#i keep yapping about them im sorry but im not

[jumped-for-the-yaoi]

ive been in the shower for like 20 minutes just pondering devotions. jet do you ever think about how zam was the only reason mapicc returned to ls. he was so completely ready to give up and put his server activity aside after the mace kill but when she returned, he did as well. when he felt like she was acting less active on the server he expressed upset aover it because she was the only one whod brought him back in the first place. but now hes back, and theres a very real possibility of them having to go their separate ways again: for him to go against all her morals and in a sense, redo all the pain he caused her during mawn, and zam wont do anything to argue against it because if it keeps mapicc on the server, if it makes him happy and lets him feel fulfilled, she wont protest his choice. as long as hes back, and hes thriving again, and he stays- zam will let him go, even if she so desperately wants him to stay. im sorry im feeling emotional rn and i cant do anything except yap in ur inbox 😭😭😭😭😭

oughhhhhh dude no exactly goddddddddd…….. im so insane about them i think the stream today did something to me psychologically . the way they’re each other’s support but ultimately have different motivations and goals that draw them apart…. ouhhhh

[ad-astra-per-aspera-1389]

likeee imagine if THESE two met...

[wisted-twonderland]

it’s going well

pt 1

[queeriouslyollie]

ACTUAL BRAINWORMS AHEAD ABOUT TROY

i like actually have SO many thoughts about troy yall dont understand. i have so much to say that i dont remember ANY OF IT TO PUT HERE.

its also been to the point that like. its all i think about. its so bad rn too bc i ran outta both my antidepressants and adhd meds (fuck pharmacies theyre all a pain in the ass omg) and so my brain is this mushy slurry of just. troy troy troy wonderlust runt troy troy blink troy. i literally could not focus at work today i had to write in my journal so that i didn't implode.

anyways after this point there are spoilers so dont read on. i woulda tagged it but this post is gonna be so rambly and full of my brainworms that i dont know if i wanna tag this at all lmao. so anyways yeah brainrot brainworms warning if you read ahead,

so yeah i have some like ideas on what troys whole deal is (besides being our [recovering :3] asshole nepo baby).

like first of all, 100% trans coded (like all of charlies characters, like wtf how is this cis guy better at being trans than i am??). please let it be canon i am begging

second, im torn between the theories of him being a little clockwork guy or being a hybrid (like runt and blink n the reclaim guys). its hard to tell what's cannon and what is troy mode comedy shit, but it seems like we may not have ever canonically? gotten a description/confirmation of what is actually under troys suit, and obviously not what may be under his skin. if he is a hybrid that could have some really fucked up connotations asw

third, whats his deal with his family? it's basically been confirmed that his mom's dead (or otherwise just OUT of the picture). his dad is around, for a bit i was SO convinced his dad was gonna be the inventor. either way, whats the deal between them? just nepo neglect? or something worse? i have a feeling either way i WILL be ugly crying. again. to jrwi. about a charlie character. and also siblings?? he said he had a brother. but then when the yort appeared he said he always wanted a brother? so maybe bad relationship there too?

also??? like his character growth?? the amount he has started to be able to convey his respect and care for the team. i love the little part about runt having an actual feeling of looking up to him when they sled down the mountain. they are so sibling coded. troy and blink's little arc was so good too (also like. malewife troy. all im saying about that). and his whole thing in ep 22, the way he was able to twist the perceptions people have of him, and even the fucked up shit he has done, to manipulate (gaslight gatekeep girlboss) his way through that situation. and the team letting him take the reigns!!!!! anyways this makes me wanna compile a list of my fave quotes/interactions/moments/etc from the campaign. i just might.

