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There's this invisible hand, with overgrown ragged fingernails, clawing away from inside my ribcage like a trapped creature desperate to flee. It seems to be pressing against my lungs, incapacitating me from inhaling vital oxygen. It feels as if I'm experiencing cerebral hypoxia. My oxygen-starved neurons are casting a thickening haze across my brain; even the most mundane tasks become Herculean challenges. My only desire is to melt into the embrace of the earth and seize the whisper of passing time, so that life wouldn't slip away, leaving me a mere shadow in its wake. - Quaintrelle Dragicorn
#my words#dark academia#spilled feelings#spilled thoughts#spilled ink#spilled words#spilled writing#writers of tumblr#chaotic academia#I just want to breathe again#writer and poets
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FNAF movie Vanessa definitely thought Abby died..
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf vanessa#vanessa shelly#vanessa afton#mike schmidt#abby schmidt#fnaf bonnie#fnaf movie#fnaf fanart#MORE VANESSA THOUGHTS š„#that one scene where Abby basically explodes is so funny#Iām not even sure why Bonnieās guitar shocks anyone who touches it#(including Bonnie himself)#but I do wonder if half a second Vanessa straight up thought Abby exploded#like oh sheās for sure dead before seeing she was still breathing#ITS A FAIR assumption too seeing sheās a lil girl#and also in games touching Bonnieās guitar wrong does end you#maybe Vanessa is being hyper protective too here#but again donāt blame her at all just wants to keep Abby safe! š©µš©µ
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happy Zelda day y'all. Here's the dragons I drew from BotW some years ago because I basically always loved Zelda's dragon designs.
#zelda#the legend of zelda#breath of the wild#tears of the kingdom#farosh#dinraal#naydra#essentially a repost but it's higher resolution#the original post was in like 500px which ouch#and I just wanted to give it some more love again#no one knows I have BotW on 100%
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So, I just found out... In a very unfortunate way... That you can develop allergies
How did you people survive like this? I took not having a stuffy nasal cavity that makes it sound like I'm one bad McDonald's burger away from a breakdown for granted. I didn't appreciate having a throat that didn't need to factory reset itself through intense coughing every thirty minutes. I was a fool to think that some rest and water would clear you up in a week at most.
HAVE I BEEN SUFFICIENTLY PUNISHED FOR MY IGNORANCE YET? DO MY MINOR GRIEVANCES HUMOR YOU?!
#im not being dramatic#seriously its been two weeks#i just want to breathe again#allergies#hay fever#sick
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Nothing is more underappreciated than your ability to breath through your nostrils. Too late have I come to understand all that they do for me.
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something something about mentors and cycles and mentors and cycles
#like#what if your memory became so intertwined with my ideals i could not help but to pass you on to those who look up to me#along with what makes my very heart beats and bleeds#(and realise i was so young#so young#and maybe i didn't deserve everything that happened then)#and maybe i could start forgiving myself for who i was then#because now i know i was just scared and alone and thinking i held the world on my shoulders#and now i just want to tell him#breath kid#breath#ace attorney#aa#ace attorney fanart#aa fanart#gyakuten saiban#gyakuten saiban fanart#mia fey#phoenix wright#apollo justice#charley the plant#polly the parrot#yes they're important characters and should be cited#dounart#fanart#art#the cycles and patterns woke me up at 4am once again and refused to let me rest
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Whoopsie daisy im late to the panel redraw train but this page is tattooed on my frontal lobe
#I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS I LOVE THEM SO MUCH#THEYRE AWFUL#WHO PUT THE DOOMED IN THE YURI#im just. im so emo about them#the TENDERNESS in their last moments together#the UNDERSTANDING#toga realizing the person she loves loves her back wholly#as a villain which is poetic enough#but also as the teenage girl she is#as a person with a cute smile who wants to be told theyre loved#and ochako... i mean she was the one confessing practically she worked through her realization#but embracing togas love#openly again as a hero and a villain but more importantly as a person and another person#using her last breaths to make sure toga knew she was seen for who she was and not what she was#that among everyone on that battlefield ochako knew what she was fighting for#and not just that she was fighting#im just RAAAAAAH im chewing on them like a dog with a squeaky toy#did i severely neglect my studies to make this? yes#do i care? absolutely not god was this cathartic#toga himiko#himiko toga#ochako uraraka#togachako#toga x uraraka#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#wlw#chiquilines draws
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Normal boy spotted.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen wing#wen remnants#Wen ning#This scene felt like a bit of a fever dream. We have (with little to no comedic exaggeration):#1) WWX whistling and somehow summoning not one but several horses to his side.#2) meeting the surviving Wen sect members who insist on not leaving Wen Ning behind.#Only for it to cut back to Wen Ning ripping a guy in half. (Not pictured here. I tried so hard but I could not make it look good).#Personally I feel like we moved on way too fast from the horse thing. Where did they come from? WWX couldn't have brought them.#He *just* found out there were more people left behind.#So...are the from the Jing sect? Are these disloyal horses? Or does WWX have incredible animal charisma skills?#It feels a bit like a DND player asked to call in some horses and the DM said 'Sure if you roll well enough' and it was a natural 20.#Maybe this is just my own envy cutting through. God damn I wish I could whistle and summon a horse to my side whenever I needed to.#I know I should not be so hung up on the horses. But my brain is cooked. I have been so sick.#The kind of sickness that makes it hard to breathe. Or think. Or have any energy at all.#I wish I had good commentary to write here. I just...really want a nap. And for October to restart to make up for all the lost time.#Thank you all for being so kind and patient once again. It truly means a lot.
