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ohhh early 2000s protagonists save me
#fma#fmab#soul eater#maka albarn#edward elric#fullmetal alchemist#fullmetal alchemist brotherhood#SOLELY because both mangakas have drawn eachothers characters. and the very fun drawing of ed and maka with their arms linked#i have no other explanation :^) love u#theyre just my goth girls
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watching tua s4 knowing fully how its going to disappoint me rn and something that keeps bothering me is just how awful it is that they dont show what happens during the 6 year time skip.
like in season 2 we get to see an abridged version of how everyone got to where they are. this allowed for me as viewer to at least undertsand the reasoning behind the siblings' actions and conflicts. but in season 4 there is just none of that.
instead we only get to see the after of the timeskip. Whatever bits we do hear abt the time in between are extremly limited because they are things that are told to us from biased/flawed/one-sided perspectives. I as a viewer do not get a clear idea of why any of the 8 charcters of the main cast change the way they do becuase i am never shown how this change ocurred. its more i am told things and have to accept because of the 6 year gap.
lila and diego's strained marriage is actually i think the only they showed without telling to an extent. but it still would have also been nice to see thier struggles transitioning to suburbia and would also aid me to better understand why neither of them tried to find an adequate balance in the 6 years. also like why is diego working as a delivery driver? in my mind it makes more sense for him to be a mediocre private investgator or something like that? idk just some more context behind the tension and thier decsions (especially lila dear god dont even get me started) would have been wonderful
viktor's journey to Canada and his distancing from the others sounded interesting and i would have loved to see that on screen. he clearly is unable to form long lasting intamate relationships and showing his life in the time gap would have been a great way to show his journey of accepting the loss of sissy.
allison was definitely hit hard by the lack of explanation. i understand the scheduling issues with raymond's actor but it truly was a heavy blow to season 3 allison actions when they just said he left with no other explanation. most of her conflicts in season 3 were motivated by the loss of claire and raymond and you are telling me she just lost 50% of that a year afterwards? and like this doesnt get mentioned until episode 3??
i actually enjoyed klaus's shift to a risk averse person and it did make sense to me after losing his immortality to become more aware of not only his but his loved ones mortality. the biggest glaring issue is the one everyone has talked about: the lack of dave. i think if they had shown klaus trying to find info on dave and/or even visiting his grave in the timeskip it would been fine with me that he wouldn't mention dave that much. but the dog tags being on screen and him not saying anything is actually inasne??? also it sounds like there was definitely more to his sobriety than what they have told sad that we didnt get to see that storyline....
everyone has said thier piece on how luther just mentioning sloane and then no other explanation is actually awful. like a simple flashback fo luther searching and finding sloane living a different life would have been better than them giving us nothing💀
ben i actually have nothing to say...it would have been silly to see the crypto scam ig. also an explanation of why they even showed the other ben the post credit of the s3 finale i think is warranted. like even a mention of yeah there is probably another ben who belongs to this universe walking around would have been okay ig
five oh where to even begin.... first of all how tf does a person who isnt even in thier 20s even get a gig at the cia. i know they said some bullahit abt five being a part of a relative young group/recruit (cant remember the exact wording) but like a person who is younger than 19 getting a job at the cia is a bit much. also i actually refuse to belive that five wouldn't have figured out his boss was part of the keepers there is just no way. after the handler and reggie i refuse to belive that five would lose his suspicion towards authority figures. i think the only authority figure he has ever listened to was the founder version of himself and even that took time. like if you want me to believe that bs then show me how five turned his brain into mush in the 6 year time skip. either that or show how me his loneliness in those six year because from what i have right now five worked at the cia and that is it nothing else. like from what i have been told by the show nothing else happended to him besides working. which if thier implication is that he was only working and drifted apart from his siblings that message was not clear enough to me as viewer and would have been alot clearer if i was shown such as thing.
