#i fucking hate gender lmao
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Suddenly feeling incredibly dysphoric in this chilis tonight
#and like im faking this shit#as usual#i fucking hate gender lmao#i have so little love for physical gender#and outward identity#i just want everyone who ever encounters me to just say it or they or them or that person#at this point im so digusted i dunno if i even want masc pronouns anymore#🙃🙃🙃 when will my suffering end#whenever i die unfulfilled i guess. authentic self what the fuck is that?#the possibility to do anything for myself is extremely low. all the people in this country who are trans cant even get a good job#all the workplaces be like we dont discriminate!!!! yeah you do actually#i hate being closeted i hate existing like this.#i hate feeling like im lying to myself or something.#i hate the concept that if i try to help myself i wont be taken seriously#idk maybe im bitter the psych who was supposed to help me just dropped me and left the country and said theyre not doing online and gave#me no other contact to further whatever this shit is#also im poor so i cant afford insurance that could possibly even begin to cover any of my problems#negative sims symbol lol#➖➖🧍#is it bad that i more or less think about dying every day?????#its bad right#i dont have suicidal ideation#i just think about it.#idk. i dk idk idkc how to continue fucking living like this
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i desperately need people to realize there's a difference between "women need to coddle (cis) men's feelings even when they're being misogynistic uwu" and "we shouldn't tolerate misogyny but actively keeping men separate from women and treating them like they're inherently dangerous to women is only going to worsen the problem (and also this mindset causes IMMEASURABLE harm to nonbinary, trans, and intersex people, who are already incredibly at risk right now)" and i need people to realize that NOW
#misogyny#transphobia#intersexism#marshy speaks#ask to tag#like your 'hate all men' radfem shit is only worsening the problem i'm sorry.#unfortunately i don't have an easy answer for how to deal with this problem nor do i think there is an *easy* answer#but i sure as fuck know that gender essentialism is not it lmao
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im like the lorax when it comes to women's body hair. we should let it grow.
#eliot posts#the other day my roommate was talking abt how she hates shaving#but does it anyway bc she doesn't want people to be mean to her about her body hair#and i was like yeah i mean i used to#also worry about that bc my mother was always so fucking cruel to me when i didn't shave#but as an adult i find that it's extremely rare that anyone even mentions it (tho my body hair is pretty light so that could be a factor)#but even when people are shitty i find that i no longer give a shit about what what those idiots have to say about my body#but i understand that that can be a hard step to take so if you need to keep shaving for your own comfort then i won't judge#but on the inside i was just like#*ibuprofen hand meme* ''let's get called disgusting hairy d*kes together <3''#i had a great time showing off my pit hair at the pool today!#(i get read as a woman when im swimwear cuz i can't hide my body as much. so i get read as a hairy masculine woman.)#i show off my leg hair every time i wear shorts but like. my leg hair is Pathetic#i look practically prepubescent vis a vis my leg hair (my mother still calls it disgusting lmao)#but my pit hair is pretty good#i occupy a weird gendered place in society where i am more of a man in identify but society genders me as a woman#the only time i feel remotely okay being seen as a woman is when i am seen as a BAD woman. a woman who cannot/will not be A Proper Lady#it's not an entirely ACCURATE view of me but there's Something in it
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it's so funny to me when people just believe that john is straight because he said "i'm not a homosexual" once because
1. you are believing the words of a 13 yr old who was 12 the day before.
2. people forget that he's 13 when he said that, and that he is not old enough for a proper romantic relationship.
3. john egbert doesn't think. in fact, he'd rather not AT ALL. like. EVER.
4. why would he think about ever liking a girl? can't he just say it out right if he does?
also, this part in a nutshell:
karkat: DO YOU WANNA BE IN A RELATIONSHI-
john: i am not a homosexual. 👍
5. god king of repression had you fooled FOOL.
and the most ironic part is that it's the same shit homophobic parents say like "yeah, but when you were 13 you said you liked girls soooo"
#homestuck#john egbert#homestuck analysis#hs analysis#hs meta#IT HAS BEEN 14 FUCKING YEARS#man :/#there is literally no need to post about this only if homestuck fans could actually read#john egbert was queer this whole time? the horror!#literally what his gag was all about lmao#argument happened in twt about johns gender/sexuality instead of saying that hes just queer couldve just ended everything#LMAO#a twt qrt mentioned that this post was about defending my yaoi ship? which is literally not? theyr using it as a reason hate on me lol#i love john egbert so much its painful. dirk strider can die because he failed ME so idrc
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I have just discovered the offensive reality of straight people A/B/O through Bridgerton fanfics—truly a misogynistic patriarchal reinforcement of gender stereotypes that horrifies me to my soul.
