#i had 3 hrs of sleep and i am TIRED

[exsqueezememacaroni]

I read this post on Reddit https://www.reddit.com/r/MikePatton/comments/1ghbope/do_you_guys_find_there_are_a_lot_of_disturbing/ and I was waiting for people to cancel Mike because of a comment someone made saying he pushed a woman who handcuffed herself to his wrist... Thank God Mike's community isn't sensitive, because I didn't know about this story, but as I read it I could only think: if some son of a bitch handcuffs themselves to me without my permission and after 2 hours in handcuffs still tries to harass me, I wouldn't just push the person, I would punch them 🥰💅And before anyone says anything, I'm a woman, but I think there's a big difference between actually attacking a woman and imposing yourself in a bizarre harassment situation

Nah I mean, I think I AM pretty sensitive to that stuff, but I know it's not impossible to be harassed as a man and feel you have to defend yourself/fight back. And I mean a "get the fuck away from me" push is probably the most reasonable reaction Mike could have had in that situation.

Funny enough, that line in the reddit thread about "feminists organizing a poster campaign" seems the most unbelievable???? I do know about the handcuff incident, but I don't know about any backlash??? It almost seems like the reddit commenter just wanted to add some "feminists bad and stupid" commentary. But truly, I might just not know about that part.

Anyways, that whole thread is still a mess, lol!

[duckyfann9871]

After a long day this was nice to read :’) love my fictional boyfriends

[gotyouanyway]

painfatigue killing me so bad but i’m very slowly listening to weapon of choice and just met brax and narvin. hi guys

[angeltism]

girls who are still kinda afraid of the dark :(

[orcelito]

well the good news is im gonna look the part of someone who hasnt been to class in several weeks

[danieyells]

@mayoigotokurousagi also asked for Sho, so here are my favorite of Sho's voicelines! He's a lil more chill--most of the excitement for him is because Leo's causing him trouble, so maybe there won't be as many since it's just him? (Spoiler: i still put nearly all of them, or it feels that way. . . .)

Also sorry this one took way longer haha i had to do some irl stuff and i was pretty tired too lol. . .may not get to the next ones for a few days since i have to wake up early tomorrow and i work double shifts all weekend. But i'll try and find time for it.

Hello: (the first time the game is opened after that character is set as home screen NPC. Only happens once per day, unless the character is switched out and back.)

"Hey,  good timing. You got a second?" お、センパイ。いいとこに来たわ。ちょっと付き合ってくんね？

You've Got Mail: (whenever there's something in the inbox, usually Arena rewards)

"You got a message. Gonna check it or what?" おい、なんか通知来てっけど。見なくていいのか？　それ

Default: (requires no affinity, has no time constraints)

"Here you go, Bonnie. Barbecue sandwiches, your favorite." ほら、食えよボニー。お前の好きなＢＢＱサンドだぜ

"Huh? Was that your stomach? You hungry?" ……？　なんだよ。もしかしてあんた、腹減ってんの？

"Pit's on again? I'm done with that already. They're all normies—what's the point?" あ？　また地下で騒いでんのか？ 俺はもうやんねぇよ……パンピー相手にしても仕方ねぇだろ

the word he uses for 'normie' here means 'commoner' lmao

"Yeah I got it, you want to train. You go ahead, I'll catch up." はいはい、トレーニングっすよね。もうちょいしたら行くんで

"Did you just see a creep in a black mask over there? ...Nah, never mind. I'm hallucinating." ……今、あそこに黒マスクした胡散臭ぇやつ歩いてなかったか？ ……いや、なんでもねぇ。幻覚だわ

SO THIS LINE CONFUSED ME AT FIRST because it's always referred to as a blindfold by everyone else? HE'S TALKING ABOUT HYDE HYDE IS JUST STALKING HIM LMAO

Affinity 1: (between 5am and 11am)

"Too early... What's Leo doing today? Guess I'll text him." ねっみ……玲音のやつ、今日はどうすんだ？ 一応Ｄチャしとくか……

if it's too early for you it's too early for Leo. But also I'm sure he's got something exciting or interesting planned. I like that we're immediately shown he wants to spend time with Leo even when he's tired haha

Affinity 2: (between 11am and 4pm)

"Freakin' sasquatch... Would it kill him to approve an R&R permit every once in a while?" ったく、あのデカブツ……外出許可くらい出せっつの

Affinity 3: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Class? What's the point? It's all written in the textbooks—all you gotta do is memorize it." 授業？　あんなん出なくても全部教科書に書いてんだからよ。そのまま覚えりゃいいだけだろ？

Doesn't go to class because he's smart enough to memorize the contents of the textbook I guess! Plus he doesn't care as much about Real Missions so knowing how to do the hard stuff doesn't matter to him haha. . .plus first years probably don't learn as much that's not in the textbook too.

Affinity 4: (between 8pm and 5am)

"All right, time to go for a spin. C'mon, Bonnie." うし、軽く流してくっか。行こうぜ、ボニー

Affinity 5: (between 8pm and 5am)

"(yawn) What time is it? Seriously? Damn, overslept." ふぁあ…… 今何時だ……？ マジかよ、寝すぎたわ

Neither he nor Leo sleep at night lmao

Affinity 6: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Huh, haven't ridden a skateboard since middle school but I guess I still have the muscle memory. Watch this, I'm gonna do a trick." 中坊ぶりにスケボー乗ったけど、意外と体が覚えてんだ��。 トリック決めてやるよ、見ててみ？

Affinity 7: (between 11am and 4pm)

"Nice, got an order. More demand than I thought. Getting Leo to make this app was a good call." お、出前の予約が入ったわ……思ったより需要あってよ。 玲音に予約アプリ作らせたの正解だったな

Leo has a line that references this one!

