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Would you be willing to talk more about what you called "neuro rotation" a post or two ago? It sounds interesting and like it might be helpful

i hope you find my latest post helpful 🙏🏼

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what’s the app you used in your last post for studying?

ypt!! :)

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11.21.24

can it be really 1 week left before december? time just keeps passing by. i live day to day, measured by how well i’m doing clinically, how well i did life things - did i workout this week? did i eat well? did i journal? did i study? if not i tell myself it’s okay. my job and schedule are inhumane. it’s a miracle i’m doing so well. it’s a miracle my peers think i’m great - but i’m feeling so exhausted. i have to always tell myself to slow down, to relax, to just breathe.

so how have i been lately?

after my OB rotation which was tiring in itself, i did my LO (coordinator - liason officer) job and it was crazy in its own. i tried my best to make it most fun, but we were exhausted. i really enjoyed neurology though despite its toxicity. i love localizing the lesion in the brain, i love the thinking. we had a case of ischemic stroke and was there within the golden period of giving altaplase (something to lyse to clot) and from being almost dead-like, not moving, i saw her the next day alive, walking, just having finished her bath. and it felt good, you know? a miracle. with just a medication, a sister, a mother, a grandma, was alive and kicking, ready to face another decade or so of her life. neuro was surely something, but it was exhausting. we were overbooked. we were spent.

and now here we are in our psychiatry rotation. where the schedule is so much better and the workload is very light. it’s the emotional aspect that it’s heavy but we are managing. lately we had been getting ER calls, college students, some with suicide attempts. some from abusive backgrounds. it’s just. it never ends. but we have to move on. this is our only time to breathe before yet another grueling major rotation in Internal Medicine. we have to make do. so i spend my days studying, working out, and spending time with my beau and dog.

life is okay so far. i hope i survive.

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11.20.24

current rotation: psychiatry

currently studying!!! i was from PM duty last night (7pm-7am) and had to stay until 12PM today due to conferences. this is the only thing i hate about being a doctor — the inhumane schedule. i had a take out when i got back, showered, and ate it on bed while i watched game of thrones!!! i fell asleep after. now i’m just studying before i sleep. the cleaning can wait tomorrow.

psych rotation is for recovering, gathering one’s self. perhaps i’ll talk about it more in a post. i want to be more active here despite my schedule (re: study, thoughts on rotations) because i got msgs asking about my rotation and i’m sorry i haven’t replied yet!!! i have just been so insanely busy. i will get to them, yes yes.

but for now i shall study, and maybe watch another game of thrones episode before i sleep!

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sometimes the tragedy of distance is very simple. i want to get groceries with you

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The beauty of living in a walkable city is that when you feel sad you can just walk and walk and walk till you stumble upon a place that makes you feel better

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The New Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (1988)

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11.09.24

I’m slowly getting back my life this neuro rotation. I swam this morning. got a haircut!!! and then now I’m studying before I go to the hospital later for my PM duty.

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11.08.24

a little study session today since I’m off!! was also able to workout and that makes me happy. I’ve also been binge-watching totally spies, my fave childhood cartoon, in youtube

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“Never apologize for burning too brightly or collapsing into yourself every night. That is how galaxies are made.”

— Tyler Kent White

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José Olivarez, from my therapist says make friends with your monsters

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10.13.24

happy sunday!!!!! i am very happy i am off today. tho i have to go to the hosp for malignancy teaching rounds. but it’s fine!! all for the learnings. for today i will just do laundry, workout, rest, and study.

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10.10.24

i can’t believe it’s already october 10th. days are just passing by!!! but !!! i love love where i am. i’m happy where i am even though sometimes i’m tired. i attended a pre-op conference this morning and i got asked lol. thankfully it was just a simple question: the indications and contraindications for vaginal birth after CS that i was able to answer.

then i had breakfast with my beau in a nearby café. i did my journaling there. was hoping i could study but the envt isn’t really conducive for studying. i prefer to study these days at home. now i’m on my bed, about to do my anki cards 💀 hopefully i’ll nap before my PM duty!

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i’ve accepted that i won’t be able to nap anymore… so i just did my daily journaling, sipping my protein drink, enjoying the sun in my balcony, and i’ll probably iron my clothes soon and prepare for PM duty 🎀

10.05.24

i just finished doing anki for hours (quite a load to catch up to because i studied a lot yesterday) and now i want to nap before my PM OB ER duty. i’m happy and grateful, despite the toxicness of every duty. despite our emergency OR yesterday that lasted until 530am. i really feel like i’m in the right place.

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10.05.24

i just finished doing anki for hours (quite a load to catch up to because i studied a lot yesterday) and now i want to nap before my PM OB ER duty. i’m happy and grateful, despite the toxicness of every duty. despite our emergency OR yesterday that lasted until 530am. i really feel like i’m in the right place.

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09.28.24

journaling before i go to PM duty. i’m so proud of myself for being productive today but still well-rested. 😊