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SURPRISE DINNER | a.hotchner x reader
summary: in which you surprise aaron at the fbi headquarters with a nice dinner.
pairing: aaron hotchner x reader
content warnings: none, just pure fluff!
word count: 880
a/n: trying one more time writing for aaron! i hope you guys like it! feedback is always appreciated! also, my inbox is always open to chat! till the next one!
The silence of the BAU office at that time always gave it a graveyard feel. The only sound came from the keys being pressed and the occasional rustle of papers. The cold white light of the fluorescent lamps reflected off the piles of reports that had accumulated on Aaron's desk. He rubbed his eyes, tired of staring at the computer screen, and stretched his stiff shoulders. The clock on the screen read 9:30 pm, but for him, it could have been any time ā since he'd been sitting in that chair since 8:30 am.
The bullpen door opened with a slight creak, but he ignored it, as he was used to the sporadic movements of agents at that time. However, it wasn't until he smelled a familiar and inviting aroma that he decided to raise his head, completely intrigued.
And there you were, walking calmly towards his office with a cooler bag in one hand and a determined smile on your face. You were dressed casually, wearing your favorite sweatshirt, making you look a little out of place in that formal FBI environment, but that didn't stop your illustrious presence from brightening up the office.
Aaron frowned, surprised and a little alert. He stood up slowly, came around the desk, and smiled in her direction.
āWhat are you doing here?ā
āDuh, rescuing you, of course,ā you replied with a laugh, placing the bag on the table. āI think a special agent deserves a real dinner once in a while too.ā
He looked around, as if worried about someone watching the scene, but the few agents still on the floor didn't seem to care what was going on in the boss's office. Still, his lips tightened into a line.
āHoney, you didn't have toā¦ā
āAaron.ā you interrupted him gently, leaning a little towards him and resting your hand on his shoulder. Your eyes met his, and your tone was firm but gentle. āDo I really need to remind you that even the toughest agents need a moment's respite?ā
He sighed, the resistance visible on his face diminishing little by little. āI'm not going to be able to convince you to leave without doing this, am I?ā
You just smiled as you started taking the pots and plates out of the bag. āNot a chance.ā
The brief smile that threatened to appear on his face made it clear to you that all your efforts had paid off.
Aaron watched as you organized everything in the small free space on the table, opening the containers and separating the cutlery with calm movements. The tension in his shoulders gradually eased. The aroma of home-cooked food began to spread throughout the office.
āYou did all this?ā he asked quietly, with a hint of incredulity.
āOf course!ā you replied with a simple smile. āSomeone had to make sure you didn't spend the night eating nothing but junk food.ā
He let out an almost imperceptible sigh and took the fork you offered. The first bite was accompanied by a brief closing of his eyes, and when he opened them again, there was something different about his expression. A small smile ā shy but genuine ā appeared at the corner of his lips.
āIs it good?ā you asked, already knowing what the answer would be, but you wanted to hear it come out of his mouth.
āIt'sā¦ perfect.ā he admitted, almost hesitantly, as if he wasn't used to receiving this kind of affection from you. He looked down at his plate for a few seconds before continuing. āI don't know when I last had a meal like thisā¦ made by someone who really cares.ā
The words were simple, but they carried something deeper underneath. He didn't need to explain. You knew the weight he carried on a daily basis, trying to balance his responsibilities as head of an FBI unit and father of a 7-year-old boy, without letting either slip through his fingers.
āYou deserve this, Aaron, and much more,ā you said, sincerely, as you sat down next to him on the small office sofa.
The conversation flowed lightly, breaking the usual silence of the office. For a few minutes, the weight of the piles of papers and pending reports seemed to disappear. He even made a joking comment about how it had perhaps taken the fun out of the quick meals he usually had.
You realized that the clock had gone forward more than you would have liked, and stood up to start packing the empty containers back into the bag. Aaron stood there, looking at you with a mixture of gratitude and something you couldn't quite identify.
āThanks for that.ā he said, holding your hand briefly before you could leave. The sincerity in his voice softened the firmness in his touch. āYou don't know how much this means to me.ā
You smiled, squeezing his hand lightly in response, before letting go and starting your walk towards the elevators. As you turned to look at him once more, you saw that he had already returned to work, but this time his posture was less rigid and his countenance lighter.
As you left, you were sure that he could still taste dinner, and your presence, like a small flame in the midst of the chaos that always surrounded him.
#criminal minds x reader#aaron hotchner x reader#aaron hotchner imagine#aaron hotchner fanfiction#aaron hotchner fanfic#aaron hotchner fic#aaron hotchner x fem!reader#aaron hotchner x you#criminal minds imagine#criminal minds fic
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How to play the original Secrets Can Kill in 2025 without game discs
oh my god I almost just wrote 2015 instead of 2025
I've successfully been playing the original SCK for the past couple hours (including "changing discs" and reopening save files), but it's possible I could run into problems later, so no promises that this is a perfect solution.
This method still requires installing the game files, so I think it'll only work on Windows, sorry Mac users. I'm using Windows 11. I was also able to install and open the game on a Windows 10 computer, but I didn't actually attempt to play it there.
