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seagulley · 2 months ago

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learning to be a good passenger on public transport

#new skill unlocked!#i tried to ride on the train with kaija when she was around 9 months old #and it didn't go so great #firstly back then we still had older trains which were really loud and difficult to get on (tall steep steps)#kaija was really scared to get on because of how noisy it was and too heavy for me to easily carry her up the steps #but now we have new trains which are much quieter and the entrance is at the same height as the train platform so very easy to get on #also kaija is older and more confident with all kinds of stuff now #so this attempt went much much better #nice to have the option to take public transport if i can't or don't want to drive somewhere :))#also she's wet in the photos because we were on our way back from the beach #dogblr #dogs of tumblr #australian shepherd #3 years

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lulubeanie · 3 months ago

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Don't forget that you can always draw your ocs and favorite characters in fun outfits that you think they would wear. you can and should do this

#duck speaks #it's very fun to do and like. think about what types of clothes they'd like to wear #and the things they'd pick out at a store with all sorts of clothes to choose from #it can be a way to get to know the character better also I think #especially for ocs. it's like a way to develop their character #what sort of clothes do they typically wear ? what textures and colors do they like in clothes ?#are they comfortable showing skin with their outfits ? do they get cold or hot easily ? what type of climate do they live in ?#is there a type of outfit they wish they could wear but are too scared/don't have the means or money to ?#do they normally dress more casual or more formal ? what would a formal or casual outfit be for them ?#what do they wear in the summer ? what about in the winter ?#what are their pajamas like ?#do they dress in fashion from a specific era ? what era are they from also ?#do they dress more feminine or more masculine ? a mix of both ?#do they wear the same/similar outfits over and over ? is there something they always wear no matter what outfit they have on ?#do they care a lot about their appearance and how other people see them ? how does that effect their outfits ?#lots of things to think about #also you should draw them in outfits for mee #I love outfits and I love to see them #you don't have to make them up from the top of your head even. you can have an idea for what you want and look it up for reference #I do this a lot #I'll go in pinterest and search up like. 70s fashion or 2010s teen fashion or something #and look around to get a better idea of what I'm going for #pinterest is nice because you can click on a image you like and it'll have similar ones under that :]

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itsalwaysforyou · 7 months ago

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jay not asking coach about letting lonnie onto the team bc he doesn’t want to do anything coach might disagree with…….

#‘coach trusts me…’ like what if i cried #man i wish they made more of a thing of jay being TEAM CAPTAIN #<- i’ve made a post before abt how easily he gives it up & jay not liking positions of power etc etc #but i do think he treats the role like it could be taken away at any moment #coach TRUSTS him. holy shit coach trusts him #the first positive adult figure in his life trusts him to take care of the team #train them and critique them and lead them to victory #and coach probably wouldn’t have cared abt lonnie being on the team #but jay is sooooo hesitant to ask #coming from the ‘if you want it take it and if you can’t take it break it’ guy #like this is the one thing he doesn’t want to risk breaking…….#and then obviously he gives it up!!!!!#he gives up the thing coach TRUSTED HIM WITH bc it was the only way to let lonnie on the team #& mr ‘my only dislike is women being unhappy’ was like I CANNOT REST UNTIL LONNIE IS ON THE TEAM #it’s suchhhhh a sweet gesture not only from a hashtag feminism standpoint #but also character wise for jay #like this precious thing that coach has trusted him with but didn’t really want that much anyway…..#it’s going to mean more to lonnie if she had it. even though it means everything to jay #oh it makes me crazy #damn my mum was right. i think too deeply about things #im like i analyse things a normal amount and then i’m writing essays about 1 line from descendants 2 #I AM UNWELL #anyway. jesus christ #descendants #jay son of jafar #EDIT i’m not finished actually #do you think jay fears the repercussions? what would happen if he went against coach’s word?#bc sure. he knows coach is nice. he knows auradon isn’t like the isle #but. ‘you don’t want to be at my house at dinner time’…….#he is still scared of his dad. you know. he can never get the lamp he can never do anything right

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kirkwallguy · 15 days ago

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They sanitized being queer so much in Veilguard and for what. Your Inquisitor still needs to be binary, and god forbid if they transitioned between games. And for what, Cullen and Solas? Girl, dump him and take his gender. It won't fix you but it'll make shit funnier.

