!#now there's buildup!!!! now there's expectations for him!!!!!!#you can't just never have verlaine and adam not come back in the story again at some point #in the same way that ango did from a light novel #and how oda HAS to be addressed by the end of the story #and all the lore bs in 55 minutes #just WHAT ARE YOU PLANNING WITH CHUUYA ASAGIRI. I NEED TO KNOWWWWWW #THE SIGNS ARE VERY WORRYING BUT IN A COMPELLING WAY AND I NEED THEM TO PAY OFF SO BADLY #me going literally insane lately over a character i still claim to not be one of my favorites. lmao

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fagofgod · 2 years ago

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ik that people miss ambrosius' graphic novel design or whatever and its like whatever but uhhhhhhhh. um. uh.

#like. ik its fine to miss the long hair but like. idk!#idk! i just feel very hesitant bc like. i KNOW that fandom loves feminising queer asian men and. uh. uhhhhh #like its sort of a knee jerk type reaction but. WHY exactly do you want him to have the long hair. yk. do you know. what i MEAN #like the long hair in itself is like. i LIKE the idea of him with long hair. but its. the WAY people approach it ig.#like ok. his comic design is feminine. like not VERY fem obv but still much more fem than ballisters. right.#and so like. wanting movie ambrosius to look more like comic ambrosius is like. whyyyyyyy.#ITS NOT ABT THE HAIR. is what im trying to get at.#its abt how it feels weird to feel like ppl see queer asian men and immediately want to feminize them #yeah ok basically. yeah! this is coherent wow 10/10 #ughhhh

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tonycamonte · 1 year ago

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#went 2 a party + i feel like dirt like idk i feel so ugly + gross + at the same time i feel like ive gotten less ugly since i came out +#i look better as a guy but i still feel. not good + also party was at my family friends house + we were lookin @ pictures from when we #were kids like 8-14 ish and ughhhhh im so weird looking + also i was so skinnnyyy then i wanna die........................................#like theres a photo of me + two friends + ummmmmmmm i just want to die im sorry this is majorly stupid idk what im talking about #+ i just feel like me + my best friend have nothing to talk about + i have no friends + it has 2 be my fault because im like. the only #common factor in nobody liking me + i just feel like shit!! and i dont want to be like whiny and annoying and ugly and unfunny but im #not doing it on purpose............ ughhhh like ive changed so much in 2 yrs bc i was like whatever im doing is making people not like me +#i felt weird so i was like im just gonna change rlly hard + like i dont think its that easy but i am different bc i keep my mouth shut more #+ now i feel like i was more likeable before i hated myself + tried to be someone else but its like an endless cycleeeeee #whatever im just so miserable + at least when i was like more suicidal + fucked up i felt smart + less ugly #and also i hate my family + i dont want to live here + i hate my town but i dont want people to not like me but i do + i just feel like i #ruined my life............#ANYWAY IM FINE THOUGH. im goin to bed + everythings gonna be ok in the morning 🕊️#tc

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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taking a coin out and opening clip today like 'oh boy who am i going to project onto today ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶'

#snap chats #ugHHHH #had another nightmare about my mom so now that im free from commission work its projection time #ive had nightmares every day at this point but this one just. especially hit me for some reason LMAO #whatever now im trying to figure out who....#because it very easily could go either way and i know i can make both work very well. if i can be confident for .5 seconds for once #i have visions and reasonings for either or i just dont know which is better #they say you should do a coin flip because subconsciously youll want one result over the other #but in this case im genuinely at a stand still #i dont want to explain my reasonings for jo's vers and arakawa's vers for the fear of someone reading these tags #and liking one more than the other but then i end up doing the opposite #SO no one gets to know until i actually do it #i just gotta look at the wall and let my heart decide #this is the problem with two bitches you like having parental issues like Damn Which One Of You Would Be More Banger For Storytelling #TO SOME THE CHOICE IS OBVIOUS but theres just so much to play with here....#anyways we'll see what i do in a few hours. if i even do anything and i just dont look out my window ghandi style all day

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m0e-ru · 2 years ago

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(reading my own ao3) wow this bitch is so correct and on point i wish there was more . cmon guys look at this shit https://archiveofourown.org/series/2536405

