#i just have nowhere to rant to because my parents get pissed at me and i always get ignored anytime i complain to my friends groupchat

[our-transmasculine-experience]

It's been on and off for what feels like the last couple months but I think I might be trans. I kinda remember wanting to be a boy when I was a little kid and I remember I used to try to intentionally make my voice sound deeper when I was like 15(? or maybe 14, something around those ages?) because I hated how my voice sounded but I stopped because my sister and mum took the piss out of me for doing it one time. I want to try presenting more masculine than I already try to do but my parents feel like a massive fucking roadblock to this. There's nowhere I know of that sells binders in person and I don't want to deal with the issues that could come from ordering them online(mainly my parents asking me what I ordered and stuff like that), my mum doesn't want me to cut my hair shorter because she thinks it'll be a shock to me or w/e. I hate having boobs so fucking much(they feel horrible and sweaty and I want them gone so badly but a part of me feels like that specific part might just be sensory issues) and there's no fucking way my parents are gonna let me get rid of my tits and also I remember during a car ride with my mum, sister and grandmother my grandma went on a rant about people asking for pronouns or w/e and while I don't think it got explicitly transphobic(or maybe it did, I don't remember too well) I ultimately remember coming out of it thinking "I will only come out once I'm able to move out of my house and be financially independent :)". But my parents don't even fucking let me try to get a job and I feel like I can barely even get any form of independence and I just feel so goddamn pathetic and with all the shit going on in the UK about trans rights I don't think I'll ever be able to come out even if I am able to eventually move out and the fact that I have an autism diagnosis(which I also fucking hate having so much and I sometimes wish I was never diagnosed) is just a whole other can of worms that I know will also be a massive fucking roadblock to coming out and actually transitioning. I don't want to say that my parents are transphobic(my dad at least seems like the safest person to come out to out of everyone) but my mum still sometimes accidentally misgenders a childhood friend of mine even though she's kinda known him long after he came out as trans and for some reason, I don't know if I'm misremembering what she's said but when she told me that my friend came out as trans I remember her saying something along the lines of "Just because [ ] is a boy doesn't mean you are too"(he wasn't there for this when she said that fyi) so I guess there's a decent chance she's just not gonna accept me as trans and I'm also scared that both of my parents will just think it's a stage at best and decide that they've had enough of me and kick me out at worst and I just fucking hate that I'm like this though I could be massively overthinking all of this and I just feel like shit about it, I just fucking wish I was born a guy or even some genderless blob so that I'd never have to think about this shit ever again. It's all just so suffocating and I hate being like this.

Sorry for the wall of text I just needed to get this off my chest at the very least.

i’m so, so, sorry that you have to deal with that. that sounds absolutely awful, and if you ever need to vent again or ask for advice, my ask box is open! (most of the times)

[meenawrites]

any ideas in the Trudy Lives AU for when Spider gets taken by the recoms? her reaction? what she tells the sully’s when they admit that he was with them when he got captured? what she’d do after in the following months, planning, etc, and finally her seeing him again? sorry if this is a bit much, I am just very invested in what you’ve created.

YES thank you for asking!

I have actually been thinking about this for the past two days. I'm still not entirely sure sure about how it would go down, BUT! Here are my thoughts so far!

So I think it would actually happen on a day Trudy is like preoccupied with something back at High Camp. She'd had a bit of a bad feeling in her gut that day, but had elected to ignore it. The raid had gone well after all, and things were generally in their favor.

But then the Sully's come back frantic, Kiri is crying, and her blond little son (though not so little anymore) is nowhere to be seen.

Jake wants to leave right then and there to protect the clan, but Trudy forces him to stay to get a proper explanation out of him. He's trying to quickly say what happened but Kiri interrupts him and says they took him, the RDA has him.

And Trudy loses it because clearly Jake was about to leave without Spider.

Now here's where I have a bit of a dilemma. I feel like through actually watching Trudy parent Spider and Neytiri and Trudy being kind of friends, I'm not sure Neytiri would have as much hatred for the boy as she does in canon. Then again it could have been triggered again because of the appearance of the recoms. What I'm saying is maybe Neytiri would oblige Trudy here and go back for him or maybe not. I'm still debating but for the sake of canon let's go with the fact that she doesn't.

Trudy goes on a whole angry rant about what an asshole move it was to just let him be kidnapped and they have no intention of going back for him. Jake's like he's a tough kid and human he'll be fine. And she's like BULLSHIT, do you know why he's a tough kid? Because everyone aside from me made him so! And how could you say that? You don't know what they're gonna do to him. They'll do anything to find out where you are. He's SIXTEEN, Jake! SIXTEEN!

Again, don't know if Jake's friendship with Trudy here would compel him to make a rescue attempt or not, which is why my idea for this event with my Trudy Lives AU isn't solid, solid, but let's continue as if it had gone in canon.

Once she sees he's not going to budge, she's gonna be like, "I respect the fact that you're leaving to get a target off your clan's back. But I will never fucking forgive you for leaving MY kid!"

I think Trudy's spiel would have given Kiri the courage to be like hell yeah how could you leave him that's my best friend! I think the others might be too cowed by her parents' decision to actually go for him right then and there.

