#i just feel trapped and like. hopeless?????
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imsofreakingtired · 2 days ago
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sevika gets drunk and ends up forgetting about her own wife and ends up in the brothel, and reader end up knowing all, but dont have courage enough to confront her, but she noticed the changes on your behavior like, dont wanting kisses often, dont wanting to cudlle at nigh or worried when she tells you that she have to work and etc.
(I am obsseeeed how you write angst, mwah mwah)
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ohh absolutely. i love that idea<3 also tysmm!
leave you with nothing
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content warning(s): idiot lesbians (slight angst) (not too bad i swear)
"are you sick of me? would you like to be? i'm trying to tell you something something that i've already said"
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i think she would get drunk only when work was really stressing her out. or if her sense of self-worth is just at an all-time low (i’m thinking of the time silco dead up ordered her to help with a dead body, which was shocking even to renni, who was literally the mother of the victim.) when she feels trapped, hopeless, powerless, like the enterprise isn’t getting zaun anywhere closer to its ultimate goal. she doesn’t want to confide in you about this, she wants to keep up a front of stoic confidence to you, because she’s afraid if she reveals herself to be vulnerable you will leave her. 
so she drinks her troubles away and tells herself she’ll clear everything up to you in the morning if you ask why she came home late, she tells herself she’ll just play a round of cards or two with her drinking mates, that you’ll never know the difference (never thinks she’s more sober than when she’s stinking drunk.) 
one drink leads to another and she’s vaguely aware of her desire for something else that night - a woman’s touch, a woman’s voice, someone to hold her and tell her she is doing alright. she’s too drunk to remember where she’s felt this before, who has held her like this, and all she is aware of is an all-consuming loneliness that threatens to devour her alive. she’s thrown back into the old days before she met you, when all that awaited her after a hard day’s work was an empty apartment strewn with emptier liquor bottles. she doesn’t want to go back to this home. 
so she makes her way to babette’s, incredibly calm and collected—she’s good at playing sober when she wants to, and babette is surprised to see her check in— isn’t she married? — but she asks no questions and Sevika sees a woman who kind of looks like you. the eyes. the shape of the face. the hips, the way she moves in the dusky light. she picks her immediately. 
she’s too drunk to care about how it might look, asking the woman if it’s alright if she just lay with her head in the woman’s lap. telling her to stroke her hair and let her sleep for a while. even on the walk here she was hot with desire, but now she just wants to rest and hear the pretty words you would whisper in her ear when you thought she was asleep. 
she comes home at around 4 in the morning and promptly passes out on the couch, not even bothering to change. smelling of someone else’s perfume. you find her there in the morning and she doesn’t remember a single thing except that the coins in her pocket are gone. 
you know the signs; you’re not stupid, but you don’t want to think the worst. until you overhear Chuck talking to some of the patrons at the last drop. 
“yeah, Sevika was here, swept the table and then left in the middle of the round talking about Babette’s.” “Babette’s?? doesn’t she have a wife?” 
you wander through the rooms in a daze for the rest of the day as you wait for Sevika to come home. you’re furious at first, then you’re cold with dread. was it you? had you done something wrong to make her want something else, someone else? 
you don’t want to confront her, you’ve convinced yourself by now that whatever it was, it must have been something you did wrong, and even though you can’t think of a single time Sevika seemed angry or even unhappy with you, you can’t bring yourself to start the conversation. 
she comes home tired and her eyes light up when she sees you. when she tries to kiss you, you turn your face away. her hand reaches for your waist, you dodge her touch. 
“baby, what’s with you?” she asks. “i smell funny or what?”
yeah, you smell of babette’s. you smell of liquor. you smell of lies. 
“nothing. i’m tired. you want dinner?” 
“i ate already,” she says. “i’m going to bed.” 
okay, so we’re playing ignorant, you think. two can play at that game. 
as the days go on you avoid her more and more. you still clean up after her in the apartment, cook her meals, wash and mend her clothes as usual. but you don’t stay up waiting for her to come home, and you don’t let her kiss you in bed. Sevika’s at a complete loss—she’s never seen you this way before. unlike you, she’d never wonder if maybe she were at fault. if she feels she hasn’t done wrong, she’d stick to that conviction to the bitter end. but it exasperates her, the way you elude her touches, answer her with monosyllables, stare at her with a strange apprehension in your eyes when you think she isn’t looking. 
“i’m working late tonight,” she tells you one day. “don’t wait up.” 
you feel your heart drop. she’s already a regular for someone at babette’s, you know it. 
“what time do you think you’ll be back?” you ask, a little too quickly. 
she looks at you oddly. you’ve never asked her this before. “i’ll be back when i’m back.” her brows furrow in concern. “why, is something wrong?” 
“no,” you say. 
after she leaves you pace the apartment for about an hour before making up your mind and running out into the street. hood over your face so you won’t be recognized, you run straight to Babette’s and burst through the doors, ignoring the strange looks you receive. no one deters you—you were also a frequent patron before you met Sevika, but you see the workers look at you and whisper to one another. it only confirms your suspicions. you reach Babette’s office and she looks up at you in surprise. 
“can i help you, hon?” 
“Sevika,” you say breathlessly. “how many times has she checked in here?” 
her brows lift. she checks her records. “i don’t do this for anyone, you know - confidential information. but since you’re her wife…”
“how many times, please?” 
she looks up at you. “just once. a month ago. she seemed inebriated. stayed only for two hours.” 
just once? and drunk? Sevika, drunk? you couldn’t imagine it if you tried.
you walk back out of the brothel, barely thinking of where you’re going, barely thinking at all, when you hear a familiar voice call out your name. 
Sevika’s walking swiftly down the street towards you, her eyes dark. 
“what are you doing here?” she asks, grabbing your wrist. 
“what am I doing here?” you shoot back. “i’m here finding out what you were doing here!” 
she looks up at the sign of Babette’s place, as if she can’t understand what you mean. “i haven’t stepped foot in this place,” she growls. 
“Babette’s records say otherwise.” your voice is cold. 
then it all comes back to her at once. Sevika’s lips part slightly as she recalls that night, the desperation, the way she had lain in another woman’s lap. 
“baby,” she says. “listen.” 
“i’m done listening,” you snap, and turn on your heel. you walk away from her, leaving her behind on the street outside Babette’s.  
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note: pt. 2 is here!
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amitiel-truth · 2 days ago
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River Maiden Pt. 10
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(A/N: I call this one, The Crash-out Saga)
Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4, Part 5, Part 6, Part 7, Part 8, Part 9,
(Y/N)'s sobs echo through the damp, watery cell in Poseidon's Golden Palace under the Agean Sea, her anguish palpable. She has never felt so alone and hopeless before, trapped in this watery prison where she can barely breathe without feeling suffocated.
She's desperate to be with Telemachus, to feel his embrace and hear his comforting words.
"Why... why can't I be with him?" her voice choked with despair and sorrow.
Poseidon's booming voice interrupts her thoughts, echoing throughout the palace. "Because, my dear," he says mockingly, "you're my leverage. As long as you're here, that pesky mortal won't dare to go against me."
He appears outside her cell, a sinister smile on his face. "And I, oh, am going to enjoy this."
(Y/N) takes a deep breath, steeling herself.
"What do you want now?" (Y/N) asked, glaring at her 'Father'.
Poseidon chuckles, his voice dripping with mockery. "What do I want? Oh, nothing much. Just a little entertainment." He leans against the bars, his gaze fixed on (Y/N). "You see, I quite enjoy watching you suffer. It's oh so satisfying to see you, a daughter of mine, so hopeless and desperate."
His eyes gleam with malice as he continues, "And I love even more how that silly mortal believes he can save you. It's hopelessly romantic, really."
"Haven't I suffered enough?" (Y/N) stood up, walking up to the cell, continuing her glare at him.
"I was born from your sins, forced to grow up in darkness, and watch the only parent I know deteriorate because of you, do you know no mercy? Do you even rest? Do all you think of is implementing suffering for others!?" (Y/N) yells, tired of him.
"Mercy? Rest? Those are foreign concepts to a god like me." Poseidon sneers, undeterred by (Y/N)'s outburst.
"You think I care about your suffering?" he asks with a cruel chuckle. "I am the god of the seas, and I do as I please. Your pain only fuels my power, my dear. It amuses me to see you struggle and despair, knowing that you can do nothing to change your fate."
"You're wrong" (Y/N) challenges.
Poseidon quirks an eyebrow, intrigued by (Y/N) defiance. "Oh really now? And how exactly do you intend to prove me wrong, my darling daughter? You're trapped here, completely at my mercy."
"Because Odysseus once defied you...and won." (Y/N) taunted, a smug grin on her lips.
Poseidon's expression darkened at the mention of Odysseus's name.
"Yes, well, that blasted mortal was lucky," Poseidon grumbles begrudgingly. "But there's no chance Telemachus could pull off the same feat."
"You underestimate him." (Y/N) points out, looking at him blankly.
"Underestimating a mortal?" Poseidon scoffs, his arrogance evident. "I am a god. I am infallible. No mere mortal can stand against me."
"You underestimates a mortal once...do I even need to repeat what happened?" (Y/N) taunted, tilting her head.
Poseidon bristles at (Y/N)'s words, his pride wounded. "Enough!" he bellows, his voice echoing off the cell walls. "You forget your place, girl. I am the god of the seas, and I will not be mocked!"
"I am also a product of you, a vile, selfish man, who knows nothing but take, take and take!! " (Y/N) points out, glaring at him.
Poseidon's gaze hardens as (Y/N) continues to defy him. He hates hearing the truth spoken out loud, especially by his own daughter.
"Watch your tongue, insolent child," he growls, trying to hide the growing frustration in his voice. "You speak of taking? Do you know the power and responsibility that comes with being a god?"
"All I see is your selfishness and brazenness, a brute with no mind." (Y/N) glared at him, insulting him once more.
"How dare you!? I am not a brute," Poseidon seethed, his fury mounting. "I am a god, and I rule the seas. You, on the other hand, are just a mere girl, a mortal with delusions of grandeur!"