Straight people should not have access to this trope, they have no concept of how to use it. Like, if you’re determined to do a “family legacy” thing for the Bridgertons, they’re all horny Omegas looking for love.
However, if we’re being more INTERESTING with it:
Simon/Daphne should be Beta/Omega, and you could use Simon being a Beta to play into his daddy issues.
Kate/Anthony is Alpha/Alpha, anyone who tries to make Kate an Omega is out of their fucking minds. Also, that is a woman who wants to fuck her husband, let’s be so for real.
Penelope/Colin would be the actual Alpha/Omega dynamic but Pen is obviously the Alpha. Colin wants to be good for her SO BAD. I don’t make the rules. (Except I DO and I’M RIGHT).
John/Francesca are a couple of autistic Betas who just want the crazy Alphas and Omegas to leave them out of their messy drama so they can be quiet nerds together.
As for Eloise and Benedict, there’s a few options.
Eloise as an Alpha or Omega can be used to explore how that effects her as a woman in 19th century regency who feels like she SHOULD be able to do the same things as her brothers but is restricted either bc she’s a girl (Alpha) or bc she’s an Omega, and how that’s affected by her internalized misogyny (against omega girls for example). Could also contribute to her and Pen’s friendship dynamics—if she’s an Alpha, as a bonding point for not quite fitting, but if she’s an Omega you can make it a like she thinks Pen being an Alpha is cool/is envious of her.
Benedict I feel like you could argue for any secondary gender and make it interesting, cause that’s the kind of character he is. But I think most interesting would be making him a Beta to really play into the way he’s trying to find his place without having a set role in his family.
Have I put way to much thought into this? No, I literally came up with this as soon as I thought about it, it’s so easy and way more interesting than “the boys are alphas and the girls are good little omegas bc i hate queer people and prefer to write boring uninteresting worlds and dynamics and fetishize terrible gender stereotypes”.
The only way ur allowed to use A/B/O for het couples is if ur messing with the secondary gender shit. Otherwise it just feels inherently misogynistic and homo-and-transphobic to me.
#I was surprised how instantly I hated it when I came across a couple and saw the character tags#like I’m sorry I’m what universe is ANY of these romances male alpha/fem omega#accept the premise of fucking with gender or don’t touch it at all#literally fucking with gender is THE ENTIRE POINT#anyway#can’t believe I’m posting this lmao#bridgerton#a/b/o#omegaverse#lol#polin#kanthony#saphne#no?#daphmon#really??? saphne is way better#johncesca#uhhhh#johnesca#stirlington#idk what their ship name but they’re adorable#John Francesca
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#jonathan davis#jon davis#korn#nu metal#metal#90s#cutie#gender envy holy fuck. fuckfuckcuk..#but also we have ghe literal same body but for some reason i love it on him and hate it on me LMAO#im so thankful for jonathan he makes me feel content#idk im rambling i just love the guy
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Obsessed with people who pine so much after the object of their affections that their desire becomes an ugly thing, festering within them. A longing that becomes violent, not against the subject of the love but instead the person who loves, a sword in the gut, a knife in the back from that which they trust most- themself. Yearners who don't hate the fact that they're in love but nonetheless loathe themselves for loving at all and being unable to act, for holding this thing in their chest and letting it destroy them. Yearners who view their own love as a virus that infects them, a cancer growing inside of them, and yet they are unwilling to remove it. They would rather keep it behind their teeth, hidden by their lips, than utter it aloud and yet it destroys them with every second they let it go unspoken.
