#i mean THATS BASICALLY WHAT THEY DID WITH ROBBY!!!
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some more cobra husbands doodles, this time, cobra dads editionā¦
i think to think that in a world where the cobras was a nicer dojo, they would make the perfect karate chaperone papas :( WE CAN DREAM!!!
#cobra kai#john kreese#terry silver#cobra husbands#doodles#mike barnes#tory nichols#the cobra boys#pleaaase someone write me the crack fluff au where terry plays karate dad with mike barnes#i mean THATS BASICALLY WHAT THEY DID WITH ROBBY!!!#robby after losing two fathers and gaining two MORE toxic waste fathers#sighā¦ and kreese being such a girldad#BRING. THEM. BACK!!!#worst fathers EVER PARTY!! STARTS NOW!#villains who are also husbands who are ALSO fathers >>>>
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If I was to rewrite victorious Andre would be a cool trans guy who everyone in the school wants to go out w but hes actually secretly (not as much as heād like to think, but still) pining for Cat, whoās actually aroace and pretty oblivious to his feelings, but she does entertain the thought of being w him which results in some silly situations like:
Cat: [kisses Andre on the cheek]
Cat (giggling): Sorry, Iām such a dork..
Andre: Thank you.
Cat: Huh?
Andre: [telling everything to the gang later]
Tori: Seriously?! āThank youā??
Andre (sobbing in embarassment): I DIDNāT KNOW WHAT TO SAY, OKAY?
Tori would be this one highschool kid who has gone to one too many identity crisis in middle shool regarding her gender and sexuality and has simply given up on labeling themselves. When she comes to Hollywood arts and the coffee incident happens thereās no romantic or sexual tension w Beck whatsoever (but Jade still hates her out of spite), they become very good friends w Andre just like in the show, is also good friends w Cat and Robbie and forms this unapologetically gay rivalry w Jade.
Jade is basically the same, just maybe less cartoonishly evil?? Still a lot of anger issues, bisexual she/they energy. breaking things and scaring the shit out of ppl. She dates Beck by the beginning but they very obvsly dont get along and its js as delightful as it is annoying hearing them argue abt everything all the fcking time and rant abt how much they hate each other js to not break up (they will eventually, dw)
Beck is not changed much, just more consistent. Sarcastic pretty boy, good actor, very blunt and open about his feelings, simply impossible to scare (maybe thatās why he managed to date Jade for so longš)
Robbie is js the same weirdo w a puppet, except in this heād lean more into a asshole-nerd trope. Is a fucking cunt to everyone, probably has big ass crush on Beck that heāll never admit, flirts w every girl he sees out of insecurity, etc.
In this concept Rex is pretty much his own person, but since Robbie is a jackass then they are over all more similar, Rex still ābulliesā Robbie, but itās slightly toned down as they probably enjoy the same kinda things, have more compatible personalities, etc. Robbieās js more awkward aboutā¦ welll, everything.
Trina is still Trina, except weād treat her like a actual character and not some ālook, sheās bad at singingā joke
Cat is similar to her early seasonsā version, she is kinda dumb, volatile and weird but not completely out of it. She kind of knows how to play people (especially boys) to get what she wants. Most of her dumbness would actually be translated into obliviousness, Cat doesnāt notice thiings, sheās always in her own world and doesnāt rlly care abt ānormalā things
In this Andre and Tori are best friends (none of the og chow fuckery where they claim beck and andre r besties somehow)
Cat and Robbie are completely platonic on Catās side while Robbie makes a few moves on her once in a while (w/o any intention of actually dating her)
Jade and Tori are just gay. I canāt really explain any way else. Itās the same as in the show, just more explicitly gay. Like, in the way where Jade probably goes out of her way to make Toris life miserable but gets very mad whenever someone else does it (shes probably screamed āonly i can make her life living hellā at students in hollywodd arts more than once). Tori is also meaner to jade in retaliation, but theyre both kind of into fighting each other so its not rlly that much of a rivalry and more of a amusing thing. Theyre also weirdly jealous of each other. Jade chases people down the hall with scissors whenever someone makes a move on Tori
Beck and Tori are 100% platonic, they hang out more than they did in the show (which fuels jades bother w them in the beginning) but remain abt the same level of closeness
Jade is.. less mean to Cat. Like they dont find bothering her as funny bc she js doesnt understand it and it ends up being meaningless, thats kind of the only reason they manage to get along
Cat and Beck r pretty much the same as the show, still kinda big bro and lil sis dynamic
Cat and Tori are like the girlies ever. They go shopping together, gossip abt everything and everyone bc they know that no one else likes listening to them
Beck is pretty chill, w Robbie, who as I said, is kinda gay for him, theyre not that close but also not not-friends
Andre and Beck are very close, they fight a lot abt silly stuff but always make up and go back to being bros in less than a day
Robbie is kinda mean to Tori but theyre twice as mean back so they make it workš«¶
Jade intimidates the shit outta Robbie, he is a jackass to everyone except her bc he knows heāll get his dick chopped off if he tries anything funny
I already expanded on Andre and Catās dynamic, so yeah
Idk why am i even writing this but here it is
#victorious#tori vega#trina vega#jade west#cat valentine#andre harris#jori#beck oliver#robbie shappiro#rex
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WOOO HAPPY SUMMER EVERYBODY THIS BOUTTA BE THE SUMMER OF RATC
Anyway letās start with me saying the idea of using welding goggles as sunglasses to protect Recksins eyes from the light is ingenuous and is something I could never come up with.
Also I love how you can tell that Recksins worldview is still being affected by its treatment under the Malice as Recksin has a sort of āThe ends justify the means,ā viewpoint when it comes to the Ashen issue (similar to Kobb until Rezek bitch slapped him with their emotional baggage) which is very similar to the way the Malice treated the Horriblins during the mission to infect the Divine Beasts, which in the flashback showed many Horriblins dying gruesomely in a cave-in but the Calamity didnāt give a shit and basically said that it didnāt matter how they did it or who died but the mission needed to be accomplished.
Also Iām now hooked on Robbieās āFinal Theoryā which Iām going to call it that could apparently threaten all of Hyrule? I guess from a societal standpoint, like a horrible truth could definitely shatter the norms of society and cause societal breakdown.
My personal theory on what the āFinal Theoryā is, is that itās the fact that the Hylians committed genocide on the monster race and the other races stood by and let it happen which caused the monsters to turn against the races of Hyrule and join Ganon.
Anyway now Kobb has even more baggage to deal with (are you ever going to give your characters a break will) and my theory is that he used to own an Aerocuda or this specific Aerocuda in ages past and he was a pilot or monster air force soldier at some point.
Anyway this was another setup chapter and an introduction to the āFinal Theoryā and I have to say this was definitely better than last chapter and Iām excited to see the three groups (Rezek and the Gerudo Group, the 3 Musketeers, and the Akkala gang) reunite and come together.
YEAAAAA thank you I love coming up with just random unconventional ways non-human species navigate a world designed for humans. I'm glad you like the welding goggles bit :)
But also Robbie's 2nd theory is a lot more convoluted. It's specifically about the Horriblins and isn't about the Divine Beasts. It's also a bit of worldbuilding I came up with that seamlessly ties into some parts of the depths...
Thats all I'll say >:3
#ratc ask#shaking and crying that I can't give more hints#Because I'm really excited for this tidbit
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The Owl House successed where Gravity Falls failed:
Don't get wrong,this isn't a hate message toward Gravity Falls,I'm not trying to say which show is better and I consider Gravity Falls to be a masterpiece but a flawed one,and I'm going to talk how The Owl House sucessed in which Gravity Falls failed(be civil):
1-Blame Game:In Gravity Falls the narration shown Ford to be the one to blame only, although it is true that he is faulty,so as Stan.
sure he didn't mean to destroy Ford's project but he didn't told him in order to fix it either because he secretly hope that his accident would make Ford stay,he was petty in weirdmaggedon and while Ford is arrogant with messiah complex, Stan is implusive with victim complex and at least Ford TRIES to take responsibilty while stan only did take responsibility when he tries to keep Mabel and Dipper out of this by FAVORITISM and HUMILIATION the fact that he do so after his father the water downed-american-ozai wannable only makes it worse(lets be honest if Dipper was gay,bi or trans everyone in media would scream for blood after seeing Dipper vs Manliness).
Besides,how would you feel if one of your relatives steal your identity,ruin your name and make a mockery out of your life's work?sure he was trying to have enough money to return you but what part of "stealing your name and mock your job" was necessary?even a simple merch shop makes as much money as a tourist trap.
The Owl House on the other hand,Doesn't play "sacepegoat" in Eda and Lilith case,instead it address both of their faults without choosing sides(Lilith for cursing Eda and Eda for letting her insecurities to push everyone away).
2-Protagonist:what makes them hard to write them is that if you are not be careful either they will end up as plot armor or being punished for anything in every turn and Dipper and Mabel examplified it.
Dipper:I get that his character arc pretty much amounts to: "Stop being a pretentious twit, stop trying to act older than you are, enjoy being a kid while you can." The problem is that the show eventually starts beating on Dipper for wanting ANYTHING at all, and that he must always put Mabel first, even if she's in the wrong. The show seems to say that Dipper should take Mabel's approach to life, and although that might make him happier, he's just not Mabel. Instead of learning to pursue his goals in a less reckless way, he is dis-alluded from having goals period, and that can get frustrating to watch,I don't have a sibiling but I do know that pleasing one in sacrifice of your dreams and everything that makes you you is NOT how healthy family relationships works in fact it is toxic.
Mabel:Now now I don't hate Mabel(the only characters in GF that I genuienly hate are Robbie and Pacifica's parents) and I oppose the idea that Mabel should be completely miserable like a CERTAIN AU,but there is no denying that her character suffers lack of change,all her antics is played for laughs only,unlike other characters she never face her consequences and she learns the same repeative lesson and yet never learns(I'm aware of Lost Legends but thats a comic not part of the show so it doesn't change this fatal flaw in the show and even if it was an episode it would still be repeative and only be in "words" not "action").
What makes Luz special?people most of the time forget that it is not her sexuality that makes her unique(sure being the first LGBT Disney protagonist is a big deal but thats just the perk not the character) is that she is balanced between two extrems,not so perfect that it is bland and unrelateable(like rey from sequel trilogy) or only exist to be the punching bag or being idiotic to feel pity(like morty from rick and morty) or despicable(like the protagonist from revenge of nerds who technically committed rape), just human(hence why me a boy who is straight as narrow and is more into sci-fi than fantasy finds her more endearing and relateable than Dipper and Mabel).
3-Ships:The Owl House unlike GF didn't reduce love interests as stereotypical(like Wendy),they didn't made a bigger deal about crushes than it needs to be,didn't fell for tropes(like Pacifica) and take time.
for instance, if you think about it lumity and dipacifica are basically alike except lumity took time,develop,didn't came out of nowhere in one episode and didn't fell for "I hate you but now I love you despite the major differences" clichƩ trope.
4-The line between friendly tease and humilation:it is true that GF mostly play tease for laughs but sometimes it goes too far.
Take Dipper vs Manliness for example,Stan and Mabel publicaly humiliated Dipper for his insecurities toward masculanity which is just cruel,it is like mocking a tom-boy girl for being too "boyish" and not "girly" enough.