"Then forget about me as I forget about you!" (Y/N) screamed, holding onto the bars.
"You cannot forget about me," Poseidon thundered, his voice shaking the entire palace. "You're my daughter, my blood, and I will not let you go so easily!"
(Y/N) heart pounds in her chest as Poseidon's words wash over her, but she refuses to back down. She meets his gaze with a mixture of fear and defiance.
"Then why keep me imprisoned like this?" she asks, her voice cracking slightly.
"Because you are valuable to me, dear one," Poseidon replies, his voice soft and chilling. "You're the key to my revenge on Odysseus. As long as I have you here, that insolent mortal will do whatever I want."
He steps closer to the bars, his eyes narrowed. "And I plan on milking this opportunity for all it's worth."
Commanding the water around him, he made the watery cage around (Y/N) in the likeness of a giant bird cage, rising her up above the open field.
(Y/N)'s heart sinks as she's lifted from the ground, trapped in a water cage that perfectly resembles a birdcage. She feels imprisoned and vulnerable as she's hoisted up into the open field, the weight of her captivity overwhelming.
"What are you doing?" she demands, her voice trembling with a mix of fear and defiance.
Poseidon's smug smile widens with satisfaction. "Why, my dear, I'm simply making sure you're...comfortable."
He begins to walk away from her water cage, leaving her suspended in the open field.
"Oh, and do try to enjoy the view from up there," he calls over his shoulder, his tone dripping with mockery.
Poseidon gazes up at (Y/N) trapped in her watery birdcage, a satisfied smile on his face.
"Now, stay up there and wait for Your Prince." he sneers. "Let's see how long your precious hero will take to find you."
Hermes flies both Odysseus and Telemachus towards the massive golden palace of Poseidon, its opulent facade standing out against the backdrop of the sea.
"This is it, lads," Hermes says, nodding towards the palace. "Poseidon's lair is in there, told you it won't be that much of a journey, the Lady upstairs made sure if it. Are you ready?"
"Ready as we'll ever be," Odysseus replies, gripping the bag of Brutus Flowers tightly in his hand.
Telemachus simply nods, his expression stoic, mentally preparing himself for the confrontation with Poseidon.
"Then I should get going now, do try not to get yourself killed, she'll gut me for sure, Good luck~." Hermes bid farewell, before disappearing.
Odysseus and Telemachus watch as Hermes vanishes, leaving them standing before the imposing palace.
Odysseus takes a deep breath, steeling himself. "Alright, Telemachus," he says, a hint of determination in his voice. "Let's go get your girl back."
Telemachus nods, his gaze fixed on the palace. "Lead the way, father."
With that, they begin making their way towards the entrance of Poseidon's palace, their hearts pounding with anticipation and a sense of purpose.
Suddenly, they heard cries in the halls of the palace, catching Odysseus and Telemachus's attention. They exchange a glance, both knowing who the crying is coming from.
"That sounds like her..." Telemachus notes, his heart filling with worry and anger.
They followed the sobs, reaching an open courtyard, they stopped in their tracks at the sight of (Y/N) standing next to Poseidon, her face streaked with tears. They watch as Poseidon continues to speak to (Y/), his back to them.
"(Y/N)..." Telemachus whispers, his heart filling with rage at the sight of her tears.
(Y/N) turns around, seeing Telemachus, a bright smile on her lips.
"Telemachus! Your finally here!" (Y/N) cried out with a large smile.
"See Father? I told you he loves me!" (Y/N) proclaims, looking at Poseidon with a smile, confusing Odysseus and Telemachus.
Poseidon hides his irritation at (Y/N)'s outburst, maintaining his composure. He turns to Telemachus with a smirk, playing along with (Y/N) claims.
"Ah, Telemachus," he greets him, feigning a friendly tone. "Welcome. I see you've come to claim your beloved back from me."
"Well, here she is, all yours, I've grown bored of her." Poseidon pushed her towards him, making the (Y/N) run up to him.
"Telemachus! Oh, How much I missed you!" (Y/N) proclaims, holding his hands.
Telemachus's heart leaped at the sight of (Y/N) rushing towards him, but something about the scene felt off. He glanced at Poseidon, who had a smirk on his face, and then back at (Y/N).
"(Y/N)...?" Telemachus asked, his voice filled with a mix of relief and caution as he feels her hands on his.
"What's wrong my love? Don't you miss me?" (Y/N) asked, tilting her head.
Telemachus forces a smile, playing along.
"Of course I missed you, my love," he responds, gripping her hands tighter. "I thought about you every moment we were apart."
As he holds her hands, Telemachus subtly notes the coolness of her skin, a deviation from the usual warmth he remembered.
"Oh, How I missed you, beloved." Y/N) smiled at him, hugging him tightly, too tight.
Telemachus hugged her back, his arms encircling her as she hugged him tight. The coolness of her skin seemed to linger, an unsettling contrast to the warmth he knew her to have.
"It's alright, my love," he murmured, his heart pounding with worry. "I'm here now. I won't let you go."
Suddenly, Telemachus stabbed her back with his dagger, His heart pounded in his chest as the illusion of (Y/N) dissolved into water, dissipating the moment the dagger pierced her body.
He looked up at Poseidon, who had a smirk on his face, clearly pleased with his little ploy. Telemachus clenched his jaw, his grip on his dagger tightening as he realized the extent of the god's trickery.
Odysseus watched with a mix of surprise and confusion. "What just happened?!" he exclaimed.
"It wasn't her, her hands are too cold, and my arms don't fit right around her." Telemachus sheated his dagger, before glaring at Poseidon
Poseidon chuckled darkly, amused by Telemachus's observation.
"Clever boy," he taunted, his gaze cold and calculating. "I see you caught onto my little trick."
Odysseus's eyes widened, his expression turning serious as he realized the implications of what had just occurred. "So, where is she...the real (Y/N)?" he asked.
With the snap of the God's finger, a birdcage made of water began to rise.
Telemachus's gaze followed the ascension of the birdcage, his heart lurching as he heard the sound of (Y/N)'s sobs. Anger welled up within him as he realized she was inside.
"(Y/N)!" he called out, his voice carrying across the courtyard.
(Y/N) looks out of her cage, her breath hitched.
"You came..."
Telemachus's heart ached at the sight of her, caged and helpless.
"Of course I did," he replied, his voice filled with determination. "I would travel to the ends of the earth for you."
Odysseus stepped forward, his gaze fixed on (Y/N) in her watery prison. "We'll get you out of there," he assured her.
"Ah, ah, ah," Poseidon interrupts smugly. "Not so fast, mortals. If you want your little damsel in distress back, you'll have to play by my rules."
Telemachus's knuckles turned white as he clenched his fists, his anger flaring.
"Your rules?" he spat out, his voice filled with venom. "What rules? You're nothing but a coward, locking her away up there like some prized prisoner."
"Careful, boy," Poseidon warned, his eyes narrowing. "You might not like the consequences of your words."
Odysseus stepped forward, his voice firm but measured. "We're not here to play games, Poseidon. We came for (Y/N), and we won't leave without her."
"Oh, you won't, will you?" Poseidon chuckled darkly, his voice dripping with sarcasm. "And what makes you think you have any leverage here? You're both just mortals, insignificant and fragile compared to me."
Telemachus gritted his teeth, his patience wearing thin. "We may be mortals, but we're not powerless," he shot back. "And we won't let you treat (Y/N) like some bargaining chip."
Poseidon's gaze shifted between Telemachus and Odysseus, his smirk faltering momentarily as he faced the two mortals.
"Is this supposed to intimidate me? A mortal with a spear and another with a bow?" he taunted, his tone tinged with amusement.
"Telemachus!" (Y/N) calls out, before throwing something for him to catch.
Telemachus caught a double-ended spear made of her tears, his eyes widening in surprise. He felt the power within the weapon, the will of the waters flowing within it.
"No way..." he whispered, gripping the spear tightly, a sense of determination coursing through him.
"We're not only mortals...we had a bit of help." Odysseus taunted, before using the Brutus Flowers, with its necter and pollen at the tip of his arrows.
With a flick of his wrist, Odysseus launches a Brutus flower-tipped arrow at Poseidon, the pollen swirling through the air towards him
Poseidon's eyes widen as he realizes what Odysseus has done. He tries to dodge, but the pollen envelops him, rendering him vulnerable
Telemachus charges forward, wielding (Y/N)'s double-ended spear. His movements are swift and precise, every strike aimed at exposing a weakness in Poseidon's defense. His heart beats in sync with the rhythm of battle, his focus solely on rescuing (Y/N) from her watery prison.
Despite being weakened by the effects of the Brutus Flower, Poseidon fights back with the full force of his trident. His movements may not be as quick and precise as before, but he compensates with sheer power and experience. Each swing of his trident sends the air rippling around him, creating small waves with every attack.
Telemachus, his heart racing in his chest, dances around each swing, dodging and parrying with his double-ended spear. The battle becomes an intricate dance of blades and tridents, with each strike echoing across the courtyard, the sound of their weapons mingling with their ragged breaths.
Telemachus, his heart racing in his chest, dances around each swing, dodging and parrying with his double-ended spear. The battle becomes an intricate dance of blades and tridents, with each strike echoing across the courtyard, the sound of their weapons mingling with their ragged breaths.
While Telemachus distracted Poseidon, Odysseus used it to free (Y/N), seizing the opportunity, grabs an arrow and expertly attaches a length of rope to it. He swiftly fires it with his bow, the arrow soaring towards the top of Egeria's cage and anchoring itself securely. With a steady grip on the rope, Odysseus begins his ascent.
(Y/N) looks at the rope before looking down, seeing Odysseus.
"Sir!." Egeria whisper yells in greeting
Odysseus glances up, his expression filled with determination as he climbs the rope. "Hang on, (Y/N)," he murmurs, his voice barely audible over the sounds of the battle below. "We're getting you out of here."
As Odysseus reached her, she managed to slip out of the cage with her power, as he helped her down the rope
(Y/N) clung tightly to Odysseus as they descended the rope, her heart pounding with a mix of relief and anticipation. Once they reached the ground, she turned to him with a mix of gratitude and worry.
