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when i think about hanamiya makoto, i think what i respect most is the sheer pragmaticism.
like oh, you entered a field of high school basketball players who seemingly have superpowers? well if you break their legs... what type of superpower is gonna help them?
#makoto hanamiya#i know it's probably awful for me to say#but because everyone just has some supercool type shit... and makoto's thing is merely ''analyze the positions of the entire field''#i think he deserves to get a (literal) leg up in front of the race#i love him so much and i understand that what he did is fucked up but#i really admire his quick thinking and creative approach#as in creativity = violence#and i always admire a person who takes shortcuts to get ahead#even if i understand they're EVIL - i wish i could have that kind of disregard towards others to make my life even a bit better#he's deeply egotistical and goal-driven and i wish i had just a smidgeon of that myself#girlbossing his way out of obscurity towards a prison sentence? you go you go you go#at least you have a goal
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there are a lot of evil people in the world and a lot of darkness in the world and so itâs very important for me to stress that now more than ever is the time to spread kindness and compassion. combat the evil by not only not partaking in it, but actively refuting it. destroy the notion that being compassionate or generous or kind to someone is uncool or embarrassing or even scary. be the change you want to see. start a chain reaction. positivity only breeds more positivity. do an act of kindness for someone so that that person who is too afraid to do it themselves can see you, realize that theyâre not alone, and perhaps sheepishly follow your example. and then the next person who is too afraid but sees that person can do the same. when bad news comes out about bad people or horrible atrocities in the world itâs such an easy impulse to despair, and obviously itâs important to feel what you need to feel. grieve. be angry. be sorrowful. be empathetic. but dust off your pants and get up and be a part of a chain reaction that, no matter how small the scale, and spread compassion and love and care. all the reasons why you might notââitâs hard! itâs scary! people will make fun of me! itâs useless because thereâs too much evil!â are all grade A arguments as to why you should. you have no idea how many people you could inspire to do the same. even if it doesnât get you anyway far, you can at least say you have the nobility of trying. please choose love and please choose life. you are worth loving and you are worth inspiring others to love
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#jiang cheng#While listening to the Lotus Seed extra I was like 'aw this art is so cute.'#Post The Fanfic Fiasco (re: last comic's tags) I am haunted by the green orbs. WWX has a bag of edible green orbs and I am in hell.#First draft of this comic's script has JC saying 'dude you wouldn't even share with me!' and I love his little sibling indignation.#Middle child power is knowing that you don't have to share with your siblings. The little wet eyes and weak hand slaps do NOTHING.#JC probably already ate all of his lotus seeds. That's on you dude!#Part of me wants to get deeper with the metaphor of the lotus seeds here. It is a gesture of a certain kind of affection.#JYL gives something to WWX she does not quite share with JC. And WWX in turn gives something to LWJ he does not share with JC.#Really puts JC's line 'You're always eating...eating eating' into a very different light.#There are other kinds of starving besides hunger. There are other ways to be a glutton than just food and drink.#WWX's character pre-burial mounds is heavily focused on 'Indulgence'. Be it wine or flirting or hunting or eating-#-or receiving admiration; He is always indulging in ways we never see JC do.#I think the intentional contrast was with the Lan's 'Live simple and without indulgence' lifestyle. LWJ is the abstainer to wwx's gluttony.#But it does expand to JC as well! Both are locked into the role model position to have friction against WWX's apparent freedom.#I think LWJ and JC (at this point) see WWX as something they both want (in different capacities) and someone they want to be.#Yet despite the history between them it is not JC who WWX reaches out to. It's LWJ.#The boy already has an inferiority complex! Stop making it accidently worse!
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haha hey so apparently someone stole my whole fic... copy and pasted except for tiny things changed... here is the link to their """fic""" (sorry random person I had to steal the reblog from). they've since deleted the fic off their blog + deleted their ao3 + gone on a hiatus so..... that's cool and whatever....... but they have written a lot of other shit so... don't be a dick but maybe check that for funny business too...