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space sweepers but they're delivery people and are at no point on screen through the entire movie
#fantasy high#riz gukgak#kristen applebees#gorgug thistlespring#adaine abernant#fabian seacaster#figueroth faeth#the bad kids#half tempted to say these names are forum handles they use so much it pretty much became their professional names lol#I keep them teenagers bc its funnier that way#no real lore I just like drawing this. but I do think abt how theyre all weirdos too also bc thats funny to me#riz is a huge conspiracyhead who does everything by hands. he has a casio fx-570 in mint condition. nobody knows how he's maintaining it#he is nonetheless Really Good at his job. which somewhat tracks bc it's a job that requires keeping up with interstation conflicts#and new policies and an obsessive amount of planning. but he is Too Good at it. and also he dresses like that#kristen has the atomic engine that theoretically lets her unmake and remake matters with her mind. but it consumes a huge amount#of energy so it's mostly useless. she's still a cult survivor also#gorgug lives his entire life on a ship with his parents who quit a cushy deal maintaining a space station bc he wouldn't be allowed on#the low gravity let him grow very tall but also his oxygen saturation is pretty bad so he's got breathing support#fig is a robot who just found out she's a robot like two months ago. she's been assuming everyone's a robot like her and she's been feeling#very betrayed by her mom lying about that part. she's on a body mod spree which is rough bc system-specific parts are expensive#and so is adapting random parts to her system#fabian's still a pirate captain's son. can't say anything that'd be able to get the vibes across clearer than that#adaine went to tech/business school. she put her monthly allowance towards an ecoterrorist group in her academy which turned out to be an o#and she's currently wanted by UTS. more than fabian. which makes him slightly mad#she's also acquired a passion for low-tech weaponry on the way. she likes ice picks and cleavers#I think up all of this for no reason except that once again the idea of all these people being 1/teens and 2/on the same ship to be posties#is hilarious to me. esp. if they were in a forum group chat beforehand
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So I'm fully in a Transformers Prime binge rewatch and holy SMOKES I did not remember how gay this show was. Like obviously Starscream is twinktown central and Knockout is very flamboyant, yes--but Megatron is so obsessed with Optimus (and vice versa) it's not even funny! Here's a compilation of the best moments from *just the first half of S1*:
Megatron returns after who knows how long and one of the first things out of his mouth is "No one rids me of Optimus Prime except me!!"
Megatron "dies" and Optimus is immediately depressed to the point where Ratchet asks about it and unlocks Sad Reminiscing
The Autobots are trying to figure out what the Decepticons are up to and Optimus starts with "Starscream is no Megatron, but--" just say you miss him
Megatron is literally comatose and his coma dream is him and Optimus fighting over and over again. Optimus just keeps respawning. Bro is LITERALLY living in his head rent free
In fact when Bumblebee gets inside Megatron's head Optimus is literally the First Thing he sees
Why is Bee in there? Because Optimus is deathly sick! And one of the only things that rouses Optimus from his nearly catatonic state? Learning Megatron is alive!
Megatron is also the only one who has the knowledge to save him so now they're both on their deathbeds together and their fates are linked etc. etc.
Bumblebee gets the info he needs by telling Megatron that if he doesn't give them the cure, Optimus will die (and Megatron will therefore not get to kill him)
Megatron (who had figured out this was all about Optimus before Bee even told him): "After our deep history together, to NOT watch the spark ebb from his eyes with my very own...well played, Scout." And then he gives him the cure
Starscream is about to kill Optimus and Megatron--as the FIRST thing he does after getting out of his coma--literally knocks him out of the sky, saves Optimus's life (priorities), and completely lets Optimus go. Which brings the Deliberately Saving Optimus's Life count up to 2!