i genuinely dont know why im SO attached to this goddamn character. theoretically? i should hate him. he is like, literally antithetical to everything i am and stand for. literally a foil to who i am as a person. but like???? idk. as ive said before he's the first character ive ever understood and felt the "i can fix them" thing about lmao. and he has shown character growth,

and to me he seems. misguided? maybe even hurt? by those around him. it seems like those who should have nurtured him failed him. and like. i really empathize that. i kinda feel that a little too much (but from a different lens bc i am the furthest thing from a nepo baby lmfao). and not to psychoanalyze him (more), it seems to me that maybe deep down he thinks very lowly of himself. bro is literally prince charming but was surprised when aeon called him pretty boy?? like i mean obv, he's not the brightest guy around, but i also think he should give himself more credit where its due, and he might not appreciate his achievements enough and seems to beat himself down when he doesnt reach his own standards. he also seems very touch starved (or just. any [authentic] slightly positive interaction starved in general)

or maybe im just projecting too hard onto him oops lmao. thats the vibe i get tho

if you read all this i think youre probably just as ill as i am about this guy and like. respect. or maybe youre just bored or thought there would be something smart in here, in which case i deeply apologize for my word vomit

anyways i think im gonna go rewatch wonderlust from the start for like the fifth time. or riptide for the like 12th (god give us our funy lil pirates back!!!) because. i lobv them

[digitalcarcrash]

thinking about alex being a hardcore pacifist pre-operator, yeah sure he's bitchy to everyone more often than not but Physically he wouldn't hurt a fly, only for him to wind up breaking one of his best friend's leg with a block of cement

[lie-lover]

[persy-r-bozo]

DHMIS - The Yap EPIC - Red Guy

Red is so fascinating to me. He's like a tragic oddity no matter where he travels. He is monotoned and hidden despite being the largest and arguably most brightly colored one there.

I AM IN LOVE with the unable to fit in anxiety and fear thing he has as well, He's too weird for his people. too Normal for the weird freaks.

i think red truly is bonded to the other two. He cares for them and wants them to be safe and far from danger. But here's the thing, I like to think red himself thinks he is a danger to them. He wants to be there to help and comfort them but at the same time, he thinks he's not good enough, that he'll just end up hurting them in some way. Like despite the brain fog a lil voice in his head tell him over and over again he hurt them. either in a "You lead them too their doom" or a "You gave them hope when it was never possible" even "You left to help, but you just made things worse"

think he feels guilty, and blames himself for everything even though he doesn't know why. he might just be doing it out of self hatred or he might have helped Roy or was blind to things in the past he never realized or fully remembers.

That guilt makes him distant. He loves them but he wont show it out of fear for them. I think in transport this is shown perfectly.

he wants them to be in a safe town. he wants them to have friends and neighbor's. he wants them far away from that house and happier and healthier. But he clearly mentions he wont be staying with them. that he will live separately from them. And reassures yellow that it will be ok and better, i don't think he said that because he dislikes them (yeah he gets annoyed sometimes but that's normal) I think he said that because he feels he needs to be separate so they can fully live normal happy lives. and when everything starts to fall apart, he panics. he is swallowed by anxiety. that ticking time bomb finally exploded. he yells out of fear and that fear turns into anger. The keys were dangled in front of him and they were taken away.

During the campsite scene red rocks himself and hides his face a little bit, covering his mouth after telling yellow its going to be ok. He failed again, he hurt them again.

The energy i get from red is someone who cares. and tries. but he keeps failing, it keeps hurting them and that hurts him, only making him more distant.

That is interesting as well, red is truly unpredictable. that urge to help and escape can make red go crazy but it could also truly help. if he were to open up more he could clear his mind just a little bit and connect with his lil found family. But he could also break more, He could accept this world or his "role" If he's Only going to be a monster that only hurts his friends he might as well do it on purpose. get it over with. (what I'm saying is red could easily get better and bond more AND easily have a corruption arch leading him to become a darker force)- (Both possible! and honestly super interesting topics to dive into) like he has main character energy, but he is pushed by the world itself to sit down and mumble along the songs.

in short i see red as a tragic overthinking anxious mess. on the verge of breaking. and that break could help him connect or truly shatter him. (Good Cry Vs "What's even the Point")

He made himself a cage and locked himself inside it.

too bad for him there are two goobers who are determined to get inside and let him out for a walk. no matter what he thinks.