#yall I am literally#I don't even know what to say LMFAO#their fic before they deleted it had more notes than mine....... like what.....#I've never had this happen before so I'm just.... in awe........#is leon similar to aki or something I don't know this man. who are you#it sucks so much too because that fic of mine#is probably my favorite fic I ever wrote#I poured so much love into it#so many little aspects of aki's character that I enjoyed fleshing out#and to just have it stolen#like if you stole a shitty drabble I wouldn't be as wounded but to steal 20k words of love.....#that's messed up man........#I'm laughing at this but also. crying inside a little#thank you to the person who told me about this because since they deleted it it would be really hard to know otherwise#yeah........... yeah.....
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i was supposed to post these ummm. whenever i did that poll eons ago. but then i didnt because i was â¤ď¸ shy â¤ď¸. so im dumping them all now
#not very pretty bc my cameras shite and i can only draw on notebook paper and i edit it different every time. but idc. take it or nothing#not tagging any of these characters. just some amalgamation of zoro zen genji and ocs#if u see this then its bc it was destiny. whatever dude#and if ive already posted any of these doodles before dont tell me i dont wanna know#anyways. all this to say i notice that ive been posting at least weekly this summer so thatll probably slow down now#im starting my 2nd yr of college and its really nerve wracking bc i had a really awful summer and past yr really#so unless i start posting more of my notebook doodles like this i MIGHT not post art as often as before#just a heads up#not on histus. just already tired and stressed and its only the first day#wtf... art#wtf... sketchbook
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I have a trauma head cannon for Will
but itâs kinda out of pocket
not even in the sense of âtrauma because siblings diedâ
like obviously I believe he has trauma from all of his siblings dying
but I also have another trauma head cannon for him, and likeâŚ
i dont even really know why or how my brain decided âyes, this is the trauma that he would haveâ
because itâs not influenced by the cannon AT ALL
and I want to make that VERY CLEAR
but because of that, Iâm not sure if I want to share it
:/
so if anyone wants to hear about my dark head cannon trauma for Will Solace that is NOT INFLUENCED BY THE TEXT WHAT SO EVER/srs
I guess interact with this? Idk
or just ignore me
Iâm brain dead
(Edit : I wrote the headcannon/fanfiction in a reblog of this post if anyone who finds this wants to read it, just fyi, it does get a bit intense and could be triggering for some people)
#will solace#will solace headcanon#im sorry if just me saying THIS and nothing else is infuriating to some people#Iâm just very hesitant cause this headcannon is just straight out of left field#I again donât know why my brain is like âah yes THIS makes sense that it would happen to himâ#I should probably just make a second post after this so people donât get angry#Anyway#william andrew solace#solangelo#My head cannon partially has something to do with Nico#Just in how Will handed his relationship with Nico after he gets his trauma#I am trash#i am awful#Sue me
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doodles
edgar vargas and squee by johnen vasquez
scriabin by zarla-s
#sunny's art#vargas#edgar vargas#vargas zarla#scriabin vargas#zarla s#scriabin#doodles#YOU THOUGHT YOU'D SEEN THE LAST OF ME . . . . !!!!#well HELLO !!!! I'M BACK !!!!!!!!#got a new brush . what do you think of it do you like it#okay i want to ramble about these wait a second#the first one looks a bit different to the rest because i was just trying new stuff .#if i spend a long time without drawing i'll forget how to draw and well it happened#i've changed my art style like 3 times now but i still draw side profiles the same . looks weird ugh#the mug says â JESUS loves me BECAUSE no one else will â btw . meta gave me the idea actually . thanks meta .#about the second one . finished that one like ten minutes ago . missed drawing todd aw#i just find their whole relationship so amusing .#like yes i went crazy for like a month and now i have a brother-husband and a kid ?!#they complement each other so well though . i love them#THE UNO ONE omg i've had that idea for like A YEAR NOW and i just drew it lol#i wonder how long it would take scriabin to notice though .#when i showed this to meta she said : â oh wow !! edgar's finally winning at something !! â and it's SO TRUE#wonder how he does it !#and the last one . i got the idea when i was looking through zarla's account searching for fan art .#love it so much though they look like their lives aren't a living hell#anyways i'll probably make more of these . who knows#going back to school on monday . and of course i had to get inspiration four days before going back .#please PLEASE I DON'T WANT TO GET BACK TO SCHOOL . PL#okay byeee enjoy these . eat my starved followers . EAT !!!!!
