#i go fucking feral for that shit man
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If i see a pen or something shiny on the ground I will pick it up with no hesitation
Makes my lil part of my brain that is a crow go wild
#I currently have a pen aquafor 5 rings a worry stone a infinite cube and a loli pop so#i go fucking feral for that shit man
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me explaining why i ship sam and frodo: *hours of rambling about the intricacies of their relationship, ten in-text citations of all the times samâs devotion to frodo saved them both from disaster, quoting âi canât carry it for you but i can carry youâ and âdont go where i cant follow,â sobbing about how they canonically love each other so deeply, bringing up academic articles about wartime homoeroticism and deconstructing toxic masculinity, etc*
me explaining why i ship aragorn and legolas: im gay and i want to see the pretty men fuck
#im a simple man#i see men with long hair and swords and shit and i go a little feral#sometimes a ship is a special beautiful thing and sometimes i just want to fuck legolas and aragorn#idk what u want me to do abt it#lotr#the lord of the rings#samfro#aralas#samwise gamgee#frodo baggins#aragorn son of arathorn#legolas greenleaf#alex talks
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happy we love defending our teammates around here from mr aj "thats one of the biggest things is im very loyal to my teammates and no ones going to take liberties and take any cheap shots towards my teammates" greer
if youd like to know what caused aj to go after kastelic its because of two hits on adam and jesper that happen within 7 seconds of each other and while casters were quick to note the jesper hit they never mentioned kastelic basically riding adam near the benches hard not even a few seconds before that and those within tandem is what makes aj go enoughs enough! and shed his gloves
there has to be something so funny about jesper and uvis hovering nearby as aj just (insert the dog eating cabbage angrily video)
despite wrastling the shit out of a guy aj wants more and honestly a perfect addition to our kitty lineup!! oh delightful little cat!!
boston bruins @ florida panthers | 10.8.24
#aj greer#adam boqvist#jesper boqvist#uvis balinskis#florida panthers#2425#i love how hes on a line with gadjo and yet ajs the one out here fighting#im sure they gonna take turns#oh the 4th line is utterly chaotic if not because paul decided having aj and gadjo together was a good idea#(it is. they are our scrappy 4th line. you can tell paul is has certain dynamics and trops in mind when he constructs the 4th line)#(which is 2 feral gremlins that are ready to fight at all times and their tall calm beauty of a centre that walks them on leashes)#(paul youre a genius)#anyways aj is filling our lombo sized hole if not because he also wears absolutely nothing underneath his underarmour#sliver of skin...#reads books and flashes skin? oh weve got an anamoly over here!!#do you know how funny it is that jesper just pulls up to get an upclose of aj beating the shit out of a guy#you know how dancers in fe have such high evasion so technically they can be in the middle of battle#but because of their low atk they fucking suck and you dont want them in the middle of battle#but also if they stand near units they can give them boons alongside an extra turn if they dance for them...#thats what jesper is to me the little dancer in the middle of battle who should not be there but is there for morale reasons#jesper if you bat your eyelashes a single time i think aj would maul that man for you#4th line dynamics are slowly coming to me as this season will go on but honestly? fucking hilarious
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ok siiince you asked for requests for demon boy castys⌠the tongue cut out + gag seemed like such an adorable situation for him <33
Giving you that and a little extra because I wanted More Whump đ
âPrevious - Castys & Terror AU Masterlist - Castys Masterlist - Nextâ
Ingredients: manhandling, a lot of unsexy noncon touching, slight dehumanization, partial nudity
Castys wasnât sure if he slept at all that night, but after what felt like an eternity, Neteri reappeared wearing different clothes under her white coat.
âGood morning, Castys!â She sat on one of the stools from last night and motioned for him to do the same. âGet up, Iâve got wonderful news to share!âÂ
Castys opened his mouth to retort, but he found he couldnât form the words. His tongue was stillâŚhe looked away, swallowing, and sat up while remaining on the floor.Â
âYouâre going to have to start listening to me, you know. Because,â she broke out into an excited smile, âI get to keep you!â Upon seeing Castysâs glare, she just laughed. âI figured you wouldnât be excited, but trust me,â she held up a finger, âyouâll be much better off in my hands than if you were sold as a pet to some bored aristocrat. Iâm sure theyâd beat that personality right out of you, and I donât plan on doing anything of the sort. As long as you cooperate with my experiments, youâre free to be yourself. You can even hate me as much as you like!â Castys raised an eyebrow at her final statement. Heâd see about that.
After rummaging in her bag for a moment, she pulled out a little silver medal and moved to crouch next to him on the ground. âHold still now,â she ordered as she started to bring it towards his neck. Castys wasnât sure what was happening at first, but after a moment, it clicked, and he decided heâd rather not listen, leaning back. Neteri just sighed. âYouâre not off to a very good start.â Well, itâs not like he wanted to be.