Affinity 8: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"What's Mido texting me for? come tot hr epuit... Pfft. What the hell is this, some kinda secret code?" あ？　御堂センパイからＤチャ？『血か二個い』って…… ぷっ……なんだこれ、暗号かよ

Ksvdhdisn Alan is adorable. . .i love technologically incompetent characters. Poor bby can't even text. . . . .

Affinity 9: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Shit, my whole body's killing me... Sparring five sets of fifteen rounds, are you kidding me? Mido's insane..." クソ、筋肉痛がやべぇ…… 御堂センパイ、スパー１５ラウンド５セットとか正気じゃねぇよ……

Affinity 10: (between 10pm and midnight)

"What am I gonna do tomorrow... Got nothing on, guess I could go to class... That asshole's on the schedule. Pass." 明日どうすっかな……暇だし、たまには授業出とくか？ ……あいつのコマあるわ。やめとこ

Lmao 'i guess i could go to class--wait my brother's teaching one of them tomorrow? Fuck that then.'

Affinity 11: (between 5am and 11am)

"All right, that's the morning prep done. Guess I'll shower and go back to bed." うし、朝の仕込みはこんなもんか。後は……シャワー浴びて二度寝だな

Affinity 12: (between 11am and 4pm)

"This? It's a fishing rod. Sometimes I catch and filet the fish myself. It's pretty easy, and it saves cash." あ？　これか？　釣り竿だよ。たまに自分で魚釣ってさばくわけ。 簡単だし、コスパ良いだろ？

Fishing with Sho. . .sounds nice and chill. Also did the pc not recognize a fuckin fishing rod. . . .

Affinity 13: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"{PC}, there you are. I'm headed to the diner, could you come with and help me carry some stuff?" お、センパイ見っけた。俺、今からダイナー行くんだけどよ。ちょっと荷物持ち手伝ってくんね？

Affinity 14: (between 5am and 11am)

"You think I look grumpy? The stream for the finals started at 3 AM, what do you want me to do about that? (yawn)" ……あ？　機嫌が悪ぃって？ しょうがねぇだろ……決勝の中継、夜中の３時開始だぜ？ ふぁあ……

Staying up late to watch a basketball game, much like Leo he does not go to bed until the sun's up ordinarily lmao

Affinity 15: (between 5am and 11am)

"Hey... Pfft. What are you panicking for? You need to be somewhere? Hop on—I'll give you a ride." お、センパイじゃん。ぷっ……なんだよその余裕ねぇ顔。 急いでんなら、乗っけてってやろうか？

Affinity 16: (between 11am and 4pm)

"You hungry, {PC}? I made lunch, but Leo bailed on me, so I was just gonna eat it myself." センパイ、腹減ってねぇ？ 昼飯作ったんだけどよ。玲音のやつ来ねぇし、食っちまおうと思って

Sho: hey our boyfriend ditched me wanna have lunch with me

Affinity 17: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Last year I would've been in a club around this time. Leo was always getting in fights though, so we got banned from almost every joint in Shibuya." 昔はこの時間、毎日クラブいてよ。玲音がすぐ喧嘩すっから、渋谷の箱ほとんど出禁になっちまったけどな

Menace boyfriend Leo lmao

Affinity 18: (between 8pm and 5am)

"{PC}, black or white? I'm trying to choose some packaging for the food truck, what'd you think I meant? ...I'll keep it in mind, anyway." センパイさ、白と黒どっちが好き？ ……出前の容器の話なんだけどな。ま、一応覚えといてやるよ

Affinity 19: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Geez, it's pretty late. Wait there—I'll give you a ride back." もうこんな時間かよ…… 送ってくわ。そこで待ってろ

Affinity 20: (between 5am and 11am)

"Seriously, it's way too early for this... What? I'm going to class. You're the one who wouldn't shut up about it." はぁ……マジねみぃ…… あ？　今から授業行くんだよ。あんたが行けってうるせぇからだろ

Ordinarily doesn't go to class(a lot of them don't tbh, and Luca says the classes are elective so the ghouls probably don't have to) but will go if you want him to I guess! Leo's gonna call him whipped but Leo already knows he's whipped because he's the one who's been whipping him--

Affinity 21: (between 11am and 4pm)

"I've finally got the hang of running this food truck. I want to thank you for helping me out—think of something you want." キッチンカーも大分慣れてきたわ。手伝ってもらった礼もしてぇし、何か欲しいもの、考えといて

Affinity 22: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Huh? No, I don't really need any help today... You don't have to make excuses to hang out with me, you know. Just ask." 手伝い？　今日は特にねぇけど…… センパイ、俺と一緒にいたいって、素直に言えば？

"senpai, why don't you just tell me honestly if you wanna be with me?" Is the Japanese here I think and. idk i love that. He's catching on and teasing you a little.

Affinity 23: (between 8pm and 5am)

"What time you planning on heading home, {PC}? Anytime's fine for me. You can stay over if you want." センパイ、今日何時に帰る予定？俺は別に、何時でも…… なんなら、泊まってってもいいぜ？

Affinity 24: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Can't sleep? Come over here—I'll warm you up. Pfft... I was kidding, don't get mad." なんだよ……寝れねぇのか？あっためてやるから、こっち来い。 ぷっ……冗談だって。怒んなよ

WERE YOU KIDDING THO. WERE YOU? KINDA HIGH AFFINITY TO JOKE LIKE THAT. AND YOU JUST SAID THEY COULD STAY OVER IF THEY WANTED. . .CHOOSE YOUR WORDS CAREFULLY SHOHEI

Affinity 25(max): (no time constraints)

"Here, this helmet's for you. I got some time today, so I'll take you somewhere. Anywhere you wanna go." はい、あんたのメット。今日は時間あっから、センパイの行きたいとこ連れてってやるよ

Spring: (March-May) (between 5am and 11am)

"Forget it, I can't keep my eyes open. Wake me when it's noon." 駄目だ。ねみぃ。昼んなったら起こして

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Pretty warm out lately, huh? Bet it's already snorkeling season in Okinawa. I used to go pretty often." もう大分あったかくなってきたな。沖縄じゃ、シュノーケリングできる時期だぜ？　昔はよく行ってたわ

He plays basketball, he skateboards, he fishes, he snorkels, this bitch loves sports lol

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"This? It's chirashizushi. Cuts are pretty chic, right? The idea came to me when I was over in Hotarubi." ���れか？　ちらし寿司作ってんの、飾り切り渋ぃだろ。 ホタルビ行ったら、こんなイメージが湧いたからよ

Chirashizushi is sushi ingredients cut into small pieces and scattered over sushi rice! It comes in a lot of variation and isn't always made with raw fish like you might expect sushi to be.

