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Before I sleep here’s Nightwatch Nightmare (Atrophy) Ref sheet

I changed his outfit because the browns made it a little to hard to look at so I gave him a white suit. I don’t want to reveal too much about him but he’s probably my favourite character. I love him/neg

King of his own hellscape, and parasite of resting souls. <3

Goodnight

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OMG!! Love your nightwatcher au!! I love it when people make a different take on the multiverse mechanics, so the characters change with them. I’m SO looking forward to the comic!! Also, I have a question; what kind of parent is Error? I saw that he’s the one that raised Pj and Gradient, instead of Ink. I found that really interesting, and I honestly have no idea how that would work lol. Thank you guys for the art!! Don’t forget to rest!!

Ah Nightwatch Error

when the creators divine punished him and ink with two kids, Error immediately nabbed them. Ink was paralyzed from the divine intervention because it took out all his active magic, Dream found him and gave him his vials- so they eventually caught up with Error and the kids. This created an issue,

1) Error liked them because they were cute and looked like him

2) Ink did not want them but also didt think Error destroying the multiverse and raising kids would be healthy for their development

Ink argued that if error was too busy with his “hobby” of destruction, he won’t be able to be present, error was surprisingly understanding of it.

So they came to a truce: As long as the children are alive Error will be “temporarily retired” from destruction and instead focus on parenting, in exchange for keeping them Ink will continuously supply error with all necessities. (Little does Error know the children are immortal, this was tactical for Ink to keep him out of his way forever)

Error goes onto raise these kids for 12 years at the beginning of night watch, his idea of parenting comes from whatever he watches on tv (grand gestures, he dresses like a stereotypical father, he takes his kids on fishing trips, is grilling 24/7) he even got a job because all fathers he saw on the tv have a job. It was hard to get one since he’s a corrupted and a level 0 citizen- only one establishment would allow hiring him and it is a shitty pizza establishment (Friday Freshtastic Pizza) ran by his least favourite person ever (Fresh). It’s clowned themed.

At work he’s has to dress as his child entertainer clownsona “don’t touch me I don’t like you” and at home in the void he tries his best as a dad. He’s not perfect- he’s possessive and helicoptery but he does try his best. He’s definitely not a main character but a reoccurring side character. His two stupid kids love him.

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i dont have art but i have fun facts that i wont clarify if are canon or not. this is memorys theme (more accurately probably just its ring tone for everything. alarms. calls.)

@thaltro tagging you for the dumbass even though i could dm you

waddle on

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i love you and playing morning flower

i dont have art but i have fun facts that i wont clarify if are canon or not. this is memorys theme (more accurately probably just its ring tone for everything. alarms. calls.)

@thaltro tagging you for the dumbass even though i could dm you

waddle on

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i dont have art but i have fun facts that i wont clarify if are canon or not. this is memorys theme (more accurately probably just its ring tone for everything. alarms. calls.)

@thaltro tagging you for the dumbass even though i could dm you

waddle on

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memory was not written as a character with autism in mind but ended up having a lot of our own traits / experiences, and struggles with it in the end. i can also further elaborate on them 🙂

also hi i love you. im dissolving you in acid

Is anyone in nightwatch au autistic by any chance👀?

Yes purposely written autistic and accidentally coded

Psych, Ink, Dr Blue (swap sans), and Error are intentionally wrote as autistic by me Which looks like a lot but theres a lot of characters (most the ship kids too because they are related to ink and error)

Memory is mostly written by the demented fucking pig @bawmbo and from what I know he was accidentally written autistic but the author is comfortable with just calling him that

If people find other characters I wrote autistic that’s fair, because I too am I biased writer. \

Important note though! Those labels don’t exist in the scientific community in nightwatch.

Human scientific discovery isn’t equal to monster discovery! Monster scientific discovery has evolved around magic, and in their modern era the discovery of codes. Most undertale societies are at a scientific point where they identify code abnormalities within the soul.