Suddenly, Neteri changed tactics, shoving him down on his back and straddling his waist before he could try to sit up, pinning his arms down with a knee on each elbow. Castys cried out, the wounds on his back from the whip lighting up in pain, and that combined with her full weight on him kept him from moving. He bared his teeth as her hand came closer, daring her to get within range, but she just curled her other hand in his hair, yanking it back and keeping his head firmly in place. Great. He was once again powerless against this tiny lady, forced to keep still as she attached that dumb little tag to the collar and sealed the metal shut with the same spell that kept him from taking it off.
âThere,â she said once it was on. She tapped the tag, cold against his throat. âProperty of Neteri Crozien. Whether you like it or not. Now,â she grabbed his chin, âare you going to let me put some new restraints on you or should I call the guards to manhandle you? Your resistance is pointless and only delaying the inevitable, exactly like every other time. Just nod if youâre going to cooperate.â
Did he want to get manhandled again? Not particularly. Heâd had more than enough of being grabbed and held still while chains were taken off and put on. And itâs not like he was resisting out of pride or something stupid, he just fought back when it was something he really didnât want to happen. Which was most things in the past couple days, but, hey, if new restraints meant he got to leave this boring-ass cell, he was okay with it. Her grip on his hair had loosened enough to allow him a small nod, so he gave one, praying sheâd get the fuck off of him now.
Neteri smiled brightly at his cooperation. âGreat! Although,â she got off of him and stood, thinking, âmaybe just stay laying down. I donât really trust you not to try and run at the moment, so just roll on your stomach and Iâll take the chains off.â Castys sighed in annoyance but complied, gritting his teeth as his weight went from his injured back to his burned chest. The cold stone floor felt a little good on it, at least, but it was a small consolation as he watched Neteri walk back over with a key and a coil of rope.Â
She squatted down and-fuck, that was a knee on his back, not her full weight but enough to make him gasp in pain. Paying him no mind, Neteri unlocked the manacles around his wrists, and he could barely enjoy the feeling of not having anything around them for a moment, just wishing sheâd tie him up and get the fuck off of his back. It didnât feel like she was going particularly slow as she pulled his arms behind him and wound the rope around his wrists, but the seconds still dragged by at an agonizing pace.Â
Finally, she finished tying the knot and took her knee off of his back as she stood. âThere we go!â Castys just groaned, rolling on his side. âOh, stop being so dramatic. Itâs not like I was hurting you.â Castysâs glare deepened, and he awkwardly used his bound hands to pull up the back of his shirt enough to expose the bandages wrapped around his torso. Neteriâs jaw dropped slightly, and she just stared at him for a second before worry took over her features.
âIâŚIâm so sorry IâŚI completely forgot. That you were hurt. I wouldnât have done that if I remembered.â Her head hung slightly. âIâm really sorry, Castys.â Her apology seemed genuine, but how the fuck did she forget he got whipped and branded yesterday? She looked back at him again. âLetâs just hurry and get you to your new home so I can heal you up, okay?â Wait, new home? She was taking him somewhere else? At first the idea was scary, but then Castys remembered that heâd never particularly loved living in the castle, so whatever. It was probably just going to be a different prison cell, anyway.
With ridiculous difficulty and a lot of groaning in pain, he managed to sit up, using his elbows to help him do it since his hands were kind of useless. By the time that was done, Neteri was standing above him withâŚa chain? He was already tied up what the fu-no. No fucking way. He growled as her hands moved towards his neck, baring his teeth once more.
âSeriously, Castys? You said you werenât a dog yesterday, but you sure are acting like one.â Yeah, sure, whatever, but since he couldnât fucking talk, he was forced to resort to other means of protest. He honestly wasnât entirely sure where the growling came from himself, and, yeah, it was a little animalistic, but that didnât mean he deserved to get put on a leash. âThis is happening either way, so just give it up already.â Her hand was moving closer, closer, the clasp at the end of the chain open, ready to-
Once again, instinct took over, and before he knew it, his teeth were buried in the flesh of her hand.
Neteri cried out, jerking her hand back and dropping the leash. âLyte! Seriously?!â She winced as she dabbed the wounds with what smelled like the stingy liquid from yesterday and used her magic to close them up, during which Castys couldnât help but smile smugly. Once she was done healing, she pulled on her leather gloves and grabbed a couple rolls of bandages from her bag. âI figured you were going to be difficult to keep in line, but this is just ridiculous.â Castys took pride in being ridiculous, so heâd take the compliment. What he didnât want to take were the consequences of his actions, but he was a little bit helpless at the moment, so there wasnât much he could do as Neteri shoved a wad of bandages in his mouth and tied a strip around his head to keep him from spitting it out.
âThere. Youâre just about the only person whoâd need to be gagged when they canât talk.â Castys just looked away, feeling his face grow hot as she clipped the leash to the collar. She gave it a tug, but he didnât budge. Now he was just resisting out of spite. Neteriâs expression grew even more frustrated, and it looked like she was about to say something before she stopped herself and took a deep breath, calming herself down. She crouched down to look Castys in the eye.