(between 8pm and 5am)

"If I can get an R&R permit granted, I want to go for a solo ride. Haven't been for ages, and riding through the cherry blossoms this time of year feels awesome." 外出許可出たらよ、久々にひとりで走りてぇわ。この時期の桜坂辺り、最高に気持ちいんだよな……

Summer: (June-August) (between 5am and 11am)

"Damn, I'm melting here... I need a haircut. Nah I don't need a barber, I just do it myself. 'Course I'm serious." クソ暑ぃ……そろそろ髪切んねぇとな…… 美容院？　めんどくせぇから自分で切ってっけど。マジだぜ？

Sho really knows a little about everything huh. He cuts his own hair, he memorizes textbooks, he plays every sport, he can cook. . .is there anything Sho can't do? In his character story he even says he played guitar for a little while but hasn't done it lately, so music is probably within his wheelhouse too.

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Sweating my ass off over here... It's been like a year since I last played basketball. Mido's core's gotta be made of steel... Oh, is that water for me? Thanks." 暑ぃ！　バスケしたの１年ぶりか？御堂センパイ、体幹強すぎだろ…… お、水くれんの？　サンキュ

actually i'd like to see alan playing basketball too. . .it's nice to know he doesn't just work out by sparring and running, he'll play sports too.

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Summer homework? Nah, haven't done it yet. Only takes a day, right? Pfft... You want me to help you?" 夏の課題？　まだやってねぇけど。あんなもん一日で終わるだろ？ ぷっ……センパイ手伝ってやろうか

(between 8pm and 5am)

"Leo won't shut up about wanting to let off fireworks, but no way am I doing that shit with him again. I'm sure you can guess why." 玲音が花火してぇってうるせぇんだけどよ、俺は二度とあいつとはやんねぇって決めてんの。わかんだろ？

wtf was Leo doing with the fireworks that Sho decided he's never settijng off fireworks with him again. . .was he just pointing them at him lmao. Leo also has a line referencing this!

Autumn: (September-November) (between 5am and 11am)

"Yesterday when I was fishing in the river I saw this guy who looked like one of the Frostheim ghouls out there. Can't have been though, right?" 昨日川釣り行ってきたんだけどよ、フロストハイムの奴に似てんのがいた気がすんだよな……人違いか？

which one. . .i mean if it was Luca he was probably training, but if it was Kaito. . .idk what Kaito would be doing out in the river by himself. . .I know it wasn't Jin but if it was Tohma maybe it was some official business. . .? Or, y'know, spy stuff. . . .

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Geez, don't pipe up outta the blue like that. ...What? You gotta a problem with me reading a book?" ビビった。いきなり声かけんなよ。 ……なんだよ、その顔。俺が本読んでちゃ悪ぃのか？　あ？

sho has been saying like this entire time 'yeah i read and memorize the textbooks instead of going to class' how is the pc so shocked to see him ACTUALLY READING. Then again, i also wouldn't think he's a hobby reader. . .on the other hand he's got like every hobby he can get his hands on, so it makes sense.

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Pfft... Hey, {PC}. Come over here. Geez, what're you doing walking around with a leaf in your hair?" ぷっ……【名★前】センパイ、ちょっとこっち来い。 ったく、なんで髪に葉っぱ付けてんだよ……

(between 8pm and 5am)

"Scariest Ghost Videos to Fuel Your Nightmares... I asked a buddy for some good videos to kill the time, and he sent me this..." 『最恐の怨霊ビデオ集』…… ダチに暇つぶしになる動画教えろっつったら、これ送られてきたんだよ

it's hard to tell based on his expression how he feels about this lol

i wonder if he's not really into horror stuff or it makes him feel uneasy after the PC got attacked by Takeru?

Winter: (December-February) (between 5am and 11am)

"I get more delivery orders on cold days... It's a pain in the ass, but I guess I'll just wear an extra layer..." 寒ぃ日ってさ、出前の注��や��ら増えんだよな…… めんどくせぇけど今日は１枚多めに着とくか……

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Damn, I really wanna go snowboarding. I used to go every year before I ended up here... Think they got a good slope in Frostheim?" マジでスノボ行きてぇ……ここ来る前は、毎年必ず行ってたのによぉ。 フロストハイムで滑れねぇの？

I bet they do I mean rich people would wanna go skiing now and then right? It's just a matter of would they let a vagastromer use them. . .then again what're they gonna do, stop him?

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Huh? I'm looking at a catalog. I could serve hot food if I had an electric pot. I'm thinking about it." ……あぁ？　カタログ見てんだよ。保温ジャーがありゃ、あったけぇメニュー出せんだろ？ 考え中

this makes it sound like his food isn't served hot lol to my understanding he does make everything in advance, not on the spot but i assume he means like. hot-hot. like soups for the winter kind of thing. he should do it! serve up some new england clam chowder.