Right before the Sully family is going to leave, I think Kiri would run to the lab where Trudy is and tell her she wants to stay to help her get Spider back. Trudy is super touched, but she'd not going to make the same mistake Jake did and let a kid get swept up in this war. So she's like, "I appreciate it, kid, but I can't let you." Kiri starts protesting and she's like, "I can't drag you into this. The whole reason I'm pissed with your old man is because he's fine with Spider getting dragged into this, a KID getting dragged into this shitshow. And I'm not gonna do the same with you. I'm gonna get him back. Ya hear me, Kiri? I'm gonna get him back to you, alright?"

Kiri thinks that if anyone can do it, it's gonna be Trudy so she reluctantly leaves with her family.

Trudy's trained military and a practical woman first and foremost so no matter how much her mama bear instincts are raging at her to just go in guns flying to get her kid back, she sits and tries to make a plan. She ropes the other scientists into it because she knows she won't be able to do it lonewolf-style.

I think first off she'd scout out Bridgehead with the help of some (maybe three) Omatikaya warrior friends she's made over the years (if anyone has suggestions for names or personalities for them I'm all ears). But Bridghead looks basically impenetrable and she'd have no shot of getting in. Besides the whole point of Jake leaving was to get them off of the Omaticaya's backs so she can't really mobilize them to attack the base. She doubted they would follow her anyway.

So she waits, clocking guard shifts and watching. Eventually, whenever Quarritch decides to pull Spider out of the torture machine and be his Na'vi guide, Trudy starts tailing the recom group from afar.

She'd heard about the recoms but had never actually laid eyes on them herself, and seeing Wainfleet's and Quarritch's sends shivers down her spine. And those guys have her son.

For plot reasons, I think she wouldn't be able to make a move for Spider until they start raiding Metkayina clans. For drama reasons anyway. And besides, the recoms are all trained military as well but now in bodies suited to the planet. It would be no easy feat.

Now part of me wants her to go for it before then anyway and get captured. Spider says he won't do anything for Quarritch anymore if he so much as lays a hand on her, so now Trudy is also just traipsing with them as another captive.

The other part of me wants her to take her shot when the RDA is preoccupied with hunting tulkuns to send a signal to the Sully's. Amidst the chaos of the hunt, I think she would be able to drop down onto the boat unnoticed (possibly with the help of a Na'vi friend of hers' ikran and her own kestrel is nearby or something). She hides on the ship until she sees Spider come out of the mouth of the tulkun looking absolutely sick to his stomach.

Because of how long he's been with the recoms, I think they'd probably keep less of a watchful eye on him, which would allow Trudy to signal him and make a run for it under their noses. She nabs Spider and they jump off the boat together, getting picked up by her Na'vi friend along the way on the back of her ikran. It would be a good half hour to an hour before Quarritch even noticed the kid was gone since he had been busy plotting with the tulkun hunters. And he can't justify going to get them.

Luckily because Trudy's a smart and skilled adult, she'd have more spare exopacks and once Spider says there's a tracker in his, she gives another one and they ditch his somewhere in the middle of the ocean or something.

From here, Trudy would probably pilot her kestrel towards Awa'atlu. I imagine that she's such a good pilot, she'd long since disabled any tracking signals or anything from her kestrel and flies solo/manually (so the RDA can't track her). She's going there because as pissed as she is with Jake for leaving her son and running, she knows he deserves to know how close Quarritch is and what his plans are.

I'd imagine in this version, since Trudy got him back NETEYAM DOESN'T DIE AND ALL IS WELL.

Need Jake to do some apologizing and shit but well that's out of the scope of this question rn.

Hope that answered the question. If you guys have any thoughts about what I mentioned I was uncertain about, please feel free to share.

[c0ntaminxted]

something that really pisses me off about my dad is his too-annoying devotion to christianity

and i have to keep telling people this: i have absolutely nothing against christianity. in fact, i have nothing against religion at all !! im just. not religious in the slightest and i cant bring myself to like. fully care about it, but i can respect it (obviously)

but he REALLY makes it hard for me to when he disrespects me. like, yesterday, he cut me off on something to go on one of his religious yapperings again that i dont care about because hes trying to force it onto me, and out of nowhere he said some shit like "you dont believe in jesus because you cant prove him with science even though you should just believe him" and then went on to complain about how i should look into the science of the bible (since i like science) to prove that jesus/god exists and yada yada yada

and i just !!!! i want to take that bible he claims to read and shove it right where the sun dont shine. he makes me SO angry

it just. irks me when someone forces religions on other people. i can understand like. when you're like. a little child, you follow the parents' religion because they tell you to, and i mean like. personal experiences, but i didnt have the cognitive ability to Not Believe It, so im just assuming most 4 year olds were the same (lmao). but i feel like they shouldn't expect/force you to stick with it when you get older. yall when i tell you i started questioning this shit in 3rd grade when i got a bible from our old church but i couldn't talk about it because every adult in my circle always talked about how i'd die and go to hell if i didnt follow what they were following

now i just don't care but i roll my eyes anytime my parents say some christian shit i just dont agree with. especially with the constant "i prayed and god gave me _____." like my dad and his inconsistent fucking jobs because he sucks

one day i hope he wont be able to give him a job because god said NO MORE. like cmon be fr

anyway tldr having faith is good and all but dont abuse it. or force it onto others. rant over ive got a headache now

[huachengeye]

I was looking at some reviews for girl from nowhere and i'm surprised that so many people don't get what the series is trying to say. so, i'm gonna give my opinions based on some of the bad reviews i saw, maybe giving another insight.

