#I HAD TO READ MORE ouo

[clownmoontoon]

RAAAAHHH HELLO ITS BEEN A MINUTE!!! \OUO/

YOUR FAVORITE CLOWN IS BACK IN BUSINESS ive been quiet a while, a LOTS been going on in my personal life that brought my social medias to a complete (and unfortunate ToT) standstill til now!

i rlly wanna talk about it, its been honestly life changing and for safety i need to add some warnings:

cw for abuse both physical and emotional, and suicidal thoughts/ideation (dw im ok and not suicidal! i used to be and i finally have real context as to why)

ANYWAYS LETS TALK ABOUT IT

i got the opportunity to see a therapist for free for the first time since i was a kid and it was IMMENSELY eye opening.

SOME CONTEXT: ive lived with just my mother since i was a teenager as i tried to "make it" as an artist. ive had my ups and downs w this career goal and have been heavy in the midst of a very big Down period. entirely brought on by how sick i was at the start of the year to june (infected lymph nodes, pneumonia, 2 pounds of tumors in my uterus that required the removal of the organ entirely etc, i may have a weak immune system im realizing sdlkjd) which resulted in me having very little energy to create and/or post content. by july i needed to basically start over. which i was excited to do! i WANTED to get back to work and i was even excited for art fight! ;u;

aaaand in july is when my mom thought would be a good time to threaten to kick me out unless i found money to give her or got a "real" job. this came as an extreme and horrifying shock as i had just asked her the month before to "believe in me just a little longer" as i finally felt i realized what id been doing wrong all these years before and felt strongly i could succeed before the end of the year, she not only emphatically agreed but even said i didnt need such a time limit and she definitely didnt mind supporting me til i reached my dream lol i couldnt even do anything until july bc i was busy recovering from major surgery, coming home with tape on my stomach to heal the incision that hadnt fully closed yet

ive wanted to see a therapist for ages bc im Full O' Trauma and i knew it would help. The way this worked was basically like getting a free trial, i got six days of therapy (to be spread out as far as i liked) thru zoom.

i used the visits more for getting advice on how to reach my goals thru mental blocks and exhaustion bc ultimately i felt like 6 days wasnt enough time to get into trauma stuff and i really just wanted to get my career off the ground again, hopefully permanently.

i had vented a tiny bit about my mom and by the final visit w my therapist i decided to forgo the "how to better reach my goals" questions and ask if she had advice on how to handle someone like my mother, who i had to live with and rely on and who would often say something cruel whenever the mood struck. as i told her about my situation she stops me and asks

"do you hear yourself? bc i hear you"

and im suddenly so scared shes going to tell me the same, "get a real job" "stop acting so selfish" etc

instead she says, "this is abuse, youre literally describing an abusive relationship"

i was in complete shock

i even asked her how could i be the one being abused when i was the one using the resources and she compared it to a person getting married to someone rich and that rich person treating them like theyre worthless for not also making money.

it shook me to my core especially bc my mom loved calling me an abuser and comparing me to her abusive ex husbands (one of which used to abuse her physically, punch her/beat her etc) and saying im just like them

for the record ive never laid a hand on her, she would say these things whenever the mood struck, often out of nowhere

once bc i told her i couldnt read her mind and didnt know what she wanted lol wild

ANYWAY after this conversation i started looking back on my life and realizing why ive always felt so worthless, why i thought until my early 20's that suicide would be the best option for everyone. i was so exhausted from chasing this dream and feeling like such a worthless burden, my mother would get so angry with me for just existing and i felt like she would be so much happier if i were out of the picture, my sisters (both a decade older and living w their own families) calling me a leech and selfish for "using" our mother etc

any time i would stand up for myself, kindly and meekly as i could my mother would tell me how she wanted to punch my mouth, slap my face etc for years i thought she'd eventually fly into such a rage one day that she'd kill me and... i honestly didnt really mind the thought once while in high school my mom picked me up for lunch and offered to pay for a prom dress. i told her that it was ok, i knew she was struggling w money rn and i didnt really wanna go to prom anyway she flew into such a rage she pulled over on the highway just to pull my hair and beat me, and then dropped me back at school to finish my day lol

realizing that all of that IS NOT OK OR A NORMAL WAY TO FEEL OR BE TREATED AND I DEFINITELY DIDNT DESERVE ANY OF THAT was extremely eye opening

i told my best friends what my therapist had said and they were both like YEAH... DID YOU NOT KNOW YOU HAD AN ABUSIVE MOTHER??

apparently it was very obvious ^^; my friends were shocked to find that i thought everything was my fault, my therapist even used the term "gaslighting narcissist" to describe her which was WILDLY VALIDATING for me lmao

sitting w all these thoughts whirling around my head my mom texts me suddenly and tells me to ask my sisters for money (13 hundred dollars lol) bc she needs it for "bills"

i didnt want to do that at all she told me to "use my big words" to convince them and not to say it was her idea, but instead to act like i was asking bc i wanted to

it felt gross and made my skin crawl and honestly didnt even make sense bc WHY would i need that money so i asked but let my sisters know it was my mom asking and said she prob felt embarrassed to ask, while telling my mom that i asked in the way she wanted

my oldest sister makes good money and has helped our mom w money in the past. she texted me back asking why our mom needed money and why 1300 and i told her honestly i didnt know, i asked my mom what to say and she said to tell her she had an itemized list but she left it at work and couldnt remember what was on it lol

my sister told me to tell our mom that she couldnt help rn, so i did and my mom encouraged me to push harder to my other sister

suddenly the sister i had been talking to texts me and says that our mom left her a voicemail saying she doesnt know WHY i would ask for money, must be bc she threatened to kick me out bc i never help her with money :,( which was WILD bc any time i had money my mom would get most if not all of it, i havent been able to save money since ... ever tbqh, even when i tried my mom would successfully guilt every dollar from me letting me know i didnt deserve to save a penny after all shes done for me aaAA

