#i know these arent directly related but

[dyrdeer]

i really like disney losing money on bad movies they make but i do hate that sooo much money, effort, and time from the artists is taken for a purposefully mediocre "safe" product massacred by heartless execs.

[catoswound]

THE thrasea who wrote a biography of cato was a publius clodius????

[caruliaa]

was lied to again by ppl w pretty good too ehh parents into thinking dynasty rina sawayama was abt shitty parents and not generational trauma, SAD! well theres my tears ricochet

[teeto-peteto]

Im surprised on how many people are getting the Fractured Jinx skin. Im also surprised that they included the Sanctum (its called sanctasanctórum in spain translation there's NO WAY in hell im pronouncing that) in the loot tab but this being the first thing that pops up, if you want to check your loot like chest and keys you have to go through the sanctum tab.

I dont see the point on bullying the people who bought the skin. Im sorry but banning Ahri and bashing people over buying the skin like last time is one of the most ridiculous tactics of boycott i've ever seen and clearly we didnt get anything even close to an apology or a lower price. In fact we are getting more skins and im sorry but this was completely inevitable. NOT THAT I AGREE THIS SHOULD HAPPEN. I think its completely disgusting. The three skins. The Ahri, the Jinx and the Sett. Completely disgusting and reaching levels of illegality.

Also... saw the senior writing and storytelling twitter account posting about getting the Jinx skin and people asked 'you guys dont get it for free?' and they said 'we get a ton of rps by the end of the year so it was tecnically free'. You mean your workers arent in the partner program while random ass streamers get all skins for free????? gtfo.

[eileennatural]

best part about working in retail is making up lies to tell the customers. the worst part is everything else

[oopsintothecringeyougo]

Saw some dumbass(affectionate) '"camp camp reacts to David as Kyle"' shit on yt and somehow it got me here. I might make a comic idfk how I got here but whatever uhm

Edit: ao3 is waiting. Yayayyayayay

[little-eye-guy]

i just gotta hang in there but this is so mentally straining. it’s been over a month

[wwolfway]

Hello it is me, a total stranger [shy...], would you perhaps draw fresh and cross...? or more of them. I know you have that little comic in the works, so feel free to ignore this :-]

i think this is a good ask to really talk about what i like about fresh and cross as a duo

[ also i procrastinated on this bad bad… so many scraps for this..buh ]

⚔️🛼 . more under cut :]

[Alt text:

Cross: then i broke their arm. we're cool now though

Fresh: really? sounds rad

Cross: yeahh then their EX got mad and -

/End Alt text.]

cross and fresh (in my mind) are side characters outside of the “main” conflict that would be dream vs nightmare. of course they are main characters of their respective stories but focusing solely on this, they arent Necessary for those stories really. theyre both “add-ons” in that sense

cross himself, with xtale and underverse, really separates him from the multiversal conflict and fresh is also more of a fun cameo than he is as an active participant in the story.

when i first put cross and fresh together im going to be honest i forgot about their first interactions within underverse and just moved forward based on the assumption that cross would be uncomfortable by fresh (based on fresh info, where it’s stated that most people find it odd?) and that fresh’s curiosity and respect towards cross for doing what he did for the sake of “survival” is what drew them together.

cross found comfort later in interacting with someone that wasnt directly related to his internal conflict and was also made more comfortable by the fact that fresh didnt judge him for it. or at least not openly. fresh may have teased him for things in the past or annoyed cross to a point but it wasnt overwhelming or made him mad

fresh on his end would just? find cross fascinating. liked to tease him and see his reactions. found the way cross behaved fascinating too. just liked studying the guy

theyre are friends!!! to me!!! doesnt matter how they meet up but theyre FRIENDS!! BUDDIES!! and i love them a lot

