#i havent been drawing recently so i just wanted to draw something fun!!!!!!!!!!!!

[twipsai]

i just wanna be part of your SYMPHONYYYYYYY

shadow gens bullshit (1), (2), (3), (4), (5),

[deoidesign]

I met the me who made different choices

[sangrenfreude]

i love cj!evelin they're so gender

[autistickfigure]

[evereverest2]

Little Monster Q&A + author fun facts !!

hello new followers and fans of Little Monster. first of all, i just have to thank everyone for the crazy support ive been getting as of late. thank you everyone. every like, comment, and reblog just pushes me to keep writing, even when it feels like every word i write is garbage.

so i decided to make this little special! idk if anyone will be super interested, so ill put all the stuff under the cut, but i also wanted to add this little drawing i did of terzomega as like extra content. if you arent interested, thanks anyway and enjoy the art!

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to everyone who stayed, i have no idea why you’re interested, but thanks lmfao. this shit will be long.

Questions

Is your most recent oneshot about the mirror related at all to Little Monster? (from @ofthemorningstars)

i'm glad you noticed that !! in The Mirror, i very purposefully left two hints at the end of the fic to indicate its connection to Little Monster, which was the taco ring reference and Terzo's use of "mostriciatto". to me, mostriciatto will always be the Little Monster version of terzomega. no matter when i finish that fic or if i write more fics after, i will never again use mostriciatto unless im purposefully writing these versions of terzomega. i havent seen anyone else use it (i hope they dont), so i like to imagine this can be forever my impact on terzomega fics lmao. anyway, the purpose of me leaving those references isnt necessarily to say, "this is a future scene of little monster" bc it isnt exactly that (while i have plans that line up with this oneshot, i cannot anticipate that everything will fit perfectly by the time we get there in the canon). the purpose of doing that was to show u cuties that yes, terzo and omega will eventually have a better relationship, and i will be extending this timeline into papa terzo era. just a fun little teaser for my more observant fans.

also, fun fact about how i came up with that pet name. i was writing the first part of Little Monster (that part is now titled Spilled Wine as featured on my Ao3) and i knew i wanted to give terzo an affinity for using pet names, but i didn't know quite which ones to use. i didn't want to be boring, so i googled some. i have no idea where, but i found mostriciatto, meaning, of course, "little monster." i had yet to even really start writing it, but i knew i wanted it to be DARK with a very unhinged omega, so i thought, perfect. ill talk a bit more about the writing of part one later on

2. How many parts do you currently anticipate writing? Do you have a set ending point, or will this perhaps be an ongoing project for the foreseeable future? (from @ofthemorningstars)

i have 12 major plot points (including the first five parts i have written) that loosely translate into parts. this could mean 12 parts, or it could be more depending on what i write. i kinda plan on expanding this to 18 (6 parts per “era” or “act” [you’ll see what i mean]) though i dont quite have a set ending yet, so really its up in the air. i am, however, planning on having a definitive ending, ergo not an endless project. from there there may be some oneshots in this universe, but they will have an ending.

3. In the first part of little monster you put a disclaimer with something along the lines of "if you're expecting comfort I'm sorry to disappoint". The angst is MWAH but do you like plan on giving Terzo like any sort of comfort or happiness?? (from anon)

before i begin rambling, here's your answer: there will be hope and good times as mentioned above, and you might have even picked up on that in part 5. i may have wrote a fucked up versions of terzomega but whats a good story without character growth?? i havent determined the direction of the ending, but rest assured, if it all burns down, they will hold each other close (for the minute it takes).

but also.... funny story about that disclaimer....

soo i wanted to write ghost fanfic to impress my friend who is a VERY avid member of this community. however, i failed to realize they DO NOT like angst without love and care and fluff, so after i showed it to them, buddy did not like it. i took that as a sign that maybe this shit was a little TOO dark.

but my god, i could not stop thinking about it, as the caption said, and i dont always feel that away about what i write. i had recently started to post semi often to tumblr, and i just thought. well, theres gotta be someone else as fucked up as me, and i posted that shit. that disclaimer was a result of taking my friends reaction seriously and realizing that i needed to make it VERY clear that this fic is NOT for everyone. there was a different og caption that was longer and more grave, but i cut it down for aesthetics bc little monster has already seen more success than i ever anticipated.

4. What is your favorite ghost album, and what song introduced you to ghost? (from anon) & Favorite ghost song (or songs) (from @ask-enso-ghoul)

my favorite album is Infestissumam!!! the vibes of the album are so fucking immaculate, even if terzo is my favorite papa.

of course, of course, the first song i ever heard from ghost was Mary on a Cross. it blew up when it did and i loved it. the second song that really made me start getting into ghsot was square hammer, which will secretly also be my favorite ghost song but ive heard it so many times i have to give it now to the future is a foreign land. some of my other fave songs are jigolo, respite, body and blood, faith, twenties, and year zero (there’s just so many)

i want to take a second to say my least favorite album though, which is opus eponymous, or as i call it, pope pussy. it’s ok. it’s just ok. mk. i’m not a fan of that sound. the best song on there is genesis. I FUCKING SAID IT—

5. how do you get into the zone of writing smut-? I’m trying to get into it but it sounds cheesy when I do, so do you do something specific? (from anon)

im gonna level with you. i have been writing for almost a decade, since i was 12, and the first thing i started writing was smut. sex has always been a HUGE creative force for my writing and art in general. as stupid as it sounds, writing smut to me is more than just that. its my art. its my greatest and most inspirational subject. i love being creative with it, bending it to the niches and intricacies of the duo im writing, just playing with it as a medium of expression, of storytelling, of how DEEP it can be.

that being said, one of the easiest ways to get into the zone of smut specifically is being horny ! you imagine your pairing doing some illicit bedroom activity and you pick them up liek dolls and smush their faces together ! let it be fun, and let it be yours. dont write it to please the kinks of your audience, write it to your own taste and enjoyment.

as far as it being cheesy, yeah, it will feel that way. the most important thing is to be confident with your language and don’t shy away from calling a dick a dick, a pussy a pussy, an ass an ass. it feels stupid, but it will read worse if you make up artsy names for them every other line. don’t be afraid to be descriptive either, because that’s what the people want to see, trust me.

apologies if that was unhelpful, ive just been writing smut so long i can hardly tell you how i do it. im jsut super passionate about it and it fuels me creatively….. can u tell lol

6. Favorite work you’ve ever done? (from anon)

so.... ive written many things and that depends. its definitely not anything ive posted on here.

i think my favorite "serious" work is a short story i wrote for a creative writing class, called Abel and Sally. it was an modern inversion of the bible story of abraham and sarah, with a really dark ending (i love to shit on catholicism)

the other work that comes to mind is the first story i wrote about my oc anson, called Anson's Prison. that is something i would potentially post on here, its pretty short but its a good one. its oc content, tho, so i doubt many ppl would be interested lel.