starting with this review I saw where the person calls the actor who plays nanno a bad actor, mostly because of her laugh — nanno's laugh sounds like that bc it's supposed to be inhuman and weird, it's supposed to piss others off, it's not supposed to be a villains laughter (nanno isn't even a villain). this person also goes on a rant about every episode, and in episode 2 they say that it was not realistic for nanno to be able to endure everything she did... don't they know that nanno is not human? ofc no human would be able to endure that, she isn't one and because of that she doesn't really feel pain, empathy, or remorse and they use this supernatural being to make social comments in a way they wouldn't be able to otherwise. then they go on about and just minimize every episode to a few words, clearly misunderstanding the themes. the only episode this person seemed to understand is the 10th, which is funny to me bc it was the one i had a hard time understanding (still don't), and it's actually my least favorite from season 1. then they end saying they hope they improve chicha's laugh, which makes it pretty clear where the real problem for OP was.

another thing i've seen some people have a difficulty to realize is that nanno is not a character made to feel sorry for other people, at least not in the first season (with one exception). she is not human, she doesn't have human-like emotions. and also, she is, supposedly, a representation of karma, but if you pay attention she isn't the one to make those people do that things, the consequences come naturally, she is never the one to hurt the other characters physically, because nanno is about karma, not revenge (that's yuri).

i've seen people talking about how she "leads" the characters to do things, and they normally use dino, from season 1, episode 4 as an example, so i'll use him too. in dino's case he is lying way before nanno got there, but lying isn't as bad as everything else in this show, so we move on. then, he goes to nanno to ask her to help him, which she does. he takes his friend to this big house, that he says it's his. the staff working there is his parents, but he does nothing to prevent his friends from insulting his parents, not even when they are physically abusive. people seem to pity him and taking in account the previous episodes, i can see why they would, but in the end, the message was clear: rich people do the worst shit and nothing happens to them. not only that, but nanno never made dino do anything, he was lying before she even got there, he accepted the mistreatment of his friends towards his parents, and I question myself: if they weren't his parents but just two random people, would he feel bad for them?

nanno never makes someone do something, what she does is give them another way to follow, and the consequences comes naturally from that. and one thing that i saw some people not paying attention to is that, sometimes, just nanno's presence is enough to start chaos. there were episodes where she didn't even interact with the characters all that much, but that still raised rage in them. she doesn't make people do bad things, they took this choice and if you see, they go even further than what nanno originally suggests.

but i did agree with some of these negative reviews. one of the reviews talked about this episode on season 2 where there is a beauty competition in this school, and people are rewarded for their beauty. this episode for me lost some of its message when the only way the fat girl was seen as beautiful was when she lost way. i know this is accurate to some place's beauty standard, but after seeing those girls beat each other to be the number one, having a fat girl be the number one would really drive the point home. also agree that some episodes aren't as good, but overall the show is great and it's themes are really good once you start to pay attention.

[kipowolfton]

Small rant 🥺👉👈

whenever I take out my sewing kit and begin to sew, my parents always come outta nowhere and tell me things I need to sew

like, I'm sorry, I took out my sewing kit because I have the (not long lasting) motivation and ideas and knowledge for about 4 projects in 6 hours, I did NOT take it out so I could sew up the accidental dick hole in your favorite jammies,do it yourself. you're sixty. You've had sixty years to learn how to do a ladder stitch.

And same goes with literally walking out of my room at all

"Oh, hey! C'mere look at this dude on TV!" I'm walking the 2 steps from my room to the door in front of me, I'm going to the bathroom, no, I'm not postponing my piss to look at some "ugly" woman just because she has a nose ring.

"Do you know what palace cats are? C'mere i gotta show you an image of these things"

sir. I have the door halfway open already. IM GETTING A GATORADE FROM THE GARAGE LEAVE ME BE

"What're you doing?come put the dishes away, and then fold your laundry. You smell like shit-" IM GETTING A CHEESE STICK

"how are you? What are you doing?"

excuse me ma'am I think I have the right to take 3 steps out of my crying hole without being questioned my motives

"Where are you going? Come do (an instantly thought up otherwise unspoken list of chores because apparently i wasn't doing anything beforehand)"

bruv I'm trying to cook.

"Why are you walking so hard?" "Quit walking on your toes, I'll send you to therapy, it's real, you don't want it" "why are you walking around the kitchen?" "Quit stomping around!" "walk flat footed" "walk normal will you?" "What are you doing? Come play videogames on the TV. (Immediately leaves the house to go outside and smoke, leaving me alone)" "go take the dog out (i was walking from the Office to the bathroom to take a piss.)"

i have the right to walk across the house whenever I please! what are you the floor police??? damn

[marveltaughtmetoread]

This is gonna piss a lot of people off but I need to get it off my chest

The Lion King is nowhere near as good of movie as y'all want it to be

Most of the attention it receives is because of the novelty of it and it being aimed at a male audience

Some of y'all were acting like it was a masterpiece but it's a Disney movie and not even an impressive one at that

Literally the only reasons it stands out all is because:

Talking animals

Not in fantasy Europe

Not only is it not fantasy Europe, it's also not a traditional environment because animals

Not a princes story (🎶 sexism 🎶)

Male protag (🎶sexism from the fans and execs cause we all decided it was more important than the female led ones🎶)

And because of the male protag: The male protag is inherently important and that inherent importance is important to the story (🎶sexist writing🎶)

So many movies also have all these elements that Lion King does not stand out

And there are in fact several movies that do what Lion King was trying to do better:

