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“nightmares again?”
as an unfortunate sufferer of them often, i would love to hear your thoughts on this and pretend i have someone like one of the boys to comfort me 😪
The way I was like HELL YEAH I'm chipping away at these prompts! 🎉 Then I promptly reblogged another list and got more (which I am very excited about and will also get to eventually I promise) On that note, thank you so much for sending this in! I'm not sure if this is exactly what you were looking for, but alas here it is! Thank you for your patience as I took twelve thousand years to fill this prompt, I hope you like it! (If anyone else wants to submit a prompt from the late night prompts list, it can be found HERE I make no promises on WHEN I will be fill it, just that it will be filled eventually) Thank you again for sending this my way!! I hope you had a lovely day and that you have a wonderful week!
❤️Ally
WARNINGS: Nightmares, references made to drug use/ abuse / overdose, discussions of character death even though there is NOT any character death in this fic
“nightmares again?”
Matty frowned, pushing the blankets off his chest to sit up, reaching over the bedside table and turning on his reading lamp. His frown deepened when he realized that he was alone in the king size bed, George’s side of the mattress cool to the touch. He sighed, rubbing at his eyes groggily, before groping near blindly for his glasses. He slipped them onto his nose, and swallowed a yawn.
He shivered as his bare feet hit the cement floor, and he shuffled in the dim light until he found his slippers. He felt like the old man in a horror movie, gray hair and all, trudging through his darkened home, wrapped in the red and blue plaid flannel robe that Louis had gotten him for Christmas the year before.
“Hey,” said Matty softly, not wanting to startle George, but accidentally doing so anyway. He looked up sharply from where he sat at the kitchen table, a cup of tea, long since gone cold sitting in front of him. Matty yawned and hobbled over to the stove, intending to make them both a fresh cup, his knee protesting stiffly after spending the last few hours in bed.
“What are you doing up?” George asked softly, tracking Matty’s movements as he stood on his tiptoes, reaching to retrieve two fresh mugs from the top cabinet. His robe fell open as he stretched giving George a lovely view of his tattooed chest and toned stomach.
“Could ask you the same question,” said Matty, setting the mugs down on the counter. George looked down at the wooden surface, his cheeks pink.
“Couldn’t sleep,” he said at last, “and I didn’t want to wake you up with my tossing and turning.”
“You know I can’t sleep without you anyway,” Matty said, coming up behind George and wrapping his arms around the younger man’s broad shoulders. He pressed a kiss to his cheek savoring the warmth of George’s back as it pressed against Matty’s chest.
George just hummed in response, taking one of Matty’s hands in his own, holding tight, swiping his thumb back and forth against Matty’s palm as if trying to memorize the divots of his lifelines.
“Nightmares again?” Matty whispered, hesitating to break the calm that had settled over the kitchen, but needing to know. George nodded, giving Matty’s hand a squeeze.
“Yeah,” said George, his voice hoarse, “yeah.”
“Do you want to talk about it?” Matty asked softly, sometimes George wanted to talk about his nightmares, other times he just wanted Matty near. George sniffled, and Matty’s heart broke.
“You were dead,” he said quietly, “you ODed and I was too late,” he let go of Matty’s hand to swipe at his eyes and Matty took advantage of the shift in position to drop down onto the bench next to George, wrapping his arms around George’s hulking frame as he curled into himself, then into Matty’s chest.
“It was just a nightmare,” said Matty, “I’m alright, I’m right here.” He took George’s hand maneuvering it to press it against his bare skin, letting George feel the rise and fall of his chest. The steady beat of his heart.
“I know,” said George wetly, “I know, but it's just,” he took a shaky breath, “it was so real, and, and it could have been real. If I had been a few minutes later—”
“No,” said Matty, pressing harder on George’s hand. “No, stop that, I’m right here.” He took a deep breath George hand moving out then in with his lungs as he exhaled. “I’m alright,” he said, his own words growing watery as silent tears streamed down George’s cheeks.
“I know,” said George, leaning forward to bury his face in George’s shoulder. “But, but if I had been just a little later, if I planned on stopping for coffee but it was raining and I was lazy, if I had stopped it would have been too late and you would be gone, I would have had to find your body.” George hiccuped wetly, his breath hot against Matty’s skin.
“But you didn’t,” said Matty, rubbing what he hoped were soothing circles against George’s back. “And that was a long time ago, I’m okay, I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere as long as you’ll have me.”