-Relationship views-

Yellow: That's his little guy, the fellow who makes him smile even though every day is a dreaded one. Red overthinks to himself, But yellow doesn't give a damn he just wants to eat breakfast and watch Tv with his Semi Dad #2! and that makes red feel better, just to hang out and be included in whatever yellas doing, and i think red tries to teach him actually good things, like cooking and cleaning. (Lil cute headcannon!! I have a small head cannon that red doesn't like Grolton and Horvis. he doesn't hate it. its just he wouldn't ever choose to watch it personally, But its yellows favorite show and it makes his mornings whenever its on, so he sits and watches it with him.)

Duck: Hes SMITTEN FR FR. I think red does Love duck. But i also think red is practically chained inside the closet. I wouldn't be surprised if his stringy puppet family or species as a whole isn't exactly supportive of anything that's not "Normal or the same" And with how duck tends to dance around some topics and how he seems to be aggressive toward anything that changes his personal life. i think red just decided that staying in the dark - so to speak- is better than potentially losing his family again. But then the fridge scene happened, Red spoke about his feelings and duck was soft and even recuperated to a degree. If we get another season i can see their relationship become more interesting.

Roy: I dont think red remembers roy, the fog and day loop stuff makes the past more so hard to remember. However i do think they were business partners or at least acquaintances, the guy you hang and drink with every two weeks and talk about your lives. HOWEVER Uh. that changed didn't it? I said this in a random post once before. but i think that if red were to see Roy again, it be one of the few times red truly gets aggressive. (I mean even in the friendship ending he sounds more like he's venting than actually throwing hands.) That he wouldn't remember Roy or what he even did, but he'd remember the feelings, the horrible Fear and Hatred mixture. Like "I don't Know you, But i know you Have to go. my Everything is screaming at me to tear you apart. i need you OUT." Plus i think its awesome when a normally quiet character gets aggressive, its awesome and scary! i can see red tearing though the walls, chasing Roy relentlessly, no matter how many times the houses foundation starts to fall on him, or how many times he gets scratched by rusted nails, he just doesn't stop. (I think it would be super neat)

Lesley: I don't think red even knows Lesley exists. Roy might have mentioned her in the past, but i don't think reds ever even seen her. But if they were to meet i think they'd be chill with each other, drinking tea and talking about those scamps downstairs, but there would be a time limit. Because its just a matter of time before Red slips and mentions how badly he wants to move them away, or Lesley slips and Implies how she's Lowkey In control of everything. and the two of them remember that their protective enemies.

[makimacult]

What was the future aventurine an illusion of the harmony or just his own mind making up ?

a bit of both i imagine! aventurine refers to his alt self as "newborn of the harmony", future!aventurine is definitely powered somehow by the brand sunday put on aventurine. at the same time, f!a knows things about aventurine only his own mind would know. imo that's what illusions of the harmony do, they take inspiration from your own mind, and use it to craft their illusions.

at any rate, i dont think you can fully call f!a a "fake", he is very real to aventurine, and by the end of the questline even offers him a measure of understanding. i especially liked it when f!a told aventurine to "say goodbye to the kid"—that part of aventurine's storyline involved reconciling his inner child and his own idea of his "future", and he comes out of it with a measure of peace that helps him accept what acheron tells him later.

"the answer has been with you, and is part of your journey"—and on that journey, aventurine encounters both his past and his future, finds the cornerstones jade and topaz lent him, opens ratio's note. future!aventurine AKA the illusion of the harmony is a personification of aventurine's jungian shadow, it has always been with him and is him; and by the very end, by walking into IX in a final gamble to survive no matter what, aventurine reconciles with his shadow.

because what was the armour-piercing question his shadow was always asking him throughout his journey through the amusement park? "why do you always take such risks while you gamble, for what purpose do you act this way"—and by finding the answer, which is, that life is still worth fighting for despite the pain and inevitability of the end; aventurine integrates with his shadow, completing his character arc and finding a measure of peace.