#written before i watch the finale but i read evedy spoiler bc after i heard abt fivelila i had to know what other bs they were pulling#like i think the charcter assassination was party due to this lack of explanation of why these charcters are so different than when we left#tua s4#tua#the umbrella academy#tua s4 spoilers#i think that at least luther allison and klaus ooc actions an dialog could have been fixed by this#the love triangle however....personally i belive the best solution is to actually just not do that#but this is a close second#the way there is no satisying ending for that is insane like if u r going shoehorn in this awful romance that no one asked for#the least you could do is man up and own that shit and pick a canon ending for that shit#but i digress
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for drawing suggestions, can you draw L with a pigeon or near doing a peace sign w/ Matt playing video games beside him?
i have no idea what a pigeon looks like
#death note#l lawliet#trad art#i have created a System to getting better lines bc i have to use a stupid pencil atm til i get my groove back w trad art#so what i do is draw w pencil and erase n shit til i get a nice picture then i go ham w a dark sharpie then i cut it out glue it to a nice#clean new piece of paper then i open ms word get rid of the ribbon so i have a nice white page then i use it as a lightbox since my darling#beautiful tablet is down for the count i must resort to new ways to make a light box but i am being extra extra careful i prommy i love#my laptop too much to let any markers get on her screen that's why i glued the papers to each other so there would be no unfortunate#sliding so my system is safe for my lovely darling beautiful wonderful light of my life vendetta (<-laptop's name)#that explanation of my system means nothing to any of u but i'm proud of myself for using my brain for once so i'm putting it out there tha#i am not completely useless in situations where no reasonable device could be used as a lightbox
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i think it should be possible to scream without making any noise or disturbing anyone or inviting any questions . just sometimes . as a treat .
#hhhhHHHGHGHHHHHH#jay screams into the void#(deeply personal rant incoming feel free to ignore)#a friend of mine has just been undiagnosed with bpd which . lovely for them but it sure as fuck invites a Lot of questions#suddenly a great deal of previous shitty behaviour that was excused on the basis of bpd has a lot more to answer for#(obligatory I Know BPD Isn't An Excuse To Treat People Like Shit . im aware . i have bpd myself and i have v high standards re my behaviour)#(however allowances were made bc they were unmedicated & out of therapy through no fault of their own)#(and our whole group has enough experience with untreated mental illness to understand that it can make u a bitch sometimes)#but yeah no there have been a LOT of instances of b&w thinking + manipulation + unfair judgement + high emotion + snap reactions#and every situation Could be explained by untreated bpd and the bad times have never been prolonged or often enough to outweigh the good#but Hoo Boy if that wasn't bpd then what the FUCK was it#like either the new psychiatrist is wrong (possible but i seem to be the only one questioning it) or they're just Like That#and again . not enough to outweigh their numerous positive and loveable traits#but the whole group has been destabilised on a number of occasions due to their actions during a bad spell#and i'm really not sure Any Other Explanation is enough to justify that#ah well . this seems like the kind of thing that will eventually come up during a sleepover heart to heart#but rn i'm stuck in a bubble of MAJOR rsd & brainfuck abt it . which is unfortunate bc now is exactly the time i Don't need brainfuck#anyways ✨ goodnight tumblrinas i am . kind of hoping nobody read this bc i fear i sound like a bitch#i am genuinely happy for their undiagnosis it seems to have put many things into perspective for them & theyre v happy about it#i'm just . uncomfy w some aspects of it that i have only been halfway brave enough to discuss with them personally#That's One To Bring Up With My Therapist In A Few Weeks#Bit Of A Shame I'm No Longer In Therapy And Now Have Only 2 Quarterly Reviews Left Before I'm Discharged From The Service
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sniles at you so very sneetly. whos youre favorite ggg character :}
PUNCHING A WALL. BAD QUESTION (not serious) (being silly)
because. because. because. literally was going back n forth friends about how hard it is!!! to pick favourites with this game!! everyone was awesome. no joke no lie but you already know that. every character was pawesome and lovely
i aaam maybe a lil more bias to inspekta and bauhauzzo bc i voiced thems. and bc the….. bau huzzle sibbing dynamic is socutes….. so cutes….. wuaaahh
ALSO. KING. FFFUCK. ONE CHANCE KING 🙏 ONE CHA
#asks#beheheheheeheh#ill also mention besides the bizzyboys i def was more attached to the gods than most of the other characters#which inthink. makes sense. just Because#also also honourable mention. again bias but godpoke#which is HARD bc they dont. they arent rlly. well. yknow. gestures HFKDJ#but i have disease that said i play the game and now the protag is my funny little thing . it ok godpoke idm that u have no story no name#no context no explanation no nothing. i love u
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Listened to too much The Orion Experience while drawing Hassel. Could not physically restrain myself from drawing self ship art…. I’m. Sorry ghgh.