8. will you draw more drawing for your stories in the future? (from anon)

well. heres my thing with art.

ive been drawing as long as ive been writing. but im not an artist; i never learned ANYTHING beyond like drawing itself, i.e. i dont know how to shade, pick colors, do bgs, etc. (can u tell??? do u see that art up there???? can YOU TELL??) thus, i have a sort of love hate relationship with drawing, and i usually dont like my own stuff. i didnt pick up drawing as easy as i did writing and its not nearly as intuitive to me.

that being said, it is sometimes fun when the drawings turn out just right and i get super passionate about something i draw and i can create the image in my head. so if the mood strikes me, i probably will draw more terzomega stuff in the future.

but why do i need to?? feeds you all SO WELL with little monster stuff you dont need my shitty art lmfao

9. MILK OR CEREAL FIRST? (from anon)

cereal. bc the moment the milk hits that cereal u are on a speedy ass countdown to devour that shit before it gets soggy, and brother, u better eat quick.

Things I wanted to share

Little Monster was supposed to be a one shot

so, Little Monster started as one thing and turned to something else entirely. originally, i wrote the beginning of the first chapter (where they are flirting in the church) in about april of this year. in this version, they were supposed to already be in love, though hiding it, and terzo was not drunk at all, just teasing. i eventually scrapped it because i wasnt very passionate about it and got p bored. then, in july, i had the itch to write something dark, but none of my projects at the time had characters i could really write that with. i came back to that scrapped fic and i thought, damn, i could really fuck these guys up, and i did.

little monster immediately became more successful than i thought it would be, and that was only about 10 notes and a comment in. i was happy to leave it at that, but then, i just started writing part two on a whim. if you look at the og post in the comments, i mention that im writing a "follow up". thats bc even when writing part two, this was not going to be a series !! but then, as i kept writing, part two became so long i had to split it in half, meaning there were suddenly 3. by the time i posted part three, though, i was shocked at the sheer amount of attention i was getting. at the same time, part three ended in such a way that i knew this story needed to keep going, to give these two a resolution. now, little monster will be a full fledged story thanks to all the support ive received :3

2. im an english major

yeah, you got me, im a college student majoring in english creative writing. is it obvious? my penultimate goal is to one day be a published author. it’s crazy surreal to me how much people express to me how they enjoy my writing~~ i hope i can one day make my dream come true 🥰 the unfortunate part about this is i go back to college next week and im uncertain how that will affect my writing schedule :p i’ll stick to weekly uploads for little monster tho dw !!

3. this is the first time i’ve written fanfic in several years

when i first started writing it was frerard and peterick fanfics on wattpad in middle school (huge shoutout to the ones that know lmfao). i stopped writing those before hs and haven’t written fanfic since. i think it’s very funny that i have come full circle back to writing band fanfic, altho ghost ofc is way more intricate with its canon

4. I LOVE YOU GUYS

i know i’ve said it a dozen times already on this post, but god it’s crazy. it’s nuts !! i’ve already made a handful of super sweet mutuals who i appreciate with all my heart, and even if you’re just a lurker, I STILL APPRECIATE YOU. EVERY SINGLE NOTE MAKES ME SO HAPPY. EVERY COMMENT AND RB HAS ME BURSTING WITH JOY.

it is entirely thanks to you all that i write terzomega and ive become so passionate about it. if it weren’t for your support, i would probably still be writing my silly little stories that no one but me could possibly understand, rotting away and wondering if anyone would even like my writing. terzo and omega are such a unique pairing compared to what ive written before, and writing them is a really cool feeling. i truly love it, and i hope i can continue to feed this side of the fandom for a long time.

from the bottom of my heart and with all my writing soul, thank you. i want to keep writing for u guys, and i want to satiate ur dirty terzomega fantasies >:) this is such a sweet and inclusive fandom and im glad i’ve been welcomed in so quickly. i hope i can continue to grow my talent here :3

ok that’s it bye teehee

[sillysymbol]

who's your favorite criminal clownery character to draw? favorite to write/think about? favorite dynamic? and can i get a fun fact or something you havent shared yet about them :]

YES YESSS SICKOS HAHA YESSS

my favs to draw are pirplexa and shirley for some reason. pirplexa because she's like a weird son to me (i'm very attached to her! shes like my favorite oc ever! i went off when i designed her!) + shirley because ever since i changed her hair style shes been a lot easier+more fun to draw. i think also carni i love drawing her w different hair styles and clothing.

my favorites to write for are pirplexa/carni/prince. that makes sense cuz theyre like. the Main protagonists+villain, but its really fun to explore their different personalities/backstories. Dude writing backstories especially for pirplexa and prince is so fun for me. also recently writing xio has been really fun n interesting to me. in general i think its fun to explore Why A Character is like That, why do they behave like that!

i got a lot of dynamics i like exploring but my favs are carni/pirplexa, carni/trill, prince/shirley, prince/xio and babs/miles. for carni dynamics its fun because she's one of the more happy/chipper characters, contrasted with pirplexa being more cold/untrusting and trill being more calm and collected. i plan for carni and trill to really dislike eachother at first, but eventually start to understand and fall for eachother <3 while with carni and pirplexa its more about pirplexa learning to trust and make friends again.

prince and shirley are siblings with extremely different world views and thought processes, they really dislike eachother. they grew up in the same enviroment yet reacted to it completely differently.

prince and xio is fun to me, ive been trying to give xio more of involved in the story+cast&crew while prince just thinks of her as his cute secretary. he sucks real bad! she doesnt like him she barely tolerates the others but he pays her to kill people so shes like whatever i can deal with this. and then she finds out he wants a consensual workplace relationship and shes like YAY HOW CAN I MANIPULATE THIS MAN!!!!!!!!!!!

babs/miles are dating at the beginning of cc, but their relationship gets a bit complicated due to babs being a little crazy about him and miles struggling with his sense of masculinity, its really not a relationship thats meant to last for long, its a bit tragic. (also why they are in love by david byrne is in both of their playlists LOL)

a few fun facts:

i dont think ive shared here is that prince and shirleys parents were movie stars! they met on the set of a film and had multiple movies with eachother. prince and shirley both had an odd childhood under a lot of surveillance from the public, plus their parents weren't very great parents. they both react to their trauma very differently, prince being "grateful" for it, giving him media training and feeling like his parents crafted him (even when he knows his parents didn't have much faith in him and bet a lot on shirley), while shirley absolutely despises the rest of her family. of course she'll go to the annual family dinner with prince, but that doesnt mean that she won't loathe every second of it.

pirplexa is a dog person! he loves dogs! he doesn't own one because he doesnt think hes in the right headspace to have one yet, but he will pet every random dog on the street. i like to think a few years after the events of cc when he's mentally better, he does adopt a dog.

miles and shirley don't get along very well, shirleys kinda like a bully older sister, she puts him in headlocks and stuff.

if you get the color symbolism (heh) in cc i will give you a badge. idk

shirley likes to write, babs likes to sing, miles likes to draw and design.

trill originally got a degree in botany, but realized she wanted to pursue comedy/acting instead. she can still correctly identify plants!!! yay!!!