Will add on as the show continues, but this is just like. 14 episodes in. At this point, forget allegations, they've been fully tried and convicted lol
#transformers prime#optimus prime#megatron#megop#megoptimus#kay can i just catch my breath for a second#the hyperfixation is hyperfixating#the wheel has turned again...#i'm particularly excited for S3 bc i don't think i ever watched it (wasn't in the library i used growing up)#so i don't know how the Orion Pax amnesia arc ends!!! and i imagine there are lots of wonderful gems there...the History...#my meta posts#kind of meta but not really#i just can't get over them. brothers in arms is my all-time favorite dynamic it's everything i want not even a joke it is everything to me#the word t'hy'la gets so much mileage for me bc what else is this?? what else if not 'friendā brotherā lover'???#but this one is the 'bad ending' (for now...!)#aughdkdjfigjjf they literally make me so feral#maccadam
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I feel bad for neglecting Hazel so much, I do have many thoughts about her.. and also a mermaid au that im probably not going to do anything with
#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#hazel wells#fop hazel#fop dev#dev dimmadome#art#digital art#doodles#I wish Hazels parents were more flawed tbh...#Like I get why they wanted to have them be good rep so that young people could know what a good family is supposed to look like#but it felt like every time there was an opportunity to have them do something genuinely flawed-#they would perfectly sidestep it before it even became a problem#I really enjoyed the first episode because it showed a hint of a very unique emotional issue Hazel had related to having a therapist mother#The idea that she has to be mature all the time#constantly living around therapy speak makes her feel like she isnt allowed room to breathe#Feeling unable to express her emotions without someone there giving advice that she isnt ready for yet#just small things!#She feels so pressured to be emotionally mature all the time BECAUSE she gets praised for it#maybe im projecting everyone always tell me I was so mature for my age...#But like I really really wanted to see that from her!!#And then after that episode it doesnt even come up again#The only other episode that features the moms job as a conflict is the one where she wants to spend more time with her#which is a fine conflict I guess but it still ends with her saying all the perfect things#I wanted Markus to be more of a genuine threat too. even if he didnt actually do anything having him be more looming would have been nice#I feel like they mostly forget hes a para scientist most of the time idk.#I just felt like his interactions could have been more unique#Maybe he will be in future seasons idk
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It's always, like, mildly annoying when people see a het trans couple and go "all that work just to be straight?" like... one, you don't know if they're straight and two, trans people don't owe you a queer sexuality to "make up" for the fact we're trans. Transhet people aren't a subtype of trans people, they're members of the trans community, and the queer one if they so desire!
#trans#transgender#lgbt#lgbtq#ftm#mtf#nonbinary#and i don't really vibe with the word microaggression but it's very that#like it just comes across like people think trans folks owe them queerness and cabaret preformances y'know?#and we cannot *be* if it means the way we are being isn't this carefully curated version people have of transness + queerness#and it can kind of warp your desires and understanding of yourself because you *want* community and to be seen and to be allowed to just be#this isn't universal and the 'you' is impersonal. i am aware this is a broad range of experiences and not everybody can/does relate#my overall point is that it's probably not the best move to act like this toward trans people#maybe i read too much into this but it's just something i have seen over and over and over and over . . . again#shoutout to the real ones (heterosexual and/or straight trans people or people in straight-presenting relationships š)#back to playing the lelda of zelda (is it bad that i don't even call her zelda anymore i just go 'THERES LELDA!!!')#it sounds wrong to call her zelda now š#the LEG OF ZEG. SWORD SKORD???? BREATH OF THE WEATH!! -my brain 24/7/365
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You've never done that when I got close to you before. Why? None of your business. Tell me, or you can't leave.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 10
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#uservid#userspring#userrain#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#every time i color this scene i get stronger. anyway there were so many expressions i just couldnt leave out. the deep breath ai di takes#steeling himself before admitting it. & the way chen yi absorbs it the way he blinks away & his mouth opens before focusing on ai di again#thinking about it. thinking about four years of attacks ai di had to withstand. understanding the way he is now but hating how its happened#and also the guilt hes gotta feel from that! & yet thats overcome in this moment by a need to not let ai di put a wall between them#which is what ai di keeps trying to do. he admits a vulnerable thing and then deflects FOUR TIMES in this scene. first when sleeping#& choking chen yi when woken(& avoiding when questioned abt it). second by dropping his guard & worrying when he finds chen yi injured#& twice more shown in this set. he has to shake it off he has to put his wall back up but his instincts are strongest & chen yi SEES them.#you can see the way ai di wants to relax into that hug. the way he just wants to BREATHE but instead uses those breaths to defend himself#he chooses to flirt hoping it'll make chen yi back off. hoping he'll stop asking him to be vulnerable. but chen yi knows his tricks now.#and hes not going to let ai di continue believing he doesnt CARE about him. its poetic the way he gives him a taste of his own medicine#like it's *strategic*. he watches and learns. he knows his own influence over ai di he knows that HE is ai di's weakness. it's..chef's kiss
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Vessel and his "all I have ever given anyone was a small window into the emotional waiting room of my mind."