All you need are copies of the game .iso files and a virtual hard disk drive program. The post got long, so details are under the Keep Reading. It's not actually complicated, but apparently I talk a lot lol
The .iso files:
.iso files are digital replicas of optical discs (CDs, DVDs, etc). You probably don't have the original Secrets Can Kill discs, so you will need to...acquire these files.
[NOTE: My personal ethics say to not pirate shit from small studios or independent creators. HeR is a small studio and if people don't buy stuff from them, they can't afford to make new games. However, the original SCK is abandonware and literally can't be purchased, so imo, it's perfectly acceptable to pirate it.
I want to strongly discourage anyone from pirating any of the other games which can be purchased. They have 50% off sales all the time (including through today, 1/5/25) and a bunch of the games are as low as $5 when on-sale. The digital downloads don't come with any kind of restrictive licenses, so if you get a new computer, you can transfer the files and keep your games forever. Pls keep supporting HeR so that we can maybe keep getting new games]
I recommend getting the SCK .iso files from archive.org. That link will take you to a software search for Nancy Drew Secrets Can Kill. As of this post, there's only 1 result that's actually for the original SCK.
Anytime you're downloading software from a site where anyone can upload stuff, there's always a possibility of viruses. Check and see if the uploader seems sketchy (Are there comments on any of their uploads warning about viruses? Is the account brand new?). You could run the files through a virus checking program, but apparently .iso files frequently throw false positives. The SCK uploader seemed legit, but I initially downloaded and installed these on an old computer that I don't use, just in case.
There will be a bunch of files available to download. You specifically need to download the "ISO IMAGE" files. There should be two of them- disc 1 and disc 2. After downloading, I recommend moving the files out of your downloads folder because you'll need to access them frequently.
The virtual hard disk drive program:
Like I said above, .iso files are digital copies of physical discs. Similarly, the way to use the files is via a digital version of a physical disk drive. "Mounting" the .iso files to a virtual disk drive is analogous to inserting a disk into a physical drive.
Windows 8 and above has a built-in ability to mount .iso files, but when I tried that, I got a notice that the file was corrupted. The internet recommended that a dedicated program might have more functionality. I chose the Elby Virtual CloneDrive program, which is free.
Installing the game:
After downloading and installing the virtual disk drive software, navigate to your .iso files, and right click on the file for disc 1. Scroll to "Open with", and choose "Mount Files with Virtual CloneDrive". It will now show up as a CD drive in This PC in the file explorer:
Double-click to open the drive and scroll to "setup.exe". Open the file to run the game installer.
The game will install in a typical way. I think the only non-default option I chose was "No, I will install DirectX myself". I didn't actually install DirectX, but everything is working fine ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ idk, maybe now it's built-in to Windows or something.
Running the game:
To run the game, just open the game shortcut like a normal program. If you can't find the shortcut or didn't create one during the install, go to your C: drive -> Program Files (x86) -> Nancy Drew -> Secrets Can Kill -> Game.exe
In order for the game to run, you need to have Disc 1 still mounted to your virtual drive. Unless you specifically unmounted it, it should still be there, but if you get a pop-up that says to insert the disc, the problem is probably that the disc isn't mounted.
I was expecting that I would have to run the game in Compatibility Mode to handle that it was made for fucking Windows 98, but I didn't have to do anything. It just worked with no adjustments. A miracle!!
Changing discs:
The original Secrets Can Kill was too big to fit on a single disc at the time it was made! They split it across multiple discs by location. The school is on disc 2, while all other locations are on disc 1. So if you need to move from the diner to the school for example, you have to change discs.
When you need to change discs, you'll get this screen:
WITHOUT closing the game program, minimize the game. Easiest way is by either pressing the windows key or alt+tab. Navigate to your .iso files, right click on the new disc, and choose Mount.
Navigate back to the game and click OK. Easy as that!
Whenever you fully exit and re-open the game, you have to open it with disc 1 mounted. So if you saved while at the school, you'll open the game with disc 1, load your save, and immediately switch over to disc 2.
And I think that's everything! Phew! This got a lot longer than I planned on. Feel free to send me questions if you're having trouble, but I may not know the answer. I'm not an expert in this stuff, I just spent some time poking around at it last week is all.
Have fun! Go manatees!
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Hey you! Have you seen this post by @pigswithwings? Do you like it? Do you like animation? Well do I have the news for you! With the author's permission and consultance, I am running a 5 minute animation short film on it, called "Angel back at home"!
Now, here's the most exciting news: We are looking for storyboarders, background designers, and 3 voice actors of all genders! Even better, you don't need to be a professional on any of those things whatsoever, only have some knowledge on them (and be of minimum age 16) to try and apply for the role!
Unfortunately, it is not paid, as for legal reasons we can not make profit out of it. Why should you join then, you ask? In this project we guarantee three things:
Portifolio building: Everything you will be producing, you can be using to add to your personal art portifolio, if this is a career you'd like to follow!
Resume: The short-film will be hosted on several film festivals, so you'll be able to put a big list of festivals your work was featured in, if you'd like to follow any art career. If not, the entire experience can be written in several bullet points on a resume ("experience with working in group", "experience of working within a deadline", etc) for any general job.
Advice and art growth: Every art that gets made on this project will be seen by me, the producer, and will be given advice for improvement. This is especially good if you've been on an art block, is self-taught, or overall would like a different perspective on your art. Don't worry, I'm not harsh!