Bambi had already stolen the spot for dramatic death of a parent decades before Lion King was ever made

Simba as the protagonist is overshadowed by Scar, Timon and Pumbaa and Zazu

Emperor's New Groove and Hercules are more interesting and entertaining for the drama, and Hercules does a better job at the whole reclaiming what's rightfully mine story

Treasure Planet does the whole adventure element better, like significantly better, Treasure Planet is underrated

Aladdin has a more interesting male protag, and a more interesting male protagonist arc

Hercules, Mulan and Aladdin all have more interesting love stories, which aren't as problematic as the Classic Disney stories

Mulan is also not focused around a love story but has a compelling one

And Mulan does the whole conflict thing way better, look me in the eyes and try to tell me that Simba having a minor face off with Scar that was padded out and still only took like 10 minutes can even compare to Mulan fighting for her entire country and saving all of China

Before anyone tried to defend it on the grounds that it's based on Hamlet, it being based on Hamlet does not make it good (it really just points out the racism of having a story set in Africa be based on a white play and the way they avoided including black characters by having African animals instead)

Is it a bad movie? No, I may have just gone on a rant about it but I don't hate it

Is it overhyped and not worth half the praise it gets? Absolutely, it's a mediocre Disney movie, there are better Disney movies to watch, especially nowadays, hell there are other mediocre Disney movies I would rather watch

[aelfgiure]

The dark lord sneers contemptuously. "Oh, do go on, young Skywalker. Your father will strike you down before -"

"Hey, sis? Do you copy?" Luke speaks into the comlink built into his hand, grinning like a crazed tooka. "I'm not going to kill Palps, I'm going to arrest him. You want in on this?"

Vader manages to prop himself up on one elbow, his breathing harsh and ragged. "Leia...? coming here?"

A small storm blasts through the doors of the throne room. All three men duck, but only one isn't cringing when he does.

"YOU MURDEROUS, POMPOUS SON-OF-A-KRIFF-SUCKING-WOMP RAT," her voice is at a volume the engines of a Star Destroyer rarely achieve, and Palpatine winces involuntarily as her rant continues. "YOU HAD MY MOTHER KILLED JUST TO MAKE MY FATHER YOUR SLAVE, YOU ARE GOING TO REGRET EVERY DAMN MISDEED AND MISSTEP YOU'VE EVER MADE IN YOUR ENTIRE EXISTENCE, AND YOUR MASTER IS GOING TO WISH HE'D THROWN HIS OWN ASS INTO A BLACK HOLE BY THE TIME I'M DONE WITH YOU, YOU MISERABLE TRAITOR!"

Luke has discreetly gone to Vader - Anakin's side, helping him sit up. "Come on, Ipu. Let's get you to the shuttle before we blow this place, hm?"

Anakin is fixated on Leia, the pride and love he felt for his wife now transferred to the daughter he never knew he had, the one who reminds him so much of his beloved Padme. He struggles to his feet, with Luke helping him, and manages to wheeze out, "my son, could - could we stay to watch this? She'll need help, the entire Jedi Council -"

"Was nowhere near as terrifying as Her Highness when she gets going," Luke chuckles. "The only one needing help is going to be the Emperor."

A sudden burst of Forcelight fills the throne room, and Palpatine gives a strangled cough before being entirely cocooned in in a web made of pure Force energy, and also, Anakin suspects, a good deal of righteous rage. And spite.

Much to the surprise of both Jedi, she then stomps up to the throne and switches on the communicator. "All Imperial forces, stand down! This is your EMPRESS speaking, and you are ordered to stand down and surrender!"

"Ah, Leia...?" Luke starts to question her, but she holds up one finger to still him, opening up all the comm channels.

"EVERYONE."

Her voice rings through the comms, on every ship, in every helmet, in space as well as on Endor. Rebels and Imperials stop fighting, the power in that voice enough to bring a planet to a halt in it's orbit.

"I speak to you as your leader, as your Empress, and most importantly, as one who has worked to restore the Republic. I have Sheev Palpatine under arrest. Due to my relationship with his second in command, and my training, I will be taking up the mantle as Empress, and will do my best to revive the Senate so I can return the galaxy to the rule of law instead of the rule of tyranny and brutality.

"All Imperial troops, surrender. Those who wish to work towards peace and rebuilding the Republic will be welcome. Those who don't -" the tone of her voice became something that gave Yoda and Obi Wan cold shivers, which was especially creepy since they were already dead. The live people hearing it felt it even worse. " - those who don't will join their Emperor. At my earliest convenience."

She took in a deep breath, and in a voice full of joy and triumph shouted out "Long live the Alliance!"

Leia closed the comm channels and hopped off the throne, looking up at Anakin. "I don't like you at all," she informed him. "You tortured me, and Han, and you murdered thousands of beings. Luke is forgiving, but I'm not. You're alive because he still wants to have a father. As far as I'm concerned, you're the sperm donor. My parents died on Alderaan."

Then she threw her arms around Luke in a fierce hug, one that took his breath away. "You idealistic asshole, you'll be the death of me someday! Love you, bro."

Luke returned the hug, grateful that she wasn't pissed at HIM. "Love you too, sis. What are we going to do next?"

Her laugh rang through the room like a galaxy sized windchime. "Next, we fix it all!"

“If you kill me you will be just as bad as me” the dark lord said to the hero preparing to strike them down. The hero pauses, puts down their weapon and says “You’re right, I won’t kill you. But you are going to wish I did very soon.”