#‘why don’t u just draw the other Hassel ships that you really like instead of cringe self ship stuff pepper?’#iDK! I don’t fucking know! something is wrong w my brain!!! I guess!#I do. I do rlly love Hassel x brassius. they’re married.#but also… it’s an open relationship. so they sometimes include Larry. and also. me. gGHG-#iDKKKK MAN….. I JUST LOVE HIM!!!!!#i felt the urge to draw self ship art so I did. there’s ur explanation#every time I saw this motherfucker pop up on my switch screen I started smiling uncontrollably and kickin my feet around and shit.#I can’t! deny that I like this Pokémon old man! this is just the truth!#goD I HAVENT EVEN#I haven’t even gotten to the elite four yet I’m so hype. to fight him#I did finish all his art class things tho! and I fucking… love him.. he’s my babygirl…#he’s brassius’ babygirl too.. our babygirl… we can have joint babygirl privileges..#Hassel has two hands!!! ok! it’s fine ghghg#probably.. not gonna post this to my twitter tho.. cuz. I don’t wanna lose a bunch of followers gGH#pokemon scarlet and violet#pokemon#hassel#elite four hassel#self ship#si x canon#doodles
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another day another "applying the concept 'disposability' to 'someone withdraws from a personal relationship, & that wasn't signed off on by the other'" kill me
#literal acknowledged interpersonal abuse Needing to be ''mediated'' (implicit premise of preserving that relationship >>>)#and if the victim doesn't participate they're treating their abusive partner / abusive relationship as ''disposable''#like in what meaningful way. getting away from an abuser is ''disposing'' of them like imprisonment / killing From A State?#dropping an abusive relationship is ''disposing'' of it? like uh yeah i sure hope it is#this is always Vaguely Applied to ''ppl don't want to HANDLE CONFLICTS or DO THE WORK'' & then connected to political actions#like well someone's just a bad person In The World / All Things if they stopped being my friend and i don't know why#like of course that Can Be good faith. it's a personal business#but if someone ghosts you and you truly don't know why Yeah maybe there's something going on but like okay let them go#if they want to do that for reasons you don't think are Compelling or they just aren't interested / putting in that Effort then like#what Friendship is really being lost here. but then tweet about it with no context & a zillion ppl like SO TRUE kys randos#[fart reverb Conflict Is Not Abuse] standard abuse apologetics which are easy & a zillion ppl go SO TRUE b/c It's Abuse Culture#someone HAS to Answer My Texts / Calls / In Person Confrontations As A Bold Clearsighted Political Actor are you kidding#someone really doesn't. even if you Really are like ''and i'm not even consciously malicious'' what a high bar#one gazillion abusive parents will tell you And My Estranged Child Won't Even Tell Me Why / Doesn't Have Any Good Reasons / Won't Talk....#what am i supposed to doooo i'm at a losssss And Really I'm The Victim#''i want to break up'' / ''okay i don't :) let's talk through Your Feelings :) [waffle around until insisting on Same Access To Person]''#someone can rescind interpersonal access to themself For Any / No Reason. on a dime no explanation necessary. for god's sake#and friendship is not actually some magically pure & Neutral relationship either. same things#anyway just unfollowed some rando for their thread spinning off a vague qrt ''ppl are so AFRAID OF CONFRONTATION they unfriend u''#going on & on abt how You Need To Put In The Work & Effort & You're Just Probably A Bad Person Otherwise & Disposability like#the disposability is my three points wastebasket toss. death via the state =/= someone won't talk to you. can we be at all serious#every day i reach out further like aplatonic people [some emblem gesture] lovelessness [same] help me#thinking of a Good Tweet i saw abt framing everything re: interactions with others around Consideration first & foremost#wildly enough the way you treat people doesn't need to have Fundamental Assumptions re: like ah Friendship / Community / Love / Family &ccc#how do you treat a stranger. how do you treat someone who you don't personally like &/or vice versa. how do you treat ppl you don't Meet.#it's all so vague it could mean Anything but a) often hints towards [abuse victims are framed as Bad Political Actors]#& b) then that's what people read into & respond to for sure lol#as ever ''oh everyone's just little bitches who can't handle any discomfort. yes; this was prompted by my being discomfited''#wait yeah lol i did not Confront this stranger to try to Posit this to them in twttr's character limit; just unfollowed. disposability smh
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Hi! I was the anon from your reblog blog (didn't realise it was a reblog blog at first when I sent the ask, my apologies)
So this is Rei during the war. He has a blue tie so he was a second year at the time (card is from the Element event back in 2016)
As for how we know that Rei was held back in his second year, it's more of a detail that is inferred in some of the war era stories and not something that is explicitly stated, afaik