ANYWAY i was so angry and hurt that my mom would just throw me under the bus i told my sister i had proof i wasnt lying (bc she was already inclined to believe our mother since they both considered me a leech to start with) and sent her screenshots of my texts

she was shocked and hurt too i decided to tell her about my therapy and how my therapist had called our mom an abuser and she answered that she understands more than ill ever know... which is very sad hjghfgf

we havent really talked more since and i deleted my texts to the other sister, more likely than not my mom sent her a similar voicemail

im very tired

i want to get out of here, im finally seeing this relationship for what its been for years and years, even back to when i was a little kid! i didnt know about suicide but id dream of being an animal in the wild bc i felt like if i were just out of the picture everyone at home would be less angry

its something that enrages me now tbqh ive tried all my life to be as little of a burden as possible and now im ready to be a problem LMAO :o)

the long and short of it is that i will be posting art sales and opening my patreon FINALLY to try and save up funds to get out of here ive also gotten a part time job on weekends for a little cushion tho some of that money will inevitably go to my mother, unfortunately

she doesnt know about the money i make online :o)

my family has constantly called me selfish, entitled and spoiled for just asking for common decency and to be treated like a person, theyve dehumanized me to the point that my greatest coping mechanism was creating a creature sona that isnt human but a monstrous equivalent lol AND I LOVE THEM IM EMBRACING CREATURE LETS FUCKIN GO

i know this has been long and if youve made it to the end i love u and im so thankful for your support!! ;u;

FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT!! i want to come back full force, i havent stopped drawing at all, just havent had the energy to do much til now

my therapist even pointed out that i probably WOULDVE had at least moderate steady success by now if it werent for my mom's constant abuse

OH ALSO I NOW HAVE FOUR CATS LMAO a stray i had been giving water to and keeping safe from weather things (extreme heat, extreme cold etc) had her kittens here! and my mom gave me the ok to keep them all ;u; (and then ofc rescinded that but thats hardly a surprise now lol) and man, having kids cats sure changes your perspective on what u want and feel like you deserve! I NEED TO DO WELL BC THESE KITTIES DEPEND ON ME AND I LOVE THEM QVQ <3<3

SO YEAH IM BACK BABY IM GETTING THE HELL OUTTA HERE ASAP AND CONCENTRATING ON MY WELL BEING AND MENTAL HEALTH!! 😤🔥

[kittyplushy]

Since you are the foremost BTTWNS scholar, where do you think Melody got that suit for her husband? I imagine that would be a hard thing to ask someone to make…I guess she probably made it but if so, that’s really impressive! (I assume his body is in there too? It’s pretty heavily implied. Reminds me of that Sally Acorn doll with the fake human skeleton.)

I’m glad you talk about her sometimes, she’s really interesting! If there’s not much to say about the suit thing, I’d be curious if you had any more headcanons about her ouo

Hey thanks for the Sally Acorn reminder I was gonna say that that was the most probable case. Sobs.

On a more serious note: It's a doll. If it was the real body, it would have rotten or discolored over time. The beginning of the funeral scene clearly shows Frank's headstone. I know Melody might have meant "real" in the sense of the living being, but I guess this can go for both that and the fact it's a doll.

There are multiple Frank heads in a closet, maybe used to replace since cuddling it would damage the fur and whiskers. To preserve the authenticity. Sam does comment it's a "likeness"- she would know if it was real.

I do believe Melody made it herself. She wouldn't wanna worry anyone by asking for such a tedious, alarming request. As a butcher she would at least have a good grasp on anatomy and morphology of an animal well enough to translate it even into a taxidermy.

Yesss I love Melody so much. I think the 3rd issue is the strongest writing and character-wise because it's got a really strong central theme and a lot of implucations about the universe. If you step back, you realize what Melody is doing is just similar to how we hug and keep pillows and plushies. It's just uncomfortable since it's a dead person, but that's just how she copes. Seeing how a person copes with death of a loved one freaks Sam out and that's why she's so afraid of consequence. It's UNCOMFORTABLE.

Melody is sadly just. A tragic character but I think she should be so angry. She would be so angry. Having been loved and left and loved again then left. I think a prevelant headcanon I hark here a lot is that Sam and Melody used to date. I know Melody is intertwined with her because of Martin's death but if you read between the lines their interactions seem to have a lot of underlying tension. Sam writes about her in this almost nostalgic, almost disgusted way even though she doesn't know yet about the bigger picture. And Melody finding her in her house isn't all that surprising somehow. Yeah. My ex isn't above breaking and entering. And accusing me of murder. I think Melody should be so fucking angry.