[gordon-freeman-phd]

one thing that i dont think people aknowledge enoigh about barneys role as a spy when it comes to his generalize relations with other rebels and regular citizens is the very real chance that some people, even after knowing his reasons for joining up with the cps, are going to dislike him on the basis that he could not retain his role within them without participating in the cruel and unjust actions required by definition

like, he would have had to torture citizens and interrogate them, wr all saw the chair in his "office" even if he didnt participate directly he would have had to allow it regardless to keep his cover, and if he ever had a posting outaide the trainstation? he possibly would have had to co duct raids, and even if he didnt, many people are going to have had more experience at the hads of cps during raids than what barney would be doing at the trainstation,

because really, as we all hopefully know with regards to real cops, there is no good cop, you are either a good cop in that you do your job thereby participating in the inherantly cruel system made to target certain groups of people and the culture that ensures it will always be that way, or allowing it at the very least, making you a bad person in the long run, or a good person who tries to stop that system and therefore a bad cop who ends up bullied or killed at the extreme by other cops to protect thwir own, and the cps are the very extreme of what the militarized body of cops are in the world now are, protecring a fascist status quo, meaning that barney had to conform publiccaly within their ranks for his own safety so he can do his job as a spy

and while spying is a worthy cause to save lives of rebels and to relay important information, it does not erase the harm he has to do or enable directly day to day, and while plenty of people dive into how that effects barneys own psyche, theres less so an interrogation of how it effects others views on him, from unrelated rebels who may not have known him before the uorising to citizens who chose the rebels side, to even the people closest to barney, meaning kleiner, eli, alyx, and gordon,

this is even before we get into how many people know of barneys spy status, i know personally i believe he had to let other rebels believe he was a turn coat for thier and his own safety and cover, something like that doesnt go away easy even when you find out after that he was on your side all along becuz youre going to know that he had to perform to standard anyways, the distrust i imagine is much more when you didnt even know him before and now you have a man in cp garb saying hes on your side in the middle of chaos

and of course, the itch in the back of the main gangs brains, knowing what hes up to when hes not around, seeing a new blood stain on his unigorm if he doesnt have the time to take it off before making his way over, not recognizi g him since you inly see a uniform in the cirner of your eye and panicking begore you realize its only barney but the uneasiness doesnt go away even after he changes becuase you know, maybe more than anyone else except him what hes doing when you arent around, even if you KNOW hes on your side, that hes your friend who may even have known you for most of your life in alyxs case, like, even if you know its for the greater good, the smell of boot shine and blood badly masked by lemon scented cleaning agent sticking to the back of your throat as it wafts off one so close to you is hard to ignore

[cossmoluck]

FINALLY finished this

turns out soon means one week+ in my little lizard brain, that's cool

anyways!!! meg

megalo don content,,, food

also, as a treat for making myself take so much to finish this, some of my AU lore rambling thing under the cut (warning, pretty long)

in my design, most of his exterior Nitro armor is removable, being an extension of the augument inside his body, which pumps Nitro both through his lungs and bloodstream, crossing from front to back through his torso. His tubes would be attached to certain openings around his body, which could also have 'lids' put on for safe closing. Every area where the Nitro pumps directly into his body would have 'Nitro burn'- a less proeminent glow than the one in his fueled up form. I, as many others also do, like to think that his mask actually comes off (I haven't drawn him unmaksed yet, but I'll get to that too eventually). One headcanon I have is that when you take his medallion in game, what you take is actually his mask and use it.

For his body I went for a slightly leaner strongman build, as he doesn't seem way too bulky in his non-fueled form, but he's still considerably bigger than most others. I tried to give him a 'scarred shark' look, and gave him burn scars on one arm from a misfiring Nitro Fist hit accident

also his hair look so so fluffy in game and for WHAT

(note, this is all to be taken as an AU. i am by no means well versed enough in Fortnite lore to make something close to canon or actual on point headcanons lol,,, tl;dr at the bottom!!)

i feel like the whole theory with Meg and big chuggus being somehow related is true, but not necessarily in the way others present it usually i don't think they're snapshots of each other in any way, i just think that they've been basically created 'for the same purpose', maybe in the different 'realities?' I'm not 100% sure how the zero point reset worked considering Midas was technically the same and all

so let's say Chaos had created the Slurp legends and Slurp creatures back during the GHOST/SHADOW conflict i like to think that Meg might have been created sometime during then too- a more refined variant of the technology used on big chuggus, enough for him not to end up as brain dead as big chuggus himself (sorry big chuggus)