#kommento #// blatantly promoing my writing . i miss my 2021 early 2022 era i wrote so good #// not to shit on myself but i kind of lost my charm on that latest one from december #// but like woww ughhhh i wish there was more <- the writer #// FIVE MINUTES LATE I LOVE YOUU yorue the fucking epitome of the ever i loveyou kissing you #// AND ANTIHISTAMES !! AND EXTRA TIP and youre lost i love all of you i lveo you all mwa mwma mwamwamwa #// kind of fell off and lost the writing style i liked on dont let it rain BUT STILL i wrote something so IM STILL WINNING !!#// when i finish my kitchen fic it's over for all of you (shes almost at 2k and shes still going)#// when i finally finish something so au specific so self indulgent IT'S ALL OVER !!!!!#// i forgot my love for serialization and seeing things come together and whole i just wonder if i'll still have the ambition after that lon #// (in the corner) wow i wish theres more content of adachi and th attendnatn being friends #// besides the /wildly gestures at whatever the hell goes on in the iznmi tags/ whatever the FUCK this is #// i have ao3 svior btw theres so much shit censored when i open up the tag after 27 years and i do Not want to know what's in there #// sometimes i wish i could start all over and feel That Rush again where everythings so good and fun and whimsy #// learning new things one after the other like it's SO EXCITING !!!! just without the horrors this time #// and that i have YOU GUYS !!! (youre standing across me from the convenience store counter while i flop at using the barcode scanner)#// i wouldnt even KNOW adachis place in fandom i'll just be like LOOK AT HINM !!! hes so fucking terrible these two should be besties #// OKAY enogh remensicneing i need to GO !! BACK TO ACTUAL WORK !!! i love you all i hope youre all healthy

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itsalwaysdark · 4 months ago

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ill be like I can totally make a lighthearted post mentioning a kink i have and i wont even freak abt it. and then i freak abt it

#its not even one of the ones i normally freak abt. fml. fml. its spreading. eventually i wont even be able to say Strals exist without going #into system shutdown or something. this sucks #this is also why i have so much trouble posting on my nsft is ill go over there and be like. Id love to **** some ***** and then i get #terrified. so i dont #my pfp over there is literally. **** ******* ** * *** but i go over there to post abt how i want to **** * *** and im like that is deviant #i cannot be saying that in front of my followers. who dollowed my nsft blog. where i list the things im into . and my pfo is * **** *******#** * *** so its not like theyd be HORRIFIED if that came up #but idk... i worry ppl dont read my dni over there. bc usually they just follow me after seeing that one post which doesnt rly mention any #of the ones im weird abt. except for like kind of it does but whatever its fine i cannottt freak out abt that post its existed for like.#months now. sigh. its all just a bit embarassing which sucks #“mdni”#IN A MASSIVE WAY. idr if any minors still r here if im still muts with any....#its just like. IDK i either feel a bit silly posting on it and its just mildly embarass Or i send myself into hysterics over how im an evil #person bc i like. well i cant say. obviously. but yk. stufffff. that i am into. I HATE TALKING ABT IT BC IT MAKES ME SOUND LIKE AN EVIL #PERSON AND LIKE. its not anything like. UGH. im not into kids or animals 👍👍👍 obviously. and idt its that bad the things im into some of #them r like basically baby shit like ohhh woww youre into *********** and yet even that i cant talk abt it bc im like um im going to be #smited by god and sent to hell or soemthing and actually i only thing its normal bc im a disgusting weird freak and everybody would kill me #immediately if they knew also im an evil person? its like. UGHHHH.#and the other stuff is. less 'mainstream' which is even scarier but ig in a way ive been More open abt it which is kind of funny. looks at.#but even then i dont rly go in detail bc yk. Stuff. im just like lol they r the way they r bc of how i am. and then i walk away forever #idk. ive been feeling so guilty over that specifically like. UGH. its not like. ugh. i rly cant talk abt it without it being obvious and im #scared byt im also like Compelled to talk abt it so ppl dont think its worse but im also compelled not to bc thats like oversharing i guess #as if thta isnt All i do on this fuckass blog. no matter what i do i lose. i hate my brain so badly i wish i could judt get over it and jus #be like yep these r the things and not have to like over clarify and explain and disclaimer everything and stuff . idk. it suck #mdni #the quotes didnt take it to the top like they used to. kms

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splattacks · 6 months ago

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everything is too much rn im so stressed

#i still have 3 more assignments to work on that are due next week #which are all group projects by the way which makes it so much more unecessarily annoying #its been so stressful at home. i havent been able to spend time with my partner at all. im out of my anxiety meds #my room is a mess i need to clean and organize things and also my computer files are a nightmare rn and ;___;#i want to draw for artfight but i just literally have not had the time and energy to do it #im thinking maybe i really should not be participating this year but like. i did anyway bc its mostly this week that im busy but. UGHHHH #and i really want to draw ive been having some ideas for attacks i rlly want to work on!!!! and i wanna get some ppl back!!!! im!!!!!#im feeling so guilty about it #but also. yeah.

