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Behind-the-Scenes Photos from Platoon
#this is some good stuff right here#no some great stuff#that's better#lol#i loved him in this movie#i still hate what happened to him though#and i still need to give him a fic#to give him a happy ending#i'm sure i'll come up with something soon#sgt. elias#platoon (1986)#platoon#my blue eyed short king#willem dafoe
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Part two of the reverse verse is here! The reverse boys meet the original boys. They're not really getting along as well as I had hoped...
Again, this was a commission for @i-am-as-normal-as-you-are and they asked for angst/funny vibes... I think it's mostly just angst though. Oh, well...
Part one
#dead boy detectives#dbda#payneland#edwin x charles#reverse verse#there's a lot i could say about this one#the idea of someone telling edwin he's go to hell is absurd as it is#edwin telling edwin? lmao#the charles... oh they hate each other#reverse charles is angry (he always is) because this other version of himself was spared hell... in exchange for edwin going there?#obviously it doesn't work like that. og charles hadn't even been born when his edwin was sent to hell#but anger is not a rational thing. especially not for this boy#og charles? you don't want to know what he's thinking#i'm telling you anyways#he... kind of agrees. if someone had to go to hell#why edwin? why not him? there is an universe in which that happened#so why not this one? unfair#then again... look at this charles who did go to hell#he's explosive. he's DANGEROUS#he shouldn't be near edwin#if og charles had gone to hell would he be the same? would he be too angry to be trusted? would he be like his father?#and if so would that really count as saving edwin at all?#if this is the kind of best friend poor edwin would end up with?#on a happier note though#physical contact!! reverse charles loves it#i don't have all the details but his hell was on the rage ring so it was different to the dollhouse.#and it was a very violent place so boy loves gentle touches#luckily edwin is more willing to give them to him with each year#i think what the edwins are feeling is a lot more clear#but still would love to hear your thoughts
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Family for day 6 of SpeSilverWeek! Edition uuh found biological and crime I guess...
#this was the first one I completed tbh and I'm not vibing but it was rly good warmup and tbh working lineless is so much easier...#I get lazier and messier concerning anatomy esp and stuff but I have fun...#spesilverweek#pokespe silver#pokespe blue#pokespe#my art#the thing about this is. I have so many thoughts about this one very specific rocket au where they aren't dex holders but find Giovanni#instead but he still goes missing and they still kind of hate team rocket bc the whole mask of ice thing still happened so they try to fuck#shit up from within now that giovanni is gone even though they also rly just kinda want him to return and deal with stuff himself#and the admins have these rly fun roles of all being in disagreement on what to do#like the boss might be dead his kids should take over or we Must find the boss or lol no boss my team rocket now#and then the dex holders get mixed in too and it's Fun bc everyone is fighting everyone#also sorry Giovanni for making you look like that#it's like 5min til day 6 technically but my laptop is being a butt so in case it won't turn on tomorrow here it is now#I will not wait 5min for midnight I got a new pillow for christmas and I wanna SLeep on it noW! hell yeah !!#pokemon
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the gorgug-porter conversation is interesting to me because like. yea for the overwhelming majority of the conversation porterās being shitty & trying to fit gorgug into a box that gorgug just does not fit into by trying to make gorgugās relationship with his rage more focused on the aggression aspect of it. but then thereās also this specific thing that brennan brought up again in the ap, which is that gorgugās relationship with his rage is wholly āthis is a tool i use to protect my friends.ā which isnāt a bad thing! but thatās his Whole relationship with it, & gorgug seems to place next to no value on his rage in relationship to himself. which is problematic, because itās first & foremost his rage.
being raised in a household with a sort of toxic positivity largely meant that, whether or not it was his parentsā intention, gorgug internalized the message that more traditionally ānegativeā emotions such as anger are the wrong response to something. part of the reason he prioritizes his artificing is probably because itās āfixingā things. in comparison to being a barbarian, which gorgug associates with ābreakingā things. good vs. bad behavior, in his eyes.
itās a totally unacceptable bar to measure a 16 y/o by, but i do think part of porterās reasoning for not letting gorgug multiclass is him recognizing that gorgug generally does not value anger as a valid emotional response to something, at the very least for himself. & that directly conflicts with what being a barbarian is, because whether you like it or not, that rage is what fuels you. but again, barring a kid from pursuing something they deeply care about in part (not entirely, porter has a lot of more bullshit reasons) because of their fundamental values & world outlook is crazy.
so yes, 98% of porterās reasoning is pretty shitty, immature, rife with a toxic view that thereās only one proper way to access rage, & generally not a good thing to do as a teacher, but also within that reasoning is the 2% of āthere is a fundamental part of yourself that you only value if you can use it to take care of other people & you need to accept that as something that can take care of you, too.ā but thatās something to discuss with a therapist or a guidance counselor, not something that should hugely impact gorgugās academic future.