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"Him? Oh, you know, he's kind of a loser." - probably everyone except for his younger brother.
Germaine is based on the layer of hell (Dante's Inferno) for material wealth before self, others, and god. So basically very materialistic and possessive of his belongings. Unfortunately, his younger brother qualifies as a belonging in his mind. So he does his absolute best to keep his brother safe and sound and scratch free - which is a bit tough in a post apocalyptic setting but he mostly manages.
Also a fact I just like to mention: he is incapable of lying.
#my characters#germaine wellington#welp guess who watched an anime recently (its not complete) and the dad of the mc made em think of a loserman big brother oc#its me! correct! the dad just reminded me a bit of germaine and i blame appearances mostly but also the dad was kind of a loser (i love him#and germaine does practically raise tremaine which further messes up their absolutely awful codependency#like yeah both brothers would kill for many reasons (survival and resources mainly) but !#if tremaine lost germaine hed probably cry and become incapable of moving on and eventually just dying w no reason to live#but if germaine lost tremaine hed go insane cause no no no thats HIS brother and hed start blaming everyone#and lose all rationale and logic while hes actually one of the most logic based in the group#hes a loser but dont let him lose things or he loses it more#but when hes really mad at tremaine for whatever reason his best friend is like uh huh what are you gonna do about it#and germaine is like........... we both know i will sigh and accept it and probably pat him on the head next i see him#which is incredibly honest and exactly what he does because yeah hes mad but even mad he cannot say#im gonna slap some sense into him because thats a lie he wouldn't hurt his brother#everyone in their group knows he cant lie so when he gets hesitant after being asked something they just know#hes trying to plot the best way to skirt the answer bc its apparently Not Good#he looks angry and annoyed often but its just resting bitch face#he lights up when he sees tremaine and he lightens up a little with his best friend#like lil smiles for his bestie and brother but when talking ABOUT his brother? he lights up and beams because hes so proud#of the coolest and smartest thing in his life (his brother)
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yâall are all worried about the election, i got a test tomorrow i canât worry about that
#shouting into the void#i got homework#honestly in my mind kamala harris already won so iâm just not worrying about it#thereâs no use to my worrying it just makes me feel awful#iâm gonna wake up tomorrow and probably find out who won either from my teacher or a noc noctivagant post#us politics#<- only cause i know skitt was trying to block the tag#edit: uh i think cause i main tagged this people who are doom scrolling are finding this so iâll just say#get off your phone (or at least the politics tag)#get yourself something to eat#go do something you enjoy#get some rest and stop your useless worrying
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okay i need feedback from the autism mentall illness website um. this is going to read like an AITA post. brother vs half-sister (who are currently my dependents do to their own individual disabilities + ptsd/depression) spat i will skim the details on but i'm worried my sister will discount my take since i'm not autistic myself so. am i crazy to call it ableist to look at an autistic person (23) who is clearly going through it dealing w long term depression, a world that doesn't give a shit abt him, unemployment, very self-isolated and burnt out barely leaving his room because the world is an ableist dumpster fire with zero opportunities for him, and then bring up childhood abuse he's suffered and his diagnosis as reasonable factors on top of this to worry he'll [checks notes] abuse my cat just to hurt me or even worse have a breakdown and kill me and his other sibling in a violent episode, a train of thought i probably wouldn't even be having were he not [checks notes] mad at me for the first time in my life?