#worstyuriever❗️

also i hc she's a korean immigrant.. uh.

[findingyourrootscomic]

First off, hi!! I’m a bit of a newer reader (probably been follwoing this blog for a couple months now) and i’m having such a good time keeping up with the story! It was so amazing to binge read and experience all of the ups and downs you’ve put into the story so far. You’ve been able to integrate and handle complex topics so well! And now it brightens my day whenever a new installment pops up! It’s really amazing and admirable how long you’ve been able to work on this project.

I happened to be doing a reread of the earlier chapters to see if mega evolution/primal forms had been mentioned early on, but I found something that’s become much more interesting after recent events. Perhaps someone has brought this up on another platform, but I’m giving the cracked mural in chapter 5 (pages 35 + 39) a pretty big 👀👀👀 after the events with team magma and the benefactor! I don’t expect any explanations yet, just wanted to see if any other readers had some thoughts on it!

I’m very excited to see where this journey goes, thank you so much for sharing your comics with us all!! ^v^

Hi, thank you so much for leaving this message!!!! It really made my morning. :D I'm glad you're enjoying the story so far, and welcome aboard! We've got a ways to go but it's gonna be a fun adventure.

For those who aren't sure, this is the mural they're talking about! I was so flattered that a lot of readers remembered it after the Benefactor appeared. What could it mean? ouo

Happy to share the comics, it's worth it when folks like you leave such nice messages about em!

[loopeyfluff]

hihi I come from twt and I wanted to let you know that your art and comics mean so much to me, specially the "and you just have to see it" one. i reread it every time I find it around and idk, it means so much to me since i found it just at the right time in my life and it really gave words to my understanding of not just WHY I love one piece, bur why I love Art

I had no clue you had tumblr but it's such a nice surprise!! never stop making art, please, it impacts peoples lives in wonderful ways that even if you don't know, it'll still be important and beautiful and it'll be worth it

at least it impacted my life a lot, even what could be seen as just a few comics

you're definitely one of my favorite artists, period? your skill is impressive both on a technical level and also storytelling wise, idk!! I just really enjoy it and I think more artists as cool as you should know that their work is appreciated!!!!!! if you think about it it's your fault for making the majority of my favorite pieces of op fanart on the fandom!!!!! so yeah

thank you so much for everything, really

sorry for the rambling tho

Oh my godddddddd oriyrgehehehehehhdhd this is SOOO LOVELY??? THIS WAS SUCH A WONDERFUL THING TO READ THIS MORNING MY HEART FEELS SO FULL OF WARMTH!!!! AGHHEUWUAGSGGSHS THANK YOUUUUUU SO MUCHHH!!!

First of all, thank you for finding my tumblr and sending me such a nice ask! This absolutely made my day, I always struggle understanding and conceptualising how memorable my art's presence is on the internet, but it always means the world to me to hear when my art has deeply affected them!!! To hear that you think about my art like, even weeks or months after you've seen them, it makes me really happy :)

Second of all, I'm so glad I was able to reach you with that comic in particular- I really think it's probably my magnum opus XD I was feeling really damn bummed out the month before I read one piece cause I was in exam period, tho I was feeling really depressed even after i got outta exam period. One piece got me out of that tho, and then I made that comic in my end of exam period the next year to remind me that things were different now!!! I literally poured my entire soul into that comic, that comic is legit just, me. So to find that so many other people resonated so hard with that,,,, gahh im just so glad it found you in a time of need as well :)

Third, YESS I LOVE MAKING ART SO MUCH!!! I hope you keep staying to look at whatever i create, because i have so many things i want to cook up!!- in fact im cooking up a pretty big meal rn ouo ehehhehehe. tho its not like. original. but im still putting my all into it 💪

Fourth, I'm seriously so flattered that I'm one of your favourite artists! Genuinely thank you so much for taking the time to let me know, I hope you have a wonderful week :)

[fluffyartbl0g]

Going through all my follows rn, what's your favourite character/ship (platonic or otherwise) dynamics?

(also I know I've just randomly shown up in your asks, your time travel au has been an absolute joy to read, keep it up friendo!!!)

Thank you so much :DDD!!! I'm so glad that you've enjoyed reading my time travel au and I super appreciate the ask cause I LOVE TALKING ABOUT MY ONE PIECE OPINIONS >:DDD!!!! I'll put it under read more ouo

Anyways my OTP,,,, is,,, NAKAMASHIP!!!! There's nothing more that I love than the strawhat crew ; - ; I have literally shed tears over all of my strawhats and I love that they all love eachother deeply... On my one piece reread- I made sure to pay extra attention to all the character interactions and jokes. And can I just say, I see so many people talk about how the strawhats barely interact post time skip, or that some characters are basically strangers to each other (I saw someone say this about Franky and Zoro), but THEY DO TALK!!! THEY HAVE SO MANY FUN INTERACTIONS!!!