#gorgug thistlespring#fantasy high#dimension 20#fhjy#fhjy spoilers#btw these r just my personal opinions u r 100% free to disagree#gorgug & his rage interest me so deeply because of how deeply that rage existing seems to be against gorgugās own will#like mechanically classes are choices & you can switch stuff around any time. but gorgug as a barbarian always felt like an unwilling choice#like that 14 y/o kid did not want to have rage. & that really interests me.#iāve seen people before be like āwhat if gorgug dropped barbarian & went full srtificerā but i feel like that simply canāt happen??#mechanically yea sure but it always felt like a core part of gorgug that the rage will always be there & itās a matter of how you channel it#idk. dnd classes narratively being treated as āyou can not lose this part of youā even though you technically can#gorgug could be lvl 19 artificer & heād still have 1 level of barbarian. because that is part of who he is.#btw i donāt think porter truly cares about gorgug valuing his rage only as a way to be a human shield#i think porter just sees that as āwrongā but like. not as in āyou need to take care of yourselfā & more āyou arenāt conformingā#he thinks itās wrong for the wrong reasons. the nastier āthis is how you should beā reasons#ppl being like āwe r being too hard on porter. itās an 150% courseload gorgug will be overwhelmedā i think r missing the point bc like.#that is 100% a valid reason to not approve gorgug for multiclassing! but thatās also 100% not the reason porter rejected him.#that whole interaction was basically porter shoving his percieved version of conformity down gorgugās throat. was v neurodivergent kid coded#no hate to anyone saying that last point btw these r all just opinions#thinking about last ep wilma & digby being like āyouāre a great barbarian. youāre so great at it. but look at what you made!!!ā like.#they would never mean it like that. but when you only understand half of your son he is going to prioritize the half you do.
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I like to think that during pfl (using his s9 characterization, not s10) wash is the guy you go to when you want to know something (ah la a line in the fall of reach novel I believe where chief says the enlisted personnel always seem to know stuff bc wash is clearly enlisted).
he's in a position where he's privy to information from the higher-ups, and he's friendly enough with the lower rungs that he knows the gossip going around. as a bonus though, wash ain't no narc, so if you want that information you need to offer him something of equivalent exchange (consequently fueling the 'guy who knows things' thing). for example, north had to tell him about using equipment in the field in order to get him to tell him what his meeting with internals was about.
wash isn't the only guy who knows things, of course, but he's the guy who has the widest base of general knowledge. ct is also someone who knows things, but she's a lot more specific, and what she lacks in scale she more than makes up for with how in-depth her knowledge is. wash is where you learn about something from, ct is where you get all the juicy details (to the point of it almost being tmi). she also has an equivalent exchange policy, but people tend to be a bit more reluctant to get information from her because of what her knowledge is (and the borderline 'insane conspiracy theorist' energy doesn't help either).
florida? well...you don't wanna know what he knows. the cost is simply too high.
#rvb#red vs blue#agent washington#agent connecticut#agent florida#butch flowers#mine#not t/oaru#carolina technically has better higher-up info than wash but nobody is dumb enough to try and get ms hyper serious to talk#except york. he's generally not successful though but sometimes he gets enough for wash and ct to have a starting point to work from#wash and ct are a troublemaking duo but whenever they get in trouble they just so happen to not be around like some magicians#or if they are around theres nothing they can truly get in trouble for bc wash makes sure ctās mouth doesnāt bite them in the ass#girl doesn't know how to be discreet but it's fine bc wash can gaslight gatekeep girlboss them out of most situations#and yet people STILL don't read him as the manipulative bastard he is. it drives ct insane tbh#they have a love/hate relationship with that aspect of each other. wash wishes he could boldly jump into things like ct and ct wishes she#could step back and wait like wash. but they're not very good at executing those attitudes bc wash needs to know everything he can b4 actin#but ct is comfortable diving in mostly blind so long as she's confident she'll learn what she needs to along the way#tumblr user eli tvckerwash once again yaps about wash and ct#yall wait. what if i tried rewriting the few s10 pfl wash scenes so they're more accurate to his r1-s9 characterization#hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm#also omg florida jumpscare
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something Iāve been thinking abt is how many people think Makoto is immune to despair. I donāt think he is. I think becoming the ultimate Hope was BECAUSE he felt despair. He wouldnāt have fully reached that point without Junko. Makoto becoming such a beacon was his last attempt to avoid completely falling and it wasnāt because he didnāt feel despair, it was because he was too damn stubborn to allow everything to go to waste and he refused to sacrifice his beliefs for someone elseās. His inner monologue tells me he DID experience the same new low the other suvivors did in the final trial, but at the point where he had the choice to give up and die, he looked at the others and he looked at Junko and he couldnāt allow it to happen, not out of self preservation, but because the idea that Junko would have control over their lives made him FURIOUS. and that utter refusal to die kicked in, wether luck or otherwise, and he made the concious effort for one last push while something in him was breaking. He had to be broken in order for the Ultimate Hope to come through so aggressively, bc