Additional points is that it allows me to know new artists and new talents! From the last project I had run in this format, I had taken notice of 5 to 6 different artists that I hadn't known were so talented for their specific skills, which made me keep their names for the next project I'd produce. I am someone who dreams of opening an animation studio for new underrated talents and non-professionals that are studying to be professionals, so i'm looking forward to finding the artists on this project that will catch my eye and I'll bring over to the next project.
The timing is flexible since it is a volunteer ran project, if I can't pay I can't demand work hours of a job, so the deadline won't be too tight. For 5 minutes of film, the boards, voice acting, and single music will all in total take about 3 months, with the deadline starting in ferbuary and ending in the end of April. The following months will be given towards animation, sound editing and mixing, and video editing.
Requirements for storyboarders: Know how to draw, understand rule of thirds, enjoy drawing expressiveness through body language. You can be using any drawing device, whether that's computer, cellphone, or traditional, as long as you use the storyboard template in question and stay faithful to references.
Application link for storyboarders
Requirement for voice actors: have a somewhat good microphone(doesn't need to be professional and expensive, just good enough so we don't want to give the audio editors too much work), have interest in acting (preferably have had at least one theather class).
Application link for V/A
Lines for V/A
Requirement for background designer: Know how to draw or how to put together a 3d model of free assests, you don't need to be super experienced and specialized with drawing backgrounds but it'll be good to have a basic idea of it. You will be given specific references for the backgrounds, and you won't draw every single background, it'll be split work
Application link for background designer
Applications end by ferbuary 8th, but may be pushed forward if the applications are low. Everyone that passed will be noticed two days after.
Best of luck to everyone!
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āDrake,ā Damian announced, āI require your presence at an outing this afternoon.ā
āāHello, Tim, how are you?ā āIām good, Damian, and how about you? Did you need something?ā Itās usually considered polite not to walk in and immediately make demands of people, Damian,ā Tim replied from where he was hunched over his keyboard. He didnāt look over at his unexpected visitor, but he bet the brat was rolling his eyes.
āWhatever. Will you do it or not?ā
Tim hummed. āDepends on what this āoutingā is. And why you didnāt ask Bruce or Dick to take you.ā
āFather and Grayson are both imbeciles,ā Damian huffed.
āTheyāre too busy today, you mean?ā
āI meant what I said. Are you an imbecile like they are?ā
āAgain, you havenāt told me what it is you want to do.ā
āFine,ā Damian grumbled. āColin has asked me to do something called an āescape roomā with him. It sounded mildly diverting, so I looked into it. Thereās a recently opened establishment for such an activity, but we need four people to participate.ā
āAnd you want me to be one of those four,ā Tim concluded. He pushed himself away from the computer. āIāve got time, so sure, Iāll come with. Two things, though.ā He paused for dramatic effect.
Damian crossed his arms impatiently. āYes?ā
Tim grinned. āFirst, whoās this Colin?ā
āAn acquaintance. He assisted me in apprehending Victor Zsasz not long ago.ā
āIs he around your age?ā
āApproximately.ā
Was he some sort of meta, then? How else would a (presumably untrained) kid be able to handle Zsasz? Tim decided to file that away for later inspection. At least it sounded like Damian was making friends. He definitely needed some. āAlright then, second thing. You said you needed four people. Even with me, you only have three. Whoās your fourth?ā
Damian looked away. āIā¦ hadnāt gotten that far yet.ā Was that embarrassment Tim heard in his voice? Damian was usually too proud for that.
āOkay, not a problem. I can wrangle us another person.ā If the person he was thinking of could make it, both Damian and them could get a lot out of this. Hurrah for two birds with one escape-room-shaped stone.
āVery well. Colin and I will be waiting outside for you. I presume this fourth person will meet us at the establishment?ā
āProbably, yeah. Did you really leave Colin on my doorstep?ā
āHe did not want to enter, I would say because he thought he might be unwelcome. A stupid notion; you are far too trusting.ā
āThanks,ā Tim said drily. He waved towards the door. āAlright, lemme make this call.ā
Damian nodded and walked away. Before fully exiting the room, though, he turned back to Tim. āWhat are you working on, anyway?ā he asked.
Tim hummed. āNothing much. Just preparing.ā He didnāt offer any further explanation. After a few moments of waiting expectantly, Damian huffed and left.
#my writing#chipping away at my drakeau fic#written some 15k for it so far but havenāt actually finished a full volume yet#but this snippet is from a point after theyāve actually bonded#drakeau#wip#my wips#snippet#fic snippet#iāll get there eventually#tim drake#damian wayne#red robin#dc red robin#robin#dc robin#batman#dc#dc comics#š
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Hi! Quick question
Sorry if this is invasive or weird, but sometimes I see you say that you can't reblog posts because the image isn't described and you can't see it. Do you use a screen reader?
I'm not sure how screen readers work or what kinds of them there are, but I've heard that sometimes they can have trouble reading certain things.
Are there anythings things that would be a problem for yours to read, like italics or colored text? Or does it understand those?
I just want to make sure I don't send asks that you won't be able to read!
Hello!
I don't find this weird or invasive at all, I think it's quite kind. I don't use a screenreader because my computer's kind of on the verge of dying and can barely handle me using it as is.