âLook, Iâve been going about this the wrong way. I hurt you when I didnât mean to, so Iâm not going to punish you for biting me. Weâll just call it even.â She paused and held up a finger. âThe gag stays until we reach our destination, though. Just for safetyâs sake. But Iâll tell you something about my plans for you. If you come with me, youâll have a tongue again by the end of tomorrow. Does that sound good?âÂ
Castys could be stupid and stubborn and petty and shake his head and sit here and then end up getting dragged off to wherever, or he could just suck it the fuck up and get the ability to complain back. Complaining would be nice...After weighing his options he nodded, and Neteri broke into a smile. âGood. Letâs go, then.â She helped him stand, and she seemed to do her best not to pull on the leash as they walked along. Soon enough, they had reached the teleportation stone, and CastysâŚhe couldnât help but be a little excited to leave this stupid place. He knew he was a fucking prisoner now, but he was basically a prisoner in his old life, too, minus the chains and plus a comfy bed.Â
At least he was going somewhere else.
The other palace was pretty cool, at least, the short glimpses he got before he was pulled into the lower levels, down halls and through doors until they arrived at his lame little prison cell. It did have a bed, though, so that was an upgrade. And a private bathroom?! Why did the prison cells in his familyâs dungeon have to suck so much ass? He only spent two nights there, but still. If he was ever in charge of a dungeon, he would make sure it was at least a little comfy in case he got thrown in there.
Neteri clamped a manacle around his ankle, which was whatever, because that meant she untied his wrists and took that stupid leash off. And then, true to her word, she healed his wounds. The brand scarred, of course, which wasâŚthe symbol was kind of cool, but since it meant he was âpropertyâ or whatever he wasnât too excited about it being on his chest for the rest of his life. At least shirts existed.
After that was done, Neteri instructed him to clean himself off and left him alone for a bit. He wandered into the bathroom, chain clinking with every step, and paused in front of the mirror. He looked pretty much the same as always, just a little more tired and blood-covered than usual. Oh, and the stupid collar around his neck. Neteri was fucking delusional, it didnât look the slightest bit âcuteâ on him, it just lookedâŚHe didnât want to see it anymore.
Once he was clean and dressed in some slightly comfier clothes, Castys tried out his new bed. It was nowhere near as nice as his old one, but it was way better than the floor, so heâd take it. Just as he was drifting off to sleep, Neteri poked him in the face.
âIâm back, Castys, get up and take your shirt off.â Castys sat up, but didnât take his shirt off, instead just crossing his arms and raising an eyebrow. His wounds were healed, so what the hell did she need it off for? âCome on, Iâm just going to examine you and take some measurements. Nothing painful, I promise.â Not painful, sure, but probably still not pleasant. Even so, he didnât really have much choice but to listen, so he pulled off his shirt and stood, hoping this wouldnât involve too much touching.
His hopes were in vain.
It started off fine, her measuring his height and a few other things with a strip of leather, but then she started running her hands all over him, poking at him, moving him this way and that. He couldnât help but flinch every time since he hated being touched, and Neteri was clearly getting annoyed by it. His full-body recoil after she ran a hand down his spine was the final straw. Wordlessly, she clamped a manacle around one of his wrists before shoving him down onto the bed. He tried to stand back up, but she basically fucking tackled him, pinning him down on his back for the second time today. And, to top it all off, she managed to loop the chain around the top of the cot before cuffing his other wrist, leaving him pretty much helpless.
âI wouldnât have to do this if youâd just kept still,â Neteri sighed, seeing his frustration. Well, it was a little fucking hard to be still when someone whoâs basically a stranger is running their hands all over your bare skin. He considered trying to kick her, but sheâd probably just chain him up more and keep going, and heâd rather this bullshit just be over with already.