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rinhaler · 1 year ago

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ive just gotten home im absolutely freezing

#🧚🏽‍♀️ — luxe chit chat #like im SHAKING #teeth chattering the works #ughhhh today was so hard #still super grieving my friendship break up but im trying to get out as much as possible so i cant dwell at home #but holy fuck it's hard #my anxiety has been awful.. AWFUL #had a panic attack at the gym #so glad my mam happened to come with me or idk what i would have done #im rly not doing good #i keep thinking i wanna get back into writing but then i keep getting more and more hurt everyday so i just cant bring myself too #im soooo sad too bc i just finally got back into loving writing #oh well #i hope ur all doing well beautiful ppl <333

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pankomako · 1 year ago

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dude not me thinking about post-gang war arc gang's bay aughghgh the character design ideas i have are so GOOOODDD

#at this point i feel like i just SHOULD make gang's bay a tv show when i can #but also that depends if i can get the necessary people on it. mainly being boat (which i dont think will be too hard?)#(but that also depends if he would be interested in so much as being a voice actor)#(and that's like the bare minimum i'd need from him. i'd hope he also wants to do more of the development as well)#(which i mean it seems right up his alley? he seems to like creating characters n stories for an audience right)#but anyway it may actually be higher priority to me than bwob at this point. as much as i still love the idea of it #im just SO invested in gang's bay now #i think the main thing is that the ocs ive made for gang's bay i've developed to the point of them actually feeling real to me #and like people i could talk to. and there are SO many stories i could tell with them #meanwhile boardwalk is meant to be smth a little more like a recent disney cartoon: a sort of blend between episodic and serialized #where it kind of starts as more of a sitcom but builds up to a big dramatic save-the-world type plot leaving everything changed for better #at this point gang's bay also kinda does that but on a smaller scale conflict-wise but is far more flexible #in that a LOT could happen before and after the fact. it's still at its core a sitcom #but it's still allowed to have a sort of story progression between the gang war and the characters changing & finding their life partners #gang's bay also has SO many more themes than bwob does at this point #bwob is supposed to be an allegory for acceptance of queer individuals or even any type of diversity #meanwhile in gangs bay there's friendship and trust and the meaning of masculinity and growing up and overcoming addiction and trauma and-#there's just SO much at this point dude. if any show SHOULD run for like 10 seasons or more it's gang's bay #honestly im not even sure where it would end at this point. either way if it were a show it'd probably be the best adult cartoon out there #UGHHHH im so hyperfixated on this cant you tell

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benetnvsch · 1 year ago

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Nothing beats the primal feeling of fear I get when something appears on my dash with tags i blacklisted For An Actual Serious reason just bc the original post had that tag and Not The Person who reblogged it oughhh-

#overall it’s hhhauhhh #still #a bit sus #but I will ignore it (for now)#eventually it will eat me alive and I will do something (soft block or explode)#I have the worse cognitive dissonance ever imaginable so I will be thinking abt this and reevaluating for a bit #that’s just the way I am #even over the smallest of things ughhhh why am I like this-#this shouldn’t bother me at all but I’ve thought abt it so much lately #it’s intrinsically related #:<<<<#I might end up just #hmmmmsnjajahfhsw #skajsjsjjjsjaj don’t perceive me rn I’m going through it #on a similar more light hearted note it’s always funny when ppl use harmless tags I have blacklisted for reach #for example I have a Certain Big Fandom ship blacklisted and half the time I see posts with it tagged it’s bc users are just using it to #boost and it does not actually contain the ship lmao #I am too sensitive to things to sxist *explodes*#I really should start checking blog before following lol #vent #more like a rant but tagging just incase ppl do not want to see it lol #my personal vent/neg ramble tag reminds me too much of This One Meme now I’ll need to change it LMAO #that’s the one thing I appreciate abt Twitter actually is how u instantly know what ppl will post/endorse/support and just goifhdhhhhh #carrds aren’t enough I need a full DNI list to know you’re on my side and I won’t end up spiraling after scrolling through ur page LMAO-

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jtownraindancer · 4 days ago

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sharing this little gif I made of casey in sports night because the man does such silly little dances and I also agree that bobby should be more of an embarrassment in public, actually 😌

I need a scene with Bobby doing dad dance moves in the 118 firehouse. (Seriously, watching Parenthood feels like seeing Bobby in an AU.)

(Sorry about the video quality; it’s not my video and it’s all I could find on YouTube.)

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