"Thank you," she whispered, her voice shaky. "But Telemachus..."
The strength of the Brutus Flowers began to wear off, and Poseidon's godly powers started to return. As his strength rejuvenated, Telemachus found himself growing tired and outfought. He tried to hold his ground, but Poseidon's power overwhelmed him, pushing him back.
With the lift of the God's trident, he sent a powerful gust of water down onto Telemachus, as he lays down onto the ground, injured.
"NO!!" (Y/N) and Odysseus yells, as they both ran towards Telemachus's side.
(Y/N) and Odysseus rushed to Telemachus's side, their hearts heavy with worry. Odysseus knelt down beside him, taking in his injuries with a grim expression.
"Telemachus," Odysseus calls out, his voice shaky in near tears. "Can you hear me?"
"No! Nonononononono!" (Y/N) panics, accessing his injuries... it's grave, his abdomen and chest feels soft, his ribs are broken.
"Telemachus, please stay with me, please!" (Y/N) begs, holding his hand, patting his cheek.
Telemachus grunts in pain, his body feeling battered and bruised from the relentless attack.
"I...I'm alright," he croaks, managing a small smile despite the pain. He looks up at (Y/N), the worry in her eyes making his heart ache.
"No, you're not! You're mortally wounded!" (Y/ screams, trying to keep him awake.
Odysseus clenched his jaw, his expression turning grave. The severity of Telemachus's injuries was clear, and time was running out.
"Telemachus, you have to stay with us," Odysseus urged, his voice firm but tinged with desperation. "We can't lose you now."
Telemachus sees the panic and desperation in (Y/N)'s eyes, and he reaches up to gently touch her cheek, trying to offer some reassurance in his fragile state.
"Don't...don't worry about me," he says, his breathing labored. "I...I'll be alright."
(Y/N) looks at him in distraught, he's the one mortally wounded and yet, he is still worried about her well being, making her clench bee teeth.
"I'm sorry...I'm sorry I never told you who I truly am, I never told you because... because I thought you wouldn't accept me for who I am, the part of me that I hate, the part of me I rejected all my life." (Y/N) admits, crying heavily as she looks at Telemachus's critical state.
Telemachus gazes up at (Y/N), his eyes filled with love and understanding. He reaches up to wipe away her tears, his touch tender and gentle despite his fading strength.
"My sweet, beautiful (Y/N)," he whispers, his voice weak but steady. "You don't have to apologize. I don't care about who you are or where you come from. I love you for you."
He coughs weakly, pain flooding his body as he tries to speak.
"I...I would never reject you..." he gasps, struggling to speak with every word. "You... you're my world... my heart... my everything."
Tears stream down (Y/N)'s face, her heart breaking at the sight of Telemachus, the man she loves, lying so helpless and vulnerable, whispering his last words to her. She grips his hand tightly, holding onto it like a lifeline.
He slides his hand up to caress her face, his fingers brushing against her skin, wanting to feel her warmth for as long as he can.
"Please...please don't cry," he pleads, his voice growing weaker with each word. "I... I hate seeing you like this..."
Tears stream down (Y/N)'s face as she listens to Telemachus's words. She grasps his hand tightly onto her face, her heart breaking at the sight of him struggling to hold on.
"Please...please don't leave me," she pleads, her voice choked with emotion. "I can't lose you too. I love you so much."
Telemachus weakly continues to touch hee cheek, his hand trembling with effort. His touch is gentle, his fingers tracing the contours of her face, committing the feel of her skin to memory.
"I...I wish I could stay with you... forever," he whispers, his voice barely above a whisper now. "But... I'm so tired..."
(Y/N) sniffles, taking a deep breath, before finally accepting it, knowing that Telemachus will only suffer in pain from holding on for her, she raised one of her hands, stroking his hair.
"Rest now, my Love, I'll see you in the morning" (Y/N) says softly, kissing his lips.
Telemachus's breath hitches slightly, the taste of her kiss bittersweet. He looks into her eyes, his gaze filled with sadness and love.
"Will... will I dream of you?" he asks softly, his voice barely above a whisper.
(Y/N) looks at him with a bitter sweet smile, trying to give him at least a smile he could remember of her despite her tears.
"Yes, you will, always." (Y/N) reassures, trying to keep it together.
Telemachus manages a weak smile, his body growing increasingly still. He weakly moves his hand, brushing back a strand of (Y/N)'s hair, his touch tender despite his fading strength.
"Good...that's good," he murmurs, his voice fading further.
Odysseus, witnessing the scene unfold before him, feels a mix of sadness and admiration, knowing that Telemachus will die in the arms of his beloved.
"Rest now, My love, I'll see you in the morning, I love you." (Y/N) presses her forehead against his with a smile, despite her tears falling onto his cheek
Telemachus's eyes flutter closed, and a weak smile plays at the corners of his lips as he feels (Y/N) warm touch on his forehead.
"I...I love you..." he whispers, his voice barely audible now.
His hand, still weakly holding onto (Y/N)'s, begins to go slack, his body finally succumbing to the damage and exhaustion.
The silence is heavy, broken only by the sound of (Y/N) stifled sobs and Odysseus' ragged breaths. Telemachus's hand, now slack in her grip, falls limp to his side, his chest no longer rising and falling with each labored breath.
Odysseus stands nearby, his expression a mix of grief and anger. The reality of Telemachus's death is almost too painful to bear, and he clenches his fists, fighting back the urge to shout in rage and frustration.
(Y/N) looks at Odysseus, her eyes so full of tears. "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry." (Y/N) begs for forgiveness, as she gently placed Telemachus body onto Odysseus's arms as he sat on his other side.
Odysseus looked at (Y/N) with a mixture of sadness and understanding. He shook his head softly.
"It's...it's not your fault, my dear." Odysseus assures her. "Telemachus's death is a consequence of a battle we had to fight, and he fought bravely for you."
(Y/N) looks at the sight before her, Odysseus, holding his son's body, as she begin to break at the scene, kneeling onto the ground, and screaming in pain, tears endlessly flowing from her eyes.
Odysseus only looks at her, his heart breaking for her loss. He holds Telemachus gently in his arms, his own tears flowing freely grieves with her. The courtyard is filled with the sounds of their shared sorrow, with (Y/N)'s heart-wrenching screams echoing in the air.
Poseidon, now having regained his godly powers, let out a mocking laugh, relishing in the scene before him.
"Ha! Look at you all weeping over the fallen one," he says, his voice full of arrogance and cruelty. "The great Telemachus, defeated by a single blow. What a pity!"
"You really thought you could defeat a god with a mortal's strength?" Poseidon sneers, his lips curled into a cruel smirk. "You were all just playthings to me, nothing more than insects to be squashed under my heel."
He looks down at Telemachus's lifeless body in Odysseus's arms, his taunting tone growing more cruel.
"And now, look at the prize you've lost. How does it feel, hero?"
"Your tears. Your sorrow. They are nothing to me," Poseidon continues his mocking tirade, taking pleasure in Odysseus's grief. "You are all so weak, so powerless. You thought you could defeat me, a god, with your mortal struggles? How naive."
He looks over at (Y/N), now on the ground, her grief too overwhelming for her to hold back.
"And you, hybrid. Do you think your tears will bring him back? You are both pathetic."
Suddenly, the air stills, as (Y/N) sat up from her kneeling, shocking Odysseus at what's happening to her, but Poseidon couldn't see as her back was turned to her, the spear made out of her tears that Telemachus had dropped in his defeat, dissolved, and snaked it's way onto her, slithering on her back to her hair.
Droplets of water began floating around them, as (Y/N) stood up, her once (H/L) (H/C) turned into water in the shape of snakes, similar of that to a Gorgon, as she slowly turned her head towards him, her eyes glowing white, too bright, with endless amounts of tears flowing from her eyes, as the droplets began pelting Poseidon.
"What is this... what are you doing?" Poseidon demands, his voice taking on a hint of panic.
Each hit felt like a rock, completely surrounding him, as it ended (Y/N) was now in front of him, winding back her arm and sending a blast of water in the shape of snakes towards towards him, sending him flying across the courtyard.
Poseidon quickly regains his composure, looking up at (Y/N) with a snarl.
"How...how are you doing this?" he demands, clearly shaken by her newfound powers.
(Y/N) ignores his question, her gaze fixed on him as she continues her approach, each step sending tremors through the ground underneath her. The howling wind sounds like her screams, creating a chilling chorus of anguish and determination.
"What have you become?" Poseidon finally manages to say, his usually mocking tone now tinged with fear.
She couldn't even hear him, all she could hear was...Telemachus.
"I would never, ever let anyone take me away from you"
"You are more precious to me than any Princess or wealth could ever be."
"I'd have stayed in that river with you forever, if I could."
"No one else can have me. I'm all yours."
"My beautiful nymph."
"You're too good for me, love..."
"You are... intoxicating,"
"Please...please don't cry"
"You... you're my world... my heart... my everything."
"I...I would never reject you..."
"Will I see you again?"
"I...I wish I could stay with you... forever"
Imagine being so full of grief and rage, that you force your divine half to take over.
Amidst her anguish, a new title is bestowed onto her.
(Y/N), Mistress of the Waves.
Goddess of the Sea, Earthquakes, Storms and Snakes.
She continues to attack him, every form of water are in the shape of snakes, as if to remind him of his past mistakes, of her mother, Medusa.
Poseidon's fear and disbelief grow as (Y/N) continues her relentless attack, every bit of water shaped like a serpent, tormenting him with the memory of Medusa.
"No...no, this can't be happening," he mutters, struggling to maintain his composure.
Each attack lands with precision, causing Poseidon to stagger back, the pain and fear from his past haunting him once more. (Y/N), fueled by her grief and fury, is a force to be reckoned with, her power growing with each passing moment.
Odysseus struggles to maintain his balance as the wind intensifies, the gusts becoming stronger and more tumultuous. He holds Telemachus tightly in his arms, trying to shield his body from the elements, but the force of nature proves overwhelming.
"(Y/N)..." he calls out, his voice barely heard over the howling wind. "(Y/N), please, you have to stop!"