Oda is SO good at balancing these funny little character moments between important story beats >:O I think Zou in particular had a bunch of nakamaship moments that I really loved. One of my favourite lesser loved dynamics in the crew is usopp and robin (which you would know if you looked at my art of them XD) because they have a bunch of funny bits between them :3

My romantic OTP of all time is ZOLU THOUGH. And I tried really hard to not ship it immediately when i first started reading one piece, because I do this kind of thing alot when I get into media where I latch onto the protag and the guy close to the protag and ship em together??? Like I was so obsessed with JohnDave that DaveKat just hurt me,,, And I liked bakudeku so much that I couldn't get into kiribaku... AND I DIDNT WANT THE TREND TO CONTINUE TO ONE PIECE T - T And it SOMEWHAT did, but it also somewhat didnt. When I first heard Zosan was the most popular ship, like leagues above zolu, I was in physical pain,,, But REMEMBER; nakamaship is my first otp, so I still really enjoyed the idea of zoro and sanji because I enjoy the dynamics between ALL of my strawhats >:(!!!

I'm super duper obsessed with one piece and it sucks that there's all this great fanfiction out there that is effectively barred against me because there's a ship that I don't like >:/ So what I did to become more accepting of Zosan is,,, I drew them making out a ton XD If you look at my early one piece doodle piles, you'll see one of them with a couple of zosan things HAHAHA. Honestly it vaguely worked, but I'm super picky about the zosan fics I read, cause I feel like people can wildly mischaracterize zoro pretty easily.

Anyways I don't think I really answered ur question properly, I really love the king/knight loyalty but also just good bros dynamic that's happening with luffy and zoro :) But in general I just love a good sunshine person/grumpy person ship! (geraskier, bakudeku, megamenace, kagehina, hitomi and shousuke <<< quite upset that the ship sank, Fakir and Ahiru, wrightworth, etc)

Thanks again for the question <3

[aeb-art]

so i realized that my sona being geo's coworker would mean we have the same boss. not sure how i didn't consider that sooner, but it spiraled into... this. i'm calling it the bad ending. it is so so so long, so everything is below the read more o7 enjoy

stellar city and the mall toons belong to @8um8le as always

cw: assault and implied murder at the end

genuinely this feels like something fourteen year old me would wanna read and that is such a wonderful feeling, i had so much fun making this the past few days ouo

oh and thank you, ballad, i was kinda self-conscious on if the flower pot shard as a weapon was a good idea or not ^^; also thank you for making all these characters. drawing them has really made creating art more joyful these past few weeks (or months? geez...)

okay i'm done being a sap! i hope you enjoyed! have a lovely day/night! <333

[missbehavior0u0]

With Feferi’s help, Aradia slides open the sarcophagus lid, revealing John’s ancient skeleton, dressed in the traditional blue vestments of the Heir of Breath. Aradia took her place before an enormous mortar, decorated with carved skulls, and removed the heavy pestle from it. Feferi meanwhile began her duty of removing his bones and depositing them with the massive mortar, his skull being the first to enter. As the last of John's bones had been gathered up, Aradia looked to Feferi, who cleared her throat and began to read from a small black book. "Ashes to ashes…" The normally bubbly fuchsia heiress intoned solemnly as Aradia lifted the gigantic pestle in preparation to begin grinding. She brought the pestle down harshly into the mortar, smashing fingers and ribs into powder. "Dust… To dust." Feferi continued as she saw John's skull crushed into a fine sand. Using both hands, Aradia harshly worked the pestle against the bones, leaving nothing but dust. After many minutes of grinding, John's skeleton was soon reduced to mere ashes. Feferi then placed a funnel within a grand, tall hourglass and set it before Aradia, who, effortlessly lifting the more than 150 pound basalt mortar, emptied John’s remains into it. Feferi then corked the hourglass back up and once more read from the black book, her voice still grim. “Our time in this world is brief.”, she said as Aradia swiftly raised the hourglass above her head and watched the sand trickle downwards. “With each fallen grain…” She looked up from her book. "We grow closer to the final slumber." She finished as Aradia sat it down harshly upon John’s sarcophagus lid.

Oh hey, It’s you again! I thought you were dead! OuO

[solivcgant]

ubiquitousidol ~ c:

SEND A URL AND I WILL ANSWER THE FOLLOWING;

Do I Follow Them?: yes 

Why Did I Follow Them?: i was threatened on discord-- 

Do We Role Play?: yes, but we should also rp some more and explore the rest of your muse list (¬‿¬ ) 

Do I Want To Role Play With Them: always, we just get VERY lazy actually writing our ideas tand then stay on discord with stupid videos  

An AU Idea For Our Muses: i offer.. another angst au where eiji is successful in bringing yuuna back through yuna ouo but will she be happy with all the sacrifices the other players had to make? of course not. and then imagine.. her telling eiji that he has to let her go-- cries. there is only angst for us here. 

A Song For Our Muses: go sign - billy laurent just bc of this lyric saying it'll be alright when our muses are together heh. キミがいれば alright, oh, yeah

Do I Ship Our Muses?: perhaps.. we should discuss so we are on the same page of which muse to ship heh. bc eiji doesn't want to be enemy #1 to yuna's roommate

What I Think About The Mun: really fun to chat with ooc. someone has an arsenal of animal videos from twitter that she uses to start the next day conversation cries. i can never unsee the kiwi fruits and hamster-- or whatever small animal that was. whenever she comes back to tumble after living her best life attending concerts, i always look forward to reading her threads. she will promote buried stars and remind you to buy it when it goes on sale-- she's secretly part of the marketing team hMMM.  