[dzozef]

im in a good mood cause my work enemy is getting her life ruined while all i had to do was keep quiet and do my best 🥱

[road-hauler]

Tell us about Breakdown jehehehehhee

ok if you say soooo (Oh goodness this took me forever to make oops lololol) Yapping below the cut, this is going to be a long one:

Alright I'm just going to use this as an opportunity to dump all my thoughts in one place.

I’ll talk about his design character design first:

For references, I used his g1 cartoon design, original toy, Earthspark, and legacy figure. Then I stuck them all into my character design food processor and tada! I must say I'm quite pleased.

Starting with the colours, I decided to make his red more orange-y & lighter to really squeeze as much contrast juice out of the blue as possible. Then I added in some yellow, made his ‘white’ a very light desaturated blue, plus the purple for his insignia, and voila! I really like this colour scheme, and I’ve been looking for an excuse to use coral in a design for awhile now lololol.

I absolutely adored ES Breakdown’s coloured tires from the moment I first laid eyes on them, so I decided to include that design element here as well. The white decals are just a pattern of squiggly lines alternated with straight lines and dots just to keep things simple.

For Breakdown’s altmode, I went with the Lamborghini Countach LP500 S, which is the same (or close to) as his g1 if I’m not mistaken. I did consider picking a more modern Lamborghini, but I really did fall in love with this car’s vibe. When I close my eyes and envision Breakdown’s alt, this is the car I see, so I decided to just stick with it.

Moving on to his face, I wanted to give Breakdown a really wide eyed expression to get across how on edge he is. His eyes also have little orange rings in them to accentuate this look, but sometimes I’ll just draw it in with the blue instead if he’s far away. Googly eyes hehehe.

I base the majority of my designs off of some kind of animal/creature. For Breakdown that was initially a gummy bear, but I changed my mind! His wide eyes that look like they've seen untold horrors combined with his helm shape really does remind me of a hare. I mean, he also occasionally has prophetic dreams, so I think it really fits him! Also he'll book it rabbit style if someone he doesn't like enters the hes in room lololol.

As I’ve mentioned previously, the little yellow reflective rectangle on Breakdown’s head acts as a headlight that he can turn on whenever. It’s pretty handy for when he needs to navigate dark spaces since his altmode headlights are in his pedes. He’ll also use it if he’s working on something up close that way he can see what he’s doing better.

Moving on, let’s talk one of my favourite aspects of this design: his spoiler! I got the idea of him having a detachable spoiler from his legacy figure , and I love the idea of it just being able to pop it off. The lore here is that one day it just sort of slid out from the connectors because they forgot to weld it in place when they were building him lololol.

He doesn’t get it fixed though, because it’s actually pretty handy to be able to just take it off whenever. For example if he wants to lay down comfortably on his back, or throw it at his brothers, or use it as a makeshift blunt weapon in battle, it has a variety of uses. I just hope he doesn’t lose track of it or it something, that would be very inconvenient.

I’ll also mention that Breakdown’s major subspace compartment is behind his back underneath the spoiler, just like the actual trunk on the Countach. I think it’s pretty funny for him to be able to reach behind his head and pull out whatever random objects hes got in there. This is also the main compartment he keeps his gun in!

Now for some ideas that didn’t make it into his final design:

I really wanted to try giving him purple eyes like his g1 design, but it just doesn’t work with the other colours I chose. Breakdown's eyes need to contrast against the rest of his face for that wide eyed look, and the lavender just doesn’t do that. It’s unfortunate because I really him with purple eyes, but it just doesn’t work here. So sad.

Another idea I had was to give him door wings (I live for kibble, it’s my favorite part). Again, it just didn’t really end up working with the design I had in mind with him, and I think a spoiler does a much better job at enhancing his silhouette anyway (That and I might be giving them to Dead End instead (what who said that). Plus Breakdown already suffers enough with the sensory organs he has, I don’t think we need to give him more lololol.

I also had the idea to give him decals of the number 3 on his doors and tires (this will make sense later when the other Stunticons are done. Or it will be a vestigial concept that doesn't make it into any of their final designs. Who knows!).