While it is true that Eda and King sometimes mock Luz,I hardly compare those banterings with Stan forcing Dipper into being a furry stripper or giving the ozai treatment to "tough him up" and as I recall Luz and the Blight twins were condemned by the narration for invading Amity's privacy unlike Mabel's invading of privacy.
(Alex once said he didn't mean to make Pacifica's parents look abusive despite the fact that they trained Pacifica to follow the bell LIKE A PET,as much as I admire Alex I sometimes wonder if he underestimates what abuse is)
#gravity falls#the owl house#luz noceda#mabel pines#dipper pines#amity blight#eda clawthorne#lilith clawthorne#stan pines#ford pines#wendy corduroy#pacifica northwest#wendip#dipacifica#lumity#criticism#show critical#critique#criticizes#critical role#alex hirsch#dana terrace
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quickreacts to CritRole c3ep14
yeah wow I watched this one REAL late. Started watching it live and had to stop, didnāt finish until today. itās been a rough week yāall
Spoilers below the non-spoiler pic!
Goddammit Matthew Mercer why do you keep giving these aggressive, violent, scary enemy NPCs so much sexual energy, holy shit
cāmon, Matt, youāre doing this on purpose
Okay, no weapons, okay. Ā This guys probably a goddamn werewolf blood hunter, but okayā¦
āYou throw the first punchā Ā ITS A TRAP THATS ALWAYS A TRAP
Marisha: āI just want āem to kiss so badāĀ Iād like to thank the CR ladies for saying what weāre ALL thinking in this fight
āA HUNDRED GOLD? IāLL TAKE THAT ACTION!ā omg Chetney
Fuck. Ā Our boyās gonna die š
...oh thank Aeor for FCG!
Can confirm: staying in accent when youāre surrounded by different accents is real difficult
Oh my god Travis is just... the glory hole jokes I cannot I love this
Matt/Eshteross: āI think we should just keep our ears openā Ashley/Fearne: <flips her low deer ears up and Iām in love>
Lorelai de Rolo what the FUCK Marisha
Can I just say that I fucking love everything about Marishaās incredible Norma Desmond schtick as Laudna, I adore her
Like, goddamn, is she not just the most š„°
fuck fuck fuck fuck Ashtonās getting interrogated JUST DENY IT
DUDE. Ā JUST. Ā YOU. Ā FUCK. Ā UGH.
You have like 2 different possible connections to fey shit (both Fearne and whatever āweird fucking fey chaos magicā Milo used on you) you can use as an excuse for having, say, some knowledge of a creepy Archfey dude. Ā Or even just, yāknow, a nightmare of him!!!
AND HEāS BASICALLY SAYING THEY DESTROYED THE TOWER???
Dude, you DIDNāT destroy the tower! Ā Donāt act like you did! NOOO ugh
Sam/FCG: āWere you lying?ā Ashley/Fearne: āWell I was gonna take a little bit of a detourā I love Ashley so fucking much.Ā And I love that she ans Ashton are both such bad liars.
Dorian you are so fucking awkward, I ador[ian]e you.
dude this is the worst game of telephone ever I fucking love it
Robbie: āAs weāre walking to the potty-ā Travis: āThe potty...ā Robbie: āI have children!!ā I love Travis and Robbieās banter so much.
FUCK wait welp they got the guards killed
This is what we get for calling the guards, I guess
Eyyyy combat here we go, Dugger 2.0: Fashion Edition!
DAAAAAMN ROBBIE!Ā Yknow I never thought College of Swords was anything decent, saw it as an inferior version of College of Valor, but damn, Blade Flourish is legit!
Wow, so Laura said āso youāre gonna stick it in her, pull it out, stick it in her, pull it out, and then stick it in the other guy?ā without even smiling?! (Bonus points to Travis for āwell yeah, I mean, he is a bard.ā)
Fey-Touched ex-CUSE ME MISS IMOGEN?
Ashley: Natural 20. <hoooowwwwwls!> (she is so cute I cannot) Laura: HOWDY DURRDY DURR! HOWDY DURR DURR DE!! (it wasnāt a HDYWDT but it was adorable)
Oh my god the way Liam describes combat is always so fantastic.
Travis and Robbie both just being huge fans of Liam/Orym, and they BOTH just start doing those quick little imaginary dagger moves, itās adorable.
NOOOO RUSSELL THE GUAARRRRD! š«
āsheāll help meā WHO? WHO WHO WHO WHO WHO WHOMST
FUCK she got away... hooo.... theyāre going to get blamed for this--OH SHIT THAT OTHER GUARDāS ALIVE HEāS GONNA VOUCH FOR THEM THANK GOODNESS
Dorian and Laudnaās friendship is just... perfection. I love it. Laudna: How do we look? How do we look? Dorian: You look amazing as always. Laudna: <wiping his sleeve> Youāve got some, like, goop here. Dorian: Yeah, okay. Game face, game face, everythingās normal, go down and up and then-- Both: <look down, look up> And... āAh!ā <Pose!> Me: <wild applause, tears, bravo>
Fuuuuuck Cyrus what the fuck have you gotten yourself into.
Dorian and Imogenās friendship is just... a disaster. Ā I love it. Robbie/Dorian: Iām gonna break for the door. Laura/Imogen: Are you telling anyone that youāre leaving or are you just... R/D: No. L/I: Cool. Cool. Weāre the worst group.
BELLS HELLS. HELLS YES.
oh no oh god oh no oh god oh cyrus you motherfuck oh no oh
Marisha/Laudna: āughafhamnhunl DARKNESS! <looks at Matt> Wait, what were you about to say, first? ā šRelatable moment.
SMOKE GRENADE WTF ARE YOU SERIOUS DORIANTHATāS NOT GOING TO FUCKING WORKTHE MOST POWERFUL PEOPLE IN THE CITY ARE HERE I CANNOT--OVERTLY?!
I am LOSING my MINDcHARM PerSOn WORKED OMG
oh no the gnome noticed oh no the gnome is gonna--
ITāS HIM
ITāS ESHTEROSS
ITāS OWLBEARMAN
No Laudna, fucking do not draw attention to yourself right now, Vali saw YOU as a ghost at the tower, heās gonna remember you more than anyone...
Wow they are suddenly making up for all their shit rolls earlier...
THANK GOD GUARD-FRIEND TO THE RESCUE
All Guards Are Bastards Except One
Sam/FCG: āIāve got a mask on! No one will remember me!ā (I love this lil robit)
Taliesin/Ashton: āClosest [guard] on the way out, I make eye contact: āGreat party,ā and I tip a gold coin.ā (bless this punk rock)
oh no... Eshteross is mad š„ŗ OwlBearDad plz donāt be mad
Dorian: āSo your bounty... was for falsely stealing from a Mahaan house... and you thought the best way to pay it off was to... actually steal from another Mahaan house.ā Me: You TELL āim, Dorian!
Oh FUCK me, the Green Seekers thought he blew up the tower... which this crew did not do, but was involved in... fuck.Ā Someone must have remembered seeing Dorian.Ā Blue guy in fancy ass clothes is fairly memorable.
Cyrus: ā[I was] the new kid without any sort of known rap, really... aside from the bounty... actually, no, Iām real bad at this, Iām so sorry.ā Me: ...Oh Cyrus, youāre too dumb and cute for me to stay mad. <3
House Wyvernwind: Weāre Real Bad At This, Weāre So Sorry.
oh no itās happening, oh no
I already got spoiled for this but Fearneās immediate āwait wait wait wait,ā and Orymās āNo, wait, I donāt know that thatās necessaryā just.. <lip quiver>
I... oh FCG kicking the floor with his lil legsš
Dorian spent so much time trying to get away from who he was and get away from his family, even though heās said he loves his family.Ā Maybe... maybe he needs this time to reconcile who he really is with where he comes from.Ā Integrate these two parts of himself so he can just honestly say that heās Dorian Storm without it feeling like a fake name.
Imogen: [about the name> I mean we are a bunch of hellions! Chetney: We raise hell! Laudna: And we killed Bertrand! <big smile> This fucking ending has me sad laughing and happy crying, I swear.
Ashton: āHereās to Dorian, whoās leaving us for his stupid brother. what the fuck is up with that?!āĀ Love him.
I love how much the whole cast ships both Dorym and ExU Trio.
Robbie: "I'm gonna try to sing a little song for these guys" Laura: "...are you gonna sing it?!" Robbie: "NO!" XD
Yeah, as someone with Huge Bard Energy, that is such a mood.
EXCUSE ME, I ONLY SING WHEN ITāS INCONVENIENT.
<whispers>Worchestershire</whispers>
āI would never forget you.ā š„ŗ oh Fearne
Halfling hug and forehead kiss <3
Bravo, Robbie Daymond Itās only been 14 episodes (okay sort of 22) how am I so emotional about this!?!?!
Dorian spent so much time trying to get away from who he was and get away from his family, even though heās said he loves his family. Ā Maybe... maybe he needs this time to reconcile who he really is with where he comes from?Ā Integrate these two parts of himself so he can just honestly say that heās Dorian Storm without it feeling like a fake name.Ā He has his brotherās acceptance and support, but having his brother by his side for a while might... I dunno.Ā Make it all feel less like a dirty secret.
Maybe thisāll be good for him.
What a performance from all of them.Ā Hot damn, the CR cast and crew, tho.
#critical role spoilers#cr3e14#critical role c3#my HEART was RACING#and then it was BREAKING#Laudna is Norma Desmond - CANON#Dorian Storm Will Return
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hey, sorry, i only started watching gravity falls since northwest mansion mystery, what are half of these theories what the fuck
HHH. I WILL TRY TO GIVE A BRIEF DESCRIPTION OF EACH.
grunkle4grandpa: answered
mystery trio: fiddleford, ford, and stanley all investigated gravity falls together preportal. this lives on as an au
lebam: answered
the author is the Main Bad Guy: self explanatory. most popular right after nwhs when no one knew what was happening. arguably had a few iterations since ppl theorized ford would join bill in weirdmageddon (insert grimace emoji here)
dipper has been possessed by bill This Whole Time: this was. an entire fuckin phenomena. the idea is that bills deal in sock opera was open ended enough that bill could either possess dipper whenever he wanted or never stopped possessing him. people would pick apart every action dipper did and every screenshot with any pupil distortion as proof. it was wild.
carla mccorkle in general: idk some people thought shed show up again as a real character instead of just be in flashbacks occasionally but she never did :^( shed pop up in mystery trio stuff sometimes
robbie is actually a zombie: zombie drawing has a hoodie. robbie also has a hoodie. same guy. thats the whole theory
'stans tattoo' is a demon ward: one theory about stans scar was that it was a tattoo he got to protect against demonic possession. looking back im sure why this caught on so much since. bill has been in his mind before. it was kind of a big thing
tad strange is a dream demon: keeping in mind this is 2015 and nightvale is still very fresh in everyones mind, cecil baldwin updates his website to say he worked on gravity falls voicing a character named ātad strange.ā everyone loses their mind over this and decides that this MUST mean there is a new dream demon character coming to the show based on, nothing,. fan art ensues. he is given a fanon design and a backstory. the actually episode with 2 second gag character tad strange drops and everyone promptly tries to forget that happened. like overnight
dark!dipper: i could and have written whole paragraphs describing this theory and how complicated it got but BASICALLY its a theory that dipper would become evil/join bill/etc. id argue the āpossessed the whole timeā theory came out of this
triangle guy has no plot significance: from really early on when bills only appearance was that flash of a journal page in the intro
mcgucket wrote the journals: and finally, the red herring from mr hirsch himself,
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OK I finally have context to understand how horrifying this AU is, especially for Gabe. WOW.