Overall Opinion: i enjoy the behind the scenes and less glamourous take on the idol muses ouo. her blog is forever tba apparently, but that leaves so much to explore since i just have to talk about an idea a few times and then suddenly we're considering a new plot. all according to keikaku ψ( ` ∇ ´ )ψ  

Blog Rate: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 1∞

[cuteteacakes]

under a read more bc yall are probably sick of me by now lol

There came unto me a thought (about a vtuber model) and like... I still love the forest witch idea, but I was wondering what kind of forest you know? But then it hit me. What if, and this is a long way down the road because I do NOT have the money for it, what if I had four models of the same character, just different seasonal outfits and looks? Like a winter look, a fall look, etc???? I think it'd be neat ouo

[cheemken]

I don’t know how to explain it, other than I’m feeling like

After reading your evil Diantha AU

You don’t have any clue how much I LOVE the “hero turns out to be the villain” plot lines. I live for it.

If that shit was crack then I’d probably be living on the streets at this point

Do you have anything else you’d like to share

with the class 🎤 Like about Lance or Geeta or Augustine? Or about any of the other champions? What about the Kalos league?

No fr it's such a good concept right hxmxnx

Like it would've been so dope if they made Diantha the twist villain in XY man evil Dia is just cool and also it's a good mental image like man Diantha w Makima's personality and traits? 👌

Anyways yeah omfs ouo

The other champions, Iris and Hau especially, Diantha had set a secret standard for em. "They shine as bright as my darling brother," she'd say and she expected more from them when it comes to battling too

Like I imagine another conference in Kalos, Hau and Iris are there, and she's really rooting for them to win. But also I imagine if they do lose Diantha would be so passive aggressive towards them saying how they should've done this or that, but also for other people to not suspect anything she'd also say how proud she was of them for getting that far

Cynthia is kinda close to Diantha, since ofc she's friends w her bro, but she does notice there's smth,,, off,,, abt Dia but she just can't pinpoint what, and hey as much as she loves and trusts Augustine, she's just a bit wary of his sister

Steven and Wallace are pretty neutral w Diantha, well Wallace and Dia are close w each other, so hey Steven just thinks there's nothing wrong w Dia cause she's still the same Kalos Champion that they all know

Leon and Dia aren't close to begin w, he knows nothing abt her but she knows a lot of things abt him

The Kalos league is painfully unaware that Diantha was behind Flare, but they did notice that Malva suddenly lost all that snark and bite she has that was reserved for only Diantha and now she's usually quiet during League meetings. But other than that, Dia is still Dia to them, the same forgiving and kind hearted Champion of Kalos, their angel, their queen

For Augustine? Well, he doesn't know what really happened, he's wondering where Lysandre was. Diantha told him he's dead, that she was too late to save him from himself and from what he wanted to do that when she got to Flare HQ everything was already destroyed, and the only thing she found was his Mega Ring. She comforted her brother ofc, Lysandre was a good friend of his, but for Dia, Lysandre doesn't deserve Augustine. Her brother is too good for him, too perfect for him, and for him to use the Mega Stone that Augustine found for him only to fail even w that kinda power, well,,, he's lucky he's dead now. But, Diantha had to admit, she would've loved if she really had his blood staining her hands.

[trencri]

@godofvillains​ arrived at the station !      ⊵  ((Just curious, how did you discover Garvey? ouo * unprompted / / ALWAYS ACCEPTING !

Well !! There’s this awesome website called readcomiconline , and while I was on my daily binge of ducky comics . . . I stumbled upon issue 12 of Donald Duck ( 2015 ) -- this was Garvey’s first appearance ,  reprinted from 1997.  I remember something clicking when I first saw him. He stuck out to me.  Later , I came across issue 737 of Disney Comics & Stories , Riverboat ‘Round the Bend ! And woah !! There’s that lil dude again !!

Once again I had a super fun time reading a story with this kid.  I ended up being so fascinated that I searched him up and looked more into him. I remember going back and reading those two stories over and over ,  and before you know it --- he became an obsession !  Now I’m here , owning nearly every comic that exist for him and writing him  as a muse on his very own blog <3 

[whydousernamesevenexist]

I was scrolling your blog to see whether you posted anything (why i check when you've already answered all my asks is beyond me but i always do) AND OMG i'm going to cry THATS SO SWEET AAAH tyy <3

"Studying is doubting your potential anyway" right so where can i hang that quote? New life motto thats going in the yearbook.

Ooo nice hot chocolate, sounds cozy! And rain!! What do you have to study?

I had training this morning (i do ballroom dancing but like more or less casually, no competitions or anything)(also i just scrolled through the countdown anon tag for half an hour bc i couldnt remember whether you know that about me yet, but i've decided you get to know now lmao) (also its interesting to see who interacts with the posts of you answering my asks)

Anyway i had dance training in the morning, and then i got home and finally got something done for that group project, and i had a ball from dance in the evening. I help out in beginner courses and it was a "end of course" ball, and the training is for extra performance dances that I do with a group during breaks, which i did today. I'm pretty tired you'd think i'd be sleeping by now but no.