IF more than one romance actually mattered id understand it being too complicated to allow for transition, but seriously? only solas gets more than a codex entry afaik, how hard it would have been to have the m inquisitors record voice lines and have gareth david lloyd record alternate versions of like..any gendered lines which i assume there aren't many of. they should have dropped the illusion that romances had content and just done a 'did you romance solas?' toggle that any inquisitor could turn on lol

#ask #anonymous #sanitised really is the word. when ive finished the game maybe ill properly collect my thoughts on it #im just personally a fantasty homo/transphobia enjoyer. i know some people prefer escapism jn fantasy but #i think it's a good and interesting/safe way to explore feelings and dynamics surrounding being queer #and having veilguard be as surface level as it is wrt transphobia just feels like it isnt fully capturing feelings surrounding being trans #relatability isnt everything but how do you make a trans character feel real when they face none of the struggles #the average trans person faces?#ofc. may be a product of being made by middle class-ish canadians in a liberal city but i think it may be due to ea / sensitivity readers #veilguard spoilers #also im mad about the dorian romance because it feels like they dangle it in front of your face. but also no sera or josie????#theyre literally alive no matter your worldstate. they could have so easily thrown a bone to gay and lesbian players lol #bull's whole deal being butchered is another thing let's not even get into it. weekes you CHOSE to do that.#sorry these are tipsy rantings. but. i get my dissertation results back this week and wrote about negative emotion + transness #in fiction so if i get a good result maybe ill be able to write something real about dav #as it is im too scared to properly think about the topic bc im nervousdjwjdjwjej

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b-blushes · 4 months ago

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thursday quest - no physical therapy today - make and eat lunch sooooo early but i can do it!!!!! - get ready for wedding - attend wedding! yay! (: - decompress well when i get home <3

#its thursday quest #god i'm so anxious about it autism style. so many uncertainties that i simply cannot account for alone. but i'm being sooo 'brave' about it #(keeping it to myself. except for posting about it)#taxi company hasn't texted me the drivers' details yet and i emailed them to be like ummmm your policy is to pay before the day #would you like to email me the payment details so i can do that? and they were like 'we'll send the driver details soon' ummmm #there isn't much soon left!!!!!!! it's happening tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!#they're probably just not Organised™ in the way i prefer to be. which is objectively fine it's just challenging for me personally.#i do not think it's Bad but!!!!! i've never taken a taxi before <- guy who Is Scared Of Taxis Specifically but has to face #their fears because they're disabled and have no other choice.#worst case i am down the money and no-one arrives to take me home i guess :P but it'll be afternoon AND my family are there so #in theory i could just get a lift home even though that would mess up other people's plans sooooo bad. UNLESS they have already drunk uhhhh #in which case i guess i'd just ask for help calling a taxi to the place. plany of people who can do such things easily (unlike me)#it'll be fine!!! i can ask my siblings if need be bc they are so niceys and will not get mad at me for being autistic o7 #My other worry is being too hot and being in a rush getting ready bc i have to eat a proper meal due to the symptoms syndromes #and we are leaving when my lunch usually is so that's a whole thing. which ALSO doesn't matter and I can do! it's just hard!#where is that post that's like 'managed mental illness can look like absence of mental illness 😅'. NOT saying being autistic is mental #illness i am saying that the specific extreme anxiety i have is for me linked to autistic issues with 'the unknown' and boy. does this #social situation also have a lot of unknown.#BUT I CAN DO IT! and dare i say even have a nice time!!!!! it's just i get so so scared beforehand but i will not express it in a way that #impacts or inconveniences anyone else!!! i can handle it by myself at my house and it'll be fine

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birddcandle · 1 year ago

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G.I.G.S fusion!! He is a scaredy-cat (gem) sometimes