“It just,” said George, “it felt so real.”
“Fuck,” said Matty taking a shaky breath of his own, “fuck, I’m so sorry for putting you through all of that, I was selfish, and it’s keeping you awake even years later, and I’m so sorry.”
“No,” said George, “no, you don’t have to be sorry, it wasn’t your fault, you were sick, I should be over it by now—”
The tea kettle whistled, and Matty apologized, detangling himself from George and quickly pouring the piping hot water into the mugs, then adding a drizzle of honey before bringing them back over and setting them on the table.
“I’m sorry,” Matty said quietly, nudging the mug towards George. “I’m sorry that I put you through that, and that it’s haunting you even now.”
George gave Matty a watery smile. “As long as you’re still here to haunt me in person.”
Matty chuckled, and leaned forward, pressing a chaste kiss to George’s dry lips. “Forever and always.”
#allylikethecat#ask ally#anon ask#keep it kind#fanfiction#matty fic#gatty#fanfic#late night prompts#late night prompt#late night prompt fill#late night prompt fills#prompt fill#prompt fills#not sure if you were looking for gatty but alas that is all i know how to write anymore apparently#so that's what we have ended up with#i hope you like it!!#thank you for sending it my way!#i know this was a newer one#but i couldnt get the idea of fictional!george having nightmares out of my head#i will try and get another prompt or two done this week
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megan thee stallion is the perfect example of unbothered energy. nicki has repeatedly vagueposted about her, gone on unhinged rants about her, gone so far as to mention her dead mother (such a classless low blow), threatened her on live, and has now released the tackiest diss track in history. and what has megan done? literally nothing. she straight up ignored her, aside from that one ig story where she posted herself laughing (which was perfect btw). she is the epitome of “i will not dignify that w a response.” i love it.
#btw i was rly into megan before it became trendy now in light of her dropping hiss / the nicki debacle#nicki’s latest music has been ass anyway but it’s sad to see her behaving like this to newer rap girls#the parasocial hate is literally so intense / insane like i can’t imagine hating someone enough to be persistently harassing them like this#nicki’s a celeb so you’d think she’d know a thing or two about how dangerous it is to pit her fans on somebody else like this#unless this is all just a bid to stay relevant which i would not be surprised ab but nicki seems PRESSED.#i guess if i released something like pink friday 2 id also be feeling threatened by a new rap girl w the bars megan has#i just want her to leave my homegirl megan alone. good on megan for ignoring and living her best life. the energy i wanna emulate#i’m not usually one to play into the whole pit women against other women thing but nicki’s recent actions are so inappropriate. wild#btw megan majored in health administration in uni?? which is a major factor as to why i’m obsessed w her. anyway#text
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Just thinking about how others reacted to Jason's death...all of the victim blaming, making him a warning, an example of what not to do, telling him he came back wrong, that he was mean and cruel and dangerous even before his death...constantly making fun of his death and making crowbar jokes and all of that...and how, in the newer runs, Jason seems to just. accept it all.
(Thinking of a scenario where Jason and Roy become friends, how Jason starts to very slowly handle his feelings around his death. How the Jason Roy knows is confident, despite everything, and even if he is angry and hurt and takes that anger and hurt out on the world around him, he still so very firmly believes in making a difference. How after some time Jason decides to try and mend things with his family.
And how slowly but surely, the Jason who Roy knew at the beginning starts to disappear.
How Jason starts to disappear.
How Jason starts believing that he should disappear.
How Jason starts to want to disappear.
And Roy starts to get angry.)
#thinking of that one panel (and fifteen others I've seen) where Jason thinks he should've stayed dead :)#not to bash other bats but. uh. idk what the writers are thinking bc what I am seeing is not a very good look??#I don't know but every single panel I see of Jason in the newer runs he is honestly depressed and suicidal#and how it always seems to get worse the more he is written to interact with the other bats#just. thinking#also if I have to see sad jason then I deserve to imagine protective roy okay that is my right#dc#jayroy#jason todd#red hood
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So does he, Gallagher.
