#i just wanna see them on my dash 90% of the blogs i follow are dead cause this account is like 15 years old

[leenfiend]

gimme gimme more star trek blogs to follow

[unladielike]

So since it has been brought to my attention some rumours have been circulating about me, I just wanna make a few things clear.

First off, I did not supposedly stalk anyone's blog for years.

If need be, I can even provide my IP address (aka self-dox myself) to prove any screencaps to be false, but I'm nowhere near obsessive enough to check somebody's blog everyday. Like, sure, I might visit blogs of ex-mutuals every once in a blue moon out of curiosity, but contrary to popular belief, tumblr doesn't take up 90% of my time and at best, I would maybe lurk on COAR to read new confessions or refresh my dash once per day just in case non-active partners of mine have returned.

If anything, my time has been mostly comprised of going to work and grinding mobile gachas; in fact, should I notice I have replies to write, I will log in, throw my replies into the queue/save written replies in my drafts folder to queue later, and then fuck off to do other stuff. Honestly, provided someone has beef with me, it's unlikely I would know why unless my encounter with them on tumblr had been rather recent.

To my knowledge, I haven't harassed anyone off of tumblr.

Now, did I have spats with my own fair share of people over the eight or nine years I have been on this hellsite? Yes. Have I made vague posts about ex-mutuals, unintentionally ghosted others, privately vented to friends about people from the RPC I personally can't stand, and commented on COAR confessions? Also, yes.

But that being said, the only one I've ever sent anon hate to was myself and if I played a part in somebody deactivating their blog or quitting tumblr roleplay altogether, then that's certainly news to me, because I don't like participating in public smear campaigns, to the point where I even avoid name dropping certain users in my rules or PSAs I've made. Heck, the way I see it, I can only ever recall myself being relentlessly harassed/bullied, because when it comes to me for some reason, people on this site sadly don't know how to block and move on like normal people.

I also have never encouraged anyone to delete their blogs or chase them out of the RPC and have only ever reported one person due to the fact they would not stop posting about me/attempt to provoke me into engaging in drama on a site that we both frequent despite having me blocked; therefore, I have no idea where the narrative of me harassing people off of tumblr even comes from. Besides, I'm nowhere near popular enough to influence whatever following I have to dog pile on whoever I have grievances with, let alone have many people who would go to bat for me each time I'm being unfairly criticized. Honestly, the one time someone did call out my harasser, it was something I had no control over and they did so without my permission, to the point where I did privately tell them to stop url-dropping me and engaging with this person on my behalf... because again, I just wanted to be left alone.

Furthermore, I make it very clear to mutuals I've vented to that they don't have to unfollow/block roleplayers I've had bad experiences with... so I'm not sure if this is merely a case of the Mandela Effect rearing it's ugly head, individuals making up bad faith reasons to dislike me, or an issue of mistaken identity (especially since I'm likely not the only one who goes by the mun handle, 'Livi', and it has happened before where somebody had wrongly assumed a blog belonged to another person).

Of course, it's possible I could have forgotten stuff, as I have had more than three blogs over the years, so naturally, I won't remember all the OOC posts I have ever shared, let alone every instance before 2022 where I have been involved in drama... but regardless, I refuse to take accountability for things I have never done unless you personally come to me off anon with screenshots that provide evidence.

[yardsards]

psa for ppl in the toh fandom: you might want to block @princess-strawberry-sunshine

they spam the character tags with a bunch of adult/child and sibling/sibling "ships" with no way of blacklisting it. so if you're bothered by that stuff, the only way to avoid it is to block this user directly

they keep on remaking their blog so it's only a matter of time til you gotta block them again tho :/

also, TWICE they've ignored my requests to at least tag their stuff so people can blacklist it so they don't expose more unwilling people to it, so i'm 90% sure they're doing this maliciously

update: AYYY THE BLOG IS DELETED (only a matter of time before they remake and we gotta start this whole process all over again tho :/)

update 2: they are now @princess-squidward. block them there now. will keep you all updated if they remake AGAIN.

update 3: they deleted again. will keep you all updated when i find out their new url so you can block em before having to be exposed to their shit

update 4: it's @princess-wordgirl now.

update 5: before blocking her this time, i wasted my time contacting her, politely explaining why tagging ships wasn't good enough, in the hopes that maybe she truly WAS just naive. she ignored it and blocked me. so that is solid confirmation that any harm she does is ABSOLUTELY on purpose. so don't even bother wasting your breath on her.

update 6: she deleted again. will update when i know her new url

update 7: it's now @princesspinkcupcake (no dashes in between! princess-pink-cupcake is a completely unrelated person.) remember: don't waste your time otherwise engaging with her, just block her and go.

update 8: her url is now @the-starstruckprincess

update 9: it's now @princessred-star

update 10: deleted again

update 11: @the-princesswarrior-world now

update 12, since someone was being huffy in my inbox: i reiterate, DO NOT harass her. even if you *do* think it's morally justified (which. ehhh. not gonna get into that.), it's not gonna do jackshit. clearly, no amount of talking to her (whether peacefully or harassingly) has changed her behaviour, so continuing to do so is pointless. you'll just waste your time and make yourself more upset.

hell, if my hunch is right, there's a small chance she might even ENJOY getting angry anons (whether she likes it due to the same weird compulsion that makes her wanna forcibly expose people to this shit, or because she wants to play the victim). either way, follow the old internet adage and Do Not Feed The Trolls. just block her and leave.

update 13: url is @princess-pinksuperstar now

update 14: she's started remaking after months of peace and quiet. url is @the-donut-alien now. remember, block and do not engage.

update 15: is now @princesstoxicbutterfly also she is no longer even tagging "ship names" so there's EVEN MORE no way to avoid seeing her shit other than to preemptively block her. wahoo.

update 16: @the-princess-phoenix now

update 17: @princesspinkunicorn now

update 18: @princess-yurio-donut

update 19: got a message saying it was @wallykittykat and she had been causing a stink in the toh tags after getting called out, but she either deleted or changed urls before i could verify

update 20: she's @princess-bluebird now

update 21: @princessyuriobubblegum now

god.

update 22: after months of blissful radio silence, she's come back. she's @princessyuriomoon now

update 23: @princess-purpleangel now

update 24: @therebeldinosaur now

update 25: @princessyurio now

[pixiecaps]

I remember like, the first time I saw you. I hadn’t recognized your pfp, and after seeing it a few times on my dash I decided to click. After scrolling a bit, I came to the realization I had followed you on accident (something that happens plenty to me). I usually would’ve unfollowed, but you seemed just interesting enough for me not too. A few months later, I’m surprised when you follow me back, especially since I don’t make original posts, and am not ranboo-centric.

Nowadays, you’ve managed to become one of my favorite mutuals. I always get giddy when I see you in my notifications, and 90% of the time I make note to see what post you liked and/or reblogged. It’s the “I’m getting a good grade in reblogging, something that is both possible to achieve and normal to want.”

We aren’t close mutuals, though I definitely wouldn’t mind it. I’d love to send more asks, however I’m horrific at carrying conversations and also have some social anxiety that makes me nervous. I also don’t want to intrude, as previously mentioned we aren’t close mutuals, and I don’t want to be pushy or annoying, haha. And I would start by responding to some of the posts you make that expect responses, but I don’t refresh my dashboard enough to see them in time. And I don’t know if it’d be appropriate to ask for a discord, which I’m better at checking, because I know it’s usually used for friends.

All in all though, you are funny and witty, and I often to stop and read your posts when otherwise I’d scroll. I like your opinions when you do decide to get serious, and despite some non-common interests, you present them in such a way I can easily engage in anyways. I wish you lots of love and luck, take care of yourself, and keep your chin up, king!

(P.S. sorry for the rlly long message whoops, I hope I’m not too late to send this.)

helllooo anon i think this was for the ask game:0 im sorry i didnt see this hours ago im pretty sure you sent this around the time i went to sleep but yes hii hello!!