(between 8pm and 5am)

"I'm freezing my ass off... I just saw Mido walk past in a T-shirt. Are his nerve endings dead?" クソ寒ぃ……さっき御堂センパイ、Ｔシャツ１枚で出てったんだけど。自律神経狂ってんじゃねぇ？

Apparently I'm Alan lmao i too experience less cold than other people

His birthday: (August 19th)

"What, you're gonna celebrate my birthday? What do I want for a present? Hmm... I'll take you. Just kidding." へぇ、俺の誕生日祝ってくれんの？プレゼント…… じゃあさ、あんたのことくれよ。 なんてな

Y'KNOW I'M SURE THEY WOULDN'T MIND IF YOU WEREN'T KIDDING THO YOU ARE VERY POPULAR then again based on his valentine's day dialogue he knows that lol

Your birthday:

"Know what this is, {PC}? Yep—an R&R permit. Today's your birthday, right? So, where are we going?" センパイ、これ何だと思う？　そ、外出許可書。 今日、誕生日だろ？どこ行きたいか考えとけよ

I'm beginning to suspect that he heavily values freedom and being able to go where he wants and do what he wants. That includes taking you wherever you wanna go. Even at max affinity he has the same response--'we're going somewhere, anywhere you want.' At max affinity he doesn't mention an R&R permit--which suggests he doesn't care if you get in trouble going out, as long as you actually get to go out. One of the first things we see him talking about relating to Darkwick is asking Leo if he regrets going--I think Sho regrets it. He can't leave whenever he wants, even though he's one of the top students as far as grades, he's more restricted in what he's allowed to do and when. . .so I think these offers to drive you anywhere in total freedom are his ways of showing you what means the most to him. Just. . .being able to do whatever, whenever. I think that's also part of why he likes Leo so much. Leo doesn't let himself be restricted either. Leo gets into fights and into trouble and Sho complains about it but he understands the liberation. Sho wants to see that unrestricted you, I think. Even if it isn't anything extreme, even if it isn't anything exciting. He wants to see what you're like out of Darkwick's cage. So he'll take you on little joyrides into freedom. Show him where you go and what you do when no one's there to stop you.

New Years: (January 1st)

"What'd I wish for at midnight? For this year to be peaceful... Not that any gods are listening out for us." 新年の願い事ねぇ……今年こそ、平穏無事に過ごせますように…… って、神様叶える気ねぇだろな

Well when you've been chosen by demons. . .yeah, you're probably not on the good side of many gods.

Valentine's Day: (February 14th)

"Yeah, these are all the chocolates I got. No idea how I'm gonna get through them all... So? You didn't get me anything?" ああ、これ全部もらったチョコ。これ食いきんのきちぃんだよな…… で、センパイは俺にくれねぇの？

I'm surprised Leo's wasn't similar to this tbh. Like, Leo's an influencer, why didn't he mention getting a metric fuckton of valentine's day chocolate? I'm happy Sho's loved by the students tho haha.

White Day: (March 14th)

"Baking sweets and cooking are totally different. It's not really in my wheelhouse, but... here. My firsts. Thanks for the chocolates." 菓子作りと料理は別もんだからよ、普段はやんねぇんだけど…… はい。俺の初焼き菓子、お返しにどうぞ

THE FIRST TIME HE EVER BAKED AND IT'S FOR YOU what a sweetheart. considering how good he is at just about everything i'm sure they came out just fine

April Fool's Day: (April 1st)

"Hey, it's snowing outside. Wait, guess that's not so unlikely in this place... I used to get duped by that one all the time when I was a kid." おい、外、雪降ってんぞ？ って、この学園じゃ嘘になんねぇか。ガキの頃、これ何回やられたことか……

we found the one thing he's not good at! pulling pranks!

Halloween: (October 31st)

"You really need an explanation? Leo made me wear it! Shit, why am I always the girl..." ああ？　言わなくてもわかんだろ。玲音に着せられたんだっつの！ クソ、なんで毎年女装なんだよ……

Your boyfriend best friend makes you crossdress for him on Halloween on a yearly basis. . .and you do it!!!

Christmas: (December 25th)

"Sorry for making you help me prep all these roast chicken orders... Wanna do something Christmassy together once we're done?" センパイ、チキンの注文さばく��手伝わせて悪ぃ…… 今日の分片付いたら、俺らもクリスマス楽しもうぜ

Christmas is often considered a holiday spent with a lover in Japan to my understanding. . .what are you suggesting Sho. . . .

Idle: (about 20 seconds without interacting with the game) (below 13 affinity)

"What're you looking at?" あぁ？　見てんじゃねぇよ

little peek at the delinquent thug vibe lol

(13 affinity and above)

"C'mon. Hurry up, or I'm gonna leave you behind." センパイ、そろそろ行くぞ。早くしねぇと置いてっちまうぜ？

Always on the go, always doing something, he doesn't wanna leave you behind but he won't wait too long so. . .come back already?

Absent: (logging in for the first time in 2 or more days?)

"What took you so long? Your food's cold. Go wash up." 遅ぇよ……あんたの飯、冷めちまっただろ。 さっさと手ぇ洗ってこい

Alright, mom.

I STILL FEEL LIKE I CHOSE A BUNCH THIS ONE IS ALSO ALL OF THEM NOW . . .Sho is pretty lowkey. But after rereading them all and giving it some thought, you can definitely get a feel for his character. He seems like he keeps busy a lot--he's always doing something. Cooking, playing sports, reading, memorizing his textbooks. . .he's confident and comfortable and sometimes he's a bit rough around the edges. And sometimes he's a little flirty too, if he likes you. But that's all part of how confident and self-assured he is--and he has plenty of reason to be when he's so smart and skilled at damn near everything he touches. He acts more like the senpai character here. He's a lot like Haku, except where Haku is a bit lazier and less motivated(although he still works hard) Sho is always on the go. Always up to something, always trying something. He likes to keep busy and doesn't like to sit still--to the point that he even considers going to class when he's got nothing to do during the day. He wakes up and has nothing to do? Let's call Leo, he's usually got something going on. He complains about Alan making him work out so much or go to the pit or play basketball real hard? He still goes and does it anyway. But it seems like he just. . .always wants to be busy. I can't really think of many points he just kinda had downtime. Yeah, he goes fishing and reads and watches basketball(?) but like. . .he's still occupied even then. Then again maybe that's because he's stuck in Darkwick. He'd rather be driving around somewhere or doing some sport but he can't do so much unless he can leave. . .he feels a little restless to me. But maybe that's just me haha.