Eveline rewires his nervous system so he can run around and play with her. Nice. Cool. Except Eveline is a bully. Canāt blame her since her first meeting with her genetic mother, who commissioned her creation and who was probably built up in her mind as āSome day your mommy is going to come pick you up and then youāll get to live in a real house and be normalā ended in āThis defect is not my Eva, do whatever you want with herā and then a kiddie crash course in military psyops now she knows sheās never going to live like a real child. Maybe Eveline could have grown out of this with intensive therapy etc but she manifested lethal society-destabilizing mind control powers from such a young age that no one could safely parent her. Sheās terrifying. We know the Bakers at least tried to instill some sense of morality into her because of the attic room with the spirals of scrawled āIām sorry Daddy I wonāt be bad anymore,ā but honestly by the time they locked her in the attic they were probably just trying to minimize their own contamination without simply abandoning Eveline to the gators.
Anyway. Gabe gets his first opportunity to play tag and hide-and-seek and jump rope and whatever which is great. Except heās a little old for that, and I donāt think Eveline would react well to Gabe wanting to play Transformers or read a book or something instead. OH SHIT. DID THE CONNECTIONS TELL GABE THAT HE WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR KEEPING EVELINE OCCUPIED? Were they rationing out contact with Gabe as a reward for Eveline, so now Eveline feels like sheās being punished whenever Gabe tries to get some space? Did Eveline try to edit Robbie out of his memories?
And then Gabe has to watch whatever happens with the Baker family as Eveline warps their minds. Of course theyāre good to him, as long as Eveline isnāt telling them to punish him or something. But then thereās Lucas. Depending on the timeline, Eveline canāt control Lucas, and heās a cruel manipulative asshole because heās Just Like That.
So how does Eveline react when Gabe develops his own mold powers? Does she enjoy having something more in common, or is she jealous? Both? Does she tell him this means heās like her, and he canāt be around normal people without changing them?
Then thereās Robbie. So Robbie hands Gabe over to the Connections after signing a ton of scary paperwork and they say theyāll send Gabe home when heās better. And then they send him vague updates assuring him that Gabeās not dead (because faking his death would involve a lot of paperwork and unwanted press attention maybe) and he keeps waiting and waiting and WAITING until it becomes obvious that theyāve basically kidnapped him. Would they have even let them video chat? Would Robbie even know how good Gabe is doing physically, until he sees him at the Baker house? Surely in the back of his mind heād be wondering if heās even looking at Gabe at all.
āDuring the opening I think Robbie is just thinking that if he can get them out of there then things will be ok and thats what keeps him going instead of just breaking completely.ā ROBBIEāS TREMENDOUS POWERS OF DENIAL WIN AGAIN.
Poor Gabe. The first thing he does to Robbie with his improved motor control is maim him š¢
Then from a gaming perspective (I donāt know what Iām talking about) do Gabeās powers work kind of like Splatoon? He can lay claim to parts of the map and make things easier for Robbie, like by providing light or surveillance? Maybe item storage?
Alright I figure since Lisa gets her little redux / refresher so does Gabe!
Just a quick refresher so you don't have to scroll all the way back down that tag: Gabe was really REALLY sick and Robbie was getting desperate. The Connections (bioweapon company. A rival to Umbrella Corporation) reached out under the guise of a group wanting to test a new experimental medical treatment. Robbie hates the idea of being away from his brother but Gabe is DYING and they aren't even asking him to pay anything. So they ship Gabe out, do their testing with exposing him to the E series mold (they want to see if Eveline can manipulate the biologies of other people so they introduce him as a friend who needs help. Eveline is so excited to have a real friend to run around with, so she makes him able to run around. His mental disabilities remain but his physical disabilities are basically gone.) and he's better than ever! They get him back on the ship (new facility for more testing. They aren't really planning on returning him to Robbie i mean Robbies just some kid what the hell is he gonna do [<- lol. lmao]). When Eveline throws her tantrum and crashes the ship. Theres about a three month period (instead of three years. i really don't know what would happen to Robbie if he went that long without Gabe) until Robbie pieces together stuff from their video calls and news of a crashed liner in Louisiana and GOES. Thats where the games plot starts.
In the actual RE7 part of this AU Gabe is having. A BAD fucking time. Essentially being Mia's replacement he gets the great privilege of being forced to slam his brother into walls, stab him and cut his arm off (for the small small price of an axe to the neck some shots to the chest and a lifetime of trauma).
(That blood loss is hitting hard buddy you don't look so good)
During the opening I think Robbie is just thinking that if he can get them out of there then things will be ok and thats what keeps him going instead of just breaking completely.
Gabe is having a much better time in RE8. He's a bit wary of his abilities (basically Rose's in reverse. He creates little bulbs and if they have enough time to grow he uses them as an anchor to develop independent mold colonies that he can manipulate). Eventually (after just. a LITTLE freakout [which I kind of want to draw]). He eventually reasons out that this isn't so bad because 1. he is very much in control of this rather than being controlled and 2. It allows him to protect his brother. You cant tell me Gabe wouldn't feel SO BAD about what happened while he was being controlled. Every time he looks at the scars from Robbies spontaneous amputation via chainsaw he feels so absolutely terrible about it.
In RE8 Gabe's big thing is that he wants to KEEP ROBBIE SAFE and BE USEFUL. He absolutely hates seeing him get hurt, inevitable as it is. He doesen't trust Lisa until he sees Lady D go down (she was telling the truth about how to kill her own MOTHER that must mean something). But he doesen't really end up liking her until he sees how well she covers Robbies back. The verdict for future judgement is still out but for now the best path is to trust her.
#ooh#story idea#all-new ghost rider#gabe reyes#fanart#robbie reyes#lisa (ghost rider)#cool#my tumblr access is on a timer so i missed this one first time around
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Part.4 Robby Keene x Doug Rickenberger
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Free time .
Thats what Robby had now , he could do whatever he wanted for right now . No more life threatening tournament , rivals , or anything else . Everything was back to normal , and for once his dad was trying to be involved . Not to mention Mr. LaRusso was now his other dad ( well in secret because robby hadnt had the courage to say it aloud to Mr. L )
But everything else was ok nothing to worry about And he planned to enjoy the time he had the way he wanted .
... Thats how Demetri unkowingly interrupted a hot make out session with his ex roomate to invite him to the bonfire this saturday . He told him he would think about it , now how to convince his unofficial boyfriend to go without seeming desperate.
" Who was that ? "
Damn , looking at Doug all shirtless makes him regret opening the door , but for now he's got toĀ calm down and leave the climbing for another day .
" Demetri , he came by to invite me to a bonfire for tommorrow ... "
Doug nodded his head as he gets up to find his shirt where god knows where Robby threw it . The blonde didnt know how to bring the questionĀ up without making it awkward but you see he was the son of Johnny lawrence so what did he expect .
" Am i just a fuckbuddy to you or .... ? "
" What !? "
" Its just i want to know where i stand , sure what we have is really good but not enough for me , I dont want to be kept a secret , Basically i want you to be my boyfriend . I want everyone to look at us and say ' you see that blonde , yeah he kicked the hell out of the taller one but now their dating ' ..... or maybe not that , but i want to intrudce you to my mom , my dad and Mr . L , who are the most important persons in my life and If you dont want th-- "
He's rudely interrupted by Doug , and hes quickly forgiven when he kisses him gently and pulls him onto his lap .
" I want to be your boyfriend , even if you kicked my ass multiple times infront of the whole school but i wouldnt have it any other way . How am i suppose to say no to that little cute pout , baby . "
How dare he , Robby keene doesnt pout ....
ok he does but only when its needed , its not his fault that he looks cute , he was blessed thank you very much .
Wrapping his arms around Doug neck , he shyly ask him . " Sooooo Does that mean you want to go to the bonfire with me ? "
" It would be an honor to go with my pretty boy to the beach , who i can show off . "
He guess his boyfriend deserves a kiss for the right answer .
...... ..... ...... ....... .....
Arriving to the beach where they met Sam , Demetri and Miguel . He introduces Doug to them , and surprisingly he finds out about his not so subtle crush .
He teases him as the others tell the rest of the group that their playing chicken fight .
" Thats so embarrasing you had a crush on me , when was it ?Ā theĀ demonstration that you guys trashed or when i kicked your ass at the mall ... "
" Robby , you do realise your dating me right ? "
" Still thats embarrasing ! . Aww dont get mad , your not allowed to get mad at me .. stop walking fast , Doug ! . "
He latches on to his boyfriend as he tries to give his best puppy look .It was suprisingly easy while multitasking to listen to Hawk giving instructions .
" and why's that ? "
" Because im cute and you like me "
" yeah you got me there . "
He laughs , he gets on his tippytoes to kiss Doug . They both watch the first team to play , that soon became him and Doug . It wasnt easy but he was after all Myagi-do student he has balance ( sometimes . )
Winning that round he's rewarded with a kiss from his Doug and unfortunately with Hawks screaming Questions about themĀ .
They played few more rounds until they got tired and decide to walk . He got to tired walking so he jumped on Doug to get the message of him wanting a piggyback ride .
" Thank you "
" Anything for you , baby . "
" You know im not going to stop teasing you about your huge fat crush on me "
" Hey atleast i tried . "
It was nice watching the rest have fun , the wind touching his face so gently . Listening to Doug talk about editing a video he wants to film . but he has needs like any other human being .
" Doug ? "
" Yeah ? "
" i have to pee "
" oh ok , i will wait here for you "
" Doug , i have to pee . "
" Robby ...do you want me to take you ."
" Doug ! " If he has to wait for the right answer so be it .
" Baby will you let me carry you to the restroom ? "
" If you insist ! "
There we go , he knew his man had a brain.
He feels the vibration of Dougs laughter as he carries him to the restroom .Later that night they start building the bonfire , he waits for Doug to sit down to sit on his lap .
He likes the feeling of the taller boy arms wrapped around him .
He felt warm and happy especially with the kisses Doug was giving him on his neck , unfortunately Hawk was born and decided to ruin his life by singing baby by justin bieberĀ terribly . Soon after everyone joined in , he had one question .Ā Where the hell did Hawk get that guitar from ?
" Your having a good time ? "
" Im with you, arent i . "
Smiling at Dougs response turning his head to look at him , his heart felt happy,Ā he felt happy and no worries , well only one but he can fix that quickly with a kiss .
" You want marshmallows ? yeah , ok i will be right back . "
Yeah , he was happy . He felt a buzz in his pocket of his shorts from his phone that his dad recently bought him . Opening his messages , it was a video from Amanda .
Pressing play , watching Mr. L teaching his dad to dance , he can hear the laughter from the video . He sees that his dad notice that their recording him
' Amanda if i find out that video is on the internet with ridicoulous hashbrowns i-- ' he cut off by when a stranger says something to Mr. L and gets jealous , the video ends with Amanda , Carmen , and Mr. LaRusso trying to hold him back .
He forwards it to Sam , DemetriĀ and Miguel , he still laughing when Doug comes back , showing him the video of his dad they both laugh .