So, I make do without one, which generally means avoiding posts without descriptions because I often can't make out things or the effort I'd have to put into making them out would take awhile and put me in extreme pain.
Despite this, I occasionally try to figure out undescribed posts. Things that make that especially difficult or impossible are colored text, small text, lots of text, detailed images and super vibrant colors. (All of which are amazingly frequent on Tumblr. T_T)
(Actually, shout out to @mythicalcoolkid because he describes posts for me sometimes and I appreciate it so, so much.)
This doesn't mean that if you send me an ask containing any of those that I won't try to answer it, it just means it may take me forever.
But if you describe any images like that (or just any images in general), it guarantees I can at least read your message.
Thank you so much btw, this is a very considerate ask and I appreciate it. <33
#sex education#asks#disability#fr this is very kind#I was thinking just yesterday#that it felt like some ppl have forgotten that I'm like#an actual person#but this has reminded me that some people have not forgotten that#so ty
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āWELCOME TO THE AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS!!!ā§
āMy name is Caine!!ā
ā§And my name is Pomni!!ā§
Hi uh This is the Mod for this blog!! You can call me Ella or Daysee! As you may or may bot know, this is an askblog for my TADC RING-MISSTRESS AU! Please read the Info and rules before sending any asks!
-RULES-
-This is what the mod's text looks like (the other characters text will be displayed in the Info section.
-This is a showtime AU/blog, plus Voz is technically a fankid. If you don't like the ship, that's fine. You aren't obligated to stay.
-Please, no NSFW. This game is for all ages.
-Annon magic and Roleplay threads are fine. Just keep it tame.
-I am not obligated to answer an ask if I feel uncomfortable. Anyone showing disrespect will be blocked.
-I reccomend that you read the fic before sending any asks. If there's something specific you want cleared up, then yea I can answer that.
Here's the Fic master post!
-AU INFO-
The Amazing Digital Circus is one of the first virtual reality computer games! Despite going through a... rough point in development, It finally was able to hit the shelves! But right before this, a virus had found its way in and corrupted Bubble, leaving Caine without an assistant... but not for long!!
Now, both Caine and Pomni run the Circus! The rest of the cast Join players during adventures. Other than that, things are relatively the same...
ā§POMNIā§
After helping Caine destroy a virus that got its way into bubble, she stepped up as his assistant! Little to Caine's knowledge, however, she plans to use this for an opportunity to find an exit...
[VOZ]
A shared project Caine and Pomni are both actively working on. A small simple AI meant to bond with the players. But he seems to rather prefer his "family." They don't quite mind, though.
āCAINEā
The Head Ringmaster of The Amazing Digital Circus!! The AI who started it all!! He was thrilled to find out the game would finally release!! Most of the others... not so much...
Exept for one...
Ā°āBUBBLEāĀ°
Bubble is...
Deceased(?)
Uh yeah thassit happy asking!!
Main acc: @dayseedrawz2
#the amazing digital circus#tadc#tadc caine#tadc pomni#caine x pomni#tadc showtime#tadc oc#[ring misstress au]#dayseeyaps
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(I can't believe this wasn't your top priority... :( (joke))
I lowkey associate no face with an ex friend that was a piece of work which is probably where my negative association comes from lmaoo. That one isn't no face's fault tbh. I watch gorgeous animation like studio ghibli movies, want to animate, and then remember that it takes Time and Effort.
I mean the shit I read in middle school. Um. Could have been greatly improved by immaculate conception. Let's just say that. (VLD omegaverse mpreg... but like. Having read more of the variety idk what they were on cause there was BLOOD)
That's so valid because I checked it out then played roblox on the library computer until it closed lmao. My weekly routine back then- Jokes on you we have a bunch of them in my city so I can just go to another one mwahaha- My mom gets so frustrated by manga cause she learned a few years ago that she really likes graphic novels, but she has a really hard time adjusting to manga formatting- There's this other CLAMP manga collection we both read and that's like. The only thing she's been able to stand.
I discovered wattpad and told all of my friends and made them get it. I was deranged and I wish I had the same energy now-
"mf lock in" is exactly how he'd be alkdjs- I think he'd be more caring/chill outside of jobs and stuff but once it comes to getting shit done he's a lot more serious about it. Like he cares about everyone but god damn it we can not fuck this up or Polpo is cutting this from out pay.
Again I have no regrets about not using twitter ever.
I'm just always thinking about angst and it's contagious ig... A blessing for me and a curse for everyone else...