In Meteor Impact, during one of the scenes where Chiaki and Kanata are first years, Kanata mentions that Rei is a second year (This is from chapter 12 and you can find the translation here)
The in-game translation of Element implies that Rei was held back in his third year too. When Eichi and Tsumugi are discussing who should end up being the Five Eccentrics, they bring up Rei. They immediately compare him to the third years, saying no one else in the third years are like him, which suggests he was a former third year as well
Neither animated version of Element mentions this, so it's very easy to miss esp with the Wiki stories being taken down. Same with Meteor Impact. It's a long story about Chiaki and Kanata, not about Rei's school life. It's not exactly a detail you will immediately pick up on if you're trying to absorb the main plot points
Everything else you mentioned in your rb for him was right though. I completely forgot he left his coffin in the club room after graduating. Why is he like this
Oh I see. Thank ya much for the correction and explanation! Your username certainly does not lie.
The coffin thing I noticed while looking at the background in one of the stories before immediately being brought up by koga in that same story lol. It’s part of what brought me from being neutral on rei to genuinely liking him.
#I still refer to him almost exclusively as ‘bastard’ but that’s the ritsu in me <3#this is such a lovely and in depth explanation I cannot thank u enough#I assumed he was a third year during the war because of how eichi and tsumugi spoke about him in the anime and couldn’t find any (written)#evidence to the contrary#so I appreciate the correction very much!#Enstars#sakuma rei#yori rambles#no worries on sending the ask to my other blog btw! I have asks open there for a reason!#answers#hi may
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i feel like i bring this up all the time but it keeps being a problem but like does anyone else have the experience where u try to play games w friends irl, like dnd and mtg specifically, but everyone else uses jargon for literally every single aspect of the game, and everyone else has specific strategies and moves memorized, so no matter how much experience you have you always end up looking like the only one in the room that’s a complete noob even when u literally arent? its exhausting lol
#inb4 i love my friends theyre not beint mean to me or anything#they just assume i dont know shot#and usually when i ask about some specific term i get a massive explanation about how it relates to everything#when all i needed to know was a specific term#it’d be like if u were hanging out w people speaking spanglish#and if u asked what basura (trash) meant and got an explanation on the concept of a trash can#like i know what that is i just dont know that word#the only way i can combat this is to learn all the terms myself but even then theres so many strategies to memorize and thats so hard#also the other issue i have#is i cant read and parse what the cards are saying while people are talking to me#so multiple times id be trying to read the card to decide what i wanted to do#and theyd be verbally explaining the card and what to do to me#and im like. pls just let me read it and decide. and i cant intake any of this info verbally#it just doesnt click#anyway pls if anyone else experiences this pls let me know. i feel so alone in this all the time
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#meg talks#suicide tw#nearly everyone i care abt rn is like so very suicidal rn and it’s making me. ghghfh#(IMPORTANT NOTE this is not me saying ‘’don’t talk to me abt suicide rn’’ i do not ever mind talking abt it ever ever#i am not ranting rn about not being able to handle the subject or complaining abt ppl talking to me abt it that’s not what this is i prommy)#im just. the realization that there are ppl who go their whole lives without ever thinking that much abt suicide#and then there’s those of who are disabled and/or queer and for us it’s just. a constant#for ourselves for our loved ones for ppl on the periphery of our circles like everyone we brush shoulders with#the amount of time we have to spend talking ourselves and others into just staying a while longer#bc it’s so fucking hard to conceptualize a future for ourselves for so many reasons#and even harder to make that future viable bc it depends on other people helping us#it just makes me want to fucking. idk! break something!#like how do you make people understand this if they’ve never been through it#and how do you convince them that it’s worth it to try and understand where we’re coming from#when their default way of thinking abt it is that you only get to this point if u do smth wrong or just don’t try hard enough#or are some kind of moocher trying to exploit ppl who ‘’work harder’’#i fucking hate this so much#i just keep thinking about engels’ explanation of social murder#and getting so angry i feel fucking ill#people are fucking killing my friends and it’s like all i can do is like…#try my best to plug whatever wounds i can manage meanwhile the killer is still fucking stabbing them over and over#anyway. god. again none of this is to say i don’t wanna hear abt suicide or anything#i like to know and be able to talk abt it frankly#especially if there’s even the smallest thing i can do to help#im just like. suddenly hit w the disbelief of how many ppl go their whole lives without having these conversations#while me and my friends are having them multiple times a day bc it’s so fucking bad out here#insert disco elysium quote about the mask of humanity falling from capital as it kills your sweet courageous friends here i guess.#i just. wish things were better. how can people not wish that