#yes this is about ivan. but it's also about felix fraldarius (fe3h) and a few other characters who are just. so emotionally repressed my god#but yeah i love a character who is in love but like it's not some beautiful fairy tale thing. it's fucked up and ugly but not insofar as#their love being ugly itself but the way that they treat it. it's a character that hates themself for being in love at all#they might also hate *being* in love but like moreso they think that they shouldn't be in love at all or that they don't deserve it etc#i am just the perfect kind of fucked up and evil to delight at the idea of being able to get my grubby little hands on one of these#obviously this isn't a gendered thing either!! i have multiple ocs that are women that act this way lmao#also i do think marceline could arguably be one of these when she's in the weird no man's land time with bubblegum. anyways#alnst ivan#felix hugo fraldarius#marceline abadeer#rocktalks
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you're a self-hating miserable homophobic woman who's ready to throw all lesbians under the bus and make us even more vulnerable to 'corrective' r*pe attempts by vile lesbian-fetishizing het males by claiming they can 'identify' into lesbianism despite being male heterosexuals - the literal opposite of lesbians aka female homosexuals. you're doing a great job peaking any self-respecting homosexual, hell even empathetic bisexual into realizing how your transhet anti-scientific brainless rhetoric is the most dangerous fake progressive aggressive homophobia. I was one of the biggest trans supporters in my circle a few years ago but thankfully I don't have worms for brains so I realized your conversion ideology is antithetical to gay liberation. in a few years no gay person would will support you mentally ill homophobes, thanks I guess for helping more people see the light
Gender essentialism is poison and it will rot your brain. How am I the homophobe for showing compassion to queer men? Do you know how many queer men are killed in hate crimes every year, especially black and disabled men? Why do they get locked out of spaces that could help them just because you're uncomfortable with them?
If you seriously can't see how bigoted this ask is, how hateful it comes across to someone who feels alienated by "men dni" bullshit because of my supreme butchness, then idk how to help you. You need to do some serious self-reflection on why you think women are always safe and men are always dangerous and why you think intersex people are fake and undeserving of support. Would you trust a racist female karen over a black man? Would you spit in the face of a lesbian rape survivor because she said her rapist was a woman? If you saw a cis woman with a beard due to Hirsutism, would you scream and throw up and tell her to get lost, even though going home could be a death sentence?
I think I know.
NOW BEGONE, TERF!!! ✨✨✨
#anon hate#queerphobia#fuck you#any more hateful messages like this will be deleted#i have no tolerance for bigotry#ask marshemillow#terfs stfu challenge#gender essentialism is poison#emi talks#i think this whole exchange speaks for itself lmao#terfs are a cult
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The JD vs Amber Heard stuff was actually insane. I didn't keep up with it because I disagreed with the sheer principle of publicizing something like *that* but the misogyny was MASK OFF...
NO LIKE FRL IT WAS SO INSANE
#ask tag#Tbh like#The thing is i’d already known and been misinformed about the case for a long time prior so I started off thinking depp was innocent#And then I remember when I realized he was very much not partially Bc of the hate I was seeing towards Amber Heard#Like the exposed texts of him saying extremely sexist violent stuff about her and everyone just dismissing that#It became clear that I was wrong from the get-go like that he actually was horrible and I assumed everyone else would realize that too#but then the more ppl dismissed or mocked the real indisputable evidence she brought up#The more I saw that ppl didn’t actually care#They were just excited to be evil and dismissive towards a woman#Lmao sometime after that I stopped giving a fuck about “male mental health” bc clearly they’re not being as shunned as they pretend they r#Sorry is that controversial#I’m just saying if u reversed the genders that trial would’ve played out way differently#The concept of male victims and men with poor mental needing extra attention and care bc theyre sooo marginalized bc they’re men#And they dont get respect and support like those selfish abused women#Should’ve died after this case#Bc whenever there are male victims they get all the support and attention from everyone#Female victims get This#Like dont get me wrong there’s stigma#But the stigma for male victims is “lol you’re like a woman now that’s funny” “lol so r u gay”#The stigma for female victims is “you evil bitch how could you ruin his life you deserved worse you bitch”
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I'm experiencing symptoms of the mental illness known as Been Awake Too Long
#ah Been Awake Too Long... we meet again#symptoms of BATL (omg the acronym is literally BATTLE lmao) may include but are not limited to:#thinking everyone hates you#thinking you hate everyone else and/or yourself#deep yearning for things once lost#hopelessness about your goals#experiencing Gender (the bad way)#experiencing or questioning sexuality (also the bad way)#memory loss#contemplating your mortality inevitable death and the fragility of life#thinking 'i should text them'#sudden tearfulness#delirium#loss of all wordly attachments and sense of self#talk to your doctor to see if Going The Fuck To Sleep may be right for you#side effects may include being cozy and saying honk shoo mimimi
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Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.
Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.
That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.
The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.
Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.
Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.
#team fortress 2#tf2#that's it that's the only tags i am putting this in. maybe someday i will have the balls to do more but for now that's about it#while i have the chance - and since posts with more of my yapping in the tags don't pop in people's feeds much - i might as well ramble-#-about these guys here. self-inserts or not i'm projecting only half of my bullshit on each one of them. creativity 👍#backup is tall and pale and has sharp canines and more of a dull brown hair colour with tired grey eyes. no amount of babyface or soft-#-hands can really help a motherfucker when he's grimacing so much because he just Hates being around half the people on the team.#cleaner meanwhile is on the shorter side and has constantly flushed skin and brighter colours and whatnot. you can't see it because of the-#-mask most of the time but they do smile a lot more and have a more cheery disposition towards life and see the whole team as their friends!#backup transitioned fully (albeit not very legally lmao) and is scared shitless of not being seen as a man although the last time that ever-#-came up was years ago. he holds onto his last name as part of the heritage he loves and loathes at the same time - attached to his culture-#-and religion and bloodline while also resentful of his family and the regime he knows someone else on the team suffered under.#cleaner just kinda binds and calls it a day. he only does it to confuse the team because while he doesn't identify with being a girl he-#-loves the confused looks his epic gender reveal moment gets. they do not remember their family name or where they grew up or what even got-#-them to this kind of mental state. and he's chill with it he values the here and now way more than some dark edgy backstory.#backup despite trying to be an honest man is afraid of vulnerability as well. he stubbornly refuses to express love towards certain people-#-lest they feel disgusted and turn away. he's afraid of consequences afraid of losing the people he loves afraid of his ''interests'' being-#-what drives them away. it doesn't by the way and he just wasted time being a cold indecisive loser for several months lmao#cleaner wears a suit that hides all of them yes but they pretty much never lie. he is always his truest self and he can always just burn-#-people who don't like him enough to make it a problem. they are a lot more comfortable indulging in their interests - be they innocent-#-and juvenile or violent and dangerous. he is quite open with his affection and his fascinations that backup would rather keep secret.#i want to establish that these two can only exist in separate universes because they both have feelings towards the funny assistant lady-#-and the funny inventor guy (selfshipping for the winnn) and would fight over those two. cleaner would win by the way#it's also a really funny point of comparison. cleaner is objectively more fucked up than backup and still managed to be more normal about-#-their feelings and live as a healthier and happier person than that guy. comedic gold honestly#OKAY I'M DONE if you read up to here you get uhhh a cookie :-)
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3.5 hours of sleep does crazy things to ones brain and by that I mean. Murderbot gender thoughts
#I need to sleep so I can actually DO THINGS tomorrow#[I typed some stuff here but I hated it and deleted it]#and also (like as an it/its user) its very refreshing to see a character who’s gender is just like. don’t care.#and have the lack of care be a tangible stated thing#like its definitely GOOD to have books with trans/non-binary charactwrs where gender is discussed more explicitly#but they always just make me feel vaguely uncomfortable lmao??#so it is nice to have a character who is STATED in the text not to have a gender#but to not have it be a whole big elaborated upon beating dead horse gender discussion#it doesn’t care. that’s it. it uses these pronouns because it does not feel any connection to human gender and doesn’t WANT to#I’m definitely not analyzing this as deeply or as well as other people can for many reasons (one being. I am on 3.4 hours of sleep at 1am)#but just as a genderless person it feels very natural and comfortable to read#it’s the sort of thing where yes if it got discussed more plainly in text then maybe it wouldn’t get misgendered#but 1) it is already so obvious and 2) it won’t even talk about it’s FEELINGS#it explicitly says it doesn’t care about gender at ALL. in what world is MB going to have an in-depth talk about it’s identity like that#also idk I think it’s interesting to have it humanized in ways other than ‘we gave it human gender’ you know. feels like a cop out.#have it fuck up big time like an actual person