like i don't have any other read on this kind of fear-based characterization other than ableism. like those are very real things in his life but she never points out any current violent behavior, of which there are none, only the one (1) instance of him lashing out when he was like 14 and Officially Diagnosed Low Empathy she thinks is a concern and Hateful Looks toward her since he stopped getting along with her, that's it. i tried explaining to her why i, someone who's lived w him his entire life, can vouch for how unlikely he is to do anything like that, especially when it's again not based on anything he's actually currently doing except for isolating in a way that is much more indicative of him potentially being a danger to himself than anyone else, and being cold towards her specifically, and i thought she had let it go, but when i brought it up off-hand in a conversation tangentially related, she continued to defend and justify her Concern about the potential directions his behavior could lead to because [checks notes] other people in similar situations have lashed out and killed their entire families according to. true crime books or videos she's watched on youtube as far as i'm aware. ignoring the fact that her and i have had the same or Worse childhood abuse and have acted similarly isolated in the past, or for her literally just as currently as him, and she's not expressed any worry past or present about either of us doing anything like that, in my opinion obviously because i haven't cut her off due to our differences like he decided to. like am i big sibling biased because this is pissing me off so bad.
#j.txt#autism#ableism#very sorry to hang all my dirty laundry like this but she is absolutely the type of person to not take accusations of ableism seriously#due to being disabled/traumatized herself and i. feel like she thinks just because she's fixated on and consumed so much about like#mental disorders and illness and whatever she thinks she's an expert on it#enough to like. non-gendered equivalent mansplain peoples' own traumas and disorders to them lol which she has done to me as well#my brother actually last i checked felt like his diagnosis wasn't even accurate#but to me knowing our mom was v ableist antivax about her understanding of autism and a very neurotypical definition of it#it makes sense if the criterias or definitions don't feel accurate to him#idk. IDK#um. if this gets no engagement i'll delete it rather quick probably i just#don't wanna talk out of my ass when i'm not even autistic yk#i'm very aware i can be biased about him vs her because i actually grew up w him and he's younger than us but like#i havent heard him use her own diagnosis and childhood trauma and ugly moments in this way to justify his bad faith characterizations of he#so it's very much. just something she's doing. if my brother started doin it too i'd have the same conversation but he hasn't which i think#is u.m Telling <3#like She's the one actually complaining about how he assumes the worst of her in everything she does now and it makes her feel awful#meanwhile she. probably doesn't say any of this to Him but boy has she talked about it with me!#if it's not obvious we are all very mentally ill trapped in a house 2gether trying to save up to move so we can get away from each other lo
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Sometimes I feel like people are allergic to any sort of nuance and complexity when it comes to the characters. They either see them as completely evil, without any nuance whatsoever, and every single action from them as evil and bad as if everything is always so black and white and people are only one way, or then they see them as these perfect people who never do any wrong and try to explain away their faults and mistakes and shortcomings.
I am not saying you cannot dislike characters or that These or Those actions are redeemable, that doing a few things makes a person good etc. but the lack of nuance is frustrating me. I think it makes the characters much less interesting and less compelling to only reduce them to "completely evil person who never did anything good" or "perfect person who never did anything wrong". I've just seen a lot of oversimplification of these very nuanced, conplex characters.
People either go "yes, this character acted in a questionable way, but none of it was bad bc This and That, they did NOTHING wrong!!" or "omg they never did anything good and every action of theirs was an evil one". Like... You are allowed to have things be complicated, you are allowed to see the complexities It makes the characters interesting!!
#did this make any sense? probably not#i suck at wording things#but its just something ive noticed with a lot of the characters#ESPECIALLY with javier#and honestly with arthur too#like people forget he canonically does awful things and erase that complex part of his character#also with dutch kinda#i know he is bad and evil BUT to think there was nothing more to him is less compelling to me#again i am NOT saying that you're not allowed to like and dislike whichever character#or saying that bad people are redeemble bc they did one good thing or vice versa#just that i have seen this over simplification of these characters so much#rdr2#rdr#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption
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you ever wonder if the Glamrocks's face tracking acts up when they look at Glamrock-Freddy, like they'll look at his face, and the recognition will register as Freddy, but their systems for whatever reason or another think that there is a face overlapped on Freddy's do you think they see two small squares next to him, at his side, roughly child sized, but no one is physically there.... right...?