The most recent discovery is the mind, an additional part of the soul that holds more specified codes. Studying the mind has been very very new with the first experiment Project Psychology to the newest research like the Manual of Corruption. Also monster minds are very different then human ones in general.

All this to say, while I do purposely write characters to be coded autistic, it won’t be said or identified as autism in their world. Same goes for the characters who are coded with Npd, schizophrenia, bpd, adhd, ocd, udd, c-ptsd etc because I don’t really want my works to water down the human meaning of those disorders. (I also don’t want to use real labels so people don’t use and demonize those real disorders) I see people slap human disorders on characters without accurately portraying the symptoms, instead I’ll just portray the symptoms and that’s it. Maybe now and then I’ll say if I intentionally coded them but yeah.

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you're an amazing person keep up your good work <3

thank you 🙂 rapid fire cat attack

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Will your nightwatch au have any reimagining of how determination works, especially when it’s mixed with positivity, negativity, or void? Does it invert negativity/positivity by creating hope in despair and discontentment in happiness? Is it a force that resists the will of the creators/narrative (pro free will) or enforces it (anti free will)? If determination is amplified by the presence of negativity in order to ensure survival, can a determined character with negativity-based powers (not to assume what other ship kids may appear in the au or anything) with enough negativity going through their system doom spiral until the determination is tearing them apart at the seams?

(I have uh, been thinking about the logistics of this since mid 2018 don’t mind me)

Yes kinda - I’ll explain rn I medicalize a lot of concepts. I’ll also explain it inside the comic but here’s some minor stuff:

The main medical condition I focus on is “corruption”

In nightwatch, monsters bodies are incredibly vulnerable to foreign code. The most common example of this is getting sick, a monster absorbs a small viral bit of code, their body is overwhelmed and get symptoms of sickness, and eventually their body deals with the minor illness and everything is fine. But sometimes code changes can be too potent for a monster, creating chronic and sometimes terminal syndromes. This is what is called corruption.

Here are the three known corruptions (they are umbrella diagnoses)

Substance corruption:

substance corruption is the most common, (think nightmare and geno)

A potent substance that shouldn’t be within a monster gets in a monster and overwhelms their code permanently. This is a big category holding many different syndromes but the one thing in common is their physical form literally breaking down.

Some examples could be monsters having human soul substance injected into them, wether it be kindness or determination their bodies will be corroded slowly from the overwhelming code substance. Nightmare eating the apples count too, it’s code being too potent and quickly destroying his entire body.

This can be slowed down with treatment, reversion therapy is one but substance blockers are an alternative.

Void corruption:

Void corruption is rare, (think error, blue error, or fatal error)

When a entity is exposed to the Voids for too long, they may go through a slow process of void corruption. starting with sickness, then symptoms of confusion and amnesia, and lastly physical changes. The most identifiable trait is their final physical appearance, changes in color, additional limbs, open code numbers on anatomy, and glitching.

Their code gets randomized, new traits are gained and old traits are lost. Chronic pain, paranoia, hallucinations, delusional obsessions, and emotional instability are all caused by the distortion of their mind (and isolation of the void)

Treatment is difficult as a majority of patients show hostility to medical intervention. However reversion therapy is theorized to be affective for treating the patients.

Passive corruption:

Passive corruption is less common then substance but more common then void (think cross and killer)

When a conscious entity purposely changes another’s code. The victim goes through periods where they loose autonomy to the entity’s influence. The symptoms vary because it’s up to the foreign entity’s desire but it’s possible to see a change in voice, physical appearance, mental stability, and magical capabilities within the victim. The most well known example in the fandom is overwriting someone, but killer being controlled and reworked by the player is also passive corruption.

Reversion therapy and substance blockers work affectively as treatment.

Additional notes:

A monster can inhibit more then one category. For example, killer while gaining the substance of determination through passive corruption, would technically have both substance corruption and passive corruption.

This is a huge concept in nightwatch. There’s many additional elements like the specific affects of human soul substance, but i fear that would be too much of a rant from me.