#robby lawrence#robby keene#robby cobra kai#doug cobra kai#doug rickenberger#robby x doug#rickenberger cobra kai#Roug#samiguel#binary boyfriends#demetri cobra kai#hawk cobra kai#amanda cobra kai#carmen cobra kai#johnny lawrence#daniel larusso#sam larusso#miguel diaz#lawrusso#cobra kai fanfic#cobra kai#cobra kai ships#au moodboard#moodboard#otp moodboard#gay ships#tanner buchanan
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while i was waiting for one of twd telltale gameās episodes to download yesterday, i read like, 1/4 of tfa and sw: force awakens novel adaptation...and i gotta say i REALLY regret wasting money on that book cause the writing is bad lmaoĀ
#yolanda talks#it just not the writing thats bad...some of the additional/changed scenes and dialogues really dont help at all#either they unnecessarily changed and adjust the meaning of the scene and not for the better or its just plainly ooc#scenes abt finn were...ok...but i have a giant problem with almost every scene with poe in them#i once reblogged a screenshot of an additional dialogue in which poe basically flirted with a dude in tfa#it uh doesnt actually make a lick of sense cause the dude was a stormtrooper and poe was anxious and terrified in that scene#i know he was determined to not let it show by acting defiant but how does that translate into casual and relax flirting lmao??#like that one dialogue did not match with the rest of the scene and is ooc as hell for poe! actually for anyone cause who'd react that way?!#this kind of weird shit is what led to the kind of bullshit characterization ppl like robbie thompson pulled in special poe D comic issue#how did the author and the editor and whoever else edited the draft of the book not catch that lmao???#also apparently he dragged finn into destroying all the star destroyer's weapon systems for the hell of it!#poe was basically like *hey survival isnt the most important here i just wanna blow some shit up!*#like they DID torture him like....for an entire goddamn day which is why finn is like ok fine but he could have come up with better excuse#to drag finn into engaging in such dangerous activities so they can buy time to re-enter jakku later#i thought they were destroying the weapon systems cause they tried to disable them for their own survival only!#like i said! unnecessarily changed meaning! plus the clunky dialogues that crams info not present in the movie? yuck#idk i guess his flaw is more obvious in the book which is * poe has his heart at the right place but he act dumb af bc of it sometimes*#the scene where rey is changed to being well on her way to ditch bb8 for food also robbed me the wrong way a little#but i dont have the energy to explain lol it just kinda adjusted the meaning of the scene quite unnecessarily and to a direction i dont like#and this part wasnt in the pages i read yesterday i just picked this part to read cause i wanna know how poe escaped jakku#it was BULLSHIT he apparently he got out of the cockpit and then passed out...tbh this is not just on the guy that wrote the adaptation#cause williams defo had that bullshit excuse in mind when he changed the script so poe lives#its just...if he was so weak and he passed out would he be just laying right next to the tie fighter?#like did he got out of the ship and then roll over a dune and got knocked out??? that wasnt clear lol#also the rey & poe encounter in the book?? utterly unnecessary and uninspiring exchange!#its like that classic heterosexual trope where a dude and a girl bumped into each other and supposedly chemistry happens#there was a bit of additional dialogues the author added to make finn/rey's interaction more romantic but they did bond deeply so its cool#but there is NO excuse for the bullshit that took place b/w poe and rey in the book like they might as hell not met! lmao#whatever i just hate this novel adaptation and im only reading it to know and understand the fine detail of finn rey and poe's personalities
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Highschool out of context valentines edition
"THATS MY N*GGA THATS MY BOOOOOYFRIEND" "we all need that support in our lives"
"Imma support the love. yall are in love. I love it" "fucking weird ass kids"
"awww look at how cute you two are"
"AUTUMN HAVE YOU WATCHED END OF THE FUCKING WORLD???" "yeah like three episodes" "RYAN KINDA LOOKS LIKE JAMES FROM THE SIDE"
"you cant have THOSE shoes on my court!!"
there was a pep assembly and my school is weird so we were watching a dancer, a swimmer and a cheerleader wrap themselves in like wrapping paper and as I was fully watching the cheerleader win my boyfriend taps me and goes "Look she gave up" so we watched one of the student leaders basically roll the girl so that she finished the challenge
after eating a warhead "its sOUR"
My boyfriend is taking me to go see Birds of Prey sheerly because I mentioned in passing that I was absolutely in love with Margot Robbie and that when I saw the movie I'd probably be like šš because pretty women
also my parents want to meet my boyfriend today and I'm just like AAAAAAAAAA
"10? 10 suck my dick"
"I'm gonna snort fun dip"
"my entire body is spicy right now"
"what the fuck did I read about old gods"
"did you hear about the PAC getting maced? it was jon. he took ____s pepper spray and was just like PSHHHH. the air was spicy. like it wasnt bad but you could taste it"
about the same pepper spray event "Yeah like it felt like you were breathing dr pepper"
"yeah you didnt know that when it smells like ass in the hallway that it's because someones spraying liquid ass in the vents?"
"I'm gonna be single today. I mean itll be after I get some dick but I'm gonna be single today"
My friend heard some random guy in his first period say "do I need remind you of your place" to the girl behind him like IT IS 8 IN THE MORNING YALL CALM DOWN
"if you don't have class. I ain't eatin ass"
"the ass eats YOU"
"you get fucking ecoli that's why you dont eat ass"
"am I the only one that wants to know what ghost sex is like???"
"if I see an old man dick I swear to go"
"I HAVE LITERALLY HAVE NOT SLEPT SINCE 10 AM YESTERDAY"
"could you drink it any faster???" "yes actually *drinks juice fast af*"
"apparently my ex had a dick??? idk"
"I NEED TO BE INSULTED! CALL ME SOME BULL SHIT!!!!"
"I almost threw up" "that's hot"
"I juiced!!"
"IT FEELS LIKE A MONDAY BUT ITS A FRIDAYYYY"
"and I'm not even high! *throws chair"
"Why are my hands WET"
"There was this lady at the store and she was like screaming like she was Barack Obama's sister"
"I'm trying to brain and it's not working"
"I will squeeze your kneecap dont test me"
"what are we doing today?" "I dont know about you but I'm playing poptropica"
āiāll show you a gesture with my handā
āthis is why the suicide rates are so highā
"aren't golden retrievers like the 1990's of dogs"
"It looks like ballsacks"
"MY WEINER GETS TINY WHEN ITS COLD"
I watched (and recorded) a kid sitting on the hood of a car while it was moving and then when I stopped recording the kid waved at me
My boyfriend just played me fucking guitar and it was supposed to be all cute and shit but the whole time I was yelling at him for having over 400 dollars just scattered around his room
they're listening to https://youtu.be/IbxKEYGXvkA
youtube
^^^^
#gen z#gen z humor#gen z problems#highschool#gen z mood#gen z memes#high school#highschool out of context#gen z things#valentine#valentine's day
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"Tony hates the countdown display. It doesnāt make him feel any better that it was, technically, his idea to put it up in the first place.
You can see the clock from anywhere in the dome, and the support side has its own copy. Itās inescapable, the orange glow illuminating his every anxious thought, the soundless downtick keeping him awake at nights even in his apartment in the city."
YES THE TERROR OF THE WAR CLOCK ASDGFHK
something something you cant escape your horrible reality for even a second something something what mustve seemed valiant and heroic when it was first put up is now just a reminder of what has-been-and-will-be lost.
"Heās redone the calculations again. His math checks out. It always checks out, because you can use numbers to lie to others but not to yourself."
:(
I don't have any notes here i just wanna subject other people to this line. its so good and also How Dare You
āWeāre going to get that kid killed,ā he sighs.
āWe are at war. And your protĆ©gĆ© seems confident.ā
again, :(, but Ivanov quit putting your engineer through hell he has blueprints for Human Sized Jaeger Armour and he might use it
āUh, yeah, call me when he ever doesnāt, Iāll mark the date.ā Heās still so smug about that damn Kwoon sim, too. Explain that, he said, and Tony never wished so much heād spent any proper time on neurology in his life. Vicky threw in the towel at this point ā Reyes is too speculative for her. Thereās a reason medical doesnāt come under R&D. āNo point delaying the inevitable, huh?ā
i mean, Yes That Is Cho ahdjakhdsdhhj but also !!! Robbie's medical weirdness yay
" "Ivanov cuts him off, looking at Tonyās hand like heās fantasising about cutting it off, too. āI will tell you what you need to know,ā he says in the same tone of voice he uses to explain the weekās biosamples have been held back in customs again. Itās bullshit, but not in any way Tony can argue against. āHell Charger malfunctioned from corruption damage. She killed both of her pilots,ā God, Tony hates when he uses people pronouns for that thing,"
mmmmm fuck yeah āØpersonificationāØ of the creepy haunted robot >:]c
also Good For You :))) keeping your story straight :))) your flippancy about the situation isn't suspicious at all :))))))
" āand almost everyone in the hangar that night. I have been trying to get her taken apart for scrap from the second I made rank. I was always told the expense is prohibitive, there must be something else to make her work.ā He stands to lean over the desk. Tony takes an involuntary step back. āShe killed six potential pilots over the years, but Iām sure you and Cho know what youāre doing.ā "
OH WERE DOING THREATS NOW YEAH THATS SMART MHM
Re: Ivanov quit putting your engineer through hell he has blueprints for Human Sized Jaeger Armour and he might use it
āIvanov, come on,ā he pleads. āYou canāt expect me to fly blind on this."
The Colonelās smile doesnāt reach his eyes. āMaybe a tragedy is what we need to end this vibranium deadlock.ā
?????
???????????
???????????!!!!!!!!!
for fuck sake Ivanov don't make me root for Eli Morrow.
cant wait for this guy to get Issue 12-ed
"Heās not allowed in the room as to avoid influencing the final decision ā like out of everyone, itās him who can convince Reyes of anything."
Dude he has basically Rolled Over for everything you've asked so far lmfao
"Mostly, he can chalk up his anxiety to excitement ā finally, things are moving along. Finally, heāll get to test his long-standing theory about Hell Charger and prove that Banner was right all along."
did.
did banner know it was haunted.
DID BANNER GET HIGHEST-HONOUR-IN-JOURNALISM-ED BECAUSE HE THOUGHT IT WAS HAUNTED.
"Section sixteen outlines provisions for dependants in case of the test subjectās demise. Until this morning, Amadeus didnāt think much of it. Now itās inextricably linked to the face of a little kid in a wheelchair who laughed at the model demon liver he keeps in his office. Heās maybe starting to see why Tony hasnāt been as thrilled as heād expected him to be."
Moose my fist are Up don't DO this to meeee [Gabe single-handedly wrecking everyones moral distance yOu lOvE tO SeE iT :") ]
"The countdown display ticks down from forty four to forty three hours. Even if everything goes exactly right, even if Reyesās ghost drift with the jaeger is everything Amadeus hopes it to be, itās still a crapshoot whether theyāll be able to use it in a fight."
oh look clocks back. and Amadeus is having a crisis of conscience but yay clocks back!
"The cameras in the meeting room are angled just awkwardly enough to show the way Reyes digs his nails into the skin around his wristband. Heās got a good poker face, but itās painfully obvious how nervous he is. He seemed genuinely surprised when Amadeus told him theyāre ready to trial him on The Charger. He couldnāt not have seen it coming... Right"
He really thought he wasn't going near it again huh ":) comically loud incorrect buzzer
"On the camera feed, the rep reacts with displeasure at something Ivanov has said, but Reyes starts nodding and reaching for a pen."
give me a bat and ten minutes with no witnesses,,, ill be nice.