“interesting enough” LETS FUCKING GOOO. okay! i usually follow back people i’ve seen around a lot on dash or urls i recognize in my notifs!! i must have recognized you:)

thats so sweet thank you i appreciate it😭 also wanna thank you for sticking around the idea that you’ve grown to rlly be fond of me after accidentally following me is heartwarming

ah dude don’t worry about. look i started this blog because i had horrific social anxiety and my irls were encouraging me to make new friends!! so even though i was shaking and wanted to throw up (that bad ik) i started posting and slowly but surely it wasn’t as scary anymore. it takes time so you can take your time dont feel pressured to interact if you dont want to. that being said i don’t mind if people who arent “close mutuals” send an ask or dms me. you become a close mutual by doing these things ya know😭 oh!!!! you can ask for discord too!! all mutuals are allowed to :) i however suck at holding conversations too so be aware of that lmao

AW TY!! ehehe you like my takes🤭 genuinely though i try to stay away from discourse or serious topics cus it may come off intimidating and thats the last thing i want to come off as but im glad whenever i do make a few posts like that you found it easy to engage:) i will! i am trying my best to take care of myself and for u i shall hmmm i was gonna say go outside but i already have plans to do that so it’d be disingenuous. i’ll just drink a lot of water today 👍 omg have u ever noticed theres no water bottle emoji on ios. i wait every update to see if they added one but nope. i would use that emoji so much…

anon congrats on getting the award of longest ask ever sent BAHSJD i woke up and saw this and my eyes popped in a good way

( also adding this after i posted this. i know anons dont usually like their own asks to stay hidden so i need you to know you seem lovely:D )

[sebastianshaw]

*  knowing  your  partner  well  can  potentially  make  writing  a  lot  easier,  repost,  do  not  reblog.

name : RF, Ratmun, RodentFanatic, Ratty, Ms.Rat, Shawmun, 90s, 90smun

pronouns : she / her

preference  of  communication :  IM or asks :3

name  of  muse(s) : Sebastian Hiram Shaw

experience / how  long  ( months / years ? ) : I started RPing online on forums/boards in 2005, came to Tumblr in 2015

best  experience : I’ve had a really nice time on this blog!

rp  pet  peeves / deal  breakers :  The “absolutely will not follow/interact” dealbreakers are whitewashing (yes, even if canon did it; looking at you, MCU Maximoffs), and characters who are pedophiles, Nazis, or rapists. I’m willing to make exceptions in cases where the trait in questioned was confined to one issue/run/writer/etc or it’s something that was added to the character long after their creation and the mun is NOT portraying that version, since I know it’s comics and shit like that happens (ex: what Morrison did to Talia Al-Ghul) and I’d be a huge hypocrite not to understand that considering all my hangups and hate around post-2008 Shaw. But if it’s something that is a huge part of the character like Killgrave, it’s just a HARD NOPE for me.  My pet peeves are MANY and would make me sound really judgey if I went on about all of them tbh, but one thing I see a lot in the superhero/villain fandom is characters not taking EXTREMELY powerful and dangerous beings seriously. Everyone wants to be that really special sassy person who just mouths off to the Biggest Big Bad with zero consequences and I find that really annoying. And as someone who has been on the end of it a few times, I definitely try not to do it to others. Shaw does canonically have a tendency to poke the bear or play with fire in canon due to his own arrogance, but I always have a clear understanding with the other mun that I understand he is opening himself to mega consequences and I welcome said consequences because I do genuinely love it when he gets what’s coming to him. But I also don’t like it when I feel he’s being used as a punching bag either by muses who realistically should not dare try this shit, let alone get away with it. I’m fine with it from some people for comedic purposes, and I am ALL for Shaw getting fucking roasted by the people who CAN get away with it, I really enjoy that, just there’s once in awhile someone who really takes shit way too far and it’s like. . .I don’t wanna be the asshole who has my character crush yours but what else am I supposed to do there? I also really hate when people try to force their own interpretation on my muse. 

plots or memes : I super duper love memes the most because they’re so good for quick fun interactions with low commitment, but I’m definitely open to plots that can carry a proper thread too

preferences  fluff,  angst,  or  smut : I’m not into any of these so much as Shaw just being comedically horrific to everyone on my dash. Like I just want everyone’s eyes to fill with regret because they looked at any response I wrote. 

best  time  to  write : 10 AM -12 PM EST during weekdays is when I get a lot of thread replies done, evenings EST is more just for memes. I’m asleep all morning during the weekend tho XD​

TAGGING: anybody! I ganked it from @divminded

[warcats-cat]

hi! so there's this thing - list 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the inbox of the last 10 people who have reblogged something from you - to get to know your mutuals and followers!! (if you wanna :3)

((it's so nice to get asks like this and actually *remember* to do them when you get out of work))

In no particular, I would say 5 things that make me happy are...

1) Plushies!!! I have tons of them in my collection, and I know each one by name. Someday I will have a room with cubbies and shelves floor-to-ceiling for all of my babies to be on display. Even if I don't play with them like I used to, I still very much love them. 💜💜

2) Bees 😍😍😍🐝🐝🐝 Fat bees! Skinny bees! Working bees! Bees that get stuck! Bees that have learned to be lazy by sitting on my shirt while I walk around my grandma's garden tending her flowers and weeds and occasionally passing the ponds and sprinklers that they like to drink out of 😂 Bees are the best man.

3) Fairies, of course. I've been interested in Faerie lore since I was a little kid, and that hasn't changed a lick as I've gotten older. (Obviously... If you don't believe me you can look at the ones I've posted here under the fairiesforclara tag on my blog, although everything posted here is v old at this point...)

4) My family!!! I recognize that I'm very VERY lucky that I have a good relationship (90% of the time) with my mom and dad. We argue occasionally but at the end of the day we love each other unconditionally. And I love my grandma to pieces!!! She is the one who inspires me every day to find the magic in the world.

5) if I only get one more, I think I'm definitely going to pick my friends around Tumblr. I don't have many people that I chat a lot with, but I've met/reconnected with a few people that I am forever honored to know, who inspire me every day, ((and who I really hope don't mind me tagging them...))

- @deadlikedani now officially my oldest friend ♦️ I miss you so much every day and I'm glad we still talk

- @drfaggotredneckmd who made me feel so much more confident after we met (I'm realizing now they might not even realize 💜) and I'm always excited to be able to chat with you

- @frecklydork I know it's just memes but you have such good energy and it's always a delight to say hi!!

- @thecrowslullaby 💜💜💜💜 ((if you're not in bed rn I'll fly to your house myself watch me)) a DAILY inspiration who makes incredible artwork and makes me feel seen and listened to eventhough I'm a very small time creator who popped into their blog at random. I feel so blessed every day getting to share stories and ideas and memes with you. Thanks for the everything 💜💜💜💜💜

This is a big post but I also wanna say thank you @chibireaper I love seeing you on my dash and people sending me things feels very nice so I hope you have a nice day too ☺️☺️☺️

[mister13eyond]

tagged by @daisyneptune

Nickname - B, BB

Zodiac Sign - saggitarius

Height - 5 foot 0 inches baybee

Last Movie Watched - Saw 1, with a friend LMAO

Last Thing Googled - aside from work-related things on my work computer, I googled "Things Have Gotten Worse Since We Last Spoke" to link a friend

Favorite Musician - at the moment probably Murder by Death and Hozier

Song Stuck In My Head - "Money Money Money" by ABBA

Other Blogs - i've had a bajillion for various purposes and use none of them currently, just this one

Blogs following - 794 apparently? Pretty sure 90% of them are dead, i see like... 10 blogs on my dash

Amount of Sleep - think I got 6 hours last night?

Lucky Number - 13!

What I am Wearing - oversize shirt with a Death tarot card print, yoga pants

Dream Job - I simply do not dream of labor

Dream Trip - I'd kill to go on an art tour of Italy and see a bunch of frescoes and cathedrals

Favorite Food - hmmm maybe sushi? Or very dark chocolate

Play an Instrument? - Not a single one

Favorite Songs - way too many to list, but up there is probably No Oath, No Spell by Murder By Death and Do I Wanna Know? by Arctic Monkeys

Random Fact - I got top surgery on the first day of Pride month and that's the funniest possible timing

Describe yourself in aesthetic things - chewed ends of pens, a little bead that looks like a skull, late-night drives, shiny leather shoes, a soft couch in a dim room

i literally do not know who is on tumblr anymore or pay attention, this site is just me and the void, take it if you'd like to do it

[tehohaews]

2020 CREATOR WRAP: FAVORITE WORKS

 Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 (or so) favorite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works.