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Here's some of my trolls Pokemon teams, btw, if u even care--
#ooc#about julius#about reshaper#about snow#about odarem#sure#anyway ramble/explanation time:#So Oda's Archeops is named Breeze bc the scientific name for turkey vultures means cleansing breeze in latin and it's meant 2 rep his lusus#Decidueye is meant to represent his sharpshooting and also is ghost and grass type AKA life and death... the name is a play on 'shooting'#and a plant 'shoot'#Marowak is mostly vibes but also they dance to send off the dead and dancing is a big thing for him.. nickname is just a short vr of marowa#bc he does that to ppls names a lot#Phantump nickname is the same.. also it represents a few things (edgy I admit) but the death of who he was as a child is part of it#also got the ghost grass typing for life n death.. also reps the ppl he isn't able to save#mimikyu represents the mask he wears arnd/for other people in hopes they'll love him more when in fact he's loved for who he is and not who#he's trying to be#both jewel and tavi have a representation of their lusus basili who is a fae dragon.. one has the more dragon vr and the other the fairy w/#swapped terra types to keep the vibe#uhh first mons are all lusus representation#i can explain more for other ppl if u want but this is already so much :sob:#pkmn
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What would you say are the essence of mick and prophet as characters and as a couple? I've tried writing them before and I've always felt like I got their dynamics wrong. You're who I think of as the keeper of these characters so I thought I'd ask you and see what your thoughts are on them.
i feel like there isn't a lot of ways you can go wrong with these two because aside from the very basic facts we don't know much about them at all. like yeah they have these backstories and interactions to some point but it's up to you to fill in the blanks and interpret it as you please so, don't think too hard about whether or not you're getting it "right". As long as it's not THAT visibly out of character (for example Mick is a sniper and you can make a lot of guesses about his personality based on that) i say just write them however you want. sometimes rewatching the show to remind myself of their dynamic also helps me write. i would also love to help if you ever need a second opinion about the way you write them^
as for their essence. (p sure i got the question wrong but?) They're like two sides of the same coin to me. they're so different but also very similar. they complete each other. i like this contrast of two very opposite people being so close to each other. like a welshman and an american, a non-believer and a devout man, the younger extrovert and the older introvert type of deal. but then they're also best friends. they share similar experiences, both have pasts they don't like talking about, two wounded men uniting in their grief. also when you think about it, they were both starting a new life when they joined the red cell, Mick straight out of the army (maybe not right away) and Prophet straight out of jail, a new work, a new environment, a new life, and being the first two recruits of the team, they had to get to know each other and grow close. and seeing how well they do together now, id say that worked out pretty great. (i mean, Mick is new in the US and Prophet is starting his life after 6 years, it's not like they're gonna have much friends or family. i think it's safe to say all they had was each other when the team was first formed (and cooper) lmao)
and as for what i think makes them a great couple is that, the potential they both have to heal and grow if that makes sense? the idea of mick learning to be vulnerable and letting someone get close, or prophet letting his walls down and learning to love someone again. as i said, half of these are just how i interpret them based on their backstories , but yea. i just feel like they have a lot of potential. a lot of things they could learn.a lot of new experiences. it wouldn't be easy for them to carry their relationship to the next level but that's what i like about it. can you imagine the yearning, the angst and all the other things we'd see if any of this was real JSHSKAHEKD LIKEE
i apologize if i didn't answer your question in a way you wanted, sort of just rambled there. feel free to ask if you want me to clarify anything or have another question. sorry