"Tony makes a strangled noise. āIāll get the techs to start prepping the Conn-Pod. Amadeus?ā
He canāt look away from the screen. āYeah?ā
āFor your sake, I hope this is worth it.ā"
:(((
,,,ow
TL:DR
Moose u will be hearing from my definitely real lawyers, if you need me i will be in the corner. rocking back and forth. Thinking About This Fic. 10/10 no notes Ivanov fall down many stairs challenge
Ghost Rider Pacific Rim AU - acceptable losses
Tony hates the countdown display. It doesnāt make him feel any better that it was, technically, his idea to put it up in the first place.
You can see the clock from anywhere in the dome, and the support side has its own copy. Itās inescapable, the orange glow illuminating his every anxious thought, the soundless downtick keeping him awake at nights even in his apartment in the city.
Heās redone the calculations again. His math checks out. It always checks out, because you can use numbers to lie to others but not to yourself. His predictions have been broadly correct five out of six times over the last three years. Every time, he hopes to be wrong, and knows that he isnāt ā the water temperature in the immediate one thousand feet around the Breach rose by point-oh-three degrees overnight, T minus seventy two hours. The submarine drones havenāt reported any lesser beasts coming through since Thursday.
The next demon is coming. And theyāre two jaegers short.
āCrimson Typhoon wonāt be ready in time,ā Ivanov drums his fingers on the metal surface of his desk. Heās not prone to nervous ticks. Half the time, Tony can only spot his tells because he spent his twenties at a poker table. āWe need to make a decision.ā
Of course, he doesnāt want to be the one to explicitly make it. Heās been avoiding the subject altogether for weeks now. On one hand, Tony kind of feels bad for him, because he vaguely remembers the funerals after The Chargerās last run and nobody was having a good time with it. On the other, itās not Ivanov whoās name will be on the outcome report if theyā God damn it.
āWeāre going to get that kid killed,ā he sighs.
āWe are at war. And your protĆ©gĆ© seems confident.ā
āUh, yeah, call me when he ever doesnāt, Iāll mark the date.ā Heās still so smug about that damn Kwoon sim, too. Explain that, he said, and Tony never wished so much heād spent any proper time on neurology in his life. Vicky threw in the towel at this point ā Reyes is too speculative for her. Thereās a reason medical doesnāt come under R&D. āNo point delaying the inevitable, huh?ā
āWe can delay all we like,ā Ivanov grunts. At least he doesnāt look like he likes it any more than Tony does, even if he suspects itās for very different reasons. āBut if we donāt use The Charger and the next demon goes through the port like Bladecrest did through Los Angeles, we are all out of a job.ā
Trust the soldier to make it about the bottom line. āGreat. Iāll pick up the black box reports from the archive on my way down.ā
Ivanov raises an eyebrow. āWhat makes you think I changed my mind on this?ā
āAre you kidding me?ā Tony rounds on his desk, slamming a palm down. āYou have to declassify them. I canāt sign off on a trial drift if we donāt knowāā
Ivanov cuts him off, looking at Tonyās hand like heās fantasising about cutting it off, too. āI will tell you what you need to know,ā he says in the same tone of voice he uses to explain the weekās biosamples have been held back in customs again. Itās bullshit, but not in any way Tony can argue against. āHell Charger malfunctioned from corruption damage. She killed both of her pilots,ā God, Tony hates when he uses people pronouns for that thing, āand almost everyone in the hangar that night. I have been trying to get her taken apart for scrap from the second I made rank. I was always told the expense is prohibitive, there must be something else to make her work.ā He stands to lean over the desk. Tony takes an involuntary step back. āShe killed six potential pilots over the years, but Iām sure you and Cho know what youāre doing.ā
There are many things Tony wishes he could take back. Most of the last fifteen years, if heās feeling dramatic. None quite so fervently as the moment he thought he can get back at the Colonel for blatantly breaking the same rules he uses to red-tape Choās research.
āIvanov, come on,ā he pleads. āYou canāt expect me to fly blind on this."
The Colonelās smile doesnāt reach his eyes. āMaybe a tragedy is what we need to end this vibranium deadlock.ā
*
Amadeus isnāt used to having second thoughts. He takes in the available information, draws the potential conclusions and picks the most reasonable course of action ā there are no unpredictable outcomes, only missing data.
He really, really thought heād have The Chargerās run reports before doing this, though.
āHe can always say no,ā Jen said when she put together the paperwork. āThe risks are clearly outlined in section fifteen. All we can do is make sure he reads it.ā
Reyes is definitely reading it. Amadeus has been sitting on his hands for an hour while Ivanov, Jen and one of the tech reps go over the thick stack of liability documents. Heās not allowed in the room as to avoid influencing the final decision ā like out of everyone, itās him who can convince Reyes of anything.
Mostly, he can chalk up his anxiety to excitement ā finally, things are moving along. Finally, heāll get to test his long-standing theory about Hell Charger and prove that Banner was right all along. Finally, they can start working on Tonyās abandoned personal armour project instead of drowning billions upon billions of dollars in unsustainable, power-intensive, unwieldy jaegers that are as likely to cause destruction as to prevent it.
Section sixteen outlines provisions for dependants in case of the test subjectās demise. Until this morning, Amadeus didnāt think much of it. Now itās inextricably linked to the face of a little kid in a wheelchair who laughed at the model demon liver he keeps in his office. Heās maybe starting to see why Tony hasnāt been as thrilled as heād expected him to be.
āThis better goes exactly as you think it will,ā Tony said. Amadeus canāt get his expression out of his mind; like this was his worst nightmare coming to a head, rather than the long-awaited breakthrough theyāve been working towards.
The countdown display ticks down from forty four to forty three hours. Even if everything goes exactly right, even if Reyesās ghost drift with the jaeger is everything Amadeus hopes it to be, itās still a crapshoot whether theyāll be able to use it in a fight. Simulators are one thing; they donāt have the firepower to keep someone on rookie-watch on his first run. Coyote Tango already agreed to take point, with Eden Assassin and Romeo Blue on support. Other Shatterdomes have been steadily reporting their own preparations ā thereās no reason to assume anything will go wrong, but there was no indication the demon would target L.A. rather than Lima, either. Each base isnāt so keen on sending their jaegers to a single location when itās no longer a given they can reliably predict the target. Best to wait and hope.
āRelax, kid,ā Tony hands him a can of soda. āItās out of your hands now.ā
Amadeus inspects the can. Itās orange, because Tony Stark is a deeply deranged individual. He drinks it anyway ā he desperately needs the sugar after the night of checking and re-checking everything.
āI could still call it in.ā
āHa.ā There is no humour in Tonyās voice. āDirector-general signed off on the motion. Itās too late to call anything but go.ā
āHe could say no.ā
The cameras in the meeting room are angled just awkwardly enough to show the way Reyes digs his nails into the skin around his wristband. Heās got a good poker face, but itās painfully obvious how nervous he is. He seemed genuinely surprised when Amadeus told him theyāre ready to trial him on The Charger. He couldnāt not have seen it coming... Right?
Brooks, up until that point silent and still as a statue in the corner of the obs room, makes a āmehā gesture. āHe acts all reluctant, but heās been putting the time in. Besides, if he says no and the base falls, heās as dead as the rest of us.ā
Itās exactly the kind of logic Amadeus has been employing all along. It doesnāt carry the same convincing power, coming from someone else. On the camera feed, the rep reacts with displeasure at something Ivanov has said, but Reyes starts nodding and reaching for a pen.
Itās happening. Amadeus holds his breath as Reyes flips the pages of the liability agreement and signs in the indicates fields.
Tony makes a strangled noise. āIāll get the techs to start prepping the Conn-Pod. Amadeus?ā
He canāt look away from the screen. āYeah?ā
āFor your sake, I hope this is worth it.ā
#I have been thinking about this for like 4 hours and i am still no closer to Coherency bare with me lmao#Ghost Rider Pacific Rim AU
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Because of Hormones ||[Snowstorm Interlude [Soft Interlude]]
Summary: In late February, now that Nemo is consulting Sindri, Sindri decides to consult Olaf (pg-13 for practical sex advice)
@huldufolk-hjarn
Sindri: STAB ME WITH AN ICICLE OLAF ITS THE PERFECT CRIME NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW WHEN IT MELTS PLS JUST KILL ME
Ā Olaf: um no thank you?
Olaf: is it nemo again haha
Ā Sindri: he's asking me about having sex cowgirl style i didn't even know that was a thing
Sindri: like the name
Sindri: and like i have to help him bc i'm his hyung
Sindri: and i'm trying but
Sindri: i have not had a lot of sex olaf
Ā Olaf: well i havent had a lot of sex either
Olaf: what's a cow girl?
Ā Sindri: RIGHT i looked it up it's a girl on a horse which
Sindri: ew
Sindri: makes sense?
Sindri: if ur gross? idk
Ā Olaf: wait you have sex with a horse????
Olaf: that's bad
Ā Sindri: no i think it's jakldsfjlkjfd
Ā Olaf: do humans have sex with horses?!
Ā Sindri: i think it's like she rides the boy like she's riding a horse?
Sindri: i'm literally going to explode
Ā Olaf: ooooooooooooooh
Olaf: why is nemo asking about it?
Ā Sindri: i think he's gonna have sex with robbie
Ā Olaf: on a horse?
Ā Sindri: i don't think so
Sindri: i don't think horses are involved
Ā Olaf: oh ok so just robbie then thats good
Olaf: well! he's 16 right?
Olaf: i guess that's of age, we had sex at 16
Ā Sindri: yeah
Ā Olaf: thats exciting for him!
Ā Sindri: yeah i guess it kind of is
Ā Olaf: you still dont trust robbie do u
Ā Sindri: not really but i am happy that nemo is happy
Sindri: and i don't really have a good reason not to trust robbie
Sindri: it's just a feeling
Sindri: which is stupid
Ā Olaf: feelings arent stupid though sometimes they are irrational
Olaf: i think its good he texted you! thats what you should focus on
Olaf: it means he still trusts you and that nemo isnt alone, you know?
Ā Sindri: that's true i'm glad he trusts me
Sindri: i'm glad i can be there for him
Ā Sindri: Olaf
Sindri: did you um
Sindri: do you know more about sex than me
Sindri: or like
Sindri: are you better at talking about it lol
Sindri: bc maybe you could help nemo more
Ā Olaf: i do not think i know more at all ahah
Olaf: haven't we basically had the same amount of sex?
Olaf: I'm happy to try to talk to him though
Ā Sindri: i guess yeah
Sindri: you're just good at talking about stuff
Ā Olaf: sex just doesnt bother me
Olaf: really i think its mostly fascinating
Ā Sindri: talking about it makes me really shy
Ā Olaf: i know hehe
Olaf: i remember
Ā Sindri: don't giggle at me!
Ā Olaf: its a friendly giggle i thought you were always so cute when you wanted to have sex
Ā Sindri: STOPPPPP
Ā Olaf: okay xP
Ā Sindri: now i'm all red
Sindri: so rude
Sindri: i'm gonna sick einar on you
Ā Olaf: einar will only kiss me and you know it
Ā Sindri: yeah because he loves you more
Ā Olaf: of course
Ā Sindri: i feel so betrayed
Sindri: my two best friends in the whole world conspiring against me
Ā Olaf: at least u have nemo, eh?
