#i hate tourettes

[hydeingpurples]

I've just started my Masters degree at a university that's much bigger and busier than my previous one. I'm really struggling to find somewhere that I feel comfortable studying where I won't disturb other people.

I have Tourette's, I can be very loud, and I deeply fear other people's judgment. I don't want to disturb anyone. I can suppress well, but it isn't comfortable, I just want a space that's quiet where I feel okay and safe and out of people's way.

I just went for a library tour and he showed me around all the spaces, including the assistive technology rooms (single rooms for disabled students, but there's only 4).

He said I'm always welcome at the library and that I shouldn't lock myself away in the single person rooms. I greatly appreciate it, so much so that I'm having a cry on a bench now. But what really smashed me up is when I said that I never went in the library at my last university because I felt so excluded and thought I'd disturb everyone. He said that made him sad.

I'm quite overwhelmed now. I appreciate what he said to no end. My fears of judgment and disturbing people are just so deep and intense. I don't know how to solve it. I want to feel included, I never go to libraries, but the truth is, I do feel excluded.

[sp3ctrum-int3rn3t]

shhhhhhh don't tell anyone i like tmf oh wait fuck

[that-was-anticlimactic]

one small thing can be the biggest thing of all

Kenji was smacking his keyboard again.

Atsushi did his best not to look since he knew that just made Kenji feel bad, but it was hard to tear his gaze away from the constant thumping.

And it’s not that Atsushi was annoyed (okay, maybe he was just a little bit, but that wasn’t Kenji’s fault), no, he was just… concerned. He was used to hearing sounds from Kenji—chirping, clicking, random bursts of short screams… they all blended into the background and became normal to him.

The smacking was new, though.

[or, kenji has a new, painful tic, and atsushi wants to help]

🌱3,611 words | kenji & atsushi-centric🌱

happy tourette's awareness month!!!

[cannibalhellhound]

This is for @topgunalternateuniverse bingo

This one was Hanahaki

The petals are white chrysanthemums because I love them.

There is a second piece I'll paint at a later date (it's sadder imo)

[meltedfuckingmarshmallow]

playing the 2010 house md ds game and why is gregory hate crimes house more normal about eating disorders than most doctors

[william-solace-aaaaa]

Fun fackt: No, i am not copying your ticks, I'm autistic and I can't control it. It makes me just as uncomfortable as you

[worfsbarmitzvah]

ocd + tourettes? lethal combo. im so scared of getting slur tics that i think about it so much all the time and when tourettes hears that you dont want to get a tic sometimes it decides to get that tic specifically to make your life hell. anyway i live in constant fear

[mugzymiik]

AHHHHHH some of my tics make me wanna like .rub a certain area with a certain part (e.g. rubbing my palm with my thumb) and its so AHHHHHH wHEN I CANT REACH THAT AREA WITH THAT PART AND IT DRIVES ME FUCKING INSANEEEEE AHHHHHHHHHH

[neurosky]

I didn't suppress completely in front of my friend today. I ticced in front of them. And you know what happened? Absolutely nothing. All those things my brain always tells me will happen, didn't happen. They never looked at me weirdly, never told me I was faking it, never said I was weird or anything like that. It really showed me how irrational this fear I have is. This is a friend, that I trust. Why would they treat me differently? Nothing happened. It was okay. It is okay.

[the-fallen-collective]

if these tics don’t fukcing stop I’m gonna fight someone

[hydeingpurples]

It's 2:31am. Exceptionally awful leg tics tonight. My muscles are burning, my joints are aching. No matter how hard I tic, how much I twist and clench my legs, I cannot get rid of the ants that crawl inside my veins. It's painful. I fucking hate this condition. And people say they want it?

[didderd]

adhd sans is such a relatable character, seeing as i have my own issues. i seriously struggle with stuff similar to his problems so it feels comforting knowing there's a skeleton just like me and a lot of other people

yes omg

i love Duck sm. projecting heavily onto this boi, especially with the comic.

fkn. sorry, i hope you don't mind me using your ask as an excuse to ramble abt my neurodivergent ass. you don't have to read this.

ramblings bordering on venting, but mostly jus cus i wanna talk abt my disorders more, but not in a venty way, but hhhh.. under read more:

ADHD is such a struggle, especially the executive dysfunctioning. ppl would assume that the Tourette's is the more crippling of the disorders i have, jus bc it's more physical and more like. known for being disabling(?) but at least in my case it's nothing compared to my ADHD symptoms.

the most my Tourette's does usually is bruise my wrist or make me have to stop what i'm doing (like literally just now stopping writing to snap my fingers and clap several times lmao hkgvhc) for a moment to tic.

but my executive dysfunction stops me from doing just about anything. chores, basic hygiene, important life shit, even eating and hydrating.

and my dissociating does the same thing as my tics, making me stop what i'm doing sometimes. or it'll make me have to like.. slow down and not able to look at what i'm doing while my vision is unfocused and i stare off into space or at whatever's directly in front of me lol.

the sensory problems also. sometimes i can't walk around in certain cloths bc the texture is too much. it feels like sand paper. (there's more i could say abt the sensory problems, but i need to stop rambling skdbvjsdvk)

anyways, yeah. so fkn grateful for adhd sans, bc now i have a character to pour all these problems into lmao.

[that-was-anticlimactic]

something's in the air, i feel the heat

“Do you trust me?”

And how could Cole say no to that? Did he trust Kai? He trusted Kai more than he trusted himself. He trusted Kai with his life. If he fell, he knew Kai would be there to catch him.

So, Cole took his shirt off, tossing it on the ground beside him, then moved so his back was to Kai. “Always.”

Nothing happened for a minute. Cole stood there, neck and shoulders aching and twitching. He wondered, briefly, if Kai was just trying to get him shirtless (it wouldn’t be the first time), and really, he was not in the mood for that. Not when his body wanted to hurt him.

But then a pair of warm hands—Kai’s hands, he would recognize those oddly soft callused and scarred palms anywhere—landed on his back.

[or, cole's experiencing a lot of pain thanks tp tourette's and kai gives him a heated massage]

🔥2,295 words | cole-centric, lavashipping🔥

happy tourette's awareness month!!!

[marshmalleaux-queen]

tiny vent

welp. I will certainly be more conscious about masking up any time I exit my home because I have a delightful (read: hideous) new grimace that will absolutely draw stares and/or make people think I'm making faces at them 🙃

[disapunk]

have to exagerate even more my symptoms only to get my tic attacks/sos medication.. fuck doctors

none of them give a fuck about disabilities, are my tic attacks that last more than an hour nothing to you? the constant pain in body bc of self harm tics/tics that hurt when i do them. the tiredness? that one tic that leaves me basically pissing myself a bit? the amount of headaches and ''i want to puke'' because of head tics... is that nothing?

i've been on this medication for YEARS, how am i not supposed to get it? it has helped me more than the fucking medication psychiatrists gave me.. i literally cannot exist without it because what happens if i have a tic attack at the wrong place? with the wrong people?

fucking helll

[r3musmoony]

tfw you’re having rly bad tics but still have to go into work ;-;