I have been on both the introvert and the extrovert side of it and both are fun ljskd
My first conversation with my now best friend which I remember and she doesn't (we were. 8-9) was about how we kept changing topics of conversation. And we do that to this day lmao. My brain works too fast for me to voice my train of though, everyone else just has to keep up asdjkl
You should totally ramble to me about ships you like :3 However many you like Iām just curious uwu
(I didnāt answer this as soon as I got it bc I was thinking about what to say lolz š)
tbh I like most ships as long as itās not problematic or I find them weird/that they donāt have much chemistry. I also donāt mind poly or platonic ships (duh). Iād be sitting here all day yapping ab the ships I like/am okay w bc frankly it doesnāt have to strictly be character A X character B, I think it could also be character A X character C, etc. as long as itās not any wrong. I wonāt be going apeshit(/neg) over ships that I donāt like as much or have like a 2 year age gap. I mean, I think it starts to get weird when thereās 4 years of difference. I think people do too much when they hate on less popular ships smh if itās nothing weird then let ppl have fun w their little kitty witties smh š
Huge yapping starts here vvv
Some ships I like tho r a lot of Ghibli movie couples in general bc theyāre just super cute and I love the writing Ghibli does for its characters (I want what they have.). I also like Yukito/Yue X Touya and Syaoran X Sakura from CCS but that doesnāt mean I donāt also like Tomoko X Sakura (pretty sure Tomoko implied to like her anyway). I also like some other side ships from CCS but I barely remember their names bc itās been so long since Iāve watched it and Netflix took it down š. CCS ships r cute in general I think, Iāve never seen any problematic ship (except that one girl X her fucking teacher. Pookie. Youāre like 13. Donāt date ur teacher. And she was so pretty too bro why did they make her a questionable character š). And now. Getting to jjba my beloved. Since I unfortunately focus so so so much on p5 those are the only ships Iāll yap ab š¢. Huge honorable mention to Jonathan X Erina (jonaeri) tho theyāre super cute together even if a lot of ppl said they barely have screen time and stuff :3. Anyway. Part 5. I honestly donāt care much about ships in la squadra as long as they had some form of interaction yāknow (I donāt pay too much attention to La squadra anyway š). Usually ppl get really divided when it comes to Bucci gang ships tho. Honestly Iād rather see them all as a friend group that see each other as siblings to avoid all that shipping, but I admit I really like some pairings, like fugonara, bruabba, giotrish, futrish, naratrish, etc. I really donāt mind it that much (I donāt rlly ship mista w anyone bc I just donāt think thereās anybody matching his freak š). I mainly ship fugonara as you can see just bc to me it makes a lot of sense even if I also see them under platonic light. If thereās fugo, thereās narancia, and if thereās narancia, thereās fugo. I just find that rlly cute :3. I also like their backstories and how they tie together and the narancia death scene ripped my heart out in the anime so (IM CRYING AGAIN JUST FROM THINKING AB IT STOP š). Again that doesnāt mean I dislike the other ships, I just donāt pay much attention to them or think they had as much chemistry or time together. I love seeing my fave characters tho, so itās not like I wonāt like the content if thereās like gionara or something. Honestly I like seeing ppl have fun w their cutie patooties as long as itās not too controversial, once again. Itās rlly a shame that ppl can jump at each others throat bc they disagree on a mere ship. Itās literally not gonna alter your life. Also, bc I say a ship some bucci gang characters doesnāt mean I donāt also ship them platonically. (Iāll type it like itās ao3 tags lolz. Pretty sure & instead of / is for platonic, right?) I rlly like Narancia&Mista&Fugo (torture dance trio is literally the best friendship ever to me bc wdym you did a coordinated dance w ur homies to torture someone thatās so cool). There are also a few others, but they donāt come to mind rn (and thereās a f,y in my room annoying me.) You know what I think I gave jjba way too much attention. I also like Mimi X Sheshe (my fav lesbians fr š) from mermaid melody pichi pichi pitch. They tried censoring them by making them āsistersā, but they were blatantly and very obviously lesbians. Like vro. They are touching each other so homoerotically and have complimenting colours. And I think thatās most of itā¦
I donāt wanna make this any longer than it is so um. Yeah. This was a ramble. I didnāt realize it was so long lolz. But yeah itās basically that :3
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Okay, apparently my Fire tablet and PC are not syncing together, which resulted in me making a high-pitched pterodactyl noise a little while ago when I thought EVERYTHING I HAD WRITTEN IN MY EMAIL DRAFT YESTERDAY HAD DISAPPEARED.
Thankfully, it's still there on my tablet so I emailed it to myself and now I can see it on the PC but DANG is this a clunky, slow and painful way to try to do this. I have a SYSTEM when it comes to writing, frens. Anything messing with MY SYSTEM makes me feel a bit
and even more
Do I dare try installing Word 2003 (my beloved) again? Is it worth it to potentially go back to Blue Screen of Death City, population MEEEEEE or is there something else I'm missing?
Can't use Google docs as my computer already proved. I don't want anything I have to install on the computer *points to fears of returning to BSoD City* but I want something that I can somehow save at the same time. I dunno. I was hoping to get this in really good shape today and instead I'm stuck where I left off and feeling like I'm trying to excavate a hole the size of Mt. Everest with a teaspoon.
I thought about writing in a Tumblr draft or in AO3 itself but either of those has their own perils (Tumblr in accidentally POSTING IT and AO3 warns not to keep your only copy there). Maybe writing in AO3 and email it back to myself when I'm done for the day/writing session?
I just want to be able to use my computer like a COMPUTER again and not have to be so cautious and careful with everything. This is honestly stupid stressful. UGH.
*more angry moth noises, just 'cause*
Update: I'm going to try writing in AO3 for now and saving as a draft/emailing that back to myself. It's better than nothing and feels a little more familiar since I usually do my final editing in AO3 since I can often catch errors in AO3's preview that I missed in Word for some reason.