Also i found out a friend of mine is pregnant!! I got to find out before most of the others bc they're being told by her husband next week, it's so cool. (I wasn't expecting it so i just stood there like 😱🙆🏻 😭, and that's on me and reactions) (this makes me seem old that i have friends who are pregnant get me out of here they're at least 5 years older i'm not sure actually dw i'm not that old🧍🏻‍♂️i'm only a year older than you 😔 before someone thinks i'm a weird creep for interacting with you 🧍🏻‍♂️) (this is getting way too long again but like i have this gag about being very vague about my age on my blog (is it a gag if its funny for exclusively me probably) but you (and your 1.5k followers) get to know bc you don't know much else i don't want to come off as weird 😔)

I have no idea how i always manage to get my asks to be this long, also i will never get over how i can't send pictures in anon asks.

I think this is one of my longest "letters" yet.

-Luan

<333 no problemmm you are really nice OuO

Lol that quote is not mine at all, I've seen it multiple times on tiktok :)

I'm writing a biology exam on Wednesday and Geography exam on Thursday. I don't know anything about either of them, but I will cook something probably :>

Omg ballroom dancing??? That's so cool, love that for you!

Also thanks for telling me your age <333

Lmao that's wild, I have like one friend who's an adult, so if any of my friends told me they're pregnant, I'd probably freak out lol

Good luck to her and her husband, though!

I love receiving your long letters! And yeah, it sucks :( @staff we want to be able to send pictures on anon please!!!

Sorry for not replying earlier, today school was really long :(

But my day was fine. We had PE and our teacher forced us to do some workout, so… just waiting until my whole body starts to hurt… and then we had two hours of Music, so we practiced some Christmas songs that we will be playing next week in a home for the disabled, and then the week after in our school gym for everyone to hear. Naturally, I, as someone who has played the recorder for about 11 years, am very proud of my skills (I'm not good actually, I just can read notes pretty well), so the teacher immediately roped me into participating in both of these events :')

But I will survive I guess

[nymphrasis]

"Infamous second son"?

GOOD GOD, its been a decade since I last touched, or even heard of that game!

Got it when the PS4 released, and it was the first game ever played on it!

It was the first infamous game i played, and I fell in love with each of Delsin's powers, and abilities!

His powers were new and unique to me, and shattered my expectations, as I thought he was gonna have something generic, and mainstream, like fire bending, water powers, super strength, and power to fly, ETC...

At first, i thought the first powers he got was fire, but after reading tutarioul, HE WAS CONTROLLING LITERAL SMOKE.

I loved that... Man time flies too fast...

I dont know what this "Eilimtura" thing is you seem to be working on, but I would love to see someone do something with those kinds powers again, after all this time!

Would be very nostalgic to see.

My favorite of the 4 powers was VIDEO!

Honestly I've planned to watch the Infamous series to both learn and, well, know more of the game because my curiosity is peeled ;w;. And, because of Xavi ask, I feel more invested towards it <3.

Admittedly I even looked at concept art of the abilities through the power of Google because I was curious of how they've done it nwn.

Eilimitura is, in a sense, my own creature taming game project ;u;. It is an idea I had since around 2013-2014, but never pursue further with it until 2018 where I started collecting designs first as I write the story I had in mind ( I do need to put them in script format to make it easier. The story itself is not done-done, as there have been some revisions and edits. Admittedly the story itself is much better now than it is back then ^^. Back then story, to give a snippet for the beginning ( It is NOT like that in the current story. I completely redid the story from scratch, after feeling so uninspired and dissatisfied with the original ), originally the player is in a train ride with their parents ( Originally the main character was intended to be a minor ), where they were returning back to their hometown after years in the city. Awoken from a bizarre "dream" where a mysterious voice have spoken to them. Letting them know that their choices can effect the lives of others and potentially the course of the world. And blah blah ehhh. I really didn't like this and the rest of the story tbh ;-;". The story felt too basic, there wasn't as much of a good hook, and admittedly at the time there were a couple of plot holes ( No ome pointed this to me because I've wanted the story itself to be a surprise. So story aspects I keep to myself. But I do reread them after certain lengths have reached ).

Current story is much different and I am much more satisfied with it nwn/. I still wish to keep the story to myself for the time being, as I still love to make it a surprise to others ( Once I reach to script format, I do plan to get second opinions from those close to me. And I will be firm with them being honest with me too. I don't want people to just pay me in the back and tell me everything is perfect, hiding away opinions of need of edits ;-; ) ;7;. But yes the genre is creature taming! Adventure, action, and sneak in a bit of horror element too ( Not too much! Just a bit ;D ).

Because of Xavi advice and suggestion, I admittedly do want to play around with lesser known elements!

I Will admit that I have decided to have the implementation of extra elements be sub-types that is manmade rather it being sort of natural ^^/. But to make them more special, in a sense, said sub-elements are only seen in some Eiluminias ( Rare creature variants. Think of shinies, but if it alter appearances in some way, change their elements, have them access to that specific elemental skills, and that's it ouo. ). Having only some Eiluminia be able to hold access to these specific elements would honestly make them feel even more worth-while to obtain. Not just have them be a trophy and that's it >u<.