#fnaf#michael afton#five nights at freddyâs#glammike#crying child#elizabeth afton#i wanted to allude something to william but idk#would the glamrocks go into the sinkhole? maybe#maybe next to glamrock freddy alongside the weird overlapping face he has and the two kid height faces#there is a face tracking box next to him...standing#remember that post about the ghost hunters comin to the pizza plex? maybe the weird face tracking happens too...#im watching garret watts and Andrew's constant facial tracking anomalies inspired this post lol#anyways i really like the thought that despite being the most friendly Glamrock; Freddy has this......feeling about him#his AI was made just this year! programmed with cutting edge and top of the line technology!#then....then why does he go off script sometimes? why does he say things that wasn't programmed show dialogue?#how does he know about Mr. Afton? the killer from the 80's who committed heinous deeds?#Why does he speak as if he knew him personally? if his AI is just pulling stuff from online; Why does he speak with resentment about him?#IM SORRY I JUST LOVE THE CONCEPT!!#like just because this franchise has gotten more neon and sugery than ever; remember; lights can be blinding and sugar causes cavities#idk what that means just omg there is more horror potential than you think in the SB era of games if you look hard enough#off topic but back to freddy being a sweetie pie i think that its funny okay#freddy sasses adults okay okay but he isnt mean to kids okay maybe michael just idk; MATURED? maybe he just got some whimsy mkay?#listen if i was forced to be in a perpetual cycle of atoning for my own and my father's sins i would find any and all silver linings mkay#aw yeah this is sick i get to be a freddy mercury inspired glamrock bear WOOO#granted michael was probably tired of animatronic bands and pizza by fnaf 6 but ykkkkkkkk it.....could be worse? he could be his dad lmao#anyways headcannon michael listend to freddy mercury and this is the equivalent of cosplaying him scott told me so (trust)#tag rambles! theyre fun lol
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hey you ever think about how okuyasu probably had to see (if not help) his brother try over and over to like maim and dismember their father in an attempt to euthanize him, something that clearly hurts and distresses the guy despite his immortality?
do you ever think about how the boys were beaten "for no reason" (existing around their father) and then when their father turns keicho says that if he beats his dad enough he can be obedient but he never stops scratching around in that box and it makes him murderously angry. and then it turns out that their father's been trying to scrape together some reminder of the family they used to be this whole time. he's doing something innocuous and mildly obtrusive that pisses keicho off so much despite the fact that he would understand if he just looked a little closer, at a different angle, that it was his father seeking love and connection in the same way he was as a child, and that he is reacting in the same way his father did to it?
or how okuyasu (who was young enough to not Quite remember the abuse in the same way as keicho) was the one to want to shift gears towards curing him over killing him, to restore his memories and mind so they could heal their relationships - break the cycle? how you might think it's his distance from that contributes to his ability to want that in a way keicho can't, until keicho dies and okuyasu still chooses to focus on the scraps of good within their relationship (while acknowledging that keicho was Not a good person) despite how directly he experienced abuse from keicho? and how that speaks so much to okuyasu's deep sense of loyalty and love (even to his own detriment)?
or how it's josuke (with the power to heal, to fix, that kind power) who is able to start those relationships mending through his emotional curiosity and empathy? and how it's josuke okuyasu clings to in the wake of his brother's death? someone so different from the men he grew up with who only ever hurt each other because they were hurt and someone who proves that kindness and love are like. sustainable? how josuke didn't change him into being a loving person but finally answered it to form a healthy relationship? buh
#i have. never really analyzed jjba before#i don't know why but something about it makes the deeper stuff just bounce right off my brain for some reason#however! i have noticed this. do with it what you will etc#as if i needed a reason to be emo about okuyasu tbh#jjba#jojo's bizarre adventure#diu#nijimura okuyasu#nijimura keicho#fucking. papa nijimura. idk his name#btw i'm not saying okuyasu is a good person for like. loving his abusers. that's a morally neutral phenomenon#and i think that's clear in context. it's both because he's got a big ol heart and because he (even when he knows he probably shouldn't)#clings to people who are awful to him out of loyalty and loneliness and love and naivete. he wants to believe it means something#he does it because he's traumatized and it's all he knows AND because he's a sweetheart. it's both. and god that's like really cool to me#idk that i've really seen that pulled off so efficiently before#higashikata josuke#anyway what if i!!!!! exploded#sorry if this reads like ass im not even gonna look at it. im flushing it into the void immediately tyvm#and after all that okuyasu's like omg your mom's hot lol!! :D love you buddy!!!! like he's so funny to me
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is it the weather, seasonal depression, or something else causing it to be very difficult to share things about my ships. why canât i figure it out, whatâs wrong with me.
