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faefellangel · 5 months ago

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Aldwyn Cousland | Corrin Lavellan

#aldwyn cousland #corrin lavellan #dragon age origins #dragon age #dragon age inquisition #inquisitor #grey warden #Aldwyn's aged up for this in line with dai hehe #maybe mid 40s?? corrin would be in her late 20s start and 30s by tresspasser #ill get to hawk later i cba atm #i got to go to work kms

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hanzajesthanza · 4 months ago

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my favorite thing about the witcher that gets censored in its adaptations is the penchant for suicide that its characters seem to have

#and then how it doesnt work out. or it does #not even a joke bc geralt 🤝 ciri ‘im going to kms’#love how regis got alive again and then got drunk and killed himself. again. dedication #i like how ciri chickens out of her attempt . relatable #i love that yennefer is too stubborn for suicide too. in character #her taurus ass was like im not dying lol #yennefer when shes being tortured and all her fingers broken: call an ambulance… but not for me!#witcher protags either want to kill themselves. kill themselves. or get crucified #the elbow-high diaries

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anonbinaryweirdo · 9 months ago

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if this account is still active by college expect updates about my situationship (my rivals/enemies to lovers girlfriend i made up in my head weeks ago)

#i met this girl?? she’s so nice she’s my partner in a few of our classes #help she offered to study with me #theatre class !! i’ll post updates 🫶🏽 im GETTING that lead role #oh i didn’t know she also wanted to audition for this role #oh.#she just?? patronized me?? what #i take it back !! she is not nice and i do not like her <3 #she’s so fucking annoying all because she made 2 points higher than me bfr #she spilled her coffee on me in the hallway. i don’t even have a change of clothes #i hate her sm #im being forced to partner with her for the project what 🙁 i will commit #im going to go crazy we actually have to work together i hate working with her okgfjhfjfhf #update: we’re at her dorm because she insisted on not wanting to go to mine kms #WHY IS SHE BEING SO UNCOOPERATIVE. THIS IS AN IMPORTANT PROJECT im sonfucking. she’s so annoying #we js got done arguing over who was going to do the writing (im doing the writing 🫶🏽)#im about to go back to my own dorm this is giving me a headache. i literally cannot do this anymore #update: so uh #guess who got laid

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indigopoptart · 2 months ago

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lil life update

birthday baking (shitty photo)

i decided i didnt want a cake this year so i did all this!! while slowly losing my mind on a saturday.

me and my mom did the decorations!!

i have to thank my girlfriend, my friend Sam, and my Penjamin for keeping me sane through this tough yet joyous time

#life update #baking #indigo speaks #pictures #tiramisu #cake pops #pumpkin pie #indigo’s snapshots #birthday #augh idk if i have much to add #im lowk tired and stressed!#working 4 days a week this week!!! maybe five if my coworker needs me to also cover her tuesday shift #i can only wake up at 6 am for so many days before losing my mind #at least i leave early tmrw and tuesday tho #augh #i need another hit of the penjamin #i miss my friends i miss drawing i miss a lot but AUGH augh we ball.#at least i got my septum and hoohaa pierced as a reward for turning 19 #dont tell anyone about that second part #im swagmaxxing #my friends keep encouraging me to talk to my piercer about an apprenticeship (been thinking hard on it lately) and i wanna SO baf #BUT IM SCARED YK #OF REJECTION #WHAT IF SHE SAYS NO #then thats my only shot in my mind kms #smh ok #penjamin hit #time to go back outside to the family

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6ebe · 2 months ago

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Applying for 50 jobs within 12 months and not getting a single offer is almost an accomplishment woah I’m so talented x