[byjovewhataspend]

Are you willing to share crumbs about your Oc, GameShark? They just seem so interesting and I love the design for them!

oh sure!! ive been drawing him a few month and his design changed quickly, be warned

this was his initial sheet, when i was still drawing him more humanoid.

His quirk-- Tech Control

As long as hes touched something electrical in the last WEEK he can control it from a distance of about 2 blocks, but can sense where it is from much further.

The rules about what the specifics of 'control' is is pretty loosey goosey, but picture 'changing a radio station' or 'making a car turn around and drive to you when you try to flee the scene'. He can also touch an electric lock and make it open, or make your phone unlock and call him on speakerphone.

He picked his name because as a middle schooler he was just tearing UP the game arcades. It was just for fun but he got in trouble with a local hero that scolded him and told him to use his quirk for heroics instead.

Present Mic was still fairly new to the hero circuit and for whatever reason, Game Shark adored him! Present Mic had recently begun to teach at UA but Game Shark couldnt get in, sadly. He ended up in Seiai Academy instead, which is a little more lenient when it comes to non-combat focused quirks.

when he graduated he approached Present Mics agency already knowing how to run most everything radio related and offered himself as an all-around personal-assistant/sidekick/radio technician. Present Mic really didnt NEED him, so he he doesnt make anything easy on him

Hes a hard worker and really good at his job! he has proved his use and Present Mic adores him now, but he still causes trouble for fun.

Though he occasionally goes out with him on patrols or for larger-scale infiltrations, the sidekick aspect of Game Sharks job is MOSTLY to work from the base and communicate to him through an earpiece. A trick they have set up is for present mic to place an item that Game Shark controls and allow a villain to escape a densely populated area, then using his senses to direct Present Mic to them. This is also the most common reason Game Shark is called in to help other agencies without Mics inclusion.

Aesthetically, he wears those ear cuffs to protect from Present Mics voice, and is usually wearing red goggles or sunglasses to help with his own light sensitivity.

Finally: Present Mic fully believes he could be his own hero and is expecting him to quit sometime soon to start his own agency and is waiting for that moment, but he doesnt realize that Game Shark is actually considering quitting hero work entirely. Big Plotline i havent decided if i want to write or draw.

[bisquuet]

hi! still alive! AN UPDATE: LONG READ :D no new devlin content since im focusing on my oc comic :( ( speaking of comics. remember that other comic i posted here like once and never talked about it again?? yeah.. ) - lets talk about that. will i ever go back to that comic? -yes, when? i don't know.. i realized i went into the comic very.. unprepared.. or less prepared than i thought i was. so it got me second guessing things and getting confused..!! i have a VAGUE idea of how I want it to go, or atleast i DID, now im not so sure.. I think i need to sit down, splurge out my thoughts and ideas and go from there,, now i technically have a WHOLE post that is done that was supposed to be dropped shortly after the first one. but i thought to myself, oh ill just work on the next update and once im halfway THEN ill drop the second one! i never got halfway. i ended up just sketching more up ahead and adjusting and ''fixing'' things in the second update. making me loose track of time and getting behind, not only i had school to deal with too! so i just have a LOT of storyboarding of pages...that im slighlty afraid of looking at cuz i know that ill want to fix it but ill be unmotivated to actually fix it.. (bad rawr!!) eventually i have to get to it..!! >< ANOTHER major factor of the delay was my confidence, i wasn't satisifed and even frustrated at times when something didnt come out as good as it did in my head. i REALLY like the first update pages! especially devlins scene! but i think i got too ahead of myself and put WAY too much onto my plate, raising expections, of others and myself, mostly myself.... and I was trying to copy to a manga style, rather than convert my style normally into a manga setting, if that makes any sense. so i wasnt.... 'comfortable' drawing.. i dont know how else to describe it! but ever since then and even before, ive been getting less confident with my art and my style, feeling like its ugly or its getting worse. forcing myself to keep drawing, straining myself trying to make something that looks good to me. i have lots of fun and joy drawing for others, the reason i draw is BECUZ i just want to share what i make! as shallow as it sounds i like creating content for others to enjoy! it makes me happy and proud of what i draw! so. when i make something i dont like, i cant bring myself to show it cuz I dont like it.. others may, but that wouldnt change how i would feel about it. i felt that way deeply with the second update, which is why i kept tweaking it,,, and so I just let myself get caught up with other things.. feeling upset and guilty that I kinda just.. abandonded the comic..! saying that ill pracitce and oh ill do that , i Need to do this and this and this when i havent even done ANYTHING! i think, and i genuinely mean this, i think ive only recently started to ACTUALLY do things.! like development for my OC comic, writing for it, making content and sharing about them to whoever would lend an ear! so in a way the seewar comic walked so that my OC comic could run, hopefully.. so, unfortunately ill be focsuing more of my attention on my OC comic, and i honestly can't promise anything. the only thing i CAN say is that i will share the second update that i finished long ago.., no matter how much internal rawr doesnt want to, i feel like thats the first step to overcoming this fear and dread ive associate with the comic, which is something i DONT want. ill be scheudling to drop this weekend since ill be away.. i dont know when ill actively start working on the seewar comic again becuz i genuinely want to finish it and share it, i just have to not be too ambitious and plan out whats necessary. anyways.. now that school is out im finally paying all of my debts and owed art.. its rough but it has to be done. thanks if you have read all of this,, i greatly appreacite the support, from friends and followers, fossils, (thats what my fans are called wink wink) love yall fr <3

[psychhound]

for the tarot rpg ask game! The Fool, The Empress, The Hierophant, The Chariot, The Hanged Man, The Devil, The Tower, The Star, The Sun

The Fool – What do the earliest stages of work on a game look like for you? OR How did you get into game design?

i had a dream that me and @hmooncreates were playing not a tabloid because i had made it for him and when i woke up i still remembered everything about the game so i just actually made it :) and then was like bet that was fun and made like 8 more games in the next month

The Empress — Where do your ideas come from? OR Do you seek out or avoid inspiration while working on an idea?

i usually start with a mechanic that i think could be cool and then build a game around it. for mama werewolf i wanted it to be very nature-based, so your move tokens are found in nature and the scenes are determined by the weather. for lullaby nights i wanted a game that could be played entirely with a music app, no dice or cards needed. for dead man's hand i wanted something where a full hand of cards had an influence on the story, not just drawing them individually. and then i just go from there!! often i try to hit on mechanics i havent used in my other games, i dont like to repeat myself too much!!

The Hierophant — answered!

The Chariot — answered!

The Hanged Man — What other creative pursuits do you have? OR What current trends in game design are you most interested in?

i've written three books, have published some poetry zines on itch, worked as a graphic designer for a few years, have been drawing since i was very little, hand sew stuffed animals, and dabble in embroidery :) i like being creative

The Devil — What motifs or mechanics do you just keep coming back to? OR What is a game you’ve enjoyed playing in the last year?