Megalo Don could have been a fleet leader for the naval forces, as he has an overall very reoccurring military theme with his insignia and stuff. Maybe he was hired by Chaos to aid him and willingly allowing Chaos to modify him into the 'perfect leader', boosted by slurp into near perfection I believe his Oasis style would be what his 'original' look was, with Slurp coursing through his pumps instead of Nitro

so how did he turn into the Meg we know? during the GHOST/SHADOW conflict, his crew got destroyed, probably, and they somehow ended up punished to the Pandora's Box, but not dead like Midas, just punished there I like to think that there is not only one Pandora's Box, technically, and that they're basically some sort of even higher security 'prison' for things deemed disasters under certain circumstances, putting mortal beings into their own personal hell. The ones imprisoned in the Pandora's Box arent necessarily 'dead', like shade Midas in the Underworld, but they're not alive in the full sense either. This particular Nitro filled Pandora's Box sprouted there, leaving behind veins of pure Nitro in the depths of the earth through which the Box had erupted.

in the Pandora's Box, stuck in an infinite purgatory loop of fighting and dying, the slurp that fueled his crew quite literally rotted into Nitro, and Megalo Don himself basically 'rusted' from the rot. The Nitro, essence of death, in a way, compared to Slurp, slowly and surely altered Meg's brain, turning him from a calculated leader into a terrifying tyrant, with nihilistic views regarding his crew and conquest, as he saw them all die over and over again… Another case of 'rotten' slurp beings being Sludge, maybe, as he could perhaps be read as a Slurp creature gone 'bad' (slurp to nitro)

Meg's mind got clouded with the only thing he could comprehend anymore- Nitro coursing through his veins, through his ship, through anything in the living hell he experienced in the Pandora's Box. (Ultrakill flesh prison sounding aah) Obtained by conquest or murder, with destruction being the only method he could even comprehend using to get it, his very life seeming to depend on Nitro at that point, and being released into the world again brought him bo purpose than to seize back all of his Nitro and keep fighting more and more

after he and his crew escaped from the Pandora's Box, Meg had intercepted a boat droning the Island from SHADOW, which had went to scout out Helios after Midas' escape from The Underworld, unaware of the Pandora's Box opening right then, and getting caught in the sandstorm. Meg had just the luck to capture Chaos (or a snapshot), the very man who had taken away his humanity and turned him into a (now) Nitro-fueled beast. From them he also took the island plans, which helped his crew settle in as fast as they did, the Redline Rig digging for Nitro the very moment they got there and the Nitrodrome building itself over the abandoned Fencing Fields, repurposing the fizz machinery there into the dome's car destruction traps

i also like to think that Meg has a father/daughters bond with Scarr and the Machinist, with the Machinist maybe being one of the original scientists on Chaos' team, whom had helped him stabilize his new equipment at the time, and Scarr being a dedicated member of his fleet since before getting banished into the Pandora's Box. Initially, both Scarr and the Machinist would have admired him for his courageous leadership and respected him as a leader, but through their decline in the Pandora's Box, their found family bond only strengthened, with the two of them being probably his only subordinates he actually cares about

i also like to imagine that he had made most of the transmissions particularly silly in hopes of having them tune in on either patrol or at the Nitrodrome and make them laugh with the over the top commentary

tl;dr: i headcanon megalo don as an ex-slurp legend made by Chaos who had rotted to nitro in the Pandora's Box. His Oasis style is what he looked like pre-Box. Also the Mechanist and Ringmaster Scarr are his found family daughters

[blackpilljesus]

I've not dated or had close relations with moids in years. I've been on the path to spending the rest of my days as a single childfree woman & committing to it as an osawoman. During this time here's what I've learnt, shorter version here:

This lifestyle is a privilege - being able to exist without having to directly depend on a moid romantically/sexually is a luxury. Know the privilege you have and how you can take full advantage of it and keep yourself set. We arent living this way solely bc we're smarter, we were just momentarily luckier. Most women are a political/natural disaster away from losing everything. Bear this in mind; along the way think of "what if" to best start preparing yourself.

Dont bother justifying your ways to people - Most wont and dont want to get it. Save your breath. By getting into back and forth arguments over not marrying moids & not having children you are digging a deeper hole for yourself by giving them more fodder to counter. They wont change their minds. End the conversation short & move on.

You cant save everybody - Ditch the saviour complex. We all get dealt bad hands in life; some worse than others. Other peoples lives arent your responsibility, there's only so much you can do because you've got your own issues too. Besides some are too far gone, you'll only end up drowning or being burned trying to save others especially if they dont want saving.