Being chained down on his back somehow made this infinitely worse. There was nowhere to run, nothing he could do, Neteri looming over him as she put her hands all over him, touching his chest, his brand, squeezing his arms, grabbing his chin, pulling at his eyelids, gloves on now, hands in his mouth, poking at the stump of his tongue, feeling his teeth, gripping his hair to turn his head from side to side, his skin was crawling, crawling, his muscles tense, breaths coming short, fast, he just wanted her to get off stop touching him examining him taking notes reducing him down to just numbers just a body not a person not someone who got boundaries or personal space no just someone who gets touched and touched and touched-
âCastys! Hey, hey, just breathe.â Neteri was standing over him now, fiddling with the cuffs on his wrists, releasing him. Castys hadnât even realized he was hyperventilating, but he tried his best to calm down as he scrambled to the other end of the bed, as far away from her as he could get. Neteri watched him sadly. âIâŚI was making you uncomfortable, wasnât I? Iâm sorry, I just thought you were trying to be a nuisance.â No shit he was fucking uncomfortable, how the hell did she misread that?! At least she looked upset by this, but it was way too late for that. Castys still felt like there were bugs crawling all over him, and he could feel his heart pounding out of his chest.Â
Neteri reached out a hand in a misguided attempt to comfort him, but after seeing how Castys flinched and bared his teeth, she backed off. âOkay, okay, Iâll leave you alone. Well, Iâll go get you something to eat, and then Iâll leave you alone. Until tomorrow, and then youâll have a tongue again and you can complain all you want and yell at me, okay?â Castys would rather never have to see her stupid face ever again, but thatâs not how this was gonna work, so he just nodded silently, not relaxing until sheâd left the room.Â
He almost wanted to take a shower again, just to wash the feeling of her hands off, but it was starting to subside, so he just pulled his shirt back on and hid under the covers. What was that, exactly? He knew he didnât like being touched, and heâd never let anyone do it remotely that much, so maybe being touched for so long in such an invasive way had been too overwhelming. Castys had thought heâd be a little tougher than this, since the thought of pain didnât really scare him, but apparently being pinned down and touched was too much for him? Kind ofâŚpathetic. Maybe it wouldnât have been so bad if he could talk, protest, fight back a little bit with his words. Maybe heâd be okay once he could talk again.
He just hoped Neteri wasnât lying about giving him his tongue back.
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#i wrote something#whump-queen#whump#castys#neteri#castys & terror au#thanks aki enjoy sorry it took a bit but i think it turned out more fun because of that hehe#okay DISCLAIMER: neteri forgot he got branded and whipped because i forgot#and wrote her like pinning him down and shit#and then i remembered that he had other injuries#so instead of rewriting everything and cutting out all that sexy shit i just made it her fault so you're welcome#she really does feel bad about it tho#sorry if the gagging wasn't as whumpy as you wanted đ once she gagged him neteri simulation was like ''what if she was nice''#because she realized her approach wasn't going to work and she can tell castys is really upset about his tongue#so there it is the way to make him cooperate#he wants to be annoying soooo bad#yeah idk why he started growling. feral fucking man#he is just 19 he is so so young here so the defiant streak hasn't mellowed much aka he bitey#he also hasnt really been touched that much against his will and when it happens oh no :)#idk if it was a full blown panic attack but def a mild one#neteri is afraid he might have been sexually assaulted based on his reactions and she feels really bad about it#she will ask once he can talk again and he can tell her no he just doesnt like being touched
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So i finally listened to The Magnus Protocol and uhh holy shit, yall mind if i
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#the magnus protocol#tmagp#tmagp spoilers#In the tags#My favourite case has to be the 2nd one Daria girl you are so fucked up!!!! You are so fucked up girl get help!!!!#And i am loving the absolute toxic work environment it is hilarious all the characters are great!!#Alice Gwen and Lena have three way situation of snide backhanded remarks and office coworker hate going on#Colin hates everyone but especially the puter and is this close to murder#Sam is just trying to do whatever the fuck he is doing. He is new here. He is over qualified#Teddy my man saw his place workplace comedy swerving towards horror genre and immediately ditched ship good for him!!!#(Unless Lena brutal pipe murdered him in which case girl i am so sorry)#And just character in general. Like Alice is trying to vibe her way through life#while also saying some death flaggy 'oh this is def foreshadowing' shit every episode#Gwen has the same surname as the shows previous antag#but also just after Lena's job and just wants to be taken seriously and thinks everyone is against her#she also may or not have discovered that her boss is murderer but oh well#Sam is like this sweet nice guy who is also so fucking nosy and the only one actually curious about fucked up shit cases magnus institue#And everyone is telling him to stop Girl! Turn away girl!! You are gonna get fucked up girl!! Look away!!#Colin is just so fucking angry and feral but also IT is just like that. He is crawling on the floors. He is growling at people#Lena is so fucking tired with all these bitches in her office Head Bitch incharge of all these Bitches#And i am 80% sure she murdered that guy Klaus#Anyway love all of this. Cant wait to hear them get killed in brutal tragic ways
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when i say i am obsessed with him
#'indescribable insolence' <3333#dumas writing aramis in '20 years after':#i am going to create a character that is so egdy sarcastic provocative and irritating to everyone around him#and im gonna make stirring shit being an asshole and gruesome murder his favourite hobbies#and he did just as he said. bless him.#most character ever#and what makes him even better is the contrast between 20YA!aramis and t3M!aramis. its hilarious.#my man really went feral. midlife crisis some call it. i call it character development of all time. i call it serving cunt.#aramis as a musketeer a soldier a man in a profession where you're literally paid for killing people:#sweetness and mildness personified writes poetry and theology essays in his free time never gambles dreams about dedicating his life to god#aramis as a priest: whooo boy i hope i get to fUCKING KILL A PERSON TODAY >:D#anyway. i love him a normal amount or something.#the three musketeers#alexandre dumas#anyway. i reread this scene and the charenton battle today because it's definitely in my top 3 aramis moments#also the english translation on the gutenberg page omits two lines of dialogue that i remembered from my polish translation#and it goes something like#de Chatillon says 'i think you're looking for a fight sir' to which Aramis basically responds with 'oh nooo you *think*? Imao'. iconic.#(and its even funnier cause that makes athos immediately go 'aramis stfu plz' and aramis just goes 'no <3' im obsessed with them)#vingt ans apres#do i have a#twenty years after#tag?? not sure tbh i think i dont but tagging just in case ig
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If you like Kuwei, whatever you do, just donât think about how he probably grew up isolated from his peers because of his fatherâs status. How he probably took to reading because no one around him could spare a single second for him. How, when he and his father had to flee the country and were captured by the Fjerdans, he probably realized that what happened to him was a perfect backstory for a main character of some epic story. How, when he had to watch his father try to create a drug that could enslave and kill nearly all Grisha in the world, people just like the two of them, his biggest comfort came from the silly belief that at the end of his story, he too would have everything that he wanted â a family, a lover, a friend, just anyone who would finally care about him. Recognition. Joy. Love.