Used @//chrisrin’s designs for Grian, Impulse, Scar, and Skizz for this :D

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sysig · 8 months ago

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You’re gonna die if you keep that up (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Damned #ZEX #Kayako #And Teisel's there technically #*Die again - he's sticking with his track record lol at least he's consistent #Ghost/Curse GF arc!! I enjoy seeing ZEX happy but I am Concerned for him lol #ZEX be attracted to something/one that won't brutally murder him challenge - difficulty impossible #His affection for the grotesque and monstrous - I mean while it's admirable he does regularly put himself in dangerous situations!#Runs solely on the Suspension Bridge Effect lol - attraction and fear so conflated in his mind <3 #I keep thinking of his human instincts as specifically Max's instincts since it's his body - Max's self-preservation and fear and hunger #Which ZEX dutifully ignores lol Max's body tells him to bolt and privately replies like ''Yes yes in a moment'' haha #His fascination wins out! To his own detriment haha #Although I say all that as though I don't relate in my own way - I have maybe just a few too many notes relating to ZEX lol #It's always been hard for me to get into horror in the way it's intended to spook and scare because I tend to get sad :')#So many monsters and ghosts and creatures are victims of circumstance! Like Kayako! As she is here she's not even malicious just dangerous #I've never seen the Grudge so it's only speculation but it seems very sad that she was tethered as a Curse rather than a malignant spirit #Like a battery moreso than an individual - what a terrible after-existence! It makes me sad to consider!#ZEX reaching out to her in his own way is very sweet <3 He's so biased towards his darlings hehe #In a way being human does suit him - we'll packbond with anything that Might have even the slightest inclination to not maim us lol #And the way he personifies her! (VUXonifies her?) Reading intention or emotion into her actions with no proof and no understanding!#The way he ''tries to read her face'' as if he hasn't been struggling with that this entire time - with other humans who can tell him so ♪#His pride is so delicious <3 He is so easily blinded to his own shortcomings in the face of pleasure and the potential for connection!#It's no wonder DAX worries about him so much hehe ♥#It also always makes me so happy to have something fit together so perfectly like those last two hehe <3 #That vine didn't exist when this happened! But there it is!! I love newer memes on older media hehehe ♪♫

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sickmachete · 5 months ago

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for every dumbass that tries making friends with the local wildlife there's a very tired wildlife rehab worker tasked with scaring the shit out of an animal for acting too friendly towards people

#one of our animals was getting wayyy too friendly throughout its treatment with us so we had to literally come up with ways to scare it #which was very jarring to say the least after all that ''how to not stress out our animals'' training we went through lol #my rehab center isn't even allowed to take in fawns as patients because they're too easily habituated #so yeah friendly reminder to not feed your local wildlife #it's a great way to get an animal killed #txt #if you want to feed animals so bad just volunteer at your local rehab center 👍 i get to bottle feed baby squirrels every day #10/10

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katyspersonal · 1 year ago

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#personal #internets #at this rate I've unfollowed both of the kinda.. 'controvercial' blogs I've been following #since there was a good chunk of actually good takes about how bad media is now and society and braindead internet 'activists' that-#-had it too good in their western countries and NEEDED to invent the reason to bully and excile people #could honestly resonate with it despite some other posts causing genuine pain. but mostly about terribly handled media #like you know that thing when corporations do terrible ass rep to pretend that they care for minorities #or artificially fabricate online backlash against their new actors to show investors that people show interest for their product because-#-of all the clicks on their article?#like discussion of this kind sorta keeps me sober #as a person with BPD I get contaminated by opinions VERY easily and as an autist I will believe everything if it is put together 'logically #that's why I HAVE to be exposed to every possible opinion so I am forced to make out my own rather than being swayed anywhere #but at this point those blog became kinda.. bad? like they don't just have 'opinions' but they hate just to hate #but now my dashboard and recs are full of exclusively things I can fully agree with and I am scared that it will rot my brain #like.. emotions are always the same. where is the 'wait WHAT' effect? where is anger? where is self-reflection?#but ALSO I realized that 'those' blogs are no better than those western 'warriors' I despise and they become narrow-minded too in the end #they advertise themselves as 'open to debate' only to always sway debate into trying to win and not into actually discovering the truth #I cannot trust any side because they're all narrow-minded and hostile but I cannot trust people without any side because-#-they're fence-sitters without morals that side with the winner #is there a secret third thing? like is there a way to not take a side but to still HAVE ideals and opinions?#my problem is that if I am not exposed to people that trash everything I value I forget why AM I valuing [a thing] to BEGIN with #and that won't do will it