Recruitment is a waste of time - I often see extensive discourse around this topic w/ some women trying so hard to recruit others into this lifestyle or being separatists, wgtow, etc. All this does is waste time that can be spent on building instead. If some women dont get it oh well it's not the end of the world (although every woman does get it, they're just doing what they can t survive) it doesn't matter long term TO YOU because if you're serious you dont need other womens understanding/stamp of approval to build a network/resources for women; you can get started without them; heck some may join once they see the value like how so many women broke up with their partners after watching the barbie movie. Some women are more focused on recruitment than living the single childfree life they claim to be about and it consumes them - dont let recruitment consume you. Besides other women willingly engaging with moids buys you some time; those who know - know.

Most activism is a waste of time. Things only change when it benefits those in power but they will never relinquish their power entirely. It's great to put knowledge out there for others to learn but getting into discourse having to justify yourself & being swallowed by your activism will do more harm than good. Most activism is a stepping stone at most for the next chapter of your life. Learn to game the system instead of changing the system.

Focus on yourself. Everything as we know it is rooted in the system that has been perfected over the millenias. The problems of misogyny, racism, ableism, etc have existed before we were born and will exist after we die (part of why im not birthing into this mess). Trying to change it is a losing battle. This doesnt mean dont advocate or care about anything but look out for yourself first & be comfortable learning to existing between the cracks. It'll be quite the exercise tho as we've been socialised to prioritise others.

This is not a lifestyle one simply chooses it's something that chooses you. This isn't for everyone, those who know; know. If you require a lot of convincing or handholding then it isn't for you.

It gets lonely. Not because of not having a moidfriend; even when partnered with them many women still feel lonely. It's because most women are moid centric / obsessed and would want to be partnered with an xy someday or already are. Very few women truly commit to or understand this lifestyle irl tbh. Even my moots who are separatists or just single & childfree are halfway across the world. However that said, many women in the community can also be toxic; holding each other to high standards and there being constant bickering. You can befriend moid partnered women but be careful with them. We're surrounded by the system, existing out of core elements of it will come with a degree of isolation but on the bright side there's also peace if it all goes well.

Less is more. The less you say to others the less ammunition they have to hit you with. Bragging about this lifestyle to our predators will only make things harder because they've already got a huge upperhand. Too many of us moving in one go will bring unprecedented waves we're not ready to deal with. See 2, 3, and 4.

Ignorance is not bliss. Completely cutting off from xys including knowledge of their evil will make you unprepared should a threat strike. Not understanding moids nature is how some women think things are as easy as getting up and walking away without considering security & other factors then get suprised when moids strike. I'm not saying drown in true crime & xy evil but dont stray too far you lose touch of reality. Side note this is why women are gaslit about moids nature so that they dont have the chance to effectively prepare. Stay informed. I constantly learn from the women around me. Pay attention to xy motives & tactics. The power they hold, possible moves they may play etc. You wont be able to know/guess everything but stay in the loop nonetheless.

You will make mistakes be prepared to learn

It gets easier to control your attraction to moids overtime (if you're osa) as your focus is elsewhere as you realise there is a more fulfilling world out there beyond marriage & kids. Also life is just so much better. I know most women want the fairytale prince charming or an angel nigel but it's just not happening. Especially in a world like this. The freedom to be able to exist as a person & not a slave/punching bag for a rape ape is BLISS. You get so comfortable with it you wont wanna be with moids anyway especially when you see what other women go through. (Side note this is why women are pushed to being with moids as early as possible so this level of enlightenment is never reached & instead all women know + become accustomed to is suffering at the hands of moids).

As time passes and you mature into this lifestyle you can tell who's new and who's got skin in the game. I wont elaborate here as it'll digress and this note is long as is but those who know; know.

There's so much work to be done it'll last a lifetime. This lifestyle ain't easy. It strays from the norm so the typical guardrails that come with traditional options are out of the picture. The good news is that you can spend time crafting your own blueprint to follow or share with others who are willing. There's such little in terms of infrastructure & resources for single childfree women and yeah xys will likely try to destroy these things but at the same time if it can be done go for it and bear xy threat in mind we gotta start somewhere.