Human traits are a medical thing in nightwatch, monsters cannot naturally have human substance, but can gain it through corruption. It’s not a trait of personality or belief or emotion.

It would be difficult to quantify and explain how human traits connect with feelings even within humans themselves, all systems I’ve seen do that don’t really make sense to me (cough glitchtale) so I made it a medical thingy. I’m not too sure if this is the answer you wanted but I tried.

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Last post on the issue as I don’t like discourse

I love trans cross. We need more trans utmv characters 🏳️‍⚧️

Yeah that’s hard my stance, I’m just sad to see that there’s transphobia in the fandom. But I guess I shouldn’t expect anything differently, it’s the internet.

it’s odd tho, imagine liking something that originated from Toby fox and being transphobic, he has so many trans n gay characters.

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to put the previous post shortly, this

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hey, okay so ive been thinking about this one a lot. i want to emphasize before i post anything here this is not meant to attack op, but function as a means for me to express my opinions over it and discuss with others if wanted. and while i am not a very big account, if i find out that any of my followers harass anyone over this, this post will be taken down. please behave ty

i am the (relatively new est. few months or so) host of a transmasc did system (and should go without saying but i will add, cptsd, depression) so i think i have some unique perspective on this.

all of it will be under cut for the sake of not completely clogging up my blog because i talk a lot

i. transgender codedness and headcanons

i want to start with, "the arguments for headcanons of this kind were quite remarkabe, and in particular far-fetched; ... (1)" and the idea that, "headcanons on religion, gender, orientation, etc. should be very careful, detailed, and canonically close. (2)" and because this discussion is about gender and mental health, i will be focusing on that strictly.

(1) - "the arguments for headcanons of this kind were quite remarkabe, and in particular far-fetched; ... (1)" - while it could be confusing where it comes from, as stated before, cross is probably one of the best and clear trans coded characters i have seen made in the public utmv as it exists at the moment. and while a lot of his reactions blend into trauma, it does not negate the fact that trauma and trans identities can co exist and affect how one may react to the sort of feeling it invokes to have your identity disrespected; see: being called sans instead of cross.

though it isnt entirely just because of his reactions - his feeling of disconnection from a normalized "whole" of what hes supposed to be and what he actually is is trans coded. and while i havent read the xtale comics or watched the most recent underverse episode, we see aspects of ourselves in his behaviors; in being hypersensitive (and while not a feminine trait, there are (frankly fucked) gender 'roles' and 'rules' that made us believe it was - our father telling us "girls are just more emotional" - but i could get into gender roles and that kinda stuff and rant about it forever. still want to emphasize that anyone can feel anything but looking at this from the lens of how society views gender versus how i do lmao), in being rowdy, in being in the royal guard, in behaviors that we were described as "tom boys" with. and his blasters a girl, and everything in relation to him is queer. this is all from memory and im sure if i looked up more about him id be able to pull more, but it goes to say everyone has their reasons beyond "cross is transgender because he does not want to admit that he is one of the sanses." - and imo, thats a fair enough reason alone

(2) - "headcanons on religion, gender, orientation, etc. should be very careful, detailed, and canonically close. (2)" - i believe that certain headcanons, to a degree, should be handled with care to not further very harmful stereotypes. theres a lot of gray area to it, but i want to speak specifically about gender, where i believe there should be less strictness on it.

disregarding the fact that its confirmed, canonically, that cross is trans coded - i believe that gender orientation headcanons should not have to be restricted to the rules of "canonically close." thats what headcanons can be. not close at all. and while mischaracterizations are an entirely different semi-frustrating topic for me, but as a transmasc being and a writer, i loooove love love seeing people headcanon characters, especially my characters, as different genders. like idk, dr. blue is an incredibly cis man in my head. you see yourself in his experience? you wanna headcanon him as transneu puppygender? maybe transfem or transmasc? maybe fully a transman? perhaps to you he is aroace, and maybe hes bisexual, and maybe hes some incredibly obscure label i dont even know yet. he can be polyamorous. by all means, go ahead. it doesnt closely align with his canon but it doesnt harm anyone at all.