In the end I felt this was over complicating things, and that I wouldn’t be able to draw it consistently. I also thought about having his tires have his name as the white decals, but this has the same problem. That and I couldn’t think of a good reason for him to have English writing on his tires, which is too bad since I think they look absolutely adorable!

I'll mention that if you feel inspired by any of the concepts I've show here, feel free to use them! Hell tag me if your feeling up to it, I'd love to see.

Alright now its background info time:

First lets start with how the Stunticons came into existence in this continuity.

The Decepticons are stranded on Earth. Like super stranded. The Nemesis has been critically damaged, and it's currently sitting at the bottom of the ocean. Energon supplies are low, and while there is plenty of it to be refined on the planet, the location they crashed in has really poor quality ore. That and the fact that they have to compete with the Autobots for it has made the situation quite rough.

Anyways, these are obviously the best circumstances to make a brand new gestalt combiner team in yes?

The last time around, the Decepticons made a combiner from a preexisting team (who will go unnamed lest I active The Curse). This time around they want to take a crack at making constructed mechs who are a gestalt from the get go. They take some random sparks they brought with them, some earth vehicles and mechanical parts they stole, the horrifying spark tethering machine, and then they let Starscream go at it for a while.

Next thing you know, tada! Stunticons. You know the rest from here.

Breakdown feels like he is constantly being watched. By what? Depends. Sometimes it's everyone in the room is staring at him, other times it's inanimate objects are able to perceive him, and occasionally its just a feeling. The one thing that's consistent is that it never ever goes away, which is as exhausting as it sounds. His paranoia isn’t completely unfounded at times though… sometimes he really is being watched! By what? That’s for me to know and for you to find out...

Another thing that causes Breakdown a lot of stress is when he has to leave the Nemesis on a mission. I mean, you take a very anxious mech who has only known the confines of an underwater spaceship for his entire short existence... and then show him the widest most open space imaginable. Let’s just say Breakdown is not a fan of the sky!

He finds the sheer vastness of it to be absolutely terrifying, and it doesn’t help that that’s where the Aerialbots attack them from. He’s constantly hyper vigilant of his surroundings when the Stunticons go surface side, and by the time they get back to the ship, he’s completely drained. He can usually handle the stress of it all if he’s with his brothers, but if he’s left alone on the surface he’ll totally freak out. He's gotten himself into a few predicaments trying to find any form of cover, even if it doesn't exactly match his size class.

The inverse is also true: Breakdown generally likes confined spaces because there are less places where something could be watching him from. Put him in a crevice and he actually slightly calms down. Miraculous!

The Stunticons have other duties assigned on the Nemesis, and Breakdown ends up in the communications department. This means he has to deal with Soundwave (scary!) and his cassettes (AAAAA) on a regular basis (and Bitstream, but that's for a different post).

He does actually end up enjoying his job in comms though. Monitor duties can be a good outlet if he doesn't over do it, and he really enjoys learning about how the all the comm machinery functions. He gets kinda freaked out about the fact someone can observe him through comm channels or cameras, so gaining insight into how the stuff works does lessen his anxiety around using them a bit.

Lets see what else... uh his engine still does The Thing and is generally kinda messed up. The medics can't figure out why it's able do that or how to solve the issue with their current resources (which is not a lot considering what happened to the medbay in the crash), so he just sort of has to live with it. Stress of course only serves to worsen the problem, and Breakdown's default state is being stressed out. Unfortunately for him, it's only going to get worse over time.

There's probably more that I forgot to mention, but this post is already massive so I'll leave it here for now.

I have a lot in store for this poor little car… heheheheheHAHAHAHA-Oh shit, the capybara! No wait give him back noooooooooo

Woah you made it all the way to the bottom, thank you for reading!