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thevalleyoftriumph · 10 months ago

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thinking abt that time i accidentally followed an account i waz trying to block and had to immediately unfollow and commence blocking and hope they didnt get a notification bcoz thatz TERRIFYING. and also embarrassing. like really embarrassing. why r those buttonz so close .

#proz of blocking very easily; curating my internet experience #conz of blocking very easily; shti like thiz happenz and i dont know if they wouldve seen the notif and im too scared to find out by #finding the blog and Looking #kitkat chitchat #wait i can test thiz w a sideblog. will be back w resultz.#edit ok i tested following and unfollowing within varrying amountz of time w a sideblog and checking notifz After i unfollowed #and i didnt get any notifz #SO. unless that person just so happenz to have been online at that EXACT moment and opened the notifz IMMEDIATELY #then they would not know.#that or if they have push notifz on in which case . um. cant test that considering I Dont Use That.#either way regardless i would probably Know by now if they saw bcoz the person specifically waz That Kind Of Person #so itz been weekz and im just gonna go ahead and assume im fine

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suddencolds · 9 months ago

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i've def heard of people having to be in the right headspace to write like, v thirsty/self-indulgent snz content, but somehow i find it equally difficult to be in the right headspace to write angst

#snz thirst is more predictable bc it's just #letting my d pilot the plane instead of my head and blinking down to see that i've written 2 thousand words #angst is not like a snz-specific device so you'd think it'd be easier to utilize #but specifically in the context of h/c it feels like #close to the same level of self-indulgent for me... only i feel so much more self-conscious when i'm writing it. i think it's also because #i feel like people more easily excuse gratuitous snz as like 'omg the author really went for it 🥵 this is hot' whereas for angst the #equivalent of 'overdoing it' or being too indulgent is like... okay this is ooc. these characters are not arguing in a way that feels #believable. it feels like they are being flattened or misconstrued just for the sake of the angst 🙁#what i'm trying to say is #being perceived as overindulgent in the angst sense scares me so much more than being perceived as overindulgent in the snz sense #when i get really into writing angst i'm like >:) omg i live for dramatic tension and misunderstandings. please argue MORE #but when i get to editing it i'm like 😰😰 what was i thinking. would they really say that... would they really cry here...#which feels terrifying in a different way - the not-knowing if what i've been writing will be received as i intend it or if it'll be seen #as too emotionally trite / unbelievable #does that make sense... i am operating on 4h of sleep right now which is probably #why this post exists haha. but anyways

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lightblueminecraftorchid · 9 days ago

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My roommate and I had a conversation last night and I keep rotating it in my brain and I Don’t Like It