But (Y/N) didn't listen, or she simply couldn't hear him in her grief, as she continues to attack, in his fear, Poseidon even tried to hit her with his trident, as she caught it with her bare hand, snapping it in two and throwing it to him, making him stumble.
As she throws the broken weapon back at him, the reality of his situation becoming all too clear to him. Poseidon, the mighty god of the seas, is being bested by a woman consumed by grief and rage, her powers beyond anything he could have anticipated.
(Y/N) pants as she glares at him, as behind her she forms a giant snake made out of water, brandishing it's fangs towards him, threatening to attack, an imposing sight that only adds to her already fearsome presence. It glares malevolently at Poseidon, its fangs gleams in a threatening manner, as if ready to strike at a moment's notice.
Poseidon's face goes pale as he stares at the snake, realizing that he's facing a force he can't easily overcome. His fear is evident as he takes a step back.
(Y/N) raises a hand, preparing to send it down onto him, biting her lip so hard that it bled, as she was about to send it down, a familiar embrace stopped her, hugging her gently, with a hand on her cheek, snapping her out of her rage filled state, her pure white eyes returning back to normal, but her hair is still remained made out of water in the form of snakes, gasping as the giant snake made of water drops into nothingness, as she leans onto the familiar, comforting hug.
Hera, the goddess of marriage and queen of the gods, holds (Y/N) tightly in her arms, a mixture of concern and sympathy etched on her face.
"It's alright, child," she whispers gently, brushing a hand through (Y/N)'s hair, which is still in the form of water snakes. "You don't have to do this."
Hera looks over at Poseidon, who stands there, stunned by the sudden turn of events, a mix of fear and confusion visible on his face.
(Y/N) cried out, burying her face onto Hera's shoulder, as she held onto her purple peplus tightly, crying as she screams, and dropping to her knees, with Hera following suit, unable to form any sentence, filled with heartbreak
Hera holds (Y/N) tightly, her own eyes filled with sympathy and compassion. sitting on the ground and continuing to hold her close. The goddess gently strokes (Y/N) hair, her touch soothing and comforting.
"Shh, it's alright," Hera whispers, her voice soft and tender. "Let it all out, my dear."
(Y/N) is inconsolable, to the point Hera has to force her to stop biting her lips so much that it bleeds, as she continues her anguish cries.
(Y/N)'s sobs are heartbreaking, her grief overwhelming and unceasing. Hera, holding her tightly, tries to soothe her, gently chiding her to stop biting her lips.
"You need to stop, my dear," Hera says softly, wiping some of the tears from (Y/N) cheeks. "You're only hurting yourself more."
Despite her attempts, (Y/N)'s anguish only seems to deepen, drowning herself in her heartache and sorrow.
"I...I lost him!" She cried out, burying her face onto Hera's chest, barely being able to keep herself upright.
Her words, filled with despair and heartache, hit Hera hard. The pain in her voice is palpable.
"Shhh, I know, darling. I know it hurts," Hera whispers, holding her close.
Hera gently runs her fingers through (Y/N)'s hair once more, trying to soothe her, but the tears continue to flow, unstoppable in their intensity.
"Please, help me, I'd do anything to give him back to me" (Y/N) begged, gripping onto Hera's shawl
Her pleas pierces through the air, her desperation and pain palpable. Hera's heart aches as she holds her, feeling her anguish.
"My dear, I wish I could bring him back to you," Hera says, her voice trembling as she fights back her own tears. "But even I cannot reverse the hands of fate once death has claimed a soul."
She tightens her embrace, holding (Y/N) close, offering whatever solace she can.
"I'll do anything, please" She begs, holding her hand, unstable.
"I'll give you anything of mine, please, anything but this, anything but him! I can't lose him, I can't lose him like this" (Y/N) begged hysterically.
(Y/N)'s pleading is heart-wrenching, her desperation driving her to make any bargain, surrender anything to reverse the inevitable.
Hera, with tears in her own eyes, tries to console her. "My dear, your pain is understandable, but there are limits to what even I can do. I cannot bring someone back from the dead."
"Please, anything of mine, anything! Just take it! Anything but this, anything but him" (Y/N) begged, burying her face to her Aunt's shoulder.
Hera's heart heavy as she witnesses the extent of her grief. As (Y/N) begs for any solution, even offering any part of herself in exchange for Telemachus's life, a thought springs to mind.
Hera pulls back gently, looking deep into (Y/N)'s tear-filled eyes.
"(Y/N), my child, listen to me. There...there may be a way."
"Please, I'll do anything." (Y/N) begged, looking at her, pleading.
Hera took a deep breath, her expression a mix of hesitation and hope.
"I cannot promise anything," she warned, her voice almost a whisper. "But there is one possibility. You have both mortal and divine blood in you, a unique combination of both worlds."
Hera paused, her eyes never leaving (Y/N)'s face.
"You could...give up your divinity."
(Y/N) looks at her in shock, as Odysseus watches the exchange.
Odysseus stood watching the exchange, his thoughts swirling with worry and disbelief. He couldn't believe what he was hearing.
He silently observed, torn between hope and caution. On one hand, he desperately wanted to see Telemachus alive again, to hold his son in his arms and bring him back to life. But the thought of (Y/N) giving up her divinity, her very nature, filled him with dread.
As he watched, his mind was a whirlwind of emotions, contemplating the implications and consequences of such a sacrifice.
"I will also offer you my protection, and being mortal, you will cut your ties with Olympus and Poseidon himself from being his daughter, do you accept the terms, my dear?" Hera asked, shocking Poseidon
As Hera made her proposal, a gasp escaped Poseidon's lips, his eyes widening in disbelief. The thought of (Y/N) renouncing her divine heritage and severing her connection to him was both unexpected and jarring.
"No...no, you can't do this!" Poseidon spluttered, stepping forward in protest. "You can't take her from me, she's my daughter!"
"Take it" (Y/N) quickly answers, making both the Gods look at her in disbelief
"I'd rather live a single mortal life with him than live an eternity without him, please, Auntie...." (Y/N) begs, looking up at her with tearful, pained eyes.
"Take it" (Y/N) begged with her broken voice.
Poseidon's protests go unheard as (Y/N) accepts the offer. He stands there, stunned, watching as his daughter willingly agrees to relinquish her divinity.
Hera glances at Poseidon, a look of determination in her eyes, before turning back to her. "Are you sure, child?" she asks gently, her voice carrying a heavy weight.
"Divinity is something many sought after, are you willing to trade it away for his life?"
"How could I ever continue living...without him who truly makes me feel divine?" (Y/N) asked with a broken smile.
(Y/N)'s words hang heavily in the air, her emotions on full display. Her pain is palpable, the love she holds for Telemachus consuming her very being.
Hera gently places a hand on her shoulder, her touch a mix of sympathy and understanding. "I know, my dear, but you must be certain. Once this deal is made, it cannot be undone."
Hera looks over at Telemachus's body, lying motionless on the ground, and a pained expression crosses her face.
"I understand, Auntie, I'm only saddened that I'll never get to see you again" (Y/N) admits with a frown.
(Y/N)'s words hit Hera like a dagger to the heart, her frown deepening. She looks down at student, her eyes filled with a mixture of sadness and pride.
"You are a remarkable young woman," Hera says softly, her voice heavy with emotion. "Your compassion and depth of love are admirable."
Hera gently cups (Y/N)'s cheek, her touch tender. "I shall miss you, dear one," she whispers, her voice thick with sorrow.
"Thank you...for everything." (Y/N) smiled at her, grateful for raising her.
Hera smiles sadly as tears fill her eyes. She's both proud of (Y/N)'s strength and saddened by the loss of her divine heritage.
"It was an honor to watch you grow, my dear," Hera whispers, fighting back her tears. "You are a gift to this world, and I shall always cherish our time together."
She holds (Y/N) close, her embrace filled with bittersweet emotions.
"You have a great heart," Hera adds "and it pains me to see it ache like this. But remember this, My Student, and don't forget."
Hera gently lifts (Y/N) chin, meeting her gaze with a mix of sternness and love. "Even as a mortal, you'll retain lessons learned and traits gained from your divinity. Hold onto your strength, your resilience, and above all, your capacity to love."
She brushes a strand of water hair away from her face, her touch gentle yet firm.
As Hera gazes at (Y/N), memories flood her mind. She sees the little girl she once raised, the one she took under her wing, and the woman she has become.
Hera's eyes well up with tears, and a bittersweet smile plays upon her lips. Her heart aches for the loss of their bond, but she is also filled with pride.
Hera takes a deep breath, steadying herself as she prepares to undertake the process of reviving Telemachus. She closes her eyes, her mind focused and resolute. A soft energy emanates from her fingertips, and her voice takes on a incantatory quality.
"Let the threads of life once more become unbroken. Let Telemachus's path be illuminated by the light of the living."
She holds her hands above Telemachus's corpse, channeling her divine power.
As the process ensues, (Y/N) can feel a subtle change within herself. It's as though the threads of her divinity are unraveling, loosening their hold on her being.
Meanwhile, Telemachus's lifeless body responds to Hera's intervention. Color slowly returns to his cheeks, and a faint pulse can be discerned. The process is gradual, but the resurrection is taking effect.
Odysseus, witnessing the scene, observes the changes taking place. He watches as color returns to Telemachus's cheeks and a pulse appears, a sign of life returning to his son's body.
At the same time, Odysseus's attention is drawn to (Y/N). He notices a subtle change in her demeanor, as if something within her is shifting.
(Y/N) noticed Telemachus's slow return, as she runs to him, desperate to see him alright.
"Telemachus! Please wake up!." She begs, as her hair is slowly going back to normal.
Telemachus's eyes slowly flutter open, his consciousness returning. He feels disoriented and weak, but the sound of (Y/N) voice and her touch ground him.
As his vision clears, Telemachus looks up and sees (Y/N)'s face, filled with worry and relief.
"(Y/N)..?" he whispers, his voice hoarse and frail.