[javierduffy]

After they've been together for a while and Kieran's come out of his shell a bit (esp around the rest of the gang) for some reason I can imagine him just being like. Very forward. Not outright flirty but he loves Javier SO MUCH he's practically vibrating with it. It's spilling from his mouth every time he talks w/ him. Not right out of the gate, though. He starts with small comments in the morning. A compliment here, a cheesy line there. But by the end of the day if you listen closely you can hear an increasing amount of stutters from Javirr's guitar and Kieran knows he's got him when he looks away he's so flustered and the whole time Kieran's just blinking innocently and grinning like mad he's so in love UGH. If he does not kiss his bf breathless within the next 10 seconds he WILL explode

NOOO I AGREE COMPLETELYYYYY YOU GET ME YOU UNDERSTAND !!! kieran, as shy (if you want to call keeping your mouth shut to spare yourself the trouble of getting shot in the head “shy”) and awkward as he is, speaks his mind and is willing to be quite verbal about what he’s thinking ! i listened to his ambient voice lines the other day and he really is very vocal when he doesn’t feel that being the alternative would jeopardize his wellbeing, and i think the reason people don’t notice is because when he’s challenged, he’s often willing to fold on his perspective, mostly just to preserve his own safety because of his audience. i mean, he literally FORCED the vdl’s to take him in, and he often bows up at arthur and will challenge/confront him (because he’s most familiar with him). plus, he’s very openly complimentary towards mary-beth, even as early as horse-shoe. kieran duffy has little to no problems with speaking if you really listen !

so absolutely yes he does say what’s on his mind even and especially when it comes to javier. hell, i believe that kieran complimented him even before they got together, before javier even liked him (or acted like it, at least). he’s just a lover at heart ! i think that would be one of the reasons that javier becomes less hostile towards kieran to begin with- because kieran is so gentle with everyone, and initially, javier is always shocked when he isn’t the exception, even when he generally avoids him or even treats him outright poorly. kieran’s gentility isn’t a survival skill, it’s an innate part of who he is. so even before he’s especially comfortable with javier, on rare occasion, kieran would say a “you look nice today, mister !” or a “you’ve got that knife looking mighty spiffy, would love something like that for myself some day.” before he can really even think about it. it always pissed javier off, of course, because ‘that stupid pretty, sweet, charming, handsome bastard of an o’driscoll has no right to even look at him, nonetheless like him or anything he does ! and it certainly didn’t feel good to hear him say it !’.

but when they get together, kieran’s compliments change- not only because javi now knows that he means them from a full homo place, but because kieran is now able to say things that have been on his mind for months. when they’re away from camp, kieran swoons and fawns and waxes poetry as best his awkward and mildly educated self can. i really believe that it takes him no time at all (i say this, i mean a month or so) to work up to jumping into sharing his adoration when they’re alone, because when javier finally chose him back, kieran got his permission to love him, and he’d been waiting on that for ages. kieran duffy has been starving for love for all 23 years of his life, and he’s got such a craving for it that it makes him the best cook in the world because then every crumb matters. being a lover with no one to love has left kieran with a keenly honed sense of adoration- a natural skill he has sharpened to a perfect point in all of his quiet isolation. javier practically drowns in it once he’s exposed to the full capacity of it. you’re absolutely right that it isn’t too long before kieran has javier wrapped perfectly, lovingly, obediently around his finger. when kieran sits politely on the bedroll next to his beautiful musician as he plays for his usual crowd of outlaws, when he peers over at him through long brunette lashes, when javier can feel his gaze on his fingers as they pluck the strings (and some rare nights, javier knows exactly what kinds of thoughts are in kieran’s mind, which only flusters him further. especially when kieran feigns innocence if ever accused of lust, all the way up until they’re alone, in which he’s quite happy to share imagery from his vivid imagination.). usually, though, kieran wants nothing more out of it than to let javier know just how much he adores him, how pretty he thinks he is, how perfect his voice is, how every little thing about him drives kieran crazy- and it’s out of lack of recent exposure that javier’s tolerance for it all is so low. that’s what he tells himself, anyway. kieran may not be a poet, but he’s sure honest, and sometimes, that hits harder than elegant prose.

