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faefellangel · 7 months ago

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Aldwyn Cousland | Corrin Lavellan

#aldwyn cousland #corrin lavellan #dragon age origins #dragon age #dragon age inquisition #inquisitor #grey warden #Aldwyn's aged up for this in line with dai hehe #maybe mid 40s?? corrin would be in her late 20s start and 30s by tresspasser #ill get to hawk later i cba atm #i got to go to work kms

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pup-pee · 2 months ago

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welcome back with your legendary sketches!!!!

THANK UU!!! i say trying 2 wrestle myself back 2 sleep

take this doodle i color picked from the show bc im lazy

((poly polypoyl poly i chant))

#i was going 2 draw lik wm own designs then got sidetracked & demotovaited so color picking kt was!!! still works i jope #ANYWYAS TYYYYY!!!!!#im taking some more medicine so mayb i can doodle some more 2day but :33 #ive also been mostly drawing like on paper bc oh god art is so hardd #1 day ill draw clark perfect but 4 now he is uhhh this #nayays YAYYY HII TH GAAIN BY YAY!!!#i wanna psot morrr gotta b more active but oh planning 4 a fic is so time consumming #im digging my grubby mitts in it & just causing pain 4 no reason on these characters #its not dc but they arent safe 2 #whta am i sayinggg #srry im rambling hella hard aaaa #puppee art #puppee asks #yayayyyy idk what km saying j kinds 4got djjfks #if i releated anything oopsies

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hanzajesthanza · 6 months ago

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my favorite thing about the witcher that gets censored in its adaptations is the penchant for suicide that its characters seem to have

#and then how it doesnt work out. or it does #not even a joke bc geralt 🤝 ciri ‘im going to kms’#love how regis got alive again and then got drunk and killed himself. again. dedication #i like how ciri chickens out of her attempt . relatable #i love that yennefer is too stubborn for suicide too. in character #her taurus ass was like im not dying lol #yennefer when shes being tortured and all her fingers broken: call an ambulance… but not for me!#witcher protags either want to kill themselves. kill themselves. or get crucified #the elbow-high diaries

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anonbinaryweirdo · 11 months ago

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if this account is still active by college expect updates about my situationship (my rivals/enemies to lovers girlfriend i made up in my head weeks ago)

#i met this girl?? she’s so nice she’s my partner in a few of our classes #help she offered to study with me #theatre class !! i’ll post updates 🫶🏽 im GETTING that lead role #oh i didn’t know she also wanted to audition for this role #oh.#she just?? patronized me?? what #i take it back !! she is not nice and i do not like her <3 #she’s so fucking annoying all because she made 2 points higher than me bfr #she spilled her coffee on me in the hallway. i don’t even have a change of clothes #i hate her sm #im being forced to partner with her for the project what 🙁 i will commit #im going to go crazy we actually have to work together i hate working with her okgfjhfjfhf #update: we’re at her dorm because she insisted on not wanting to go to mine kms #WHY IS SHE BEING SO UNCOOPERATIVE. THIS IS AN IMPORTANT PROJECT im sonfucking. she’s so annoying #we js got done arguing over who was going to do the writing (im doing the writing 🫶🏽)#im about to go back to my own dorm this is giving me a headache. i literally cannot do this anymore #update: so uh #guess who got laid

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indigopoptart · 3 months ago

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lil life update

birthday baking (shitty photo)

i decided i didnt want a cake this year so i did all this!! while slowly losing my mind on a saturday.

me and my mom did the decorations!!

i have to thank my girlfriend, my friend Sam, and my Penjamin for keeping me sane through this tough yet joyous time

#life update #baking #indigo speaks #pictures #tiramisu #cake pops #pumpkin pie #indigo’s snapshots #birthday #augh idk if i have much to add #im lowk tired and stressed!#working 4 days a week this week!!! maybe five if my coworker needs me to also cover her tuesday shift #i can only wake up at 6 am for so many days before losing my mind #at least i leave early tmrw and tuesday tho #augh #i need another hit of the penjamin #i miss my friends i miss drawing i miss a lot but AUGH augh we ball.#at least i got my septum and hoohaa pierced as a reward for turning 19 #dont tell anyone about that second part #im swagmaxxing #my friends keep encouraging me to talk to my piercer about an apprenticeship (been thinking hard on it lately) and i wanna SO baf #BUT IM SCARED YK #OF REJECTION #WHAT IF SHE SAYS NO #then thats my only shot in my mind kms #smh ok #penjamin hit #time to go back outside to the family

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6ebe · 4 months ago

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Applying for 50 jobs within 12 months and not getting a single offer is almost an accomplishment woah I’m so talented x