#it’s killing me j wasted the last 3 months of my life working full time unpaid (internship)#and I was like. j need to suck up this bc it’ll get me a job #and I’ve applied to 25 jobs since starting this internship and I have not succeeded in getting a job #I just want to kms I’m ngl #my current org has offered me a full time job buy for a salary that’s literally minimum wage #so. that’s pretty fucking crap #I applied to 25 jobs in the last month while working full time . like I am so exhausted #I had an interview yesterday morning literally the morning of my grandmas funeral and just got emailed now that I haven’t gotten the job #yknow? I’m just heartbroken at this point #and I still have 1 week left working this internship and there’s literally no point #I was literally a middle level manager in this current job for no pay even worker across a weekend once #and it’s literally for nothing 🤣🤣🤣#I have a masters degree !! and 4 months of full time work experience and another several years worth of working part time #it’s not like I’m one of those grads who’s never worked a day in their life #and like i know no one can get a job these days. like barely any of my friends have anything #but money is beginning to become a little terrifying. so shelving the corporate applications and time to go back to being a barista again #not that I’m even guaranteed getting a job in that.#just spent a week living with a friend in Boston who IS employed straight out of undergrad for a rly cool nonprofit #literallt living my dream yknow what that rly challenged my ability to just be happy for my friends #I just don’t know how I keep on going like this tbh

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purpurussy · 4 months ago

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#tw suicide #idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT #i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone #and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess #but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm #but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing #hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this 😭#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse #to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house #and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like #to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age #but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me #also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently #tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me #i thought it was a “let's live together and get a cat one day” relationship #but now i feel like for them. it was just a “sex and video games” type situation #i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself #and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons #most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks #idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear #this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly #sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point #and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have #the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona #so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem #anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope

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tiddiesoutwhenthetisout · 3 months ago

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not me curling my laptop charger wire the way you curl band equipment cords HAHAHA god i miss it

#i really said “okay big performance in the city square let's make this work” and i did but absolute fuckery of the manager just made me...#and she also used to complain about being an opening act-- like come on that's a nationally-renowned band and we're not there yet 😭#we used to fight a lot though so ack i really should have taken that as a red flag #but i was 14 and stupid 🤷‍♂️#being solo way better uM i shouldn't say this yet but i got a commission today audhauagah i don't even have a portfolio #fuck guys i'm so so so nervous from big changes in life because uM god i just came from actual hell with various things working to make me #kms #but uH we're uH not too keen on that anymore atm and uH it's probably going to all fuck up after i share that i have good news in life #but yk what #let's keep challenging god #i know he hates me #but we will not be defeated we will strangle him by the tie #AHHHH help me i want to get into music again pls pls pls pls pls #anyway back to my old band manager #she was known for being a shitwad in the scene anyw but i was young and stupid as i sais #and i defended her and rationalized her behavior because “we're friends right”#i'm starting to get why my mom is wary of people i get to know #i'm tbh a fucking idiot i would never admit that elsewhere (nah i do) uM my brain is bouncing off the walls #i took a bargain with 7pm coffee and look where it got me #i was also getting up there in my 5 days of uni absences agsgshags #DOES ANYONE ACTUALLY READ THESE I KINDA HOPE NOW NO ONE DOES #IM KINDA UHHH MY CHILD THERAPIST SAID UNCONVENTIONAL #I THINK SHE MEANT FUCKING CRAZY #sorry #oh yeah i walked tf out the band after that big performance set up just for us because i couldn't keep working with that kind of environment #other bands started flocking to recruit or proxy after i was let go by my famously fucked-up ex-manager LOL #but um i have issues so i'm not among them and i think they get the message tbh #appears and disappears #that is actually my brand