#i just searched up what essence means and its basically the opposite of what i did here#well#if ya want a shorter explanation basically theyre dumbasses who are in love and they have so much to learn from each other#was i supoosed to talk about like characteristics or soemthing i really dont know im sorry#hope this helps a bit though#also im flattered you think that i know about themshsgajdh#please do write about them though god knows we need more 🥺#they are honestly such a great pairing its. a shame no one knows them. they deserve so much more#god i cant shut up today can i#once again#sorry#i really appreciate the question and ily anon#im here if u need me<3#answered#cmsb
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friendly reminder that even if youre open about something on your blog, even if you think its so obviously right in your about/description/pinned/whatever, most of the people who will interact with you are not even looking that far at your blog. they dont know your name or your pronouns or your disabilities or your interests or your credentials or whatever you think is just *so obvious* that they *must* be intentionally ignoring it just to hurt you. ESPECIALLY not if theyre a random stranger who youve never interacted with once before, has never interacted with you once before either, and has absolutely zero reason to care about you. its not a personal attack, its just a fact. this is literally the internet
#i am TIRED. yes this is a vaguepost idc#utter stranger shows up in my notifs DEMANDING i explain a simple little joke tag about me and my loved ones experiences#as if i owe them the slightest ounce of attention in my day#and then when i do explain my & my loved ones lived experiences. they get mad & say im using THEIR personal experiences as a weapon#like. i dont have the slightest clue what your personal experiences are! i dont even know your name!! and i dont want to nor do i have to!!#i dont mean this rudely. but factually: you are not important enough to me to care even a little bit about your experiences#i dont bring up suicide or addiction or any shit like that because its Your experience. bc i have no fucking idea what your experience is#i talk about those things because its MY EXPERIENCE. that IM TALKING ABOUT. in the tags of a post that doesnt belong to either of us no les#this is probably the last thing im gonna post abt this bc i know youre still up my ass looking at everything i post rn#but to finish off. i was never even making a Point about anything in the tag. i wasnt starting discourse about anything.#it was just an Acknowledgement of a shared experience that me and many of my loved ones have. whether u like it or not#like literally i dngaf if YOU personally wouldnt describe your experience that way. We do describe it that way! We can be different#i just made a silly little tag for my friends to see. and YOU decided that you were entitled to both hear my life story and blatantly#misinterpret everything i say about it. like literal 'how dare you say we piss on the poor' type shit#like. saying 'x can cause y' does not mean im saying 'y is literally x' fucking OBVIOUSLY. god#i didnt fucking ask for this! YOU DID!! YOURE the one who DEMANDED it of me unprompted#& clearly must have just gone looking thru the tags of posts for ppl to beef with lollllll#i mean cmon. you didnt follow me i didnt follow you and that wasnt even your post. theres no other explanation lmao its p obvious#anyway i hope u find a better hobby or at least a more fun and fulfilling way to use this website. sincerely#at least get some better critical thinking skills before picking stupid arguments with random strangers online#but hey! play stupid games win stupid prizes<3 right??#also one final note: to hear someone talking about the lived experiences of them and their real life loved ones and go 'hmm. sounds fake'.#its just giving Friendless. its giving 'how could anyone make fun art without doing crazy drugs!!'.#its giving 'Wait yall have friends irl? i thought it was just a joke'. its fucking hilarious and im gonna think about it forever#thank u for a lifetime supply of laughs godspeed
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oh my fucking god I've never sent in an ask before or anything but I just had to to say I'm so fucking sorry your therapist said that shit to you and treated you that way! thats so uncalled for and unprofessional of him and I'm so sorry you had to go through that. like who tf would ever make that comparison with you and the baby in general- let alone while in therapy? I know its not possible for everyone and its definitely a privilege but I highly recommend you get a different therapist (again ik it might not be possible for you though and sorry if thats the case). but either way you don't deserve to be treated like that especially while in therapy. I hope you're able to heal and feel better soon 💙
you are very sweet to say so🖤
I guess it didn’t come across very well in my initial expression of what happened, but I think a lot of his anger came from him trying to get across to me just how bad the circumstances that I’ve put myself in are. He’s normally a great therapist whom I like and trust but the conversation ended up extremely heavy and difficult for me to … respond to in a way that… helped alter my thinking to something better.