i do so love the thought of a flustered javier, especially when he’s the one who is supposedly the “romantic” of the two. man can dish it out but he can’t take it </3 kieran sparingly shares touches with him throughout the day as well, placing a hand on the back of javier’s collar when he’s leaning over his shoulder to peer at whatever javier is intending to show him (a map for a small job he’s planning, an upgrade on his revolver or knife, the poison throwing knives he’s gingerly handling as he explains to kieran how to coat them evenly for a quicker kill), hooking a finger into the waistband of javier’s pants or his suspenders as they smoke alone early in the morning by the scout campfire, touches the tips of their boots together as they both work their separate chores of cleaning saddles and sharpening knives. kieran says i love you throughout the day in a million different ways. like you said, he’s practically vibrating with it. by the end of the day, after kieran’s shared with javi how his eyes look like the perfect cup of coffee in the sun, how he’s real purdy first thing in the morning, how he missed him the other day while he was out on a job, all the while burning holes into javier’s skin with every little touch he sneaks in when they’re on the same side of camp, javier is a puddle on the ground. he’s anxiously fiddling with his guitar before playing and missing notes when he does, desperately cleaning his boots and hat more to soothe his hot gut, and taking solo fishing trips to either verbally rant his feelings out loud in spanish or rub one out because kieran is driving him absolutely insane, and they’ve not been together quite long enough for javier to justify dragging him out of camp every single day to get some privacy and/or blow off some steam (in more ways than one, depending on the day).

the longer they’re together, the more brazen he gets, absolutely. placing a hand on javier’s shoulder while he sits next to him at the campfire with other gang members, tucking javi’s hair behind his ear when it’s down and they’re chatting late at night, saying “oh, i do love you.”, “yes, sweetheart?”, “javier, my dear-“ in front of some other gang members while they’re talking or addressing each other, and it simply turns javier’s brain off. to be bravely loved is such a privilege and it almost sends a shiver down his spine every time kieran does it. to kieran, it’s almost like he can’t even help it, doesn’t even really think about it too much after a while. sure, he’s anxious at first, especially with how javier will react since he’s essentially constantly around his tough-love family who will absolutely mock him for it if he lets them, but seeing javier get so flustered because of how little he expected kieran to be so bold, it’s addicting. immensely. plus, kieran knows javier may not come back to him every time he leaves camp, and he’s lost enough in his lifetime to regret not loving javier to his full capacity. it won’t get them hurt, so he’s happy to be brave, because he’ll know that if either of them die, they will die having loved and been loved at 100%. now, he doesn’t think too hard about any of that. really, kieran just can’t help but love javier- can’t help but want to tell him that he’s the most beautiful person he’d ever met, tell him how much he matters to him, tell him how special his heart is, show him how much he loves him, indelibly, intricately, with every fiber of his being. if i don’t kiss him breathless within the next 10 seconds, i will die. he thinks after a long day of small touches and meager compliments, after a long day of javier tripping over his boots and unsatisfactorily twanging his guitar strings once or twice that evening nonetheless. and he says “if i dont kiss you within the next ten seconds, i will die.” and javier pauses, freezes, shocked, trapped in green eyes as the scout campfire lazily licks dances of light and shadows across their wrinkles and scars and features. and javier says, “well then, come here. you are too young to die.” as his heart beats louder in his chest than it ever has in a gunfight.

umm i think i got off topic but yes :3 i agree :3 kieran can be quite forward, even canonically ! they’re both loverboys in their own ways and equally as hungry for the others’ taste (figuratively and literally). sorry for the yap sesh ! thank you so much for sharing your thoughts with me !!!!!!! i love thinking about them waygh ;__; i could talk about them all day

[nevalizona]

Idc idc Ana is the only character that makes sense to live to the end. (I'm ignoring that the devs said all of them die for a moment lol). Like she went here to find her sister. She knows what the S*wyers/Sl*ughters did to her. She's the one strong enough to make it to the end. Anyone else, especially L*land or D*nny, makes no sense.