@mintandrabbits has been GMing a game of apocalypse keys that ive been having so much fun with :)) im really enjoying the system so far and i do think i'll have to do a deep dive into the rulebook to really study how it works. def the kind of game i could see building into my thesis

The Tower — Talk about about a game you tried to make that crashed and burned.

i really tried strong arming my way through a game that i just kept losing steam on and finally put away but ... it was a duet game where you play domovoy and/or kikimora (slavic house spirits) and the family whos house you live in has left the baby at home alone. you have to keep the baby happy until the family comes back, or, if they dont, kidnap the baby to be raised with the spirits. i do enjoy the idea i just couldnt get my feet under me with it

The Star — answered!

The Sun — Talk about a game you’ve made that you’re proud of.

i'll answer this one again hehe. i'm really happy with the narrator paradox!! its a game where you are a storybook narrator and your protagonist is trying to defy you and escape the story. i think it turned out surprisingly cohesive for a one page game!! i've been very interested in one pagers recently, i think theyre fun :o)

[bunnyboy-juice]

hitting u with the 2-for-1

colors - yellow, ruby, pink?, green, jade

soft asks - 1, 14, 21, 25, 30 !!

hehehehe it was really fun answering these :3c

1) What song makes you feel better?

oh ummmmm hm. if im feeling insecure recently its Pacer by Doechii or IT GIRL by Aliyah's Interlude, if im feeling like Sad and i need to cry but i cant its Into the Ocean by Blue October, if i need full distractions though from my sadness i throw the B52s on (usually my "dont kill my vibe" playlist thats like70s-00s pop & disco & related songs vibes; i really cant pick one song from this playlist or even the B52s bc im such a "put the song on and let whatever happens happen" type of person - OH AND AS I WAS WRITING THIS I REALIZED since its come out ive started listening to Alligator Bites Never Heal (Doechii) in order all the way thru 0 interruptions and that album gives me all the spectrum of emotions and even a good cry sometimes depending on the headspace I'm in

14) Whats something upcoming that you’re excited for?

BIRTHDAYS (my wife's is coming up in a week, mine's in exactly 1 month :3c)

21) Tea, Coffee, or hot cocoa?

this is so hard. . . . . . tea i think tho b/c i love coffee but its hard for me to finish more than 1 cup a day (and sometimes i cant even do that) but i loooooove tea and can have it More often than coffee (hot take: fruity tea lemonades taste better than Most juices)

25) If your soul was a color, what would it be? 

oh! ive actually been told by a lot of ppl it's orange or yellow (specifically warm yellows like sunshine and sunflowers) and i trust everyone's judgement considering how Consistent its been so (:

30) What do your hobbies look like?

LMAO okay so majority of my hobbies can be described as "arts and crafts" and "very hands on". i love crocheting (im making a baby blanket rn!), i enjoy embroidery (havent made anything major in a while but i think ive got photos if anyone wants to see c:), im not Great at it but i love painting/drawing, im a beginner at machine sewing (ive been handsewing since HS), i like playing with air dry clay a LOT!!! uhhhhhhhh i dunno what other hobbies exist rn but tbh i just love learning to do new things c:

Yellow - every time i see you on my dash you're always so happy and it's so lovely! ( 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 )

Ruby - you are such a gem, you deserve so much better <3 ( 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 )

Pink - biting you biting you biting you biting you licking you biting you biting you (🥺 BITING U BACK 🥺)

Green - wanna go touch grass with me? (yes i love grass, I'll make u a flower & grass crown too)

Jade - honestly you have some of the best takes on this hellsite. (🥺🥺🥺😭 u are so niceys to me)

[hopefully-nightly-doodles]

I used to draw such good dynamic poses when I was younger what happed to me 😭😭😭 all of these are from 2021 done in a short time with no refs- Like how did I do that aslkdna I mean I still dont use refs often unless Im doing studies or struggling but like I feel like I've lost that confidence man- the closest I've had recently to havin a really nice dynamic pose was that young Leo art I colored, and the thumbs I had for that

Which was this, and I still adore it but I picked the other pose cuz it showed off her new design better. But like back on topic I think the reason for this dip quality I think is because back then I just drew whatever the fuck I wanted- There was no pressure in my head that it had to look cool, so it just made me more confident and made me draw more often. but since gaining a followin and learning more about the fundamentals its kinda tied me down to thinking that I have to always be producing at a certain level of quality- Like dont get me wrong, all artist go through a "dip" in their art when their "artist eye" improves faster than their skill. And not all of my art from 2021 were this good, I def had to pick from the pile of chicken scratches I had. But I feel like dynamic poses like those happened more often back then compared to now. Like I made this account specifically to like get out of my head and post all my scribbles and learn to stop carin so much about the quality of everything I put out. And I do post almost every silly lil thing I put down onto here and it does help but it just doesnt change the fact I havent been drawin much at all :'] Hence the infrequent updates. I feel like thats something a lot of older artist struggle in over coming. Like the mentality of "you've been doin this shit for so long why aren't you improving as much as you think you should be at this point?" snakes into our heads more often than the younger artist. Because they just want to draw everyday cuz its fun, so they just draw draw draw without caring. Learnin the fundamentals of art is always good, I do recommend learning them if you want significant improvements in your skills, but learning them means youre going to make a lot of ugly art. And seeing those "ugly arts" slowly chips away at you sometimes, and a lot of artist drop art when facing that hurdle. But like its okay to make ugly ass lookin art- Its part of the process and you can not skip it!! You cant just not draw for a month cuz you got super sad for making something that isn't 100% like the image you had in your head, then pick up your pen again and think that somehow NOW you can do it even tho you havent draw anythin at all- Consumin art and improving the visual library in your head is of course important, but you cant just keep expanding your Pinterest boards assuming it will make you better.

What are we? AI?

HAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

Ahem- Anyway am I calling myself out on this post? Absolutely! Infact that was the whole reason I made this in the first place. But Im now also calling YOU out :D Yes you! The person that stumbled on this post and relates to it!! Pick up a pencil and draw damn it!!! It wont be "ugly" forever I promise.

[mookiexoxox]

Where do i begin with this ?

Well ... ehmm... yea... fuck... why? NO! how do other make it seem so easy ??? xD

(I am overthinking... ignore that)

Hi ! I am mookie :3 and I love to draw and recently i started posting mpreg drawings ^^

My mind is kindaaaaa.... well... i am undecided on a few things... like my main accs is just me posting drawings/images... and I want to make just text posts too but I dont think they would fit in with the main posts. Does that make sense ? hope it does...

Anyway xD

I am starting a new blog acc to post about some things i wanna talk about like:

- What am i working on ?

- Whats on my mind ?

- Updates on a few things

-Story ideas

-Venting

- Random ass shit :3

- bla bla bla ... bla bla bla bla

If this is something that you would like to read :D

You are welcome to follow my fall into madness :D

Ehe :D

Hehe :D

1st update !!!

The last few days i have been feeling kinda weak/sickly and RN i feel sick af and I dont think I can finish the commission I took without making the people who commissioned me wait like a long time.

A few weeks ago when the commissions first started i made 3 people wait like a week or longer to finish the art :( and i dont want that to happen again...

i really try to keep the wait for commissions 1-3 days long...