How, when his father died and he was left alone, a small, delusional, cruel part of him was almost sure that it was necessary for him to then be loved. How, when the Crows came for him, deep down, he fully expected them to be his new family. How, even when everyone was cold to him on the ship, he still tired to convince himself that it was because one of theirs was on the brink of death. How he dumbly tried to tell himself that they wonât actually turn him over to the merchant that wants him because theyâre reasonable people. How he spent his days and nights in a cold tomb, pushing down the memories of his now dead father and his grim future, all alone, curled up in a corner.
How he had developed a crush on Jesper, bright, kind, warm Jesper, as if he could do anything else, and then had to watch helplessly as that ray of sunshine ignored him, as he got closer to the boy that had his face. How his skills and efforts were ignored just because what he might know seemed far more important to the people around him. How, not more than two days before the auction where his death would be faked, he got kissed by the man he began to adore and then was disliked for it by the only member of the team that actually tried to befriend him for a while.
How he had to stand tall in front of all the people, all those merchants, the royalty, the warriors, the guards, the farmers, the children, everyone, all the people who came to the Church of barter just to see who heâd be sold to. How he had to trust the six teens who only had qualms about killing him because he was worth a whole lot of money, with his life as different governments called out numbers that could feed the whole world for an entire lifetime. How the last thing that he couldâve seen before he died if the bullet that hit his chest missed his button even by a single hair, was the chaos âBrekker and his Crowsâ started.
How, when he woke up, he barely had any time to calm down because one of the teens, the DrĂźskelle, was dead. How he now had to mourn him now, too, along with all that he lost. How, when he was laying down on the ship to pretend heâs dead, he realized that the people he saw as his saviors less than two months ago, and as the thing that he wanted more than life, didnât care for him at all anymore. That they might even be happier if he died. How, as he neared the sea, he couldnât help but feel like heâd let his one chance at happiness higher along the canal and that he was now destined for a life of despair.
How, when he arrived to the Little Palace, he wasnât met with kindness or friendly faces. How he had to hide the fact that the thing he worked on day and night was the cure to a drug that his father had created, a drug that couldâve destroyed Grisha all around the world. How he was their only hope in the war against Fjerda. How he spent his nights awake dreaming of being a part of the family that the Crows clearly were. How he couldnât seem to fit in anywhere he went.
Most importantly of all, donât think about the fact that heâd been alone all his life.
#since no one else seems to be rambling about him I had to do it myself#but seriously why do we as the entirety of TWO fandoms sleep on this man so fucking much???#heâs an amazing character we just didnât get to see him a whole lot#but Zoyaâs description of him (as snobbish as he is talented) should be enough to make us go feral about him#like yes heâs a little shit but 1) we love him for it and 2) so is Kaz and we love him too#and there is so much possible angst we can put him through???#and the relationships heâs have with the other characters??? weâre robbing ourselves of the duo that would be Zoya and Kuwei#or Wylan and Kuwei or Nina and Kuwei or Inej and Kuwei or Tamar and Kuwei orâ#also heâs one of the most lonely characters in the damn Grishaverse and yet we havenât done anything with that#(Iâm here if anyone else wants to scream about this fifteen years old traumatized inferno (possibly) orphan)#kuwei yul bo#kuwei my beloved#six of crows#grishaverse#wylan van eck#wylan hendriks#jesper fahey#crooked kingdom#kaz brekker#wesper#soc#ck#rule of wolves#king of scars#inej ghafa#nina zenik#matthias helvar#inferni#the grisha trilogy#grisha
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youâre telling me i have to wait a whole week before i get to watch Hunter go batshit crazy
#the bad batch#i wanna see my man go feral#like actually#i want him to SNAP and fuck shit up pleaaaase#letâs see those enhanced senses go to WORK to find your daughter
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Don't know if I've gushed about this here yet but I will gush about again!!!