#honkai star rail#hsr blade#gallagher#i based this off of how many times i used funny soda man to help be a healer with his poppin soda pop in SU#and then blade constantly just being blade as usual#its normally him saying unnecessary to my actual healer but#i kept forgetting gallagher heals and i kept healing when i didnt even need to so TECHNICALLY yeah it was unnecessary#but the amount of times blade was the recipient......#i cant use like most of my newer units in story bc i cant ascend or i run out of leveling mats so i just#get them and toss them into simulated universe for funsies cause i can match their levels better#so thats where i tossed gallagher and he is genuinely fun to play as ? like i love his punches and kicks to start the battle#funny soda man is funny (to me) and im really behind in plot still#but last time i tried to play it on my laptop and got a kickass cutscene my laptop lagged and i couldnt even see it RIP to me#so now that its like ... me trying to play it on desktop ?#i mostly get on desktop for comms and if i do much else i feel like im slacking off even if i would take a break anyway#one day i can play more story plot stuff and actually meet the funny guys#also in case you know me for Not Having Boys in HSR i need to point out#i did pull Gallagher however same 10 pull got a 4 star girl copy for someone i never use and she is at e4 now cool#and i didnt even think of the irony as i started this i just like drawing blade and i wanted to draw gallagher#so when i already had the dialogue planned and am drawing i was like OH WAIT haha im funnier than i thought#(no i am not but we can pretend)
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After seeing @felassan's post about there being two different versions of Neve and Taash's cards, I needed to sate my curiosity and went digging to see if I could different versions of the other companions as well.
Lo and behold, there are! I found them for every companion except for Emmrich. There's no way to say with absolute certainty which is the old version and which is the new; hopefully we can get some confirmation on this.
For the time being, I went ahead and marked the differences for those who have trouble spotting this sort of thing. Hopefully it's not too overwhelming for the ones that are very marked up, but I wanted to include some of the more mundane changes as well.
Neve — The biggest changes are the crossed leg (making her prosthetic more visible) as well as the metal rivet detailing on her outfit (see: the collar, the shoulder pads, the sleeves, the skirt portion). Some of what I'm calling the more "mundane" technical changes include the lighting and shadows on her staff, her nose, and her chest.
Taash — The most notable difference here is the coins (I didn't circle all the individual coins but you get the point) and the dragon in the background. In one version, the eye is more distinct, and a bottom row of teeth have been added to the dragon's jaw. There have also been changes made in the shading of her face. Her body shape (namely, the torso and her arms) have also been changed, as well as the general shape of the "spikes" on her hips and her shoulders.
Harding — Just a couple changes here. Her eye is more white/ghostly looking in one version, and the shading on her face and neck have changed.
Lucanis — LOTS of differences. They're pretty inconsequential, by which I mean there hasn't been any added/removed/changed symbolism in his card. The shading on his nose has changed, as well as the shading on his collar, hand, forearm, armpit (didn't circle this one oops), hips, and hip dagger. The purple "wisps" have changed in shape here and there. One of the orbs in the upper left have moved, and there is another orb above that one which has been removed/added.
Davrin — Just a few changes with Davrin, though they are big ones. His face/head has been changed, and the vallaslin has been redrawn. The scar on his eyebrow has also moved slightly.
Bellara — Bellara's head has shifted and her neck elongated/shortened. There are stars in the background and around her arm in one version.
As for Emmrich, I mentioned I could only find one version. I did compare the image we currently have with what I believe is the earliest Emmrich art that was shared with us (a cropped version of his card) by overlaying the two on Photoshop and didn't see any differences.
And that's it! You might have also noticed that some of the versions on the right hand side have a white line at the top of the image. Make of that what you will.
(People viewing this post on PC will have an easier time quickly clicking back and forth between the images to spot the difference. If you're on the mobile app and care enough to do so, you might have an easier time saving the images and flipping through them in your photo album. At least I know it's easier if you have an iPhone, I don't know about other models.)