I kinda want someone to tell me that its ok ? That I dont have to finish everything in the time i have given myself... but on the other hand i dont want to dissapoint the people who are waiting for them ...

How long is the waiting time for commissions anyway ? Whats the standard ? Am i failing ? Should I just never ever take commission again ?! Holy fucking shit I AHVE TO BE THE WORST PERSON TO COMMISSION EVER

sorry overthinking again

Should I just finish the commissions and not take any new ones ?

Anyway ... moving on

2nd update

Before I got sick I was doing some research on hkw to make games... more specific dating sim games ;3

I hope you know where I am going with this hehe

I plan to make a dating sim using my ocs where you can go on dates with them and well... get them pregnant in the good ending x3 having a happy family and all that hehe

A friend of mine suggested that the boys are pregnant from the start and honestly i like the idea. And from the story of the ocs i can make that xD ( sometimes I forget i havent shared all my ocs stories with anyone and that the last part doesnt make any sense to anyone rn but ok... i will work on that :D)

Would anykne be interested in a dating sim ? Tell me pls xD

1st vent !!!

I took on a what I would like to call huge number of commissions... and I wont lie It was a pleasure and very fun working on most of them !!! I meet so many nice people, saw soo many cute/pretty ocs, got introduced to a bunch of games and shows i didnt watch or hehe had on my to watch list x3 i never expected for the commissions to go so well !

But mookie, why is this a vent then ?

You see i had to work with some people who... yea... i am glad some people asked me to keep the art private ...

The people were pleasent all good... but after I delivered the art they turned straight up into horny ass bitches sharing all the stuff they would do to their oc or the characters... like wtf man ??? I didnt have to know all that shit !? Eww ... eww... and to whoever is reading this... (if anyone even reads this) I am not someone who wants to kink shame or is in any position to do so... but like COME ON !!! Did I really have to read all that stuff ? Eww... like ... EWW ...

Just like... keep it to yourself next time ? ...

Bc of people like that I really started overthinking each commission I took and I feel like I fell into making some kind of kink/fetish art... like

A few people asked me if I can draw xy being pregnant and stuffing themself with cake or some other food ... is that like feeders ? Did the person who commissioned me even want them to be pregnant or like chubby ? Getting bigger ...???

There were some other things too but thinking of it as i am writing this it would be best to keep it with this example just cuz ... i feel uncomfortable with some of the other stuff...

Maybe more on that later?

MY FUCKING GOD I THINK I NEED TO WASH MY EYES OR MY MIND

I THINK I AM GETTING SICKER RN EW EW EW EW EW EW EW anyway

2nd vent !!!

I respect my commissioners privacy and wishes...

So far i didnt tag anyone in the commission made for them or even mentioned anything about them... i never ever posted someones public or private oc, if the commissioner had any specific wishes i followed them and (almost) all fixes that were asked for were made... but there is one thing... one thing i am slightly mad about XD

When someone commissions me for a character i already planed to draw and tells me not to post it... like maaaan its not your oc xD pls let me post it xD i am too lazy to make another drawing of the character xD LET ME POST IT XD

Or or xD when someone shows me a character from a game and they are pretty af and I soo badly want to draw them, i put my heart and soul into it and send it to the commissioner and they say "oh thank you !!" And I am like "np uwu, can I post it ?" and they are like "ohhh... can we keep this one between us ?" Like bitch why are you gatekeeping xD let me post it so other people can see the pretty character and pretty draing too !!! I cant make a better version xD and if I try to copy the delivered drawing it looks shitty xD

How can people gatekeep like that ? úwù

And like when I pour all my soul into it its just like... I want to post it so potential new commissioners can see what I can do xD

You are leaving me with nothing to post xD

Big thank you to everyone who said i can post their commission <3

Love you all xD

3rd vent + pls tell me if I am not in the right i feel like I am going crazy

Soooo about the kink/fetish commissions...

There was this one person... who... commissioned me for a drawing of them getting impregnated by their oc.

Honestly. I see nothing wrong with it ... but yea...

After delivering the first drawing ...

They asked me if I could draw the oc in a furry suit or straight up in their animal form.. and them as a human-animal hybrid ...

Are you taking a moment to let that sink in just like I did ? ...

Anyway i told them I wont do it bc like that something that I cant and wont do

They asked why ?

Am I creazy ? What did they mean why ? In the thing I made for commissions I say I wont do any zoophilia thing D:

I told them that I am bad at drawing furrys and that this goes agains my rules

They got offended and started saying that I am homophobic

I explained to them that I wont draw animals and humas having it...

And they said that its not an animal and a human since they identifie as a wolf and some other animal hybrid and they i should make the drawing since its their oc and the oc is conesnting to the deed ...

Pls take a moment to let that sink in ... i need it too

Anyway...

I tried to explain in the nices and most reasonable way i know that I dont give a fuck that its their oc or that they identifie as a mix of animals... they its agains the rules and that even if I was comfortable drawing that I am unable to since my furry drawing skills are shit.

I got blocked...

Maybe thats for the best ?

Like what was that even ??

Am I in the wrong for not wanting to draw that ?

Everyone else who i denied didnt make such a big deal out of it...

Next time someone comes with such a request I will just ask them to sighn a document where they agree to pay me 10.000,00€ for the drawing and there will be no more than 1 fix and no refunds xD

Am i selling my morals rn ? Hmm ... am j selling them for too little ? Hmm... anyway tell me what you think

4th vent (warning gets a bit dark)

This week was sooo bad D:

1. I had another fight with my sis (that was resolved, we are cool again)

2. On my work place they changed xy in the system and now I need to get used to the new stuff... like some of it is good but the most important thing of all is all wrong now D: like on my job there are a few different tasks and now my favorite taks is my least favorite task bc of the new system... i want to do the taks where I dont have to use the new system things but nooo mookie ... that task is not the main task... you need cant do the side task if the main task isnt done !!! D,:

3. Demons from my past are comjng back... like a few years ago ... life felt really shitty ... like really shitty ... shitty to the point where on new years i wanted to go jump off a bridge kind of shitty... and before I went to do it i talked to almost every friend i had... cant go without a goodbye, right ? And after sending almost everyone a huge text, expainjng my situation, how i felt, how they made me felt, how i wish for them not to miss me ... bla bla bla (everyone got their personal text) i unfriended them so they dont try and talk me out of it (they would do that, maybe not all of them but yea xD) as you can see i am still alive :D something made me turn back that night (sometimes I feel regrets about turning around but thats a can we dont want to open hehe i am glad j am the poin where I can joke about jt xD) why am I telling you this ? Well a girl i wasnt that close to sended me a discord friendship request ... since I wasnt that close with her i only told her that j will erase my self from the world and asked her if i should delete and throw away all my things (so my friends and family dont have to look at my things when I am gone) and she was online when I sended it and said to not do it, that I should seek therapy ... i dont know jf she sended anything else after that as I unfriended her ^^' (we werent jn any servers together anymore too) yea... a few days after the failed erasing i added most of my friends back ... really had to think through who I would still like to be in contact with ... and that girl wasnt on my list... for a few reasons... but mostly bc we werent that close of friends in the first place... if I can be honest ... a mutual ex friend of mine and hers is one of the reasons why i wanted to.... yeaaa everytime i see the pic of her pfp i get reminded of that person... and I want to punch a wall and hang my self :D so I dont know what to do ... should I accept her friend request to see what she wants from me ? Should I just block her ? Should I add the person who is making me want to off myself so I can settle some things with them ?