#blue chatter #they called me a resilient person. and no the fuck I am not. I break down so easily over everything and my body is falling apart on me.#I scream in terror when someone knocks on the door too hard the fuck you mean I’m good at handling adversity #I pointed out that I freak out whenever my grade gets low even a little bit #and they were just sitting there like ‘yeah. and then you pick yourself up again and you do the work.’#and no? not always? oftentimes I give up and don’t try hard enough to fix it and let points go that I could have earned #I barely ever go for extra credit opportunities and I’ve never gone to office hours of my own free will #I can’t even think about talking to a professor about a bad grade without wanting to cry? hello?#but they were insistent that even with those things I am still managing Incredibly Well in class given the circumstances. which made me #uncomfortable. like. I don’t think of myself as resilient At All and I feel a bit like I’m lying or tricking them.#I start shaking like a chihuahua when people are upset and I’m In The Vicinity. even when they’re clearly not upset with me.#I really struggle to advocate for myself ever and even when I do I usually feel guilty and walk it back partway so I don’t cause a fight #and I always get way too emotional for the situation when someone has anything they’re upset with me for. which isn’t fair to them bc I need #to be able to take constructive criticism without taking it as a personal attack on me.#like what the fuck do you mean *resilient*. I can’t even handle seeing a bug flying near my face or getting a B in a class. or being told #that I did something wrong. I’m actually significantly worse at handling adversity than I used to be. high school me was a resilientish kid.#and it’s not like I was ever *good* at handling my emotions. even when it was essential for my safety. I’ve always cried way too easily #even when it actively made the situation I was in Much Worse. even when I knew better.#I would get angry and scared and sad and start shaking and crying and even screaming at my parents when they were mad at me even though #I knew that it would always make my life much worse. and extend an already beleaguered argument.#I brought this up with my therapist and she was like ‘well. anybody would have done that if they were treated like you were’.#which. okay. maybe so. I still feel like I should have been able to handle it and just shut up and move on and not make it worse.#but I am aware that this is probably a cognitive distortion. even so. that definitely doesn’t make me resilient.#I just. I feel gross being called resilient. I’m not. I’m weak and easily scared and unable to handle even small amounts of adversity.#the fuck is my roommate even *seeing*.#the annoying part is that they’re generally an insightful person about other people and I know logically that they’re probably right #which is why I’m not going to complain any more about this to their face bc I should just drop it and not make it a Thing #I talk too much about myself and my problems anyway. not every conversation has to be about my brain worms.#but the discomfort is Distinct and Unpleasant. and now I’m just having to sit with it. and Feel Uncomfortable. and try to accept what was #definitely intended as a compliment. I know it’s draining to talk to someone who doesn’t accept any of the kind things you say about them.

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spider-man-2o99 · 2 years ago

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VERY mean and RUDE punk robot TEENAGER insults SPIDER-MAN and PRESUMES him to be a CAPITALIST for wearing a GAY ASS TOTE-BAG in PUBLIC. MORE news at SEVEN.

#talking tag #spider-man 2099 #spiderman 2099 #miguel o'hara #ghost rider 2099 #zero cochrane #kenshiro 'zero' cochrane #marvel #comics #comic panels #anyways yea i do unfortunately think that it;s honestly really really funny when ppl get So So Scared of mig bcuz it happens in-canon too.#and in-canon 90% of the time he always just sits there like. Dude Im. Im Not An Animal-- No Im Not The First Guy Either. I Have A Nickname-?#he doesnt Really care abt being called a quote-unquote Pretender Spidey (the guy is Dead. mig is Half Spider. get over it pete.)#but he DOES care very VERY deeply abt his independence nd personal autonomy. so it gets under his skin a Lot when ppl jab at him w/ Alchemax #(though zero hasn't done that here Out Loud.) (yet lmao)#cause there R a lot of ways in which they Actively deny those things 2 him both in- and out of costume!#really it;s fascinating 2 me but miguel is not really an Angry Person by his nature he is just so EASILY goaded into Lashing Out blindly.#something something ANGR voice get mad get mad. yaknow.#.....oh CHRIST i been ramblin in this one lmao

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databent · 1 month ago

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im so tired of feeling like this

#thought i was doing a little better mystery illness-wise but i woke up with my body feeling like lead again and its just kept getting worse #chest hurts. feel weak when i have to be standing/walking/using my body. HORRIBLE brain fog and way too easily overstimulated again #i dont even know what i did this time to cause it! i havent been pushing myself i really thought i hadnt worn myself out at all. i dont know #feels like my body is turning against me. dont like that this is happening again when i thought i was avoiding it im scared im getting worse #.pdf #rd

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skrunksthatwunk · 4 months ago

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household enemy to the yyh watchthrough number one is the olympics. it's taken us a week to get two episodes into the gamemaster fight