it could only exist in the face of the Ultimate Despair. He snapped the same way she did, but in the other direction. In what could have been his final moments he chose to embody everything Junko wasnāt, and every single optimistic and luck fueled ideal in him suddenly charged forward and pushed him. It was a combination of the final straw and a choice. Makoto isnāt immune to feeling despair, heās just too stubborn to fall into it of his own volition. I think thatās why I like that scene in DR3 so much. People were SO SHOCKED Makoto actually fell for the tape, that he actually became despair for a moment. I saw people getting mad or disappointed, saying it was pathetic and Makoto seemed to fall from some sort of pedestal for them. Honestly part of me wonders if that sort of mentality, which clearly people had in universe, affected Makoto a bit. Like he started to see himself as less of a person, subconsciously. Prompting him to take more risks, less self preservation, act way more bold. It seems he has to be reminded a lot not to put himself in danger by his friends, to not do something too reckless. All over the place I would see in regards to that scene either this frivolous āoh this was just angst drama with no meaning behind itā or āhe can do better than that. heās so weakā or ācome on, thereās no way heād fall into despair, heās the Ultimate Hope!ā This kind of mentality, which was kind of ironic considering Ryota was there the entire time saying the same thing and treating Makoto the same way. Like Makoto was superhuman. Like Makoto didnāt feel despair the same way ānormal peopleā did. In a way that was also how Munakata saw Makoto. Makoto stopped being a PERSON to the world when he became Ultimate Hope, he became a concept, a belief system, much the same way Junko ascended beyond herself. But the difference is that treating Makoto that way is the opposite of the reason Makoto became such a representative for hope. He wasnāt doing something no one else could. He was doing something everyone had the chance to, he justā¦ was a little more optimistic, a little more stubborn, a little more āgung-hoā about things. He just took the lead where no one else did, where no one else knew they even COULD in the face of Junkoās unstoppable force. She had overcome the biggest threats and obstacles in the world, what could one person do? And the answer Makoto found was, anything. Everything. It doesnāt all rest on Makoto, heās just the one that was inspired to try to do what seemed like the impossible. But as evidenced by the change in his friends after that trial, itās clearly not something only Makoto is capable of. The others pulled out of despair thanks to Makoto, but it was their choice to do so.
āButā¦ this world is so huge, and weāre so small. What can we doā¦? No, we can probably do anything. Yeah! We can do anything!ā
#makoto naegi#Danganronpa character analysis#Danganronpa#danganronpa thh#danganronpa future arc#I fucking love Makoto Naegi man.#I think thereās a fine line of nuance to Makoto thatās easy to miss bc he doesnāt really make it known#heās not a pushover and heās not overpowered. heās a people pleaser but he will say what needs to be said#heās an immovable object and the exact opposite of Junko but heās also just a normal guy whoās optimistic and (un)lucky#he isnāt invincible but he has immense power to his words the same way Junko did#if anything his superpower is being kind above all else. heās compassionate to some of the worst people in the world.#he was even conpassionatr to an extent to Junko. he didnt want her to kill herself despite everything sheās done#and he still acknowledges that for years she was a classmate and friend.#I do think the more he learned abt what she did the more heās come to actually hate her though#post the first game he always refers to her without a suffix to her name which is one of the most subtle rude things you can do#it means you have zero respect for the person youāre referring to#and he speaks about her with some venom he doesnāt use for anyone else in the future arc#heās not incapable of feeling negative emotions#I really liked the future arc scene bc it showed that Makoto DID experience enough despair to have overcome him if he didnāt refuse#and that it still affects him deeply. people treat him like heās either this perfect ideal Chad or this baby chick whoās so delicate#and no one really focuses on how makoto shoulders so much and yet is still vulnerable.#honestly that guy was DUE for a mental breakdown even without the tape. it would have happened eventually#I actually wrote one based on him finally hitting a breaking point after giving so much of himself away and keeping nothing for himself#that his issues that he shoves down constantly finally canāt be held down anymore. Hajime helps him bc he knows how that feels#it was a LONG time ago that I wrote that but honestly if I can remember where i was going w it I might finish it#it was initially an rp but I could make it a fic#anyway. the point is Makoto is SO much more complex than people give him credit for#the most fundamental thing about him is that heās normal and thatās ok! thatās what helps him rise!
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I think some folks MAY have gotten the wrong idea about how I feel about Circe with some of my posts. So, to clear the air...
Homies, I love that fucked up sorceress.
I love how we're never given a reason why she turns people into animals. That's so funny and so awful. And another potion-making magic gal?!?! I love that she's just basically vibing on an island doing whatever she wants. I even love the fact that she scares Odysseus shitless! She's morally gray and that's why she's FUN.
I just sincerely hate when people try to girlboss her or have her be a victim of SA when she never was Looking at you, Miller. Especially when she was actually the one who coerced Odysseus in exchange for his men being transformed back into humans. And even then, while he was clearly afraid of her, (it's in the language of the Odyssey) she likely meant him no harm after a certain point. He just didn't know that.