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lesbiansanemi · 16 days ago

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I'm so tired

#not to come on here just to complain and feel sorry for myself especially because i know things are so much worse for so many other ppl #but as hard as i'm trying it's hard to believe things will be okay i'm trying so hard not to fall into defeatist attitudes #but fuck man. fuck. it's not even that i'm surprised or anything it's just. man #i want to curl up in a ball and just be comforted and cry and be upset but i can't do that and i have no one to do that #my worker's comp payments aren't coming through like they're supposed to and i have like ten dollars and barely any food in the apartment #my injuries aren't getting better the pain is still there even though i'm doing everything i'm supposed to #my meds aren't working but meds have NEVER worked on me and i keep hoping and praying some day i'll find one that will but i fear they won'#i have more psych testing in january but a part of me worries about doing it because if (when) i test positive for certain things it will b #on my record and considering..... the state of things i worry about what that means for me and my autonomy esp regarding anything medical #i still can't convince any doctors to take my issues that are almost CERTAINLY endometriosis seriously and again.... given the state of thi #i find it very hard to believe that will change and will in fact only get worse and i will never be able to get any kind of sterilization o #hysterectomy and if something ever ended up happening and i DID get pregnant well. it would not be good for me #i feel very alone and like i need to and must handle everything on my own but i feel like i'm about to break doing that #and then this. this. this this this this. i know it's not fair to be upset about it. like i said things are so much worse for so many other #but fuck dude. fuck man. mentally i have not been doing good recently and nothing has happened in my life to really help that recently #i want to go back to being so repressed i genuinely felt/believed i was emotionless this was not a good year for the dam to break #i told my therapist the other day that i feel like a toddler. i was so repressed and emotionless for as long as i can remember #so i never learned to deal with big ugly and overwhelming emotions. so i react as a child still learning would because i never got the #chance to learn how to manage them and FUCK MAN i feel like i'm losing it #i know it's important to do what you can and not fall into overly negative mindsets but that's not something i was good at anyways #and now it's even harder but i'm trying. fuck dude i'm trying so hard i want to be hopeful i want to do what i can #i don't want to hate everything and jump immediately to wanting to kms or destroying my whole life because what's the point #i just. holy fuck. man i need a minute to breathe and i wish i had someone physically here to hold me and tell me it's okay #but i don't have that so i'll be a big girl and sort myself out like usual and just hope i don't break yet #i'm gonna go watch anime and try and read fic to distract myself but mannnnnnnn i feel like i'm losing it #kaz rambles

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an-unexpected-trollogy · 6 months ago

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Oh to be Suzanne Collins and have little social media presence and to write a book regarding whatever current societal trend is bothering her at the moment.

#i am feeling. bothered. this weekend #i am hanging out with my wealthy cousins for their bridal shower--thank christ they are not asking me to bring anything--and tired #everyone always talking about their accomplishments and im liek... pls im wanting to go back to my boyfriend and cat right now #everyone asking what i'm doing for work--because that's all ppl seem to care about in this goddamn family--and i have to say #'i'm looking for something else'#like yoo i already lied a whole year about freelancing when really i was attempting to freelance but not getting anywhere #like i was all 'oh i make x a month just workig on my computer!' when really i was making diddly squat #end this fucking generational cycle of lying about yourself because you have to prove to everyone you are ok #i want the suzanne collins life where i can do my writing hobby without putting this fake social media persona on where i police my thought #and only post about cutesy happy things (since my genre is cozy fantasy; i have no intelligence to write anything more complex #and no passion to write anythign other than sf/f #BUT SHOUTOUT TO MY COUSIN'S HUSBAND WHO ASKED IF I READ AND MENTIONED THE WHEEL OF TIME SERIES AND MY NEURONS ACTIVATED LIKE 'HAVE YOU HEAR #OF PRATCHETT AND BRANDON SANDERSON AND GAIMAN? I CAN GIVE YOU RECS #but other than that i have to deal with my aunts bragging about their kids #one of my aunts is kind of colder and i always got this weird vibe from her like i had to earn her love which... ok. whatever. i also think #she considers me very dumb #the only bright side to any of this shit is im not in college anymore thank christ #all my cousins who are in college still have this... 'energy' around them #you know? that 'wanna kms low key but im pretending to smile and laugh' energy #delete later #tw family

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eriecanal · 2 months ago

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coming out as a loser (someone who paid for adobe) but has anyone ever had the issue where your adobe fucking. suddenly said u didn't have any of the apps u had and locked ur access. and u checked to make sure u had the right email associated with it and u did. and u checked that u didn't have a payment issue and u didn't. like what the fuck do i do rn

#x #everything says my free trial ended I PAID FOR THIS #and i got it on the black friday sale so my subscription should be going thru november. and they charged me 2 weeks ago. So what's up #OH and i can't find the help phone number because apparently that's paywalled or something (crazy btw.) but it thinks im not on paying. kms #AND HOW DO I CANCEL MY SUBSCRIPTION NOW...#their stupid digital assistant isn't working what if i killed myself and adobe with my MINDDDDH

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polyamorouspunk · 1 year ago

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I hope I'm like you when I grow up