4. I never ever thought someone would show interest in me since i am insert bad image of my self (i am not gonna write that xD) and since some people thin of me as insert other peoples bad opinions od me (i am not writing that xD thats a trauma dump xD) and for the longest time i was soo comfortable with the idea of being forever single and potentialy starting a cult (i am joking or not) but then a few people started showing interest in me and i felt so uncomfortable, but at least it was an easy rejection... or better said it was easy to avoid the people after I rejected them since some of them didnt take it that well... but now there is someone showing jnterest again... and its not that easy to avoid them since they have my number :D and they text me :D and they trauma dump on me :D its taking a tool on my mental health :D especially when they said "j ended up in the hospital after my gf broke up with me a few years ago and I am aftraid i will die alone" I told them that I wish to be friends as I do not seek romantic relationships :D i am waiting for a respond :D omg what if they didnt text me bc they killed themself ? :D they texted me like we were already married :D i never showed sighns of interest :D the guy isnt a bad person but the random unwanted/uncalled trauma dumping and the giving me advice when no advice was asked for and traditional views and the red flag hobbys are making me questioning if j even want to be friends with them anymore :D also a friend of mine was erased and I was going through some bad shit and needed space from everyone and that man called me like 10 times and got his mom to call and text me 200 times too :D i didnt pick up any of the calls :D i dont know what I should do with this :D should I ghost him or would that be cruel :D how to get rid of an emotionaly unstable person :D help :D

Once upon a time i did a sexuality test bc like isnt it weird that I have no romantic interest in anyone ? And it said I am asexual or pansexual and well I dont really see a conection with these two... what am I ? Is there something inbetween them ?

Anyway I am stressing about that guy thjs week ... like ... is he ok ? Should I call his mom to chek if I killed someone ?

5. I feelt sick all week and now its hitting me hard... fuck my lungs, fuck astma

6. I didnt manage to finish everything i wanted to do this week ... other than the commissions I failed to go work out, write some stuff and well do everything in a game I play :(

7. I managed to embarrass my self twice in a store

Yea ... there were some work related things too but I cant talk about them as its work and customer privacy things that made my week shitty... it can be worse... but yea... lets see what will happen next week xD

1st idea

Ok. So I really need help on this idea xD

I want to share posts with the story of my ocs !!

My idea is to post it in form of text and drawings ... would anyone be interested in that ? Or should I just write it ? Or should I make like short comics ? Or should I get back to animating and make it an animated thing ? Its been soo long since I animated ... and animation takes a long ass time... bad 3fps animations it is xD

Only if anime would be interested ifc :3

Whats the best way to share a story :3 ?

2nd idea

I would like to open a server on discord :3 but I have no idea how to manage one :'3

3rd idea

I have a ytc and I was thinking of maybe streaming, having a chat with you ;3 👉👈

4th idea

I am thinking of making one of these send me your ocs and then I draw them pregnant things :3 or instead of making commisions I post like a template and then people send me their oc to use for draw them in the template 👉👈

5th idea

I would like to make art colabs with people but I am to shy and I dont even know who to ask... if you are reading this and would like to colab ... lets do it ? 👉👈

Ok... that would be all for this post...

6th idea

Since I have a following... can I give you guys a name ? Pookies or lil munchkins ? Other names ? Too early ?

Pray for me as I am unable to sleep... i feel like if I fall asleep i will die ... god is really testing my will to live here xD jk jk I want to rest hopefully I will just pass out and wake up 15h later feeling better xD

Also sorry for any spelling mistakes or bad Word choice I cant care about it rn and I felt like I needed to get some things off my chest :P

[kiwibirdlafayette]

wherever I go, there you are.

a little syndisparklez freewrite oneshot, takes place in the earlier half of Isles/where I've watched up to and a follows this drawing

enjoy :] Havent written fic in a while, but i needed a change of pace from arting for a little

(edited 11/17/24 for fun)

“I just want you to be happy.”

The waves lapped up against the shore of the lighthouse atop Tom’s island, a soft and steady rhythm alike to the delicate tap of drumsticks against cymbals. Contrary to what they had thought would happen, the god’s arrivals had brought with them an almost uncharacteristic silence about the land- the kind of one that might force people to face truths and emotions that had long been left unaddressed since they had arrived on the island.

Tom looked up to the soft oranges, pinks and blues of the setting sun, running his hand through his dark amber blonde hair. He had burnt it to that color from its typical blue before coming into the past- a practice reminiscent of the way it had been when Dianite was around and would use it as a cruel indication of the power he held over him, or perhaps a punishment meant to remind him of a state which he had not been in since he was human.

A state where, according to all he had known until recently, he had not been anyone.

Tom bit his lip. “What do you mean by that?"

Tom turned to the man sitting up on the rock beside the staircase he sat on. He stared out to sea with tired and worn dull purple eyes he had gotten lost in more times than he could count, running a hand through scraggly black hair that always felt soft between his fingertips, wearing a velvet red coat no longer imbued with its blood magic sigils that he loved to run his hands across to feel its power, to pull off and-

Tom stopped himself. It was all too easy sometimes.

Jordan sighed, turning his gaze down to the weathered stone. “I want you to be happy with where you are I mean, its pretty simple. There’s not much else to it."

Happiness.

The last day they spoke before Tom had left back to Astrakheins, for them to take a break from each other, Tom had said he wasn’t happy where he was. And Jordan had agreed.

And so he was certain they left all they had behind.

After falling through the void, they had, to Tom’s initial surmise, landed back in their first realm. A familiar place, carrying a nostalgia that both welcomed you with open arms, but exposed scars of battles fought long ago.

Back to the first place he had called home post-revival, back to the land of finding his friendships, back to the world where had left behind the corpse of the god that had saved him in the first place.

To Jordan it was home, but to Tom it was just a cruel reminder of what had been. His heart was his home, he carried that with him. He had tried so long to be the Dianite the realm needed him to be. But he knew it wasn’t where he belonged. It wasn't a place he could settle down for good

And maybe it just wasn’t the right time.

Tom fiddled with the epaulets on his shoulders. “But I am.. Now! Like, I get to hang with you and Kyle, and sure the Dianite here’s not perfect, but-”

Jordan scoffed watching Tom count off things on his fingers. "C’mon man, you and I both know that's not what I’m talking about.”

“It’s not?”