I love how loving the gods have 'tricked' me into loving parts of myself I have forsaken. I could never claim to be as cunning or witty as Lord Hermes or let alone as ferocious and driven as Lord Ares- BUT I still see traits of them in myself.
How can I take my silver tongue for granted if Lord Hermes so graciously gifted it to me?
How could I look down on what others deem to be 'bad emotions' if it's what helps Lord Ares win the war?
It's been a long journey and it's going to be a longer one still to love myself fully but I think I'm starting to truly love the journey and not just tolerate it for the sake of surviving.
#hermes deity#ares deity#ares worship#hermes worship#damn#love the feeling of falling in love with the people I care about over and over again#can you use the term 'people' for the gods?#I've been able to set boundaries and allow myself to be 'feral' more often#sometimes I feel like a little kid who managed to do something their parents taught em#âOh man Lord Ares is gonna be so proud of me for feeling one (1) emotion today!â#AND HE IS#âHehe I wonder if Lord Hermes will appreciate me tricking this asshole into giving money to the communityâ#AND HE DOES#I used to feel so much guilt and shame for this shit#it's feels nice to be loved wholly (and fucking scary)#blah blah blah imposter syndrome blah blah blah gods seeing the ugly parts of you and going meh#I CAN'T#helpol#hellenism
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Still haven't finished Dawntrail. Half a month left on my sub, so I should probably get on that (I say, having spent 10 hours blazing through the latest Season in D3 for the past couple of days instead). I just miss the previous story so goddamn much and it's ruining my ability to judge this expansion on its own merits. I mean... Wuk Lamat is adorable. I do like Fantasy Central America so far, it's lovely. But I don't care. I'm waiting so very patiently for something to happen that will make me sit up and care, that will haunt me doggedly so I have to keep playing to find out what happens. Everything's so different now. Like Dayir and Ishan, my beloved now-retired WoLs, I don't feel like a part of this story anymore.
I'm trying to console myself with tenuous threads to story elements I care about -- for example, the idea that the character going on this New World adventure is a Halmarut shard -- but frankly I don't think any character of mine would do any of this stuff. I mean, the sidequest-y stuff, maybe. Sure, let's play Eorzean Anthropologist or whatever. But politics is rarely even remotely interesting to me, and this rite-of-succession thing just isn't compelling on that front. I just don't care.
Hopefully I'll finish this expansion before my sub runs out -- gonna try my best, anyway -- and hopefully I'll find that thing that will make me sit up and care, because I don't want to be bored with FFXIV. Not after all it's done for me.
#what's that cyberpunk ass place called? heritage lost? i'm hoping that has something#this does feel a lot like shb when we had to go to all these places and do all this grunt work before the Real Shit started going down#but shb's Real Shit was like... menacingly hanging over our heads the whole time. also emet-selch's annoying ass was there <3#anyway i guess i *like* dawntrail well enough like it's not *bad* or anything. but this lukewarm ''like'' is Not Enough for me#i need to be insane. otherwise what's the point. why pay $35 + $12 i barely have to be like ''that was fine''#the other day i was even like ''man. i miss being called 'warrior of light'...'' bruh i HATED being called warrior of light.#but now i'm like ''hey......... :(''#this is so weird. i'm pretty sure i blazed through shb and ew in like 6 days TOPS#now i'm like ''oh shit. i forgor'' what do you MEAN i fucking forgor??? where is the FERALNESS#ffxiv
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tumblr is wild. my friends and genuine lifelong bonds I've made on here are making posts talking about how they appreciate and love me and my boyfriend (who I also met through tumblr) because us being sweet together on the dash makes them happy. then i go back to reblogging the clip of charlie slimecicle in the shower rubbing soap on his chest making his tits bounce and honestly I wouldn't have it any other way peak website peak performance this is amazing. 12/10 no notes
#i make yet anothet post just for me đ#craziest shit thats ever happened to me man#these past two days genuinely make me so happy#fuck this yaoi earth dude. cant believe people care about us this way#its so so so so kind to see man seriously#im losing it rn#<- in the biggest slash pos way possible#i hate venting and shit but like. oh my god you have no idea what stupid little kind shit means to ms#me#i cant believe ive met the people that i have :] its so fucking cool#i also cant believe that sentence exists in the same post as me going feral over charlie slimecicle big naturals#thats just somehting that sso normal#inguess :DD
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I need people to understand that my hyperfixation ships are limited to one thing: a man who is usually in full control of himself meeting 1 woman and losing complete and utter control over absolutely everything he does.
I just like to watch when they go full feral for a woman who could literally chew them up and spit them out, but choses to let them stick around because I don't know, it's nice to have someone carrying their bag or whatever.