Ā Sindri: that's true at least nemo still loves me
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Undercover Love Ch. 35
Learning Spark
āEveryone sit down and be quiet,ā Chase ordered as soon as one of the screens turned to static on the control panel. Everyone obeyed right away without a second thought, even Dark did as well. Anti popped out of the screen with Blank at his side, the younger Virusā eyes went wide when he saw the number of people and he began to tremble slightly with fear.
āHis name is Blank,ā Anti said for the others in the room.
āHey Blank, Iām Chase.ā Chase greeted with a soft and kind tone, crouching down so he was slightly shorter than Blank. āDo you want anything? A drink? A snack?ā Blank just looked at Anti as if waiting for permission and when Anti nodded he did as well.
āSome water.ā Blankās voice was barely above a whisper.
āIāll get it.ā Bim offered and stepped out.
āI promise that weāre good people, we wonāt hurt you,ā Chase said.
āEveryone is the good guys in their own eyes.ā Blank stated, but the way he spoke made the words sound like they werenāt his own. āYou kill for hire.ā
āWe do,ā Chase admitted, knowing there was no point in lying. āBut itās more complicated than that.ā
āIs it?ā Blank started to pick at his fingers.
āWe only take jobs from those who wish to prevent any more suffering. Who want really really bad guys dead. The kind of bad guys that kill more with just a simple wave of their hand than we ever have in our years doing this.ā
āI just want peace.ā Blank whimpered, flinching away when Bim walked up to him and held the cup of water out.
āBim good,ā Robbie said from the spot on the floor he sat on. āHeās just fancy.ā He added with a giggle.
āFancy?ā Blank giggled as well.
āWhy is that funny?ā Bim asked.
āI think itās hilarious.ā Anti chuckled and took the cup from Bim, who just sighed and sat back down next to Yandere. āMom already knows everything that you told me, I sent whatās basically a transcript.ā
āMom?ā Blank looked at Chase and tilted his head. āWhoās dad?ā
āThe man that your creator took, my husband.ā Blank went stiff when Chase said the last word.
āHusband? Your loved one?ā Blank glanced at Chaseās hands and saw that he was wearing two rings. āHeās your loved one? The one you want forever?ā
āYes, yes, he is.ā Chase placed a hand on Blankās shoulder. āPlease help me get him back, please.ā The circuits on Blankās face flashed a quick blue. Chase hissed in pain and yanked his hand away, using his free one to hold it out towards the others when they moved to defend him, all except for Henrik though.
āHeās definitely been with some bad people.ā Chase sighed as he moved his fingers, slowly getting feeling back into them.
āIs that the learning spark you were talking about?ā Edward asked.
āLearning spark?ā Dark gave Edward a disproving look for not talking to him about something.
āHenrik just brought it up the other day,ā Edward said in defense. āWhen Anti was first made, there were a lot of things he couldnāt learn from just looking it up on the internet. Mostly types of emotions that are beyond basics.ā
āI still donāt understand,ā Dark said.
āBlank was made the same way Anti was, so itās safe to assume he works the same way,ā Henrik stated. āAnti was created with a base form of knowledge due to coming from something connected to the internet. Such as basic history, biology, math, language, and the works that someone that was Marvinās ago would know.ā
āHe doesnāt act like the age it looks like heās been formed into,ā Dark said, not catching that Blank shrunk a little at his comment. āHe seems young.ā
āSo was Anti,ā Chase said. āHe spoke young, acted young because he was young.ā
āBlankās barely been alive,ā Anti said, giving Dark a look that told him he messed up.
āWhat does the spark mean?ā Dark asked, changing the subject to get Anti to change his facial expression.
āIt just means he learned something new.ā Henrik shrugged. āIām still trying to figure out why it happens, but whenever Anti learns something new, a little bit of electricity comes out of him. Heās learned to control it and have it come out of a different location on his body of someoneās touching him, but clearly, Blankās not yet learned that and he shocked Chase. He saw what love was by looking at Chase and it was new to him.ā Ā
āIām sorry.ā Blank was on the verge of tears and was shaking again. āI did-didnāt mean t-to.ā
āYouāre not in trouble, buddy.ā Anti gave Blank a smile and Blank shook his head, as if not believing him.
āThey say that and they still hurt me anyways.ā Blank hugged himself.
āBlank, can you roll up your sleeves?ā Chase asked and Blankās eyes went wide once more.
āW-Why?ā
āI just want to see something, okay?ā Chase waited for Blank to look at Anti again and when Anti tugged at his own sleeves, Blank did the same. āThatās what I thought.ā Chase sighed when he saw the dark bruises on Blankās arms. āAre there more of them?ā Blank only nodded. āCan I give you a hug?ā
āOkay.ā
āIāll be soft.ā Chase moved close to Blank and wrapped his arms around the small man, confirming his thought. Blank was nothing more than skin and bones, he could practically feel every rib poking into him. He looked at Anti and the two shared a look that they both knew about Blankās size. āJackie, make some food for Blank,ā Chase said when he let Blank go.
āBut I-ā
āIāll eat with ya, Iām starving.ā Anti gave blank a smile. āWhat sounds good to ya?ā
āPizza?ā Blank perked up when Anti chuckled.
āFuck yeah, letās make some pizza.ā Anti guided Blank towards the kitchen and Jackie went with them, Robbie popping up and joining them when Chase gestured with his head for him to.
āWhy did you hug him?ā Google asked.
āNothing wrong with hugs,ā Bing said with a shrug.
āYou wanted to see how big he was, didnāt you?ā Henrik asked. āAfter seeing those bruises, I would have made the same assumption as well.ā
āIs Blank not eating?ā Edward asked.
āMore like heās not being fed what he needs.ā Chase corrected. āHe needs a lot more food than youād think he would.ā
āSo, itās hard to guess if heās being denied food or if they donāt know any better,ā Wilford said.
āIf they caused those bruises, I wouldnāt be shocked either way,ā Chase grumbled. āAnti will be able to tell out of all of us since heās a Virus as well.ā
āWhat do we do? Feed him and then ask where the others are? Do we really think heāll do that, he seems terrified of them.ā Dark said.
āIf they rely on Blank for what I believe they do. They'll be getting a hold of us any second now.ā Chase said and soon one of the control panel screens went to static.
āYou have something I want.ā A voice they have yet to hear stated.
āAs do you,ā Chase said back, not even facing the screen.
āGive him back.ā
āGive him back,ā Chase repeated.
āI see weāve come to standstill.ā The voice cleared his throat. āTell Blank to take you to the First Location, heāll know what it means and weāll have a trade-off. Iāll be seeing you with him in twenty minutes. I know youāll be able to get there in time.ā
āWhat do you think he means by that?ā Yandere asked.
āHost suggests we make a plan.ā Host stated. āHe is unable to tell what exactly it is, but something...fishy is going to happen.ā
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OOh - tell me some of your headcannons for the egos?
Ohhh man oh man oh man- which one do i even start with..
I have a load of different HCS that fit certain different spins of how the egos are depending on one what kinda universe they are apart of..
For example, I have one about JJ- Where he was actually made mute by Shawn, except Shawn while his body was puppeted by the ink demon creature that resides within him. (Ive even RPād a thing with a friend where Shawnās ink counterpart forced ink into JJ and JJ ended up having his own alter ink persona called Cole.)Ā
JJ is a bartender- and hes suuuper good at knowing exactly what someone will enjoy as a drink, call it a superpower, he hardly ever goes wrong when asked what he suggests theyād like.Ā Ā
(Also he has a pocket watch which contains the soul of an old man called Horace who likes to try and provide old man advice to the lad.)Ā
And although hes a timey fellow, I actually HCād his ablity would to be to control liquids, his veins in his wrists glow when he does it, its very fancy (and extremely pretty when he can make creatures out of water dance on the surface of the lake)Ā However over use leads to him suffering an experience of drowning which can be rather dangerous and awfully scary.Ā
JJ also has a huge fear of knives.
Also I picture him having silver tipped hair, which is just a touch long and flops in his eyes occasionally.
JJ Also suffers malnutrition because of his sore vocal cords/throat. It can beĀ struggle to get him to eat!. (Did i mention I cannon him as selectively /half mute because he can still talk but its raspy and hurts to do so ? ^^ā )Ā
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Jackie
Jackie!! my ladd. Hes a great guy, buff, charming, super big sweetheart too.Ā
He runs a couple of jobs, depending on where hes at which include: a comic book shop, a gym, or just sneakily hiding in plain sight as a gas station convenience store clerk.Ā
I HC that his eyes are actually a blue tinted lilac, and glow gold.
He has a red patch in his hair!
Hes v v fast, and buff.
I also had this whole thing about him being able to create glowing golden orbs and if he makes enough of them he can basically make a clone out of orbs, and they copy what he does!
However, Iāve also always adored Phionex! Jackie, who lost his wings and desperately wants to grow them back but despite being reborn from ash they seem to still refuse to resprout.Ā
Because ofĀ his inhuman nature, he runs really fucking warm! so hes like a human heater.
He gives real good advice, and the bestest fuckin hugs.Ā
Also for some reason whenever I write him speaking he has a bit of southern in him?
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Robbie
Robbie. Is the softest of lads, he drowns in his sweaters, and as a few autistic traits. Not a fan of big loud noises and crowds and loves soft things to nuzzle up against. Also big oral fixation, boi needs some chew toys.Ā Hes a good lad, eager to help out and be around the other egos, but also quite the quiet type and happy to sit around at home in his piles of blankets.
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Chase
I totally HC that Chase suffers from Chronic fatigue, which is part of why his depression got so bad and that he tries his best to make use of his energy. Poor guy can get real tuckered out when he pushes himself too hard.
He's always kept the lime green mess on the top of his head, though sometimes it gets more yellow then he means for it to get.Ā
He has a tattoo dedicated to his kids hidden under his sleeve on his upper arm/shoulder. It's of some cool triangles. One in red for his son, one in purple for his daughter.
He does really well trying to maintain his bro average channel.
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Anti
I kinda have a couple views on Anti, since I love cold asshole murder, and also the possibility of ships with a slightly more misunderstood but softer guy.
Hes got static blue eyes, that youāll only see if hes being vulnerable or super tired that he cant maintain the scary green glow.Ā
I have a HC that hes actually a missing part of Jacks soul, hence why he feels so unstable, incomplete and sad. Hes missing all the good bits that Sean has, and is left with a cold fragment of what he could really be.
However he has, and does murder. Though he attempts to murder those who have actually done wrong.Ā
Very sassy and snappy. Takes alot to get to get to who he actually is.
On the other hand he can just be a fucking ruthless torturer and crazy sadistic asshole who has it out for nearly everyone!Ā
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Angus!
Survival hunter. Weird accent mix of Australian and Irish. Uses 'mate' 'oi' 'bag a few of them'Ā
Has a trusty machette. And an epic bow which he's p good at using. Large knowledge of trees and animals and survival.
Wears alot of camo/brown stuff. Loads of pockets. Pocket knife/multitool Hair usually slicked back or messy.
Finger less gloves! Oceany more greeny pale eyes. Totally has some cool studs in his ears- maybe a little wolf fang in the side or something.Ā Beard more like is soft and fuller and well maintained.
Ā Freckles??? sunspots?? yes. Also toned n tanned Def has scars. On his neck, over his cheek and right eye. Plenty on his hands from burns and stings. Has some nasty ones on his ankle on his right foot from accidentally encountering a rouge set up bear trap- nearly lost his foot. Because of that theres sometimes a faint limp that's only kinda there when hes sick/tired.