As Telemachus gazes up at (Y/N), confusion and awe wash over him. Her hair, made of water in the form of snakes, dances around her head, a striking and unique sight. Yet, despite the Gorgon-like appearance, Telemachus can only focus on one thing - her captivating beauty.
"You...you look astonishing," Telemachus manages to utter, his voice soft and filled with admiration.
(Y/N) looks at him in shock, as Telemachus continues to describe her mesmerizing beauty.
Telemachus's gaze remains fixed on (Y/N), taking in every detail of her appearance. His eyes trace the curves of her face, the way her hair sways around her head like a crown of serpents.
"Your beauty... it's like nothing I've ever seen," he whispers. "The way your hair moves, like a living river... it's mesmerizing."
He reaches up, gently brushing a strand of her snake-like locks away from her face, his touch filled with reverent wonder.
Telemachus chuckles softly as the water snakes surrounding (Y/N) head react to his touch, nipping at his hand playfully. He watches in fascination as they seem to recognize him, their movements becoming more curious.
"They know me," he observes, a hint of amusement in his voice. "They're... they're quite spirited, aren't they?" Telemachus chuckles, looking at (Y/N) with a mix of amusement and fondness. "It's as if they enjoy my touch."
(Y/N) smiled at him as she shook her head, her hair going back to normal as her divinity completely leaves her, pulling him into a hug.
"Welcome back, my beloved." (Y/N) mutters with a large smile.
Telemachus was taken aback by the sudden change in (Y/N)'s hair, returning to its normal state, but he doesn't have time to dwell on it. As she pulls him into a tight embrace, he melts into her arms, relishing the touch he thought he had lost forever.
Hera watches the scene with a small, knowing smile on her face. She can see the tenderness and love between Telemachus and (Y/N), and she feels a sense of satisfaction for having facilitated this reunion.
She watches as Telemachus and (Y/N) embrace each other, their bodies fitting together like two pieces of a puzzle. It's clear that they were destined for each other, and that their bond is stronger than any divine power.
She steps forward, clearing her throat to draw the couple's attention back to her. She waits until Telemachus and (Y/N) breaks apart, their arms still around each other, before speaking.
"Telemachus," she says, her voice firm but gentle. "You have been given a second chance at life, thanks to (Y/N)'s sacrifice."
"What? What did you sacrifice?" Telemachus asked, checking her, counting her fingers and toes
"Telemachus, I gave up my divinity" Telemachus's mind struggles to process the gravity of her sacrifice, his heart heavy with conflicting emotions.
"You... gave up your divinity... for me?" he repeats, unable to believe it. He gazes at her, his eyes wide and teary, trying to understand the enormity of what she had done. "Why?"
"Because," (Y/N) raised a hand, caressing his cheek, "I would rather die, than grow old without you." She professes, pressing her forehead against his
"Because eternity without you...is torture."
Telemachus's heart melts as (Y/N) speaks, her words cutting deep. He can feel the sincerity and the depth of her love radiating from her every word.
He gently cups her face with his hand, his touch tender and full of longing.
"You're a fool, you know that?" he chuckles softly, his voice full of affection. "Risking everything for me..."
She chuckles, tearing up. "I guess, that makes us fools in love." (Y/N) smiled at him, tears streaming from her eyes.
Telemachus can't help but smile at her words. "Fools in love," he repeats, savoring the sound of it.
He gently wipes away the tears streaming from her eyes, his touch gentle and filled with tenderness.
"Well, if we're fools in love, then I'll be a fool with you," Telemachus murmurs, his voice soft and affectionate. "Until the end of time."
(Y/N) pulls him into a kiss through her tears, holding him tightly.
Telemachus melts into the kiss, his heart overflowing with emotion. He wraps his arms around (Y/N), pulling her close, as if trying to erase all the time they had lost.
Their kiss is filled with longing and desperation, a physical manifestation of the love they share. The world around them fades away, leaving only the two of them in a tight embrace, their mouths locked together as if they can't bear to part.
"Alright, break it up, you two, she's not the only one who was crying over you." Odysseus calls out as (Y/N) pulls away with a smile, letting Odysseus hug his son.
Telemachus breaks apart from (Y/N) with a gentle yet reluctant smile, turning to see his Father, Odysseus, standing nearby.
As Odysseus calls out to him, Telemachus feels a surge of emotions. He can see the relief and love in his Father's eyes, and he knows that his return has not gone unnoticed.
Telemachus rises to his feet, meeting Odysseus's embrace with equal force. They hug, tears streaming down both of their faces.
"Father... I'm... I'm sorry for worrying you," Telemachus whispers, his voice choked with emotion.
Odysseus holds Telemachus tightly, a mix of relief and joy on his face. He can feel the weight of his son's body in his arms, his heartbeat reassuring and real.
"You damned fool," Odysseus mutters affectionately, his voice thick with emotion. "You gave me quite a scare, you know that?"
He pulls away from Telemachus, still keeping a firm grip on his shoulders, and looks into his son's eyes.
Telemachus smiles sheepishly, a hint of guilt on his face. "Yeah, I guess I may have overdone it a bit."
Odysseus shakes his head, chuckling softly. "A bit? You were dead, Telemachus. Dead. Do you have any idea what that did to this old man's heart?"
Telemachus's smile falters a bit, realizing the true gravity of his actions. He looks down, shame coloring his cheeks.
"I'm sorry, Father," Telemachus says quietly. "I didn't mean to cause you any pain. I was just... desperate, I suppose."
Odysseus regards Telemachus with a mix of empathy and understanding. He knows all too well what it's like to be driven by desperation and love.
"I understand," Odysseus replies, his grip on Telemachus's shoulders softening. "You were willing to do anything for (Y/N), even if it meant risking your life... I get it."
He paused, a nostalgic glint in his eyes.
"In fact, to be honest, I'd probably do the same for your Mother." Odysseus admits
Telemachus's expression softens, realizing that he and his Father are not so different after all. Despite their differences and their clashes, they share the same capacity to love selflessly, to risk it all for the people they hold dear.
"Maybe we're both fools in love then," Telemachus says, a small smile tugging at the corners of his mouth.
Odysseus sighs, a mixture of resignation and affection. "Maybe we are. But love has a strange way of making fools of us all."
He pats Telemachus on the back. "Just try not to do anything that stupid again, will you?"
(Y/N) watched with a smile as the father and son converse, and turns her head back to Hera with a large smile.
"Thank you, Auntie"
Hera looks at (Y/N) with fondness, her gaze lingering on the young woman who was like a daughter to her.
"You're welcome, dear one," Hera replies with a gentle smile.
She reaches out and places a hand on (Y/N) shoulder, their connection evident in the warmth of her touch.
"You know, I never expected to see you sacrifice your divinity for anyone," Hera chuckles light-heartedly
"I have no other use for it other than to see you." (Y/N) smiles at her, before frowning, looking at the Goddess sadly.
"Will I...see you again?" She asked with a hopeful smile.
Hera's expression softens as (Y/N)'s question hangs in the air. She gazes at her with a mixture of fondness and melancholy.
"I wish I could promise you that we'll meet again," Hera says, her voice heavy with a sense of finality. "But the truth is, I cannot. You no longer have divinity running through you, and that puts us on different planes. It means that our paths will diverge, and the chances of us ever meeting again are slim, if not impossible."
(Y/N)'s heart sinks at Hera's words, a sense of loss and sadness washing over her. She had hoped for more time, more moments with the Goddess who had once been like a mother to her.
"I see..." She mutters with a frown, looking down on the ground, before looking up at her again with a sad smile.
"I guess...in another lifetime will do, Auntie?" She asked sadly, tilting her head.
Hera's expression softens, her heart heavy with the weight of (Y/N)'s words. She reaches out and places a gentle hand on her cheek, her touch tender and comforting.
"Yes, my dear. In another lifetime, perhaps. In another lifetime we'll meet again and may your path be a kind one this time."
She smiles bittersweetly, her gaze holding a hint of sadness and hope. "Until then, cherish every moment you have with Telemachus."
She leans onto her hand, smiling "Thank you, for everything, once more." (Y/N) mutters gratefully, before hugging her tightly.
Hera smiles warmly at her, her heart full of affection for the young woman who had grown into a force to be reckoned with as she hugs her back, running her hand through the young woman's hair.
"You're most welcome," Hera says softly. "And remember, even though we may be on different paths now, I will always be proud of you. You've become the kind of woman I always knew you would be."
(Y/N) smiled at Hera, before catching Poseidon's eye, bringing a frown on her lips, who is still slumped onto the ground.
Poseidon looks at (Y/N) with a mixture of anger and hurt in his eyes. He can't believe that she had chosen a mortal over him, a god.
"You chose him," he mutters with a sneer, his voice laced with venom. "A mortal."
"Better than you, a selfish god." (Y/N) answered, frowning at him.
"One who I can never call my Father."
Poseidon's face contorts with anger, his eyes darkening at (Y/N)'s words.
"How dare you," he fumes, his voice booming across the room. "I am a god, the God of the Seas, and you dare to compare me to a mere mortal? You ungrateful child!"
"Ungrateful?" She retorted, her voice filled with anger.
"You're the one who never gave me never gave me anything, I was all alone, even as a child, you never saw me or cared for me, heck you didn't even know my name, The one who found me nearly dying of starvation at the ripe age of 3 was Auntie Hera, but you, still didn't care, and now that I've found my happiness, you intended to destroy it?." (Y/N) sighs, shaking her head.
"Fine, if that makes me ungrateful, then so be it." (Y/N) pulls out her arm bracelet, throwing it to Poseidon.
"This is yours, I don't want anything of yours in my new life."
He catches the bracelet that she throws at him, gripping it tightly in his fist.
Poseidon glares at (Y/N), his expression a mask of anger and bitterness. He feels stung by her words, but also guilty, knowing deep down that she's right.
"You were nothing but a burden to me," Poseidon seethes, his voice filled with venom.
"Then let me be your burden, and forget about me." (Y/N) didn't even bother turning around to face him, as she walked back to Telemachus and Odysseus, Hera gave him a warning glare, before following her.