#it’s killing me j wasted the last 3 months of my life working full time unpaid (internship)#and I was like. j need to suck up this bc it’ll get me a job #and I’ve applied to 25 jobs since starting this internship and I have not succeeded in getting a job #I just want to kms I’m ngl #my current org has offered me a full time job buy for a salary that’s literally minimum wage #so. that’s pretty fucking crap #I applied to 25 jobs in the last month while working full time . like I am so exhausted #I had an interview yesterday morning literally the morning of my grandmas funeral and just got emailed now that I haven’t gotten the job #yknow? I’m just heartbroken at this point #and I still have 1 week left working this internship and there’s literally no point #I was literally a middle level manager in this current job for no pay even worker across a weekend once #and it’s literally for nothing 🤣🤣🤣#I have a masters degree !! and 4 months of full time work experience and another several years worth of working part time #it’s not like I’m one of those grads who’s never worked a day in their life #and like i know no one can get a job these days. like barely any of my friends have anything #but money is beginning to become a little terrifying. so shelving the corporate applications and time to go back to being a barista again #not that I’m even guaranteed getting a job in that.#just spent a week living with a friend in Boston who IS employed straight out of undergrad for a rly cool nonprofit #literallt living my dream yknow what that rly challenged my ability to just be happy for my friends #I just don’t know how I keep on going like this tbh

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tiddiesoutwhenthetisout · 4 months ago

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not me curling my laptop charger wire the way you curl band equipment cords HAHAHA god i miss it

#i really said “okay big performance in the city square let's make this work” and i did but absolute fuckery of the manager just made me...#and she also used to complain about being an opening act-- like come on that's a nationally-renowned band and we're not there yet 😭#we used to fight a lot though so ack i really should have taken that as a red flag #but i was 14 and stupid 🤷‍♂️#being solo way better uM i shouldn't say this yet but i got a commission today audhauagah i don't even have a portfolio #fuck guys i'm so so so nervous from big changes in life because uM god i just came from actual hell with various things working to make me #kms #but uH we're uH not too keen on that anymore atm and uH it's probably going to all fuck up after i share that i have good news in life #but yk what #let's keep challenging god #i know he hates me #but we will not be defeated we will strangle him by the tie #AHHHH help me i want to get into music again pls pls pls pls pls #anyway back to my old band manager #she was known for being a shitwad in the scene anyw but i was young and stupid as i sais #and i defended her and rationalized her behavior because “we're friends right”#i'm starting to get why my mom is wary of people i get to know #i'm tbh a fucking idiot i would never admit that elsewhere (nah i do) uM my brain is bouncing off the walls #i took a bargain with 7pm coffee and look where it got me #i was also getting up there in my 5 days of uni absences agsgshags #DOES ANYONE ACTUALLY READ THESE I KINDA HOPE NOW NO ONE DOES #IM KINDA UHHH MY CHILD THERAPIST SAID UNCONVENTIONAL #I THINK SHE MEANT FUCKING CRAZY #sorry #oh yeah i walked tf out the band after that big performance set up just for us because i couldn't keep working with that kind of environment #other bands started flocking to recruit or proxy after i was let go by my famously fucked-up ex-manager LOL #but um i have issues so i'm not among them and i think they get the message tbh #appears and disappears #that is actually my brand

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itsalwaysdark · 1 month ago

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and when i live on my own ill be able to decorate like real life decorate ive never gotten to do that in real life b4

#like im not barred from doing it Nd i do like. a little bit kind of but its like. Idk my entire life is a very transient thing and im rly #rly rly not used to being in one place for a long time so as a kid we never rly decorated ever #and like obv i wont be Owning a house or anything like that so itll still have to be moveable but i can like. but furniture that i like and #stuff... ive never gotten to do that b4 even in um. wa. i didnt rly get to do any of the decorating even when i was in the actual house bc #him and the roommates umm. did all that. Okay well now ive sort of freaked it by making myself think of that so im going to go stare #longingly at the floorplan i did #bc umm. well ideally id like to move into one of the apartments thats right across the way bc theres a couple of apt buildings like right #there 5 min walk tops and one of the places Has an open one but no floorplan #i wont be movjng out for ages i just wanted to look at floorplans yk #but like i said no floorplans BUT theres one a bit further away not rly walkable bc its umm #youd have to walk on the interstate and stuff and um. no sidewalk and everything but theeeeeeeeee thing had a floorplan #still very close by like 2 min drive but yk. but i still did my little mockup floorplan with that apartment instead #i want it to be closeby so everybody can come visit and so that i dont die and explode . i dont rly want to continue living in this town #4ever once km like Normal and have savings and ive got everything worked out i wanna maybe move to chicago or something since il is better #for the transgenderisms. + ive always wanted to try living in a big city at least once and i think itd be awesome #but thats Ages and ages away like maybe 5 years depending on how good i am. weeee will see if 5 years in the future is like on the table 4 #me LOLLLL 24 year old connor seems rly crazy to imagine. but anyways....#but itll be nice to move out and still be in town bc then i can have the same job yk . and maybe ill know how to drive atp and i can like .#buy a car ..or something . if i do know how to drive #which i probably should since this town very car dependent and i dont want my mom to have to drive me to work esp if umm. i dont live with #them ... im just rly rly rly rly rly fucking scared of driving but i know also in my heart that when i do know how to drive the bond between #me and that car will be crazyyyy like. idk how many of you followed me last year but you may remember my insane bond with angel my cart from #work and there was a lot gokng on woth that <- was Very delusional at the time and i was convinced that she was a sentient thing and had the #power to make my life better or worse if i upset her so i said good morning and goodnight to her every single day so that i could have a #good day . looking back on it probably was something to be concerned abt but whatever.... she is still my best friend and i do miss her #deeply #her bathtub and heater were my besttt friends when i was in wa LOL. i was quite unwell #bathtub is still in my room tho yayyy. heater lives with lamp now and angel is of course at my old job....#bathtub currently is holding a project i gave up on. everyone say thank.you bathtub im looking at her right now

