#i needed to talk about eddie diaz

[cafecitoeddie]

OKAY whew boy. that episode was. not. as bad as i originally thought it would be.

TPTB certainly made a Big Choice to include a storyline about a man looking for his absentee wife’s replacement alongside a storyline about one of the main leads…… looking for his absentee dead wife’s replacement.

the abductor, going through so much grief, does something so horrific and vile he literally kidnaps a woman and her child in order to re-create the family he knows is completely lost to him.

I’M NOT SAYING GRIEF IS GONNA MAKE YOU GO AND KIDNAP A WHOLE ASS PERSON - this is not in any way shape or form okay but grief attacks us in ways we will never fully understand and at times we will never be prepared for. grief ruins lives and destroys any mental sanity we think we might have or be working towards. it’s always up to us to seek out mental help in order to avoid those pitfalls grief puts in our path. i’m just saying grief is rough, so very very rough and manifests itself in so many different ways.

eddie diaz never truly fully processed the grief he’s carrying around with him, grief at having left shannon, grief at ruining the one thing HE THINKS he had going for them, his marriage. he loved her. whether or not you think she was a shitty mother or wife HE LOVED HER DEEPLY this has been stated time and time again. he feels in his soul she was the one he was meant to be with and this all seems to be colored with some of kind of rose tint because she was not perfect nor was she perfect for him or even a perfect mother. but eddie himself doesn’t see that. he never has.

cue the grief he is so desperately clinging to. and then. suddenly right there before him is kim, the shannon look-alike who seems to be just like her in looks but nothing like her in spirit. and what does eddie do? he latches on and he thinks “yes, she’s come back. just when i needed her most (dealing with christopher getting older and needing him less - dealing with repressed catholic guilt - dealing with life / time continuing to move forward), she’s come back because she’s the only one who does.” he has a whole ass girlfriend he’s asked to move in with him, asked to move back out, asked to get to know fully in order to move forward with their relationship (LIKE A NORMAL HUMAN BEING WOULD) but nope. he regresses and sees shannon adjacent and thinks “fuck all that. i’m gonna get to know my dead ex wife’s lookalike instead.”

that is NOT normal behavior for someone who has processed grief or at the very least has been trying to process his grief.

ALL OF THAT just makes me so intrigued. i need to know where this is going and i am so so so so ready to find out.

[lookingforeddiaz]

Oh high Eddie Diaz how I love you. I think we need to talk about the fact that Eddie is a cryer when he high (idk I just find this the funniest thing)

“What’s going on I don’t like this ☹️” PLEASE-

Edmundo Diaz im gonna put you in my pocket

AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON YOU EVAN “these are the tiniest dancers I’ve ever seen! 😃 tinie tiny! 😆🤏” BUCKLEY

[panikkarsravi]

9-1-1 + scenes that made me cry 8/? S05E13: Fear-O-Phobia

[warpedpuppeteer]

It's interesting how Buck's love interests are all written in a way that ends because of the reason they meet/happen in the first place and then of course, we have Eddie.

Abby, who changes Buck's view of a healthy relationship but then turns around and ghosts him, making him wait for months on end and letting him realize she's not coming back on his own.

Ali, who meets Buck during a dangerous situation in his line of work and then leaves him for how dangerous his work is.

Taylor, who lashes out at Buck for using her as a fake date and saying she thought she could trust Buck to be a friend who then ends up using him for her career and chose to put his friends in danger.

Natalia, who's there to help him embrace and deal with his temporary death but it leads to their break up because of the constant talk surrounding death when Buck's not comfortable with it.

We can't confirm for Tommy till it ends but it's important to note how he offers to get Buck into his interests like flying and muay thai yet doesn't show effort with Buck's interests like dressing up according to the bachelor party theme despite Buck being stressed about it. And we also have the fact that the entire reason they got together was due to Buck's jealousy for Eddie which he then claims to be was for Tommy. Makes me think they are either going to end because of differing interests OR because of the jealousy issue popping up again.

Funnily enough, every scene above has an Eddie parallel:

Eddie co-parents with Buck and not only does this not stop after a dangerous event but Eddie also has Buck down as a legal guardian (healthy relationship - Abby).

Eddie is in the same dangerous line of work and they have each other's backs. This happens right off the bat too.(dangerous job - Ali).

The Lawsuit era and The Dispatch era - both where they "betray" each other but manage to work through it (betrayal/lie - Taylor).

Eddie doesn't pressure Buck to talk about his temporary death until Buck's ready and is more focused about him living than in his death (death doula - Natalia).

Eddie who has different interests than Buck (poker, basketball and UFC/MMA) but also manages to show interest and actively takes part in whatever Buck comes up with; he suggests their outfit for the themed party AND ends up staying there for Buck even when others leave (different hobbies & showing interest/taking part - Tommy).

Absolutely fascinating when you start noticing that Buck's relationships keep failing for one reason or another and then we have him and Eddie who face the same sort of situations but they still come out of it stronger together.