For the first time in this particular conversation, Jordan looked up and stared Tom down dead in the eyes. While the outward expression spoke of an irritation over him not getting what he was trying to imply, there was a violent yearning behind it, something so familiar of what Jordan had always been like towards him. Possessing a kind of reaching, grasping for any semblance of the connection he was seeking ever since he had come to the island. Yet at the same time, still avoiding closeness the best he could, hiding his truest desire behind a state of pretending to be absolutely annoyed and perturbed by the zombie’s presence.

And Tom used to have believed that they through for good until he had come to recognize that, even way before Jordan had come over to his house in the dead of night to confess in a sleep deprived stupor that he had missing Tom all this time. That he was tired of dancing around what had been, and what he so desperately wants back, but feels like can’t because it isn’t what Tom wants.

Selfish, was the word he had used. Him wanting to be with, to have Tom, was selfish of him.

Unfortunately, Tom hadn’t gotten a chance to clarify himself. Maybe now was meant to be his chance.

He watched Jordan continue to fidget with the collar of his shirt, and run his hand around his neck, just like he had the first time Capsize had suggested they had a thing for each other. Nothing like a habit you can’t quit, clearly.

Jordan’s nervousness came through in the strained tone of his voice as he spoke undeniably what it was he was again dancing around this whole time. “I want you to be happy.. with me, ok? It’s like I've said before, it’s selfish because I don’t know if you can be.”

“Jordan-” Tom stood, climbing up the side of the rock to put himself right next to Jordan, who swung his legs around as if he was ready to jump off the weathered stones that made up the base of the lighthouse, and run away from an answer he might not like.

Tom wouldn’t let him. He reached out to grab the captain’s hand, who swatted it away.

“You deserve someone who can make you feel unconditionally loved, Tom.” He curled his hand into a loose fist. “Especially after all you’ve.. maybe we've been through and.. I don’t know if I can be that for you anymore."

If Tom hadn’t known any better he’d think Jordan had found someone else and this was his last attempt at making their temporary separation a permanent one. But the desperation in his voice was so strong to Tom it was almost like he was waiting for him to just kiss him again right then and there.

Jordan paused to look at Tom before turning his back to him. “I know there’s so much more out there for you, but I don’t want to accept it, or heck, even think about it.” His voice becomes more strained as he looks back over his shoulder. “I want to keep fighting for you, to be the light that brings you to a place that makes you, safe, and feel like you’re home.”

Tom watched as Jordan’s gaze rose past him to take in the sight of the completed lighthouse to the light at the precipice, the part he had owned after Tom had begged him to build it for him.

He had the light, Tom had the house.

Much to Tom’s surprise, when he tried to reach for Jordan, this time he didn’t lean away. He let the zombie rest his hand softly on his shoulder, almost leaning into the touch.

Jordan shifted himself back around to face Tom more, and spoke under his breath as if he was scared of what he had wanted to admit. “Thing is, I so desperately wish I still was. I know I’ve changed and so have you, but-,” His hand floated up from his neck to his other shoulder to gently take Tom’s hand. “I don’t want to just leave what we had all behind because of that… like hell, you mean more to me than you’ll ever know. And I don’t know if you’ll ever get it.”

“No man, I don’t think you get it.” Tom floated their hands down and squeezed it gently as it hovered in the space between them just above the rock. No matter how many times it had fallen apart or tore at the seams they always seemed to fit perfectly together. Aside from the soft song of the sea breeze, and the mechanical clink of the rotating light of the house coming to life in the fading sun as evening arrived, there was a silence that if the gods had listened closely, they could hear perhaps a reawakened spark, a newfound life in the forces of chaos and balance within their champions that had been long since ignored.

“Y’know if you weren’t always so damn dramatic, and just given me the chance to yknow, answer you that night I could’ve fucking told you.” Tom met Jordan’s eyes with a soft smile. “There’s nothing else I need to feel loved or whatever."

He drifts closer to Jordan, who allows the closeness in with an openess he hasn’t seen from the captain in a while. “I get we’ve changed, but here’s the thing. I’ve done a lot of thinking right?”

He feels his voice start to falter slightly when Jordan raises a doubtful eyebrow, yet doesn’t entirely cut him off. His eyes meet Tom’s again, but this time, the sharp of annoyance has all but fallen into the sea below them, replaced with a sense of reassurance, and an invitation to go on. Tom sighs. “And while I was gone I realized something.”

He began tracing cautious circles on the back of Jordan’s hand with his fingers. “There’s no one else who gets me like you do. Makes me laugh, makes me feel at home.” With his other hand, he reaches up to brush a lock of hair behind Jordan’s ear as he watches him blush a deep red. “Who I care about more than man I think you could ever know.”

“Awe dude-“ Jordan chuckles, Tom reveling in the sweetness that overwhelms his face.

It was a rare vulnerability, and for the first time in a while, Jordan doesn’t try to fight it.

Tom cups Jordan’s face in his hand, and he feels the captain sink into the touch. “I mean this in all seriousness when I say this. You want me to be happy, and I am.” He feels his own face begin to warm up as well. “And as long as you stay with me, I’m sure I’ll keep feeling that way.”

“Because I’m the happiest here with you.”

[elegyofthemoon]

im posting this before i forget and also sorta leave for the night cuz i gotta sleep a little early

�� Posted stuff today ☺️

• I decided to do a bit of the writing tag game on my other account and it is WILD to see just how much i wrote the past few months??? im kinda proud tbh. I may be a little discouraged from posting these days but it's honestly really nice to see myself posting as much as I do - and esp to see how much ive written during all this time. this is aside from all the logs i do bc thatd just add further to my word count, but hdhfjdjd really despite the horrors, i'll always have writing. or well, writing's just been such a huge part of my life that if i cannot write then I'm not myself anymore. njdjrjd and my friend nick has mentioned this too that i dont seem like myself if i dont have a wip and all that jfjdndd

• i hate to say the rafayel birthday event made me embarrassingly happy but it really did 🙈

• speedwriting a fic. much shorter than something i wrote earlier but like !! idk i havent felt that surge of inspiration that was fun lmao wish that happened more often

• getting another message from a job i applied to that might be interested in hiring me. the positive is this ones a little more interesting than the one i did a recent interview with but same general position. still very 👀

• my friend finished london holiday and might start second key real soon and im so fucking sorry to him about the person i'l turn into when he starts liveblogging at me about it BUT ALSO im actually really happy and excited about it .3.

• OH FOUND OUT THAT MY SISTER WILL BE HOME EVEN FOR THE LITTLE BIT WHEN I GET BACK!! i thought i'd miss n entirely when she's back which made me sad but she'll be there for at least a day when she's back so !! i will beat my jet lag to hang out with her if i have to >:(

• n sending me something that reminded them of me was really sweet 🥹 it made me very happy tbh jfnfnddjj i was kinda shocked

•also saw new artist drawing characters from anti entropy that genuinely made me very happy 🥹🥹

• ngl thinking about tomorrow after the exam has me excited. i still have one more exam to go, but for once, i feel excited by the idea of saying goodbye. i dont really care anymore how i do for either exams, but it's one more step out of this life and one more step into the new one. i think thats exciting and im excited for it. i wish i could say the same about doing the practical exam but that one i just know ill go home dreading so ✌🏼 but tomorrow! lets have fun after the exam and visit the bakery ive been wanting to go to and finally get that silly plush ive been eyeing 🤧 let's give this life a nice farewell and send off before i go

[this-was-a-terrible-idea]

Tag game!!