Infamous will be an inspiration, yes yes! Of course I will have my own touch in a way >u<. Admittedly I did added a manmade element that did pop to mind to add. Pictus, or moreso Paint. That was a mix of inspiration of Splatoon ( I don't play the game but I know of the series ) and Namine from KH ( She doesn't paint. She moreso draws. But that artistic ability is what inspired the idea nwn ). Having art as more of a skill on creatures would be fun to play around with :D.

But ah sorry >w<. I hope this is an alright answer!

ONe last thing to say: From what I saw, I took love the Video ability Infamous shared! At least from what I saw ;u;. It looks so cool and genuinely is one of my favorites!

[areixyn-en]

Waiting For Other Players

Holding a box of cookies, Daisy knocks on the door to Arashi's room. Seeing as the other doesn't respond, she carefully opens the door.

Arashi sits in front of her desk, laptop open to a game. She has headphones on, which probably explains why she didn't answer. Oh, is Daisy interrupting something?

Arashi turns to look at her and removes one side of her headphones. "Oh, Daisy! Don't worry, my mic isn't on. What's up?"

"Ah, nothing, I just wanted to tell you that Ophelia gave us some cookies," Daisy holds up the box of cookies in her hand. "She said the dessert club made too much, so she decided to give us some."

"Ooh! Can I have some?"

Daisy walks up to her and places the box on her desk. "What game are you playing? The characters look pretty cute."

“This is DBD, or Duel Before Dusk,” Arashi answers, “And yeah, for a shooting game, it does have quite a lot of customization options, including cuter ones.”

“Oh, so this is DBD?” Daisy recalls Arashi talking about the game. It was pretty popular, apparently. Daisy studies the game screen while they both grab some cookies.

As they chat, faint voices come out of Arashi’s headphones. “Are these other characters your friends?”

“One second,” Arashi says as she types quickly on the keyboard. She sends a message in a chatbox at the bottom right corner of her screen. Someone has asked her a question, probably.

“Why don't you just turn on your microphone?”

“Well… I just don't want to,” Arashi says. “Sometimes, people can get a bit… emotional.”

“Oh. That sounds scary,” Daisy comments, “Are these characters on the screen your friends?”

“Mm-hmm. This one in the middle is me,” Arashi points to the screen. “This one is Aqua, and this one is Maple.”

“You’re Nana?” Daisy reads the name under Arashi’s character.

Arashi laughs awkwardly, “Yeah.”

Before Daisy can answer, a voice yells through Arashi’s headphones. “I’m here! I’m here!”

Huh. That voice sounds a bit familiar. A girl appears on the screen, filling in the last spot.

“Finally, Akaoni! Took you long enough,” a high-pitched voice says, presumably Maple.

“I was practicing with the basketball team! How was I supposed to know our couch would take so long?” The person, Akaoni, retorts. Although the character is female, the voice sounds more like a boy…?

“Let's just start the game,” another calmer voice says. It's probably Aqua.

Arashi also types into the chatbox. She turns to Daisy, “Well, seems like the game is starting… Daisy?”

Daisy has her brows furrowed, “Why does Akaoni sound so…”

“Familiar? Yeah, because Akaoni is Cyrus,” Arashi says nonchalantly.

“Cyrus? The Cyrus in our class?” Arashi nods. It's hard not to remember Cyrus, being one of the troublemakers in the class. In Daisy’s memories, Cyrus was always loud and a bit arrogant, and Daisy had even fallen victim to one of his pranks before.

“Oh… Wait, but isn’t Cyrus a boy? How is he playing as a girl?”

“Yeah, many people do that,” Arashi shrugs.

“Okay…?” Daisy replies, still confused.

Scratching sounds of paper plays from Arashi’s headphones all of a sudden. A piece of paper appears on the screen with the word signature written on it and a line underneath, like a signing area for a document.

“Oh, the game’s starting!”

The two’s attention turned back to the screen. Arashi hands the mouse to Daisy. “Draw something!”

“Huh? What?” Daisy takes the mouse hastily.

“After you finish drawing, the game will start. You can draw anything, but you only have one stroke.”

Daisy, not knowing what to draw all of a sudden, wrote an “ouo.”

“Pfft…あなたらしいね。”

“…Huh?”

“Nothing… Hahaha…”

[knifvd]

will i be able to PROPERLY express how i feel without this turning into a waterfall of text? probably not. anyway i LOVE your muses with my life uvu. they have been present since i first started writing eiji and i'm so happy your muses are back to grace the dashboard once more. for someone with such a wide range of selections, i think you do a great job at giving them their individual voices. you also.. are too good at making their struggles and angst a bit TOO realistic, but that's because you're so talented at writing and expressing your muses emotions no matter what thread you're writing. so chef kiss to you. and thank you for ALWAYS writing with me and letting me know about all the ideas you come up. just like you mentioned eiji helped your muses grow, i truly believe the interactions my eiji had with your muses helped shape him into what he is currently ouo. as always TLDR: i LOVE your muses and always enjoy reading your writing/backstories for them.

          mochi  !!   thank  you  so  much  for  ur  kind  words   ....   i   always  struggle  to  be  confident  in  my  characters  and  their  backgrounds  ,  and  i'm  really  glad  you  enjoy  reading  about  them  .  they  adore  eiji  and  i  love  throwing  all  of  them  at  you  .  i'm  glad  that  you're  not  completely  annoyed  with  me  or  my  muses  ,  and  i'm  glad  that  they feel  real   because  i  enjoy  writing  those  kind  of  things  for  them  ---  the  kind  of  stuff  that  makes  your  chest  hurt  .  i  love  interacting  with  you  ic  and  ooc  and  i  cant  wait  to  keep  throwing  new  muses  at  you  .