[voidprincess-1111]

Hello all. You might have known by now that the sole reason for creating this blog is to enter the void and manifest my dream life. So I wanna track my journey here. Here is the routine I follow

1. during the day I make sure get enough sunlight and workout

2. I will meditate on the pineal gland for 15-20 mins in the morning and in the evening

3. I stop eating 3 hours before bed and I stop blue light three hours before bed

4. I will listen to my fav lucid dream subliminal - entire playlist and @adambja I am in control tape

5. I will affirm out loud in the mirror before sleeping

6. I will script and affirm rampages/vaunts on void 5 times atleast

7. at night I will do sats with the theta wave meditation in the background

8. the important step: I will get sound sleep for 6 hours and then I'll wake and move around (take a leak, eat and drink) then I will stretch/excercise for a bit to make myself tired and I will change my sleeping place and position (I will sleep on my back) and do some breath work to relax and enter the vibrational stage by listening to slade's void sub. If I do end up sleeping then I will do the phase method during my awakenings!

that's it!!! I know this is complicated but this got me too close many times so I won't stop the routine. I might skip a few steps except for the last cuz that's the crucial part.

Here is the part where I will keep updating. This method was inspired by @sugarcoatedcherry so thanks a lot bb. I would love if you guys kept commenting to ask for progress since it keeps me motivated to try the routine and update regularly. Help a girly out :)

Day 1: I was able to realise I'm dreaming in a dream :)

Day 2: I got 5 vivid dreams and I was able to recall everything:)

Day 3: I couldn't recall any dreams I had :/

Day 4: so i didn't sleep last night lmao

Day 5: I LUCID DREAMT

Day 6: I barely slept lmao

Day 7: I got only 4 hrs of sleep because I fasted the night

Day 8: I didn't sleep all day because I had terrible period cramps

day 9: I had one very vivid dream and I tried entering the void later. I was having hypnagogic sceneries but I couldn't enter a lucid dream

day 10: I took a nap and I dreamt of a nightmare where I was drowning? it was scary omg

day 11: I didn't follow the routine and didn't recall anything

day 12: I recalled every single dream (one of them was steamy 🥰)

day 13:

day 14:

[akaashislover1]

Imagine:

Imagine you are in your baby girls bedroom and you’re cradling her tiny sleeping body in your arms. The soothing warmth of her fuzzy onesie heated up your skin. You walk around the room smiling down at your gorgeous girl. As you turn towards the door, your eyes avert from your baby to your husband. Ushijima smiled as he entered the room. He stood beside you and placed one arm on the small of your back and the other went to rest under your arm and your baby’s head for additional support.

“As soon as I put her pyjamas on.” You whispered back. A yawn followed soon after even though you didn’t feel like going to bed. Ushijima let out a small chuckle and he began to wriggle his hands past your arms to grab your baby. His ginormous palms nearly engulfed her body as they wrapped around her sleeping figure.

If you didn’t have a sleep wave suddenly wash over you, you’d want to pounce your husband and ride him like there’s no tomorrow show him how much you love him. It’s a damn dirty shame though that Ushijima has to work early in the morning. No amount of fatigue could drag you away from this moment. The vision of watching your gorgeous husband holding your beautiful sleeping baby. Ushijima tenses his hands as he shifted your daughter in his arms enough to slowly and gently place her down in her crib. You both wait a few minutes to make sure that she doesn’t wake up.

As you exit the room you make sure to sun off the lights completely. The only light left was the slight hue of blue and pink coming from your daughters mobile above her crib. The two of you left hand in hand, making your way to your shared bedroom. Ushijima slipped his hand away and slithered it around your waist, pulling you flushed against him.

“I love you.” Ushijima mumbled with a low, tired grumble. You leant your head on his shoulder and closed your eyes as you made it to your bedroom. The bed was ready for you two to jump in, the beside tables had lamps that were ready to get shut off for the night. The window was slightly cracked open, a night summer breeze flowed in. Your husband jumped into bed first, you following soon after. You wrapped your arms around his body immediately after getting the blankets and pillows situated.

“I’m so lucky.” You snored against his chest.

“Not as lucky as me.”

Sorry if the ending sucked. I have been working all day everyday for the past 3 weeks and I am getting through the day on 2 hrs of sleep.

[memoriesndew]

day 30/90 || 03/10/2024 || dews weight loss lock in ♬ 

🍵logging in... wow it's already october. when was the last time I updated again? no idea but here I am

🎧 now playing : Yeshua by Jesus Image

🎀 currently : 🎹 practice ; practiced Mary had a little lamb bcs i decided to teach myself yay??

reflection:

✿ today was ok but kinda stressful and I wasn't able to study today which sucks I also did like 3 days worth of workouts today because I missed tuesday's and wednesday's workouts but I completed it so yay. other than that the only other thing that bumped me out is the fact that I didn't study ahh that sucks. but yh I'm pretty tired right now so I'll try to update the best I can and complete my night routine, then go to bed.

achievements:

wrote and uploaded 2 blog posts

practiced piano (getting there frl)

duolingo streaks

caught up with missed workouts

ate less (kinda not sure)

worked out for 67 mins today

today's workout :

5 MIN STANDING DAILY FULL BODY WORKOUT (LIGHT & QUIET ) SUMMER BODY CHALLENGE With Shirlyn Kim

HOURGLASS AT HOME PILATES WORKOUT l Get Small Waist & Ab l Weight Loss l Quiet & Slow Ver. Shirlyn♥

At Home Pilates Workout l Slim Waist & Weight Loss l Korean Hourglass Workout l Slim Body Challenge