this section is more so my opinions if anything but i still wanted to get that out there: it is not harmful

and i dont vocally address half of the things said in the slideshow against it, but again; trauma and transness can and do co exist, and there is no harm in imposing labels onto characters that you see yourself in. this is how a lot of people empathize and connect with characters. this is, intentionally or not, how representation can be made.

ravenpaw and barley from warrior cats are not explicitly stated as gay characters, and are coded to be, and a little kid may see that and finally be understood by a character. ink and fresh are autism coded, and not explicitly stated to have autism, but that meant that in a world where no one would listen and understand our hardships, we at least felt seen and a little bit more comforted knowing that our favorite characters were just like us. the same can be said about dream, nightmare, and religious / parental trauma.

ii. PTSD, DID, and mental health

"cross' approximate diagnoses include PTSD, dissociative identity disorder, depression, or extreme aggression."

"after all, he goes crazy about his past, blames himself for everything, he has many triggers, he does not control his emotions and especially anger, he is ready to do anything to fulfill his desires. He loses himself because a whole multiverse opens up before him, everyone does not tell him something and lies. Many use him and harm him. From which he develops all the listed states."

to circle back to harmful headcanons - i want to focus solely on my experiences with being a system and ableism. i want to reiterate i am by no means a professional and this is speaking strictly personally

i feel that did is something that you should be very careful with headcanoning, as mental health and gender, while can affect presentations of each other, are very separate and treated differently.

did is often very demonized, very mocked, not taken seriously. you may see the movie split, and we had actually been asked at some point if being a system was "like (split) that movie". we were formerly in a relationship before the host change where i was kinda the equivalent of "the evil alter" and every time i fronted i was met with hostility and ableism (physically disabled as well). our other protector was also treated pretty badly and he actually puts in the effort to be a bit nicer lmao. but still. despite my efforts of being kind or sharing the energy, it was just me. and that isnt even the first person who saw me this way, and im not the first alter to be demonized for just doing my job. and to this is just me saying that i dont really know if theres been much progress in education towards the public of this disorder lol

and while, yes, cross has childhood trauma and identity problems, i dont think he really exhibits anything like it? the closest youll get to showing an "alter" is when he is, quite literally, being possessed by xchara. and while i can joke about experiencing fighting for front to being fighting for my body against possession by a ravenous 7 year old, it doesnt actually translate.

when the only applicable alter wants to murder people, i think you get into some iffy territory over whether or not you should claim it as the disorder thats kinda commonly portrayed as "my evil werewolf alter ego who wants me to kill people disorder." and sure, some alters will want to cause harm, and i think that that should be addressed, but it is very harmful if thats the only thing being shown about it. i also think that that should be addressed very carefully due to the aforementioned demonization and misrepresentation already. and they are very literally separate people

cptsd is closest. he does not want to be connected to his past, hes constantly running to find himself, hes attempting to make a new identity for himself. hes incredibly hurt and reactive to everything around him, its all bite and little room for barking. but hes consistent. the point is, hes always been cross. he always will be cross. he will never be sans, he will never be what they thought of him to be, and if he has to spell that out in a near death battle to hammer the point in then so be it. and the way he is so angry about how they disrespect his identity feels like all of the scenarios id imagine yelling to my parents about, "im a boy, im a boy. im your son. call me (not even my name). call me the name we told you we were. i am not your little girl" that will never happen.

sure, he has extreme aggression, and its on par to say that he probably has depression alongside it. but DID, not at all. thats one whole guy. he lacks any real key details about the disorder, especially alters

"he is so worried about his name and his originality because he is afraid of being lost among a thousand copies, and his name was the first thing that distinguished him in the crowd."