Thank you soooo much Nuria @taytawan for tagging me 🥺💖and ignore how late this is oops

Okay so 2020 is the year that I returned to “the internet” and I’m grateful cause otherwise I wouldn’t get to know all of you lovely people.Thank you for existing and making me feel like I belong somewhere 💖💖 So, along with my works I'm also gonna mention some of my favorite people and their works here and If you’ve ever made me smile you’re here and I love you <3

@snugglesweaters  Terryyyyyyy. My closest friend here 🥺 I’ve never told you this but if it wasn’t for you,I doubt I would’ve lasted this long here. It's nice knowing someone as clueless and a clown like me. I can talk to you about anything and I feel like we have similar views on stuffs.I love making random references to fics and knowing that you’ll get it cause we kind of read the same fics. I love this tine glitter fic of yours (yes tine glitter fic), obviously this cause (vampire) bright in a beanie AND the coffee shop au hc that only I know about hehe. I love your (almost) phd brain and hope you’re doing well in your dissertation. YOU CAN DO IT DW. And may you stay healthy,hydrated,safe and happy in the coming year 😊💖 I love you soooooooo muchhhhhhh 💖💖💖

@lesbian-earn Mayyyyy!!!. My co president of the short people supremacy club. You are so sweet and kind and thank you for reaching out to me that one day I was feeling a bit anxious.It’s always lovely to see you on my activity and on the dash. Like I once said, you remind me of sunshine and ilu 💖💖 Hope that the next year is kind to you and you’ll do well in your uni stuffs dw, I know you can.💖 Also I’ve said this before but i looooveeee this fic of yours and when I found out it was you dfjidfjidfidf

@taytawan Nuriaaaaaaa 💖💖 You say that I’m kind but it’s always because you are so sweet and talented that I can’t help screaming about your works everytime I see them. If I’m not mistaken, the name Nuria comes from the word Nur meaning light. You make the world brighter and a better place by your presence and I’ve said this before but really, it would’ve been very lonely without you in this 2g circus. I love these two sets of yours (I mean I did write an essay in the tags when I saw this) .Thank you for everything, I love you and I hope that you remain safe and happy in the coming year 💖💖 (Also join mine and May's short people club,Terry isn't invited ofc jdjsdjasjij)

@brightwinfilm NATH efhifhihis my (almost) birthday twin. LISTEN we’re gonna have so much fun in March, 1) Itsay part 2 AND your birthday 2)Sarawat’s birthday 3) My birthday and 4)since we’re here let’s just say Tine’s birthday is in March too hehehe. Thank you for all the lovely sarawatine and brightwin content you make, they never fail to make me smile.I love this set of yours and this also cause hehehe i WILL bring this back muhahhaa.You’re a wonderful person and you make the world a better place. Take care of yourself and I hope that you are always happy,healthy and safe 💖 i love youuu

@ryudian​ My go to person when I need any updates. You are SO HELPFUL and so NICE. I love going to your blog and seeing your st dolls and all the crazy stuffs you do because of bw. And I absolutely loved what you did with the oishi drinks here. May you be happy and safe in the coming year and stop spending so much money on merch I'm worried you'll go bankrupt

@komari-maxx​ I love seeing you on my activity and I love your st dolls and fics, specially this fruity4 one cause sdhididhid you included my hc of them arguing over the colour on lunch.This totally happened no one can change my mind. Hope you'll be happy (with your st dolls hehe) in the coming year

@teh-ohaew *tarn voice* Eyy TAY djidjijid hehe oops. Tay and Teh sound so similar specially in tarn's voice. Omg Teh Tay besties. TAYYYYY I love youuuu and I love reading your tags and seeing you on my dash except when you and Ayesha go crazy sdhusdh hehe jk. You are so nice and I love this sarawatine ig hc of yours. Hope you have a lovely year ahead and remain happy,healthy and safe. Don't forget to take care of yourself (by that I mean listen to the itsay original score on repeat)

@metawin JAYYYYY. I still remember the first time I came across your blog, it was when you were (probably) rewatching wyel and blogging about it crazily. I was laughing so hard at those and then you followed me back and I still to this day have no idea why. It's comforting seeing your posts in the tags and the dash and I absolutely love this itsay set of yours. You are so talented and lovely and I hope that you have a wonderful year ahead. Lots of love <3333

@gremlinmetawin Ayesha bb 🥺🥺 You were the first person who interacted with me here and I love you for that. It's lovely seeing you in my dash and thank you for tagging me in tag games, I have fun doing them 💖💖 tbh I know like 3 Ayeshas irl but you are the loveliest and kindest of them all. Hope that the next year is kind to you,bring you happiness and you finally finish all those unwatched shows

@khaotungthanawat SAMMMMM Have I said that you are SO TALENTED this week? although tbh you deserve to hear that everyday. You always say that it's nothing but no, you ARE talented and kind. It's wonderful seeing your posts ( I feel like you're everywhere nowadays another proof that you work hard). You are a blessing to this world and I hope for you to be always happy and safe 💖💖.I love this st set, this itsay one and the tags of this post 😂😂 I will never not laugh at this.If this doesn't happen in the st special special askdkdsks 

@metawwin ALIIIIIIIII, queen of parallels djijidjias. I love going through your blog and seeing all your 2g stuffs.I absolutely adore this set of yours. You are so talented and you make the world a happier place <3 I love youuuuu and I hope you're staying hydrated,taking care of yourself and doing the things you love. You deserve all the love and happiness in the world 💖💖

@wirapong AISHIIIIII Hope you're doing well. I've screamed about this already BUT this club drama fic? lives in my head rent free. Also I love all your soft baby wat fics cause WAT IS A BABY. Glad we have Tine as the President of the Sarawat protection squad. I love your writing. you're so talented and I hope that the coming year will bring you happiness <33

@acequinz Hi Ace!! I love your incorrect quotes sideblog and I love your fics, specially this, this and this. You're a lovely person and I hope that you have a wonderful year ahead.

@bisexualrep DORAAAA We haven't talked in a while but I smile whenever I see you in my activities. You are maybe the 4th person who followed me here and it still feels weird cause this and this? some of my fav wyel fics of all time. It's lovely reading your tags, they are so cheerful <3 Hope you're doing well and taking care of yourself. You deserve to be happy always 💖💖

Omg this is so long. If you're still here, here are some of the works that I'm proud of. 1)This itsay set. This was my first time doing big gifs and although this is loooong I like how this turned out, specially the colouring. 2) This cause do I do anything except 2g shitposting? No <3 I had this idea even before s2g aired but decided to wait so that I have more shots from s2g and I'm glad I did cause Earn basically got confirmed as a wlw so (Also special thanks to Terry cause the Man and Air hc were hers,her phd brain ikr) 3)This cause dcjsdjidi SARAWATINE SOULMATES. I love how the colouring turned out despite the fact that ps crashed halfway and I lost the gifs i spent 2 hours colouring. I tried to do this with scenes from the series only but couldn't cause wHen YoU aRe wItH yOuR cAmeRA SHOW US goddammit. If this was ao3 this would've been tagged as Tine teepakorn loves Sarawat guntithanon xD 4) Still2gether textposts obviously. I KNOW that 90% people follow me for my 2g shitposting and I got an ask once saying how were they so accurate and the reason for that is I spent HOURS on these. Atfirst it took a long time but after a while I got the hang of it. It was fun (though sometimes tiring) to make these after each ep aired. I'm proud of it and the fact that I managed to do 13 parts? gsjsdjsj 5) Still2gether subs that looks fake but aren't. shutup this was my first time giffing but it was funnnnn looking for the (canon) crack parts after every ep aired. 

Also,thank you to all the lovely people who likes and reblogs my posts, I do see you and I love you all <33 

Tagging: If you’re here then consider yourself tagged if you wanna do this or to anyone who sees this on the dash

[alanvegacuntwars]

thank you @lovely-menza 4 tagging me ! lets get on w it then

why did you choose your url?

simple. he’s that swag (also i wanted 2 keep w my theme of people as my urls)

any side blogs? if you have them, name them & why you have them.

i used to have an aesthetic blog (@pisshockey for anyone who cares) that i stopped caring about because i post that kinda stuff on main anyway but sometimes i think of bringing it back just for shits; i also ran a quotes blog (HA got u not telling u that one) but i was like 13 and everything got 10 notes maximum

how long have you been on tumblr?