#out of three. please the third episode's what makes it okay im fighting for my life out here #it is NOT for lack of trying on my part but theres only a brief window of time when the olympics is not happening #and as it turns out the watchthrough is Not my mom's first priority (how dare she etc)#i do feel slightly bitter that we've gotten through two eps of band o brothers in the same time #we are fighting for the same timeslots yet somehow the hour long show's gotten a leg up??#you don't have time for a 23 min ep but DO for a 60 min one?? explain the math to me please #idk how to explain the vague feeling of betrayal bc it Does Not make sense Nor matter in the slightest #but cmonnnn we were doing so well. and my little bro's starting up school again soon and my dad's gotta go back to work #sometimes eventually (<- hes on medical leave) and my grandparents are coming over next week We're Losing Time Soon #ughhh if i'd known the olympics were happening (<- somehow completely oblivious to this) i'd have accounted for #my mom getting whisked away by the land of synchronized divers and shot putters and whatever the hell #happens in the summer olympics (<- only pays attention to winter olys)#bc that always happens. and *i* have to go back to school in Some Amount Of Time Im Too Scared To Check (p sure it's late aug though) and #when that happens i'll (hopefully) be stuck across town which means we won't be able to do it any time besides the weekends #and i don't wannaaaaa #i know this is the least important problem anyone's ever had like i get that i know but #it's important to me that they sit down and watch this with me. and watching it pull apart and being #the one who's easily the most invested it makes me look all desperate when i ask them for their time and they can't give it #we can only pull this off neatly in the summer and we were so close and now we're losing it right at the finish line #i don't want life to get in the way of this little bubble i've fought so hard to make y'know #and it's childish and embarrassing and whatever but i just want them to have fun with me with this thing i care about a lot #but i can't do that bc my mom needs to watch the judo matches at Every weight class #even though she's recording a lot of them? i don't understand but whatever i know it's her thing im just moping about it ig #i want it to be as perfect an experience for them as possible and it's slipping away from me #and i don't wanna leave this project unfinished when i start school y'know. sighh #i think they might feel like i only want them around when we're watching stuff. whcih is weird bc that's like #The Singular Way we family bonded literally my whole life so idk why they wouldn't get that when reversed #but either way that IS how i wanna spend time with them. i want them to understand this thing that's become a part of me #and i wanna talk With them about it. and so far it's been fun in a way it's never been before. my mom at least seems to really like it #and i want it to Keep going well bc if we lose momentum im worried they'll start finding it tedious. sighh

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vanweezer · 2 months ago

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being extroverted must be awesome imagine feeling nothing after telling someone "wow youre REALLY quiet". im going to talk less around you now 🫶

#i know i got anxiety like a motherfucker and as much as i love my cave where my objects of comfort are i also like going places sometimes #there was a time where id go to a store and then do what i needed and then exit the store #nowadays i find myself yapping at The Store especially if i need help getting something done. etc #also sometimes people at Places are such dicks the best way to get them to fuck off is to mind your own business #assholes need an audience and people who arent assholes wont demand your attention you feel me?#i am less scared of people these days 👍 the interactions however #scripting is at times my friend and also my flop. i know what to say on what days with select people in my kingsley-safe zones #but if anything goes off script ... flop. meltdown. fear. anguish. death. dying. death.#i feel like these kinda conversations get TOO heavy handed on treating introverted people as these self righteous misanthropes #who are too full of their own selves and their own time to want to reach out and build connections #and i feel like its just unfair and it pushes introverts further into their caves #i aint a fucking doctor nor am i a people expert. im not a people person. i dont trust easily and i dont speak unless spoken to #or unless im on tumblr lol #but i do know that it cannot seriously be helpful to NOT help socially awkward people. where do yall get off on calling anyone immature #for not being 100% type a?#that doesnt make anything better. that doesnt encourage conversations and that for fucking sure doesnt encourage people #to step out of their bubble #ok im mostly rambling because there are times where tough love advice is warranted but there are times where its bullying disguised as TL #i know this is the 'ummm why dont you have friends party and socialize more???' website but idk. it could not be!#anyway proud of myself for not freaking the fuck out during a conversation at the collectors store today #proud of myself for being able to goof off in public and proud of myself for staying the fuck home when i wann stay the fuck home

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