all sanses are called by something different (swap/blue, fell/red, ink, error, geno) it would have been no worry for anyone in the multiverse to adjust to - but his family. who refuses to accept that he wants his own autonomy. that he wants to have the freedom to be who he is. that he isnt like the thousands that came before him and the hundreds more that will come after. the fact that he is so concerned with his name and the fact that it was always a key part of his character, only to be confirmed as a trans coded thing is more than likely intentional. from a writers standpoint whose also writing a character whose transness and trauma are intertwined and incredibly important to each other.

also some extra notes,: cross isnt incredibly dissociative. he is shown to be incredibly hypervigilant of his surroundings, connected and key to everything. he doesnt really show signs of even derealization, emotional amnesia, amnesia in general tbh, etc., this all goes to say that i also think the post is very poorly worded and ptsd is also demonized. but i am just going to assume it was meant with good intentions. i could be nit picky about wording whenever. but it does read as ableist and transphobic

extra extra side note. creators can just do whatever they want with their characters. even if it wasnt intended and she realized that "hey, actually this is kinda trans coded" and decided to make it canon on a whim, then who cares. its actually super cool when creators make popular headcanons canon because it adds to their story and fits in well

anyways ill stop yapping for five hours. i am not proof reading it idk if its coherent. i just like talking

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i love it so much i love it so much thank you so much 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂 mousemory memouse infestation

You brain wormed me, I was so board in math. All I could think was wet rat 😭😭

Holy shit @bawmbo will love this. The rat does seem to infest my subconscious i understand it’s a serious concern

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go go go go go go go go go go go go go go go go go go go

🫶🏽Commission update! All slots are refreshed! And new option!

I like making reference sheets so I’m willing to take on them as commissions! I’m good to redesign or just make of sheets. I’m currently working one commission but I’d be happy to do more! (I really need the money 😭)

The commission comes with:

📀2 fully rendered drawings

💿1-3 mini doodles

�� 2 back view and front view of design

At minimum that’s a page of 5 drawings for an oc of your choice! Just for 80 bucks

on a personal note I’m really trying to get my commissions out there because I’m physically disabled and can’t get entry jobs so I got no moneys. Most entry jobs don’t hire workers with mobility aids because you need two hands to carry stuff. (Guilt trips you, guilt trips you, guilt trips you😈 /j) I’ll probably start a Patreon when I get nightwatch out and my animatics because I really really need income. Donations are nice too but no pressure.

But yes thank you for the support genuinely, all my commissioners have been really helpful so far 🫶🏽

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i can confirm yeah theyre a slimy wet cat thing. at some point there was a description of "demented cephalopod" thats pretty accurate for her too. lots of fleas for a while fhahaha

i love you so much. and thank you for keeping its devastating wardrobe canon. thank you for pathetic memouse

SLIMY WET RAT???? thats so meeeaaaannnnnn!!

I’m quite mean to him

I love Memphis Tennessee he’s my favourite sans. @bawmbo

He’s more cat like to be honest but I’d like to keep him in a cage like a rat. Give her a wheel, mabe a salt lick

Unfortunately a main character in nightwatch, haven’t posted her character sheet yet but I will. He’s just hard to draw

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i love you i love you. i accidentally reblogged on the wrong account. yes thats the smelly wet rare blue opossum rat thing. it will be ground into an applesauce like paste soon

this is so beautiful

Here’s a sample of some Nightwatch background art I use. Featuring the smelly wet rat memory

this is the cliff of the atomization void, resides on the edge of the multiverse. Falling in will result in atomization, the process of code being broken down and recycled back into the multiverse. That’s how the lush forests surrounding it exist, as they feed off of the dead universes that get sucked into the fog below.

Anyways this is where psych was born (not really born), the atomization magic is what allows him to revert others. And also there is a blue thing in the image, it doesn’t do much besides producing blue (as you can see in the image) I think it’s name is memory idk I forgot.

Progress is going well on Nightwatch

Go follow @bawmbo if you like the magic blue possum

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Finished a cherryberry commission! Echo flowers 🪻

This belongs to @swapbibi !!!

thank you for commissioning me :D

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Finished a cherryberry commission! Echo flowers 🪻

This belongs to @swapbibi !!!

thank you for commissioning me :D