#red queen#mare did this twice over so she gets double points#this is why I adore Marecal#I am forever feral over the line: I will protect you as long as I can#AND: I thought of you in the end I saw your face in the water#THAT MAN IS RIDICULOUS FOR THAT. He did not need to go around re-inventing love#cause I mean... man was a full blood prince with âresponsibilitiesâ and he seriously fell apart over a woman who was 5'2â#and dont even get me started On kanthony#I am unironically obsessed with the scene in the library and the line: AND IT IS NOT FAR ENOUGH#ridiculous that this man sniffed the air behind her as she walked by#like sir you are in HEAT stop it XD#and of course i could never forget about Delilah Bard and Kell Marsh#holy shit talk about a man with his life in order who met one woman and became so fucking smitten he spent a whole book low key crying#about her being gone and then getting stupidly excited over seeing her again#and then left his brother behind to go sail on a boat with her XD when she clearly only keeps him around for minimal purposes#I swear to god I went FERAL OVER âthere is no where you can goâ said the Antari to her prince âthat I cannot followâ#SHUT UP she loves him so muchđđđđđđ and she refused to admit it to him#a darker shade of magic#fragile threads of power
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WAIT SINCE WHEN DID FURY OF A SHATTERED MIRROR UPDATE HELLO HELLOOOOOOO??!!!!?!?!?????? (POSITIVE)
#OH SHIT!!!!!!! SCREAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!#chemi chats#HAND/EYE MY DARLING HOPE YOU FIND THAT GUN SOON XOXO#man. fuck. im in too deep truly. i see ''VOLITION -'' in purple and my singular braincell goes feral.#how am i meant to read in these conditions!!! its just his name!! dial it fucking back blorbo brainrot!!#[loud yelling] /ECHEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!/ [EVEN LOUDER YELLING] /EMMMMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!/#inland my friend inland. waugh. okay going to that one post in my drafts where i type voli's name over and over so i can be normal.#everyone be FUCKING NICE TO PERCEPTION!!!!!! EVERYONE BE NICE TO INLAND'S POETRY!!!!!!!!!! oh perception honey. something's wrong.#''YOU - Walk into the void'' ''VOLITION [SUCCESS] - NO THE FUCK YOU DON'T!! SIT YOUR ASS DOWN''#fury is always like. it does NOT disappoint with the humor aspect and i cherish it for that#HOLKY FUGKJGH9NG SHIT HOW DID THEY CODE THAT#FUCKING HELL THIS FIC IS SO GOOD#LMAO REITERATING ON THE HUMOR ASPECT. GOD. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS CHECK.#THESE ARE SUCH GOOD CHOICES FOR THE TWO PARTS OF THE CHANT
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đ¤ for misa about light ??
attractiveness:
repulsive / hideous / ugly / not attractive / unappealing / not unattractive / meh / no preference / ok / mildly attractive / nice looking / cute / adorable / attractive / pleasant on the eyes / good looking / hot / sexy / beautiful / gorgeous / hot damn / would tap that / perfect / godlike / holy fuck there are no words.
personality:
grating / irritating / frustrating / boring / confusing at best / awkward / unreasonable / psychotic / disturbing / interesting / engaging / affectionate / aggressive / ambitious / anxious / artistic / bad tempered / bossy / charismatic / appealing / unappealing / creative / courageous / dependable / unreliable / unpredictable / predictable / devious / dim / extroverted / introverted / egotistical / gregarious / fabulous / impulsive / intelligent / sympathetic / talkative / up beat / peaceful / calming / badass / flexible.
how likely they would have sex with them:
not if they were the last person on earth and the world was ending / fuck no! / never / no way / not likely / not sure / indifferent / Iâm asexual / maybe / probably / it depends / fairly likely / likely / yeah sure / yes / would tap that / hell yes / fuck yes! / wishing that could happen right now / as many times as possible / we are already having sex.
level of friendship:
never in a million years / worst of enemies / enemies / rivals / indifferent / neutral / acquaintance / friendly toward each other / casual friends / friends / good friends / best friends / fuck buddies / bosom buddies / practically the same person / would die for them / true friends (eventually, over time) / my only friend. (eventually, over time)
first impression of them:
i hate them so much / i donât like them / i donât trust them / they annoy me / theyâre weird / Iâm indifferent / meh / they seem alright / theyâre growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / Iâm not sure if I trust them / I trust them / theyâre cool / theyâre genuine / I think weâre going to get along / I really like them / I think Iâm in love / oh fuck theyâre hot / I love them.
current impression of them:
i hate them so much / i donât like them / i donât trust them / they annoy me / theyâre weird / Iâm indifferent / meh / they seem alright / theyâre growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / Iâm not sure if I trust them / I trust them / theyâre cool / theyâre genuine / I think weâre going to get along / I really like them / I think Iâm in love / oh fuck theyâre hot / I love them.
send đ¤ and my character will answer about yours; specify. || ALWAYS ACCEPTING || @prodigum.