#if you spot something I missed please let me know!#da4#da4 spoilers#da:tv#dragon age: the veilguard#da:v#dav#tagging this game is such a headache#neve gallus#neve#taash#harding#lace harding#lucanis dellamorte#lucanis#davrin#bellara lutara#bellara#It's my personal opinion that all the lefthand versions are the newer ones and the righthand are the old#mostly coming at this from an artist's perspective (my belief that the changes made in composition light and shadow are better#in the lefthand versions).#lucanis's card is a good example in why I believe the left image is the newer one. The orb moving more towards the center makes for a#better composition in my opinion. And in the right image there is a random black wisp on his left forearm (our right) that looks like it#shouldn't be there.#but to play devil's advocate the righthand images ARE currently on the official website AND I used the wayback machine#to see what was there before AND IT WAS THE LEFTHAND IMAGES. but also alsoooo I do believe the first versions of art we ever#saw are the righthand images which would make them older. but I can't confirm any of this so really it's all up in the air#anyway neve gallus are you impressed with my sleuthing skills and if your answer is yes please call me. pleas
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if you had to pick... top 3 favorite pokemon? or more if you can't narrow it down that much (like me)
made em a team of 6 (plus one mistake missing no. in the corner):
:)
#art#pokemon#crobat#gyarados#tropius#poliwhirl#rhyhorn#darumaka#anonymous#wayyyy 2many favs to pick!!! my honorable mentions:#bulba nidoking bellsprout machoke gastly#totodile ursaring xatu raikou (johto might be my fave overall!)#breloom lairon spoink swablu. el gordo gordo groudonnnn#staravia gastrodon stunky#garbodore sawsbuck joltik#i like electivire he looks like dr. robotnik's fursona :)#at least 150 or more to see. to be a po ké mon! master! is my! destinyyyyy#there are so many now! i can name abt 600 of the 1000+ lol#last one i actually played was gen..... 5?#they are all perf tho. winners in every generation (just like irl)#tropius is my all time 🌴🦕🍌 idc if he doesnt evolve and needs to come inside in the winter#doodled these from memory#at one of my prev jobs my coworkers would describe pkmn from newer gens (that i had never seen)#and i would try to draw them from loose verbal description alone :)#i thought they made up slurpuff until i saw the official art#thanks for tagging along!!! i always wanna know the pokemans and blorbos and guys you love - and why you love em (:
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Girl, I know it's hard being an editor and you're busy but PJO is Disney's big cash cow. You should at least be invested by the series that brings in so much money. And you're using the fandom wiki as a series bible??? FOR FOURTEEN YEARS?!?!
#riordanverse#percy jackson#percy jackson series#pjo hoo toa#listen i know other authors will look something up real quick#but ricks books are Bad#and the newer ones have been so full of errors that i suspect you arent really doing your job#and it turns out you arent#sorry if youre being underpaid but im not being paid at all and i STILL dont use the fandom wiki are you fucking kidding me#hoo came out fourteen years ago#in 2010#FOURTEEN YEARS of using the fandom wiki as a series bible#i am going go be ill
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weird how its harder for me to imagine bride mozart than salieri, but still
#fate grand order#fgo#wolfgang amadeus mozart#my art#the reason for it being harder is probably that a lot of fgo salieri is an idea of a character instead of the person#while fgo mozart is more or less just the guy with like a couple things distinguishing him from irl one#anyways if youre reading the tags hiii ^^ do people still do that? i hope so.#i hope that people newer to tumblr know that there are comments in the tags of the og posts as well as in the reblogs...#actually also probably because a lot of mozarts designs have a bunch of shit layered on top of him while salieri is mostly suits and such#like while his costumes look more open they are simultaneously more closed with some thing on top
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cw: Bakugou dies but comes back to life, “comes back wrong” trope, implied fighting, angst
When Bakugou died, you’re not sure how you went on living. Grief had taken over your life, sat you in the passenger side while it cruised off the highway into icy waters. And even then, you couldn’t find the energy to drown.
It’s why there’s a sudden uptick of energy when you’re promised to have him back. Some top scientists contact you months after his death, tell you to hurry down to the headquarters labs, come and rejoice for what you’re about to witness. And you’re horrified, to say the least.
“This isn’t my husband.” Are your first words when you walk in, watch the figure on the other side of the glass examine its own hands. It looks like your husband but—but his hair isn’t the right shade of blond all over. His nose bridge had a slight bump after a scuffle with a villain. He had a scar on his hand but—but it never looked like it was to sew a pinky beside the other fingers.
“Is that really my husband?” You ask next in disbelief, slowly entering the room. Bakugou’s head snaps up, his eyes a little brighter than you remember but—they hold so much emotion. So much memory, so much panic, so much guilt.
“I left you.” He mutters, his voice raspy and ragged, and you wonder if it’ll always be like this now. It makes you cry a little harder than it should, but you only embrace each other. He’s cold and his shoulders don’t hold the same mass and his back doesn’t carry the same scars. There’s one, jagged and rough, running down his back, and you think, you think that’s where they slipped a new spine in.
“Welcome back home.” You tell him, weeks after meeting him again, new and not totally—Katsuki. He’s stiff and he doesn’t immediately take off his boots when he enters, and it worries you. Makes you think if you’ve just let a stranger into your home, one that has stolen your dead husbands face. Makes you wonder if he’ll be as loving as Katsuki once was, or if he’ll become your monster looming over you with the guilt of not being able to rest anymore.