Obviously wears boots.
Eats alot of trail mix.Loves his meat tho.
Also partakes in Woodcarving !!
Sometimes rather foolishly ignores when hes hurt.
Lost his right leg from the knee down to an awful incident with a hippo Has a prosthetic leg.Ā
Also lost from his elbow down his forearm n hand to a Wedingo.
if he were to have a Home it would basically be aĀ sanctuary. Like a huge property out of the way and secluded.. Nice and private.Ā
HE HAS A St. Bernard. Big puppo-Ā Called Baloo.
He grows some cool ass rare flowers, some homegrown vegtables n berries. Maybe even a cashew tree/apple tree. Plenty of shade but also fresh air.Ā
He has solar panels too so hes basically not needing anyone asides the trip to the shop for like basics he cant acquire like soaps n milk n stuff.
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BlankĀ Ā
My fucking. Boi.Ā
Fricking soft boy, his aura is hard to control and sometimes controls him.
He has a rare heart issue which makes him prone to fainting and collapsing without much warning.Ā Still, he tries.
He mumbles an awful lot, and has boughts where his aura ges really bad and he numbs out..(Usually in the corner of his room, everything dark, and loads of errie whispers..)Ā
His aura can manifest into dead vines. He can also absorb other auras so they cant affect him/others!
Sometimes stray petals end up in his hair.
Heās truly trying to be a good lad, hes just a bit odd and misguided. He worries heāll turn into a monster.
He fucking loves the moves Finding Nemo, and Finding Dory, because he can be very forgetful too.
Honestly, fav boi, should write more for him i just l ove him alot okay.Ā
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KOTS
Personally, I HC that the KOTS is actually called Simon. Occasionally i like to picture him with both ears and tail, but generally hes just a guy in glasses in a red sweater who is generally a little skittish and usually quite frazzled.Ā However he actually isnt all that dumb, and has quite an extensive knowledge on the forests flora and fauna.Ā
I did have a really mean HC that hes actually allergic to PB, but only in the sense that it upsets his tum, so like a lactose intolerant person, he eats it and regrets that later.
Also, he has a really nice hanging egg nest thing thats really cushioned and he loves to curl up and sleep there with a nice book.
Heās got really pretty amber eyes too!!
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Edward!!
He fucking loves space!! and Secretly also is not that bad at painting. It's a soothing thing to do in his downtime.Ā
His favourite treat is anything with white chocolate and raspberry.Ā
Also, I quite adore my HC that he loses an arm- Either because of upsetting the heads of the household (Dark/Wilford) or because of a house fire.Ā
(Also this isnt the place to mention it but I did once get excited about the idea of a Google/Edward fusion called Edware.)Ā
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YandereĀ Ā
Nonbinary somewhat MTF.Ā Ā
Theyāre a real cutie. but they will punch dickheads without sweat and really just want someone to be their senpai and let them fall for them head over heels without running away..
They have an epic pink katana. Obviously a huge love for japan and its culture and stuff.Ā
Quite obsessive, but it usually only endangers them for falling so hard that they hurt themselves trying to please their Senpai and beat themselves up over not being worthy or good enough for them when they dont get affection back or end up rejected.Ā
Also yeah theyre into blood a little bit >.>Ā
I kinda love the idea of shipping them with Bim and helping him get a supply ofĀ āmeatā in return Bim gives plenty of affections to satisfy Yans starved nature.
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This is long and has a trigger warning
This will seem all over the place because thats just how itās come out-
I feel like this is fitting this year cause itās been (nearly) 5 years. 5 years on the 14/11 ( 11/14 ). This day changed my life- so clichĆ©.
Brief family history- my dad was a biochemist, my mum a nurse (and a few other jobs). Which seems to irrelevant now- they both worked there asses off. My dad is my favourite parent if you can have one, this is because me and my mum are stupidly similar so weād bash heads a lot which would often leave me in tears and feeling really deflated. My brother has ADHD which is a pain because when heās on a āwar pathā itās horrendous and why I canāt deal with shouting or sudden movements or anything being thrown in my directions (even tho im a great catch most the time)
So on this date 5 years ago my dad got told he had bile duct cancer. Which isnāt that common, however he wasnāt that worried cause it goes in stages and we thought itād been caught earlyā¦. He was told he had stage 4 and had 6 months to live. i donāt remember much honestly but my main memory is being in the foetal position against the cold tiles in a boiling bath listening to āSomewhere in neverlandā. My dad was put on chemo. So a āfamousā case of this cancer is the Guy who played Robbie rotten in lazy town who died after 2 years of fighting the cancer. My dad had always said that at my wedding heād dye his beard purple, so because the reality of the cancer was heād be dead by then he started colouring his beard ā hes had blue, green, red, orange, purple, pink and turquoise.
So on the 9/11 (11/9) I had been at a gig, Mallory knox, blitz kids (still my faves) and the crooks. i donāt really remember much but I know that Mallory knox and blitz kids are two of my all time favourite bands due to the fact they āwere thereā in some of my darkest moments.
~TRIGGER WARNING~ So this date also means its been 5 years of me self-harming and being very all over the place. I remember when my mum found out she didnāt even freak at me- she took me to the supermarket and brought me bandages and anti-septic and said I canāt stop you but I can at least prevent infection. She never once blew up in my face- except one time when it first happened and all I remember is I went to school crying. Anyway so 6 months later my dad gets told that the tumour is inactive.
Which is good but my self harm still is pretty bad due to going through a horrible time at school due to missing a lot because Family over Education ā I have never once regretted this even if Iām ā 3 yearsā behind my peers. Iām in a better place most the time ( donāt ever go off your meds for 3 monthsā¦) and have finally started planning my future- 15 year old me had planned to be dead by 20. During my exams my family and some friends went away but before that I had gone to a day festival with some friends and Iād become obsessed with a band called the color morale (who still to this day are amazing) and Iād been in a really bad place with fresh cuts. I was going to the color morale booth to buy a hoodie or something and the merch guy came over and it happened to be Garret Rapp the lead singer and he signed my notebook and gave me a hug, I remember calling my parents close to tears and them being really happy for me. I remember 2015 I got my exam results and I hadnāt done the best however I had done better than Iād expected- I got Dās in everything which is impressive considering I did no revision and my attendance was like 45%. I wasnāt told this till last year but my mum and dad were really worried theyād loose me due to how unhappy I was with everything.
Anyway flash forward to June/July 2016 guess what had come active again? You guessed it- back to chemo my dad goes. I donāt really remember this year at all. One thing I do remember is my dad became a āguinea pigā for a new medical treatment called SIRT (I donāt know what it stands for). This is basically when they inject tiny radioactive beads into the location of the tumour and itās meant to shrink it. Get me knowing fancy medical terminology.
All I remember is that heād gotten the news after Iād had a great year and that I believed it was cause of that. I know thatās really shitty but Iām a firm believer in ā Everything happens for a reasonā. It seems stupid but aye thatās what happened.
This whole thing triggered me to stop telling my parents I loved them until the beginning of this year.
More family history- My parents met in Zimbabwe. In 1990 I think? Iām not 100% sure on that.
2017- as a family we went to Zimbabwe with a charity where we built a school building, played football, swung sledge hammers and cuddled adorable babies. I think this is when it really hit me that when I feel at wrong bottom I let everything slip and just spiral out of control. But I was surrounded by people who had barely any money, hadnāt been paid in months, couldnāt afford basics, were sick and protecting their disabled children from men whoād take advantage of them. Yet they still laugh and sung with a massive smile while I was over here sat letting something bad ruin a month at a time. That autumn and winter I went on a massive spiral to the point my best friend and family werenāt sure Iād make it to 2018. Honestly Im not sure how I made it to 2018. My closest friend through out all of this and the girl who I can be 100% honest with- I remembered weād been shopping or something and then we went and sat in McDonalds eating and we were chatting about mental health and all those fun things and I told her that I doubt Iād get married if my dad died.
2018 is a weird year cause while my dadās cancer is still very much active (with secondaries which is shitty). Iāve found a love for life to an extent. While I can feel myself slipping a little Iām trying to keep going because I have so many plans. I turned 20 this year and while itās not that exciting to most to think 5 years ago I was planning my suicide and wasnāt thinking about where I want to be in a yearsā time but now I know where I want to be. In September I started my final year of College which seems amazing because of how far Iāve come looking back at the last 5 years and everything Iāve had thrown at me ( literally and figuratively). I also told my mum (while driving to see my grandparents) about my the fact that I wouldnāt get married if my died dad and I just couldnāt see anyone other than my dad with a purple beard walking me down the aisle. Im not one for traditional things- I hate turkey at Christmas for example- but my dad walking me down the aisle was always my dream and never changed. My mum told my grandparents and my grandad announced heād walk me down the aisle.
Itās weird reading how far you have come in the last 5 years because you donāt really think about it but now seeing it in black and white im shocked.
#me#rambles#5years#gettingthere#personal#cancer#selfharm#depression#triggerwarning#suicide#sad#depressed
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Episode #1:Ā āeveryone knows Iām here for the dramaā¢ļøā ~Robbie
First impressions these people are basic players who wont have very big personalities, and not willing to put a lot of effort into this game. Hopefully thats not the case and its just late so no one is really wide awake :) Because I came to play and I hope thats what everyone else came here to do as wellĀ
Okay so my plan basically worked, winning the first reward competition by placing a good score has opened up one of many avenues to come. Ryan, and Zeezo want to work with me (bad choice for them since I will be winning this aka taking them out eventually but oh well)
Him hitting it off really well with this tribe they are all so friendly and welcoming, Ain is my main homegirl at the moment she is the best and jared is a nice friendly face so it should be interesting to see what the coming days are like.
so not 30 minutes in and meowth comes out with the question "what if someones racist" which to me carried an air of accusation it was public and clearly meant for all to see it just gives me a bit of an icky feeling towards meowth
I'm glad that others are getting higher scores than me because i definitely don't want to be presenting as a threat in challenges particularity not the first day so i just am hoping that ill land middle of the pack challenge wise
so this immunity is fun i love puzzles like these even though they are hard tbh im not completly happy about our chances but i hope we can push through and win or the other tribes internet fucks up, either or really
so right now the vote seems to be between Robbie and Mewoth (Josh) and tbh i dont care which goes because they havent spoken to me but whatever, in any case id rather keep someone who actually contributed to the challenge and if he doesn't step it up then Josh will be gone next
Going into tribal council i am very nervous, you never know where the vote is until the votes are read and if im on the wrong side of the vote i might not be around much longer
I dont know whats gonna go down here but i hope i do well
reunited with lukas my love
she sells seashells at the seashore
why is the first vote already so confusing and wild.... just decide on a person
WHATS UPPPP!!! Canāt say much because Iām busy but Iām stoked!!! Only two other girls on my team tho :/ but itās ok! I have Stephen who I know but Iāll get into all that later and I have lukas and Sammy on the other tribe who I LOVE TO DEATH but obviously canāt tell anyone that. Ain is on the other side who I hate but I just hope she gets voted out and we never have to interact :ā)
Honestly, living my best life and enjoying the brief small talk with my tribe mates. So far getting a good vibe from everyone but lets be real, shit (I can curse right... I lowkey have always wanted to say that) is definitely going to go down as soon as something goes wrong. But like *shrug*.Ā
OK LET'S TALK ABOUT THAT TIME THAT I DIDNT WANT TO GRAB THE LIGHT AND SHINE IT ON ME AND WE WIN FIRST IMMUNITY AND I GET SENT TO PARADISE ISLAND!!!!!!!!! Yeah, because like, screw the idea of trying to lay a tad low for the first vote. But hey, I guess when you are working with Zeezo and she tells you the immunity boxes must be evens because of the clue she got, and then you get sent to PI, it can't be all that bad. I'm so shook I don't even know if I'm making sentences rn hahaha. I hate saying this, but like I am so happy with where I am rn, but I def know there is so much more work to put in before my tribe ends up going to tribal. AND SPEAKING OF TRIBES, WHET ON EARTH? Two abstains in the reward and then a tie and only two points in the immunity challenge for Yalos? Did they also think they were cast in ANTM because like same. We've all been there, amiright? Can they continue to do this so I can just breeze my way to merge and start playing this game already??? Please and thank you.Ā
When I wake up and realize I have so much work to do for school but at least I don't have to worry about going to tribal tonight! I aint mad! At least Im not gonna be the Francesca of this season soooooooo.....Ā
So... ya boy just beat Jared in a word search comp... and beat him... and went to Super Paradise Island... and idk which greek god is on my side, but one them has ya boy's back because he just the sapphire gem... Like no big deal... I didn't expect to be the first voted out and then just somehow came across getting one of the first big advantages of the game... WE ARE ALL FINE GUYS!!!