3 or 4 years? either way it’s too fucking long

do you have a queue tag?

yes i do <3 and yet i still mass rb things and fuck off; my first one Ever was just q, then queue you wanna dance?, then everybody laughed but queue so. that is how you tell that i’m sparing your dash (for now)

why did you start your blog in the first place?

i think i just wanted 2 see what was so funny because at the time half my humour was 2016 tumblr memes (yes....in the year of our lord 2018)

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

keeping up with my tradition of black & white pfps i picked this one because it’s arbitrary and also it’s mf sting

why did you choose your header?

pretty picture i found on pinterest dot com <3

what’s your post with the most notes?

the senior citizens one thank god. so glad my most popular post is no longer abt the beatles

how many mutuals do you have?

several! and they are all cool mwah i love you

how many followers do you have?

almost 400 i think? ollie nation is small but mighty

how many people do you follow?

90 something i think just because i luv the way my dash looks this way

have you ever made a shitpost?

yes! professionally!

how often do you use tumblr each day?

i’m not sure i don’t have that screen time feature thing um. probably for 30 minute intervals and then i queue a bunch of stuff and fuck off

did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

i have never fought with anyone on tumblr except jokingly when anons criticize my taste in food and also in men

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts?

not positive :( they just feel really guilt trippy

do you like tag games?

yea when they aren’t massive rb chains :) like this one is neat

do you like ask games?

yes i LUV ask games they’re so fun.

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

all of them are tumblr famous in my heart <3

do you have a crush on a mutual?

no i do not think i do <3 i luv you all as 10/10 friends

tags: @sgtstrawman, @nesmith-tundra, @bi-ologists, & whoever else would like 2 do this

[babyybitchhh]

Yknow what, let me go ahead and make this perfectly clear.

I not only encourage you to block me if the mood so strikes you, but I WANT you to block me. I’m not here for clout or ass pats. I’m not interested in validation from the masses. If you don’t like me, fine. Unfollow me and smash that block button. Exercise your rights, and I hope you mutter a “begone, thot” when you do it.

I spend the majority of my time on here trying to support other writers rather than promoting or backing my own work, and if that somehow rubs anyone the wrong way then so be it. I converted my main into a reblog hub so my 900 followers could see fics from other authors first and foremost, and then made MYSELF a side blog that I reblog my shit from. Trust me, this isn’t a popularity contest for me and I don’t really care who has me blocked.

I’m also not popular enough to know who’s in which clique and who isn’t so I don’t have a bias when it comes to who I support and who I don’t. I try to give every writer, every blog that comes across my dash the chance they deserve to feel seen and heard, but I am just NOT good at being a functioning person so yeah sometimes wires get crossed and that’s fine. I’m used to it so, truly, it’s water under the bridge as far as I’m concerned. I’m not mad about it.

But whats really grinding my nerves is that someone - someone who I assume is another writer, if I followed them - decided to come at me like I have to publicly prove myself just to view their content. A DM would’ve sufficed. Going on anon doesn’t even give me the option to answer privately which means this is now the shit show y’all are watching in what I’m sure is rapt fascination. I’m sorry that I’m not bff’s with any of the big name writers who can vouch for me and, by proxy, make you afford me the respect of a polite inquiry. I have no problem answering questions, in fact I’ll tell you anything you wanna know.

You want my birth chart? I got you, girl. I’m a Leo sun, Pisces moon, Aquarius rising bitch with daddy issues and anxiety. Also my Venus sign is Cancer. Next.

You want a full transcript of my grades in school? I mean, I can get that for you, sure. But I promise it’s not gonna look good, chief. 😔 Let’s save it for another day. Next.

I promise the question isn’t the problem here. It’s the way you decided to go about it, as if the attitude was gonna make me not lie about my age. Like?? Sweet Jesus, what are you even doing? Due diligence is all well and good, I certainly can’t fault you for that, but people can and will lie about their age on the internet. As someone who grew up reading smut in the early 00’s when they were 12, 13, 14, I can PROMISE you minors lie to view content not meant for them. That’s why so many discord servers require proof - ACTUAL proof of age now. And even that’s not totally airtight! I could have told you literally anything to get what I wanted! 1990 could be a lie and I’m just announcing that I’m 30 years old so no one gives me or my 90% smut 10% misc blog a second thought. It’s inconceivable! And to come at me with this attitude about something that isn’t even a guarantee?? Girl!

All I’m gonna say is that this the first time anyone has ever questioned me about my age being listed - which it absolutely is, even if you can’t find it - so I guess someone needs to work on their social skills AND their ability to navigate mobile.

It’s especially funny because I’m almost positive I know which blog that anon runs and, surprise surprise, they seem to be pals with one of my favorite writers. Of which there are many, yes, so that doesn’t exactly narrow things down. 😂 But my point is just that if they never came to me about this, nor any of the other smut blogs I follow, am I REALLY the problem here?

Am I really tho?

[fcmilybonded]

Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.

the be honest meme // @j-reau

1. nobody freaking READS. okay not nobody, but how many times do i have mutuals only written on my blog, and yet i constantly get nonmutuals trying to interact. look, i get it, i do - but breaking my mutuals only rule isn’t gonna get me to follow you okay? same with smut blogs - look, you do you, my dudes but i clearly state in my rules that i do not write smut; so why you followin’ me and liking my starter calls and sending memes in?

2. drama. before i joined the to fandom i was in the dctv fandom, and the marvel fandom and jesus mc’christ - every single day there was at least 3 different dramas going across my dash and 90% of them could have been easily dealt with just basic communication and idk not being passive aggressive??? never forget the time in the star wars fandom someone accused someone of stealing a word in their url also something i’ve seen a million times that never fails to make me laugh and shake my head in ‘dear god why’ person 1: vagues about sb person 2: vagues about person 1 person 1: omfg how dare they vague

3. shipping wars and shipping drama and just people getting so head up about what people can and can’t ship. and i’m not talking about actual real life problematic things. but i’ve seen so many people attack ppl who just ship things that... they ship. like seriously who CARES this much about it??? just let people ship who they wanna ship. also the rampant biphobia i see when it comes to ships too lmao never change rpc never change 🙄

[polyhexianchicken]

14, 16, 25

Roleplay Related Asks

14. what do you do after you see a person has replied? do you read it immediately, or do you wait for it to show up on the dash? do you like it, draft it immediately, etc?

If I am online and see it at that moment, I’ll most likely reply to it or read it instantly. Pretty much every reply I’ll instantly read through once I get the notif for it. I could reply quicker, but I don’t want to seem like I’m just waiting for the reply to arrive ;w; I just am really excited to write and I love it and I wanna see the story progress as soon as possible ksdfks.. I don’t want to pressure anyone ever though, I understand if things take time, I also need time too sometimes.

16. do you first get in the “zone” when writing, or do you start writing and “enter” it that way?

Hmm.. I start writing, and as the ideas come the quicker and smoother it gets for me to write, hard to explain XD ^^ If I’m really enjoying the interaction I’m in the zone as soon as I see the reply I get. 25. how does your follower count affect your mood? Eeh.. I mean it does and it doesn’t. It does in a way that so many people saw my blog and liked it enough to follow, and hopefully send me asks every now and then cause I love ‘em haha. But also, I don’t actually rp with 90% procent of them (because they aren’t rp blogs, not that I don’t want to), so really, it doesn’t make all that much of a difference to me?^^More followers mean a higher chance of receiving interactions, so yeah, I guesss. both sides?

[dckxn]

SO! I saw the sweet @rxincarnatxd‘s follower appreciation post, and I decided that since I had some artwork lying around on my iPad, that I could use it for this 80 90 (!!!) FOLLOWERS APPRECIATION POST! AND OMGOSH LET ME JUST SAY THAT THIS IS AN INCREDIBLE RESPONSE TO AN OC OF MINE! I’ve been roleplaying for a very long time myself across a variety of different places, and Howl’s only been around for a little over A MONTH and there’s already like NINETY OF YOU! I know that I’m not following like each and every one of you (and I’m honestly following a bunch of blogs at the moment!), but I really appreciate you guys none the less. I’m just super happy that you guys like this guy, and man, I’ve just had quite a few OCs, but they never quite stuck. Howl feels very different though, and he’s certainly wormed his way into my little heart and I don’t think he’ll be leaving any time soon. SO THANKS!! I’ve got some special mentions, so here we go as far as that is concerned (BUT I DO WANNA SAY IM SO BAD WITH NAMES IM SO SORRY OTL):

@xmenageriie​ ARIEEEEEEL! GOSH. WE’VE TALKED ON AND OFF. I’VE LEFT AND I’VE RETURNED AND YOU’VE STILL BEEN AROUND AND IM SO HAPPY AND GLAD FOR THAT. you are such a great person and it’s always so much fun being able to talk to you and even though we haven’t been talking recently, i’m just glad ot be able to see you on my dash as well because you have some great muses and i have a lot of love for sanji and and my zoro and your sanji will always be in my HEART FOREVER. THAT ONE TRUE PAIRING WILL NEVER DIE!!!