“I’ve missed you so much.” You whisper against his mouth one night, a little while after he’s moved back. You don’t know why you lay under him, why you let him nestle himself inside of you, why you let him hold you against his chest. Katsuki always ran his hands over your cheeks and neck whenever he held you like this, but this…man, only holds himself up with his hands resting beside your head. It’s alien, how he looks at you, how his hips are methodically measured with every thrust, how he kisses you every 8 seconds. You wonder if he’s more robot than Frankenstein monster.
“Why did you come back to me like this?” You ask him one night, barricaded in the bathroom away from him. You can hear his sobs on the other side, his pleading to be let in. He tells you he never wanted to come back if he had to be like this, that he’s sorry, please let him in, he misses the warmth of your skin, he’s never been so cold before, he’s never liked the cold.
“Is this considered cheating?” You ask yourself aloud one night, when Bakugou is forced back to the lab when he becomes too…un-Bakugou. To sleep with a man that is your husband in every way but? Your husband has been dead for a year now, and yet you stroke the chin of the man that tries so hard to be him everyday, but fails so miserably at it every time.
“I’ll come back to you right this time.” Bakugou promises to you when he’s strapped down to leave for the lab and before he’s sedated. But you don’t believe him—you never did. Your husband is dead, and this animated corpse has been nothing but a cheap mockery of everything you’ve lost and something you will never truly get back.
#I was writing this and then checked my dash and saw another post about this#and felt so guilty and almost didn’t post it aidjdkfj#but I love this trope too much to delete it!!!!!#I’ve written about this in my published book before and it’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever written#there’s just such a deep heartache about having to grieve someone#and then the grieving process being interrupted by the one you lost#and battling with their death even though you still look at them everyday again#but it’s just not right?? it’s not the same??#they have the same face (kinda) but it’s truly not hem#not them* heck#it reminds me of a convo I had in a psych class about making a new cloned version of yourself#where the question was ‘is the clone/new version still you? or are they an entirely new person now?’#and at first I said they’re still me you know? they have my face n body n memories#but my prof told me no!! after they have been cloned they are sentient and are now their own person making new memories apart from you#and I thought that was soooo interesting and it makes me fall in love w this trope every time#you’re my person but only a version. you’re who I love but a newer person. you’re not them. you’re everything I’ve missed about them#so heartbreaking I LOVE ITTTT#sorry I’m rapping it’s the sleep meds kicking in#okay bai#bakugou treats! 🍬#—new treat in the streets! 🍫
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we do not know and might not ever know the full story behind mania and the circumstances under which it was produced but we know enough by now to understand that there was a lot of strife and frustration involved in the way it came about. the band has been clear on this much. the divisive reception upon release didn't help any. and we know the last time that happened with folie, it led to that record essentially being forgotten and aggressively sidelined for years afterward. the roughness of its reception was explicitly one of the things that patrick especially cited as difficult for him to look back on, and one of the reasons it took so long for him to embrace those songs again.
it took mania five years what took folie a full hiatus and double that time.
this too is healing.
#*making poasts#i have my own ~case study~ i wanna write abt mania one day but it is not this day#i know part of it is that the mania tour was their last headlining tour prior to this one so those songs are newer#and the second is that these things do simply take time#but im glad theyve acknowledged their 7th child again...shes important to me#folie - brilliant as it was - also came from a period of immense internal friction#folie had more time to soothe over than mania has#but it means a lot that theyre working so hard to reforge that bitterness into something they can look at with fondness#it all comes back to that kintsugi feeling....doesnt it ever
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gotta be honest gang, i'm starting to feel like i'm never gonna love another show as much as i love ofmd
#tv: our flag means death#ofmd#seeing a lot of people on my dash posting about newer shows has me feeling some type of way#and the thing is the shows a lot of people seem to be moving on to are ones i genuinely like!#i get why you would want to talk about them!#but none of them hit for me the way ofmd hits you know?#even series that i've loved forever don't have to the same type of luster#i've been in a lot of fandoms in my life and loved a lot of stories to the point that they felt like a part of my soul#but i can't remember a time i've loved any story quite as much as this one#i think it's gonna live in my heart forever
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It has been WAAAY too long since the last time I've drawn the Dudes. Love this dumb little game series dearly
#I need to get back into the lore - I know absolutely nothing about the story of Postal 4 - braindamaged - and Poostal#I OWN all of them I just have not really played the newer ones#Iirc I bought Braindamaged when it came out - I know I did for P4!#I need to be a better gamer /j#artwork#postal#postal 2#postal 3#poostall royale#Postal doe#postal dude#p2 x p3#<- not really but it is in my heart#I love them
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honestly I encourage everyone to get comfortable opening up their electronics. game consoles. computers. phones. keyboards. headphones. whatever. like obviously don't start with the most difficult thing to open up and don't just mindlessly pop open something and lose all the screws and don't do it while its on. but get comfortable looking inside your stuff yourself
its not hard to open up most electronics that don't have an apple logo on them (and even a lot of those are easier than you'd think) and it DOES NOT VOID YOUR WARRANTY.