Poseidon's eyes blaze with fury, a mix of anger and hurt that he can't quite admit. He feels her defiance in his bones, and he can sense the love that she has for Telemachus.
But despite his anger, he knows that he has lost her. He had never treated her as a daughter, and now she had chosen Telemachus over him.
But he can't bring himself to admit his past faults, and instead, he grits his teeth, glaring defiantly at her back as she walks away.
All he could is clench the bracelet tightly in his hand, a memory of another woman flashing through his mind.
As (Y/N) approached Telemachus and Odysseus, she grew nervous looking at the older man. "Sir, I'm so sorry about-"
before she could even say anything, Odysseus pulled her into a hug.
Odysseus wraps his arms around her, pulling her into a tight embrace. He holds her for a moment, his eyes soft and weary.
"Don't apologize," he replies, his voice gruff but gentle. "You've done nothing wrong."
He pulls back and looks at her, a small smile on his face.
"I can see how much you care for my son," he says quietly, his eyes filled with a mix of gratitude and concern.
(Y/N) hugged him back, "But...I got him killed"
Odysseus sighs, his grip on her tightening slightly.
"Yes, you did," he replies bluntly, his voice firm but softened by a hint of understanding. "But you also saved him. You gave up everything for him."
He pauses, his expression turning thoughtful.
"I have to admit," he admits, looking at her with a small frown. "I had my doubts about you at first."
"I thought you might just be toying with my son's feelings, or using him for your own gain," he continues, his voice tinged with a hint of protective fatherly concern.
"But seeing the lengths you've gone to for him... I can see that you truly love him."
He gently cups her chin, looking into her eyes with a mixture of approval and wariness.
"Just promise me one thing," he implores, his voice serious.
"Treat him right. Don't break his heart."
"I won't, I promise, Sir." (Y/N) tells him seriously.
Odysseus gazes into her eyes, searching for any hint of dishonesty. But he sees nothing but sincerity and love. His expression softens, and he relaxes his grip on her.
"Good," he says gruffly, his voice carrying a hint of satisfaction and acceptance. "You better keep that promise, young lady."
Odysseus looks at (Y/N), a warm smile on his face. He can see the love and affection in her eyes as she gazes up at him.
"You know, you don't have to keep calling me 'sir,'" he says gently. "You can call me Father if you'd like."
(Y/N) looks at him in shock, tearing up, before blinking away the tears with a large smile.
"Alright, Father."
Odysseus smiles fondly at (Y/N), his heart swelling with affection for her.
"There's no need for tears, my dear," he says gently, reaching out to pat her on the head. "You're part of the family now."
"Ehem." Hera coughs to let her presence be known
Odysseus and Telemachus quickly kneel before Hera, paying their respects to the Queen of the Gods.
"My Lady Hera," Odysseus greets her with reverence, his head bowed.
"Your Highness," Telemachus echoes, his voice filled with awe in the presence of the divine.
Hera chuckles at their display of respect, amused by their formality.
"Rise, rise," she tells them, her voice warm and amused. "You make me sound like a tyrant, no need for kneeling."
Hera glances at Telemachus, her expression gentle. "Take care of her, Telemachus. She has given up a significant part of herself for you."
Telemachus looks at Hera, a determined expression on his face.
"I will, Your Highness," he replies, his voice filled with conviction. "I will take care of her, and cherish her for the rest of our lives."
Hera nods, satisfied by Telemachus's answer. She can see the determination in his eyes, and she can feel the sincerity in his words. She knows that he truly cares for (Y/N), and that he will do everything in his power to keep her safe and make her happy.
She glances at the two of them again, her smile turning a bit sly. “And don’t keep me waiting too long for grandchildren.”
"Auntie!" (Y/N) exclaims, blushes deeply.
Telemachus's face goes beet red as he glances at his Father, who bursts out laughing.
"It seems the Queen has spoken," Odysseus says, still chuckling. "You had better get busy, Telemachus."
"I forgot, you've been busy." Odysseus corrects, as the two blushes harder
Hera chuckles, finding great amusement in the young couple's shyness.
"Oh, come now," she teases, a glimmer of mischief in her eyes. "You've been through much together, and yet you still get flustered at the mere mention of grandchildren. It's adorable, really."
Hera chuckles at (Y/N)'s embarrassment, enjoying the young woman's reaction.
"Oh, don't be shy, my dear," she teases. "You two make such a lovely couple, I can't help but look forward to seeing what kind of little ones you'll produce someday."
"Auntie, please," (Y/N) protests weakly, her face still burning red.
Telemachus manages to regain his composure, though his cheeks are still tinted pink. "We'll...keep that in mind, Your Highness," he says, his voice a bit shaky.
Odysseus pats his son on the back, grinning widely. "Don't worry, Telemachus, it's perfectly natural to be a bit flustered when it comes to these things."
He chuckles softly, his eyes twinkling with a mixture of amusement and affection. "You'll get used to it in time."
Hera laughs at them, before looking fondly at Telemachus.
"Take good care of her for me, Young Prince."
Telemachus nods, his expression solemn and determined.
"I will, Your Highness," he says firmly. "I promise you that I will take care of her and make her happy, for as long as we both shall live."
Hera's lips curve into a small smile as she watches the scene unfold. Seeing Telemachus and (Y/N) finally together, with Odysseus by their side, warms her heart.
"Hermes," she says, her voice firm and clear. "Take them home, won't you?"
Hermes, the fleet-footed god of messengers and boundaries, nods at Hera's command.
"Of course, milady," he replies, his voice as swift as his wings.
He turns to Telemachus, (Y/N), and Odysseus, a sly grin on his face. "You three ready for a little ride?"
"Cousin!?" (Y/N) exclaims in shock, he was watching them the whole time.
Hermes chuckles at Egeria's surprise. He grins at her and shrugs.
"You didn't think I'd miss all that drama, did you?" he teases her. "Of course I was watching."
"That's right, little cousin," he says with a wink. "I couldn't help but keep an eye on you and your man here."
He looks at Telemachus, a mischievous gleam in his eyes. "And you, Telemachus, you're a lucky fellow to have snagged this one."
Telemachus couldn't help but chuckle at the God's words.
He puts his arm around (Y/N)'s waist, pulling her closer to him. "I'm very lucky," he says, looking lovingly at her. "And I have no intention of ever letting her go."
(Y/N)'s blushes heavily, a sheepish smile on her lips.
Hermes grins at (Y/N)'s blushing expression, finding her reaction amusing and endearing. He chuckles to himself before speaking again.
"Ah, young love," he sighs dramatically. "It's a beautiful thing, isn't it?"
He looks at Telemachus and (Y/N) with a cheeky grin. "You two are too sweet. I might just get a toothache from the amount of sugar you're giving off."
"Isn't that right, Old Friend?" Hermes turned to Odysseus
Odysseus chuckled at Hermes' question. He knew the messenger god too well to be offended by his playful tease.
"You're one to talk, Hermes," he retorted with a grin. "Last I heard, you had more than a few admirers of your own."
"But not as sweet as this one, It's making me a bit jealous" Hermes sighs
"But what do you know? You have your Penelope anyway"
Odysseus smiles fondly at the mention of his wife. "Yes, I do have Penelope," he says, his voice filled with love and affection. "She is the light of my life."
He glances at Telemachus and (Y/N), his eyes filled with a mixture of happiness and fatherly pride. "But our Telemachus deserves his own love and happiness as well. I couldn't be happier for him."
"Yeah, yeah, spare me the lovey dovey, time to finally get you all home, especially you, Old Friend" Hermes taps Odysseus's nose
Odysseus chuckles at Hermes' affectionate pat, amused by his friend's playful banter.
"Yes, I am more than ready to go home. I've been away far enough and for too long."
Hermes grins widely, his wings flapping in anticipation.
"Then let's not waste any more time," he says, his voice eager and excited. "Hang on tight, everyone. This is going to be a quick ride!"
He wraps his arms around Telemachus, (Y/N), and Odysseus, holding them close. Then, with a swift and sudden movement, he takes off into the air, soaring towards Odysseus's kingdom.
Hera watches them take off with a fond smile, happy that her dear student had found her happiness.
"Why did you help them?" Until a gruff voice ruins the moment
Hera turns to Poseidon, her expression hardening at the sight of him.
"Why does anyone do anything, Poseidon?" she replies coolly. "Compassion, kindness, a desire to see two people who care deeply for one another reunited. Is that so hard for you to comprehend?"
Poseidon glowers at her, his anger barely contained.
"Compassion? Kindness? Don't make me laugh, Hera," he spits out. "You know very well the trouble that girl caused me. And now you're just letting her and Telemachus prance away happily ever after? It's enough to make a god sick."
Hera turns towards him, frowning at him.
"Did you not notice anything when she was losing control on you earlier?" Hera asked, looking blankly at him
Poseidon's expression flickers with a hint of confusion, but he quickly hides it.
"What are you implying, Hera?" he grumbles, his suspicion clear in his voice.
"She had control over everything you had dominion over, while you didn't." Hera points out
Poseidon's face twists into a scowl at Hera's words. He knows she's right, but he's too stubborn to admit it outright.
"What's your point, Hera?" he growls, his irritation growing. "Are you trying to say she's more powerful than me or something?"
"No, she's not more powerful than you, you lost your dominion over the seas, storms, and earthquakes at her moment of grief." Hera reveals, shocking Poseidon.
"Oh, I'm so proud, she's my student after all." Hera praises herself
Poseidon is stunned into silence for a moment, his mind racing with the implications of what Hera has just told him.
"I...lost control?" he finally manages to sputter out, disbelief and anger mingling in his voice. "How is that even possible? I am Poseidon, the god of the seas and all the power they hold! How could a mortal have taken that away from me, even temporarily?"
"Because, she's your daughter." Hera reminded him, as she walked past him.
"And I know that girl like the back of my hand, with that intense of a grief, it would have been trouble for all of us." Hera sighs, shaking her head.
Poseidon's expression darkens even further at Hera's words. He already knew that Egeria was his daughter, but hearing it said aloud by Hera still stung.
"So you protected her from me because she's your student, huh?" he snarls, his resentment and anger bubbling to the surface. "And because she has the potential to be a threat to everyone, including me?"