Still, if you have any recommendations for apps/sites/programs etc you like to write in, I'd like to hear them.
#ageless aislynn#ais is writing#writing#reference#writing reference#help#recommendations#writing program recommendation#i just want to be able to use my computer like i used to#like i've used a computer for over 20 years now#*sigh*#thank you for reading#love you frens
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time for more soren character analysis:
petrineās battle conversation with soren in chapter 23 has always been a favorite of mine, and now that iām looking at it again i noticed a few extra details:
itās important to mention that this battle takes place directly after ike and sorenās a-support, in which soren confesses heās a branded and expects to be shunned, only for ike to tell him that it doesnāt matter and he wants soren to stay by his side regardless.
anyway, besides āNow let me show you true fear!ā being a really hard line, itās really cool to see how sorenās reaction to his branded status being pointed out changes so sharply over the course of a handful of chapters. i already analyzed his reaction to nasirās betrayal where heās agitated over the fact that he could have prevented it if nasir hadnāt threatened to reveal him being branded to the army, so seeing him being so confident in himself is great, and iāll touch on why here.
one of the reasons i like to say the game treats ike and sorenās a-support as canon is actually this particular conversation. soren, having just been reassured that ike will always want him at his side regardless of who or what he is, now suddenly has had his biggest fear and insecurity taken off his back. he doesnāt need to hate himself for being branded because ike, the only person whoās ever truly mattered to soren, doesnāt care at all.
back to the conversation, sorenās judgment over the situation at hand is no longer clouded by his own self-loathing. instead of comparing them as branded and seeing himself as just as horrid and disgusting as petrine (tiger branded, fun fact), heās able to instead compare them as individuals and realize that what heās done up to that point will never measure up to the atrocities sheās committed. i think the best part personally is just how disgusted soren looks by the notion he and petrine are the same, because heās rightā him being cutthroat and pragmatic is nothing compared to everything petrine has done in daeinās nameā and the fact he can clearly see this means that, for the very first time, heās finally starting to heal from the mental wounds inflicted upon him by his childhood.
overall, i like this little nod to soren starting to learn to grow and change from who he was at the beginning of fe9. itās more clearly seen in radiant dawn, where heās calmer to the point ranulf even comments on it, but these little inklings implying the start of sorenās healing are really cool to see.
#this amount of information in just two lines of dialogue is so good i can hardly stand it#funny enough i almost wasnāt even able to retrieve these screenshots#the other day dolphin just kinda shit itself and refused to read my game files for fe9#and i ended up spending like an hour fighting with the config to fix it#but for whatever reason the screenshot command is no longer saving to the folder even though it says it is#and i only realized this after completing the map#i got really fuckin lucky that i had a save state near the end that i could go back into#so i could just use my computerās screenshot command to save it directly to my desktop#but it means that the screenshots of that one scene in ch. 22#where titania yells at ike to tell her who killed greil and soren tells her to chill because itās upsetting ike#are gone if i canāt find wherever the fuck the image files went#which sucks because i really wanted to talk about that one too#sorry for the rant#anyway tags#tellius#fe9#long post#does this count as#ikesoren#fellas is it gay to devote your entire life to the very first person to show you kindness
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Are most people (who use a Windows OS) using 11?
I'm not surprised if it's the case that an OS update would cause issues with something that's basically only relevant as a legacy thing (and companies sure do love maintaining support for legacy features haaaaaaa).
But also I'm using 10 lol. Not for any good reason - I stopped using Win7 in May 2023 and only then because Steam was going to stop supporting 7.
Plus I kept seeing posts like "Your computer is going to explode and all your money and every person you love will be stolen by hackers if you don't stop using Windows 7 RIGHT NOW" so I was like... fineeeeeeeee. I guess I care about those things. lol
I wouldn't be surprised at all to know there were similar upgrade struggles with the update cycle of Windows 10 earlier in its lifespan that caused similar issues.
That's the hard part of only playing 20 year old games, there's no reason to upgrade (beyond security I guess like I said), and more often than not the upgrade will make things that used to work stop working.