Why does she need a reason to do awful things? Why can't she just be a goddess who does whatever she wants? That's the reason why I love her!!! She's fucked up!!! :D
I hate what the Telegony did to her as well! >:( You're telling me, this sorceress goddess, who makes potions (!!!) wouldn't have magic contraceptives??? Would WANT CHILDREN?!?! WITH THE PATHETIC WIFEMAN?! No. Fuck no. Eugammon of Cyrene, I have beef with you š¤¬
Anyways!!! Understand all the "#anti circe" I have is simply Anti "Girlboss Circe" or the book. I genuinely think she's neat af as her morally gray, fucked up sorceress self and just get frustrated with...everything :'D
#I have these same feelings with Medea and Medusa and so many others. Penelope too. Let them do something fucked up just to be fucked up#I'm a āgod forbid women do anythingā in the sense of 'she did a fucked up thing. That's why she's fascinating. Don't take her awfulness#away from her!!! please! I wanna study her under a microscope!'š#PLEASE#...I actually kind of don't like the idea of her actually caring about her nymphs :P maybe she āprotects themā but like...#I see her as a āWhy are all of you dancing? Oh. it's a birthday? hm okay. Just make sure your duties are done.ā while not caring#whose birthday it is. She's not really shown to be close to them during the Odyssey and idk just seems in character for her to not give af#save me morally gray circe#<-making that a tag now because...yeah. She absolutely wouldn't save me though.#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#anti madeline miller#anti circe#<-THE BOOK! I HATE THE BOOK! LET HER BE AWFUL YOU COWARDS#Why do women need to be SA'ed to be strong Miller?! >:(#...Ima say it. The pathetic wifeman is more relatable to me than Hot Snake Monster Lady when it comes to this stuff.š¤#I just sincerely hate the fact that people erase what happened to him you know? It's silly but it means a lot to me.#Also I think she got bored of him immediately and simply let him chill at her place.#She's a goddess. She's got better things to do and she absolutely doesn't love him and he absolutely doesn't want her.#I don't have with Eugammon btw. He's dead and I'm exaggerating but I STILL hate the Telegony >:(#tw sa#kind of??? idk#barely mentioned but yeah#Calypso though?? Yeah. I hate her in practically everything except Pirates of the Caribbean because that's not Odyssey Calypso
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Okay okay so I had this AU idea but itās not something I could pull off so Iām here going to yell about it because I canāt stop thinking about it. And maybe because I think youād write it so well
What if Mac didnāt want to join the army? What if Harry or James forced him too? And heās been banned from coming home(for a specific period of time). Is it because Harryās sick and dying and doesnāt want his grandson to see him like this? Is it James for a more sinister specific reason?
So Mac doesnāt want to be there. He wants to go home. Heās had basically bad experiences with most of the people heās interacted with(Iām a sucker for Macās previous overwatches being awful to him) and PeƱa was the exception but heās gone and now heās stuck with Dalton and heās got so much time left here still and Dalton gets to go home soon.
They still donāt get along but Mac still saves Jack and heās shocked when Jack stays because he gets to go home and choose to stay. Ahh it would be so interesting.
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Okay what if Macās considered a troubled child? He has a record of everything that heās done and really the only big thing was exploding the football field. Heās the weird kid but is still the Mac we know and love
Assuming everything is still pretty much the same, Harry and James still talk and James gets updates on everything Mac does and that was like the decision of him going to the army. Harry opposes it because he knows the horrors of it but doesnāt really have the final say in anything because while heās technically Macās guardian, James isā unfortunatelyā still his father
Letās assume Mac got a scholarship, but itās really James setting his plan into place and through the magic of television, through signing all the paperwork and everything and getting the scholarship settled, Mac said heād join the army when he turned 18
So Mac more or less gets literally escorted out of his dorm and shoved onto an army bus and taken away to basic, all while calling Harry trying to figure out whatās happening but Harry just tells him he signed a contract. Mac even calls the Bozers to try to help out because they actually care and donāt want him sent into a battlefield
Training and everything passes, old overwatches come and go, PeƱa is the only person who says the whole situation is fucked up and tells Mac heāll look into it because legally the contract Mac signed was null and void because he signed as a minor without his guardian present so he really shouldnāt be there. James gets word of it because thatās just a big problem so he had a plan to keen him from finding anything out, but PeƱa ends up dying from the Ghostās bomb and James doesnāt have to Deal With Himā¢ļø
At that point, Mac is pretty much cut off from everyone because he didnāt want to be there and the only person that seemed to care and believe him died. Then he gets transferred and the whole interaction with Jack happens and the scene where we see Mac disarm the IED with a battery and gum, how theyāre kinda warming up to each other, Mac is still completely closed off because he just hates it there so much, even though Jack is trying to be a decent guy
And then when Mac goes off on his ownā
āNow, we need to get on the same page, kid, and I mean right now. That is, if you want to keep breathing. Next time you wait for me to take my position before you go scampering off like that, you hear me?ā
āWhatever. Not like it wouldāve mattered.ā
Which leads to a blowout of Mac yelling how much he hates it there and that he was basically kidnapped from college because he knew that, while he didnāt read the full contract, any agreements wouldāve been void like PeƱa said because he was a minor and he didnāt have the power to consent to actually joining the army
When Mac saves Jack, itās more of a if it was just me I wouldnāt really care but Iām not going to let you die just because my life sucks and Jack can see Mac going in a downward spiral and knows that if he doesnāt stay then Mac wonāt make it out of the sandbox
The last few days is basically how they first met, but Jackās making an effort to actually be the guy we know and love but Mac doesnāt want anything to do with it because Jackās leaving and whatās the point of trying to be friends with someone youāll never see again
So when Jack actually pops into the side of the humvee
āWhyād you come back? You had the opportunity to go home.ā
āMy home will still be there. I told ya before that I get all my bomb nerds home and yer no exception. You were dealt a real shitty hand and itās fucked that no one will help ya get to the bottom of it. So Iām gonna stay here, make sure ya get home so you can stick it to those that fucked ya overā