10 MIN FULL BODY FAT BURN CARDIO WORKOUT l Burn Belly Fat & Lots of Cals l Happy Sweat Time♥_Shirlyn

LE SSERAFIM's Real Workout Routines

12 MIN FULL BODY PILATES l Korean Fitness At Home l Full Body Shred 7Day Challenge_ Shirlyn Kim

meals :

brunch

╰・fried rice + stew + cucumber and evaporated milk

snacks

╰・egg toast a few

dinner

╰・bread and milk

habit tracking:

maintain calorie deficit of 1,254/1200 ❌️ hit 10k steps ❌️ 7+ hrs of sleep ❌️ 2.25L/2L of water ✅️

30mins+ of movement ✅️ journal progress ✅️ movement cycle [2/3] ❌️ eat between 12 pm and 8 pm ❌️

💌notes: not sure if I'm calculating my calories correctly

﹥*:ꔫ:*+ﾟ

photo credits: pinterest and tumblr

[strellzzz]

OKAY GUYS I FINALLY GOT WIFI NOW I CAN REALLY START MAKIN STORYS. ヾ(*´∀｀*)ﾉ

I ALSO WANNA SAY THANK U FOR 50 FOLLOWERS 🩷 .

(okay so i’m gonna do my first lil fanfic)

' 𝘍𝘪𝘳𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳. '

(miles morales)

- you and miles have been dating for almost 3 months now.

your in your room making tiktok’s when all of sudden a message notification pop up on your phone.

- when you saw that text you was getting kind of worried cause you don’t know where this text message is gonna lead to.

you started smiling at your phone cause you loved when he called you “mamas”. you went on your clock app and set your phone to wake you up at 12:30 am cause you knew damn well you don’t be getting up early.

you put your phone down on the night stand and went to sleep.

11 hrs later ...

your alarm went off wakin u up. your half asleep and half woke. you looked at your phone and pressed snooze.

5 mins later...

your alarm went off once again. you sighed while turning to your phone pressing stop. you started stretching while getting up from your bed. you looked at your phone and you saw it's 12:37 , you thought to yourself and thought why would you set the alarm so early. you laid back in your bed and started facetiming miles. it took atleast 3 rings for him to answer , when he answered it was nothing but a black screen.

"hello ..."

when he said this you can hear nothing but his deep soft sleepy voice.

"you still sleep?"

"well i was ... but you called me.."

"why are you still up..?"

"i set my alarm to 12:30 and now i can't go to sleep."

it was a lil pause. all of sudden you heard moving noises and then you saw his tired face.

"why would you..."

you cut him off before he even finished his sentence.

"don't even ask"

"well just get ready and call me when your done"

"okay"

"ight"

he hangs up and you put your phone back on the nightstand. you got up out of your bed and went to the bathroom. you took off your clothes and went inside the shower washing every body part making sure you smell good. you get out the shower grabbing your towel and wrapping it around your body. you looked in the mirror while grabbing your toothbrush and toothpaste brushing your teeth.

after doing your skin care routine and everything else you went to your room to try and find clothes to wear.

( just visualize what you want to wear )

you found the clothes you want to wear and you placed them on the bed. you took your towel off and started drying yourself with it. you started putting your bra and your underwear on. you eventually started putting on your clothes.

you took off your bonnet that you had on your head. eventually you started calling him.

he answered.

"im on my way"

"well damn."

"yeah. im just quick like that"

"you wanna see my outfit?"

"nah. surprise me."

you placed your phone down where he can only see your celling. you started putting on perfume and putting on your shoes.

all of sudden you started hearing a honk outside your house. you looked out your window. it's him

"im outside"

"okay give me a min."

you hung up and grabbed your purse while putting stuff in there like your lipgloss and wallet etc. you walked to your front door leaving your house.

you went up to his car. he got out the car and walked to you kissing you on your lips. he stopped and started looking at you.

"you look so good mama.. and smell real good."

"thank youu" you started smilin.

he opened the front door for you. you got inside the car , he made sure you was in there for he won't close the door on your foot or leg. he walked to his side of the car and got in.

he starts driving to his house. eventually you guys got there. you both got out the car and went inside the house.

as you and him were walking in he leads you to the living room. you see his mom and dad sitting on the couch together.

"mom. dad. this is y/n."

they both got up and walked towards you and him.

his mom: so this is the girl you always talk about!

she looks at you.

his mom: it's so nice to meet you! and you look so pretty!

"thank u!" you smiled.

his dad: better looking then that white girl he was talking too.

she turned around to jefferson and gave him that look.

his dad: WHAT ?? i'm just saying !! i didn't like her and you didn't either.

"dad..please " he started covering his face 🤦🏾‍♂️ .

his dad: my bad my bad.

his mom: anyways...

she looked back at you.

his mom: make yourself at home !

"okay thank you !"

miles grab your hand and took you to his room.

his dad: U BETTA KEEP THAT DOOR OPEN TO A BARE MINIMUM.

__________________________________________

i know it's alotta details 😭😭😭 i hope y'all like it also should i do a part 2 ?

[peepthatbish]

Hey @wayfayrr what if I told you… that I woke up at 4:30am for a ~7am flight.

Am I tired? Yes. Am I running on a vague 3 hrs of sleep and whatever sleep I got on my first flight? Yes. Have I not eaten breakfast cause I’m saving myself for some killer food back home? Also yes.