[untrustworthy207]

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my parents found out about my ed and made me drink a cup of this really high cal milk this morning and i feel like throwing up. im in class now (learning game design and whatever) and my stomach hurts like hell. since its the holidays (no more examssss :3) im gonna be able to ⭐ve more ig... im a little pissed because my parents just sat there and watched as i drank that 300ml of milk. it was probably 70 cal per 100ml or whatever but im logging 300 calories because im super paranoid now. my dad also told his stupid church friends about my "food problems". i hate my parents so much, those church people are gonna infantilize me again. like always. im not comfortable being around them but they keep on trying to meet up with me. i wish they would leave me alone. im also scared because next year we have to get weighed at school and i have literally nowhere!!!!!!! to stuff anything to weigh more during it. because we have uniforms in the country i live in. and if i put something in my shoes im scared its suspicious. only thing to do is drink lots of water ig.... how can i weigh more temporarily? should i eat lots of salt for the water retention?? even though i'll probably get really sick after because im weak af.

+sorry for the long rant btw but imso nervous rn. sorry

++didnt actually finish the milk. i kind of almost cried after standing there drinking it for like 30 minutes and id only finished less than a third of the cup so my mom drank it but she was pissed. very angry at me. im still scared.

[screampied]

hiiiiiiiiiiiii!!! that’s okay, don’t worry, hope you had a wonderful rest 😌

yes, we do match a lot. i really like talking with you because i feel so energetic to just yap and yap and yap. some things happened last night and this morning regarding a mutual i have-used to have and now i’m not in the mood to keep interacting with people. except, obviously, you. i don’t know, some people in here are so…weird. it got me really sad, i almost decided to deactivate, but said fuck them, i’m not in here for people i’m here to post my silly little thoughts about not so little silly men.

sorry for they small personal rant!

ON GOD, my pc is an old fella, and i mainly used the guy for playing the sims. his name is harold, by the way. he did very well on the first month, but boy was getting feed too much CC so he told me to fuck myself and stopped working, what a cunt. i had a beautiful sapphic couple, and one of them got pregnant on accident and i got sad because it’s so boring to have babies and they are so ugly?

nowadays i only watch one streamer and he is from my country, which on any other circumstance i would tell you, but i’m afraid i’m the only person from my country that writes in here for jjk. at least that i know of.

THATS THE REASON I HAVENT YET DOWNLOADED IT 😭 i use my tablet for designing and studying so it would fuck me up real good, and it’s samsung so it glitches so much it pisses me off so bad.

i think you will find out. you see, i really like sending anons to people, but you are the first one i’m consistently sending to the point of having a name (which, btw, i melted with my name on your anons, it’s so cute!!). going back on track, whenever i send i try to make sure it doesn’t look like it’s the real me, but with you i do. as i said, i like talking with you, i feel comfortable, so i just let me be me.

jason is smelly af, just like brahms, you know? but toji jason would smell of that mainly sweat, woods, pines, any type of shit that would probably make me not run away that fast. i don’t have that much of a survival instinct, and if the killer is a almost two meters male i am going nowhere.

wait, ☝️ nutty 🥺 cute.

I THINK YOU SHOULD DO IT, i love crack fics, i love your fics and loser or virgin satoru (both) is so kcjdkdndkekd got me biting my toes off. pls do, like seriously, i think it would be so cool and fresh. also, the name was perfection. satoru really fixes perfectly in the bimbo box, with the b of bitch. one time i described him as if michael scott and mean girls mom had a white haired baby, and i don’t think i’ll ever come across this type of enlightenment again.

OH, QUEEN IS EVERYTHING. i remember how me, being a younger little shit, would hate everything my older sibling liked, and queen got attacked by me. in my defense, whenever they like some band/musician, they listened to it everyday. first it was fun, then panic at the disco, then queen and now elton john. but soon as they skipped to the next fixation, i became obsessed with their oldest one. also, this boy in high school thought he was the shit because he saw the movie and knew the songs, so i was in the chapel (christian school) with him and finished the lyrics to bohemian rhapsody and he goes “omg, you know queen?” BOY I WAS BORN AND MY PARENTS WERE BLASTING IT ON THE ROOM NEXT DOOR, TF. EVERYONE KNOWS QUEEN.

born to die is my ride or die, my favorite from it is this is what makes us girls because it reminds me of my teenage years, but my favorite of them all is young and beautiful, i am obsessed with the great gatsby and my brain chemicals have never survived the scene about daisy and gatsby past.

sabrina seriously is feeding my writing ideas with this new album. bed chem with gojo, juno with nanami, oh…fucking hell. we really are the same person, i love it !!!

i am petrified of tsunamis. they are impossible to happen in my country, but i still have nightmares regarding them and waking up all frightened. once i had one where people went up to the mountains and still it wasn’t enough.

oh… hm, well, i want to say something but i can’t yet. brasil is beautiful, i get it. my dream place to go is anywhere that i can see northern lights. fuck, like, i don’t know how to explain but just the thought of having the chance to stare into the sky and seeing those lights that look like magic makes me want to cry. another country would be chile, in the desert you can see the milky way 🥺 i’m a big astronomy nerd, so that’s just enough to make me happy. you will never catch me saying this on main, but i would enjoy going to the usa so i could eat their high in calories and unnecessary food. there is something about it that grosses me out but also makes me go hmmm.

question for today is what was your first work posted here and what’s your favorite season?

nutty anon.