#super depressed; bitter and lonely; hates everyone + everyone hates?#jk thank you so much you have no idea how much this means #imma be honest a good 50% of the time I wish I was fucking dead #I’m so tired of living event to event like ‘oh I can’t kms my best friend is visiting’ ‘oh I can’t kms I have to go see INK’ etc.#and honestly I’m such a bitter and angry person I mean some of it is valid #like when my managers are like oh I can’t finish all my shit can you clean the bathrooms for me and I’m like sure #only to get to work this morning and told that they were messy and gross and I did a bad job etc. like okay I just won’t next time #but also just like can’t control my emotions having so many meltdowns at work + home + on this fucking blog #feeling like I’m ugly and no one’s ever going to love me again etc.#but also like you know what I’m cool. I’m smart. I’m hot. I got some good qualities #be like me: have bpd and fibromyalgia and love horror and metal bands and listen to true crime and donate to victim funds.#be gay do crime post about it online #punk gets mail #personal

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izzy-b-hands · 3 months ago

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Me to myself: you are SO behind on finishing your izzy bingo prompts. You definitely won't finish the whole card now, and you've gotten so little done today. We DON'T need to research if this roadside coastal motel in our head actually exists anywhere. NO ONE IS GOING TO GIVE A FUCK

Also me: Time to search google maps for coastal motels and hotels and cabins and things while my word doc that's got a nearly fucking finished draft on it rots waiting for me!

#text post #tbh im just glad im finally making headway on one #been fighting my brain all day on this #hopefully at least i can get this one finished tonight #then i need to hit it again hard tomorrow until i work #i know i don't HAVE to finish the card at all #but my brain needs an easier win rn and this is probably the easiest one #so if it's going to demand I put more pressure on myself to feel like im being useful then let it be this #also it's a jim/izzy which I'd held off on writing a lot of bc like #just talking abt the ship back when the show first kicked off got me ppl telling me to kms over it #so you can understand how i put that on the backburner #but now? im so tired. i don't care. one of my prompts is literally 'jim'#and this is a heavy one shot abt grief and losing a parent/parental figure while it storms at the beach #and no other ship with izzy that I've tried for this idea has fit like jim/izzy #so im gonna enjoy it and anon is off so if ppl wanna send shit let them #idc anymore

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fagdykevash · 3 months ago

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i need to quit my job right fucking now (<- means it more this time)

#chirping #going to kms. going to quit. going to deactivate end up on the news commit crimes.#i gotta work so fuckin early n i can't. i can't. i can't.#not only was i genuinely questioning my reality and shitty memory fooling me into thinking something wrong #but i also got super fucking embarrassed!!!!! worst fucking nightmare embarrassed bc of autism #ughhhhhhh

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vampyroteuthid · 3 months ago

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everyone please pray that my shrink has some kind of magical solution for me to be able to have a job like a normal person because being this exhausted every work day is fucking unsustainable

#i even got 7.5 hours of solid sleep and i still would rather kms than go into work rn #thank god i get to take a half hour break for the shrink and i dont have work tomorrow #i do not think i could do this 5 days a week the wednesdays off are SO crucial for me #if it started two hours later i would be fine lol #me

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miserablegrl · 3 months ago

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bro i was at this chinese supermarket and I saw the most gorgeous beautiful attractive to die 4 man i've ever seen in my 27 years of age, he was so beautiful that I felt a deep sense of despair for a good hour after leaving because of how incredibly gorgeous he was . I want to rip my face off. What the fuck

#he works there which means that i will never go there again because if i see him again im gonna end my life fr #he looked like an idol and when i saw his face i got incredibly shy and my face turned red. sooo embarassing. kms

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jaqkiwine · 3 months ago

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#tw vent #jaq is nonexistent ☁︎⋅#work is so tiring and I am so exhausted #it’s exhausting to work and it’s slightly less exhausting to not work #I’m either burdened w the stress of where my money is going to come from or (even worse) forced to have to work so I’m not broke #my food stamps aren’t on my card and idk what’s going on with that #couldn’t log in and it was just my last straw I guess I’ll put on makeup and hope me crying doesn’t look too obvious #I hate working so much the pay is always shit with the jobs around here or #if it isn’t people don’t wanna hire you for that kind of stuff #I applied for like 60+ jobs the past few months and i got two interviews #and the first one I only got bc my mom called again for me????????#do I not sound like a good worker over the phone????????#I could do everything I’m supposed to and people just will not call you back #this life is sad and miserable and I hate it and if I didn’t have my family and all my friends #I think I would’ve kms a long time ago

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