#i have this endless awful feeling in the back of my mind#i have so many ideas i want to share and talk abt on here with everyone#but always hesitate#maybe ill just post and disappear idk#i know ppl are probably tired of seeing me say this#but it really is a struggle#esp as of late#risuâs rambles â
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shoutout 2 this person in my class who i can tell wants 2 talk 2 me really bad but instead of doing that whenever she has the chance she'll talk 2 whoever else is around and ignore me entirely unless im mentioned by name
#bruh lmao#so awkward. say something you dingus lol#ik you wanna talk 2 me so bite the bullet already#gyatt#spacie spoinks#literally. she was having a conversation with my partner for the project im doing. and like#heres the thing#if im not invited into conversation i usually dont participate#im like a vampire like that#and so like. after they're done conversating she'll just kind of. stand there. this has happened twice now#like dude sdkfjshlkdfj#im not upset by this behavior i have very awful social patterns as well and have been thru this (i am autistic)#am i gonna hafta say something. lol#probably#''hey bro whats up with you. i dont mean like how are you doing. i mean like. whats wrong with you.''#cant say that its not funny when you say it irl only when the ppl you're talking with know you're not being mean đ#also like. this person has been staring at me lol#which like. makes me flustered so whenever she's around i panic and my face fucking turns red its god awful#for awhile it made uhh. my paranoia get really bad im ngl!!#its already bad when it comes 2 being around strangers but this like made it REALLY bad for a few weeks#im more calm now tho. rational brain won over and im chillin#i gotta work up the courage 2 say something b4 the semester is over or this is gonna bother me for the rest of my life sfkjsdhflkjs#i dont wanna put her on the spot#the only time i see her is when im in class#and . doing that interaction in front of ppl. i dont wanna embarrass her ksjfskjd
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The fallout show isnât NOT anticapitalist, but itâs anticapitalist in that way that a lot of recent media goes for, where it makes vague gestures towards ideas like âThere Is Wealth Inequality, Perhapsâ, or âmaybe a few dozen people having more money than god Isnât A Good Thing, Actuallyâ. But ultimately it kinda just tiptoes around commenting on anything systemic by offloading the blame onto its shadowy cabal of the ultra-rich, and turning the wastelander underclass into a constant running joke that the audience is expected to laugh along at. Which like. Fine. Thatâs honestly more than I was expecting I guess. But bad-appling fallout feels like missing the point extra hard, given how much it absolves the US of its role in everything, up to and including literal nuclear armageddon
#fallout#fallout prime#fallout prime critical#and thatâs not even touching on the weird tonal dissonance?#like. you canât make any meaningful commentary about classism in your setting if youâre gonna turn right and around and start jeering#âlook at these stupid ignorant fucks. Isnât it funny how stupid and ugly and mean they all are?â#âItâs probably because theyâre so poor and dirty and starvingâ#âAnd itâs fine when the protagonist of the moment guns them down cause theyâre just crazy raiders!â#you understand why those two messages canât coexist comfortably right?#anyways I finished the fallout show and honestly? my many many may complaints aside? it wasnât awful#it very much didnt know what it wanted to be or say#but it was fun enough#I felt appropriately pandered to in parts#and it was clearly very lovingly crafted by the people who made it#overall it would have served much better as a non-canon addition to the franchise#but at the end of the day bethesda can knock over all the sandcastles it likes#doesnât mean Iâm gonna start taking their canon seriously#also moldaver can **** me **** in the ***** ******** *** *****#who said that
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