A purpose/guide is important. It's something that's going to guide your life through the ups and downs because it wont be a smooth ride but it'll be something that can make you in situations that break you. This isn't a "fuck you" to moids directly, it's about ourselves. Seeing this lifestyle as some type of "gotcha" against moids will only make things harder and lowkey misses the point of decentering them. I have my reasons for never getting married or having children that are solid (if you need inspiration checkout r/breakingmom on reddit). True comes from seeing something as bigger than yourself; find a purpose in this line of life to keep you going.

Invest in yourself. Personally, financially, etc. Pretty obvious but especially now that you're going to be more alone you need to be able to count on yourself more. With enough investment it can help other women too.

Invest in female network. No gyn is an island. Even though I'm not much of a social person the friends I have make my life better; they've been supportive but also honest. Also support female centric spaces online & offline; they're all that we have lest we be banished to the silo prison of the "nuclear family" or exploitative misogynistic communities.

Get comfortable disassociating/cutting people off. If you want to survive some things/people will simply just have to go.

You arent owed anything from other women, but you dont owe them anything either. The operating word here is owed, I aint saying women shouldn't help each other - I'm saying dont feel entitled. The feminist "girls support girls" schtick is bullshit. We're in a cold world full of ruthless oppression where everyone is just trying to survive however they can; in many cases it helps women survive when they turn on other women instead of on moids. Solidarity works because those who have solidarity politically speaking are people with power, it works in their interest to stand & work together as to keep + maintain their privileges in society so there wont be much female solidarity as in many cases it's not worth it to women long run. It aint right but that's how they perceive it so watch your back.

Everything is political. Always remember this. Many (privileged) people try to downplay politics & its effect but it runs our world which is why they want you blind to it. Pay attention.

There's merit to being around like-minded women even if it's just online. Like I said before it gets lonely. Very few women are willing to face & accept the truth about maIes. Being around like-minded women can be depressing sometimes as they drop blackpills bitter than you can initially handle but at least you dont feel so isolated/crazy.

[opiopal]

Are we sure demons are even mammals? Their human forms are for hiding among humans, so they might not have the less obvious functions. We know Lucifer had 12 wings, but his angel form only shows six, implying that that is at least one more "truer" form, which could also be the case with demons. The truest form of a native demon might use an alternate method to feed their young.

this actually got me thinking more about it, so I started to think about their demon forms since that would probably give more answers,

so lucifer and mammon are birds, peacock and crow, so they would tend to eggs, so no need for breast feeding birds

levi is a serpent, yes there is sea life that are mammals, but sea snakes are def not one of them, so fertilizing eggs in bunches doesn't require breasts even after hatching.

asmo is a scorpion, I have NO CLUE how scorpions work when it comes to their young but i know for a fact that anything with an exoskeleton.. most of the time isn't a mammal. so again, eggs.

and beel is a bug, I forget if its fact that hes a cicada? thats just what I remember, and cicadas arent mammals so again, eggs

now i tried to search for what satan is since its really unclear(at least to me), if he was a bird like his dadmom then he would probably have wings, but he IS wing. and when I searched I was told unicorn and wolf(ofc his rebel teen emo ass would be a wolf) and obviously belphie is a goat/cow thing, so technically the anti lucifer league should be mammals just going off of their demon forms,

but again no nipples, belphie makes sense cause again, former angel, popped into existance, no mommy for him, but satan was born from lucifer.. technically organically...? (still cant believe mpreg basically happened) but lucifer probably was never intended to have kids from his own body so no nipples, and again satan came from wings, which yeah would all make sense, but then again I circle back to Dia

he's a dragon, yet was born not from an egg, but as a result of a live birth. which resulted in his mother passing away. so I'm still going strong on my dia's not a full demon theory(maybe royal blood makes him appear to be a pure demon?)

and I can also imagine that demons dont have a big powerful form like a "be not afraid" angel does, so lucifer and the brothers prolly had a down grade in the scary physical form factor. prolly another layer to their punishments. (ofc demons still prolly have a big scary demon form, just not as big as a flaming swords with wings and eyes and a booming voice)

and going onto other demons, I can imagine reproduction is very diverse in the devildom. demons who are more reptilian, demons that are birds, cold blooded creatures, anything that wouldn't give live birth would lay eggs, do silly little dances to attract mates, look pretty to attract mates, ect. and obviously demons that are goats, cows, deer, cat, dog, would give live birth. so maybe nipples with demons are like freckles? some people have them and other people just dont.