                    𝙍𝘼𝙏𝙀  𝙏𝙃𝙀  𝙋𝙊𝙍𝙏𝙍𝘼𝙔𝘼𝙇   .  𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙚𝙥𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜  !!

[king-of-kaoss]

last song: Back to Oz - Sufjan Stevens & Angelo de Augustine

favorite color: deep sky blue (post sunset glow), and pourple ouo

last book: im literally still reading 5th elephant for like several months. and i cracked open the silm for like half the foreword. my attention span for reading paper books is so bad currently i need to retrain it and take more phone breaks. reading plenty of fic tho cause blorbos go brrr. if i had focus i could literally read either of those in a day or two but brain broken

last movie: i think ponyo got put on last time i did laundry at a friend's place. ive mostly been watching series lately

last tv show: ayyy so i watched dungeon meshi a bit ago, and blue eye samurai, and dandadan which is still airing caught my interest as i closed out of those on netflix. im also watching bleach but mostly for nostalgia/fond completion reasons as im not super interested in it (it and its characters just pale next to one piece for me) before that i rewatched the untamed. and i picked my one piece gifmaking rewatch back up, im just about to the end of skypeia on that

sweet/spicy/savoury: savoury 😋

relationship status: i have like 3 whole friends now and i can sometimes actually feel like that's true and real, neat

last thing i googled: how to use a cargo strap. (i just strapped a mattress to my car to drive it home ayy)

current obsession: one piece was kinda starting to cool off cause no new luffy screen time for a couple months and then fan letter rekindled it so im right back on my bullshit c: . i also had the dandadan opening song (otonoke by creepy nuts) on loop for 3 days straight (it's 3 min).

looking forward to: i ordered myself a Treat alongside new wooden toothbrushes and a replacement computer fan cause my current one of 7 yrs has to be manually turned to start itself and is rattling crazy loud. the treat is zoro's swords made of wood. i cant wait to take them hiking in the middle of the night when no one is around to swing them around or something. im also looking forward to hanging out w my best friend tomorrow we made a date cause our schedules are mismatched and we busy lately. i am looking forward to sleeping in my new bed tonight. hope it last tho. it's a very thin iron frame and a box spring that *has* to be pine based with how light it is. like is my 300 lb ass is gonna wreck this within 6 months? who knows. anyway im gonna not worry abt it and try to see if it comfy and good for my back! im p sure it's un upgrade but change is scary so i cant tell yet.

ten people i'd like to get to know better

I was tagged by @daddy-long-legssss and @yellowloid, thank you! 🥰💖

last song: Billie Eilish - Blue

favourite colour: Can never decide between red, blue or purple. Though certain musicians over the past couple of years have instilled a fondness for green in me 😅💚

last book: Have had a bit of a reading slump lately but I re-read 'Song of Achilles' by Madelline Miller and devoured it in a day. I'm currently on annual leave so I'm hopeful that I'll be able to dig into some books on my to-read list, and I've promised myself that I'll start the Lord of the Rings series before the end of the year... In terms of reading fic, I recently read and adored 'Four Walls' by the lovely @uhbasicallyjustmilex 💖

last movie: Saw both The Wild Robot and The Substance at the cinema this week, which were very different movies but I highly loved them both. I suspect I'll be thinking about the latter for a long time.

last TV show: I've been rewatching episodes of Taskmaster in between working on my fic, specifically series 12 as I have a massive crush on Victoria Coren-Mitchell 😅

sweet/spicy/savoury: Spicy, very closely followed by sweet.

relationship status: Happily single, though my best friend did declare us 'platonic soulmates' the other day and proposed buying a house together in Edinburgh 😂 Alas, having looked through Rightmove, we've agreed that moving to Edinburgh is in neither of our financial interests...

last thing I googled: Noyant-la-Gravoyère, for fic-related reasons.

current obsessions: Feel like I've ended up with a ton of mini-obsessions this year as opposed to one major one, but Fontaines D.C. and The Last Dinner Party are fairly high up that list as they've released my favourite albums of the year 💚 I've had a lot of fun digging into the works of Gojira, Kendrick Lamar and Leonard Cohen lately, and Billie Eilish's latest album remains on constant rotation. I've also had a reawakening of my love for David Gilmour, Käärijä and TLSP due to a combination of two amazing gigs and the process of writing my fic.

looking forward to: I have a few gigs coming up which I'm really excited for, including Bob Vylan next week, Kneecap next month and Fontaines D.C. in December 💚 I'm also excited to make more progress on editing my fic and finally unleashing it into the world, even though it's only in that pesky early draft stage for the moment 😅

tagging: @rock-n-roll-fantasy, @aeolianblues, @see-sawed, @thespiritofvexation, @king-of-kaoss, @burn-on-the-flame and @chrysochromulina 💖