Also ahh, uni fire alarms are the best. Ironically like, last week, my apartment’s fire alarm set off our entire building’s. And so we had to go outside while it was just above freezing point. It was… fun

Also literally feel free to spam stuff in my inbox or anythin. I hide so many thoughts in my tags lmao. I’m glad you caught that in particular 👀

[strawbhat]

04-10-24

HAIII

I didn't write yesterday... i think i was too sleepy :3

yesterday i saw ,my friend! she came round to clear up her old flat and me and my mum helped rip up her carpets ehehe. my mum bought us pizza!! she is an angel after that i think i just rotted and played sims for 7 hrs straight... super into sims rn

today ermmm i DEFINITELY FOR SURE didnt skip college.. oopsie! in my defense i had a baby migraine and if i went i probably would have collapsed or soemthing... ummm. i swear. but i went back to sleep instead of going and slept 15 hours! so i must have needed it.

and then all ive done is play the sims... im building an emo starter home bc theres an event rn where u chill with the grim reaper (BC THERES A SUPER COOL PACK COMING OUT I WANT IT SOOOO BAD)

im going back to rotting idc. i am tired! i dont wanna go out tmrw! my head hurts! like this if i should fake food poisoning.

song of the day is i think

You're So Vain by Carly Simon. WHITE GIRL ANTHEM!

[jordanandegypt]

Zürich, Switzerland

Tuesday, Sept 10, 2024

Greetings All.  We are in Zurich trying to change our body clocks by 6 hours.  Easier said than done.  We flew yesterday from Detroit to Amsterdam and the idea is to sleep the night away as we transverse the Atlantic - but both Mark and I got maybe 2 - 2.5 hours of sleep during our 7 hour flight.  We left Detroit at 6:30 PM and arrived 7 hours later in Amsterdam at 8:30 AM their time. - but at 1:30 AM our time.  We had a short layover (1 hr and 25 minutes) but in Amsterdam this is JUST enough time to get to your next flight - so we got to the gate and boarded.  The flight from Amsterdam to Zürich is only an hour and while I may have slept on that flight it was not more than 20 minutes.

We got a pretty pricey cab from the airport to our hotel - but we could not face figuring out public transportation as tired as we were.  Sadly - our hotel room was not ready.  We opted for a leisurely lunch in which Mark had cold spicy melon soup and I have garam marsala butter chicken - both delicious - but really all we wanted was a bed to stretch out on.  (Don’t worry I will not tell you everything we eat!!) After lunch we got the news that our room still wasn’t ready and I did something I have NEVER done - feel asleep in a chair in the lobby of the hotel.  But by 3:30 we were in our hotel and we opted for naps - until 5:00.  Hopefully bedtime will come easily...

Enough about us…. Let’s get to our adventure...

The theme for this trip is “OLD STUFF.”  We will start with "real old" and work our way to "OMG WAY WAY OLD."  We, in the US, get so excited when we see a structure from the late 1600s  or early 1700s - but that is a joke in this part of the world - kinda a “baby building.”  

So let’s start with Zürich Switzerland - our current “home."

From what we have seen, Zürich is a beautiful city surrounded by the foothills of the Alps mountains located at the northern end of Lake Zürich and built on Limmat River (pronounced “Limit” that flows from Lake Zürich.  This city has a history going back centuries. 

The town was founded by the Romans a bit over 2,000 years ago. Recent excavations show evidence of settlement even before that -  over 6,400 years ago. 

We explored the old city from about 5:30 to 9:00 - or 17:30 to 21:00 - as any citizen of the world would say - with a a few exceptions - like us.

Surprises:  There are no “walk/don’t walk” signs - pedestrians just have the right of way - PERIOD!

There is graffiti everywhere - I was shocked!

EVERYONE smokes!  Or it seems that way.  DISGUSTING!

I went to buy our 24 hour pass for public transportation and was told to just keep in with us.  If asked we would have to show it - but there is no check in - check out system.  Trust, my friends.

Things we expected:  Public transportation options would be numerous and easy to use and very clean.

People would be helpful and kind

Things would be EXPENSIVE.

We took the tram to old town and at one point saw this:

While we were listening to  this:  

Kind of eye and ear candy.

I think I forgot to say what the Swiss flag looked like - so here you go…

We ate dinner at an outdoor cafe - late - (when in Rome, so they say) and it was outstanding.  Mark had cold roast beef with horseradish sauce and I had “Rösti” with smoked salmon, onions, capers and a dill sauce.  OMG!!!

Rösti is shredded potatoes fried in butter and made into a mound.  You can get lots of different kinds of “Rösti’ and I highly recommend it.  Split with someone  - it is huge.  (It will be breakfast for us tomorrow.)

Tomorrow - we will explore more than the transportation system.  I’m going to bed. It is 22:00 here and I'm hoping to wake up for the first - and maybe only - presidential debate - which would be 3:00 AM here. If I do - I'll watch it live. If I don't - I will be more rested when I watch it later Either way - we are in Zürich rooting for Kamala!!

CIAO!  (Yes - they say that here too)

[unrequited-words]

6/19/24

Juneteeth

What pisses me off more than fucking ANYTHING . . .

When you go on social media, and all you've ever wanted in your life is to be included. This has to deal with his stepmom. She posted pictures of going to a water park/amusement park with all of the kids/cousins. I know we can't be invited to everything and I only get so much PTO off but they never fucking ASK us.

I received an email from work stating that the time I asked off is denied so I can do one of two things. I can wake up, work 3 hours and then go and get my step kids and spend 7 hours on the fucking road and have Sunday off to recuperate.

OR

Say, FUCK IT you have to drive, pick up your kids with the child we share while I work.

I should be getting more PTO in the next 2 weeks when I get paid again to replenish the time I have now off or have them take the points I received everyday by clocking in which is 200 I'm covered either way but I'm just like

WHAT.THE.FUCK.

He's recently been gaming with his best friend while I work and it's actually starting to really and I mean really piss me off. It's hard to hear customer at full volume with headphones trying to understand their order and how I can help them while he's gaming with his buddy and talking pretty loudly etc.

I had to go on mute today to shush him to basically say shut the fuck up and the weak ass bitch that I am apologized after and said sorry when I'm the only one working and the agreement was you watch our kid while I support family of five when sometimes it's usually a family of three.

It's really difficult when my daughter is almost four likes to scream and dance and jump when if I worked in the office it would be harder if I worked IN the office... I would never see my partner or my kid because I would spend the time commuting on a damn train and somehow walking to work and losing sleep so it's better that I work from home but working from home currently sucks and I shouldn't have to babysit a grown ass man and say could you tone it down a bit... So I can you I know, idk... maybe work?