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amazingkitty · 23 days ago

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The way I now understand why nondepressed people get so worried when someone makes a suicide joke

#that time i was like lol i want to kill myself abt a minor inconvenience at work and my extremely normie coworker #who was my age got really concerned and asked if i was okay #girl i understand you now akdnfkskfjdk #im no longer depressed and seeing most of my mutuals constantly make suicide jokes im like ARE YOU OKAY????#but at the same time i do Get it i was there and even now im still trying to shake the habit of saying #im going to kms when anything goes mildly wrong #txt

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travellingseal · 1 month ago

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why does my job make me feel like an idiot 24/7?

#rho.odt #perhaps i am. an idiot #god i hate everything #why am i so fucking dumb?#idk man my field is so wrong for me! i hate that i went and got the degree my family pressured me into!#but it's too late now #and i get that yeah i have a master's and a career and i should be glad #but ngl this job is one of the main factors making me want to kms then and there #and i've no idea how to change everything because i can't get a job in a different field #when this is the only thing i sort of know how to do #and i'm not sure i can handle going back to uni #what would i even study. i feel old and dumb and tired #on the outside it may look like i have things in order #a degree a career stable employment etc #but goddddddd i did better mentally when i was unemployed #despite not leaving the house for several months #anyway sorry. i'm back to work after a prolonged sick leave #and i'm feeling bloody awful #and my boss decided this was the best time to send me to another department for training #tbd

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madlyn5ever · 2 months ago

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I just made what I think is a really good sad Carina edit but I had to frame for frame re-edit it via a SCREEN RECORDING, of the edit, because I kept getting forced out of the file, just the one file btw everything else worked fine and I deleted a lot of stuff I didn’t want to bc of this.

I started at like 11pm and it is 5:30 am so I am losing it.

#maybe I’ll post it later I need to go to bed #I managed to get most of it via screen recording but it wouldn’t play half of the intro cause the beggining was triggering the force quit #but I also still had the rest of the end I hadn’t done yet bc I used a lot of clips I planned on repeating that were like no seconds long #and I was stalling doing it bc it takes forever to hand move individual clips #which is when all of this started #my phone just #decided #I finally got it to work after I spent hours using a crappy screen record to redo all of the clips over again #and I didn’t use any of it!#I deleted the file I spent hours remaking!#all for a choppy half as good version that had the clips exactly right!#but slow!#i am so tired #kms #but not really #i’m mentally exhausted #carina deluca #station 19 #greys anatomy

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lesbiansanemi · 2 months ago