@mcnypieces: CAN I JUST SAY I LOVE THE PORTRAYAL OF ALL BUN’S MUSES?! BECAUSE I DO! I DO SO MUCH! We don’t talk too regular, but when I am able to hit them up for a chat, they always seem to response and are pretty much a joy to talk to. they’re so nice and i’m glad to be able to have such conversations and interactions!! IM SUPER EXCITED FOR MORE INTERACTIONS WITH BELLA!! UWU

@shrapnelsong: OH MY GOD NAT! I LOVE ALICE! I LOVE ALICE! She’s such a sweet woman who can also be stern and even scary when she needs to be! She’s got so many verses so there’s a little something for everyone and the roleplayer is always nice when I talk to them! \o/ I can’t wait to see how Alice and Howl evolve from this point on!

@rxincarnatxd: KIKI! DUUUUUUDE. I GOTTA LOT OF LOVE FOR KAGS AND I’VE ALREADY GUSHED OVER HER IN YOUR OWN APPRECIATION POST BUT I LOVE HER. SHE IS SO SWEET AND WARM AND COOL AND HOWL TOTALLY APPRECIATES HAVING HER AROUND. she is good for him. ;w;/ and you!! gaaah your name escapes me OTL but i love you sooo much! it’s so fun talking to you and talking about kags and howl and you got that sideblog that i gotta interact with. im super excited for that. xD

@hxgure: HI. I NOW KNOW AND WILL REMEMBER THAT YOUR NAME IS VEE!! omgosh! orz BUT ANYWAY. I HAVE SO MUCH LOVE FOR YOUR NIC! LIKE! HE IS AMAZING! GOD. HE’S SO GOOD AND HIS INTERACTIONS WITH HOWL ARE GREAT. THEY’RE BOTH DUMB CHILDISH OLD MEN AND I LOVE IT! I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT’S IN STORE FOR THEM! BUT ALSOOMGOSH VEE! TYOU ARE SO COOL! it’s always just like, chill? relaxing? to talk to you. it’s good. sometimes i just have something that i wanna say and you don’t mind me dropping off little messages to your IMs and i’m so glad for that because im definitely comfortable with ya. xD

@dracaelum-faerie: ANNA IS LOVE. ANNA IS LIFE! TUBBS IS THE UNIVERSE! TOGETHER THEY ARE FOREVER IN MY HEART! Such a interesting variety of crewmembers, but anna and tubbs claim the top spot for sure! I talk to you on discord from time to time (or in IMs) and it’s always fun! \o/

@pasttorn/akrasva: YOU! I LIKE YOU! Though we haven’t really started anything up yet, i love talking to ya when you have time and just talking and gushing over our muses and how they could potentially interact! it’s always a good time my friend and i am glad to know you.

@frosthub: I really like being able to talk to you and honestly, your muses are so cool! Infe is smooth as heck and he’s also a bit dumb and he’s a joy to talk about and interact with and I just love him!! thank you for writing him. ;w;/

@mondxs:​ YOU ARE LOVED KATT! It’s never a dull moment when i talk to you and you always seem to have something interesting or new to say. i know we’re not doing anything write now, but that doesn’t even matter. i’d follow you just to keep an eye on your threads and stuff. uwu

@nvrcmplt: I KNOW I ALREADY GUSHED ABOUT YOU TOO IN THAT POST, BUT GOSH YOU ARE SO COOL. LIKE, SERIOUSLY. IT’S LIKE .. IT’S PRETTY CHILL BUT SOMETIMES HYPE BUT IT’S GOOD. it’s fun being able to talk to you tala and i just feel blessed to be able to interact with some of your muses! i cant wait to write more with Liwanu and Motoharu. i love those boys. ;___;/

@slf-sxcrfe: IT’S SO FUN TALKING TO YOU. AND I LOVE RAY. HE’S SO... IDK. HE’S JUST GOSH. I LOVE HIS ATTITUDE?? AND ITS FUNNY WHEN SOME OF THE THINGS HOWL DOES JUST CONFUSES THE HELL OUT OF HIM. I think ray could teach howl a thing or two tbh, so i cant wait to see how they grow together and get more used to each other!!! OwO/

@gengakki: I am so proud of you. Even though things have happened, you still managed to keep your muse for Kank and I really hope and feel that things have gotten better for you and that makes me happy. im glad he’s still going strong. i love your kank and i always will and i will never NOT want to interact with him, so please throw him Howl’s way whenever you damn well want!! O/

@overoaks: HEY YOU! ALL YOUR MUSES CONTAINED INTO ONE BLOG? HELL YEAH! HELL YEAH! HELL YEAAAAAAAH!!!!!! Your Crocodile is Impressive and I LOVE YOUR LUFFY AND JESUS CHRIST PLEASE JUST LET ME LOVE JINJI! gosh ILOVE THAT MAN! HE’S WONDERFUL AND ADORABLE AND I HOPE FOR GOOD THINGS WITH HOWL AND JINJI WHATEVER THEY MAY BE. THEY ARE SO COOL TOGETHER! gosh. UWU/

Special Mentions: 

@velvety-love who was the very first person to follow me and even though we only chat a bit from time to time on tumblr, I’m glad to be able to do that when we both have time!

@hailxthexkiiing who i only really talk to from time to time on tumblr, but they’re a very cool person! c:

@despairforme we don’t talk to often at all, but BOY DO I LOVE THEIR NNOITRA!! so good!

@bucketfullofocs at some point, i hope to be able to get around to interacting with your other OCs as well. bucket is super nice and never seems to mind chatting with me which is cool ‘cause i can be a chatter box when i’m comfy with someone! 

@trafalxar JUST Thanks for always popping up to say hey! it really makes me happy. i love hearing about what’s currently going on with you and just keep being yourself.

@icycoldavatarstate is a nice roleplayer with a cool muse! she’s a hell of a woman who will continue to grow and mature and i can’t wait to see how she turns out overtime! \ouo/

THIS IS NOT EEVN THE TIP OF THE ICEBURG THOUGH! There are quite a few more of my followers that i appreciate especially if i talk to you on discord and i just want to see that i appreciate you guys as well even though you weren’t mentioned up here! DON’T FEEL BAD AT ALL. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. c:

AND TO ALL MY NEWEST FOLLOWERS THIS PAST WEEK AND LAST WEEK: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR GIVING THIS GUY OF MINE A CHANCE. ouo/

[jumpthensfall]

I WAS TAGGED BY @stcrlghts I LOVE YOU SO MUCJ THANK YOU

okay i'm gonna tart by saying I SINCERELY APOLOGIS EFOR HOW LONG AND ANNOYING THIS IS idk if u can tell but i really struggle with.... just getting to the point JADJDNFJSJSJSJSJ THIS IS ALL A BIG IRRELEVANT RAMBLY MESS OKAY I'M SORRY

nickname(s): MAINLY JUST HANNAH BANANA/BANANA but my gran calls me 'hannah snax' and i have NO idea why but........ that's a thing AJXJFNFJD

gender: female

height: 5'6" ish i think??? 5'6" and a half?? ALL I WANT IN LIFE IS TO BE 5'7" BECAUSE FOR SOME REASON THAT SOUNDS SO MUCJ TALLER THAN 5'6" but yes 5'6" ish

time: 11:35pm

where i'm from: the uk!!! i am a lil brit!!

hogwarts house: u know... gonna be completely honest here...... i've never read/watched harry potter like....... ever in my life...... but the good thing is that someone made me take the quiz thingie once and i think hufflepuff...... not that that means anything to me........... don't hurt me please.......