He himself also actually suggested that maybe he’s not the right doctor to address the things I need to heal, but he also said it seems like I’m someone who shouldn’t be coddled bc … I don’t make any improvements that way (which 😭). Plus, tho the Auschwitz thing was weird… I think it was meant to be a comparison of the treatment I experienced as a baby to how the babies were treated there, but… ???
But anyway, in good faith, I’m gonna keep at it with him, at least for a couple more weeks to see if things improve. Normally our meetings aren’t as emotionally intense and hard for me to get through, but I do think they’re helping and because help is what I want… that’s a good thing.
However, your concern and wishes (and the opportunity you’ve given me to explore this in conversation) is super appreciated. It’s gonna take some work but I’m hoping it won’t be like this every time🌹
#he’s not like any other therapist I’ve ever worked with before#and I think was scared me is that he didn’t really care that I reacted so emotionally#but when I think abt it.. I guess that was the point#to show me how much these things have affected me and how much it hurts me#bc he said at the end (and I interpreted this as his explanation)#that he wants me to be happy and he’s gonna try to help me get there but my thinking right now is really unhealthy and strange#and that’s what we need to fix#but yeah it was jarring as it happened#bc normally in therapy I’m like wow I never want this to end I love getting help!#and this was like. 15 minutes in I wanted it to stop#but you know#we’ll see#but thank u so much anon#and thanks for sending an ask tho u normally wouldn’t!#I love to know you’re here#🫂#mental health tw#anon#caitie answers
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anytime theres magical or fantastical creatures my brain just goes insane coming up with biology headcanons for it. you could ask me anything about my slimegirl monstersona and id probably have an aswer for it -_-;
#how is it ambulatory how does it work etc etc dont even worry about it i have it all figured out baby#but just bcause its easier my monstersona is also simultaneously an undertale monstersona in particular#because. then the scientific explanations are a little easier#i love undertale monsters i know everything about them#its fun to be a sansfucker who also likes biology and stuff it means i can have fun in so mny ways#its the same with undertale monsters especially skeleton monsters in particular u could ask me anything and id prolly have it fifured out#LOL. its so fun is the thing#anyway reason im bringin this up is cause when i had that extra scary dream the other day or whenever it was#at some part i was my slime monstersona and i remember my dream specifically following my already established scientific headcanons 4 it#so even in the dream it was all figured out LOLL
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if you’re ever gonna read 1 book this year, PLEASE READ THE CAPTIVE PRINCE SERIES 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I think the reason I am so obsessed with Damen and Laurent is because they are like true enemies to lovers. Like these two mfs had absolutely NO BUSINESS FALLING IN LOVE. They just did lol. AND... they go on to have a really sweet and pure relationship after everything as well. Like it's literally wild from start of book one to the end of the epilogue/short stories. Went from a toxic nightmare to basically married ruling two kingdoms together HAPPILY. WILD.
#it will change your life#captive prince#laurent of vere#damianos of akielos#damen x laurent#damen and laurent#lamen#they are soulmates#they have to be there is no other explanation to this kind of mess#cherry<3#definition of true love#made for each other#maybe don’t read it if you’re a minor tho#i did read it when i was 15 tho#hmmm#read the tropes and warnings before u go in
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