What am I doing now? I am making dinner again. I might have another beer maybe I'm tired of having terrible and I mean terrible sleep

I'm tired that everything lies on my shoulders... bills, chores, dishes and laundry ... I asked him to vacuum last night which he was glad to do and he threw out his back and I felt like garbage because I know he's healing and he hurts... He threw out his back .. but I mean isn't that kind of in the job title of stay at home dad?

Some days, feel like I have another toddler. As soon as I get on break I ask him what can I do for you? What do you need? I also also make sure my kid is taken care of I also make sure she's fed, if she needs to go potty etc

I have zero and I mean zero FUCKING mom friends.

I have no female mom friends and this feels so and I mean so

FUCKING LONELY

I make too much money for state insurance... I cannot afford to go to the marketplace to insure myself and my kid when I'm not barely making rent were in a comfortable spot because of the dividend I got from work, and taxes but I also just spent $1,000 on parts for the car and his truck

When I want something like to get my feet done or to get my eyebrows done because he drives everywhere and I don't have a license it's hard for him and inconveniences him for. Aan hr or so for me ... I look like a dude

I'll probably delete this later because I have literally no one to bitch to

FUCK I NEED A VACATION and to be included

SO.BAD.

[foolishmortal]

#9 in the professor’s wife for the fanfiction ask, please! (i reread it at least three times a year, it’s a comfort work for sure) 💕💕💕💕💕

(for this fic writer's prompt)

9) In your xxx fic, what’s your favourite scene that you wrote?

Honestly hilarious that in this case xxx is a neat placeholderfor xxxHolic!

So, backstory (which you can skip to read bolded answer at the end):

It was spring of my 3rd year in engineering school, and the class load was absolutely brutal. Regular xxxHolic updates were among the few things that kept my exhausted depressed brain looking forward to the next week. (thanks to whoever was doing the scanlations on mangafox - i owe you several bottles of scotch) My absolutely lunatic weekday schedule was: 1-6pm: class and lab Dinner w/ my roommates, the only nice thing during the day 8pm - 3am: homework, projects, studying, post-lab work Sleep from 3am - 9am Work until lunch

And then the last chapter of holic came out, and my tired and dramatic ass literally took to my bed and cried. XD I had so many hopes and theories for the series, and I was not in a place for CLAMP's fuckery.

So I was possessed by a strange angry fugue state while writing this fic, fueling me to write it all in 6-8 weeks. And the ONLY way to squeeze in writing time was to borrow against my sleep schedule, so I legit wrote this in 3 hr blocks from 3am - 6am every day, until I finished. Never had that kind of wild inspiration and drive before or since. So what I am trying to say here is, I do not remember writing this fic, and my memory of what it contains is hazy at best. (I do NOT remember writing the sentient shop chapter at ALL. I think that probably manifested from me reading "-And He Built a Crooked House-" by Heinlen the previous month). My actual answer: From what I remember, my favorite scene in the fic that I cherish to pieces is this little exchange here in Chapter 8:

Himawari followed his nod slowly. "Y-es. They've been together for many years." Her eyes twinkled. "You could say they were high-school sweethearts."

"We most certainly were not!" Watanuki protested. Himawari's shoulders were shaking in barely repressed laughter.

"Yes we were," Doumeki said, suddenly poking his annoying face into the room. "You were just too stupid to notice."

"Well excuse me for not picking up on our whirlwind teenage romance," Watanuki shot back.

"It's fine," Doumeki replied matter-of-factly. "Stop eavesdropping and help me put out the futons."

I love the dynamics between them in this scene. I really love the "everyone knows but them" trope and enjoy fun ensemble fics in general, which is why I was a painfully shy, voracious lurker in XMFC fandom back when it exploded onto the scene on LJ, then AO3.

The trio's easy familiarity in this scene recalls their high school friendship, but matured now that all the characters have established themselves as adults and gained a lot more self-awareness, emotional intelligence, and found their own individual happiness.

Anyway .. that was a lot of words. Hope this satisfies your ask!

[medstudentblues]

D-3 of start of clerkship

since my last post I had been following the same routine (daily laundry, light studying, etc), except this week I went to school to distribute our merch, then had pedia endorsement yesterday at 8pm which lasted for 3 hours!! it was overwhelming and nothing stuck (and I'm someone who's familiar with hospital routine/bedside duties because of my pre-med) so I just let it go because there's nothing we can do about it, we'll best learn the routine in pedia department this coming weekend and forward, in the hospital not through a ppt presentation.

but!! today I celebrated with my family my birthday. we kept losing each other, my brother and his family went anyway even though they had 2-6 hrs of sleep because it's their body clock (a sweet, big thing for me!), my father was mostly quiet, and my tito was pleasantly chatty. I gave my cute niece lots and lots of kisses which she hated lol. we were supposed to play billiards after as is our routine when we were kids, but it was closed and I already had a moderate migraine because of the heat and how crowded the mall was because it's a holiday, so I just said we'll play next time. we went to the parking area, my beau took me home, and I had a GOOD nap. glorious. next thing I knew it's 6pm and it's incredibly hot so I got out of bed.

I just made my daily protein drink, looked up the master files for our pedia rotation and since I don't have to print anything yet, I'll shower and maybe do some studying since I have nothing else to do anyway. will turn in around midnight or 1am, hopefully!

--

what I'm feeling: I am already feeling tired lol. even though I rejected all the clerk student council positions yesterday during the election, I am still the prime leader (or "president") of my section or "prime" as we call it. but it's fine, I'm used to the job. I've served as a student leader since forever so I know I won't be too tired compared to our student council exhaustion when I was in third year. there will be meetings, but it won't be as excessive and long as when I was an MSC. I hope everything's lighter and fun this year.