Hopefully it's temporary though? Like whatever the update broke will be corrected with another update? Although by that time they'll probably be pushing for another OS change :\
ETA: Oh what I literally didn't even know that 2 weeks ago Microsoft found a security issue that made them say you need to upgrade to 11 immediately. I never got that memo lol
Even that article says "This is why you need to upgrade the second the company changes your OS even though the new update causes Blue Screens of Death for no reason" - Like come on. Can I use my computer in peace for a goddamn minute? lol
#I really don't want to use Linux I know it's better and cooler and everything#but I just want to continue using my computer the way it is right now#I don't want to have to learn how to code or whatever you do with Linux because nothing is compatible with it#I just want to use the things I'm using right now#like why's that so hard to be able to do ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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at least if she does go through with it i can just go to seymour and no-one will know. what're they gonna do about it
#xoxo.monty#trying to look on the bright side#mostly failing#i feel. miserable#teenagers famously love it when you cut off their only communication with friends both irl and online for several weeks#and force them to only talk to their family#ik im probably being dramatic and stupid its just that most of my projects etc rely on being able to look things up or use websites#i guess i could go to the library and use their computers actually#so it wouldnt be . too bad. still definitely not GOOD#but i wouldnt be completely cut off#d'accord maybe i would be fine#like its only half an hours bike ride#oh wait the library is closed for a week#okay i changed my mind again definitely would not be fine#also what if its hot#EXCEPTING those two things i could prolly ride to the library every day#which sounds stupid but im worried that if i miss another meetup(????) with my friends theyre gonna think i hate them or that im a bitch#also like. i want to see them? well. mostly#bc the first time i was invited out i had JUST had dental surgery so i. could not go.#nd the second time i was still feeling bad (from the surgery) so i didnt go but that time i lied about why#bc i thought she might not believe me#and im scared that if i dont reply to another invite#they'll just stop inviting me#hell im scared thats already happened and i just dont know#i do have more to say but i have rambled for long enough lmaoo so i'll leave it at that
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Wverytime I sit down at a computer to make music I get so scared
#i like siting down with a guitar and writing music but the daw is still so scary to me and i dont know how to make it less scary#its like i dont know where to start#i understand music theory i can write chord progressions i can write melodies but arranging feels so daunting#like just trying to pick keyboard voices and stuff im like overwhelmed and then its like i just dont even know where to start#i think i need to do more covers to practice arranging because trying to do it with my own songs im just like i have NO IDEA#i do think that trying to recreate arrangements of other songs I like will help me but also just idk#i really want to get better at writing at the piano but i find it really hard#rn i write almost all my songs on the guitar then i guess what i have to do is try to think of like what style i want it to have#and sort of try to create a map like probably literally on paper and then try to go in and sort of do it but god its so hard i dont know#it feels so so daunting#even trying to make silly little stuff with just like some synths is really hard for me right now its so out of my comfort zone and AUGH id#its frustrating im scared of the computer but i also very much do not want to be an acoustic singer songwriter but thats all i can do#because all i can do is play fucking guitar!!!! and its just so frustrating#technically im like with a midi controller i should be able to do whatever program drums write little synth lines etc i dont have to like#know how to play piano and yet whenever i try to do it i just get so overwhelmed and freaked out with how many possibilities there are#that i just . cannnnnt#AHGHHHHHHHHHHHH im so im in such a bad mood right ow#ive had such a horrible night honestly#i think i will just go engage in fixation for comfort and then go to bed sigh#i dont know what to do to improve at making music in the daw i guess ill just maybe try again this weekend to take another crack at it#god its just so frustrating that i only started writing songs 2 years ago and have only learned to use a daw in the last 3 months i WISH#that i was one of these teenagers who spent all my time writing silly songs and playing around with a midi controller but i just didnt#because i was scared!!!!!!!#playing the guitar and singing has always been like the only thing that felt safe cos i felt if i tried to actually write and arrange songs#by myself i would fail so now i just feel so frustrated because i dont feel like a real musician and i feel like im starting too late#AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH whatever sorry for using the tags of this post as my diary but#i am frustrated!!!!
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#i'm done i'm so fucking tired#i want to burn the internet to the ground#i want to destroy my computer chuck my phone into a river and go live in the middle of nowhere#no wifi no 4g no nothing#i want to die because we cannot fucking escape this shit#meta using my art to train ai and refusing my request to stop#my computer not being able to run glaze or nightshade or any of those ai poisoning thingies#spam emails and text messages and whatsapp messages and bots in the comments#and just EVERYTHING TRYING TO SELL ME THINGS WHILE ALSO STEALING WHAT'S ALREADY MINE#i hate it i hate it i can't fucking stand it anymore#and you'll be like ''then why don't you go offline then... nobody's making you have an instagram account''#and you'd be right... if it weren't for the fact that i chose the one fucking career that DEMANDS online presence#i already struggle to find work as an illustrator WITH social media and POSTING MY ART ONLINE#how the fuck would I do it if people don't see my art?!#and sure people have illustrated books way before the internet existed... sure... BUT IT DOESN'T WORK LIKE THAT ANYMORE#i'm so fucking angry and tired and frustrated that there's no way out of this#the internet is becoming unusable yet life demands it#my only option right now it to fuck myself and my beliefs and let companies steal my hardwork for the benefit of..?#having no notes in my posts except for the bots commenting ''see šmy hole š daddy š¦ kitten š» ready 4 u š¤¤ subscribeš„ pay š² me''#i'm sick of this#i don't want to delete everything i ever posted online because A. at this point that's useless and B. again. how the fuck would i get work?#also even then... emailing my clients their finished illustrations goes through google drive or gmail...#do we think google is nice and doesn't steal images to train generative AI?#''talk to your representatives they need to make laws about this'' my fucking president is currently chumming it up with elon fucking musk#while people here are starving to death#we're literally going to freeze this winter because the genius goverment has fucked up our gas supply and that's used not only for heating#but for ELECTRICITY PRODUCTION#so we won't have a wat to heat our houses cook or even fucking SEE AT NIGHT#and you want me to ask them to make copyright laws?!#i want to die
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Getting off my ass and downloading my favorite fics to put on a jump drive I bought with a fuck tonne more storage than the two I already had from when I was in school and, wow, this is actually so much easier than the rest of the stuff Iāve been downloading for various reasons (articles on stuff I want to have around but worry might be impacted by this new presidency). You just pick pdf (or whatever you like) and bam! Itās right there in your downloads ready to be stashed away, no annoying nitpicking where I have to delete stuff I donāt need in the document or huge blank spaces, itās just ready! Like, listen. I love āprint friendly and pdfā Firefox extension, but I always have to end up deleting some stuff that is just taking up space. It does its job! Itās just not going to be neat and tidy when the website doesnāt intend for you to do this. Archive of our own does that whole thing of making a pdf themselves! This is going to go so much faster than the other stuff Iāve been downloading as pdfs
Anyway, I love you as well Smithsonian magazine website for not only being free, but also just having that extension on all your articles! Thatās actually how I found it in the first place. Before that I was copy pasting every paragraph into a pages document and it was way more tedious.