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I'm so tired

#not to come on here just to complain and feel sorry for myself especially because i know things are so much worse for so many other ppl #but as hard as i'm trying it's hard to believe things will be okay i'm trying so hard not to fall into defeatist attitudes #but fuck man. fuck. it's not even that i'm surprised or anything it's just. man #i want to curl up in a ball and just be comforted and cry and be upset but i can't do that and i have no one to do that #my worker's comp payments aren't coming through like they're supposed to and i have like ten dollars and barely any food in the apartment #my injuries aren't getting better the pain is still there even though i'm doing everything i'm supposed to #my meds aren't working but meds have NEVER worked on me and i keep hoping and praying some day i'll find one that will but i fear they won'#i have more psych testing in january but a part of me worries about doing it because if (when) i test positive for certain things it will b #on my record and considering..... the state of things i worry about what that means for me and my autonomy esp regarding anything medical #i still can't convince any doctors to take my issues that are almost CERTAINLY endometriosis seriously and again.... given the state of thi #i find it very hard to believe that will change and will in fact only get worse and i will never be able to get any kind of sterilization o #hysterectomy and if something ever ended up happening and i DID get pregnant well. it would not be good for me #i feel very alone and like i need to and must handle everything on my own but i feel like i'm about to break doing that #and then this. this. this this this this. i know it's not fair to be upset about it. like i said things are so much worse for so many other #but fuck dude. fuck man. mentally i have not been doing good recently and nothing has happened in my life to really help that recently #i want to go back to being so repressed i genuinely felt/believed i was emotionless this was not a good year for the dam to break #i told my therapist the other day that i feel like a toddler. i was so repressed and emotionless for as long as i can remember #so i never learned to deal with big ugly and overwhelming emotions. so i react as a child still learning would because i never got the #chance to learn how to manage them and FUCK MAN i feel like i'm losing it #i know it's important to do what you can and not fall into overly negative mindsets but that's not something i was good at anyways #and now it's even harder but i'm trying. fuck dude i'm trying so hard i want to be hopeful i want to do what i can #i don't want to hate everything and jump immediately to wanting to kms or destroying my whole life because what's the point #i just. holy fuck. man i need a minute to breathe and i wish i had someone physically here to hold me and tell me it's okay #but i don't have that so i'll be a big girl and sort myself out like usual and just hope i don't break yet #i'm gonna go watch anime and try and read fic to distract myself but mannnnnnnn i feel like i'm losing it #kaz rambles

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eriecanal · 4 months ago

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coming out as a loser (someone who paid for adobe) but has anyone ever had the issue where your adobe fucking. suddenly said u didn't have any of the apps u had and locked ur access. and u checked to make sure u had the right email associated with it and u did. and u checked that u didn't have a payment issue and u didn't. like what the fuck do i do rn

#x #everything says my free trial ended I PAID FOR THIS #and i got it on the black friday sale so my subscription should be going thru november. and they charged me 2 weeks ago. So what's up #OH and i can't find the help phone number because apparently that's paywalled or something (crazy btw.) but it thinks im not on paying. kms #AND HOW DO I CANCEL MY SUBSCRIPTION NOW...#their stupid digital assistant isn't working what if i killed myself and adobe with my MINDDDDH

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polyamorouspunk · 1 year ago

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I hope I'm like you when I grow up

#super depressed; bitter and lonely; hates everyone + everyone hates?#jk thank you so much you have no idea how much this means #imma be honest a good 50% of the time I wish I was fucking dead #I’m so tired of living event to event like ‘oh I can’t kms my best friend is visiting’ ‘oh I can’t kms I have to go see INK’ etc.#and honestly I’m such a bitter and angry person I mean some of it is valid #like when my managers are like oh I can’t finish all my shit can you clean the bathrooms for me and I’m like sure #only to get to work this morning and told that they were messy and gross and I did a bad job etc. like okay I just won’t next time #but also just like can’t control my emotions having so many meltdowns at work + home + on this fucking blog #feeling like I’m ugly and no one’s ever going to love me again etc.#but also like you know what I’m cool. I’m smart. I’m hot. I got some good qualities #be like me: have bpd and fibromyalgia and love horror and metal bands and listen to true crime and donate to victim funds.#be gay do crime post about it online #punk gets mail #personal

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izzy-b-hands · 5 months ago

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Me to myself: you are SO behind on finishing your izzy bingo prompts. You definitely won't finish the whole card now, and you've gotten so little done today. We DON'T need to research if this roadside coastal motel in our head actually exists anywhere. NO ONE IS GOING TO GIVE A FUCK

Also me: Time to search google maps for coastal motels and hotels and cabins and things while my word doc that's got a nearly fucking finished draft on it rots waiting for me!

#text post #tbh im just glad im finally making headway on one #been fighting my brain all day on this #hopefully at least i can get this one finished tonight #then i need to hit it again hard tomorrow until i work #i know i don't HAVE to finish the card at all #but my brain needs an easier win rn and this is probably the easiest one #so if it's going to demand I put more pressure on myself to feel like im being useful then let it be this #also it's a jim/izzy which I'd held off on writing a lot of bc like #just talking abt the ship back when the show first kicked off got me ppl telling me to kms over it #so you can understand how i put that on the backburner #but now? im so tired. i don't care. one of my prompts is literally 'jim'#and this is a heavy one shot abt grief and losing a parent/parental figure while it storms at the beach #and no other ship with izzy that I've tried for this idea has fit like jim/izzy #so im gonna enjoy it and anon is off so if ppl wanna send shit let them #idc anymore

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fagdykevash · 5 months ago

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i need to quit my job right fucking now (<- means it more this time)

#chirping #going to kms. going to quit. going to deactivate end up on the news commit crimes.#i gotta work so fuckin early n i can't. i can't. i can't.#not only was i genuinely questioning my reality and shitty memory fooling me into thinking something wrong #but i also got super fucking embarrassed!!!!! worst fucking nightmare embarrassed bc of autism #ughhhhhhh

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