BUT, then again, demons could have only 1-2 animals that relate to their sin, demons of Greed could be crows and foxes, envy is snakes and sea creatures, ect. but then again mephisto is a thing, and he's a demon of pride, so that would make him a peacock like lucifer, but with a lack of a canon demon form its hard to say, but mephisto already shares a hairstyle and boyfriend with lucifer so it would just be mean to have him share even more with him. but than again he could also be a lion? but I dont think that would fit that little gay rich boy at all. But I think it would just be more interesting if a demons form isn't always directly related to their sin so they can be any animal.

all in all, the only thing I think I could come to a conclusion with is that angels aren't mammals. and ofc they wouldnt gain nipples after becoming demons cause how odd would that be? "NOO MY SISTERS DEAD AND IVE BEEN CAST DOWN TO HELL- what are those things on my chest." and with demons it could probably vary from being mammals and not being mammals. but I could imagine its like, 80% of the devildom lays eggs and the other 20% doesnt. but all in all I think demons can do either or, it just depends on what they want to do, get freaky and then give birth or lay an egg and sit on it till it hatches, but I'm sure no demon would willingly give birth if they had the option to just pop out an egg.

or maybe its just my crack theory, two demons kiss and get freaky then 9 months later a baby pops out of thin air, magic baby!

[bawmbo]

hi. decided that i can probably ramble a little bit in general here

i realize that theres not a lot of content revolving around the star sanses (and no jab and nightmare and the crew, all of them are interesting characters in their own respects, both together and separately) but. id say so for the stars too

i want to introduce the concept of cross joins the stars too. obviously take my character readings with a hint of salt because some of it is a personal twist on how i see the characters and i wont ever be able to recreate them as accurately as their creators do but imo cross doesnt seem like the guy to want to further havoc across the multiverse or bend to every one of nightmares whims. i think that would drive both of them up the wall

but say ink takes in cross, or dream, or blue finds him and drags him home. their roles are pretty interchangeable in that scenario. dragging home a grumpy cat, he doesnt want to be there. not at all. but everyone has food and water and theyre learning to respect his space and quickly cross realizes hes been kidnapped into a team of idiots that hes now having to call friends that are widely known and trusted as the guardians of this multiverse. great

they all anchor each other nicely in personality and battle. dream and ink struggle with similar feelings, though not directly the same, but having to be tied to a job and a one-dimensional purpose; not feeling as though they belong in any specific space (not feeling connected to the people around them for very different reasons, but otherwise not validating their humanity). both of them disagree on the end solution, "everyone needs to be saved and i want everyone to be happy" versus "not everyone can be saved for this to continue." imo creators and nim, whatever they have going on, can be really easily tied into some religious metaphors or trauma but i digress

blue can be a nice middle ground of either. he holds a more realistic view of it and has to completely reconstruct his world view after being taken out of his timeline. its scary fighting battles when your other two teammates are functionally immortal (with minor exceptions) and you are very aware of your mortality and where your feet are in battle. they love you and respect you just as much but everyone is scared for the day that you actually bite the dust. some people have the misconception that youre actually immortal when they havent heard of you. and adding cross in on it is so much better for relatability, for schedule and stability. is it selfish to be scared to die first? theres so much more going for you.

i have so much to say about dream as a character in general but i will be quiet. for two seconds to continue

cross and ink are horrible at the emotional aspects of battle de-escalation, both can be blunt and mocking or cruel. they can be jerks but usually accidentally. so dream and blue handle the emotional aspects and its easier

but dream and blue arent so good at being mean immediately and cross can put his foot down really easily.

all of them could be really close with each other. dream and ink can start off rocky and everyone in that group can annoy each other but id argue that they can be very close. i think the harsh affects of being widely idolized or demonized / the general public having such a polarized view on you would be interesting to explore too. how would it affect their personal relationships? people dont let nightmare and his crew just waltz around their house, how do they feel about the stars? are they angry they cant save everyone? are they happy they do their jobs? they dont know everything about them. and the stars are at most just 4 people out of thousands and thousands of people who could potentially need saving. i think even in a lighthearted way, a lot of the dynamics in that group could be really interesting if it was explored. isnt it funny to imagine seeing the multiverses widest known heroes wearing cat pajamas and doing summersaults for fun over park benches, playing respective instruments in the center of the city block? oh look at those guys. theyre actually just a little more eccentric than normal people. and now theyre playing uno and now theyre taking random arm wrestling requests from strangers. one of inks dads is a clown and there he is dressed up as one. hes also the local tailor. blue is devastated watching as his brother who no one ever sees is dragging an entire pallet of honey away that he was just putting down.

anyways i love writing and i think a lot of characters have a lot of writing potential. theres so many scenarios to put them in and i want to explore how everything they have to go through affects them

[rambling-crerchur]

(anon)

PT stans, what is your definition of Stalking? genuinely asking.