#emma posts#I feel like an old woman who figured out how to use her email#more and more every day#I am not bad at computers while also being bad at computers#Iām getting sidetracked here though#I really just keep developing tricks to solve my computer problems but then thereās an easy solution that I just donāt know about#like that Firefox extension#am I good or bad with computers? I think a secret third thing#Iāll think Iām bad with them and then Iāll see someone who is just straight up terrible with them and Iām like#āwell. im not great. but im also not thatā#I wonāt ever be able to download every fic I want to read#Iām sorting through my bookmarks to take what I think I should grab. but I have so much in the āwant to readā thing#I donāt know if my jump drive could pull that and all my non fanfiction off#I really havenāt purchased a jump drive in awhile though#I saw the storage on one of the first to come up and was like āholy shit!ā#girlie has not purchased one since 2015 okay#I really hope I just end up doing this and then it turns out I didnāt need to#but if I didnāt do it and it turns out I needed itā¦#no. wouldnāt want that#I need sleep. I just started laughing at the thought of having illicit Wikipedia articles on a jump drive like some heinous shit#but itās literally just an article about the history behind Yule or something#forbidden out of Africa Wikipedia article PDF#I donāt know what kind of stuff falls under the stuff in that project 2025#they have brains that work in ways I donāt understand#you know some of them would be like āyou have to take down your article about ice age humans because creationism real I guessā#āhow dare you have information on the history of religion?!ā scandalous#and I know I can never afford to buy books on every single one of those things#but science magazines and Wikipedia articles? sure#Iām getting really sidetracked but this is making me feel like I can do something#itās giving me some sense of control and distraction and if I donāt have those things to channel this energy Iāll just get worse
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"Our thing connects to an app!!!"
Ah... I hate it
#name me a thing and I'll tell you why I don't want it connecting to an app#this time it was me looking into something you could plug stuff into and have it tell you how much energy it used#and so many are like 'it'll send it into an app'#well that's stupid; and I'd like it to just tell me the info on it's own little screen#...saw some brewing video where... mhh... that's right; it was something to measure the... something volume related#you use it to calculate the alcohol content; I'm no brewer; just might like to someday so I sometimes watch stuff#anyway; guess what? app; no screen; only app#...I will fucking just learn to do it the old school way thank you; I'd love for you to make it so I don't have to do math#but not enough to deal with your fucking app that you'll stop supporting in 2 years#juicero ass mentality#'we've made two rocks that squeeze juice out of a drm'd juicebox; please use our app'#fuck your app; fuck it forever#the number of use cases where I want to use an app approach zero#honestly I really only play games on my phone or use it rarely for tumblr/discord... mostly for photos#and even there the games would probably be better on my computer (why are phone emulator's such ass?)#in short; if you tell me the thing you sold me will use an app to work... die#everything ought to be able to be done via the thing itself#...I can maybe; and it's a big maybe; but I can maybe forgive if like... I set up a battery and some kind of house grid control... thing#and I can either interface directly with it via my computer and a usb port; a screen; or if I feel like it an app... maybe... maybe ok#(though... that's a security risk for sure)#but point is apps can fuck off and die forever#they're stupid as hell
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Does anyone understand how to organize. Like how to make it work. Like how to keep spaces clean and your body clean? Does anyone know how to fight back the ever stronger rip tide of filth and clutter that takes over them? Also I'm sleepy.
#i barely have any belongings here and i still live in a fucking mess#i can barely work on my computer because the files are so disorganized. i think im just too stupid to have a good job#and like not to be one of those but i was in gifted. like the implication here was that i would beable to like. bare minimum make it.#and im nooooooooottttttt im not maaakiiiiiinnnnggg ittttt. im runing out of optionnnnnnnsssss#maybe ill just move back to the US and load boxes for fed ex again#but that also ended in my living space becoming almost unlivable#i like. i do t get how people do all these things and no body like can seem to fucking tell me why its so fucking impossible for me D:#like i TRY i really do fucking try. i dont understand. it makes me want to just fucking kill my self no joke. like i no matter what i do i#cant keep a space clean. i cant keep anything nice i break everything i touch and i fail everything i try because something Bout me is just#broken! and bobidy fucking cares! i dont want to be like this. i want to have plants and i wanna smell nice and i want my room to be pretty#and not have fucking bigs all the time#i dont understand i feel like im some fucking avatar for the filth magnusarchives style likw everything about me is dirty#i rot everything i touch. i#legit crying now lol. i just want to be able to be a human. i dont feel like a human. humans care about their environment they can keep#spaces clean. human organize naturally. why am i not human like that?
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