#answered.#dynamic; misa & light.#brb kms#italics mean sometimes !! the present is all answered in the context for the on the run / survival au !!#anyway she ............. loves that man. SO MUCH#despite everything#like. especially after That she feels shell never be pretty enough tall enough kind enough compassionate enough smart enough or sexy enough#even though logically she KNOWS she's the shit#like she already struggles to forge genuinely meaningful connections w/ people especially w/ bpd#i genuinely think even if she's the second kira she'd try to use her vast fame & platform for humanitarian causes#& i think she'd try to influence light to do the same w/ her in the hopes of creating that new world light always wanted#im personally of the belief that despite how oof the beginning of their relationship was that there WAS some tenderness there#bc like im sorry u dont go through SIX YEARS of being w/ sb & not have any affection for sb thats just not how it works lmao#& we talked about them a fuckton in dms already on how eventually in this au they slowly start to get closer after losing everything#& its rly sweet & like really fucking sad at the same time. bc like. it took That Long for him to finally recognize her worth & how she's.#really the only one who truly genuinely unconditionally loved him & he's like. astonished by that. & it took him literally almost dying#& especially after That reveal like they get a lot closer#but the fact that she literally dies not longer after him literally on the exact same day as him tells you everything you need to know#she loved that man SO MUCH. they're each other's red thread of fate but where it digs into the hands like red barbed wire & bleeds.#anyway they make me so fucking feral#prodigum
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I CANNOT POST THAT MESSAGE BUT JESUS H FUCKING CHRIST
#this man makes me feral and he knows it and he likes to push my buttons#FUCK#uhm he just said heâs having to stop himself from laughing out loud and i feel fucking sick#and heâs also talking about fucking with me while other people are in the room with him#iâm going to fucking die#fucking please#holy fucking shit#i can feel the heat on my face#god fucking damn fucking hell#ender.txt#đposting
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I am once again begging online shop payment processing companies to allow me to enter a separate name for shipping and separate name for billing!!
It's the same address, I'm just trans and have not legally changed my personal name, but I still prefer to receive mail as my preferred name! Like it's literally my professional name, I do business as my preferred name.
Annoying as fuck, and I don't want to chance my bank rejecting the payment (though I'm sure someone at my bank has put a note to allow it on my account by now, since I've contacted them a couple times before when I realized too late that the billing section didn't let me input another "address/name" section, and they said the payment was fine in those cases.)
Anyway, legal name changes should be free and non-advertised for everyone. Tbh, you should get a free name change every time you file your taxes on time as an incentive for good citizen behaviour. Once I am elected pres-
#i think the one i just used didnt even have a separate billing address option which makes no sense#guess they dont want anyone giving any gifts making the buyer pay twice for shipping like that#maybe it was a fault of the mobile browser but i highly doubt it since many desktop sites look like mobile browsers these days#just so fucking frustrating. what if i lived somewhere where my legal name would out me? (im in the closet rn so doesnt matter)#i dont want to fucking see my legal name. im already forced to see it everywhere else.#i dont wanna ruin my mood on a day when im supposed to be getting a package which should be a happy thing yknow#vent#transphobia#speaking of like i would change my name but i dont want to and cant afford the fucking ridiculous price for it#and i dont wanna advertise it in a newspaper either! shits expensive as fuck on top of the hundreds to file the court paperwork!#i already tried to do it once with money in hand and the receptionist told me that even tho it was for gender identity i could not...#...avoid the newspaper thing unless i also changed my legal gender marker. and i had to back out bc i have reproductive health problems#i dont want a gender marker change to fuck with my getting healthcare#(i did change the gender letter on my ID card later tho which only took a signature on a paper no hassle with anything)#it really really fucking sucks how all these little things add up all the time#especially when im closeted while living w family who wont even use my preferred name#the real kicker is that. both my dad and his dad used preferred names. my dad used his middle name#and i use part of my middle name. yet my dad even in death still gets the dignity of being called his preferred name and i dont#sexism at its finest#reasons why i dont even hint at being trans around my moms side bc i already got bullied by them for wanting to use my middle name#ive literally been asking them to call me my mid name since i was 12. and theyve been acting like im trying to be someone else#its the same middle name on my birth certificate they gave me. i dont understand why they wouldnt want me to use it#but yeah i stay closeted bc i dont wanna deal with the name drama amplified exponentially for gender#prob get kicked out too cuz theyre queerphobic as fuck and i cant work rn and dont have a car#id have to just go full feral and live in the woods with the lizards where i belong#Cori.exe#Post.exe#fuck lol just looked it up and u cant change ur first name if u get married. i cant avoid the fucking fee man. let me be cori#literally why is it cheaper to get married than change ur first name! bullshit! marriage has so much more legal implications#transphobic queerphobic aromanticphobic privacyphobic poorphobic shit ass fucking state ive literally been cori most of my life ffs cmon
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