Tagged by @bi-bats thank u for the tag ily 💕💕💕

name: Bean!!

pronouns: she/her (i dont mind they/them though)

where do you call home: Alaska!

favorite animal: frogs n toads 🐸💚

cereal of choice: really depends on my mood and what my available options are, tbh. recently its been cocoa puffs with chocolate milk 😂

visual, auditory, or kinesthetic learner: visual and kinesthetic!! if you try and give me auditory instructions i will bluescreen

first pet: when i was a kid my parents had a german shepherd and two black cats! they all died when i was a kid though, and i havent had a pet since 😔 i want a cat so bad

favorite scent: the woods!! the forest!! trees and dirt and leaves and petrichor and loam and moss and earth. looooove that scent.

do you believe in astrology: not really. growing up i used to read my horoscope with my mom for fun but nowadays i dont put a bunch of stock into it. its fun though, even if i dont know what it all means (my sibling made me calculate my big three and its virgo pisces pisces, in that order. no idea what that means for me tbh but it cracks him up)

how many playlists on spotify/apple music: HEY. listen i already get so much shit from my sibling for this so i dont wanna hear it askjldfhhkasjhdf i dont really use apple music for playlists but spotify... i just clicked create new playlist and it auto-titled it "My Playlist #166" so. 165 of my own playlists. dont ask me how many are basically the same playlist with slight tonal shifts. i dont wanna hear it akfasdlfdfa;dl (and no i WONT go through and delete playlists. spotify is an archive to me lmao)

sharpies or highlighters: sharpies. highlighters have Specific Uses in my brain and sharpies are multi-use and fun

songs that make you cry: im not sure ive cried over a song since i was a teenager that would process my emotions via laying on the floor with my earbuds in, ipod volume set to the max, crying. one of THOSE songs is End of the Line by Henry Jackman. Some songs that make me sad nowadays though are Something in the Orange by Zach Bryan (i KNOW, its country!! how much i like this song surprised me too) and If We Were Vampires by Noah Kahan and Wesley Schultz.

songs that make you happy: not to sound like a snot but i feel sooooo many complex emotions over music and broadening them to reach an overarching 'happy' is askldfjadf im overthinking this one i believe. anyways. Northern Attitude by Noah Kahan, When the Day Met the Night by Panic! at the Disco, Cafe Carnival by Craig Chaquico

do you write/draw/create: sometimes!! id say like 90% of my writing never gets out of the discord rambling stage (sometimes i post that on ao3 if i like it and feel like its long enough) and i wouldnt classify myself as an artist, but for creating i recently got into bookbinding!! ive been typesetting things and when i get to go home this next hitch i want to actually get the woodworking bits i gotta do done so i can move onto the actual binding parts.

no pressure tagging: @skyderman, @cacopheny, @megatraven, and anyone else who might want to do this! again, no pressure :)

[giuliano-fan-account]

Antarctica Dark Continent

Wow ok so I discovered that I really think that Antarctica is neat and so cool and it reminds me so much of the Dark continent and today I will explain that (mostly text bc I havent made many drawings lol) 

I was watching Life in the freezer by David Attenborough and they were going over a brief history of the exploration of the continent and it just kind of clicked in my mind.

Hey, that makes a lot of sense since they are both lands at least previously shrouded in obscurity and have been seen as inhabitable.

As we know, Antarctica has had a couple of successful expeditions (I’m currently doing my own research because.) and has had its fair share of history. Its geographical history is like no other due to the nature of how it is and it’s So Freaking Interesting.

If The Dark Continent has parallels with expeditions on Antarctica, then maybe some predictions or inferences could be made on the expeditions to the Dark continent before.

(cutoff line bc I ramble)

Greed is absolutely prevalent in Antarctic exploration, with several different nations rushing in to claim their own part of the newly discovered land, and people coming down to hunt and endanger animals even in horribly inadequate conditions, and I’m sure Togashi will want to do something with that with the Dark Continent. 

The Dark Continent obviously isn’t frozen all over and most definitely has human like intelligence on it, but it is still as if not more treacherous than the environment of Antarctica.

On our earth, Antarctica sticks out as an alien land mass as opposed to all other familiar continents, and that can also be said to how people in the hunter x hunter world view The Dark Continent.

God and I just love these parallels Uurrgh.

I also Just wanted to make an Antarctica Muherr concept, so... hehe

I love the elf man. I want to make an au thing where Beyond’s team is going on a voyage to Antarctica rather than the Dark Continent, and of course Ging is there, too. 

Beyond’s team could also work like how Antarctic science and research teams function in real life. They have many different roles that are relied on that would be fun to assign to each of Beyond’s team because I really like them. 

Comparing the history of Antarctica and its exploration also brings up some questions and speculation for what Dark Continent exploration has been like and will be like.

Originally, our frozen continent was considered a fable or a myth from 650 CE to maybe somewhere in the 18th century when it came to light that Antarctica was a REAL place! 

The Dark Continent was originally considered a “Lunatic’s Ramblings”, and up until recently it’s existence was not common knowledge at all, and I imagine that it wasn’t much different for Antarctica.

While there are a ton of people going to the supposed new continent, the Hunter Association is a much smaller portion of people among all of the passengers, and I think they will explore the Continent much like Antarctica with difficulty with Beyond’s team, of course.

Maps and globes and basically everything would have to have been changed in the mainland due to this new knowledge, and in real life the world map has seen its fair share of changes.

In Hunter x Hunter it’s been said that the Dark Continent had previous voyages and that probably would have been to do with curiosity with the shape of the earth and how big it really was.

On earth it’s pretty easy to see how it’s a globe, but Imagine how confused people in Hunter x Hunter are because really they never had gone all the way 360, and who knows if somebody ever will (Don? Where Is My crazy little Ancient Freecss Lunatic guy :heart_emoji:)

Explorers going mysteriously missing would lead to even more curiosity, as mentioned in the beginning of this arc “Pandora’s Box.” I feel like that’s going to be important. 

I want to know the voyagers in history going on these missions like. God I know Togashi is introducing new characters left and right and going to one plotpoint to another like there’s no tomorrow but gosh. Once we really get into the thick of the Dark Continent part, maybe there could be flashbacks of all other 5 voyages that aid to be some sort of gradual foreshadowing of an event the characters are going have to go through.  

I also just really like hxh lore ok Its so fun and and gosh and geez and like they they it was a totally different time and man wow

But anyways yea I just thought that all was cool haha get it?

Even though I hate the cold, I just love Antarctica because it’s so mystical and stuff and how obscure its is... Plus it makes my head go “ DarkContinent “ Repeatedly, and you know how much I love that.

Anyways, make sure to make the most of of whatever you’re doing if you can, cause it always makes stuff better if you try to look at things more positively even if it’s hard!

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