favourite show: HM i love the good place so much and also casualty!!! i love a lot of shows so i'm gonna stop myself from listing them all dammit OH AND KILLING EVE (courtesy of @champagneseaa THANK U CHIMPANZEE)

favourite animal: CATS MY BABIES

favourite band/artist: i absolutely despise of Taylor Swift ew (i also love hayley kiyoko,,, halsey,,, lorde,,, more people but i'm blanking and can't think so i'm gonna leave that there)

song stuck in my head: my brain is switching between yntcd,,, supercut and negative nancy by adore delano IT'S A WILD TIME

last movie i saw: I REALLY DON'T REMEMBER I DON'T WATCH FILMS THAT MUCH BECAUSECI DON'T REALLY LIKE THEM it was probably a christmas film like elf or something (the only valid movie)

last thing i googled: i don't remember but i think it was something bORING like 'image colour picker' because i was editing and needed the hex code of a colour AJDJRNDJJS

other blogs: i don't really use any sideblogs they kinda just exist

do i get asks: i don't get 50 gazillion BUT I DO ACTUALLY GET ASKS SOMETIMES AND I'M SO GRATEFUL FOR THEM AND I COUKDN'T ASK FOR MORE because also i'm really dumb and always take like 90 years to see tjem and by the time i see them i get too nervous to respond because i'm like 'what if i replyto this ask and they get mad at me because i took so long or what if they changed their mind about the thing they said in the ask or wh

why this url?: because thewayilovedyou is taken AHDJRNSJSJSJ and jump then fall is one of my favourite taylor songs and just songs in general ever (next to twily :') ) because it's soft and makes me soft and i love soft things and also i like the way the letter j looks weirdly

number of blankets: 1!!!! i'm more of a pillow person than a blanket person i LOVE pillows so much i swear to god i sleep woth so many pillows under my head i may aswell just be sat up

followers: 6476?!!?!!???!???

following: 948 but somehow it feels like a lot less?!?!! it may be because a lot of the blogs i follow are from like 2015 when i used to literally follow eVERY taylor blog i saw AJDJDNSJSJ which was a mess but also a year ish ago i unfollowef a lot of inactive blogs so there can't be too many inactives there??? maybe i should go through again BECAUSE MY DASH STILL GETS DEAD WHEN TAYLOR HASN'T BEEN ON HERE IN A WHILE

average amount of sleep: on college nights i aim for like 7 but right now it's summer so???? like ??????? 5-8????? it's WEIRD i always get less sleep in the summer because i really like staying up and then sleeping until as late in the day as i can (5am is such a nice bedtime you get to watch the sun rise and everything :') )

lucky number: when i was younger and before i even stanned taylor i used to say that 13 was my lucky number ajcnrnfjejdje but i?? don't think i actually have one now???

what am i wearing?: I'M WEARING MY PYJAMAS ITmS GREAT it's just a grey tshirt and some white and greyish trousers

dream job: this questions STRESSES ME OUT because i have no idea um.......... the person that gives taylor her water on tour

dream trips: taylor swift's arms

favourite food: CHEESECAKE although it's not good for my insides because i am Lactose Intolerant ™

instruments i play: guitar,,, ukulele and a tINY bit of piano although i haven't played in ages and have probably forgotten everything so idk whether that counts

eye colour: like greeny browny hazelly but in my left eye i have a brown triangle which is odd

hair colour: dark brown but the ends are pink and purple rn :')

aesthetic: ANYTHING SOFT AND ANYTHING PINK AND ANYTHING FAIRYLIGHTY

languages i speak: just english,,,, i took spanish in school ajxjrnjf AND ACTUALLY TOWARDS THE END I STARTED MAKING PROGRESS AND GOT A LITTLE OKAY WOTH IT but when i left school i didn't keep up with it which i'm MAD at because i wanna be able to speak all of the languages in the whole world that'd be so cool but i'm just so lAZY so yes just english :(

most iconic song: have u ever heard of this song called the way i loved you

when i created this account: february 2015 i think??!?!

best memory: I CAN'T THINK OF ONE honestly,,,,, my life is So Sad that probably one of my best is the night that taylor lurked me (i really can't believe i get to SAY that shut up i'm tearing up) because i'm really not over it and it filled me up with such joy and i think about it whenever i get sad and it cheers me up

best pun: okay so this is BULLYING because puns are my thing in general everyday conversation buT YOU CAN'TP UT ME ON THE SPOT LIKE THIS SO I HAVE NO IDEA....... like i can make puns when the time is right.... butif you straight up tell me......... that i have to give you a pun......... that's...... not gonna hap-pun.......

random fact: i really need to pee and i also have 3 cats called rusty (aka rusticles/chicken nugget), rosie (aka rosie posie/rice krispie (because she looks like a rice krispie when she loafs)) (OH MYGOD AND HOW COUKD I FORGET 'floofy piece of fudge' BECAUSE TAYLOR SAW ME CALLING HER THAT SO IT'S VALID) and ruby (aka rooby booby/rubix cube)

i tag (BUT ONLY IF YOU WANT TO I'M SORRY IF UOU DON'T WANT TO AND I'M BEING ANNOYING) @champagneseaa @theloveralbum @backtoodecember @youramericanqueens AND ANYONE ELSE THAT WANTS TO DO IT💝💘💞💖💖💗💖💕

[nivks]

i feel like #followforevers and online love letters etc etc havnt really been a thing in 2018 but u know what. thats dumb. 2019 is better and were all gonna be emotional and loving towards the people that make us feel emotions speciffically - Love! so heres a #followforever emo loveletter ashdfg gahwahh OKAY EDIT: kjhsdf i finished writing this mess and its SO LONG i am SO OSRRY i cant even SPELL im so sorry whatever im gonna post it still cos maybe hopefully simething i have to say mihgt make someone smile. just skip to ur namee. happy 2019 kids! nick WILL become a dad!.

@harryfeatjack @rightgirl @happilygryles @rocketmommy @19-million-memories @drugsnotwar @ithadmefromhello @spyro2018 @acuzena @carswinky @shiftylinguini @bourgeoix @hiatusniall @julesg @itsallaboutzarry @ihavea1dbloghelp okay we might have been close but you dont post much anymore, we might be new mutuals or like?? might just have that special follow and love from afar type thing happening but you all do make my dash a happier place and i hope 2019 is incredible for u all and u are all amazing people who do brighten my day. thanks for making 2018 better!! love u. 