Actually, if I could crawl through said window and curl up against the door to your mind, eyes closed, hand and ear pressed gently to it like if I'm not careful, everything would dissolve under my fingertips, I would.
#sleep token#all that to say š„ŗš„ŗš„ŗ#you just want to give all the reassurances and love and support to someone#to lighten a too heavy burden we carry within ourselves#to just bear the weight of some of it for someone to be able to breathe again#to see the sun again to have the smallest ray glimmer in the darkend corner of our minds#anyway over here just wanting to tear the door down and be all what do you need what do you want what can i do#to make the emotions bearable#welcome to my brain today#ā”
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All I can think about is how fucked everyone treats a Shadow Dragon Rook if they choose to save Treviso over Minrathous. Because the decision is sound, you know? Horrible, and hard, but Treviso is this half-broken merchant city. No guard other than the crows, no defenses, no giant floating big brother laser in the sky and one of Thedas' largest collection of mages. And so Rook has to trust their fellow Dragons to protect their home and hope to anything that they can keep the blight from Treviso. Only it's not enough, and despite the fact that Rook is one (1) person, who's only leading because no one else would goddamn do it, who has never even SEEN a dragon before the one at D'Meta's Crossing, and who still managed to fight off one dragon right after a grueling mission and then still have the energy to run off to try and help Minrathous - everyone still seems to blame them. And not just that, but the entire team spends most of the next act with their hearts breaking for Minrathous, and for Neve especially. 'Poor Neve, her home is gone, her people are dead, her life as she knew it is changed forever, poor neve, I know you didn't have a choice Rook but Neve is hurting now'. And I LOVE Neve. I love her. But it is so fucked up that as a Shadow Dragon Rook who was forced to make a horrific choice, who ALSO lost their home, their people, the life they knew- no one ever really bothers to comfort Rook. Or even consider that Rook would be absolutely shattered by what happens to Minrathous. Or fucking furious, because Rook and the goddamn Crows managed to fight off their dragon by the skin of their damn teeth with basically nothing, so how could the Shadow Dragons and the rest of Greater Minrathous not handle theirs! What were they goddamn doing that whole time?!?
The only difference between Rook and Neve is that Rook doesn't have the luxury of fucking off in the middle of a fight for the world to go mourn what they've lost. They have no choice but to pull their shit together and keep going.
And still every time Rook goes to a companion with the broken pieces of themselves in their bloody palms its just. "Oh Rook, how could this have happened to Poor Neve"
#da:v#datv#da:v spoilers#datv spoilers#shadow dragons rook#this is NOT neve hate okay i adore her#and her devastation is true and fair (although i think she and rook should really get to scream it out ngl)#because hurt people hurt people#but for fucks sake the rest of the team like#not even a little bit of dialog about it??? other than lucanis saying like#i know you had to make a choice but damn#poor neve#as if Rook didn't have to sacrifice their own city to save his#ugh#sorry im at that point in a playthrough again and it makes me want to chew glass#someone write a Rook having a core meltdown about how guilty and spiteful and validated and alone SD!Rook has to feel in that aftermath#my girl goes into the music room and just#screams and screams and screams until her throat is hoarse#until she's expelled enough grief from her lungs that she has the space to breathe through the resentment that starts to build#against her team and neve and the shadow dragons and just#everyone#whoo this got away from me a bit but#dense rants
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hey so friendly reminder
stede gives *full body* kisses
#I love it when actors just go full-body like that#because yes kisses with LOTS OF SPACE in between is a thing that happens!#but they're not the *only* kind#and there is a *very particular message* about a full-body one#especially on screen#and that message is#'somebody said we must live in two separate bodies - but my skin says it misses you -#and my blood remembers when it ran through both our veins -#and every part of me just wants to prove a motherfucker wrong - so let's kiss#and kiss -#until our bodies become one again -#and we can finally take a full deep breath of air#instead of the lonely half-measures that sustained us#for all the years it took to find our other halves again#(...which tbh is kind of a lot for one man's hip-to-hip full-dick action kiss to accomplish but like. I calls it like I sees it)#our flag means death#our flag means death s2 spoilers
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