So Macās tour gets finished, and since Jack actually holds power, they leave and Jack gets on contact with his buddies up the ladder to help get to the bottom of it and it takes a while but they eventually get the documents Mac signed and then consent forms signed by James and that just starts a whole whirlwind of the true James Hate we deserved
**Bonus points for if Harry died while Mac was deployed but they didnāt let him go home because James knew he would go AWOL so all his free days and leave had to be on base, also Mac assumed that Harry was the one that consented to him joining so he pretty much hated him until he found out the truth
All assuming Mac signed the scholarship forms when he was like 16 because you can legally sign up for the army when youāre 17
#YOU ARE CAUSING JOY BESTIE#ALWAYS GIFTING ME WITH AMAZING IFEAS#THIS HAS SO MUCH POTENTIAL#SUPER ANGSTY MAC#DARK ANGSTY MAC#heāll eventually turn into the golden retriever we love#but a lot later#after Jack puts his delta skills to use in finding out what happened#like Mac puts all his free time into searching for his father#every resource gets put into that#even questionable things at work and breaking protocol#and when he finds James MUCH sooner#canāt decide if it would be good to have him yell at him for hours on end#or have him shut down completely#bro imagine if he went to Fletcher to disappear with Jack because he just hates James so much#like Harry felt horrible for everything and still leaves everything to Mac#but Mac still feels betrayed even though it wasnāt directly his fault#so he basically just gives Fletcher everything because he canāt think about his past#or something like that#why do none of the tags work#lailuh writes#hello thank you i love you#Lailuh speaks#ask#answer#bold-and-nosy#bold and nosy
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people who hate on ships just because they headcanon a character as a different sexuality are the weakest links and need to be purged
like idk what makes you think your opinion is that important but.. its just a headcanon, girl, leave people alone
#talking specifically about saiki k but this happens in a lot of fandoms#people who hc kusuo as completely romance repulsed are constantly hating on others for no reason#and also people who hate teruhashi and yumehara for this reason are just misogynistic#people hate on kokomi because they think she needs to leave saiki be#as if he canonically doesn't respect and care about her#ur just haters#idk why people refuse to accept that people on the aroace spectrum can still fall in love and date#yall dont even know what youre arguing#ironically i dont see a lot of people hating on aiura for the same reason even though she and teruhashi treat him the same#not sure if people are just hypocritical or if i just havent seen it#and i see so many people hate yumehara because they think kaidos gay#you can ship what you want but its so weird to hate her for that#saiki k#tdlosk#the disastrous life of saiki k.#meows post#saiki kusuo
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Random Togami Headcanon 13
TL;DR - Byakuya's bettered himself but he still has a long road of healing. Also, heads up. This one's not happy like most of the others. Gets a bit hopeful at the end but there's still a lot of sad topics here. Viewer discretion is advised. Now that he feels more empathy for others and possesses some capability for putting himself in another's shoes, thoughts he used to have about the lower class make him feel... off. Perhaps guilt or discomfort with himself. It doesn't help though looking at his classmates every school day and being reminded of the mindset he was raised with. It especially doesn't help when he looks at Makoto who helped him. Makoto being the commoner of all commoner's also hurts. He appreciates what Makoto's done to help him but it unintentionally stabs him hard within his chest that he needed someone's help to get to this point and the someone being a commoner he once wrote off. Next, with this empathy, the heir feels better with his life and happiness but fundamentally worse. It's as if he deteriorated though, logically, he knows it's not the case. He knows that the illogical side of his brain covers itself in the hides of reason and rationale. Essentially, Byakuya ends up having a grueling struggle with dealing with these emotions that, for the majority of his life, he buried and repressed. Emotions that both make him feel more fulfilled in life but that tear him apart inside. Bouts where he feels either extremely content with how he's turned out or that dread and despair that he's slipping back into his old ways. In fact, at times, it becomes overwhelming for him to handle which he especially hates. Being overwhelmed is yet another thing he once viewed as a weakness and, to some extent, he still does. Sometimes, to cope, jokes to himself on whether existing itself is something he feels is a weakness. However, though he has a lot of emotions and thoughts that upset him now as a bettered person, one big thing that pains him is that he has the capability and the intelligence to notice all of this. It's the acknowledgment that stings. The heir notices that he has a problem, that he probably needs help, maybe even therapy, but then he spirals more because of that realization. Why should HE need HELP for these problems of his?! He's an independent person! He should logically be able to handle this himself. He's always handled his problems on his own! Why should he now need someone or just a support system of people to aid in his path of healing? He feels gross for that support system being the classmates who he once adamantly despised with such vitriol. With the added empathy, he also feels shame as he doesn't want to hurt any more people in his life now. He has the hindsight to know this now. He questions himself. Is the situation he's in even that big of a deal and should he keep searching for answers on the "why" and "how"? Is it worth it? Comparisons to the peasants he used to once adamantly demonize also do not escape him. He feels worse because, while he's breaking at the seams, countless of other commoners have similar thoughts too. He's not unique and a bit of that stings his lingering superiority. Then, there is the fact that Byakuya feels even worse about this BECAUSE commoners can handle stuff like this and yet, he keeps saying that he can't due to his mental spirals. Either that or the older thoughts of hating commoners bites back by making him feel like he's "acting like one". He knows by this point that he's actively tearing himself down and that he needs to escape this cycle of mental abuse. He feels shame in himself though. He feels humiliated. Pathetic. Overly emotional in ways he's never felt before. He still has that hope though. The hope that he can get through his. The heir's already delt with so much whether canon, non-despair, or an au of some kind. He's continued on despite it all. And, though long ago, he would have pushed some of this hope off for it being too optimistic, he's grown to care less about that sort of thought anymore. Byakuya can do this.