@chantillystars Miss Starsadrift, lover of my hart. ur so fucking BRIGHT andsweet and u always make me laugh and ur always there when im crying and u light up whatever place youre in and i know that for a fact cos when we went on holidays together you honest to god were like. the brightest and beautifulestestest in the whole street. youre also an excellent cook and the kitchen we were in was just shit. love ur snaps and msgs and how much you love gardens and flowersand sunshine. glad youve been working on feeling better about Life and its been helping cos u deserve it alllll <3<3 love u like u love yoongi. 2018 wouldve been terrible without u. @clipsandstuff your tags at times make me crack up and your love for nick is so warm and iv followed ur blog for years and youre always so consistently lovely and i hope 2019 treats u well <3 @ladsfm you barely ever have time to be on anymore but youre like. out there. living your life and i see u on instagram and ur so incredible and SMART and beaiutful and then whenever i text you a #nickupdate or more specifically a #harrynickupdate your all caps replies always make me smile so big also you are quite possibly the most lovely person iv met i lvoe you! @lordendsavior i made my url dikolasgrimshaw. for you. for me a bit too but you were that final little push. the voice of reason that said yeah! do it! thats how much i love you. akjsg anyway JOANNA you are somehow so lovely and kind but like Real at the same time and u have a way of saying your opinions that makes me wish i knew how to fucking get my thoughts out as put together? as you. idk everytime i see you like giving advice and stuff im always like YUORE SO good you really are just! so good for this world and the people you talk to. i hope everyone knows how lucky they are that gets to talk to you and stuff ily. @cashewdani your tags. iv been following your blog since like? 2013? and i have no idea what your look like and im only guessing where youre from and what youre name even is but pretty much every post you make has incredible tags and has inspired me to watch movies/tv shows that i use to skip over and you are alawys so fucking delightful to see on my dash and i feel like everytime i see you posting it brings a smile to my face. also youre writing is incredible and i feel like iv seen you posting about new jobs and new living places so i hope 2019 is super amzing for you cos you deserve it! @yourghostcat <3<3<3<3<3 gamZE you are! you ar so bright and loving and warm and sweet and gentle and FUNNY and i feel liek every single time we talk im alawys just like ‘i love you gmze’ but honselty i DO and i hope u know youre super important and im so glad i know you. every single on of youre edits are beautiful and all the work u put into them is so appreciated and ur so talented! i hope 2019 is so good to you <3 @sehunchis u barely go here anymore but im including you anyway whocares KELLY i love you. your love for vivi?? feel that. love for vivi and sehun togeth? fukcing Feel that. youre so funny and rly smart and thoughtful and u make ppl so happy by just being there and i miss being in new york with you but seeing ur tweets still makes me smile just as biggggggg lvoe you. @lollipop-popsx youre so damn funny whenever youre done with anons purposely trying to start shit but you are so so lovely to everyone else and u pretty mch always come across as genuinely happy and caring and i rly hope that you have a super amazing 2019 love uou. @fullstopmgnt again u dont go hre anymore but just in case! i LOVE you and im so GLAD ur doing better and feeling better and working on getting even better im proud of you my lovely. miss u i WILL see you soon i have gifts for youuu @meliora i was gonna say i got to hug you TWICE this year but dunkirk came out in two thousand and seventeen im a fool whatever i got to hug you ONCE this year and while thats not really a lot its still!! im so happy i got to meet u cos ur SO FUKCING lovely and beaituful and warm as a person and so chill and have such good taste in music and hair colours and i know theres been some tough times this year for you but you deserve the fucking world so i hope 2019s nothin but great stuff ILY @baaatgurl bby gir lover darling MARIE light of my life. u are! incredible and i feel like whenever we meet up im laughing and smiling constantly and even when were not together i can like. listen to audio messages u send me and even when im sad i know i got something to smile about cos ur right there! u mean a lot to me and im so so so happy we met on this dumbass website in like 2013 youre so so so important. shits been tough but 2019s gonna be The Year and 2020? were leaving australia together. @cptkirked finish the walking dead. ALJHFGLDS okay FOR REAL first of all thankyou for making me watch love actually WAIT did i tell you! when u and me watched it and my brother was like ‘that movies terrible’ HE TXT ME LIKE 2WEEKS AGO and was like ‘just rewatched love actually. i get you both now. was good movie.’ ghhhhhahh i think ur relaly great and u always make me laugh and from your tweets i feel like youve had an up and down year so i rly hope 2019s good for you in every single way cos u really deserve it. love u. @nightandstarlight milesssss we havnt talked too mcyh this year but knowin youre out there living youre life! just happy. thankyou for alays been sweet and kind and positive and making me smile. hope 2019 is beautulf for you. @plaintoast TAELOr i know 2018 has definyely had highs and lows for you but 2019 IWLL be great and u deserve honeslty SO MYCH happiness and i hope u get all of it. u are so soft and lovely i lvoe u truly. @gettingdizzy giggled when i saw your url just then dont know why. SAVANAH do u have any idea how incredble u are? ur so important and ur texts like 90% of the time make me laugh and the other 10% i wanna like fight someone on your behalf. ur smile is 100/10 and i can not wait till the day we get to MEEt. ur gonna fuckign graduate this year and finish school and 2019s really gonna be your year and i love u so mcuh. @twelvegrimmyplace LIZ! LIGHT OF MY life. u are one of hte most beautiful and funniest and ur so fucking Good and lovely and always make me smile. u also make me laugh a lot and i lvoe ur tags and ur love for nick and nick and m/esh and nick and Glasses is the reason why 2019 has to be a good year. thankyou for ebing you. love you. @erinsbreakfast cheesed real hard with my smile then as i typed your url. thankyou for always making me smile big time and making me LAUGH and thanks for loving nick the way u do. ur super sweet and super beautful and i hope 2019 is everything u dream it to be. ur incredible and i voel you. @silveredsound YOU are BEAUTUFUL and always alawys making me smile with your tags and posts and ur heavenly pictures of Harry Styles and Harry Styles’ Hair in HQ and ur thoughts about nick gshaw. thankyou for being you and i hope u know how amazing u are. i love you. happy 2019 darling. also thnakyou for the gift that was TOWEL FIC. ur a hero. and ur wrtiing is!!!!!! stuff of dreams ur so talented hoenslty @magog83 ur literally the hero that goes above and beyond for the whole nick fandom and we will never be able to thankyou enough. you are increbible and amazing and lovely and you deserve so mych happiness and good things. thaknyou for so mych youre BEAUTIFUL. @junkshop-disco every single cow i pass by in my day to day life i automtically name mabel. ur posts make me smile and ur so lovely and kind. you are so fucking talented. i hope 2019s super super lovely fro you. @kilimiria !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mariE!!!!!!!! do u KNOw how big i smile whenever i see i have msgs from you? okay i know it takes me forever to reply a lot of the time but like literally msgs from you can turn my whole day from shit to the happiest of days. thanks for existing and being you na dmaking me smile u are sososo lovely and funny and beaitufl and i hope 2019 gives you the entire world. i lveo you. @apopstarontheradio thakns for making me smile a lot this year and being funny! and kind and lovely and having a big heart. hope 2019 beings u nothin but happiness loverlyyyy @thegreenaubergine i love YOu you make me laugh and make me smile and ur so so sweet and so lvoely i really relaly hope 2019 is great for you!!!!!! @hinickgrimshaw everytime i see u posting amd ur tags i feel like. ur just really great and amzing. sounds lame typing it out auhfhahhhhh BASICALLY everytime i see you saying things and read ur tags on nick posts im just like ‘youre SO good i trust everythignu say.’ youre so so lovely and u make me smile and im pretty sure i have a screenshot of a post u made once cos it made me smile on a bad day. anwyay i hope 2019 is GREAT for u and i think ur fucking incredible and ur love for nick is so soft. @writsgrimmyblog i smiled at your url like you could see it or someting kjhasdk WRIT u are. so organised and smart and FUNNY and beautiful and LVOELY and i am soossoso lucky to know you. youre nick thoughts and posts are a joy to read and ur writing is incredible and u made grimmy appreciation fest happen whcoh was!!!!!!! i Love you. 2019 better be the best for you <3 @fapfapfashion ayhhhh!!!!!!! ZHENya. i thnk i first saw you when u started leaving anon msgs for joanna you ARE so so so soft and kind i love you so much. you ALWAS make me laugh and you have some of the best tags and i hope everyone that knows you in real life knows how lucky they are to know youuu LOVE you a lot. hope 2019s super freakin amzing. @blueskybuzz77 youre so sweet and lovely and i hope so much good happens fro you in 2018 also u make me laigh and u deserve the WOrld LOVE you @fantofirehazard ur lovely and super sweet nad ur tags make me laugh and  i hope 2019 is increible for you because you deserve it a lot <3 

@grimshaw @brckhmptn i would die for you.

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psst. be honest. all of the questions. go.

i can’t believe jeanette is tryina kill me in public and i’m still love her??? | not accepting anymoooore | @ltbroccoli​

cracks knuckles here we go ( odd numbers 1-9 are here )

2. Are aesthetics important to you? If they are, why?

Not very. It’s fun and cute and all, but I care a whole lot more about “clicking” with people and having fun writing with them.

Exception: If someone’s aesthetic is so overblown that I can’t even find the pages on the blog or read the text, I.....won’t interact with that tbh.

4. How do you explain rp to someone in the real world?

(kicks down my roommate’s door at 10pm) “OK so I’m writing— stop screaming, it’s me,— I’m writing a character in Security and you’re like a double black belt or some shit, can you explain how—”

( My roommates all know it’s a thing I do but I’ve never sent them a link or shown them any of the actual writing. They’ve met a bunch of y’all over like Rabbit streams and @rumdaydreams​ irl though so like.... They Know. )

More under the cut

6. Do you prefer writing male muses or female more? Why?

Ehhh, depends on my mood. I lean towards female muses in general ( definitely got a bigger chunk of ladies on my list, for sure for sure ) but I love my boys.

8. Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.

Uhhhh A) We’re all such dumb socially awkward blobs so it’s often hard to get to know new people.

B) The feel that if you have a good relationship with one person who writes a canon muse, it’s some kind of lowkey betrayal to write with other people who write the same muse??