Companies will try to scare you from learning how to care for your own stuff because they get money that way. Warranty stickers are technically illegal in the US but just isn't enforced, and a company can't actually void your warranty if you repair something yourself, so long as you don't break something else in the process.
like I look at threads all the time where people express fear about just opening up a console and looking at the internals to see which version they have but don't be! its easy, its safe, its free! get comfortable with your electronics and learn how to clean and repair stuff yourself, it isn't scary, companies just want you to think it is!
#I have been inside of like a dozen different video game consoles at this point#i'm talking like atari 2600 through X Box 360 in terms of generations#newer ones I've just had no reason to open up so that's the only reason I haven't tho I should probably do some cleaning#but like I've done cleaning and repasting and straight up surgery on motherboards and its FINE its not hard#I don't even know how to use a soldering iron and I have still done repairs and maintenance that would cost stupid amounts#I've taken part ipods regularly and removed puffy batteries from iphones and popped open headphones to replace parts they don't want replac#i've frankensteined keyboards from different ones to make what I wanted and built ones I myself#as long as you're careful and don't fuck around with power supplies that are ON or act reckless with batteries#its FINE#open up your junk and clean it
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trips and dozens of shitty sketches of trigun women fall out of my pockets
#this barely even scratches the surface im burdened at all times by the women who haunt my sketchbooks#some of these are like months old tho i just pulled out a grab bag#the chronicas are newer tho im trying to figure out how her face works#bc i have to make up for the utter devastation i felt when i first finished trimax and looked up her tag and there was Almost Nothing#shout out to the chronica content creators i wish to be among you one day#meryl stryfe#rem saverem#chronica#trigun#trimax#trigun maximum#.txt#my art#apologies for the quality of my scans. i know they r ass i am Sorryyy
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#alolan raichu#holy shit these alolan forms are kicking the fuck outta my ass#the things i do for you all. my production value on this blog has increased over the years and i don't think i can get away with the same#weird shit i used to be able to when i couldn't find a good model so now i'm having to learn how to use blender and shit??#downloading weird scripts off the internet just because i can't find the right models. and now alolan raichu has kantonian eyes#they have kantonian eyes. i know. i'm sorry. i don't know how to fix it and this is the best you're going to get because i had to work for#like an hour and a half just to get to this point. and i know the lighting is dark. it's. it's bad. it'll probably be like this for all#the alolan forms at least. and holy shit when we get to gen 9 it's going to be even worse#this is a wreck!! this is a wreck. i had to use the sv model for this one and it's like#i dunno the eyes in sv aren't textures?? they're procedural. they're fucking. shaders. in sv. which is why espeon's pupils#are no longer pupils and are instead reflections (lie‚ falsehood)#and i'm. dissolving. y'all're gonna have to bear with me moving forward bc i've gotten Very used to the “it just works” nature of#the older models that i was using but this is getting way harder on me as we move into newer generations
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doing it scared!! (birthday self portrait)
#okay to rb<3 (someone asked)#lil story i use a pretty old ipad i got second hand when i was 20 that was already 3 years in use by the time i got it#and it has been slowing down recently but thanks to commisions and birthday money i could afford a new one#i got a newer second hand one but the delivery kept getting delayed so i decided to start and finish this on my old ipad to commemorate it#it took over a week because my ipad kept crashing or just wouldnt work ect but i was determined we were gonna see this piece through#and we did it! and u know what then happened? within the hour of me finishing this i got the tracking notification for my new one#the universe was waiting this out w me. goodbye old friend#u can sleep now#digital art#art#digital drawing#artists on tumblr#illustration#digital aritst#artist#omatoxin#portrait#self portrait#my birthday
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