Blog, Thetepes, what is your definition of stalking? its a good idea to know what each ''side'' is talking about for things that can have range in definition

(saw your other anon, I know you're referring to me np)

I'm just going to define what I mean by two terms, stalking and also harrassment since thats what all the angry Patricia fans accuse me of

When I say harrassment, I most often mean directly insulting or attacking someone in a way that is meant to be noticed by them. This could be done via reblogs, asks, messages or anons. Now harrassment can also be defaming, insulting or spreading missinformation about someone over posts/asks/anons that arent neccessarily made to be seen.

Now I know that this is where all the Patricia stans will jump out of the woodwork and accuse me of harrassment by definition. However, I am not spreading missinformation. I very clearly go off what Patricia herself says and always provide screenshots. Its not my fault Patricia said being abused and having weird notions is part of being queer/autistic, and me saying that she did with screenshots clearly showing she did isnt harrassment.

Now, stalking in my personal opinion would be commenting on literally everything Patricia says, digging into and dissecting even her smallest comments, keeping track of any of her online activities or changes to her account, that sort of thing. Again, I'm not doing that. I only talk about what she's saying when its a post directly related to the discourse. I dont dissect her posts about tetris to make some grand statement about her as a person. That would be stalker behaviour.

I know this wont get the angry anons to stop yelling "Stalker! Harrassment!", but I felt like anon here deserved a thourough answer, and so that anyone else knows what I consider stalking and harrassment, since these terms are often thrown around in crit spaces.

All of what I just said applies to my coverage of Lily Orchard/CD-Call as well.

[sacredfang]

Hello! I’ve been making a game and wanted to make a character with npd to mix up the character dynamics. The thing is, as you probably know, npd is so stigmatized, which means it’s literally impossible for me to research. So, if possible, I would like to hear some of your experiences with npd (how it makes you think and behave, that type of thing). If you don’t want to answer, feel free to ignore this.

its kind of hard to explain but i can try my best QvQ!

its pretty self explanatory! i do objectively tend to think i am above people when first meeting them. the only people i truly feel are my equals are my very good friends and partners! bit beyond that, even other friends im not as close with, i believe i, and my friends, are better then them. not even necessarily in a malicious way. its subconscious

i do get envious and jealous quite frequently. over someone elses success, their talent, their clothes, or even them getting the attention from someone I want that attention from. obviously it can range, but jealously is fairly prominent in my life. however i usually dont let it impact how i act and treat others. im aware a lot of my jealously is irrational so i dont let it guide me. i also HATE the fact i get jealous. like. im above jealously?? im too good for that??

i tend to believe i am the priority in peoples lives. that i deserve their #1 spot of love and admiration. im objectively very self centered. but despite this, i do attempt to put people i care about first. it may be first instinct to put myself first, but ive learned that in some cases its important to give others more attention, especially if i truly care about them.

punches to the ego are never fun. even small comments that arent meant to be taken seriously could feel like a personal attack. like someone just offended my entire bloodline. especially when it comes to losing a game or an argument. ive found that when people insult my sense of morality it can easily cause me to crash. a lot of my pride is put into being a good person, its what makes me so confident im as good as i am! so when someone implies or even directly states they think i was in the wrong or that im not a good person, i loose my marbles. specifically when i believe im in the right. if i can see a mistake and agree i did something wrong thats different, but when i think my slate is clean, i take full offense to those accusations. i ESPECIALLY cant stand being spoken down to or patronized. that shit drives me INSANE

i also hate being wrong. or proven wrong. or people acting like im wrong. it makes me want to claw a wall. this also applies to positive things! like, for example, if i tell my friend i think theyre pretty and awesome, and they deny it, i get PISSED. like. are you telling me im WRONG? YOURE BEAUTIFUL

and of course i struggle with empathy. i can be compassionate, caring, kind, and sympathetic, but empthy is out the window. i struggle to connect with certain troubles or feelings someone is facing because i cant ever understand how they feel in that moment. objectively, i could understand why they are upset, but i can not relate to those emotions. an internal reaction i often have is thinking theyre over reacting, or that they need to suck it up. even if i know thats not really true.