NUUTTTTY BAE

that’s valid 🤒. interacting w ppl can get overwhelming sometimes so i understand. im glad u didn’t deactivate ‘n ur still here tho <3 but THATSSS THE SPIRIT. noooo ur fine rant as much as you want this is a safe spaceeee xx

ARGGHHH in the meantime you can always watch playthroughs of lads online !!! like you can watch certain scenes n stuff bc im sure ppl recorded that stuff.

of course you’re on my anon list i just had to make u an official squirtling 🤭🤭. IMSO GLAD I MAKE U FEEL COMFY.

stotppppf ur making me have brain rot about jason!toji now, jus imagine the breeding kink, manhandling, he def gets off at rubbing the end of his machete against our cooch.

THANKYOUU 🤒🤒. omg maybe i’ll do it, i love writing silly shit every once in a while bc why not 💔💔💔. that is such a unique compasrasion to satoru i love it

LOVEEEEE QUEEN. i gen wish i was bored in the 80s or even the 70s. the style always has me gagged like ???? i love how a lot of old vintage styles are coming back also. so real 😭. i grew up around a low of heavy metal / rock & indie. ooh i haven’t listened to patd in a min, elton johnnn ugh i still haven’t seen rocketman. SPEAKING OF did u see bohrap? apparently ppl have mixed opinions on it / rami’s portrayal of freddie but i rly liked it 🧎‍♀️

so true i wanna see the northern lights badly. i also wanna visit scotland for some reason? chileeeee that seems like that would be so fun to visit also !!!!! ur an astronomy nerd that’s so cute 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️. PAHAHA same i wanna visit the us too, i’ve never been outside my country but a lot of my moots are from the us and it seems cool. the first state id had to visit would have to be nevada so i can go to las vegas bc hahahah.

my first work i posted was my fantasize, the fwb satoru fic with the silly cliffhanger hehe. its crraaazy how much time its been since nov. ‘23 i still feel so new 🤧. MY FAVVV SEASON is either winter or fall !!!!

[dragonofdarkness666]

Rant:

Have experienced racism in the past two years in being downtown then what I've had in my entire life.

I think what pisses me off about it particularly is it seems that black people don't think that they can't be racist against white people. Now I grew up in a household where I hated my dad for using the n-word and had a soft spot growing up for black people because we were taught in history about slavery and so forth. Being an empath I felt generally sorrow for what they had been through.

But just for the same reason that I hate the Bible that no God should punish infinite children for decision that the parents made like eating the Apple; there are no white people today that are responsible for slavery. And being reverse racist is still racist.

I guess the reason why I'm going on about this this morning is because I had a s*** day yesterday and to top it off.. this morning I went to the gas station to go get a cup of coffee. Now the table that is used has two sides with coffee condiments on it. I'm on one side adding creamer to my coffee and this old black dude comes up from nowhere and just start staring at me with a cup of coffee in his hand.

I take out one earbud and look at them and say "yeah?" And he's like you're in the way!

Not what I wanted to do was tell him to go to the other f****** side I'm already here, piss off!

But the nice gas station lady was there today. (She's always friendly and gave me one cup of coffee for free once for having to wait and line a long time)

So I didn't want to be a complete ass in front of her. But f*** I can't stand racism and there's no excuse why he couldn't have went to the other side. I did mutterr out loud loud enough for him to hear me

"there's better s*** on the other side anyway, dumbass"

Which is true because they had the different flavored caramel and whatnot to add. Still if it wasn't for the nice lady up there I would have f****** told him to piss off and keep waiting or go to the other side.

I'm not normally like this I don't just start off being an a****** for no reason. These jackasses that think that reverse racism doesn't exist is b*******.

Look, the past sucks for everybody. This is obviously not the first time I've had to deal with this s*** it's just the straw that broke the camel's back this morning.

*having random black people come up to me in the past couple years while I'll be outside walking, ask me whether or not I'm albino. dude what the f***?

I can't tell sometimes which ones are crazy and which ones are simply ignorant assholes.

**Maybe I should just assume they're all crazy and the ones that show intelligence are the ones I should kick because they're the ones in doing it intentionally??

Just a thought..

[nutterwithasolderingiron]

just a personal rant i need to get off my chest.

so i've been playing music since i was 11, i'm turning 33 later this year so easily 2/3rds of my life. i am honestly at a point where i just don't feel like i'm just burnt the fuck out and don't wanna do it anymore. not because i don't love making music, more that i keep getting pissed off that it's going nowhere.

during the pandemic, me and my friend un-hiatus'd our old post-hardcore band and it was fucking great. practice every 2 weeks and work on new songs. we were both within a 10 min walk of the practice space. felt like there was some fucking momentum going on.

now thanks to them working a shitty job and having to move back in with their parents 20+ miles away (or 2 hours on the bus) we can barely practice anymore. i fucking hate it so fucking much because i feel like every fucking band i join/try to start falls apart so fast or isn't where my heart lays.

[kelpiemomma]

I have some much rage bottled up hearing about people about your grandma.

It invalidates the years of training and verification of actual service animals

Her pup sounds just excitable and friendly, which sounds harmless in paper but the issue is, that it's untrained and no sense of boundaries. This especially concerning since your grandmother puts her dog inside senior specific facilities.

And untrained pup is more unpredictable than a trained pup

That puts the safety of others in danger, it can put her dog in danger, and put your grandma herself in legal trouble too.

Sorry for making you hear this rant from this stranger, just know you are not alone on your frustration on your nan.