I have Oakley, who voted me out on Athena: Himalayas and Olivia, who I voted out on Atomic: Isle of Skye on my tribe. And my immediate thought is I want to work with them. Olivia more than Oakley, I donāt have any beef with him from another season but he is sneaky. However my strategy especially at this point in the game is just make lersonal connections and pretend to have the strategic knowledge of a goldfish. Hereās hoping it works.
So far Iāve talked to most people but some are easier to connect to than others, Joanna seems the most distant, she responds but it doesnāt feel friendly. But we won, so weāre all good this round. I really hope Ain goes home, shes manipulative, vindictive and isnāt afraid to use underhanded tactics.
WOAH! So after being recommended to play by a friend, I found out he ALSO recommended Miles to play, although in the other tribe.. I have someone I know here although I kinda got them eliminated in a Twitter Survivor... Hmmm... So far in Kalafati tribe, Im liking Miles and Joanna, Haven't had much contact with the others but they seem really cool. Im so excited to play, Especially with winning a lucky hidden immunity Idol
Iām still waving the flag
Iām still waving the flag I hate that challenge. I got a respectable score but if i did all that just to have the Yalos player stop after a low score, I'll be sad
My first impressions of the tribe is pretty positive! No immediate negative figures jump out at me. I'm still testing the waters, trying to figure out if any people are potentials for alliance members. Some people like Olivia, Jacob, Miles, Stephen and Thomas have reached out to me which makes them seem like good potentials for friends. However, I want to see how the reward challenge goes before I can evaluate my teammates further.Ā
It's amazing that we won the reward challenge and I'm so happy that I performed as well as I did. However, I am worried about the immunity challenge. I'm happy with the flash game, but the controls are really wacky and I already know it will take forever to get used to.
I'm honestly a little worried seeing that I didn't preform very well in the immunity challenge. Thankfully, we still managed to pull off a win and we didn't have to worry about tribal. Speaking of tribal, I don't think there is anyway Robbie is going to stay, seeing that he abstained in the reward and striked in the immunity. Also, I feel like I want to work with Olivia, but Miles also seems like a good person to work with, but I haven't approached either of them yet. Still weighing my options and figuring out the best way to proceed.Ā
Honestly it doesnāt seem like anyone is playing hard yet which is annoying me. Because I want to play hard, but if no one else is people can get sketched out by highly strategic, social players
Honestly if I finess this vote and stay in the game after forfeiting two comps it will be hilarious. But everyone knows Iām here for the dramaā¢ļø Hope no one gets blind sided
So the first night went..... alright. My tribe wasnāt as energetic or as talkitive as I had expected. It appears as though I am on a tribe with all gay men, which sounds nice in theory, but Iām bracing for the moment these twinks start wildin. Aside from the gays, I know Ain from a past org and am starting to warm back up to her. We will probs stick together for awhile. As of now, thatās all.Ā
Robbie, queen of being inactive and making cases to stay last minute, came to me with the idea of booting Meowth instead. I said hell yeah! All for that shit! Not that I donāt like Meowth, itās just I would love to do something unexpected for the first tribal. However, Sammy and Michael seem to be so against it for some reason. Lord knows why. Iām going to aim to be in the majority, but I may just cast my vote for Meowth for the hell of it.Ā
Ok I donāt quite remember what my last confessional was but I know for a fact I fucked up the names. Robbie is the one on the line, Sammy is just another gay. I swap their names all of the time.Ā
I really like this tribe so far! Everyone seems pretty chill and it's nice to know that at the moment, nobody is really mean-spirited. I know that Jacob has some past with the other Miles, but he's on the other tribe, so there's really no past relationships to deal with either, at least that I know of! I think that by far, I'd probably like to align with Olivia and Joanna for sure, and maybe Stephen, Zeezo, Ā Oakley, and Julian as well? I'd rather not get into scheming this early! I think it'd be much better for my game at the moment not to be the leader or figurehead of a group, but rather an updated member. I guess I'll have to see!
Alright so... Not a whole lot is going on, it's just the start of the game, we're just doing the first reward challenge. This tribe is just a bit too large for my taste but whatever, I'll manage. Getting to know all these people is interesting, which is funny because the absolute LAST word I would use to describe myself is "interesting"
I'm not entirely sure what use one would have for a fire making kit in an online survivor. Am I meant to set my laptop on fire? ARE YOU TRYING TO TELL ME SOMETHING????????? lmao...
There's a few people that I'm getting great vibes from. Miles would probably be the biggest one rn. I would love nothing more than to get some sort of alliance going sooner rather than later JUST IN CASE but like I don't want to be the one to actively go out and do it because if someone leaks RIP ME. Idk what I'm doing just yet. We'll figure this out.
We won the first immunity and don't have to vote anyone out, that's awesome. I can't help but feel just a little concerned though, everyone's almost a little TOO peaceful on this tribe. I'm not saying I'd want to LOSE a comp and have to face tribal but the reads I'm getting from everyone is giving me a sense of unease. I do enjoy winning though and wouldn't mind winning out. I'm just saying, I feel very uneasy with the vibes I'm receiving. Good lord I just repeated myself there. Oh well.
I really like this tribe so far! Everyone seems pretty chill and it's nice to know that at the moment, nobody is really mean-spirited. I know that Jacob has some past with the other Miles, but he's on the other tribe, so there's really no past relationships to deal with either, at least that I know of! I think that by far, I'd probably like to align with Olivia and Joanna for sure, and maybe Stephen, Zeezo, Ā Oakley, and Julian as well? I'd rather not get into scheming this early! I think it'd be much better for my game at the moment not to be the leader or figurehead of a group, but rather an updated member. I guess I'll have to see!
I think I'm pretty safe after this immunity challenge. I was one of 2 people to win the head to head for my tribe and therefore I have a chance to go to Paradise Island! I'm trying my best NOT to go though because I think that would put a target on my back very early on.
Right now my closest ally is Matt and I feel that we have a strong bond. We're each other's #1's and talking back and forth over who should go tonight. I'm very torn for who I'm voting for at tribal tonight, it's either Meowth (Josh) or Robbie. I've heard that Robbie may have gotten the majority but I don't feel 100% on wanting him still in the game. Yes, Meowth is weak in challenges but he's another easy vote moving forward in the future.
So, what's been going for me so far? Ā Well, reward challenge I busted my ass and showed what I can do, which was great! Ā WE lost, which sucks, and 2 people didn't submit. Ā Those 2 were Miles and Robbie. Ā This made me upset, mostly because Miles I know from my Minecraft UHC days, so we made an instant alliance from that. Ā Robbie I didn't care about. Ā Then came immunity, where once again, Robbie was unable to compete, and I still stand by that I was robbed in my challenge because of a shit quality image, but this is what I'm used to from online games like this, so I'll move on (eventually). Ā We got rekt in immunity, and the obvious choice was looking like Robbie for not submitting twice. Ā So, being the intelligent player I am, I basically pitched to Robbie that he was going home unless he made a better pitch about someone else. Ā He aimed at Michael, someone who I somewhat wanted to work with at the time (in hind sight, I wouldn't have cared much). Ā I proposed, instead, we vote for meowth (Joshua) because he just rubbed me the wrong way, under-performed, and refused to talk game strategy with me at all. Ā I pulled in Lukas and Jared, as well as had Ain in my pocket, and with the acquiring of Sammy by both me and Robbie, the vote should be set in our favor. Ā I'm still trying to convince Miles to roll with us so he's not on the losing end of the vote, but I think its 50/50 whether he will or won't. Ā Honestly, I feel pretty safe with this vote, being that I was a top performer and have shown how active I strive to be in these games. Ā I'm not super worried about this vote and hope that Robbie sticks around. Ā Hopefully, he becomes a powerful player and a big help in challenges. Ā If he's not, he'll go next for sure. Ā Let's hope I don't live to regret these words!
I think Iām in a pretty safe spot right now, but we def have people who think they are running the show around here...SIT DOWN or else youāll become a target earlyš but I like everyone just donāt know who we should keep...someone who hasnāt been active or someone who tries but does not communicate. Eh either way Iām not on the chopping block sooooo. Okay wow that sounds rude but um i like everyone:) yikes
Honestly, this is a fung ame and a fun set of people. Just hope my time here isn't too short.
So far I feel pretty good about my tribe even though there a couple people I forgot to ever talk to oops. We seem to be good at challenges and get along well. I've connected most with Ryan so far and told him my idol clue to gain his trust. He's told me he trusts me the most out of anyone so that's good. After we talked we decided to pull in a 3rd and settled with Thomas since he got the best score in the reward challenge. After consulting with Ryan I decided to share my clue with Thomas too and the 3 of us officially performed an alliance. I think with this alliance my goal is to think more long term. Thomas is probabaly going to on Tinder performing well at challenges and be a shield for me. He also doesn't seem to talk to a lot of other people. Meanwhile Ryan seems like the type of person who might play too hard so he could be another shield. Plus we get along really well so far so that's good :') We might pull in a 4th for the alliance later since Thomas is kind of inactive and Ryan suggested Stephen so I'm interested to see how that will pan out. In other news Ryan got sent to paradise island and got the sapphire gem thing so that's great :') So if one of us finds the idol we should have great power in the game so I'm looking forward to the rest of the gameĀ
Nothing is going really because we have been on a winning streak and have been crushing it. I knew Stephen from a previous game and we agreed to work together. He is not being extremely subtle about it but I think he wants to work with Olivia because he has mentioned her a lot and how he likes her. I don't mind that because I do like her but I am worried about the two of them being closer to each other than to me because I know they know each other. I am really liking Ryan as well and would like to work with him. I am worried I am not being as social as I should be because I do notice that I don't talk to as many people as I would like. Miles I have talked to a bit but haven't built much of a relationship with him and everyone else I have said hi to and talked to a bit but I haven't really built anything or know anything about them. I just hope we can win long enough for me to build those relationships because I am worried that I am one of the two people to lose my round in the immunity challenge.
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