overall, im very self centered. im low empathy, quickly irritable, i hate being vulnerable, i yearn for admiration, i dont like being looked down, i tend to talk over others, jealous easily, overconfident, fantasize about power and sucess, believe im special, im pretty, who wouldnt love me? and when my sense of pride is hit, i crumble. its easy to split on someone if they are apart of it, even accidentally. and grudges are upsettingly frequent aswell

i try to be private about my personal life. i hate when people know too mucu about me. what if they used it against me? what if they think im weaker than i am? or the ideal version of myself ive created to be viewed is shattered?

however i can be very open and affectionate to my friends and partners (the fear above is still ever present though) the only person i trust fully with my feelings is my best friend who Also probably has npd. so. but i HATE pda.. unless its me. im allowed to do it. but if anyone else does it im fully of hate

i can love. i can kiss i can hold with ease, but when i love it feels suffocating. i feel like i need to tear my partner open and make him hurt just so he knows how much i love him. existing without him is like being deprived of air. he is my equal and he is everything. and i dont want him to treat anyone else like he does me, becuase i am HIS partner and he is MINE. no one else gets that treatement. im downright obsessivive lowkey (highkey)

i also struggle to fathom the concept of people disliking me. if they dislike me then fuck i dislike them too! tf! they can go die!

in the past ive had a few cases of demonizing people to give myself a reason to dislike them or to ditch them. especially after theyve upset me. these days im pretty good at communicating when im upset and fix it, but when i was younger i would just place the blame on their shoulders and book it. not my proudest era

ive learned to handle these traits fairly well with common sense and consideration. i may not have empathy but i still care about being a good person. so even when its instinct to think one way, i force myself to rationalize. to go "Well. No actually you arent the most important person in the world. idiot." so i can keep my shit together lmfao. i care too much about people (and my morals) to let myself fall into my urges and irrational thoughts. i always do my best to approach criticism with an open mind, and id say i do pretty well at it!

ive also found that due to this, i get really anxious at the idea of people being aware of my npd. being aware that i think this way. knowing that they very well could change their opinions of me based off this one fact. its freaky as hell

im sorry if this doesnt make a lot of sense. im the worst lol

[milfygerard]

I'm like Joe nuetral and kinda annoyed how often people talk about him in uncalled for rude ways and was very open to the idea of a lot of songs on TS11 being like "dude you knew what you signed up for" about Joe on the record but that was not the plan and he's not the main muse anymore. Clearly. Not saying he won't get another song again ever but he's like not a frequent thought in her head clearly. She's too busy having a great career and getting to know her new boyfriend!

honestly im someone whose kind of annoyed with all relationship talk if it isnt directly related to her music (or at least entertainingly hot gossip) so i heavily sympathize. Joe is another muse who while she was clearly angry and sad about him she was honestly relatively kind to. She paints their rs as two people who felt like soulmates for awhile, and then felt comfortable, and then something broke that they were trying to repair, and by the end they felt more shackled together as the rs died a slow sad ugly death. This was an observable arc i noticed during folklore and only grew more obvious with each project released until we got midnights 3am and i was convinced they were already broken up and were holding off announcing it (i love being RIGHT and VINDICATED) and by ttpd its like she barely had the energy to be mad. I think a lot of the impact of matty was runoff anger that she didnt feel she could really articulate or find the will to express with the songs very directly about joe. The songs joe get (how did it end?, ilipw, even so long london) all feel more drenched in an almost confused sadness compared to the sharp emotions of the songs that arent or are only partly about him (the black dog, ttpd, smallest man).

but yeah i repeat: leave the guy alone! Yall know my opinions on travis but she seems happy right now and after such a miserable few years on her end i hope she savors it and continues moving forward and i hope joe gets to be the b-c list mostly indie actor that he clearly realized he wanted to be at some point during their relationship.