Yeah, it sucks!

It's been mentioned to her before that her LAST dog, the one who went to the senior care facilities, wasn't a real service dog but an emotional support dog without any proper training. My grandma did one training class at PetSmart with her after the dog was a year old and never went further, just got a note from her doctor that the dog was an ESA. That dog was the one who was going places with my grandma with the bare minimum training, that frustrated myself and my parents because we knew she wasn't a real service dog but to my grandma she was. (my grandma also believes our asshole border collie liked this former dog because "she was older, so she was the alpha in the house" even though the asshole border collie came into our home as a puppy with 3 older dogs and hated every one of their guts to the point of starting fights regularly with them 🙃 which is. a different story. point is, my grandma has no fucking idea about actual dog behavior or training).

Her CURRENT dog has gone approximately three places- to our home (my grandma went and picked her up from the breeder's), to the vet's office for her shots & spay procedure, and to the home of a friend of my grandma's. She's never been to any senior care facilities, thankfully, but also her lack of outside interaction is part of her problem. She has no boundaries, yet is scared of the outside world if my grandma isn't around. When she first arrived my parents and my grandma made excuses for her bad behavior as "she's a puppy", naturally. Pissing in the house? She's a puppy. Say "what have you done!", clean it up, and move on. Jumping on people? She's a puppy! She's small and its cute :3 Harassing the older dogs to the point they snap at her to try and teach her boundaries? She's a puppy!!! They should tolerate it because she's a baby!! She's attempting to teach the new pup to ring a bell on the door for when she needs to go potty but i don't think my grandma knows what she's doing, and with potty pads on the floor I don't think the dog really cares to learn. It's been a month of the bell and the only one to touch it has been my grandma.

I don't know for sure if the vest she got is an actual service dog vest, honestly. It was red and covered half her back, it looked like one but I didn't see the words "service dog" on it. However I also didn't look too close because I didn't want to start an argument when I noticed it. If it is another service dog vest I will honestly be pissed and will have both my parents help me get her into a discussion about it, because this dog is less trained than the last one and my grandma has shown no initiative to give her more training. As I said, it has gone nowhere but 3 places, it barely leaves the house, my grandma never walks her, she still is jumping on the faces of the dogs she's around, she still jumps on people, she still pisses & shits in the house... I hope to god she doesn't actually try to take it anywhere!

[nerdby]

Story Time

Okay, so heads up this is a ranty, ranty, rant full of ranting and if that bothers you then just keep scrolling. I just have to put out this out into the universe for my own sanity, okay? Cool.

Anyway, this time last year I was released from the hospital after having my gallbladder removed. I had to have it removed because I developed pancreatitis -- extremely painful gallstones that kept me in bed for weeks on end -- after an asshole psychiatrist over-prescribed Klonopin. I had to go stay with my family -- my mom, sister, and stepdad -- temporarily. And while I was there I got to meet my sister's new boyfriend, and my sister asked me to help her throw our mom a birthday even though me and my mom can't really stand each other. Cause my mom is a racist, queerphobic, piece of shit who literally threw me on the street in 2015 knowing I would have nowhere to go because she disapproves of my practicing Paganism. But my sister asked me and I said yes cause I'm a fucking sap.

I am a parentified, people-pleasing motherfucker. Cause when my sister was born and my grandfather died back in 2005 our mom went fucking batshit and became a sugar baby to support her gambling addiction, and since my mom has always been a shit parent....Well, she was a shit parent and I was basically made to raise my sister while my mom......She basically just did the cooking and took my sister to daycare. She also had a day job but like I said she has a fucking gambling addiction, so I also had to get a job after school to help pay for HER kid cause she totally took all of my money. She did the same thing to my brother and stepdad.

Like I didn't have a great job. It was a paper route that paid $50 a month (plus tips). I'd be lucky to end up with $5 to last me the whole month. So, yeah, I had to get a job and raise my sister. Which no big deal right cause I'd already been raising my kid brother who despite being younger than me was much stronger than me and routinely beat the shit out of me.

It turns out raising a toddler is a lot fucking harder than raising a teenager. I was 15 when all of this went down by the way. But it still left me with this deeply fucked up bond where I see my sister as my responsibility even though she's not my kid, and I said, "Yeah, of course, I'll help you throw our mom a birthday party cause you've deluded yourself into thinking it will fix all of our familial problems."

Don't worry, I left out the part about her being delusional cause I'm not a complete asshole. Or I try not to be one.

And then the night of the party my sister calls me and blows off our shopping trip for the party, so that she can hang out with her boyfriend.

And it's like maybe I would have been understanding if she hadn't done this -- she has a history of doing this, so why am I even surprised right? Or maybe if I hadn't just gotten out of the fucking hospital, but I'm just really pissed the fuck off. Mostly because this is the first time I've ever really talked about it. Like our mom doesn't know and my stepdad didn't know until like a week ago when I finally snapped.

Oh, and the best part is both my sister and my mom stopped speaking to me over this. I mean, me and my mom had other shit obviously but this was just the last straw. Cause like I said she doesn't know that my sister blew me off and I'm just really fucking upset cause I'm being blamed for all of it, and my sister is holding this grudge against me.

[sandzlib]

I really need to let some shit out of my system and rant a bit but I have nowhere to do so because all the people I know are in my other socials and they would see it and I don't really want that so this is my only safe place...