[willowreadsgayfanfiction]

Just started the first game's post game, and this post has inspired me to adopt my own tarr, whom I'll call asphalt :>

please meet my beautiful delightful wonderful son, oil spill

he is very friendly and well trained and does not bite

he loves to play

[tanukitsuneko-suki]

geats is still recent-ish bcs it’s reiwa but i cannot believe i’m getting invested in ex-aid more than strictly necessary. i just wanted to giggle at doctor superheroes and im stuck cheering hiiro on. Christ above

[koi-fish-boy]

My limbs were bandage city today y'all I kept gettin hurt 😭

First I accidentally burned my leg w a drill. I just finished using it and was checking the hole and accidentally brought it too close to my leg

Then I nicked my knuckle on some semi circle thing trynna get it off something else, forgot what it was called. But I bled a bunch and had to get a bandaid :P

After that I stabbed my finger with some wire on accident. It's like the cable thing that's made up of a bunch of tiny metal wire strung together I also forgot what that was called but I bled again!

Then I scratched my knee on the back of a hammer and, guess what? I bled again!

And when I got home the remains of a blister fell off and left me with just a hole in my heel so that kinda sucks :P

[ceciliadreamson]

Time to give my opinions on this:

5, 6, or 8, lemme explain

5 would be a pretty obvious choice for me specifically cause I’m a major Ishmael and Outis fan. Like. Thinking about them at least 5 times a day fan. If I sit in 5, I’m right next to Ishmael + I think she’ll be nice to be next to whenever I need to calm down. I’ll also be right in front of Outis, so if I hear her say anything that peaks my interest, I could just turn around. Odd take, but I also think Matt would hold a conversation well. Maybe? I still need to play through Canto 6 but he seems quite cheery

Ok so why 6? Aisle seat + I’m next to Outis, close enough to Ishmael, and close enough to Don to talk about almost anything. Almost the perfect seat if it wasn’t for Vergilius staring right into my soul every time I breathe or something 💀💀💀 He might beat me up if I talk way too loud

8 would be the best choice when thinking about how I interact with people irl. Being next to the most extroverted person on the bus keeps my energy up, and Don would start any conversation she wanted and I’ll just jump in. I’m not the person to start anything, so it helps out when Don talks whenever and wherever.

Being next to Sinclair is really nice since he’s quiet, polite, and friendly. If I’m a little too overstimulated from Don’s energy or too tired, Sinclair and Ryoshu being quiet people allows me to recharge. They won’t bother me unless I bother them.

Another reason is because I’m close enough to Vergilius so I silently figure out where the bus is heading next, what he plans to do with the sinners, and what my next task it + he’s not staring holes into my head. In fact, I’d rather be behind him than next to him or in front of him. There’s no way he’d bother to constantly look backwards cause that’s too much of a hassle.

Time for the issues with seat 8. I’m not near Ishmael or Outis, but it’s ok! I can get to know them better in another way like being near them on missions or getting up and sitting next to them for a little bit. I can also do the same thing if I see Rodya doing something fun or talking about something. But this is about sitting charts, so getting up shouldn’t really be in the reasoning haha. Ryoshu might be a bit of a problem, but only if she starts getting a little too gruesome for my own tastes. It’s a 50/50 for me since I sometimes find her art and conversation topics absolutely fascinating and sometimes I can’t handle it at all. It’ll depend on my mood! Sinclair can decipher her abbreviations for me too. The other problem is Kromer, but,,,,I like the crazy lazy. A lot. I could switch seats with Sinclair to chat with Kromer, or force my way into Sinclair and Kromer’s conversation to ease the tension. I also think I’m good at calming people down and distracting them from uncomfortable situations, so if Kromer ever becomes a problem for Sinclair, I’ll distract him with random topics, let Don join, or teach him new arts and craft things!

Ok ok I’ll shut up in a bit but 8 would be the best spot for me to thrive in. Also, bus games and card games with Don, Sinclair, Ryoshu, and maybe Vergilius. I can teach them how to play Thirteen!!! Ok now I’ll shut my mouth (unless there’s people who some reason wants to hear more haha)

Goal: make the worst seating chart possible - Acheived