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saying I ship them is not enough, I need to carefully and intricately explain exactly how their dynamic works and what they mean to each other and how they rely on the other in a detailed fashion that encapsulates exactly how their relationship effects me as a person. I need to put their relationship in a way that is more than just ‘I think they should kiss’ because kissing is gross and I think they should fight each other and fight for each other instead as an act of love. And because there’s so many ways to love, defining it through only a small selection of actions does it no justice. I need to explain the ways they care for the other, especially the parts that are never spoken. The intricacies of love as a concept that aren’t bound to a simple romance will be spilled once I get my damn hands on it
#crow thoughts#this can be applied to like. three different things ships of mine lmao#man you’d think as a loveless aro with no intention of getting into a relationship of any kind#you think I’d probably be hating this but no. sorry I am obsessed with pushing the bounds of what love is#love is such an intricate concept that is expressed in so many ways and has so many different views#I will forever hate the people that simplified and dumbed it down to a specific platonic or romantic man fuck that for real#it’s exactly how I feel with the concept of gender; a wide concept with an array of options simplified down to control a medium#I don’t get love and I never will and I fully accept that#but dammit I will not sit here and let others define what it means to me. im too tired for that and too stubborn to comply anymore#romance is dead and I will be it’s killer
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#AUIAGAHAIVDKFJFHDNSKXJ#sorry#don’t mind me#on tonight’s edition of i don’t have a diary so i’m using tumblr tags#I JUST. HMMMMMM.#sorry for the second day in a row lmao. at least today we got a fun fresh funky gender crisis instead of sexuality.#i’m literally about to leave for college where nobody knows me and it’s not like i was out to lot of people here but. idk#and whatever tf is going on w my gender has never even been spoken aloud lol#from like being kiiiiiiind of a little bit out here#which is. nothing bad has happened. nobody cares. it’s just my friends.#but goddamn#literally i keep coming to the conclusion that i. don’t want people to know. and i feel bad#not even as like a safety thing. or even#i don’t even know#there’s something in me that is so so so so scared#and i just. don’t want it to be something people know about me#but not even as like#UUUUUGGHHHHGGGH#i hate words#i don’t feel bad about it being a part of me. i just#i want it to stay like. with me. which doesn’t even fucking make sense#bc all i do is agonize in the middle of the night. it’s not even like. pride. just sheer#i don’t know#wow ok. goodnight i guess i was not expecting to think abt that tonight holy shit#i literally couldn’t even say it in this whole wall of fucking text wtf is wrong with me lmao.#ok 👍 cool 👍#night
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it sucks so bad to see intelligent women talk about transmisogyny
#it's kind of peak alienation#transphobia is very understandable even though they'd call me transphobic i think it's a concept that makes sense#but transmisogyny...oh my god. and when they have TME in their bio...fight back#like it's crazy how did they convince everyone they're the most oppressed minority on earth why doesn't everyone who isn't a black woman#have misogynoir exempt in their bio lmao#IT'S SO FUCKING STUPID AND I HATE IT#i've never had my pronouns in my bio but like i get that. TME/TMA is CRAZY#i thought we didn't like dichotomies that have to do with gender#wait i actually do have my pronouns in a link in my bio on tumblr but it's recent and i don't have them on twitter and that's what#i've used the most over the years (like 10 years)#ipost
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Genuinely mindboggling to see "x queer identity isn't oppressed" every six months for some new fucking group. I don't give a fuck about it they're all fucking queer and need support from a community that doesn't police them for having a confusing or complex identity. I think that some of you are like mentally puritan catholic schoolteachers masquerading as tumblrinas. Kill the cop in your brain or you're not welcome at pride either lol!
#I find the online queer community to be outright naseuating#like why is it soooo fucking hateful. why do you have beef with neopronouns or bisexual lesbians literally get over yourself.#I think it's also because the online queer community is largely white so there's just. no class analysis or intersectionality at all here#so white queers get stuck on the idea on being 'the only real oppressed queers'#but they are only comfortable with gender and sexuality if it fits within#outright Eurocentric ideals. but then I remember that like all of you are white and don't understand how race could intersect with gender#and I'm not trying to be ableist when I say reading a book about queer history would benefit a lot of you.#pick an audiobook or read in small burst if you need to but you need to understand queer history. you absolutely do I promise.#cause lots of you don't even mask lmao. do u know that COVID disproportionately kills queer people because we're less likely to have health#insurance and work menial essential jobs like food service?#like you need to protect your queer and trans siblings. it starts with you!
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