I'm getting married this year after it was all postponed due to the pandemic

But I live in a different country than my own — I'm an expat as they call us — so all the wedding preparations are being a pain in the arse

I'm basically organising a wedding on one country while living in another and only being able to go to the former on specific dates to put the final touches...

With that in mind, we went back to our country during the Christmas holidays for way longer than just the holidays so we could get everything done.

This is where the shit starts:

We were supposed to receive the invitations before Christmas, that way we could hand them to the family during the different festivities BUT

They didn't arrive until the 30th of December

Since we were doing the envelopes with sealing wax and everything ourselves, I spent half of the 31st and the whole 1st day of the year doing DIY shit

Our flight back was on the 2nd so we obviously couldn't hand the invitations to anyone and did what made more sense: rely on our parents handing the ones for the family and send the rest through post.

Well, my mum tried to meet up with her sisters (my aunts that supposedly love me and all that...) so she could give them the invitations but she was met with refusal to try and organise a day when they could all meet

The excuse was that they rarely go into the city (they live on the outskirts, like 20km away from the city centre)

And not only that's a lie since we know they go to the city centre at least once a week

But also my mum was careful enough to ask for a day they *could* meet, a day that was good for them.

Anyways, three of them said that they couldn't find a moment so they asked her to send the invitations through post, and only one actually agreed on a date.

And this is the part that pisses me off the most and had me crying out of pure rage and disbelief.

The aunt that actually went for the invitation told my mum that one of my other aunts was saying that I had surely managed to hand the invitations to my dad's side of the family as well as to my SO's family.

That it was only them that I was not wanting to meet

and that since I was doing that, she's not coming to my wedding

because she's not going to go to a wedding she is not welcomed at.

What the F***ING F***!

I have never done anything *in my whole life* that could lead them to believe I would do something like that.

They all know that I don't get along with my dad's side of the family because my grandma is a bitch an awful person that has mistreated me my whole life (in fact, I almost didn't invite them at all but finally did just because of my dad) so it makes no sense she could think something like that.

They're the ones who are always bickering and keeping secrets and shit from each other, not me! Like one of my cousins lived for four months in the country I am currently at and neither she nor my aunt told me about it, I found out because of fricking LinkedIn!

I'm the fucking nicest niece they have! I always greet them for their birthdays, Christmas, New Year... Even when sometimes they don't answer back. I am always available when they need me. I've tried countless times to meet with them when I go back home... Fuck! I spent a whole day talking with that same aunt that's dissing me now and her son about different exams he could take to certify his English level as well as courses he could do to practice before taking the exam (something that's out of my area of expertise yet I found the time to search for the information)!

What's most frustrating about this is that my mum told me to do nothing, say nothing, ignore them.

My SO said more or less the same thing and then the conversation turned into why are we even doing a wedding in the first place when I don't want half of my family there and the other half seems like they won't come because they rather think I'm a shitty person than accept that I couldn't give them the invitations earlier.

Note that all of this happened right after I tried to meet with some friends to hand them the invitations (at the time I thought they would arrive on time) and none of them made the slightest effort to meet with me...

I also only have a handful of friends, those 5 girls that couldn't be bothered to meet with me, two more that are actually excited about this, and then a few guys that are shared friends with my SO's...

So I feel lonely, disappointed, hurt... I feel like an idiot because I always try to treat other the way I'd like them to treat me and somehow all I get back is this kind of shit behaviour...

And yet, everyone around me seems to think I'm reading too much into this and that I shouldn't make such a big deal out of it.

Agh!

[eddiestattoos]

You ever think it's time to go to bed but you're also so heated and angry you just can't?

[sleepsucks]

i usually don't add any text to these posts and keep my ranting in tags but exceptionnally i'll put some under a break this time :

First time i experienced the death of a pet and it sucked ( aside from the time my snails died when i was 10 and that still sucked but it didn't hit as hard I'll be honest )

he was only 13 and renal failure kinda hit him out of nowhere. by then i already knew there was no realistic chance he was going to get better, i was already aware that my parents were taking him to the vet to put him down, but augh. actually being told that it was done made me cry for hours. sucked.

here's a pic & a vid from when he was first brought home :

tiniest ball of fluff who was named Boule de Neige because i already sucked at giving names and didn't realized it'd be too long to pronounce and we'd just constantly call him Bouboule instead

After high school i was around less and less but he stayed at my parents place since he was used to it. big & grumpy majestic idiot who just became a constant part of the household that you don't really expect will actually be gone, yknow

( i liked this one a lot and it's still my phone's background but i'm very pissed because i used to have another one snapped mere seconds earlier, where he was still sleeping. it was set as my lock screen and it was perfect. then i lost my phone and i guess i should be glad that at least one of the two was transferred through cloud saves or whatever )

this was like...weeks before he started dying. he never got along too well with Treize because she wanted to play with him and he just wanted to be left alone, but near the end they'd sleep together like that sometimes. maybe he was just too tired at this point.

ANYWAY.

iwas away from home when he started feeling unwell and was only going to come back for like christmas but he just couldn't wait that long. in a way i'm "lucky" i didn't have to witness him getting weak and in pain but it sucks that i couldn't see him again. it sucks that he died alone because my mom couldn't bear being there at the end. i hope he was ok, i hope it didn't hurt. i hope he had a good life i'm feeling better now because that was almost literally a year ago but i'm kinda crying again now ngl. thinking about Sleep in the Heat by Pup.

i don't know how to give a smart conclusion to this

please hug your pets