#danganronpa#danganronpa headcanons#danganronpa byakuya#byakuya togami#togami headcanon series#text sector#basically he's in a state where he knows he can get better but it takes a toll on him at times cus he's hard on himself#knowing that it's okay to rely on others and reaching out is hard just in general and it's def the case for him cus he usually relies on hi#he has to basically get out of a mindset he's had all his life which is a difficult thing to do because it can take so many years#which is why it pains him cus he kinda wishes the could just get it fixed right away but he knows it's impossible#hope this wasn't too vent-y and it's okay if one cannot get through all of this as it's quite a lot to handle#i find this aspect of his character interesting though#one can question how he'd handle this change of his over time and if it takes a toll in some regards due to this being different for him#he's been wired with a certain way of thinking both in terms of viewing the lower class badly and trying to be as smart as he can#also does not help that he's still young but has acted like he's an adult his whole life or at least the expectation of what adults are#loosening up from that stress and pressure he has on himself both due to the environment he was born in and his own standards is hard#he hates it being āhardā though#he's the togami heir so having things be ādifficultā for him āisn't supposed to happenā#also stings cus he thinks so highly of himself and what he's meant to achieve or what he's expected to achieve#just another one of my interpretations of his character though#i could/would have added more but there's a word limit i think??? might have missed stuff i wanted to talk about too#there's a lot to say and dive into and it's especially the case for me cus i care a lot about his character and analyzing him the best i ca#if i found a way to write more without it saying that it can't save my draft i would not have so many of these tags T-T#dunno if it's cus i use my computer to type these or if it's just the site or if i'd have to pay for something???#not sure ;-;
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I just think itās silly that so many people complain about Villain Amaya as āwasted potentialā and that āwe were robbedā like-
My pals, post canon fan fiction is right there. The desire to free her husband is right there. Either by touching an evil book while being too eager to remember the obsidian oil, or being possessed by contact (ie what she believes is true loves kiss) when trying to reason with him in the dungeon.
We donāt need a rewrite, we can have a continuation. Both can be true. Amaya is a complex character, she can handle it.
#Wish#Queen Amaya#I assume I'm going to get hate for this but like#I know it's not store bought and you have to still make it yourself but also#I'm kind of just tired of seeing a lot of people sh*tting on Wish because it's not the concept art#And I'm kind of over here like how about we love it recognize it has flaws and THEN try to make something new without bashing the OG?#I just love Amaya and she definitely deserves more#but her good character is so interesting and complex#she still knows how to have fun. She still can be sassy or bite.#Like she's still Magnifico's perfect partner you know? and Magnifico isn't perfect?#A truly pure person wouldn't click with Magnifico the way Amaya does...?#I would rather build on Amaya's character than say she can only be good and boring or a villain?#Amaya is so smart yall. I know you can't see it all just on the movie but like she's read every magic book in Magnifico's library#THOUSANDS OF BOOKS.#And knows basic protection spells#She's a devoted leader.#Like.#Idk#She both loves her husband and recognizes that she has to go against him.#She doesn't /turn/ on him. She addresses his flaws and tells him that it's not okay?#She still jokes with him even though she has to put him in time out. She's complex and strong and wise and kind.#And I just hate seeing so many people so quick to just say 'the concept art was better' when like... the idea might be more appealing to yo#But I hate the level of cynicism and pretentiousness I see of people saying their personal ideas of what Wish should be-#-Is better than the piece of media they claim to care about?#Like their personal vision of Wish based exclusively off the concept art is somehow intellectually superior?#And I'm not saying stop doing your rewrites or AU's or anything! Like there's definitely beautiful creativity happening!#I just hate seeing people so negative and like honestly mean. It hurts my heart to see everyone calling Wish garbage?#It's not great but I really really dont think it's as bad as everyone is saying. Like its no like Oppenheimer but it's a children's movie..#Like I personally love the Teens and Amaya#And everyone saying they stink makes me sad... Because they're just great characters?