"No, not really, I only expected her to be a demi god, with her kind and peaceful nature, only wanting to live for herself, but you just have to push her to the brink of destruction, that's why I had to step in, to remove her divinity and bring back your dominion to you." Hera explains, raising an eyebrow at him.
"You should be thanking me, really."
Poseidon scoffs at Hera's words. He's still angry, but a part of him knows that she's right.
"Thanking you?" he huffs. "Why should I thank you when you only intervened because you were afraid of what my daughter might become?"
"She had the power to destroy the world, Poseidon, that's why." Hera points out with a serious frown
Poseidon's expression darkens even further as he processes Hera's words. The thought of (Y/N)'s power being strong enough to destroy the world is both awe-inspiring and terrifying. He lets out a frustrated sigh, running a hand through his hair.
"Fine. I'll admit that you had a good reason to intervene. But that doesn't make me feel any better about the situation."
"Then I'll just see myself out while you lick your wounds, and do clean up after yourself, we wouldn't want another case the same of my student once more." Hera orders before leaving with a purple mist.
Poseidon watches her leave, a mix of anger and guilt swirling within him. He knows that he played a part in (Y/N)'s grief, but it's a tough pill for him to swallow.
He lets out a deep sigh, his mind filled with conflicting emotions. He can't shake the feeling that he's lost something important, something valuable, and it's not just his broken trident.
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midnight--sadness · 2 days ago
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Do you have any angst inhun hcs? (╥﹏╥) Sorry, I just really like angst...
do not EVER apologize for asking me for angst okay anon? i love angst more than i love some family members 😩
now for inhun 😣 our tragic idiots:
sometimes, gihun thinks he's fully forgiven inho but then he looks at him and suddenly he remembers... remembers how inho was the leader being the games, how he let 400+ people die every year for the entertainment of the rich, how he preyed on the weakest in the society with a promise of a better future and then let them die in a game. he remembers how inho killed jungbae and in those moments he hates him.
inho always realizes when gihun is like this and he knows that he can't do anything to change the past. sometimes he remains silent and sometimes he speaks. he apologizes, says that the deaths of his wife and child and his participation in the games changed him irrevocable, says that for years he was trapped in the dark with hatred clouding his eyes and that he thought he was doing the right thing, that he died when his wife did and only took a breath again when he played the games again with gihun.
it doesn't absolve him but gihun is forgiving to a fault, even when he doesn't understand someone's actions or reasoning.
at times, inho wishes he was youngil, because youngil is someone who trusts easily, youngil made gihun laugh, youngil was caring towards others. he can never forget that gihun fell in love with youngil first, not with inho himself.
gihun always wonders if inho sees his wife whenever he looks at him. and inho wonders if gihun sees sangwoo.
inho takes a while to actually spend time with gayeong and gihun because he kept seeing the future he did not have with his wife.
gayeong is a wonderful girl but inho keeps thinking about how he almost got her father killed and actually wanted him to become bitter and hopeless about the world, and he feels guilty for almost robbing this girl of her father.
gihun encourages inho to talk to junho, saying that junho lied to him and searched the island for years just to find inho. inho doesn't believe he is still worthy of junho's love.
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madwickedawesome · 2 years ago
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iliothermia · 2 years ago
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It’s heartbreaking as a disabled artist to be reliant on always needing to make work and always needing to sell it. Always needing to sell everything you make to get by because there’s not other options for you. Not being able to plan bigger projects, not being able to hold onto anything. Not being able to take the time to work on things without feeling the timer ticking down because you need to finish something new to sell, so you don’t get the sleep you need.. And then when you do invest in future things you think are cool.. You will never be able to keep them. You can’t afford your own work, and owning art’s not a necessity and everyone around you is struggling, understandably.. most of them can’t either 
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ciaran · 4 months ago
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narratives of american exceptionalism creep into every part of life
and there is just something extraordinary about seeing a bunch of people be so blissfully unaware of what it means, on a very fundamental level, to live in the heart of empire. it actually does not matter which way you vote, your government will commit and fund war crimes in other countries regardless. your voting blue makes not the least bit of difference to someone in another country who dies in the wreckage of american imperial projects. and your government works in the interests of american citizens. in the interest of the universal purchasing power of the dollar. in the way that the flow of global capital maneuvers to bring groceries to your supermarket shelves. and it doesn't matter what you feel about this, and it doesn't even matter how oppressed you are in the heart of empire, because you live in its centerfold and everyone always knows about your problems. i know exactly how complicated american life is, i know your movies and your cities and your music and even your laws, sometimes better than i can know my own, not because i wanted to see it but because i have to. because the narrative of America plays out everywhere, all the time. because there is a domination of civil and cultural life that america imposes on all the rest of the world, but somehow americans always think we know as little about them as they know about us. but i do know you. i have to know you. i am left with no choice. this is uncomfortable for me. i want you to feel uncomfortable about it too. a little discomfort is good for both of us.
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chilipepperconverse · 7 months ago
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elftwink · 9 months ago
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been learning to play ironsworn (gritty fantasy ttrpg which you can play with a gm but is mostly suited for solo or small group co-op gmless play) after having the rulebook pdf for several years (stars finally aligned to remove invisible thing blocking me from reading it idk) because i'm on another solo ttrpg kick & i don't know what took me so long to get around to this game because it genuinely is exactly what i was looking for. years ago when i was playing through solo 5e modules i should have just been playing ironsworn (believe it or not, 5e isn't very suited to solo play and is extremely clunky when you try lol).
also though i have dabbled in some other solo ttrpgs, a considerable amount of them are journaling games which is fun but imo considerably more work (usually by the time i'm a quarter of the way through the journal entry, i know how to entire scene played out and i want to move on to the next gameplay thing, so i get frustrated and bored quickly. it feels like when you solve a level in a video game but don't have the coordination to pull off the necessary move so you have to spend 20 extra minutes doing something you already figured out), so i really appreciate like not needing to write something for the game to progress (ive been taking notes for my own record since im playing solo and thus am not really out loud roleplaying the way you do in a group, but i definitely could do that instead and not take notes and the game would still function perfectly)
& ive been playing by myself but also in the past ive played a lot of ttrpgs in very small groups which has been other games but is mostly dnd and like. we also should have been playing ironsworn so that having a gm was not necessary. have definitely played games where we had to adapt the rules soooo much to do something that is just base game included in ironsworn. plus it's rules-light enough to do pretty complex moves that pose difficulties in bulkier games (ever introduced someone to dnd and they tell you they want to do a sick backflip and catch something and then attack and you have to tell them that will require several different consecutive rolls and some creative liberties with how the rules are 'supposed' to let you move? you can just Do That in ironsworn. use the strike move and describe it. done!)
the one thing is that although it's rules-light enough to theoretically play any setting or genre (some with more difficulty than others), ive found so far that like... the grittiness and sense of threat is very built into the mechanics so that would be sort of difficult to work around or change (but i think it's great from a game design perspective). what i mean is like, okay: you start with 5 max hp. there isn't really a way to raise this max hp, you just slowly gain abilities (assets) that make you less likely to have to lose the hp in the first place, or that make it easier to recover. when you encounter foes, you rank them on a scale of 1 -5, and enemies on the lowest side of this scale do one harm to you, while enemies on the highest side do five harm to you. so even though encountering an epic enemy won't always be deadly due to the assets you have, they are ALWAYS capable of taking you down to 0 hp with one good hit. so the feeling of threat is much more present compared to games where your character starts to be able to just tank and push through a failure or huge threat.
admittedly also i'm playing solo, im still learning how to balance combat, and also i built a character who has NO combat talents and iron (the close quarters fighting stat) is one of my lowest stats so i personally am under much more threat than if you built a character who knew how to fight or who could do deadly harm. but also the other thing about combat is it's extremely difficult to maintain control of the fight; you have to score a strong hit to do it on basically all moves, and there's a really limited pool of moves available when you don't have the initiative, and obviously none of them really favour you. i don't know that this makes combat genuinely more difficult, but it does make you feel like the fight is always about to spiral out of your control. every second you let it drag without decisive action feels like it brings you closer to dying. like i said, this is a feature of the game design and not a problem in any way. just thinking about it because when i was initially learning i was going to try to supplant it into a homebrew fantasy world of my own but the tone just wouldn't be right. and that it is somewhat difficult to replicate the kind of worlds that i typically play or run for dnd, which tend to lean somewhat sillier and definitely much higher fantasy
but i like to try new things and tbh especially in dnd i find that i very rarely feel that sense of threat and when i do feel it, it has nothing at all to do with the actual mechanics and reality of the combat and everything to do with how well the dm sells it to me and makes it sound and feel scary and dangerous. which is a testament to what a good gm can do for you but i do appreciate the threat feeling more built-in and also being actually real.
#good idea generator#kas plays ironsworn#am giving it a tag because i will continue to talk about this. its my blog#idk i just find in dnd like. players often FEEL threatened WAY before they actually are threatened#which makes it really hard to balance combat because players treat evenly matched fights like hopeless death traps#so instead they do underleveled combat that feels boring for some hard to pin down reason#but like. the reason is even though you're nervous about the dm's description and the things the monsters can do#there is no real threat. especially in bigger parties where the players DOMINATE action economy. they are always in control#so of course it gets boring. it drags out so everyone can take their turn but it never forces you to make difficult choices#or to totally exhaust all your abilities. after awhile the combats start to feel same-y#because even if the monster is different. you never have to do anything different to defeat it#ofc this is a subjective assessment and also if youre reading this and we play dnd together this is not a gripe abt our table i love u#i think it's really easy to get trapped doing this esp in tables which like rp more than combat#because its also like. once you're used to a certain balance of combat if your dm suddenly threw you a big one#you assume that this is a uniquely large threat in the narrative as well (rather than a rebalancing attempt)#and treat it accordingly. which is to say with way too much caution because it isnt actually that big of a threat#so then as a dm when you have to maintain the feeling of threat and the mechanical threat#(especially when sometimes the mechanical line between 'cakewalk' and 'tpk' is razor thin#and is more about the initiative order and luck than anything else)#you start to prioritize the feeling of threat. which is imo the right call always#but its just after awhile when you feel the threat but nothing ever happens to anybody. the dissonance starts to affect the table#also balancing dnd combat as a dm is really hard and often requires a LOT of on the fly adaptation#because sometimes the CR is useless and you don't know how it's gonna do until the dice are on the table already#anyway. my point is that im enjoying how ironsworn handles this problem
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suffercerebral · 9 months ago
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me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects
#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar#no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new#but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me'#i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term#so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now#so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but#it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out#that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance#so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial#but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal#although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive#i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary#ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness#which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days#and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself#im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles#but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy#and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me#i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this#i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself#im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body#im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up#and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe!#so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please#and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching#between numbness and overwhelming agony#what the fuck am i talking about
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cerbreus · 8 days ago
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Another day I should have just outright avoided the news....