C) How much I, a certified card-carrying dumbass, stress myself out about posting on a “regular” schedule. Does that count? Like I want the blogs to look “presentable” lmao and me@me Calm The Fuck Down.

10. Have you ever had a bad experience with commissions? As either someone who makes them or as someone who buys them?

N / A

11. What do you know now about rp that you wish you knew when you first started?

Uhhhh, when I first started was long enough ago and the community was so different a lot of those lessons no longer apply. I wish when I finally jumped over to Tumblr I’d realized quicker how the new like....basic ways of meeting people and posting and all worked, which was mostly just a “calm down and go with the flow more, let go of your stupid rigid old habits” lmaooo.

12. Have you been involved in drama? Do you regret it?

yES. Yeah. Hahaha ha h. 

But ummm, not usually. No. Most of my drama has been either A) me posting the very very softest, most diluted version of barely-touching on my politics and my real goddamn life and people being fuckin butthurt as hell about or B) cutting people who were toxic and draining out of my life. So.

13. Have you ever thought about leaving rp? What caused it? What changed your mind?

cw suicidal ideation ment

Yeah. Once I actually did — when I started college I just didn’t have the time, so I peaced from the larger community to just write with close friends for a while. I’ve also considered leaving the T.umblr RPC a few times, but really only because of long bad depressive episodes. Coming back and “not wanting to literally die irl ha Ha” and catching up with my drafts gets me back on track lmao. 

14. Do you think rp has had a positive or negative affect on your life or you as a person?

Positive! Sometimes I worry that I spend too much time wrapped up in fiction and miss my real life, but I’ve learned to keep my time more separate so now it’s just good to have a healthy hobby that makes me happy. Also I’m definitely a much better writer for it, and there a lot of networking skills I think translate to real workplace skills so it’s 👌

15. How has rp changed you personally?

See above, tbh. And it gives me a lot of good outlets for writing ideas that would otherwise stew in my head until I hated myself for never ever writing any lmao. It’s good.

16. If you could change one thing about rp on tumblr, what would it be? Why?

Oh, I dunno. I wish I could post replies from mobile more easily, god. That’d keep me a lot more on top of my drafts lmao.

17. Have you ever sent a message to yourself on anon? Why?

Not on any of the rp blogs. ;^)

18. Have you ever sent hate to yourself on anon? Why? 

No, wtf

19. Do you delete anon hate or post and address it? Why?

Depends on the hate — things I feel need to be addressed or I want to be clear about not tolerating I’ll post. Personal hate and mean shit I delete.

Or if it’s stupid and makes me laugh I will definitely post that shit.

20. Have you ever felt pressured to write something you weren’t comfortable with?

Sometimes. If a partner is actually pressuring me I’m real good at saying uhhh hey, fuck off about that? but sometimes partners will perfectly-innocently be enthusiastic about things I’m not super comfortable with and that’s harder to bring up. So it’s..... more like I pressure myself, whoops.

21. Have you ever followed someone because you felt like you had to, not because you wanted to?

Ehh. Not really. Sometimes I’ll follow a friend of a friend despite lack of interest just because, like.... My friends are smart and good, maybe I’m just not getting the right “vibe” from their blog as who really they are. Sometimes that just means we never click and I unfollow them later. Or sometimes @rumdaydreams​ drags me straight to mutual hell and we write 20,000 unfinished bullshit and meet irl and she actually talks me into wholeass new blogs and muses. So, you know. Mix bag.

22. What would make you block someone?

Red flags for manipulation and lowgrade emotional a.buse, especially ones I viscerally feel in my stomach from previous experiences. Obvious r.ight-leaning politics ( Weirdly, I’m not particularly comfortable around people who don’t think I or my friends deserve to be treated like human beings! A character quirk, haha! )

Also ngl sometimes I block people just to remind myself I’ve followed them before and I don’t wanna re-follow them six times and look like I’m trying to intentionally harass them. My memory is bad but the block button always knows, lmao. 😅

23. Have you ever stolen something from someone else?

Not intentionally — I try very hard not to steal hc from duplicates or take plots without asking. But, y’know, sometimes an idea sticks in your head and you eventually just forget where it originally came from.

24. Have you ever had something stolen from you? If so, how did you handle it?

Not that I’m aware of.

25. Are you open to duplicates? Why / why not?

Absolutely, for the most part! I like seeing other perspectives, and especially since @thewrongsorts​ is such a bigass multi it lowkey just makes my life easier.

There are a few exceptions — less because they’re duplicates and more because there are hc/fanon I just......dislike enough I don’t wanna write with them. Not a feeling that’s limited to duplicates tbh.

26. How do you feel about vague posting? 

Ehhh. It’s like not a great thing, but I get the appeal. I tend to unfollow if someone posts a lot of it because then they’re just passive-aggressive as a person, but the occasional vagueblog I don’t mind. Sometimes you gotta get shit off your chest but you don’t wanna make it a wholeass call-out, I get it.

27. Do you follow people even if they don’t follow you back?

Generally I unfollow. I’m here to write, if we’re not interacting it’s clogging my dash. ( Honestly I unfollow mutuals eventually if we never write.... ) But very occasionally someone’s got such good #takes and hc that I stick around just bc I stan.

28. Do you read people’s rules before following or interacting?

A l w a y s.

29. What is your opinion on “reblog karma” and do you practice it?

It’s nice! Like.... I wouldn’t require anyone to do it, but it makes people feel better about their blogs, it’s polite. I know I’m happier getting memes as well as passing them along. You know, be social. Connect with people. I always try to practice it, yeah.

30. How have you responded to popular slang used on tumblr? Do you use it in every day life? Do you use it at all?

Uhhh, yeah. My irl social circles are a lot of dumb gay millennials, we use a lot of dumb internet slang.

31. Is there something you don’t know the meaning of but you haven’t asked anyone because you think it’s supposed to be general knowledge?

Oh yeah! Joined Tumblr rpc ten years late with Starbucks! But also like.... I’m a web developer. 90% of my irl workskills are being good at Googlin’ shit. So I’ve pretty much always found the answer on my own, at least. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

32. Was there ever something you had to ask someone to explain? 

( See above. )

33. Have you ever experienced discrimination? 

Here or irl or....? I mean yes in any case, but much less often in the rpc specifically. This blog is a lot less outspoken ( both about politics or about who I....am....generally ) than most of my others or me irl.

Shoutout to that time I complained one (1) time about how copacetic the H.arry P.otter rpc is and an actual irl n.eon.azi jumped in my inbox lmaooooooo.

34. How do you feel about personal blogs following your rp blog?

Uhhh, I don’t love it? But if they mostly chill and don’t fuck with my actual threads I usually ignore them. ¯\_( ‘ ‘ )_/¯

35. Have you ever cried while writing a reply?

No. I’m not like......good at crying. 😐

36. Do you read other people’s threads or do you only read your own?

Depends on the blog. Some multis I follow are in fandoms I just like don’t even understand, so I don’t read those. Sometimes I just don’t got the energy. But I read a lot of my friends’ other threads or threads on blogs I stan.

Good writing is good shit and I’m.....a big 👀 bitch. Tbh.

37. What’s one thing that other people seem to hate that doesn’t bother you?

Call-out posts, bringing real life politics into rp, generally acknowledging that we have lives outside of the fictional world that affect how we read and interact with fiction.

( 👏 The O.rder 👏👏 of the 👏 P.hoenix 👏👏 is A.ntif.a 👏👏👏 )

I don’t want to ever push that onto other people though, definitely. (Especially people affected by terrifying irl politics and coming here for escapism. )

38. How do you feel about tagging triggers? Do you tag them? How do you determine what is triggering content and what isn’t?

Always 👏👏 tag 👏👏 fucking 👏 triggers 👏👏👏

I tag things that are common or obviously upsetting, and if someone asks I add whatever tags they need to my list — the “list” is mostly a mental tally so I occasionally fuck up, but god I feel strongly about triggers.

Let 👏 people 👏 who are hurting 👏👏 live. 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

39. What advice would you give to someone new to rp?

Poking around to see how other people seem to “operate” and scrolling through posts about how to get started is so so so fucking helpful! Don’t be afraid to do it!

Also reach out to people as much as you can work up the spoons to. If they’re rude back to you, like..... They were never worth your time anyhow. You dodged a bullet.

( Value yourself 2k19 )