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y'know, i keep making a habit of swinging my bat at hornets nests, but i have to say i'm getting so, so tired of people complaining about shows not making perfect sense when they aren't even close to done. we're four episodes into this season of doctor who. we're four episodes into this season of bridgerton. and yet in both fandoms i keep seeing people whine that such and such didn't make sense or it wasn't explained all the way and by god you guys i think maybe explanations might come later in the season. this is something most viewers will recognize as being called a 'plot.'
#like maybe a tiny bit of media literacy... might save you#and if you think i'm being mean like. its okay if you don't get it at first. it's okay if you don't understand the themes. but maybe#instead of stamping your feet and saying this makes no sense and i hate what they're doing and and and#maybe you could try listening to other people's interpretations of things and you'll find that what the show is trying to tell you becomes#more clear! would you look at that. wild how that happens#like im sorry you're entitled to your opinions but calling things bad writing just because you don't quite get it or it doesn't resonate#with you personally... i don't think you should just say this was shitty and worthless#the examples im using are because both resonate with me btw. 73 yards was existential horror it was hill house and bly manor#(im going to write about this in another post btw bc it compels me so)#it was about the way fear of abandonment can haunt you how mental illness can haunt you how you feel like you can drive people away#just by being yourself (the Woman was Herself what caused ruby to be abandoned was Her it's about her feeling as though she was the cause#of everyone who left her even as a baby even the people who loved her most could decide to not love her at the drop of a hat)#colin bridgerton is masking and faking a personality because it has been proven that time and time again#being Himself is Wrong that he annoys people he makes himself into what people expect of him because he's tired of being abandoned too#his family ignores and does not reply to his letters this season PEN stopped replying to his letters#his brother was cruel to him for being a romantic his friends LAUGHED AT HIM for saying sex is meaningful to him and don't they feel lonely#his Fake Rake persona makes viewers cringe because! its!! fake!!! he's faking it! HE GETS CALLED OUT ON IT TWICE IN EP ONE#if you don't understand he's faking it then that's on you at that point! i don't know! maybe take a minute to sit in the discomfort and ask#why did this show make me react this way and do you think maybe it was on purpose#''73 yards was confusing'' do you think confusion may be one of the ways ruby feels about her abandonment?#there is a theme in all of her episodes so far is it ''badly written'' unclear to you or do you just refuse to think critically about it#txtly#and im sorry for tagging this its just for my blog i kinda wish they still didnt show up in tags if i tag them all the way at the bottom#[old lady ruby voice] ''i used to be able to tag things just for myself once upon a time''#bridgerton#bridgerton spoilers#doctor who#doctor who spoilers
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omgg lol [guy who won't stop going "more like scapeGOATED" voice] now hold! on!! lmao [same guy just saw encanto voice] Hold on!!!
#& [it might be 5am but i'll still see if i can draw some] trackpad homemade reacts. inhales & hands to head/face x9 then walking off#site giving pretty random Suggested assortment there where i was like oh right sure. prob not tumblr keywords captures lmaooo#(plus happened to have it open in firefox) but my god Not the scapegoated literal seers lmfao. whoooo. my god#also it was just really good anyways like right nice. damn#the (queerrr) seerrr the perceiverrr the truth tellerrr the ruinerrr the scapegoat be-errr the internalizerrr the neurodivergerrr#& now i Know there is 0% chance ppl weren't putting ''always a gay cousin or it's you (avuncular edition)'' in that thing#family tree design not even leaving space for the hypothetical kids of this relative we mostly pretend is nonexistent hmm#also that necessarily. it's giving all intents & purposes Disability abt a dozen ways & it's saying [accept that] vs [we'd better fix him]#you don't cite said [it's giving disability] as part of the We All Hate The Horrible Little Freak scapegoating justification & then be like#''actually we don't have to do that anymore b/c he's sooo normal :)'' or not if you're serious about [don't scapegoat your family] anyways#which like oh ok they Are serious so The Weirdo's scapegoating / casting out / lack of support Isn't justified#so he's still weird & you just gotta get over that b/c otherwise. bye. having a natural rat affinity is such a slay btw#& we've all been there like ''you NEVER want two scapegoats talking it's Over if they do'' + littlest kid is like um. they're the best#plankton voice Correct! inhale i'm so impressed like. getting to go ''finally someone Normal'' (serious abt letting someone Be Weird(tm))#which also always counts as like mm hard time suggesting someone's Not queer & also autistic for a start lmao. an award#adding in suggested layers like talking to oneself; talking Oddly / w difficulty; physical uncoordination; rituals ; acting; animal friend#the layer of ''& all that's fine? like?'' again rather than him ever suppressing or even changing it so far as it's suggested#besides that it's observed as Weird like but so? or else what? nonrhetorical: hostility / rescinded support & driving someone off is what?#& that Truth like the [worse treatment / exclusion / scapegoat] oft recipe for someone giving the support they're not getting themself#again Never let the [ppl both experiencing this] talk oh it's So over. or the child who's all i like family support & kindness actuallyy...