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Hey, I don't normally make my own posts about this, but.
Do not argue with an anti on their own terms.
Don't get me wrong, I get it. You see the hypocrisy. You see the way they take aim at your favorite ships or characters or tropes while enjoying something similar. And you think "if I can point out to them just how hypocritical and idiotic they look right now, everyone will see our argument, they'll see that the anti is wrong and a hypocrite, and then maybe more people will stop harassing the people who like my thing. Maybe the anti will see the light and stop being a hypocrite."
But it will not work. It will not work.
There is an extremely high chance one of two things will occur:
They will double down on their argument, and ignore what you've said. (Ex. They might say "This relationship has an age gap. That's p3dophi1ia. That's dangerous." And you might say "well you ship something with the same age gap. Is it not p3dophi1ia and dangerous when you do it?" And they will just double down and say "This ship is dangerous. The shippers are grasping at straws to make their p3d0 ship normal.")
They will agree with you, but in the worst way possible. (Ex. Someone says "Ew your ship are basically siblings because they're childhood friends and grew up together. 1nc3st apologist." And you might respond "And yet we allow our most popular ship in this fandom to be popular? They grew up together as childhood friends and were inseparable. Why is that not inc3st?" because you think they'll gain a sense of perspective here. But then that person responds "People who ship that popular ship are freaks too then." Maybe they believed that before the convo or maybe they didn't, but the point now is that (while not your intention or fault by any means) some people have gone on to harass shippers of a ship that aren't doing anything wrong. What you think will bring clarity ends up raising tensions between shippers instead)
Do not meet them where they're at on their preconceived notions. You will not make them believe that they are wrong or hypocrites. Do not concede to their heavy assertions of abuse, p3dophi1ia, 1nc3st, etc levied against the thing you like for the sake of arguing that they are a hypocrite, or with intent to make them feel dumb for inadvertently labeling 80% of a fandom with said labels. They will not "see the light". The best thing you can do, if you have to say anything, is double down with "I'm not hurting anyone and it's fiction. I can do whatever I want" or "I don't give a shit what harmless things people like as long as it's tagged and I can filter out what I dislike" (especially if this is your stance). Then block and move on.
Antis, like trolls, thrive on engagement. They want you to argue so they can continue to point at you or lie about you or make you look bad.
It is in your best interest to pick your battles, and to try to sus out the difference between a friendly argument or standing up for yourself versus feeding the trolls. You won't make the right choice every time, all of us are human after all, but I promise you that ignoring and blocking bad faith actors, deleting their hate anons, etc, is not the coward's way out. Sometimes you don't need to fight. Sometimes keeping yourself from platforming bad faith actors and giving them nothing to go on will do the job (because there are more antis that are just small blogs with little power to do anything than you think, the kinds of people whose inflammatory posts will die if no one touches them).
Thank you for coming to my TED Talk.
#fandom wank#I'm not perfect either. I also fall into those same reasoning traps from time to time#that's why this is meant to be a psa or friendly reminder#I know how easy it is to get frustrated#I know how easy it is to get stuck thinking about how people are being stupid or hypocritical and feeling like there must be some way you#can get through to them#I know how tempting it is to compare other relationships or other characters or other medias people like to your own as a defense in hopes#that it will make things better for everyone (and it's tempting too to believe that people who ship the popular thing or like the popular#character have no problems and never deal with antis)#But you can't fight fire with fire or your reasoning to make people who want conflict stop pushing for conflict#These days (frustrated as I am watching entire communities of people who have committed no crimes get bullied off platforms for thoughtcrim#or for not conforming to the tastes of a pearl clutchy majority who has confused fictional tastes with real crimes and activism#) I have come to the conclusion that the best way to improve things is to just...become someone who unabashedly enjoys things. For me‚ I#think that if a community grows enough publicly‚ people won't be able to do much about it than complain in the end.#It may be scary to attach your main blog or your name to your interests your peers may bully/harass you for. But even if it means making ne#accounts/blogs/emails/etc‚ it's okay to do whatever you need to enjoy something and find your community.#You're not a coward or bad for being afraid or a lurker. You have reasonable things to fear. But if you've been craving fostering a renewed#community over a ship or character‚ then this post is your sign to take that step and become an avid poster or to publicly engage with the#few people who are posting it. Community starts with us‚ the people. And I think it's better if we decided to like the harmless things we#like publicly and enjoy the life we have than to just wait and hope things will be better and less hostile one day#Things are bleak‚ but they are not hopeless. You are not alone. You don't have to make large steps or be a major player of even be a big#contributing fandom member. You don't have to be anything. But the idea that you have to be quiet and keep silent about your fandom#interests because the antis won is just simply not true. They just want you to feel that way‚ because then they can keep their mental high#of having bullied people into obscurity#Anyways sorry about this. I'll try to go back to regular fandom posting#i just be ramblin
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girlivealwaysbean · 4 months ago
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so sad for absolutely no reason
#👆 girl who stayed up till 3 am talking to her bestfriend about how depressed and trapped we both are for about 4 hrs#it's like that gracie lyric#you have to laugh before you start to cry😭😭#like ab toh funny bhi nahi lag raha jokes bhi nahi banaye ja rahe#oh but i love her so much i absolutely LOVE people with whom i can just be sad#im tired of people who constantly try to make the sadness go away or try to cheer me up#like sometimes you just gotta sit with your feelings na#at one point she was ranting and i said mere paas kuch kehne ke liye bhi nahi hai kyunki it literally feels like im listening#to my own thoughts on my own lying in bed at 2 am like hum itna same kaise sochte hai😭#and she laughed and was like but ye sahi hai na aise sochna like it feels wrong but it's the truth and im like i don't even#know but oh it's so good to not pretend to be okay#we're so similarly hopeless and tired cause like one point mein inevitably we talked about#the future living together our apartment and then i was like mujhe bhi ye chahiye but mujhe itni umeed uth chuki hai life se#ki koi excitement bhi nahi aa rahi like i already know ye sab kuch nahi hone wala and she's like haina same like i want to say#ki we'll do this and that but im like lol not gonna happen ab i can't look forward to things in the future im like if im living it then ok#then i can accept ki oh ok this is really happening im happy now wow but usse pehle nope#and we were talking about ki like yaar future toh ab dikhta hi nahi hai kya hoga it all feels so blurry and like a dark tunnel#atleast bachpan se we knew what was next school college but now it's like now what?#i know all these thoughts and feelings are pretty common and probably everyone's facing this but bhai.#it's fucking hard i didn't know life was gonna be like a constant battle where it kicks you down#again and again and again and you're bloody and no energy can't get up but you still have to because if you don't you'll sink#soooo deep in that state ki bahar nikal hi nahi paoge#OKAY 8 hrs sleep mandatory for me what the fuck why am i writing a ventpost at freaking 11 am girl go have lunch or something 😭
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ryn-city · 5 months ago
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everything is in turmoil!!
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pokemonruby · 1 year ago
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my therapist telling me that i’m smart, i have immense potential, and that she genuinely believes that i can add something to this world is just… man. stuff you need to hear for real 😭
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aberooski · 11 months ago
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I'm seriously hanging on by a thread right now I might just go drop dead 😭
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theood · 1 year ago
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Getting really tired how every time I mention talking to someone new my mom's like "omg lol! Move in with them! Lol! Have you thought about moving in with them? Lol? Will they take you? Lol. We're so tired of you complaining lol can you just move in with them? Lol!"
Like. Wow! I never fucking thought of that one! Damn mom! Wow!!!! Revolutionary.
It's so fucking annoying because if I COULD actually move out don't you think I would have done it now? Hell. I'd be towns away if I could. Anything to get out of this fucking house. Away from your parents. Away from the constant walking on eggshells I'm doing. Away from feeling like the only way I'll be safe is by ripping myself open until I'm raw and used. But I CAN'T.
And every fucking time like clockwork it's "oh move in with x lol!"
#elias howls#shes so ready to help me until I actually need the help and then it's radio fucking silence. But I have it so good don't i.not paying rent#no push to get anything. no bills. no nothing. mommy and daddy love me dont they. my mom texts me do you think i abandoned you 🥺 i love you#🥺🥺 don't be mad at me we're best friends you and I#and then when I want her there for me as a parent as a friend she doesn't fucking do anything and lets the problem fester#oh but familys so important!#i was never part of this pack. I wasn't the moment I grew teeth.#its so fucking frustrating and its so fucking depressing and I'm tired and all I want is for it to be okay I just want to wake up happy.#How long till someone realizes I'm just not even there.#I'm going to get my license this year I'm positive and thats a step towards being out but even with it what can i fucking do. the economy is#shit. i cant handle two jobs. i can barley handle one job when i have one. Why am i so fucking lazy!!!!! Its my own hole and i just keep di#gging jt deeper when it rains so it's muddy and i slip and its like fucking quicksand. Will I suffocate or drown first? Learned hopelessness#begs to answer. The sun shines brighter after the storm says something else. Well I just want to exist in my house without feeling on edge l#ike w trapped pray animal who's going to turn to cannibalism as a form of soothing myself.#oh but right. what do i have to be stressed about? im making it all up because im jobless and im not really stressed Im not even an adult i#have nothing to worry about! LOL!
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