It's clear that there's a reason Buck is able to overcome anything when it comes to Eddie (that conversation with Maddie about being there for each other even at their worst 👀) and we've already established that everything Eddie looks for in a partner is already something he has found in Buck. So really, all that's left is for them to realize that hey, the one I'm looking for is right in front of me! 🤷🏽

And yes, it's been said to death (hah) but you don't find it son you make it. And Buck and Eddie have already made it.

[freetreasures]

do i hate to see eddie get hurt? of course. do i need him to almost die again so we get buck breaking down, feelings realisation and the will brought up again? absolutely

[bryverros]

i think i miss the pornstache actually

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Buck sitting there listening to that call between bathena is very very interesting!!

Choices have been made and prices are shifting into place and I am seated and ready!

[eddiewithcat]

cannot explain but

did anyone else get super “just make sure that you’re following your heart, not christopher’s okay?” vibes

…from maddie’s “and if there is something you need to tell eddie.. you will. just, in your own time” ?????

because they hold the same amount of weight for entirely different reasons, yet they both talk about the confusion of feelings…

[stopthatfool]

every time someone on twitter calls buck buckley a dom/brat tamer 10 angels fall from heaven with their grace completely stripped and 10 puppies die

[sloasis]

I think there needs to be more trapped in an elevator related emergencies / tropes like I NEED Buck and Eddie to get trapped in one after Eddie having a meeting to sell his house and it stops and starts shifting down and it's tense and they use their firefighting knowledge together and their strength but also before the elevator breaks they're being awkward because Buck is still pretending not to be upset about Eddie moving away so maybe Eddie confronts him about it being like ' Are you okay ? Why are you pretending to be okay about me leaving , I know you're mad at me or whatever but -- ' ( in his sassy but concerned tone of course ) and then the elevator shifts and they fall into each other or even fall down on top of each other and crashes Eddie's knee against the floor or railing and makes it hurt / out of commission and Buck has to carry him and focusing on getting them out of there but it's still tense because Eddie's hurt while also being confused about why Buck has been weird lately ( This makes Chris come back home btw because he hated getting the news Eddie got hurt while he was away regardless it wasn't an NDE or anything ) .. Can I mention I'm also a huge sucker for miscommunication like yeah Eddie's gonna be real confused as to why Buck is being ' normal ' and being like yay !! Eddie you're gonna go back to Texas !!! Yay !! Because Eddie's gonna come back 🤔

I just Need This , thank you very much .

[loverboykinard]

I'm never going to recover from this actually

[bidisasterevankinard]

So I'm sure Oliver confirmed Buck's queer awakening arc and I'm soooo ready

Like the choice of words? The repetition of shame and discovery of new things and all the things that just scream "queer person deals with heteronormativity they were taught from the childhood", and that article starts without this? Talk how his new discovery is actually new? How in your 20-30s you really always involve and see new things about your self?

Buck is going to find our he is queer. and maybe, just maybe "let things happen to him" aka let men flirt with him and maybe even try more? Well, we will see

And then this

BUDDIE IS COMING

[martyreddie]

Desperately hoping for a callback to the Eddie begins porch conversation between Eddie and Chris because I think it's incredibly important to Eddie's character arc.

The crux of "I miss you all the time" is that it forces Eddie to reckon with the fact that destroying himself in the pursuit of making Christopher happy is no viable option because Christopher can't be happy if Eddie isn't happy. Missing out on time with his son is not a one-sided burden; Eddie's go-to tactic of sacrificing himself for the people he cares for does not work here.

Because, sure, Eddie would live in El Paso until the end of his days feeling absolutely miserable, if he just believes it's what Christopher needs - but Christopher needs Eddie to choose himself, too. He needs him to find his own joy and work through his own feelings (about his parents, Shannon, etc) instead of pushing them away in order to function.

Eddie needs to understand that the entire Kim-Texas-fiasco is less Chris suffering because Eddie made a rare selfish choice (emotional affair with the ghost of his dead wife), and more Chris suffering because Eddie continually made self-sacrificial choices (pushing away his own grief and anger at Shannon because he didn't want to taint her memory / knows he is the only one left alive to defend her and her actions).

He needs to see his personal joy not just as something frivolous to indulge in, but also as something that is just a plain good thing, both for him and for the people around him.

[lover-of-mine]

Buddie Countdown to Season 7:

16 days.

[arabella-s-arts]

Me watching the new 9-1-1 episode: *pointing at Buck* Yes, the rejection sensitive dysphoria is strong with this one.

[momowoah]

Not to bring up yesterday's discourse but the reason why some people think Buck has never had a breakdown is because they want his breakdown to be him crying nonstop and leaning on the people he loves but that's just not him. His breakdowns (yes, plural) in the past that we've seen have shown that he tends to get angry and run away from everyone. That's what he did when Maddie couldn't leave with him. That's what he did during the lawsuit era. That's what he did when his parents came back in s4. He lashes out and he isolates. Eddie is the one who cries and seeks help in the people around him (post-therapy at least, he had his fight club era lol) but y'all refuse to acknowledge him as someone who can be vulnerable and be taken care of unfortunately.