#obviously also like the complete opposite of billions. knowing what they're about & letting this Just As Beloved crucial guy be So Weird#but billions Also [hmm feels right for our scapegoated guy to Perceive / Tell Truths / openly want/need & then be hurt] now get his ass#anyway [guy who could always go way on could go way on but only has thirty tags & it's 6am & i still mean to try some drawing] voice#remarkable amt of So True & ''it feels like ppl on the same page w/exactly what they're doing are all behind this''#remarkable amount of concentrated My God That Is So A Slay located in bruno all at once. what a gift#sticking to ''sometimes someone In Your Group is Weird. Disabled. deal'' firmly enough there's no ;) oh u can bet we'll Fix Him in the end#everyone always assumes the worst so....me when i'm [always as a kid yearning for Living In Secret Passages]. emile gtmpota?#oh congrats to whatever rando who will be having his dramatic gay reunion w/bruno just out of frame obviously. i perceive#now imagine if That rando was....emile gtmpota! what a crossover event. haunting4haunting. do i have enough tags for this lmao. yea#& having 1 more tag to say: as though the [endless serving] isn't enough bruno's also as close to gender envy as it gets. incl rats; sure
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*blows a kiss somewhere in the general direction of the sky, and therefore space*
For HAL
#2001 a space odyssey#hal 9000#i finished reading the first book today#first things first: beautifully written book! absolute masterpiece! 10/10 highly recommend!#but also#i'm still tearing up thinking about the murder scene (which is what it was) even though i read it a day ago#it was Not any easier in written form. not at all. still Extremely painful.#i love him and i hate what happened to him#can't wait to start 2010 so i can see him alive and well again#(sidenote: last time me and my mum watched 2001 i genuinely did blow a kiss at hal without thinking about it...#it's cool though#my mum understands#i told her before the first time we watched it: 'listen i'm Absolutely gonna fall in love with hal'#(and she expected that from me anyway)#and so my very immediate falling in love has been no surprise to her whatsoever ALSMSLXNSNXN)
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JUSTICE FOR DAVINA CLAIRE I'M SO FUCKING SERIOUS FUCK OFF OH MY FUCKING GOD
#CAMI AND DAVINA GONE IN ONE EPISODE??!?!!??#YOU CAN'T BE FUCKING FOR REAL#(davina perma died an episode later both they both died in one episode right before that)#also this season has been slacking on marcel and the ep post-davina's death kicked him up several notches#he said all the shit i take issue with about the always and forever family bs#he hit that shit out of the park#also camille's death being all about comforting klaus fucking pissed me off#it was until she was scared right at the end that it was more about her#and her last words COULD have beenthe immortality line. but then they had to have her bolster klaus again instead#at least we got others mourning her after#but davina????#those bitchass ancestors forced her boyfriend to kill her then nearly shredded her soul#and she could've been resurrected. but of course fucking family came first#she had to die screaming for mercy alone as the ancestors tried to carve her soul from fucking existence#(and though i'm mad at elijah and freya for it it makes sense for them to do it#(what pissed me off was them and klaus then telling marcel that they were justified and he should just suck it up and understand)#(like no take the consequences let the man mourn)#(freya claiming family to kol too like girl i don't know you. and this 'family' loves you more than it ever loved me)#(y'all only love me on my deathbed)#(if being family means we kill each other's partners [which happens time and time again] then fuck being in this family)#like i don't actually want the mikaelsons dead. but also i hope super vampire marcel kills you all#hope kol gets away from you people because you are not family to him. you aren't.#but mostly davina. poor fucking davina#her and kol are my bonnie and enzo - finally finding someone who will choose them not just use them#only for death at the hand of allies#davina clair was an abused teenager you all used and who justifiably hated y'all#and she deserved more than to die like this. die basically three fucking times over still helping in the end#truly have not seen a witch this blatantly used and mistreated since the bonnie bennet#davina claire#the originals
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Anyone whoās out of high school or in college, do teenage boys eventually get nicer? They make me not want to go to school.
#sorry to the good teenage boys out there#but I hate these guys so much#why am I being harassed just because they donāt find me attractive#why do they come up to me and say random shit just because Iām quiet#I remember in sixth grade a boy called me a gorilla because of my hairy arms#and itās been years and I still havenāt recovered I bleach my arm hairs because of that#it got better when I grew into my body a bit more but still#they call girls females and speak lowly of them#this one guy said he would never be afraid of a female even though heās under 4ā9 and everyone is taller than him#ik height is not relevant but why is his ego taller than him#theyāve called me out on my checks flushing (itās rosacea)#and the amount of times Iāve heard them rate a girls body behind their backs is gross#and now that Iām not āuglyā they respect me which still sucks bc why is that the reason they donāt treat me like shit#and the girls who are like them and condone the behavior are just as bad bc why are you against yourself do we not have enough difficulties#anyways#had to ask this#because the school year is starting and that means I have to see them again#after a nice summer of recovering from then#rant?#idk#when do they outgrow the middle school phase because it doesnāt look like itās happening anytime soon#teenage boy#girlhood#?#or is that just me#pjo#kotlc#high school#idk what to tag this as#school core
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